#🗡️ religious trauma

[hazbinfictivesofabiggersystem]

🗡️ The more I think about Vaggie unpacking her religious trauma the more I fucking need it.

Give me Vaggie dealing with the fact that everything she was taught to believe was a lie

Give me Vaggie getting called out for being puritanical and listening, leading to her starting to have a more open mindset

Give me Vaggie realizing that outside of Charlie, she doesn't know who she is anymore without heaven and the exorcists

Give me Vaggie realizing how much she misses her old family and world despite how toxic it was and feeling confused and out of place in this world despite getting away from her abusers

Give me Vaggie taking baby steps to figure out just who the hell she is now that no one is there to tell her who she has to be

Give me Vaggie talking to someone, anyone, maybe Carmilla, about just how deep it cut to be mutilated and left for dead by her sister, by someone she loved and trusted and looked up to, for hesitating to kill a child

Give me Vaggie showing that she's had to learn that heaven's black and white morality is wrong the hard way

Give me Vaggie being overwhelmed by how messy and grey all these conflicts are, how messy and grey humanity actually is

Give me Vaggie getting close to more sinners and realizing that nothing can really be judged by good vs bad because it is ALWAYS more complicated than that

Give me Vaggie dealing with the pain of being part of a system that caused so much harm, of directly causing so much harm herself to people who didn't deserve it

Give me Vaggie going back to the BDSM club after doing some of the work and actually having an open mind about it instead of automatically viewing it as repugnant

[chemicallywrit]

Audio Drama Sunday!!!

Again this is far from comprehensive because I am a feral podcast monster, but here’s what stuck out to me this week! Mostly spoiler-free, unless you count vibes as spoilers!

🗡️ Cry Havoc! Ask Questions Later managed to have a happy? Ending? Honestly the way it managed to be a hilarious historical sitcom with an ending that chilling was MASTERFUL. Great job writers, y’all are fantastic. It is obviously not absolutely true to what we know about Roman history, but it is true to the spirit of it in a way that’s really satisfying for me personally.

🦀 @thesiltverses oh MAN. The way this story says again and again that you cannot earn your way out of being trampled by a system that doesn’t care about you hits every. Single. Time. And what are you going to do, try to remake that system? There are always going to be people who can’t handle that and fight against you, to their own detriment. This story is fantastical and exaggerated, but it’s always so real at the same time.

👁️ @hellofromthehallowoods is trying to kill me, straight up. I have no idea what Halloween will bring for this show and i’m dying. It’s very difficult to predict storylines on Hallowoods and that’s something I love about it. Will this pair break up? Will this pair die for their cause? Will this pair find each other again, even through death? Shoutout to the great guests this episode, I always enjoy seeing who Mx Wellman invites into the world.

🔎 @knovesstorytelling okay look, y’all, I have never read Northanger Abbey, so I don’t know why Kit’s being told to pack her bags and get out, and I am so UPSET. What’s going on????

📉 Within the Wires is back!! And my WORD, the juxtaposition of this season being motivational tapes while listening to the current season of The Dream about life coaches?? I am transfixed and horrified, let’s GO.

🎟️ @longcatmedia Mockery Manor. I love these clowns so much. I love that Bette is really smart and really dumb at the same time. Everyone’s acting is top notch, but I’m especially a fan of Karim Kronfli in this show. Everyone knows he’s got the range, but it’s so fun listening to him be this fussy little guy.

👻 One of the shows I’ve been catching up on is Ghosts in the Burbs, a deceptively spooky and delightfully witty single-narrator ghost show. I’m listening through the Lilith arc and….woof. WOOF. I know how it ends and it’s still terrifying.

🩸 IT’S HEMOPHOBIA DAY, omg, everyone please check out Hemophobia, I am so excited for Hemophobia. It’s sitting in my queue staring at me with that creepy-ass logo art. I’ve talked with CSW about this show and heard the trailer—religious trauma horror with amazing sound design and an amazing cast??? You kidding???? I am drooling over here. Join me, won’t you?

🧟‍♀️ This week is also the premier of The Dead! As soon as that feed appears I’ll be putting it everywhere, and I’m so excited to show everyone the first series. You’ve heard of snakes on a plane….

💐 On my end, as Re: Dracula continues its march to the finale, this week I find myself recording Inn Between and The Dead. I am still trying to make rent ahead of my new job’s first paycheck, so if you liked this post or the other things I do, would you consider sending me a ko-fi?

Now if you’ll excuse me, I will be listening to Hemophobia very quietly and very scared by myself in the dark. Until next week!

[cinnamongorll]

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✧˖° hey! 🕯️

✧˖° I'm 24 & I love haunted houses, reading books, making playlists, and painting 🤍

✧˖° I have a degree in english lit but I've only been writing for about a year & I'm currently exclusively writing Joel Miller fics 🥀

✧˖° Sometimes life gets a little crazy & my updates can be slow but I try my best to keep them regular! 🗡️

✧˖° you can also find me on ao3!

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a fragile line - completed

Pairing: Joel Miller x Female OC Fic synopsis: three years ago, Juliet escaped her father's religious survivor camp, ending up in the Boston QZ. Juliet created a life for herself in Boston, desperate to forget the trauma of her upbringing. One day, Juliet arrives home to find a mysterious letter which forces her to return to her home town. Juliet can't travel the harsh post-apocalyptic landscape alone, so she enlists the help of the grumpy and, at times, frightening man she works alongside: Joel Miller. Tags: extreme slow burn, age gap, older man/younger woman, protective joel, jealous joel, hurt/comfort, pov third person, mutual pining, angst, sexual tension, friends to lovers, canon-typical violence, feral joel, parental abuse, eventual smut. Word count: 179k (completed)

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wildflower - ongoing

Pairing: Joel Miller x Female OC Synopsis: Joel Miller is an infuriating constant in Alex’s life. As her dad’s best friend and smuggling partner, she can’t seem to avoid him no matter how hard she tries.  When a weapons trade off goes wrong and Alex becomes the next target in a dangerous revenge vendetta, Joel is forced to uphold the promise he made to his friend to protect his daughter from the dangers of the post-apocalyptic world. But when Alex and Joel reluctantly grow closer, and she starts to peel back the layers of animosity between them, Alex realises that nothing is what it seems and that trusting Joel might be more dangerous than anything outside the QZ walls. Series tags: dbf!Joel, age gap (Joel is late 49, FMC is 26), older man/younger woman, slow burn, enemies to lovers, mean Joel, protective Joel, dark Joel, sexual tension, smut, mutual pining, feral Joel, first person, angst, more tags to be added, ultraviolence Joel. Word count: 18k (ongoing)

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[interstellar-cluster]

Intro!!

Hi! We’re the Interstellar Cluster, or Intersys for short. We’re a plural, openly trauma-endogenic system of 100+ headmates.

We have almost equal numbers of fictives and brain-made headmates, and we are very much masc-heavy and a lot of us use neopronouns.

Host + frequent fronters, DNI, BYI, userboxes and links/socials below the cut.

Host:

Oscar ; he/they [ xe ] ; 🕸️🎧 sign-off

Frequent Fronters:

Cibris ; he/him ; 🌔⭐️ sign-off

Idaho ; she/it/sun ; 🔆🎨

Simon ; he/him ; 💀🔪 sign-off

Logan ; he/him ; 🐺🗡️ sign-off

Miguel ; he/him ; 🕷️🕸️ sign-off

Jimmy ; he/him ; (no sign off yet)

Curly ; he/him ; (no sign off yet)

DNI:

- Racists, ableists, sexists, radfems, bigots

- Homophobes, transphobes, xenophobes

- Transmeds, terf, exclusionists

- Anti-endos, sysmeds, people who take part in syscourse

- Posters/participators in cringe culture (like the FakeDisorderCringe subreddit or the SystemsCringe subreddit)

- P*dophiles, sexualises minors

- Anti-semitics

- Anti-furries, anti-therians, anti-alterhumans

- Fakeclaimers, anti-informed self-dx, disorder gatekeepers

- Religious extremists, pro-life (anti-abortion)

- Also DNI if you support these things as well

BYI:

- Do not bring syscourse to our page. Do not harass us. Do not DM us with hateful comments. We block freely and we don’t give warnings or second chances

- Some of us require tonetags, when posting the poster will add after their sign-off if they’d like for you to use tonetags when talking to them

- We are pro all types of systems. This is a totally safe space for anyone. Traumagenic systems, endogenic systems, soulbond systems, tulpa systems, etc etc. We don’t discriminate!

pronouns.cc // simply plural : InterstellarCluster // tiktok : intersys_ syscource + plural code // therian blog

[ask-lute]

Since heaven is, well, heaven, does everyone have to dress up and attend church on Sundays?

No, actually church isn't a requirement at all, but it is optional. Making it mandatory wouldn't be paradise for people with religious trauma.-🗡️

[prinzburnedmoved]

📿 for a faith-themed headcanon ; 🗡 for a weapon-themed headcanon ; ✂️ for a hair-themed headcanon // <3

📿 : so tbh we need to come up with the religious part of aztaria, BUT what I can say is that ruven is just not a fan of religion in general. like to him it feels limiting & indoctrinating & he despises pretty much everything that‘s supposed to limit free thinking (in his opinion). personally ruven does still believe in a higher power, but not a fixed one.

🗡️ : as part of his military education, ruven has been trained with both sword & pistol. he hates using weapons though, as it brings back the trauma of his childhood, of being forced to exercise in the rain & being woken by loud bangs in the middle of the night for lessons. if necessary, he would choose a pistol over the sword for the sake of practicality.

✂️: so in my mind his hair really reflects his inner life. for the most part it’s kept pretty short and neat, both practical and elegant, as expected of him as a prince. if it’s less well kept & tousled that‘s a good indicator for a depressive episode & him just not caring about the appearance. post fae-realm & with living mostly in the countyside, his hair too becomes more wild and untamed. ruven lets it grow out considerably & he actually has the curly hair of his mother, but you hardly saw that before.

[wyvernheartedink]

Hi, my name's Claymore 🗡️

I'm a non-binary artist and writer who's looking to create art from experiences in my life with religious trauma through dark fantasy. I'm about to republish my first comic as I wanted to revitalize the artwork, and have been working on a spin off comic as well. I also currently have a novel and a TTRPG in the works, so there's a lot going on. If you're interested in seeing more of my content, feel free to stick around and follow!

[grief-chapter]

obligatory intro post even tho ive been on this hellsite for like 5 years now lol

im so awful at posting shit online lmfao

hi there !! im malw4r3, tho i'll likely be rebranding (again) soon, so we'll see how long this post lasts lol. i'm part of a pdid system of a metric fuck ton, so this post will be an intro to us collectively and also have some specific alter intros for people who may post here.

this is my main blog, but i use it for primarily spam reblogging random things i find funny whenever i once in a blue moon open up tumblr. im 15 years old as of this post and i turn 16 in october.

as you may be able to guess i'm autistic, and probably also have adhd alongside that. i have several special interests and my hyperfixations tend to fluctuate very quickly. i also have rlly bad anxiety & im pretty forgetful so i tend to not post online very much, if at all.

ok, now onto specific alter intros !!

Alyssa: she/they | co-host, persecutor, & more | 15-19 | proxy: 🌙

probably going to be one of the most active alters on this account. likes grunge, alt rock, and alt indie music. also likes to skateboard, and wants to learn how to play bass. a fan of gothic literature and modern goth fashion. wants to be a singer/songwriter/writer in general. uses the heart hands emoji religiously 🫶🫶

Isaac: he/him | host, trauma holder, & more | 15 | proxy: 🗡️

doesn't like posting online much, but has constant motor control of the body, so he's the one typing out the shit other people are saying.

i think for now thats all, if anyone else wants to make their own intro posts they'll either add to this one or do it seperately lol. anyways, bye!! :)) <33

Theseus: he/him | hyperfix holder & moodbooster | 17 | proxy: 🧭

dsmp superhero au spin/hyperfix holder, has his own au he works on while he fronts. a silly little guy honestly. probably will be reblogging dsmp stuff, likely stuff abt tinaaos, or posting things abt his own work in progress fic (its called "a knife in a wound is not a suture")

Tommy / Icarus: he/him but he doesnt rlly care | hyperfix holder & trauma holder | 17 | proxy: ❌️

also dsmp superhero au spin/hyperfix holder. loves to read fanfic more than write it, but also just likes to talk to people. pretty talkative and chatty, will probably post a bunch.

[saintimonious]

Sanctimonious /săngk″tə-mō′nē-əs/ Possessing sanctimony; holy; sacred; saintly.

. ABOUT ME .

I am Saint. I am a biblically accurate Archangel. Use any pronouns for me.

My form is never the same but my holiness remains unchanged.

My age does not exist.

I am a religious and parental trauma holder in a CDD system.

. TAGS .

🕯️; holy body appearance

🧿; be not afraid the sick to your stomach that comforts you

🪽; holier than thou religious imagery

🪞; a sight to behold non-religious imagery

🗝️; lest we forget reminders/helpful

🗡️; sacrificial lamb religious trauma vents

🌪️; the unknown anonymous

🛡️; blessed are the peacemakers alters / system stuff

📜; scriptures text posts

[noahhawthorneauthor]

“For someone who loves Him so much, you talk an awful lot about yourself too there, priest. And which is it, a beautiful soul, or a filthy beast?”

🐾🏳️‍⚧️🗡️📚

Religious Trauma? ✔️

Trans Rage? ✔️

Eating the Rich? (Literally) ✔️

Mutant Shifters? ✔️

This book is wild, held together by pack, and full of angsty love. It comes out Friday, and the paperback is already available on Amazon.

Books2Read

Art by @gagakumadraws

[readbyred]

Masterlist

🗡️ Heroes of Olympus/Percy Jackson

💗hoo!girls x child of hades!reader

🔮 someone assuming you're dating octavian

🧿 someone assuming you're dating alabaster

🌩️ someone assuming you’re dating jason

🛡️someone assuming you’re dating reyna

🏝️ Total Drama

🏆Priya: asking for crush advice

🏆priya talking about her crush

🥤zee: asking for crush advice

💀scary girl: asking for crush advice

🍕chase: asking for crush advice

🍕chase x reader playlist (special)

🗯️ripper: asking for crush advice

🗯️ripper x calm!mute!fem!reader

🗯️ripper talking about his crush

🗯ripper x fem!gamer!asshole/crude!reader

🧪damien talking about his crush

📝millie talking about her crush

❤️‍🩹emma talking about her crush

👑bowie talking about his crush

🧟‍♀️axel asking for crush advice

📲julia x female!reader

🎨gwen x nonbinary!introvert!goth/punk!artist!reader

🌃 Starkid

👔 paul x male!reader

👔 paul x gn!musical fan!reader

👔 paul x male!craft store owner!reader

👔paul x selfharming!reader

cooking for you: CCRP employees x gn!reader

🕰️ ted x cat parent!reader

🕰️ hurt-comfort: ted x gn!reader

🍏 red string au: wilbur x reader

💫 The owl house

💗 toh girls x self harm!reader

✨ luz’s and reader’s first kiss

💥 edric x plus size!reader [jealousy]

🪞 religious trauma: gus x masc!reader

🔮 darius x gn!blight!reader

🎼 raine x tiger hybrid!reader

🐺 hunter x previously abused!reader

🐺 hunter and best friend!healing coven!reader

🐺 hunter x nb!reader

🐺 hunter x shy!fem!human!reader

🐺 protective/jealous!hunter x shy!fem!human!reader

🐺 yandere!hunter x shy!fem!human!reader

🐺 confession: hunter x nb!reader

🐺 cuddling: hunter x shy!fem!human!reader

🐺 religious trauma: hunter x masc!reader

🐺 grief comfort: hunter x reader

🐺 surprise kisses: hunter x shy!fem!human!reader

🐺 first kiss: hunter x reader

🌔 Tangled the series

🧪 varian x fem!nilou!reader

🧪 varian x fem!reader [helping in lab]

🧪 varian x male!cass’s bestie!reader

🧪 varian x witch!reader

🧪 varian x smitten!fem!reader

🧪 varian x masc!musician!reader

🧪varian date hcs

🧪 winter oneshot: varian x fem!reader

🦉 cassandra x fem!reader

🌞modern au!rapunzel x reader

💕everyone x sick!reader

🕸️ Wednesday

🤺 wednesday x gn!angry!reader

🤺 wednesday cuddles

🎀 enid cuddles

💎 bianca cuddles

☕️ tyler cuddles

🌿 Moomins

moomin characters x traveler!gn!reader

🍃 snufkin x gn!reader cuddling

🍃 snufkin x feral!reader

🍃snufkin x human!female!reader

💍 snorkmaiden x feral!reader

💍snorkmaiden x human!female!reader

🐾 sniff x feral!reader

🐾sniff x human!female!reader

☁️moomin x human!female!reader

🍄little my x human!female!reader

📘snork x human!female!reader

🌪️stinky x human!female!reader

🎈IT

[in progress...]

📝 Dear Evan Hansen

jared x gn!reader

coming out: jared x nonbinary!reader

makeup: jared x gn!s/o

break up: jared x gn!reader

summer camp: jared x gn!reader

🕯️ Encanto

🦋 madrigals and mirabel’s s/o

🐦‍⬛ Six of Crows

🪙 dates with kaz (sleepover special)

📻 Dead Poets Society

💗 Dead poets having strong feelings for a shy!reader

🎷charlie x shy!neurodivergent!reader

🎷being friends with charlie [moodboard]

🎷college!pining!charlie x college!pining!fem!reader

📻meeks x energetic!fem!reader

[plutodotpng]

DnD CHARACTERS TIME WHOOOOOO since i'm obsessed with creating funky gay magical people, and have about 20 character ideas, over the past few months i've been drawing a few of them in between my usual fanart :) if you wanna know more i'm leaving some info below ;D

these six nerds are the most developed characters i have so far, and i've only gotten to play Thessa and Valax a little before becoming my party's DM. but here they are!!

🗡️🌊 Leonard, tiefling swashbuckler rogue Ah, this fucker. He's a pirate, he's horrible, he's a tease and he only cares about himself and making gold. No horribly depressed backstory except for like, class struggle and being an orphan, he's sure to make a show everywhere he goes. With a rapier and a dagger always by his side, getting himself into trouble is always at the top of his list. At least they're entertaining and fun to be around, and being enticing sure helps draw attention away from the pickpocketing every here and there.

⚔️🛡️ Thessalya, human battle master fighter Ok ok I'm guilty of giving her way more trauma than I should have, but I love making characters go through fucked up shit and still end up being kind. That's her. Her parents abandoned her while their village was attacked and destroyed, was then captured by some shitty army. Almost died a few times from failed escape attempts, all while she was eight, but eventually she was able to run away! And thank the gods, some good knights took her in and helped her! Now she was two cool dads that taught her how to fight (and sing a little) and she loves studying history and philosophy. She's seen a lot of evil in the world so she hopes she can be strong enough to protect those who need help every now and again.

🌲🌒 Valax Roseshade, wood elf, gloom stalker ranger He's sad. He's a forest hobo. He was literally raised by wolves. He's 300 years old and tired. He smells like grass and fungi all the time. He doesn't talk about his religious trauma. He doesn't talk much in general. Still, he's a deadly shot and a good addition to a party who needs help getting around any large terrain with trees. Always looking to keep the balance between nature and civilization, hunting undead evils and shit. Yeah.

🐺🔥 Navah, human barbarian, path of the beast (possible blood hunter multiclass) Navah also suffers a bad case of parents are dead (and lycanthropy, lol), but she channels her emotions in a very different way. She has a giant axe, she's hairy, she's loud, she likes taking up space and occasionally turns into a wolf. She controls her anger, the part of her which knows she deserves better, to help folk with some extra muscle, even forging her own badass weapons (as long as there's no silver involved).

🎶🎭 Asra, moon elf, college of lore bard The Veiled Siren, as most know her by her stage name, is but a simple bard traveling from town to town. They've been on the road for many years, and home is every place where she makes friends. With a complicated past, they've managed to leave everything behind and start anew, and are enjoying the simple things in life while on a quest to inspire confidence in those who struggle with believing in themselves.

🔫✨ Elphi, tiefling gunslinger fighter/order of scribes wizard Wizard with a gun my beloved. She's smart and skilled but visibly struggles holding conversations with anyone that's not a magical talking book. I don't know who gives a kid a gun, but thankfully whoever that was taught her proper safety. Well, whoever that was, no way they're crazier than the nerdy archivist that took her in and offered his library/home for the energetic pink little demon. She's read many books about wonderful and dangerous adventures and is looking forward to write her own!

>>> i love getting asks about anything so if there's any more fun info you're curios about, don't hesitate to drop by <33

[ask-lute]

What if The Rapture happens? What is an Exorcist's role in it?

The rapture won't happen, that doesn't come from us, the people on Earth made that to scare you.-🗡️

((OOC Haha my religious trauma and deconstruction is showing.-💜))