#🕸️ : venting

[reveregret]

sorry for trying to kill myself when you talked to someone else, do you still think i'm cute?

[webbedthorns]

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[borderline-culture-is]

(Vent)

BPD culture is one day being so depressed and empty, all your hopes and desires are gone. There's no point of living, you're always going to be broken.

And then one day being the happiest person ever, you're buzzing with so much joy. Life just couldn't get any better!

It's a constant cycle.

(can I be -🦋🕸 anon?)

Sure thing!

[sams-candles]

I am so disconnected from the idea of being human it makes me so tired to hear people call me it.

I’m NOT human. I never will be. I am not even alive. The body I’m stuck in may be those things but I. AM. NOT.

I’m a ghost. I’m undead. I’m stuck inside a body that’s not my own. I’M NOT HUMAN.

If only everyone could see. I wish they could. I wish they could see that I’m not this body. I wish I was myself again. I just want to be seen as undead, like I’m supposed to be.

It’s not fair.

[eroguro-angel]

I just want you to feel the way I do. Love me the same way. I wouldn’t be insane, then. You’d understand

[somepoetwannabe]

It's fucked up how I'm the only one they didn't care enough to try fix things with. Like, I know I'm not, but I have a bit of a "I'm the core" type mentality and like, the fact they apologised and tried to do better for what I see as my alters but not me is shitty. Like. I'm not even a bad person. I didn't even do anything wrong. I'm too excited to text them and it annoys them? I'm too energetic? Like. Bro just hates seeing me happy. I never did anything wrong, they just didn't like my vibes like. Damn

It's selfish but like, it's hard to not just block them. Like. It isn't fair that my headmates get to be liked by them and I don't. They should be my friend too. If you're gonna claim to be a collective friend then you should fucking like me too. I mean, I know I'm annoying. But if you can't put up with all of us then just fucking leave? Don't be friends with a system? It just sucks to feel so outcasted from not only them but my own system too. They're a "collective" friend, which includes everyone but me. I never did anything wrong. There are alters in my system who have done downright bad things, they've been horrible to people, and even they're included in this label of "collective". I'm the one they chose to exclude. I'm the one who is too much. I'm the one they can't try to get along with. All I did was like, use too many emojis?

It's hard because I want to move on. I can't forgive them no matter how hard I try, they've hurt me so much now. I want to just move on and forget they were ever someone I cared about. I want to leave them behind but I can't. I'm not host anymore, I don't get to make that decision. I can't block them. I hate it so much I avoided fronting for like, half a year or something. I'm never the best at being smart and good and moving on and being reasonable, and now that I've got to a point where I want to be, I fucking can't because it isn't my choose. I can't just block them and move on. I'm stuck here. I'm stuck being told I need to forget what they did, I need to forgive them. After everything they did to me, I'm the one who's expected to fix things. I'm the one expected to just get over it

They're supposed to be my friend too. They're supposed to like me too. They're supposed to care about me too. But they don't. They bad mouth me to the host and treat how hurt I am over their actions as an annoyance. Like I'm just some inconvenient alter they have to put up with. All I want is a real apology and some understanding, but they're always ridiculing me in my anger and encouraging my depression. I think they just hate me being happy, because when I'm happy I'm energetic and they fucking me being a little more than dry because it annoys them

I don't know. I just wish they'd stop being such asses and making this about them. Yeah I'm fucking hurt by you, you don't get to treat me like an annoyance because of it. I'm not annoying because I make you feel guilty, that's your fucking fault? Maybe you shouldn't have hurt me? It's just so self centered

[spidersins]

*me, physically twitching as i make consent forms, participation information sheets, submit my advanced vetting for my job again bc they lost the file, having to do 40 hours of online training bc it has to be done by the new year && catching up on lectures i'm missing because my illness has flared up*: I JUST WANT TO WRITE THE GAY SPOODER

[thejadeofc]

"No strong feelings" actually all of my feelings are strong and I'm very weak because of it

[solitaireships]

📝❤️💌 -- violetsareblue-selfships

Gonna mix things up a little bit and go with Piera for these! Mainly bcs she's my most developed self insert lol

📝: How would your story in canon go? How would you influence the events of the original story?

I'm not too big on getting very canon divergent with my self inserts, but Piera would have been a superhero for a number of years before being approached by Miguel about joining the 🕷️ Society. She's one of the members of the society that was approached earliest on. I don't think that she would influence the events of everything that happened much Miguel and I get along bcs I also love canon events lol, but I do think she would ultimately end up disagreeing with him about the handling of things with Miles and the whole theory that there's a certain way to be a spider person. So they can have a drama arc in there with her deciding to try to help Miles instead

❤️: How popular is you x your f/o? Are you a rarepair?

Just given the sheer mass of ships with Miguel in general (both in terms of people being attracted to him and doing x reader content for him, people shipping him with canon characters, and so on), I don't know that it would be a rarepair but I do feel like it wouldn't be a super popular ship. Like average popularity

💌: How would your dynamic be portrayed? What might people focus on most? Any misconceptions?

Oh boy. Well, first up is the racism would be there hard. Both in terms of how Miguel is often portrayed by the movie fans and by people either ignoring that Piera's part Korean and that's important to her or turning that into some kind of fetishization thing. And all of that will kind of coalesce into some very weird and gross relationship dynamics that people would create between the two of them (despite that not at all being the actual case between them)

Add onto that that Piera would likely get hit by the fanon treatment of women in relationships with men thing where their whole personality is their love interest thing. People would play up her not really getting futuristic tech as much, and use that as a way to make her more dependent on Miguel and act like she's clueless and innocent in general the way people would try to make her more submissive would be a nightmare on like every level. You'd get some people actually realizing that their dynamic is built around them regarding each other as equals, but a lot of people would also force them into the whole loser boyfriend and personality-less girlboss gf thing

Then there'd probably be the classic fandom moment of ignoring anything going on between them. There'd be a solid mix between "actually Piera's awful and sucks bcs (insert minor thing here), so she doesn't deserve Miguel" and "Piera deserves better than Miguel. So we're going to ignore her until the time comes for her to be the supportive third wheel for this other ship"

Basically it would be very bad for her and a lot of people would just not understand her or her dynamic with Miguel at all

[reveregret]

if i can't spend every possible moment with you, then what's the point?

[webbedthorns]

it’s 4:40 am I cannot sleep uhm. I already looked at the tree and I think my brother got more again ..

[phantomsmoon]

vent no TW

holy shit feelings of doubt nvm guys gonna go hide agin

[skelecatzz]

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[eroguro-angel]

everything feels so empty. I am so alone. There is nothing poetic about it, there is no fancy words I can string together; I am just cold and alone.

[somepoetwannabe]

I don't know I just wish I could express someone hurt me without them making my headmates feel guilty for me existing

You say you want to do everything to fix this but all you've done is use our triggers against us?