#⦿ I couldn't live without you ⦿ Married Verse

[gureumz]

stained glass windows

rating: explicit

member: jungwon

notes: fem!reader, stepcest, dubcon, religious corruption, baby trapping (?), unholy use of scripture (sorry god), dom!jungwon, slight angst, mentions of death, step brother!jungwon, breeding, fingering, dirty talk, unprotected sex, jay has a cameo appearance lol

a/n: so this is an amalgamation of everything everyone requested for jungwon,,,reciting bible verses during sex? i got you. stepcest? no problem. baby trapping (this is 100% what i want and yes my wish is my command)? you bet. religious corruption? hell yeah. something super filthy and kinky? say no more. enjoy, hoes! love ya mwa (the bible verse here is 1 Corinthians 10:13 if you were curious)

sundays are your happy days.

a pretty dress, the stained glass windows, hushed chatter among the churchgoers—these were all the things you waited for at the end of the week.

your mother had always been proud of how involved you are in your faith, showering you with loving words before going to bed when you were little, calling you 'hers and God's favorite angel'. you'd smile and feel a sense of giddiness. God's favorite angel. can you believe it? you made sure to wear that as a badge of honor.

and then you grew up, went to a bigger school, met people who are different from you. even those who you knew were like you, devoted and obedient to their parents and God, seemed to have strayed down the path of parties, drinks, and the unthinkable. that is to say, premarital sex.

you never understood the appeal of it all. your faith and God were enough. you didn't need to participate in such acts to feel anything. you felt Him in every waking moment.

until there came a time when you were convinced He was gone altogether.

until sundays stopped becoming your happy days. every single day was void of any happiness.

your father passed suddenly, leaving you and your mother to fend for yourselves. you watched your mother grieve, grieved on your own, alone in your room. you went to school and saw the excitement in your peers' eyes, talking about a party here and buying drinks there.

you nearly caved. anything to take your mind off your dad.

but this was when your mother spent nearly every day at the church, despite it being mostly empty every day other than sundays. without anything better to do, you tagged along. and you started to feel Him again.

you knew God returned for real when your mother became friendly with a newcomer at church. a businessman who recently moved to your town, towing his son along.

mr. yang, as you later learned. he had a son.

jungwon.

jungwon wore an easy smile, deep dimples appearing every time he did. he shook your hand with a hesitant grip, palms smooth and soft. he had eyes that seemed to sparkle.

seasons changed, months grew into years, and your mother and mr. yang got married.

you saw the life return to your mother's face, easing her shoulders back, smoothing out the creases in her weathered face.

sundays became your happy days again, now that mr. yang and jungwon were in your lives.

---

jungwon is the poster child for the perfect sibling. or, at least that's what you think.

it's been a couple of years since your parents' wedding, and jungwon was nothing short of accommodating. he was kind, always letting you have first picks at whatever food your parents prepared, and offered to do things for you.

granted, it wasn't always like this. the two of you skirted around each other the first few weeks, both former only children, suddenly dealt with the fact that they had a sibling exactly their age. there was even a period of time when jungwon would bolt at the sight of you. though, you tried to not take this to heart.

but after all has been said and done, the two of you fell into a routine, becoming friends of some sort. eternal housemates.

"hurry up. this will be the second week we're late because you couldn't decide what dress to wear."

you turn, spotting jungwon poking his head through the door.

"sorry," you reply bashfully. "these people don't see me on weekdays anymore since i'm off at campus, so you can't really blame me for wanting to make an entrance on the one day they do see me."

jungwon quirks an eyebrow.

"since when did you care what they think?" jungwon questions, stepping fully into your room. he's wearing a dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows and crisp black pants.

you note that the watch he has on today makes him look particularly handsome.

you merely shrug. "i don't know. everyone at college dresses so nice and i thought i'd make an effort, too."

jungwon snorts. "everyone at college is a try-hard. it's a small-town liberal arts institution."

"hey, you're a student there, too," you point out, crossing your arms at jungwon.

you watch as he surveys your outfit, eyes slowly making your way down your body. you swallow, suddenly aware of how tight the yellow sundress feels. the fabric seems to dig at your armpits uncomfortably, and the hem is too short and—

"you look good," jungwon says, eyes meeting yours.

you breathe a sigh of relief.

"well, if you say so. i trust your word," you say, smoothing down your skirt.

you feel jungwon approach, circling an arm around your waist, ushering you towards the door.

"i am your brother. i think i'd know what would look good on you," jungwon points out with a wink.

---

the service goes by without a hitch. you participated as you always did, offered your prayers as you usually do. you thanked Him for another successful week of classes but also asking for you to ace your upcoming exams. it was all routine.

until your mother pulled you along, chirping excitedly about a new family that had moved to town and joined the church.

the parks.

a father, a mother, and their son who's a business major at some big-shot university a few towns over.

"i'm jay," the son said to you, reaching his hand towards you as his family introduced themselves to yours. you shook hands and you couldn't help the sudden heat that flooded your face and chest.

your hand still tingles with where he held on, even now on the car ride home

"that jay boy sure is cute," your mother says from the passenger seat. you turn to her, eyebrows raised.

"seems like he has a good head on his shoulders," your stepfather agrees. he looks at you through the rearview mirror.

"the kind of guy girls wanna marry."

you see your mother twist in her seat to give you a knowing look. you roll your eyes but the familiar warmth takes over your entire body again.

"i mean, i don't know. we just met him and his family," you point out, trying not to stutter. you turn to jungwon for backup but your brother has his back turned to you, his face angled toward the window.

"right, jungwon?" you try nonetheless.

"huh?" comes his clueless response. he looks at you and his face is crumpled in a frown. you're taken slightly aback.

before you can say anything, your mother speaks up.

"why don't you try and befriend him, jungwon? they said they only live on the next street over," your mother offers, unaware at how deep jungwon's frown has gotten in the seconds she said that sentence.

"i don't know," jungwon mumbles. "i can try, i guess."

you watch as jungwon turns back to the window, his hand balling into a fist on his lap. you decide not to pry, leaning your own head against the window beside you, watching the little houses in your neighborhood speed by.

---

you urge yourself to stop picking at your fingernails. but you can't help it, either. standing outside your brother's door, you're not sure what awaits you on the other side.

taking a deep breath, you decide to just get it over with. you're certain it's nothing. you're just concerned and you want to see how jungwon's doing.

you knock softly three times, waiting to hear jungwon's voice. after a few seconds, you hear a muffled, 'come in!'.

you push the door open a bit, taking a peek inside jungwon's room. he's sprawled on his bed, his phone in his hands as he scrolls through his screen. his eyes shift to you and he sits up.

"what's up?" jungwon asks as you let yourself in. you don't say anything until you're seated beside him on his bed.

"i didn't want to risk your wrath, so i wasn't sure if i should bring this up with you...," you begin, teeth worrying your lower lip.

jungwon raises a brow. "i don't know what you're talking about. but other than that, you know i can never get upset with you, right?"

you continue to bite down on your lip, unsure of what to say next.

"but you were upset today," you say after a few seconds. "in the car?"

jungwon's face morphs into mild recognition. he nods, finally understanding what you mean.

"oh, that," jungwon deadpans. "it's nothing."

"come on, you can tell me anything, remember?" you urge, pulling your legs up on jungwon's bed before crossing them. jungwon glances down as you do so but quickly averts his eyes back to your face.

"it's nothing, i swear. it's stupid and thinking back on it, it just seems like such a dumb thing to be mad about," jungwon explains, shifting closer to you.

you take his hand and you squeeze as jungwon threads his fingers through the gaps between yours.

your mother often remarked how the two of you seemed more like twins than regular siblings. mirror images of each other. the perfect balance. looking at jungwon now, you see what she meant.

"nothing you say would be stupid to me," you reply, voice soft as your thumb runs over the skin of jungwon's hand.

something flashes across jungwon's face and his eyes seem to trail over every part of you. your skin prickles as he stops right at your chest, pajama top showing the very tops of your breasts.

"i didn't like the way that jay guy was looking at you," jungwon finally admits, gaze returning to your face.

you look at jungwon quizzically. "what? how was he looking at me?"

"like he was undressing you with his eyes," jungwon complains. "he was practically flirting with you."

you laugh incredulously. "no, he wasn't. he said two words to me, wonie."

jungwon shakes his head. "i'm a man, too. i know how our brains and eyes work."

you stop for a second to ponder on jungwon's words. you can't deny the intensity of how jay seemed to be looking at you earlier and the way he held your hand so tight.

"so?" you retaliate. "he's cute. i don't mind."

you see jungwon's jaw clench, the muscles spasming under his skin. his lips press into a thin line and he pulls his hand back from your grasp.

"guys like that will only take advantage of you, _______," jungwon says, voice slow and deliberate.

your forehead creases. "how are you so sure?"

jungwon stares at you for a few moments. he reaches his hand out, cupping one side of your face in his palm. you gulp, your heart jumping at the contact.

"i just know. you trust me, right? i'm your brother, after all."

you nod.

your hand comes up to cover his that's on your face and the room seems to still. the steady hum of the ac fades away, the cicadas outside vanish, and the thumping of your own heart amplifies. jungwon is looking you square in the eye and you can't help but cower under his gaze.

just as jungwon makes a move to lean closer, a loud knock and your mother's voice rips the moment away.

"dinner's ready! come eat!"

jungwon pulls his hand back and you scramble off his bed. you hurriedly cross the room, flinging jungwon's bedroom door open and stepping out, not sparing another glance behind you.

---

you toss and turn that night.

your face still tingles from where jungwon touched you. your mind is reeling with so many thoughts, your imagination seemingly going into each and every unexplored direction.

you and jungwon grew close during the years you spent together since your parents got married. it was like becoming friends. you had to learn things about each other, know what makes the other tick. the two of you never shied away from showing who you truly are. you'd be living under the same roof for the most part, so what's the point in hiding, right?

and jungwon never hid his affection for you. brotherly hugs, encouraging pats on the back, kisses on your forehead. he told yu over and over again how happy he was that you were his sister. that you were the best sister.

and you never hid how much you needed jungwon, either. he taught you how to get home on the bus from college on the weekends. he helped you with any handiwork you required in your room. he gave you the ins and outs of the college cliques and clubs.

jungwon always told you he loves you. you always reached out to jungwon. neither was a secret.

so, what's making you so nervous?

before you can answer yourself, you hear the hinges of your door squeak as it opens. in the dim light of your room, you see a figure step through the doorway, startling you slightly.

"sorry, it's me," jungwon whispers. "i couldn't sleep."

you feel your heart quicken once more as you sit up, watching jungwon make his way to your bed. he plops down on the mattress and looks at you.

"mind if i crash here for a while?" jungwon asks quietly.

jungwon does this on some nights, reasoning the bouts of insomnia as he snuggles up to your side. half of the time he talks, telling you stories of what he did during the day, and the other half he spends holding you to his chest, fingers drawing patterns on your back.

on rare occasions, he asks you to turn away, pressing your back to his front. he sometimes rocks against you gently and whispers how much he loves you in your ear. you feel strange when he does this. but you never complain.

"sure," you reply, scooting to one side of the bed. jungwon moves to lay beside you, pulling the covers over him.

wordlessly, his hands find your hips, tugging you close. you let him, your own arms circling around jungwon's torso. he's warm and smells like fresh laundry. you don't hide the way you inhale his scent.

you stay like that for a few minutes and you almost think that jungwon has fallen asleep. but after a while, he pulls back slightly to look at you.

you meet his eyes, sharp shadows cast across jungwon's face from your night lamp situated on the other side of your room.

"stay away from jay," jungwon says. your mouth falls open in mild surprise.

"why?" you ask. jungwon sighs, cradling your face once more in his hand.

"he doesn't deserve you," jungwon responds, voice hardened with something you can't quite put your finger on.

jungwon's looking down at you and even in the darkened state of your room, you can see the seriousness in his expression. he's clearly still upset from earlier.

"but mom and dad seem to like him," you reason with a pout. jungwon lets out a 'tsk' grasping your face tighter.

you let out a whimper. jungwon was never this heavy-handed with you.

"but i don't like him," jungwon insists. "you need someone who knows you, who can do things for you, who loves you more than anything."

jungwon pushes you onto your back, his leg swinging over to plant his knee on your other side. he grabs at your wrists and presses them down, trapping you as he hovers over you, his face inches away from yours.

"you need me."

you gasp, unable to comprehend the words that had just left jungwon's mouth. you're given no time to work it out in your head because jungwon is kissing you, pressing his lips to yours. you protest, pushing against jungwon but he's too strong for you to fight back properly. he has you pinned down and there's nothing you can do.

"w-what are you doing?" you say as jungwon pulls away for a second. instead of answering, jungwon busies himself with your neck, nipping at your sensitive skin. you squirm and whine but jungwon doesn't let up.

"i love you," jungwon whispers in your ear.

you shiver.

"you love me, too, right?" jungwon questions as he looks at you. you blink away tears that have gathered in your eyes.

you're just so confused. what is he doing? what is happening?

"answer me, angel," jungwon urges gently. he leans down to kiss away at the tears streaming down the side of your face.

"i do," you return weakly.

"no no," jungwon tuts. "say it properly."

you sniffle as you feel more tears fill your eyes.

"i love you."

jungwon seems satisfied because he kisses you again, tongue running over the seam of your lips. you've never kissed anyone before and it feels so foreign, having jungwon's tongue licking into your mouth. but you follow what he does, parting your lips and moving your tongue with his.

jungwon groans, one of his hands letting go of your wrist to grab at your waist instead. he presses you to him and you feel something stiff against your thigh.

"you make me so hard, angel," jungwon groans. he grinds against your leg and you watch as his expression crumples into pleasure.

"t-this is wrong," you sob. "we're not supposed to do this."

and you do feel conflicted with it all. everything you've learned in church, everything you've read through His word, it all says that this is bad. that you should only lay with the man you love, the man you married.

oh, but you do love jungwon. you've loved him since the day you met him.

"do you want to stop?" jungwon asks, stilling above you. you continue to cry, your legs squeezing together as you feel wet heat pool in your underwear.

"God will forgive us, angel girl," jungwon coos, a hand dipping beneath your pajama top.

you mewl as you feel jungwon squeeze at one of your boobs.

"He knows how much we love each other, so he'll forgive us, don't you worry," jungwon reassures as he rolls your nipple between his fingers.

"then we'll make it up to Him with a cute little wedding at a faraway chapel," jungwon continues, his other hand tugging down your shorts and underwear.

you're breathing heavily now, head spinning as your whole body heats up. the ache between your legs grows stronger.

"then we'll have babies," jungwon says. "so many babies we'll be filling up our own pew at church."

you gasp as you feel jungwon's fingers press against your core, working on the nub that you've ever really encountered twice or thrice before, too scared to be condemned to hell if you continued to touch yourself.

"what if we have a baby now, huh?" jungwon asks, placing a chaste kiss to your temple. "make you a mommy so no one can take you from me."

you shake your head, initially appalled at his words, but the thought of carrying jungwon's child, it stirs something in you.

"no?" jungwon asks, voice hinting with playfulness. "you don't want it?"

you look up at jungwon, struggling to find the words to say. you want it but your conscience screams at you to refuse.

"i want it," you finally answer. "want to give you a baby."

"fuck," jungwon curses as the words leave your mouth. he hurriedly discards his shorts, eyes seemingly ablaze.

"yeah? gonna give your brother a baby?" jungwon taunts, fingers circling at your core again. you moan wantonly, a million different feelings coursing through your body.

jungwon pokes in one finger through your entrance and you nearly scream, unprepared for the strange sensation.

"sshhh," jungwon says, pressing down on your mouth with one hand. he adds a second finger in slowly and your back arches off the bed.

"look at you," jungwon says with a grin. "your body responds so well to me, huh, angel?"

you cry into jungwon's palm as you feel him pump his fingers in and out of you, curling them inside every time he pushes in. you feel a tightness in your belly and more wetness pooling out of you. your body jolts with every movement of jungwon's fingers.

"shit, i can't take this anymore," jungwon mutters, pulling his fingers out. you whine, hips involuntarily pushing up as they search for friction.

"i got you," jungwon says, taking his hand off your face. the room is filled with your soft sobs, a mix of the lingering guilt and the newfound pleasure.

jungwon strokes his shaft a few times and you watch with bated breath as he aligns himself between your legs. you feel him push against you and you start to cry even harder, fear of what's to come gripping you like no other.

jungwon pushes halfway in and any scream threatening to break free from your lips is muted by jungwon pressing his mouth to yours. you cry and cry and cry as jungwon keeps pushing in, burying himself to the hilt seconds later.

he stills, pulling away to let you breathe. you hiccup, the stretch between your legs equal parts painful and filling in the best way possible.

"s-so big," you sob. "c-can feel you in my belly."

jungwon groans, his hip snapping up involuntarily. you whine, biting down hard on your lip.

"yeah? can you feel me here?" jungwon asks, a large hand pressing down on your lower abdomen. he starts to move then, slowly pulling out then thrusting back in.

"yes!" you gasp. "yes, yes, it's so deep."

"God, angel, you sound so beautiful when you're being fucked," jungwon says, speeding up.

"recite to me your favorite bible verse," jungwon commands. you barely hear him with the way he's moving his hips against yours.

"w-what?" you mumble in a daze.

jungwon takes hold of your face, forcing you to look directly at him.

"your favorite bible verse, angel girl. let me hear your pretty voice."

you rack your brain for it. you should know it by heart, have it seared into your consciousness. but the way jungwon is taking you right at this moment wipes away nearly all thoughts of scripture.

"no temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man," you begin, trying to keep your voice steady as jungwon scrutinizes you, fingers still digging into your cheeks.

"God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability," you continue. jungwon smirks, nodding, urging you to go on.

you're about to speak when you feel jungwon's thumb press down on your sensitive nub. you cry out, the added sensation muddling your brain even further.

"go on," jungwon orders.

"b-but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to e-ndure it," you finish with a shaky breath.

"good job, angel," jungwon says, letting go of your face and leaning in to kiss you briefly on your forehead.

your head falls back against your pillow, your vision blurring as all you can feel is jungwon moving in and out of you. all you can think of is jungwon. all you ever need, right at this moment, is jungwon.

your brother. the man you love. the man you want to have all your babies with.

"so tight, so fucking tight," jungwon babbles, pushing your legs up so he can get a better angle. your lower half rises off the bed and jungwon fucks into you even harder, snapping his hips against your insides with a force that has you gripping onto your sheets for dear life.

jungwon continues on like this, sweat dripping down his forehead. any pain is gone now, replaced with a want, a need for some sort of release.

you don't know what compels you to talk, but you can't help the next words that come out of your mouth.

"p-please, jungwon. feels so good. w-wanna be a mommy, want it so bad. n-need it!"

jungwon seems to let himself go then, hips moving erratically, not caring if you're bent nearly in half, his grip on your thighs painful as his fingernails poke at your skin. it feels good, you think, your insides clenching and tingling at the sight of jungwon getting nearly animalistic with you.

it almost fills you with joy. knowing that he's only ever like this with you.

a few moments later, jungwon's hips start to stutter.

"gonna give you my babies, angel girl. i'm so close, so close to making you a mommy—fuck!"

the words from jungwon stop any coherent thought in your brain as a sort of euphoria takes over you, your whole body tightening up. jungwon completely stills, pressing himself in deeper. a warm feeling spreads from where he's sheathed inside you.

the two of you remain unmoving, panting as your minds catch up with your bodies. jungwon pulls out moments later, replacing his cock with his fingers. you protest weakly as jungwon moves his fingers shallowly in and out of you.

"i came so much, angel," jungwon says with a chuckle. he pulls his fingers out and shows you his fingers, coated with his milky white release.

"your belly's gonna be all swollen up in nine months, for sure," jungwon muses, pushing his fingers against your mouth. you part your lips hesitantly, licking at the saltiness.

"good girl," jungwon praises, pulling his hand away before kissing you sweetly.

"i love you," jungwon mumbles against your lips.

you hold his face steady, thumbs rubbing at his cheeks. you meld your lips together, the elation finally catching up to you.

there are no stained glass windows in your room, your body bare and void of pretty dresses, and the night is still and quiet.

it's still sunday. it's still your happy day.

"i love you, too," you say as you and jungwon share a smile.

[wangxianficfinder]

In The Mood For...

June 22nd

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1. Hi, i really like your blog, it is very helpful, i was wondering if you could find a wangxian fanfics that are completely fluff, just wangxian living their post-canon, domestic lives, as husbands. humor is preferred.

Thank you, if you have already replied to a request similar to mine, please just link that blog in the answer. @honestlyewww

As You Like It by cosmicmilktea (T, 8k, wangxian, post-canon, food as a metaphor for love, tea, light angst, fluff)

The (Several) Convenient Kidnappings of the Chief Cultivator by the Yiling Patriarch by misscam (M, 3k, WangXian, Humor, Spoilers, mush of series and novel, some adult action, Switching)

Wei Wuxian, God of Fertility by tired (T, 19k, WangXian, Family Feels, Crack Treated Seriously, Crack, the juniors get REAL drunk, Gossip, POV Multiple, surprisingly not an mpreg fic, Kissing, Self-Esteem Issues, Discussion of Porn and Sex, Post-Canon, SOFT SOFT SOFT, married wangxian, Fluff and Humor)

The Grandmaster of Demonic Reproduction by likeafox (E, 7k, WangXian, Kid Fic, not mpreg, but not-not mpreg?, Pregnancy Kink, Come play, LSZ deserves a sibling)

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2. Hi, I'm itmf Wei Ying with split personality (Preferably canon era) Thank you!

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3. For the next ITMF, I wanna see travelling with Li'l Apple! Gimme your fics that talk about our fave cantankerous donkey. @mreisse

Wearing Down Every Bone by CSHfic, VSfic (E, 30k, WangXian, Groundhog Day, Time Loop, Temporary Character Death, Hurt/Comfort, Post-Canon, Case Fic, Curses, Pining, Getting Together, Time Travel, Night Hunts, Hurt wwx, Mystery, Angst with a Happy Ending, Use Your Words, Mutual Pining, Depression and Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, gratuitous use of empathy)

lost my fear of falling by thefireplanet (E, 30k, WangXian, HuaLIan, Bodyswap, Wei "My Intrusive Thoughts Are Totally Not Winning" Wuxian, Hua "My Husband Said I Had to Help You" Cheng, YLLZ WWX, WWX-centric, WangXian-centric, Post-Canon, Canon-Typical Violence, Case Fic, Canon-Typical Wangxian Sex Things, One (1) Obscure War Movie Reference, mawage, Mawage is what brings us togeder tooday)

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4. ITMF where JYL and JWY reliazed that WWX is in danger if he stay in Lotus Pier. That threats can come from YZY or JFM or the cultivation world. Just that i want to read a fic where JYL and JWY try to protect WWX @idontknowwhattowriteforusername

🧡 To have and to hold by Moominmammashandbag (M, 78k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Major character injury, CQL verse, Happy Ending)

The Hate and Love of family by Moonlit_dewdrops (T, 20k, WangXian, WIP, Abuse, Near Death, Bad Parent YZY, YZY's A+ Parenting, Protective JC, Protective JYL, Recovery, Trauma, Protective LWJ, Twin Prides of Yunmeng Dynamics, Good Uncle LQR, Not YZY Friendly, Hurt WWX, Panic Attacks)

I Have Arranged to Tie You to Me by xxxMiaHikarixxx (G, 59k, WIP, WangXian, Lan protective team, Time Travel, Past, LWJ oriented, Arranged Marriage, Boys In Love, Soulmates, Fix-It, Jiang siblings, not jiang parents friendly, Soft LWJ, Protective LWJ, Genius WWX)

a life without sun by thankgodforpandas (T, 30k, WangXian, JC & LXC, JC & WWX, Canon Divergence, Everyone Lives, Mutual Pining) which is a bit different but features a protective Jiang Cheng who works to help Wei Wuxian find happiness.

What If..... Jiang Cheng Understood? by ToxicAngel13 (M, 66k, WIP, WangXian, Ribbons, Cloud Recesses Study Arc, WangXian Get Married in the Cold Springs Cave, Protective JC, Confused WWX, Angry LWJ, Fix-It of Sorts, Good Uncle LQR, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, POV LQR, YZY Bashing, POV JFM, Not JFM Friendly, Hurt/Comfort, Protective NHS)

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5. Hi!!! I couldn't find a tag for wwx with short hair, so I was wondering if anyone had any recs? I would prefer for it to not be a modern au tho, thank you!

Mud on Your Feet by AvoOwO (Not Rated, 59k, WangXian, JC & WWX, Nightmares, Sentient Burial Mounds, Burial Mounds, Possession, Panic Attacks, Night Terrors, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Good Sibling JC, Hurt WWX, Soft WangXian, Feels, Blood and Injury, Hallucinations, Delusions, JC Loves WWX, Insomnia, Good Sibling WWX, Sleepwalking, Sleeptalking, LWJ just wants to sleep with his husband, Protective JC, WWX Sees Dead People, LJY pulls through, POV LWJ, Cloud Recesses, PTSD, Post-Canon, YLLZ WWX, resentful energy, Fluff, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Thirteen Years of WWX's Death, WWX's Three Months in the Burial Mounds, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, WWX is tired, LWJ literally just wants to sleep with WWX again is that too much to ask for??, Soft JC, Yunmeng Siblings Feels) wwx gets short hair near the end

Cloudy Memories Recessed by FirefliesNLightningBugs (M, 7k, WIP, JC & JYL & WWX, Adopted Sibling Relationship, Sunshot Campaign, Good Person JZX, Good Sibling JC, Good Sibling JYL, Amnesia, (kind of), Weird Magic, Demonic Cultivation, post wwx disappearing during sunshot campaign, POV Alternating, POV JC, POV JYL, POV WWX) wwx short hair request, there is a ao3 wip called "cloudy memories recessed" by FirefliesNLightningBugs that's set during sunshot post-escape from bm and his hair is so damaged it had to be cut off

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6. Worlds most random in the mood for request… but is there any fic that features Transformers? The idea spawned in my brain and it’s haunting me. Autobots, Decepticons and Wangxian, I can’t be the first person to have thought of that. @cullen-blue23

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7. recs of wwx sad or crying bc of lwj, and lwj feels guilty? thanks for all your hard work!

Honesty is the Best Policy (Except if You’re an Asshole) by piecrust (E, 22k, WangXian, Porn with Feelings, College/University)

🔒 Life is Like a Stranger by through_shadows_falling (T, 69k, wangxian, Kid Fic, Child LWJ, Child WWX, First Meetings, Canon Divergence, Cute Kids, Orphan WWX, Autism Spectrum, Fix-It, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Alternate Canon, POV LWJ, Growing Up Together, WWX raised at Cloud Recesses, Fluff and Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Puberty, Growing Up, Coming Out, teenage angst, Wet Dream, Pining, This fic gets a little raunchier as the kids become teens, But it won’t get too explicit, Slow Burn, Friends to Lovers, Spanish Translation, Brief mentions/moments of WWX kissing others in chapter 22 but only on the cheek, also characters kiss WWX on the cheek in chapter 23, but his real first kiss is with LWJ, Перевод на русский | Translation in Russian) Not sure if this is what 7 is looking for because both Wei Wuxian & Lan Wangji are children when Lan Wangji makes Wie Wuxian cry but Life is Like a Stranger. The crying and guilt take place in chapter 4.

Reconnaissance by TomatenMark (M, 2k, WangXian, POV LWJ, Post-Sunshot Campaign, Hurt/Comfort, Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Arguing, Head Injury, LWJ loses his temper, Then instantly regrets it, WWX Whump, WWX Needs a Break, Ambiguous/Open Ending, Where are we? In what point of the timeline? Don't know, there are only vibes here)

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8. itmf fics where there is no war, but wwx eventually leaves the jiang sect anyway--bonus points if it's an unavoidable result of wwx & jc's conflicting values. doesn't need to be bashing--i just want to explore a timeline where wwx can make the choice for himself to walk away, rather than being pushed into a hundred corners by canon

Dispersing Clouds by dreamingofcake (E, 258k, WangXian, WIP, Canon Divergence, Genius WWX, Inventor WWX, Not Jiang Family Friendly, Abusive YZY, Canonical Child Abuse, Hurt/Comfort, Slow Burn, Eventual Sex, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm (Background Character), Background Character Deaths, child deaths, Canon JC, Good Uncle LQR, Accidental Baby Acquisition, Cultivation Sect Politics, Homophobia, Heteronormativity, Feelings Realization, WWX is Not Oblivious) Pretty much exactly as requested. No war as the Wens are distracted by infighting, WWX leaves LP due to value conflicts

Debts of a Child Part 2 by Hauntcats (M, 111k, WangXian, YZY Bashing, Not Jiang Family Friendly, Angst and Feels, lots of anger, JC Bashing, not Jiang friendly, Angst with a Happy Ending, Content warning for icky spiders in later chapters., hurt no comfort for Jiang siblings.)

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9. heyyy admins! any soulmate au's? thanks!

leading tone by silencemostofall (G, 32k, WangXian, Modern AU, Soulmates, with a lil twist, Eventual Happy Ending, Music, Orchestra, [Podfic] Leading Tone by silencemostofall by Beria1021)

pastel by antebunny (G, 6k, WangXian, Modern AU, College/University, Soulmates, Heavy Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Found Family, Self-Esteem Issues, Misunderstandings, Angst with a Happy Ending, Unrequited Love, but not actually, no courtesy names)

Bleachwhite Linen by MonocerosRex (T, 44k, WangXian, LXC & LWJ, LXC & WWX, JYL & WWX, JC & WWX, LSZ & WWX & LWJ, Modern, Soulmates, not the traditional kind of soulmates exactly, Hospitals, Fluff, Everything is Beautiful and Nothing Hurts, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Touch-Starved, lwj and wwx are the softest husbands and they aren't even together yet, Getting Together, Marriage Proposal, Sibling Bonding, handwaving medical procedure and magical systems, worldbuilding is for chumps i'm here for the sugar, Sickfic, or more like convalescence fic but that isn't a tag, POV Multiple, Family Feels, Family Fluff, lxc is a troll and he ships wangxian so hard, wwx deserves and gets gets hugs, Sharing a Bed, Hair Washing, Sleepy Cuddles, Hugs, JYL is a queen)

it goes like this by moonsteps (T, 15k, WangXian, College/University, Soulmates, Soulmate-Identifying Timers, Humor, Fluff, Oblivious WWX, in which wwx is jealous… of himself, some drunken LWJ shenanigans, someone pls save JC, two idiots in love)

💖 nothing you confess by PorcupineGirl (T, 31k, WangXian, Soulmates, Soulmate-Identifying Marks, POV Alternating, Golden Core Reveal, Depressed WWX, WWX Has PTSD, JC & LWJ Friendship, friendship may be too strong a word more like allies who are gonna love the shit outta post-burial-mounds WWX whether he likes it or not, Hurt/Comfort, Recovery)

💖 The Cruelty of Fate by Procrastination_Sensation (T, 15k, WangXian, Major Character Death, Canonical Character Death, Soulmates, Angst with a Happy Ending)

💖 What if you're making me all I was meant to be by WishingStar (T, 12k, WangXian, LSZ & LJY, Angst with a Happy Ending, Soulmates, Time Travel)

🔒💖 No Matter What I Do I Feel The Pain (With or Without Goose) by Trickster_Angel (T, 3k, WangXian, Soulmates, The Soulmate Goose of Enforcement, Crack, Not tagging animal abuse but they have to fight off the geese, Not Serious, Humor, First Kiss)

🔒💖 to hold the wind by androids_fighting93, artbysongs (E, 62k, WangXian, JYL/MM, Soulmates, Modern, Reincarnation, College/University, Slow Burn, Friends to Lovers, Mutual Pining, Hurt/Comfort, Disownment, LWJ Loves Rabbits, Touch-Starved LWJ)

the heartlines on our hands by occultings (microcomets) (E, 47k, wangxian, Soulmates AU, Angst with a Happy Ending, Mutual Pining, First Time, Canon Divergence, Canonical Character Death)

the river and the sea by sasamelons (T, 7k, WangXian, Soulmates, Arranged Marriage, Misunderstandings, Angst with a Happy Ending, Idiots in Love, Falling In Love, Soulmate-Identifying Marks, Mutual Pining)

🔒 Bright the Day We Met by ereshai (G, 1k, WangXian, Soulmate-Identifying Marks, POV Outsider, Fluff, Supportive LXC, Soulmates)

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10. any fics where A) lwj is afraid of losing a-yuan/sizhui? not exactly afraid but like sad, scared etc? maybe something bad happened, or to the wens/wwx, or someone claims a-yuan is theirs, along those lines.

B) same thing but a-yuan is scared of losing lwj instead?

thank you for your work!

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11. Itmf: (long fics only please)

A) lwj looooves carrying wwx in his arms. Doesn't matter whoever sees. It's his love y'all.

B) idol wwx or actor wwx or wangxian in showbiz

11B)

life, drama and action by Akai__hana (G, 13k, WangXian, XuanLi, singer!lwj, actor!wwx, Social Media AU, Fluff and Humor, Established Relationship, Fluff and Crack)

Some of You by tangerinechar (M, 60k, WangXian, Modern AU, Social Media, Actor AU, Idiots in Love, Mutual Pining, Fluff, Love Confessions, Matchmaking, Light Angst)

The Fault in Our Stars by Vamillepudding (T, 17k, WangXian, Modern AU, Getting Together, Romantic Comedy, Comedy of Errors, Misunderstandings, the title makes it sound like a cancer story, it’s not a cancer story)

Ornaments Under the Stars by trippednfell (M, 62k, wangxian, Modern, Inspired by Hallmark Christmas Movies, the wangxian Hallmark Movie AU no one asked for, plot and title were randomly generated, Kidfic, Disabled Character, debilitating injury as substitute for missing golden core, Additional Warnings In Author’s Note, Angst with a Happy Ending, Guest starring Lan Zhan’s sky blue coat, The Coat deserves its own tag, disordered eating habits - not a major plot point, WIP)

All My Songs I Wrote to Find You by Winxhelina (T, 8k, WangXian, Social Media, Bullying, Immortal LWJ & WWX, Scheming NHS, Musicians, Explicit Language, Kissing, Making Out)

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12. Can i ask for a recommendation for Time Travel like the Four Juniors (Lan Shizui, Jin Ling, Lan Jinyi and Ozouyang) (i'm so sorry if i spell there names wrong) went to the past and met there parents

Or the past went to the future

Time, Time, Time by skeletonofaplant (G, 44k, wangxian, JYL/JZX, LSZ & WWX, JYL & JL & JZX, LJY & LSZ, Time Travel Fix-It, Burial Mounds Settlement Days, Identity Porn, Identity Reveal, Angst, Fluff, Junior Quartet Dynamics, Time Travelling Junior Ensemble, Junior Ensemble Shenanigans, Humor)

Time Travel, Obviously by nirejseki (Not Rated, 1k, Time Travel, Crack)

❤️ Tragedy is Not the End by Hobbsy3 (T, 358k, wangxian, Time Travel, Torture, Hurt/Comfort, Golden Core Reveal, Canon Divergence from Qiongqi Pass, Angst with a Happy Ending, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Yunmeng sibling bonding, good dad wwx, good dad lwj, JZX Lives, JYL Lives, Junior Quartet Dynamics)

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13. Hey guys! Any fanfic recommendations with Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji fighting and arguing, but with a happy ending? Especially if they are in an established relationship @livesformitski

KILF (Knits I'd Like To Fuck in) by ScarlettStorm (E, 168k, wangxian, modern, sex work, fiber arts, 2nd in series) this one has a substantial Wangxian fight that ends well

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14. Hi!!! I have something for the next ITMF.

I'm feeling kinda angsty today, so are there any fics where Lan Zhan sacrifices himself for Wei Ying's happiness?

It could be any kind of sacrificial method and Wei Ying doesn't know of Lan Zhan's sacrifice until it's too late. Wei Ying could try getting him back through any means (time travel, necromancy, etc) except for sacrificing himself :D

Thank you and keep up the good work!

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15. Hello! If you accept nsfw asks, I am looking for WangXian fics where dragonJi has *ahem* dragonly endowments downstairs. The classic antlers and tail is good too, but I am particularly looking for lemons where non-human anatomy comes into play. There is a bit of this in Paths Of Light And Darkness Converge, if anyone wants an example. Thank you! 🐉

🔒 dragons white to ride by RoseThorne (E, <1k, WangXian, Dragon LWJ, LWJ Has Two Penises, Multiple Orgasms, Implied Future Mpreg, First Time, Wedding Night, POV Third Person, POV WWX, Overstimulation, Podfic Welcome, Crack Treated Seriously)

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16. For ITMF, I'm wondering if there are fics out there where LWJ & WWX can wield each others' swords. I've read something where WWX can use Bichen due to a partial core transplant from LWJ, but I'm interested in anything where the swords recognise their owner's soulmate? @thispatternismine

Lost and Found by dea_liberty (M, 36k, WangXian, JC & WWX, SL/XXC, Post-Canon, Found Families, a lot of feelings, Epilogue, Marriage, so many feelings, Some angst, Canon-Compliant, Brotherly Love, angst with happy ending, Much-needed reconciliations, outsider pov, Fix-It, WWX has some PTSD to deal with, Minor Violence) it's not the focus but it comes up in the first part of "Lost and Found" and is revisited near the end of the fifth part (LWJ can unsheathe and wield Suibian)

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17. Hi, I have a request for itmf. Is there any wangxian fic where

a) Lan Zhan likes to take care of Wei Ying or in the simple thing,he has caretaking kink(is this the right word?) . Like The Second Jade of Lan's late but incendiary sexual awakening by KizuKatana

b) Any fic like A matter of time by mrcformoso. Where Lan Zhan keep wei ying for himself and wei ying like it. Or a time travel where lan zhan just, "you're mine" Or the friendship between Lan Zhan and Nie Huaisang to protect Wei Ying. Or anything that the 3 of them have dark personality(yandere)

Thank you for all your hardwork. Love you guys😘 @chibiizzy

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The Dragon's Bride by jaws_3 (T, 34k, WangXian, Beauty and the Beast Fusion, Arranged Marriage elements, Slow Burn, sometimes ya get sent off to atone for ur villages misgivings and u just gotta deal, Dragon LWJ, Mutual Pining, Happy Ending, Spanish Translation Available)

Continuation by thefaceofno (T, 14k, WangXian, Canon Continuation, WWX builds a lotus pond in cloud recesses, Hair Brushing, Light Angst with a Happy Ending, Pining, gay disaster LWJ, Post-Canon Fix-It)

🔒 The Promises We Make by Mayarenerose (G, 34k, WangXian, LSZ & LWJ, LXC & LWJ, LWJ & WN, LWJ & JC, Happy Ending, Slow Burn, Fluff, Angst, Everybody Lives, Canon Divergence, Gratuitous Bed Sharing, LWJ: moves into the Burial Mounds, WWX: ??? wtf??? are you??? doing??, Rabbits, there are so many rabbits in this fic guys i cant even)

💙 this river runs to you by sundiscus (T, 53k, WangXian, Modern with Magic, Mutual Pining, Dragons, Literal Sleeping Together, Tender wound tending)

❤️ the best of you by sysrae (E, 41k, WangXian, XuanLi, Modern AU, College/University, Angst with a Happy Ending, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Hurt/Comfort, Mutual Pining, Getting Together, slightly undernegotiated kink, but in a very soft and consensual way, Nightmares, Panic Attacks, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, JFM and Madam Yu's A+ parenting, Dysfunctional Family, Mental Health Issues therapy is good actually, the most tender of railings, Reference to animal attacks/animal cruelty, descriptions of past violence)

Falling to the Rhythm by Selenay (E, 128k, WangXian, Modern: No Powers, Dance, Strictly Come Dancing Fusion, Ballroom Dancing, Dancer!WWX, Violinist LWJ, Pining While Dancing, Oblivious WWX, Gratuitous Costume Descriptions, Gratuitous dancing descriptions, Slow Burn, [Podfic] Falling to the Rhythm by semperfiona_podfic (semperfiona))

Work-Life Balance is Not A Thing by catbrainedschemes (E, 17k, WangXian, Modern AU, Workplace Relationship, Romantic Comedy, Idiots in Love, Oblivious WWX, Oblivious LWJ, Sexual Tension, Eventual Smut, but not that eventual, Pining, Dirty Talk)

17B)

Like stones on an unseen board by Vir_Abelasan (Not rated, 11k, wangxian, Canon Divergence, Dark LWJ, Older LWJ, Teacher LWJ, dark twin jades, Age Difference, Manipulation, Protective LWJ, Implied/Referenced Abuse, Corporal Punishment, Relatively canon-typical abusive Jiangs, WWX Get a Happy Ending, WangXian Get a Happy Ending, Not JC Friendly, Not Jiang Clan Friendly)

🔒 At heart by apathyinreverie (M, 36k, WangXian, WIP, Dark LWJ(Ish), Amnesia, WWX gets to be Not Okay after the BM, Hurt WWX, Recovery, Caring, Protective LWJ, Possessive LWJ, some definite manipulation, but not everything is as it seems, not nearly as dark as the tags make it sound, Canon Divergence, Golden Core Revea, Golden Core Transfer Fix-It, kind of, Domestic WangXian, Fluff, WWX Goes to Gusu, Possessive WWX, WWX happily atticwifing away, Sunshot Campaign, BAMF WWX, BAMF LWJ)

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18. Hi so I tried to find any fic that has this idea myself but I couldn't find any so I am here to ask this oh great finder to find me a fic that has wei ying dual wielding like he wheels two swords maybe one of them is Suibian and the other is like one of his parents blade or something I just want a fic that has him dual wielding it will be so cool

Take My Hand, Hold Me Tight by ThyNameIsAeschylus30 (M, 58k, WIP, HanXian, One-sided WangXian, Canon Divergence, Transmigration into MDZS, But WWX from his world transmigration to cannon WWX's world, BAMF WWX, Immortal WWX, Healer!WWX, Age Difference, Donghua WRH, Pining WWX, Minor WWX/OMC, Past Relationship(s), YZY Bashing, Bad Parents JFM and YZY, Canonical Child Abuse, Unrequited love for LWJ, Potentially OOC!WWX and others, JFM isn't getting bashed he's being gaslighted by WWX, Accidental Baby Acquisition) It's a WWX/WRH fanfic where WWX an immortal healer from another realm transmigrated because this version of him died. He uses both his old and his current sword if I remember correctly

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[magnetothemagnificent]

Hi, sorry to bother you, but you seem like you have some personal experience with my sort of situation.

My mom’s side of the family is Jewish. My mom converted to Christianity before I was born and married my goyishe dad, but she still considered herself Jewish and raised me and my siblings with Jewish culture and holidays. I also grew up very close with my Nana and was always interested in my Jewish heritage, but as I grew up I felt very torn between the different parts of my upbringing. I don’t know how to reconcile the Jewish and Christian parts of my identity. I can’t separate myself from my Jewishness and I don’t want to, but I feel like no matter what I do I’ll be wrong. My two older (half) siblings rejected Christianity when they grew up and it broke their relationship with my dad. I want to reconnect more with the Jewish community and participate more fully in my culture, but I can’t abandon Christianity. I feel like I’m balancing on a line and I can’t step over one way or the other. I love my Grandparents who are not, and will never be, Christian. I love my dad who is not, and will never be, Jewish. And I’m stuck in a difficult and painful place as both. I wish things were simpler.

Oof, anon, I wish I had an easy answer for you. It's true, I have a bit of experience with this, though not to the extent you do in that I never had to choose between Judaism and Christianity. My father did, though, and I know it couldn't have been easy.

For context: My dad's mother converted to Christianity before he was born and raised him Christian but with still the knowledge of his Jewish identity- he knew his grandparents were Jewish, knew his mother's extended family got together for Passover, and knew he was the target of antisemitism. It wasn't until he was a teenager that he reconnected fully with his Judaism and gave up Christianity.

I can't tell you what to do, and I don't know you personally, either, and what's best for one person might not be best for another. It sounds like you love both sides of your family, and both sides of yourself, and it's terrible that you're in a position where you feel like you have to choose.

Here's what I can tell you: If your mother was born Jewish to a Jewish mother, according to Orthodox and Conservative Judaism, you are 100% Jewish. If you were raised with a Jewish identity, as far as I know, you would also be considered Jewish by Reform standards. (Anyone more well versed in Reform Jewish theology please correct me). I don't know if you were baptized or what Christian denomination you were raised in, so I don't know where you would stand on the Christian side of things.

I think the best thing for you to do is to talk to your maternal grandparents, your mother, your father, and a faith leader from both Judaism and Christianity. Maybe your maternal grandparents' Rabbi and your father's pastor or priest. I think theologically you should think about whether your love of Christianity comes from a love of Christianity as a theology, or from a love of your father and your relationship with him. And if it ends up that you truly have a love of Christianity as a theology, and you feel like it's the most meaningful way for you to be spiritual, then that's your choice. But if you find that your connection to Christianity is really more rooted in your connection to your father, but not out of a deep conviction in its tenets, then Christianity might not be for you. And if you decide to not be Christian, then you can communicate with your father that you still love him, and can still have a relationship with him, but without practicing the same religion as him.

I know my father left Christianity completely, but his parents are still very much present in his and our lives. We see each other multiple times a year, and come together to celebrate Thanksgiving because it's an easy common ground. I'm very close with my paternal grandparents, and call my paternal grandmother at least once a week. You may decide to still celebrate Christian holidays with your father even if you decide you're no longer Christian- plenty of people do that, especially because mixed families are becoming increasingly more common.

And if you decide to be Christian, but still want to engage with the Jewish community, you can still do that. It's your heritage. As long as you're respectful of Jewish religious practices and aren't trying to syncretize them with Christianity, you would be more than welcome at my Shabbat table.

Ultimately, it's up to you to figure out what's best for you, but you should make your choice based on what you feel is best, not out of any external pressures. And anyone else who has been in a similar situation, please share your experiences and advice in the notes (though remember that every person is different and to share things as suggestions and not definitive answers).

[syn4k]

i am so curious about redecorate for six's backstory, but idk if that's spoilers or not lol

nah, you're good. since we're gonna see where six has been in 3 days, it's only fitting to talk about where he comes from

Redecorate by twenty one pilots - a Project: Nexus animatic

The story behind Redecorate is that one of Tyler Joseph (the band's lead singer)'s friends' kids committed suicide. The family struggled to decide whether to keep the room untouched in its original state in memory of their kid, or clean the room and move on with their life.

Six did not kill himself, he just ran away from home, however, this song still is him-coded as fuck and fits the story perfectly and I will explain why.

The first verse isn't really too special to me, there's not much I could do to go into detail with how it relates to Six's backstory there- I see it as the period of time where he decides to leave home and is planning how to do it, and if he even should at all. He's plagued by doubts and fears.

The chorus is kind of the same. Six doesn't want to be a burden on his family. He's aware of the toll this will take on him, but he's also strongly conflicted because part of him wonders if they even care about him at all, or would if they knew he was trans.

The second verse, however?

The second verse is where I lose my shit.

Hear me out.

Six's pre-transition self- scared of seeing himself as he knows he is, and terrified someone will figure it out (adds extra meaning to "what she might see behind it")

This is a big one to me. This line could be interpreted as either dying to change the name on your headstone or transitioning- either way, holy FUCK it's relevant. And poignant. (Also, changing your name usually happens when you get married, and Six is very strongly aroace, so take that as you will.)

Six regrets some of the big events in his life- mainly, the hubris that earned him his prosthetics, and also of course the whole being closeted trans thing.

This is the night he realized he couldn't continue like this. (It's followed by the chorus, which I would visualize as him packing to leave.)

and then the beat switches for the third verse

i don't even really have any coherent ideas for this yet it goes too hard. it's been 3 years since this song came out and this part of it always blows me away

but verse 3 opens with

yep. that's the textbook signs of depression. self-isolation, loss of interest in things you like, less enthusiasm for the world in general, and he copes by dissassociating (i.e "inebriated"), the world is too painful when he's there paying attention

HE MIGHT HAVE MADE IT IF HE LIVED ON A DIFFERENT STREET.

Six might not have had all of these problems if he lived somewhere else. If he had an accepting family, didn't live in the middle of nowhere in a small and traditional town, if he wasn't in the environment he was in, he might have made it. The events that led to Project: Nexus would never have happened. He wouldn't be without issues, but he'd be coping with them better.

Alas, what-if's don't get us anywhere.

He might have made it if he lived on a different street.

But we both know I didn't write his story that way.

Too much free time and no energy to do anything with it, too much bed rotting, too much late nights spent staring at the ceiling. He had to do something.

This is the end of the song. If you listen close, you can tell exactly why he had to leave. The penultimate chorus is him leaving. The last chorus is him leaving again, repeating old cycles, falling into the same old habits.

Will he break the cycle the next time we see him?

Or redecorate?

[braskide]

expanding on the matter of: yevon, the teachings, temple life and how it is an unhealthy space for those who follow the path, predatory behaviour and whatnot.

i've mentioned sparcely before how i always viewed yevon & the general temple life to be extremely predatory, especially when it came down to summoners to be. it is my own headcanon as i've dealt immensely with religious trama and i sincerely believe it is something that is a heavy theme when it comes to yuna's character throughout the whole x timeline, further hinted at in x-2 even ( which is why i always disagree when people appoint the game to be superficial! ). an example of how i view it, i took it as personal headcanon that once someone set to become a summoner, the teachings would prohibit you to have children as to not sway the summoner away from their duties with a possible domestic life to be had with a family of some sort — i would even go as far as say that the teachings prohibit you to have a partner or a familiar, whatever could create the comfort of family, be it an 'older' tradition or whatever ( ex. seymour asks yuna to become his bride, and although it is seen as extremely positive, many npc's tend to worry about yuna's pilgrimage, and auron himself makes sure to state how her pilgrimage will continue regardless ) and furthermore i even integrated in my own verses that once you received your first aeon, the summoner would become infertile.

but the toxicity starts even before, especially if you are integrated into temples before you become a summoner. the priests have their goal to make sure that you do become a summoner, that you do not change your mind, that once you step foot into that life you do not back down. spiritually speaking, yevon is soothing, and teaches positive things as a religion does, but in terms of the clergy it is deeply infested with toxic traditions that have not been questioned by those who practice it, let alone defied in fear sin might strike harder. yuna becomes an unreliable narrator when it comes down to recalling her temple life. she tends to romanticize it, recalling how following into her father's footsteps was always meant to be the way, and although she loved him, she did think about wanting to be a normal person, even canoncly. when tidus presents her with ideas about how they would go and watch blitzball, cheer, do things a normal girl should do, even after truly considering it, she still couldn't walk the step, all because of how deeply rooted in her the tradition is, as well, of course, as a sacrificing will so that everyone she loves may live free. but even if she was not the high summoner's daughter, as a priest braska should have done so much work to take her away from the cult. canonicly, braska was a non-tradionalist priest of some sort. first of all, he married an al-bhed, which already got him to receive a bad name per se, but also yuna later on declares how she wishes to be more like him, how he wants to defeat sin "without false hope". there is a specific reason as to why braska asked auron to take her away from bevelle and as a priest who tried to revolutionize the clergy in his own way before even becoming a summoner that speaks volume. he knew until the very end, and he did not wish that life upon his own daughter.

when i wanna point out examples to sustain my theory, i think about isaaru. why does he so diligently follow orders to eliminate a fellow summoner in via purifico, sent there without further questions asked? even if it wasn't yuna ( he shows regret saying 'even if you are lord braska's own flesh and blood' ), he would have simply done it. deal with the traitors.

AURON so you will fight us? ISAARU the temple orders are law.

bevelle, the very fulcrum of yevon, just makes use of priests, summoners and even maesters all alike. it must uphold itself in its own falsehood and it must perpetuate the cycle.

are there cases of summoners who are not so much involved with temple life and still chose to become summoners? yes, of course — dona, for example, is the other face of the medal we get to see. she seems to stand on her own strong beliefs more than relying on temple teachings, and it's clear her intent is to save spira as well, but it all comes down to the same point: wanting their beloved ones to live a sin-free life. she fully believes barthello will live. when it comes down to the guardians, this is another point that makes me uphold my own theory: dona goes out of her way to shame yuna for having many guardians, but it is never frowned upon to have multiple ones by any teaching. actually, circling back to my previous theory of any resemblance of family becoming deterrent to summoners and thus prohibited in some sort of way, i believe yevon follows the course of what guardians are not only for yunalesca ( the story of zanar and yunalesca and yaddayadda your most trusted guardian becoming the new sin yaddayadda ) but i firmly stand on the fact that the teachings prey over the fact of summoners having loved ones they wanna protect from the spiral of death, thus pushing the summoners into being sacrifices more and more. in general, i also find it hard to believe how casual it is that most summoners are very young and ripe.

although i do not count -will- to be any relevant, many people questioned why yuna would even consider going back to her temple life, and how ooc it can be. honestly? i don't really see it that ooc — all because of this theory i have; on top of that, healing religious trauma is not linear at all. i think when it comes down to how ingrained the teachings are, it's hard to imagine how it must even feel. she would 100% return and live the worst of her adult years. in my eyes, x-2 is always a timeline in where she clearly tries to go to the opposite extreme, and instead of dealing with the ptsd caused by what becoming a summoner does to you, and even more, not knowing what to do once the life you promised to sacrifice for the benefit of a clergy that does not care about you as a single person but cares rather about the cyclic spiral of death without questioning it is handed back to you, she simply decides to live fueled by adrenaline, but once the gullwings disband, it feels empty again, and left with healing the scars that will not fade even if you try to do all that you could not do back when.

in my eyes, even in that it shows how deeply rooted the toxicity of the temple was. and, honestly, still is.

[obscureaestheticist]

AbsUlt Shipnames for Ships that don't exist BUT GOD DAMMIT I AM GONNNA PURPOSE SOME

Dunno what AbsUlt is? It's DC's [Absolute Universe] and Marvel's [New Ultimate Universe] new verses where the heros live in a much more oppressive & authoritarian environment as well as backstory changes that emphisizes their original heroic qualities.

It's designed so that new readers can jump onboard so that folks can jump onto a fresh series without knowing anything about Marvel or DC. ALSO My guys, there is a WORLD of untapped shipping potential in these damn comics! These are just some silly names for ideas for ships I think would be funny/silly/cool/autistic/etc. If you have ideas for ship names please comment, or have an idea for a ship that isn't listed here, go right ahead. [NOTE: These are fun hypotheticals. A couple of the ships in this are canon and will be noted as such]

*ahem* SPOILERS AHEAD

::IN-WORLD::

Prodigies / Haeter [Ult Peter Parker x Harry Osborne / Ult Goblinspider] Pitch: Louis x Legoshi but with DILFs. Peter is a married father of 2, while Harry is carrying the legacy of his late father and his company, both taking on the role of hero at much older age than their normal counterparts. Peter is the more measured one, while Harry is prepared to take this further to protect his family, and even Peter! Saying he is willing to kill to save him. On top of Harry finding out he was never supposed to be a hero, it adds to his interest in Peter even harder. Dynamic/s: On top of the ususal buddies in crime fighting gig, there're possiblilities for AUs where Harry's obsession with Peter gets even stronger and intimate alongside his desire to protect him, Peter feeling freer as a hero and around Harry before he tells MJ everything, and with the most recent arc as of writing, tensions in the savage lands could get rather high...

Wine Moms / Widows-To-Be [Ult Mary Jane Wattson-Parker x Gwendolyne Stacy-Osborn] Pitch: The cunning wives of the heroes, the husbands are constantly out, often left to their own devices, not to mention buisness interests in one another, it could lead to some daring moments. Dynamic/s: Going off of the fan theory of Gwen potentially being a secret villain/anti-hero it can serve as solid fic fodder for some wlw villain shenanigans. Also there are not enough Office Sirens x Office Sirens out there. Corporate. Condo. Cvnty. Also it gets lonely when the Bfs are away. Also i couldn't resist the urge to call the polycule ship between these 4 Swingers.

Extry! Extry! [Ult Ben Parker x/& J. Jonah Jameson] Pitch: Ben Parker, alive, recently fired from the Daily Buggle, he and his now-buisness partner J. Jonah Jameson, strike out on their own to set up their own news outlet. Ben the wisened stoic, and Jameson, the observant cunning silver fox. Platonic or Romantic they're a great team. Dynamic/s: Platonically they're easily my favorite dynamic in their comic line, for romantic fanfics its old man yaoi to a T! They've known and worked with each other for years, they tease each other, and would go to hell and back for one another.

Hooligans [Abs Bruce Wayne x/& Selina Kyle x/& Waylon Jones x/& Harvey Dent x/& Eddie Nygma x/& Ozzie Cobblepot] Pitch: Take Catwoman, Killer Croc, Two Face, Riddler, and Penguin, and make them Bruce's childhood best friends. They were there at the death of his father, they were there to lift him up, and are still there for him as an adult. As adults they help keep each other alive in times of chaos, which in gotham is CONSTANT. Dynamic/s: Platonically the Hooligans [sorta canon name for the group] are one half of the true heart of Absolute Batman. You got polycules, childhood best friends, trauma bonding, angst, hurt/cumfort, etc. These guys have been through so much they might've surpassed any notion of friends... Also Eddie guesses Bruce is Batman but doesn't tell anyone until Bruce reveals it himself CAUSE HES THE GOAT!

Signal Barers / Mayoral Affairs [Abs Martha Wayne/Kane x Jim Gordon] Pitch: A world where Martha Wayne lived. She didn't come from wealth, and was an activist married to a now-passed teacher. These 2 met at a protest, Martha being the protester and Gordon being the one to arrest her. Nowadays they work together to make Gotham the best it can be, all with sexy noir angst and biceps. Dynamic/s: Sexy angsty noir office romance. Moving on from the death of a lover with another man who plays an important role in not just your job but in your families life as well. Gordon is the mayor so a political and romantic affair in gotham? Feels right.

Thesis Block / Dianerva [Abs Diana x Barbra Minerva / Absolute WonderCheetah]

Pitch: A history dork runs into the very thing she is obssessed with AS it is saving her life from magical mythical monsters, all while Diana has no idea that she and her people have been reduced to academic literature. Dynamic/s: Smol fangirl puppy following tall muscle mommy with a heart of gold. Barbra tries to use this relationship as an opportunity to advance her career but her love for Diana over takes her mind. Diana taking the opportunity to learn about her people through this adorable ginger gremlin.

Toil & Trouble / Circate [Abs Circe x Hecate]

Pitch: Mothers be mothering. Circe, the adoptive mother of Diana, and Hecate her diety of worship. A goddess that forced a fate onto Crice she didn't ask for, yet she still remains devoted, all while fearing for her daughters life.

Dynamic/s: Opportunities for Toxic Yuri, galore. Hecate becoming increasingly impressed with Circes devotion, and taking prime interest in just how far she'll go. Or something simple. Double witch moms raising Diana.

Team Gateway City [Diana & Pegasus & Steve Trevor & Etta Candy & Gia Candy & Barbera Minerva] Pitch: Platonic canon group that formed with Diana's first appearance in the mortal realm in Gateway City [yes I'm including the horse]. You've got She-Ra meets Doom, God of War, and Hades, a tall Zombie Military Husband, Archeology Dork, Skeleton Pegasus who also breaths FIRE, and Herbalist Potionmaster Witch Sisters. AND THEY'RE [asides from Diana] ALL SMITTEN WITH DIANA. Dynamic/s: Not much to say other than PLEASE KEEP THIS GROUP OF DIVINE WRITERS!!!

Stormy Knight / HisaMei [Ult Ichiki Hisako x Igarashi Mei] Pitch: Depressed girl with anger issues meets bouncy silver haired Storm fan with desire to darg her into every mystery and side quest she can find. Hisako, meet Sertraline-I MEAN Mei! Hisako wants to keep to herself like a cat, Mei will drag her out by the scruff like a golden retriever. Dynamic/s: The best friend that'll do anything to cheer you up, or the best friend that is THE REASON you actually got healthier, having the gf that just will not give up on you even when you turn to your worst self. Plenty of angst and hurt comfort.

Shock Therapy [Kageyama Shinobu x/& Ult Ashida Noriko]

Pitch: 2 kids raised by a cult, one dates adults by night to earn money to survive then [potentially] kills them, the other gathers intel and donates blood to the cult that controls them. Both are horrid people but were both pushed there by terrible adults. They insult each other, but also take great interest too, they check up on each other, and keep one another company, even if they can see the other becoming a worse person. They're all they really have. Dynamic/s: Toxic straight ship, villains watching each other getting worse and encouraging it, maybe a fic where they both finally lash out against the cult togther to become more emotionally independant, or one night where the facade drops and they actually do have to comfort one another. Maybe one gets in trouble and the other quites the teasing and dares a rescue, even kills for them. After all, they've got nobody else.

Border Customs [Abs Lois Lane x Kal-El] Pitch: Private Military officer Lois Lane goes on a globe trotting quest to track down this extraterrestrial socialist himbo, and just so happens to not quite understand yet that helping the downtroden and poor WITHOUT guns & corperations is a good thing. Dynamic/s: We all know she pegs him. The man has Kill La Kill powers for gods sake and she stares at his boobs!

Apprentices [Richard Parker x Abs Felicia Hardy] Pitch: The children of two absent or restricted fathers trying to fill in the gab amidst times of great uncertainty. Peter is not around for a brief time, and Black Tom Cassidy is out of work leaving his daughter to take over the family buisness. All while dealing with this family pressure, these two kids just happen to run into each other and bond. Dynamic/s: So this is a canon ship and one folks already love cause of just how sweet it is. They're each others only real outlets for the strange situation they are in while also trying to balance just being a teenager, similair to how Peter and Harry have to balance being an adult. There already a lot of fanart for this and I hope it develops nicely with the story.

Russian Bears [Ult Logan x Piotr Rasputin]

Pitch: The above picture!

Dynamic/s: The above pict-kidding, TOXIC YAOI! VERY TOXIC YAOI! This is full on mind control, forced to hunt down his own friends kinda toxic yaoi! Fanfic potential is Dead Dove Do Not Eat!! But also like some of the gayest symbolism and coding you can imagine if you spin it right cause whoooooowboy the homoeroticism in this comic is strong.

Self-Deprecation / Doommaker [1610 Reed Richards x Ult/6160 Reed Richards]

Pitch: It's Reed Richards endlessly tormenting a verse of himself by turning him into Doctor Doom and giving him SUPER MEGA DEPRESSION.

Dynamic/s: Same as above DEAD DOVE DO NOT EAT SELFCEST, like, seriously their entire interaction is TORTURE in the comics, do with that what you will. But fr it is actually a really interesting exploration of how Reed Richards treats himself at the heart of things if you wanna take that and run with it.

Mindfuck [Abs John Jones x "The Martian"]

Pitch: John Jones is slowly melding his identity with a bizarre entity he calls the martian, it lights up the world in colors, he can breath in memories, and experiance the world in a newly truely eldritch fashion, all while trying to solve a suicide bombing. the very nature of intimacy and self start to break down. In other words, THIS as a ship dynamic -_- 🚬 x 🌈 o )

Dynamic/s: Trippy psudo-selfcest, personified neurodivergence in smoke, non-solid partner made of trauma fumes, and smokable bf. If this sounds bizarre and trippy, just wait till you read the comic. Basically if you wanna try something that messes around with emotions and identity with some trippy telepathic powers, have at it.

Frontpagers / Kill'Mu'Nan [Ult Erik Killmonger x Ororo Munroe x Sorcerer Supreme Inan] Pitch: Two revolutionary fighters who have been hard at work liberating North and West Africa from an oppressive imperialist corperate government, happen upon a sorcerer that introduces the both of them to a world of magic and power liberated from the restraints tech and mutations. All while this sorcerer encounters a couple that remain strong, falling deeper in love with each other with every turning point and battle. Dynamic/s: I'll be real, my bi/pan ass just wanna see these 3 liberate a town, be socialist, and fuck. The dynamics I'm thinking of are the travelling poly messes you see out on the road and at music festivals. You do not wanna know what their latest drama is but WOW do you wanna be squashed between the 3 of them.

When we start to see the big 3 come together for the Absolute's version of the Justice League I shall be purposing the ship name Absolute Legends!

::Just some silly crack and crossover ones::

Markaria / Sekariplier [Lejori Sekaria x Markiplier] Pitch: Nuff said. Reverse Flashpoint [Mainline Bruce Wayne & Abs Martha Wayne/Kane] Pitch: Giving Bruce any opportunity to talk to his Mother again is welcome and tear jerking one. I imagine they would be so proud of each other. Leftovers / Walard [Abs Wally West x/& Richard Parker] Pitch: Two ginger boys with missing father figures trying to survive in the midst of disaster... And trading mullet care tips. Decryption [John Jones x Bill Cypher] Pitch: The overly charismatic Bill Cypher in the head of a walking adult Frisk equivilant is too funny not to undertake. Writer's Room [1610 Reed Richards x Darksied] Pitch: The two beings that are responsible for AbsUlt being each others mutuals trading fanfics week in week out. Royal Mettle [T'Challa x Vibranium] Pitch: So T'Challa in Ult has a connection to Vibranium in this, as it is theorised to potentially be alive and even speak to him. METAL SHIPPING COMMENCE!

Pico Parker [Ult Peter Parker x Peter's AI Picosuit] Pitch: A kind of self-cest with Peter getting down and dirty with an AI clone of himself or possibly turning off the suit's rules of no touching MJ and giving her 2 husbands to work with. Icons [Peter's AI Picosuit x Kal-El's Sol] Pitch: Suit shipping! Two new takes on comics most iconic suits being smooshed together, both as hyper intellegent AI? Get the robot and symbiote shippers!

[ukranianacearo]

Guess who watched The Hobbit AGAIN💪

And now I'm having ideas for some characters, but have no motivation to write it, so you get this.

Imagine Yandere!Thranduil x First Wife! Reader but with a twist (not the one where she's also yandere, srry)

So our reader has lived many lives because of someone who couldn't accept their death in their first life. They have a curse (or a spell, whatever you wanna call it) that makes them reincarnate every time with the same body, a similar story, same nationality, etc, but with no memories of past lives, they have the trauma,but they don't know from where it comes. Things in their life can change certain way, only if they don't see or even know about that someone's existence. And in one of their so many lives, they reincarnate as an elf (idk what is the gn word for elf, I'm sorry) who's not in a great position, to say. Their lives in general aren't very good, but this one is particularly bad. When they come of age, they parents decided that it's their time to marry (I think for elves the coming of age is when they turn 100 y/o, but they finish puberty at around 50 y/o). And they have options to choose, but unfortunately, most of them aren't really good options. Except Thranduil, it seems. So they agree to marry him, blah blah blah. One of the problems for reader, is that they're aroace. In every life time. And this one wasn't an exception. But Thranduil isn't aroace, in fact he falls in love with reader after long years of knowing each other and marrying each other in the end and even having a child, Legolas. When reader dies in this verse it affects greatly many, but for reader, life begins again from 0, without them knowing it. They are born in a totally different universe, where time goes much faster than in The Hobbit's universe. They live on, die at the usual age because they knew that someone as their childhood friend. But after this death, instead of reincarnation, they get to guard one of the universes for some time. Unfortunately thought, that universeexplodes right before their arrival and now they're a lost guardian, who lives a lot longer and can't die at all (bc simple guardians die of the universe they're guarding is destroyed). And now they just travel verses bc that's what they got to do. And imagine that one of the verses they travel to (and the slowest one that she has ever visited) is the Hobbit's universe and now she's making friends with Gandalf and long after she's with the gnomes and Bilbo going to Erebor.

And now I will leave the ending open, unless you want otherwise bc I don't know how to put my thoughts on paper (or rather screen) lol

See ya

And I'm going to watch the Hobbit again (the notes at the beginning are from when I started writing things and the notes at the end are the ones I write when I finish the piece. Usually, at least a day or some hours gave passed away from one point time the other) and I already rewatched LOTR. Might write for Legolas, why not

[foxes-that-run]

Only Angel

Only Angel has similarities to Meet me in the Hallway, they 2 of the 10 Haylor songs with Hallways. To me, it is related to So it Goes... which refers to when Taylor performed in the 2014 Victoria's Secret show. Harry performed Only Angel at the 2017 VS show. I have always heard this song to be an assurance to Taylor that she is his 'only angel', like in As it was, she cannot be replaced with girls that 'look just like her' in MMIH Possibly because he was seen with Nadine Leopold soon after the 2014 VS show. It also references Van Morrison's Tupelo Honey which Harry included on his mix tape.

At 2 minutes into this Nashville performance Harry sings "Told her Little Brother" (2.09), further confirmation it is Haylor, with Austin Swift being younger than Taylor unlike Kendall's brother.

Only Angel was last played live in November 2021. It wasn’t at Coachella or after Harry’s House.

Original Lyrics

On 7 December 2023 the demo was leaked with different lyrics. Studio version is like a simplified, shortened and cleaned up radio edit. In the original, the muse has more agency (they knock), Harry has considered proposing 1000 times but it hasn't worked out and it's more explicit. The song also ends, then comes back like their relationship.

Close your eyes, shut your mouth and see That I'm still the only one who's been in love with me I'm just happy getting you stuck in between my teeth And hoping you don't shout about it Now I know a bunch of people who would waste your time But I wouldn't let it happen to a friend of mine We can write ourselves a story without doing lines 'Cause believe me, we can live without it, She's an angel[...] Broke a finger knocking on my bedroom door I got splinters in my knuckles crawling on the floor Could never take you home because your skirt's too short And my mother would be mad about it I must admit I married you a thousand times Had to change my tune when I found out what it’d be like But I meet you in the hallway almost anytime And we won't have to talk about it, yeah, She's an angel[...] She wants to be an angel just you wait and see. But it turns out she’s a devil in between the sheets and believe me I am all about it. Huh. Painted on you on your back, I knew we’d get along. But I caught you staring in the mirror way too long. I could love her if I didn’t think I’d do it wrong. I’m gonna have to take you home, She's an angel[...]

Lyrics

I saw this angel I really saw an angel Open up your eyes, shut your mouth and see That I'm still the only one who's been in love with me I'm just happy getting you stuck in between my teeth And there's nothing I can do about it

The first verse, Harry is so drawn to his muse he can’t help winding up with her. They liken their connection to an addiction in MMIH, Clean and Grapejuice.

The “only one in love with me” is Harry calling himself a narcissist and I think refers to Fool’s Gold where he said “Yeah I know your love's not real / That's not the way it feels /That's not the way you feel”

But, like in Fools Gold and Stockholm Syndrome he can’t help himself, he desperately wants to be with this muse

Broke a finger knocking on your bedroom door I got splinters in my knuckles crawling across the floor Couldn't you take home to mother in a skirt that short But I think that's what I like about it

This verse starts with 2 references that are in other quite sad songs, but set to a dance beat. Something Harry later did so well in As it was:

Taylor also referred to Harry knocking on her door in Suburban Legends but very sadly “You don't knock anymore and my whole life's ruined”

Harry also referred again to being on the floor in Fine Line “And I don't wanna sleep in the dirt”

The short skirt is a reference to Style “And I got that good girl faith and a tight little skirt”

She's an angel Only angel She's an angel My only angel

This line to me is a response to Is it over now? “Your new girl is my clone”. To me, Harry was saying he only has one angel, as in Victoria’s Secret model, Taylor having performed in 2 VS shows in 2013 and 2014.

After 1989 was released and they broke up they both spent a lot of time with a lot of models. Read into that what you will, to me the role the VS after party plays in So it goes and IDWLF, and the clone line has me noodling on if they were both seeking each other rather than the models.

I must admit I thought I'd like to make you mine As I went about my business through the warning signs End up meeting in the hallway every single time And there's nothing we can do about it

I love ‘went about my business and want to make you mine’ to me it encapsulates what I imagine wasted Harry’s chill attitude at that time.

Ending up in hallways links this to MMIH and the 10 other mentions of hallways in their respective songs.

Told it to her brother and she told it to me That she's gonna be an angel, just you wait and see When it turns out she's a devil in between the sheets And there's nothing she can do about it Hey, hey

This line about her brother is thought to narrow the muse to KJ and TS, in the above live performance in Nashville Harry said little brother which would be Austin Swift. Harry also got on with Austin.

To me, she’s an Angel/devil is here is similar to Style, where Taylor had “good girl faith and a tight little skirt” both play on the idea of someone seeming good but being wild. Kiwi is also similar “hard liquor mixed with a bit of intellect”

She's an angel Only angel x3 Wanna die, wanna die, wanna die tonight x3 My only angel She's an angel x3 My-my-my only angel

The refrain is repeating that she’s the only angel for him, and he wants to go to heaven.

Harry included Van Morrison's Tupelo Honey on his Another Man Mix Tape from an article while he was making this album. The outtro "She's an angel", which is also how Tupelo Honey ends. As Harry said to Rolling Stone:

“I don’t know much about Van Morrison’s life, but I know how he felt about this girl, because he put it in a song. So I like working the same way.”

[nerdthatsiriuslylovesteaxx]

Helpless part 28, this is the part I started this fic for (I'm not even joking)

Warning/ sh

The monster grabbed Hazel, ripping her in two, Nico tried to scream but no words came out of his mouth. He saw Frank, yelling, charging at him, bow in hand. Tears streamed down his face, yet a voice whispered that he deserved this, that he needed to suffer. He saw Bianca leading into battle under the lead of Thalia Grace, he was frozen. She shot an arrow to his shoulder, Nico fell to the ground with the sudden burst of pain. He tried to run, run from his problems like he always did, he was lost in about ten seconds, without a clue where he was going, the Labrynith. The maze went dark, then suddenly a burst of light came through, in front of him was Will Solace. He ran to him, trying to find comfort in anything yet the blonde boy pushed him to the floor.

"You're a pathetic little fag Nico, nothing more. You run from all of your problems, you deserve to suffer for your crimes, you disgust me." Nico turned and ran, ignoring the taunts that came from th boy he loved. Then he saw that memory again, the one that he wished he could erase from his mind. He was nine, that day his mum took him and Bianca out. They had gone to church like every other Sunday but his day was different. Nico always hated the Catholic Church, no one knew that, he would have been killed for that crime. They always forced him into white, making him recite bible verses, telling him everything was a sin, he hated it from the first day he could remember going. The day they threw the white fabrics at him, cutting his hair, claiming it made him look too much like a girl and that would be sacrilegious. But this was the day he knew, he was certain it was evil. He was clutching his sisters hand, two guys were on a platform, rope around their necks, couldn't have been much older than 15. He remembered looking away after the lever was pulled, he remembered the priests words.

"They were hung for the crime of homosexuality, a purely disgusting sin. They may have been children but they deserved to die, for the have committed the worst sin of all time." Nico never spoke about that day, it was one part of his nightmares that hadn't left him since that day. He remembers crying, Bianca telling him it was alright and they had done something wrong, that he didn't understand. She never knew what his thoughts were, she never knew he was just like them. He imagined what his life would have been if he wasn't in the casino, would he be married to a girl he never loved? Who he have run? Or would they have finally broken him into what they thought he should be? He heard the snap of the necks, two voices, Hazel and Bianca's both muttering in his ear. Percy choking him against that wall, this time yelling.

"You're a disgusting thing, no wonder your sister joined the hunters without a second thought of leaving you behind." Nico wanted to scream. The son of Hades woke up in a cold sweat, shaking. He couldn't take this anymore, not the fucked up demigod life, not knowing everything that had happened before him, not after what he'd gone through.

"I'm sorry Hazel, I tried, I really tried. But you don't need me." He whispered though the tears. He lit a cigarette letting the nicotine fill his lungs, it didn't help. He didn't want to feel, more he didn't want to live. He drained a whole bottle of vodka before pulling out his pocket knife, he dragged it across his skin, cuttings as deep as he could. He felt a light sting and the blood covered his palms, again, he needed to feel something. He carved a word on his other arm, horizontal cuts all around it, everything was covered in the scarlet liquid. The Ghost king pulled off his shirt and cared the word faggot down his chest, he could feel his head getting lighter, he felt like he was about to pass out he looked over to his hands where cigarettes burns littered them and added another two to the collection. He looked down at his thighs, littered with scares as he dragged the blade across, letting the blood soak everything, he could feel himself losing consciousness but he didn't stop, he would be dead in five minutes, and he wanted to make that time sooner if he could.

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[pigtailedgirl]

🗣️,📄and 📝please!

Hahahaha ok.

🗣️Talk about your favourite WIP

So truly it is that The Games by Quordle spin-off/continuation I'm writing like a poor girl's GRR Martin. I hit 20000 words and was so proud. Then stuck. I sit in the car and brainstorm scenes and cry to playlists. Then get home and get stuck lol. I get a paragraph or two in. I find something else missing and lose chunks.

I have never ever wrote a long piece of fanfic. I don't know what I'm doing. I love this idea to pieces and want to do justice to the original fic and and and...

This has encompassed my brain, this universe but for Fraser/Vecchio. I am too in love with the idea of them trapped in an alt dynamic, in their lives apart influencing and then meeting and then after original fic resolving if they can even to stay together, why the want and need never fades and is eternally them, and them being still them and still in love, but also warped horribly by having to survive a verse that is founded with rule and law that they still operate under, that they are still law officers in even if secret undercover, that says value of a person is dependant on class or ownership and sexual relationships are about using or tied to that. And then in a verse where they are the goddamn married couple and the unanswered undercurrent of how that works and what is that backstory well my brain is all let's explore them down to who runs the relationship and why and how.

📄What’s a WIP you never finished that you would like to go back and revisit?

It's too late but I once started a multi fic that was gonna cross-over Supernatural and Inuyasha. Or basically in season 3 with Dean on the hell-list, and the brothers hunting and hurting for a fix, they were gonna run into Kikyou. Who was long-story short explanation now in current era because Kagome and Inuyasha fucked up and didn't get rid of Naraku or the jewel with the final wish. Naraku ended up in present day. Inuyasha and team died in the past. Kagome died but not before a piece of her soul stayed so Kikyou could resurrect and come back hunting revenge part 2. Welcome to the modern era my girl. Kagome splintered the jewel again too. Across the world. And so Kikyou is avoiding Naraku and trying to gather it. And she was/is hunting Koga who has teamed up with werewolves in the states to make a pack. Who has lived through the eras miserable right. Who got back his jewel shards.

So she fights Koga. Almost loses. Decides she needs back-up. Bobby, Japanese nerd man, is her in and introduces her to Sam and Dean. Let's help each other. Get rid of my werewolves, I'll give you the secret to surviving death.

But like everyone is guarded. Dean doesn't want to be saved. Certainly not like how Kikyou is in surprise moment revealed to be living by still sucking souls. Don't they hunt monsters, not become them? And like yet her and Dean relate. Two people trying desperately to right things, were all about protecting and failed, and are/were both older siblings. Two people half-done in but can't quit the mission.

So they still finish the job and hunt Koga. Because living past prime or for nothing is Koga's deal and he doesn't get it's hell, he cant remake his pack or say turn Kikyou into Kagome, and it's a yay to put him out of misery end.

And it ends with her and Dean semi-agreeing, though Sam still can't accept, death is a freedom and peace. Hell is preferable to doomed life or loss, even if it's frightening. She couldn't make Dean like her anyway, she was always lying. And so she continues to wander to meet her fate. And him and Sam theirs.

Of course season 3 is long past, and Supernatural morphed into a different show. And I was trapped in how to tell this, aka bouncing POV and how they were all gonna talk to each other or if Kikyou was too bitch to learn english lol. So it's a dead idea.

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Charlie and Fraser scene. Kinda a big big decision point.

-- You seem to know what it is to lose and to want and I think you’d give as good as you got, but do you know what you’ve got? Do you know how to take what you want?”

He waited watching me. 

I thought of the horizon. Of Gerard somewhere out there in the snowfields. Of my father, moments before Drake had shot him trudging those same fields seeking his peace as he warred within himself. His private one, and the solitude he’d preferred, as he hadn’t said a word about his concerns or his dealings to me the last time we spoke, even when I felt it in the pauses and gaps. He hadn’t wanted my help.

And what about what I had wanted?

“Yes, I see. Thank you kindly.”

I turned back towards Commerce and the cabin. A search party found Gerard’s corpse, frozen in a crag, two days later.

[fugoshroom]

lupin the III relationship headcanons

ok so no one cares but here's what i consider as canon relationships in the lupin verse. this is not just ships,, but mostly.

even if i do like the gang as a polycule, i am very much convinced jigen is gay (sue me) and i mostly think that about goemon too. oh yeah and fujiko's obviously a lesbian. so lupin x fujiko (wait i never realized i do not know their ship name. is it fujipin? lujiko? i actually remember fujilup. i guess ill discover thru the tags.) could kinda work as lupin is genderfluid (TO ME.) so now that this is established.

jiglup are exes. i didn't even watch lupin zero (i should) but i know they were gay in it so yeah. i can definitely see why people ship them, they have chemistry, but still. they are obviously great friends and platonic soulmates. even if they can't be in love, they will always stay by each other's side. the main reason for this is

jigoe. what can i say. they are married and i will not take any criticism.

i don't mind lupgoe as well but like. their relationship is very peculiar to me. i think goemon really values lupin both as a leader and a friend. one cannot exist without the other. as seen in part 5 (one of the last eps, i don't remember which) goemon is lead to think lupin only uses him as a pawn, and this shatters him completely. but at the same time, he finds time to actually be in the gang, even if he's a lone wolf and is often doing his thing, because he respects lupin as a thief.

so. fujiko. she is a mystery. does she love lupin or is she using him? the answer could be both. but i honestly feel as she doesn't really love him, and apart from taking advantage of him, she could just be doing it for fun, or to fill something she's missing. she often looks as she doesn't care about whether he lives or dies. but can lupin really die? so yeah, she still cares about him, in her own way.

fujigoe. apart from my sexuality headcanons and other ships (i can absolutely be a multishipper), i will never see them as a couple. it couldn't work. their relationship is one of pure friendship. they deeply care about each other and are found together even when you wouldn't think you could. if this makes sense. i feel as they're both very protective of the other.

fujigen? also care about each other, even if it doesn't certainly look like it, but i think they pretend to hate each other because that's what they want people to think, INCLUDING themselves. they are like, friends that always insult each other to show affection, pretend to be disgusted by the other and not wanting to touch them, etc.

about zenigata,, i may make another post cause i don't really feel like it rn so yeah. just the gang for now.

[thedawningofthehour]

hello ! this topic is very interesting I wish the show was allowed to delve into it more :<

I don't think the Hamato have inbreeding as miss Karai ditched the Foot and didn't have a clan, so how did she make a whole new one ? she might ve started with a few members of the Foot who ALSO didn't like the Shredder as jōnin enough to leave . the Foot were just running around ruining villages , right ? I think that karai would recruit the besieged villages and its families to fight against the Shredder , considering the Shredder just destroyed everything of theirs , and said clan would join with karai . she kept doing this , following the foot's assaults and adding more people to her hamato clan until they had enough members to actually function and fight the Foot . maybe how she began was different though. maybe karai didn't take any old Foot members with her and took refuge in a different village / clan she came to know and they joined her cause , becoming the first hamato . maybeI think the hamato in the 1500s were a collection of unrelated clans and families that banded together with shared values . so a hamato back then could marry within the clan without it being incestuous bc lots of hamato were unrelated but still obviously part of the hamato clan and the clan was huge and had so many members . for some reason , the hamato declined in numbers maybe progressively or their numbers were decimated during key events and so marrying within the clan was no longer possible bc everybody in the hamato was related at that point . sho is likely one of those hamato who had to have a kid with an outsider (someone not BORN into the clan) and atsuko was too and obviously yoshi would've had to be with an outsider as well . i bet Sho's parents also couldn't marry within the clan and one was an outsider .

I don't think the hamato would have an issue with outsiders but it just shows how tiny and vulnerable the clan is now , they can't even have hamato × hamato children anymore .

...you guys really want to convince yourself that inbreeding only happened with ugly rich people, huh?

Okay, for starters, if this is about the 'Splinter is an only child because inbreeding' thing-that was a joke. I do not actually think they were inbred to the point of the Hasburgs. For one, Draxum literally targeted Splinter because of his incredible genetics, and I doubt 'incredibly inbred' was one of his criteria. But also, shit like the Hasburgs happened after multiple generations of very close inbreeding, and that only happened because of royal family 'pure bloodline' shit. Humans generally avoid doing that, because of the obvious. The Hasburgs were very dedicated to being as inbred as they could be. And I guess it's not out of the question that the Hamato clan did the same but it seems like kind of a drastic assumption to make.

As for less severe inbreeding-guys, you do realize that everyone on earth is like...at most a fiftieth cousin to you, right? Chances are your parents and their parents and whatnot are significantly closer. We are all a little inbred. Humans have insanely low genetic diversity-that's actually why inbreeding is so disastrous for us, our gene pool is already so small.

Also, just think about the life you lead now and how it differs from how humans have lived for thousands of years. The majority of humans living in big cities verses agrarian settlements is a new thing. Meeting people and marrying people from hundreds of miles away was not the norm. For most of human history, people were born and lived and fucked and died all within the same general region. Travel was generally done on foot, especially for peasants, or maybe by mount or boat. And these small towns generally had even lower population density than small towns today-no big apartment buildings, sewage became an unpleasant problem if things became too crowded, etc. Villages and smaller towns usually had maybe a few dozen families at most, and barring the odd newcomer (or war or famine that caused your entire village to disperse and move) you were stuck with them your entire life.

Even assuming that all these families were unrelated to start-which they almost certainly weren't-it would only take a few generations for them to all be related to each other. Even people from the next village over, they still probably have a recent common ancestor with you. Unless you snagged that one guy who moved to your little village from across the sea, there was no way to avoid marrying your third or fourth cousin. Everyone was related to you.

This was really common in rural areas. They didn't understand genetic diversity very well. I made a joke a few chapters ago about Atsuko having some recessive genes that indicated inbreeding, but that is not all that abnormal. Chances are you have some too.

[justagalwhowrites]

Re: my last comments about wanting to reread Lavender.

Have you ever thought about any differing OG Lavender-verse where Joel does get over his shit a little quicker? I’m still mad at him for *spoilers* being mad at her for not telling him about the thing. Like it’s so reasonable that she was going to but *things* got in the way. And what she went through to TRY to keep everybody safe… ugh. It’s telling how traumatized he is that he couldn’t get it together but I think sometimes he was too hardheaded.

Also, I never thought about it but as you say in the AU he’s her everything. That’s me & my now husband. He was older (6 years, not crazy) and my first and only. Now 16 years later and married and still very happy, maybe I appreciate that story element bc I relate ❤️

Hi Bestie!!

I'm going to go in reverse order kinda because part of this reply is gonna be REAL long lol!

That's so sweet with you and your husband!!! I'm so happy that you can relate to that and that you found that with him, that's so lovely <3

Spoilers for Lavender below the cut!

So there were a few points where things could have diverged in the OG Lavender-verse. The big one being, Doc doesn't lose the baby. He would still be traumatized as fuck and their relationship would be rocky but they may never fully break up (or, if they did, it wouldn't be for as long because Evie would force them to see each other and they couldn't keep their hands each other if they had to be around each other often.) Their relationship would have been ROCKY though and I'm not sure it would have lasted as Evie grew closer to adulthood.

There were some other points where things could have been different, too. The first time Doc leaves the QZ and it's just her and Joel and they run into raiders on the way back? By that point, Joel was kind of at this tipping point. He was so shaken by the near loss of her - and they'd just slept together the night before and had been in such close proximity for more than a day by that point - that he was very nearly ready to try to get her to give him another shot. Her freak out about the raiders - and her snapping and telling him that Sarah's death was NOT on her - pushed him the other way. Now if they'd gotten back together here, I'm not sure it would have stuck for long? She may have latched on tighter and not let him pull away when he started to devolve again but otherwise, he'd still be coping with a lot of the same trauma brain shit he was otherwise and it would have taken its toll.

Another time was after McCarthy comes to the QZ, when he finally knows everything that happened during the outbreak and feels so guilt ridden about it all. If they'd had sex that night, they'd have been together again at least for a while. But trauma brain Joel would have come along to ruin the party again.

The big thing is, the QZ was an inherently retraumatizing place to be, especially for Joel (the militarized power, being surrounded by death, etc.) and his brain going "HEY CARING ABOUT SOMEONE IN A PLACE LIKE THIS WILL LEAD TO YOUR DEATH" would, at the very least, make their relationship's survival a constant fucking struggle. The reason it sticks later is a combination of things. 1) He's at this unique point of "she's leaving and you will never see her again, you are losing her, this is the end" that forces him to admit just how much he cares about her in spite of trying to push her away for so many years. It also forces him to realize just how desperate he is to keep from losing her. He can't live without her, proximity (or lack there of) won't change that for him. 2) They're forced to stay together and work together to get Ellie to where she needs to go, so things that might normally force distance can't. She can't run to Andrew, he can't run to Tess, they can only turn to each other and they do. 3) They end up in Jackson, which is a far more healthy environment than the QZ, and - outside of shit like KC and stuff with the fireflies and a few blips along the way - the trek west is relatively peaceful compared to QZ life. Yes they're under threat and cautious and it's a struggle to survive BUT you're not being held at gunpoint by agents of the state and burning the bodies of dead children on the regular, a vast improvement over QZ life (and obviously major triggers for Joel.) This gives Joel some emotional space to come to terms with his trauma and start to heal and recover, pulling him out of this cycle of constant retraumatization. It's like with Maslow's hierarchy of needs. QZ Joel could never make it past that first level, when he constantly felt like his life was at risk he can't do the bigger work of healing and self actualizing. All his emotional energy is spent on survival. Once he has the space to do it, he can start to heal and be a partner to Doc.

ANYWAY I know I basically wrote a super long novel here lol! I hope it makes sense (and know that my interpretation is NOT the only valid one!!! It's definitely OK to be like "nah I think if they'd done x differently it would have worked.") I definitely get sad about all their lost years from time to time but I'm so glad they found their way back to each other in the end.

Thank you for reading and for reaching out!! Love you!!!

[headstrongblake]

would your muse prefer to be freezing cold or really hot? what's the one piece of clothing your muse couldn't live without? what's your muse's dream car/vehicle? does your muse believe in marriage? do they ever want to get married? / both kids :'3 / @thewholecrew

would your muse prefer to be freezing cold or really hot?

nicklas - really hot octavia - warm

what's the one piece of clothing your muse couldn't live without?

nicklas - his leather jacket honestly. he's had one at various stages of his life, but he got the one he wears regularly just before finding the gang. octavia - lmao this girl over here trying to say any of her emerald or black clothing and im like..... that's the majority of your wardrobe baby, pick something else. so for this verse, she's going to go with her different fishnets because she is OBSESSED with styling them under ripped jeans, dresses, skirts, shorts, pretty much anything tbh.

what's your muse's dream car/vehicle?

nicklas - a '67 chevy impala octavia - honestly, a jeep wrangler in black

does your muse believe in marriage? do they ever want to get married?

nicklas - yes and no. in his teens and very early twentys nicklas viewed marriage as the ultimate commitment between himself and the person he loves. it also meant he someone made it. he saw it as a way to let the world know that that person was his, and he was theirs, and in a sense, prove to himself that despite his brokenness he's capable of love. however, his views have shifted as he's matured and gotten older and doesn't actively seek someone to fix him xD i think he still believes in marriage, but perhaps not necessarily for himself anymore. he likes the idea of having someone to call his wife so that he can proudly display his commitment and love to his wife, but now, nick is just as happy to be committed to someone without the legalities of it. although i could see him, after years of dedication, referring to his person as his wife regardless of actual marital status or not. also him saying this is my wife is not about ownership but more about like DAMN, look at this goddess, this woman, that's my wiiiife! ya know? octavia - yes and no, but again it's complicated. she doesn't believe a marriage = happiness or even commitment. in her childhood, she's never been shown a healthy marriage, and so to her, it almost seems like a trap. a way for someone to claim their love, all while locking them into a forever despite any bad. her father nearly killed her mother and prior to that, octavia watched their unhappiness for years, a marriage didn't make a happy family. HOWEVER, the yes part comes in because deep down, whether she's admitted it or not, octavia desperately craves a lifelong happy family and marriage. she wants to know she'll never be alone. she wants to be shown that they will be there forever. if you ask her right now if she ever wanted to get married, outwardly she would probably say she didn't know. deep down, yes, she does want to get married.

[discoveringthebible]

Pride 2025 Part 5

(Some) Old and New Testament Passages

As Pride Month comes to a close today. I found it fitting to finish this blog series by a Scripture Study. While I cover more in my book, I found these particular verses to be a great start. As always, here is the link to my book if you are interested. And it is available in paperback and ebook. https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0CN9MNCK2

Old Testament Scripture Passage:

Genesis 2:24: This explains why a man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one Many Christians use this passage to justify the "one man; one woman" when it comes to Biblical marriage. If we take a close look, even in the English translation, there is the assumption that the two are already married and the joining comes after marriage. Marriage is not even used in this verse, and yet people use it to justify their ideas of marriage.

The original Hebrew word for wife in Genesis 2 24 is ishshah (pronounced EE-shah) which can also mean woman or female, not just wife. And wife is the second definition, not the first. All but one English translation uses the interpretation "wife", but interprets it as "marries a woman" (CEV). Next, let's take a look at the original word "joined." Dabaq (pronounced daw-bak) is used approximately 55 times in the Old Testament. It has several definitions, including to cling, stick, stay close, cleave, keep close, stick to, stick with, follow closely, join to, overtake, catch."

To continue with Hermeneutics and synthesizing information (see Part 2 in this series here https://www.tumblr.com/discoveringthebible/785758773811822592/part-2?source=share), we see that people have used this term to mean "sex," [as in sexual relations], but that is not the original intention of the world. If that were the case when we see this word in the book of Ruth, that would indicate that Ruth and Naomi had sex with one another.

In the King James Version, dabaq is interpreted in both verses as "cleave." To say Genesis means "sex" and for Ruth to mean otherwise is a gross misinterpretation of Scripture.

Martin Luther had a problem with the Catholic Church in his day taking advantage of illiteracy among the people. The Church would change Scripture to say whatever they wanted, because most people couldn't read, they blindly accepted what the Church was telling them. With the abundance of free resources on the internet, it has never been easier for someone to look up the original Hebrew and Aramaic of the Old Testament and interpret back to English, even without learning those languages.

Genesis 18:20: NIV: Then the Lord said, "The outcry against Sodom and Gomorrah is so great and their sin so grevious" First, we can see that Sodom and Gomorrah is full of sin. And it is full of victims crying out to the Lord for help. And God is moved to action. This indicates that God is a God of compassion. God is a God of love. And because of God's love and compassion, He was moved into action. Many, in fact, most Christians, point out that this sin was sodomy and/or homosexuality.

It is not just in the book of Genesis in which we read about the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah. In Ezekiel 16, for example, God is giving a message to Ezekiel to give to Jerusalem. And in this message, God reveals the real sin of Sodom. [This message is also applicable to Israel right now as their leadership continues to slaughter Palestinians in Gaza].

Ezekiel 16:46-50: 46: "Your older sister was Samaria, who lived with her daughters in the north. Your younger sister was Sodom, who lived with her daughters in the south. 47: But you have not merely sinned as they did. You quickly surpassed them in corruption. 48: As surely as I live," says the Sovereign Lord, "Sodom and her daughters were never as wicked as you and your daughters. 49: Sodom's sins were pride, gluttony, and laziness, which the poor and needy suffered outside her door. 50: She was proud and committed detestable sins, so I wiped her out as you have seen." God actually called the people of Israel more corrupt than the people of Sodom! [And yet, we remember Sodom and what we were taught about that they did was actually wrong!]

New Testament Scripture Passage:

1 Corinthians 6:9-11: CJB: 9: Don't you know that unrighteous people will have no share in the Kingdom of God? Don't dilute yourselves--people who engage in sex before marriage, who worship idols, who engage in sex after marriage with someone other than their spouse, who engage in active or passive homosexuality, 10: who steal, who are greedy, who get drunk, who assail people with contemptuous language, who rob--none of them will share in the Kingdom of God. 11: Some of you used to do those things. But you have cleansed yourselves, you have been set apart for God, you have come to be counted as righteous through the power of the Lord Yeshua the Messiah and the Spirit of our God. Sexual sin is not something that God takes lightly.

In verse 9 we see the Greek word pornos (pronounced por'-nos) and malakoi arsenokoitai (pronounced mal-ak-oi' and ar-sen-ok-oy'-tye). Technically, while they are two distinct words, the Apostle Paul used them together to better describe what was sinful. Let's first begin with the word pornos. According to Strong's Dictionary it means "a fornicator, a man who prostitutes himself." This word appears 10 times in the New Testament. The Complete Jewish Bible interprets this word as "who engage in sex after marriage with someone other than their spouse." Next we see malakoi arsenokoitai. According to Strong's Dictionary, malakoi means, "soft, effeminate." According to Thayer's Greek Lexicon; soft; soft to the touch; effeminate. According to Dictionary.com, effeminate means, "(of a man or boy) having traits, tastes, habits, etc., traditionally considered feminine, as softness or delicacy.

Next, let's look at aresenokoitai. According to Strong's Concordance, it means, "a sodomite, a male engaging in same-sex sexual activity." In the Bible, we see examples of how fathers comfort their children, and how mothers comfort their children. They do it very differently. Even Jesus is quoted in both Matthew and Luke using feminine terminology to protect His people (see Matthew 22 27 and Luke 13 34). There are times in life when we need to take a more "masculine" approach and when we need to take a more "feminine" approach. Not only do we as humans do this, but so does God. This then, cannot be what Paul is calling a sin. Effeminate has two meanings.

It is the second meaning that Paul is referring to, not the first. "Characterized by excessive softness, delicacy, self-indulgence, etc." Paul was calling out the men who prefer to live the self-indulgent lifestyle. The kind of life where they do not work for themselves or their livelihoods. He was calling out the selfishness of this lifestyle, not homosexuality or men being "too soft." We all need to be more compassionate, more empathetic, more loving and less selfish. In Genesis, after The Fall, we are told to "till the land." We would have to work for a living. This doesn't mean that "God will only help us if we help themselves." The Bible tells us that God will provide for us everything that we need. God will make our work fruitful.[And for those who are disabled and unable to work, God also placed provisions on the abled bodied to care for the poor and the sick.]

Pride Month is coming to a close. This doesn't mean LGBTQ+ people will go back to "hiding." We are pretty flamboyant and hiding is not a good look for us. This does not mean we don't have to talk about how our rights are being taken from us.

It is a shame that our existence has been so vilified over misinterpretations of Scripture. It is a shame we have to fight to live and be accepted as if our sexuality was a choice.

If heterosexuality isn't a choice, neither is homosexuality.

I hope that this blog series (and it was a hope when I published my book), that at least it would have people consider what the Bible actually says about homosexuality and queerness instead of taking it blindly by Biblical interpreters.

If you wanna see a wonderful documentary, check out 1946: The Mistranslation that Shifted Culture https://www.1946themovie.com/

Much love, peace and blessings,

Cody Marie

(Also, this makes blog #100 on my page!)