#“i'll trade my life”

[nexadarling]

I'm fucking shaking over vash and wolfwood rn, oh my GOD

[lunarharp]

shirahama-sensei reminded me she has a thing for the teacher from pokemon s/v so i randomly went off on an au where qifrey is the professor. etc

[marypsue]

butch this, femme that, but where can I find a woman who'll be the weird punk nerd to my slightly sheltered cheerleader princess who falls for her over the jerk jock

[tbh-entp]

My ENTP dad's employees told him the reason why I'm single and not birthing grandkids is that he raised me to be too independent and not take shit from men because he treats my INTJ mom so well.

and i know they didn't quite mean it as a positive because this came up in comparing photos of the grandkids and them tell him why he's got none... but it's a little twisted because what they're saying is that their daughters aren't being treated well...?

[ainumatia]

I can do better I'm just really *honk*ed up now. So sorry ♥️

@poppy-purpura h e r e

[frankensteined]

this romance being the softest and the cutest and the hottest and the horniest and the saddest and the most hopeful romance i've experienced in a video game in possibly ever was absolutely not something i was prepared for on my first run of this game

[skillbattle]

omg i dont think ive said it here but big news im gonna get an ita bag sometime this week and i've gained a bunch of new charms and pins and silly trinkets for my shelf and my collections growing and i am so happy :]

[oldmanontumbler]

Outta curiosity - reblog and put in the tags the ways your brainrot has consumed you the most. Like, my little brother is on his 15th rewatch of NCB Hannibal. What about you? What's your sign of brainrot?

[yuseirra]

I'm sorry for being so chatty(I'm like that when there's an update!)

I think I understand Kamiki's analogy much better now(ofc I can be wrong but, I'm pretty positive I get things right)

The question for me was always how much he's broken, not about whether he's broken or not.

So, my earlier comics about him's actually not totally off(I don't think so?) although I did draw him very soft in general!

It just comes down to the fact that losing Ai shattered him down to the entire core. Way more than I thought...I'm not sure if it's safe to say he's loved her that much, because.. It could be taken as something really selfish of him to have done what he's said to have done...can you call that love!! But geez.. It shifted him into an entirely different person; so Ai basically is someone that took over his life to that extreme extent. She wouldn't have wanted for him to be this way, she really cares for him...good god kamiki you shouldn't let her down but I guess the authors made you do it already. That's really sad...I'm a little speechless, he used to be so sweet. I hope there's some meaning to destroy a character like that.

That aside... I do think 154 is a glimpse of how he is originally? He lies even then but... I guess he gets tender whenever Ai is brought up. It's sad... If nothing happened to him, if only Ai was just alive, then he would have been happy. I think so. So he was an empty husk ever since she didn't exist in the world and he never felt alive after that, so he tried to fill in that hole somehow in a very, very horrible way if what is being said is true(give me evidence that it really happened though omg;;). Should have known from what Fatal indicates, he was that hollow. It's like he didn't know what to do after her death.

He was still able to make friends and smile even after Ai left him, it's not the fact he was dumped he became like this isn't it? What gets me is that his original personality leans on the timid side. He never fought back when people hurt HIM.

And then Ai dies and he loses it...What should we do with this guy, gosh. And it's not like I thought it'd be so different, it's exactly how I thought things'd be in theory but it's awful to see it actually being displayed really blatantly. Is this right? It doesn't feel right to have things left it at this.

Fatal is so perfect!! It embodies his mentality so... amazingly in an identical sense!! I knew it would, but I'm still really impressed. How can a soft person grow this desperate and insane?? Well it's what's drew me in, I knew it was going to be there but he's too insane. Help him!! Save him. I don't think he was originally like this. The person in that song needs help..; give Ai back to him o<-< wow.. He really went that far.

Onk is suffering ugh, I really don't know if I will be able to still pity this guy if he's gone too far beyond redemption but, what's happened to him shouldn't have happened. He should not be the one to carry the entire blame or be the antagonist of the series. Shouldn't end here, it's terrible... Don't just push him over and claim things are over because it ain't ever going to be. At least, I don't see it being so! My hope is Ai's message; that's like the only thread of string of hope I believe in.

[orcelito]

God I don't wanna go to therapy tomorrow. Sick of talking about my feelings in a clinical setting. I do enough psychoanalysis just by myself, and now I gotta sit through it with someone else??? Come on.

[silverwhittlingknife]

superboy: the man of tomorrow 1 spoilers

(it's just one panel but below the cut just in case)

memory identification: go!

[wasabikitcat]

As someone with chronic illness it's always confused me when people fear-monger about HRT by saying stuff like "It has a chance to cause [insert symptom here] as a side effect!" Like yeah man, that's kinda what medications do. They cause side effects, it's basically like a law of equivalent exchange thing. You discuss with your doctor your options and weigh whether the side effects are worth the benefit. I thought everyone knew this?

[katyspersonal]

Speaking of "something intimate touched by dirty hands", I'll be real, I kinda do still need someone to "cleanse" image of Mic0lash for me. Ever since the grand fandom rift I've of course fallen onto the better side where fans are trying their best, I just can tell my Mic mutuals are trying their best with the guy. But something so incredibly bad is connected with the character- You guys know how negative experiences with people can ruin a character (and you're in luck if not the whole piece of media)? This character for me is a manifestation that if someone claims to really love and need me, I should keep in mind that it is a lie I should not trust.

I should know by now that when something sounds too good to be true - it IS, but he is like... an "avatar" of that realization. Someone I could just look at at be reminded without the words that yes, I should remember that I'll never be happy or valued like I want to. That my "ability" to see something good even in the darkest people or to listen to the intention of even the most distorted message is reserved for someone else. For something else. I am just not built for things like long friendships, celebrating holidays, exploring the world together, just being loved, just being able to trust, just being cared about, just sharing life with someone. My role in this world is to be a "tutorial enemy". Someone people would have a negative experience with but in exchange, understand who they are and what they really want in life, and let go of their struggles and wishes that tormented them. But I feel like I can only fulfill my purpose in this world for as long as I am ignorant about it. If I stop trusting people and seeking the type of love I need - I won't get attached, so I won't get hurt when people hurt me, so I won't be slain. Because this is what I am in - a videogame enemy that people need to defeat to level up and proceed to their own games. And if I stop respawning - how I can be what I am?

I just should not learn a thing, because people better off after they "murder" me. More cruel and reclused, but better off - more self-sufficient, more confident, more.. secure of how much good they deserve. It would just help them to be more cautious when someone actually toxic appears. Like, someone who is not even self-aware, not struggling and not remorseful. So they won't take chances, to the better.

But I just need to blind myself to the truth, because I've got nothing better to offer to this world than being that "tutorial enemy". People are better after slaying me. I drop Insight points upon being stabbed, and it happened so many times. I guess this character is just cursed with being associated with a truth so horrible that it is better off not realizing it and just be moved like a pawn.

[ibijau]

today I feel very lonely, and very stupid

[scary-monsters]

i have today off, i'm gonna try and get caught up on asks and maybe peek at discord later, i also have some trade art i need to finish asap (i haven't even started it.. irl life kinda had to take priority for a week so i haven't drawn much at all in general) and commissions to work on.. apartment needs to be cleaned too, so 😩 i have A Lot to do today

[neobastard]

as much as i kinda despise the new way, i have to admit the ease of getting the one or two UC pets that i really wanted but didn't want to deal with the elitism of the pound chat to obtain is admittedly very tempting