#“Don’t push me away.”

[sorrowful-hyacinth]

Whumpril 2023

Coincidence

Day 6: “Don’t push me away.”

Contents: TW blood, bruises, and burns, Caretaker, Whumpee, Signs Of Abuse, Stormy Weather, Reluctance To Accept Help, Fear, Begging, Whimpering.

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The clouds rolled in, dark and heavy. It took no time for the rain to start pouring on unsuspecting people who had been deceived by the clear skies mere minutes ago. The rain fell like pins and needles at rapid speeds. The wind was unmerciful to anyone without a windbreaker or even those with umbrellas.

“Fuck.”

Dolion ducked into the nearest alley way. The wind couldn’t reach him in between the brick buildings, except for the occasional channel that swept pass him. He got his phone out from his right pocket and called for a ride.

Soft crying could be heard just barely, practically carried by the wind. Dolion looked to his left, further down the alley way. He had only just noticed a crouched figure behind a dumpster. Should I help them? He took a few step towards the figure. His footsteps were louder than he would have liked them to be, no thanks to the expanding puddles that have almost engulfed the concrete. The closer he got, the more noticeable the crying became.

Not wanting to scare them, Dolion let out a light, “hey.”

The crying turned into whimpering, they’re legs pulled closer into themselves. Dolion came into view of the figure and was taken aback by the sight. The sniffling man was littered with bruises and fresh cuts that had dry blood washing away with the rain. They were sitting in a puddle dyed a faint red. It took him too long to notice the burn on their cheek, as if an iron was pressed to their face. They only had a t-shirt and shorts on, they shivered from both the rain and the fear.

“p-p-ple-se d-don’t h-h-hurt m… me.”

The man looked up with pleading eyes through his wet, matted hair. They were red and puffy. Dolion crouched in front of him. The man very noticeably flinched.

“I’m not going to hurt you. I-I want to help you. What happened to you?”

The man tucked his head into his legs, not wanting to answer. Dolion took his jacket off and threw it on top of the mans head and shoulders. The man quickly shoved Dolion to the ground. He tried to press himself impossibly further into the wall and curled back up into his ball, practically ignoring the jacket as if he hadn’t noticed it was on him.

Dolion, surprised by the reaction, simply got up to his crouched position again. He reached for the jacket so that he can readjust it. He anticipated the man’s movements this time. Dolion grabbed his arms before he could use them causing him to whimper.

“Don’t push me away.”

The man tried to tug his arms away from Dolion but he was clearly too weak to resist.

“I gave you my jacket, I want to help you. Please don’t be scared.”

The man stopped his struggling and took a moment to finally notice the jacket that had been covering his head. Dolion released his arms, but the man kept them in the air. Dolion reached for the jacket and adjusted its position so the rain wouldn’t hit the man’s face.

“Is that better?”

The man nodded, taking back his arms and tucking them away. “Th-thank y-you sir.” He still seemed tense, but clearly confused by the act of kindness.

Before Dolion spoke up, he heard a honk to his right. He looked over and saw his ride. He was happy to get out of the rain, but he didn’t want to leave this man here.

“How about we get you out of this storm?”

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Date: April 6, 2023

Taglist: @whumpril

[tojisun]

also i keep thinking about johnny and how he still goes around calling you his girlfriend even when you’re already broken up just cause it makes you reach out to him, texting angrily how not only are you broken up but you’re already talking to someone else. and johnny just goes, “kyle, right? yeah, s’my type too, hen.”

“fuck you,” you reply back.

days later, johnny sends you a selfie of him and kyle with a message that says, “he said i can join!”

“jesus,” you whisper, awed and horrified at the same time. maybe even a little interested too, who knows.

[tsuchinokoroyale]

Happy new years… let’s stay hydrated together ✨

[aulerean]

Me, aimlessly scribbling

My brain, every time without fail: hey what if you drew Catra again remember when we used to draw Catra-

[sweetreveriee]

Just thinking about how for Luke’s parents every parents worst fear came true. Their son ran away, they haven’t had contact in months, don’t even know if he’s alive or where he is, and then one night they turn on the news and there he is, but it’s not because he’s a star. No. He is dead.

The last words that Luke and his mom said to each other were in anger. And we know that Luke’s dad wasn’t even home when he ran away as we can see him just pulling up in the driveway when Emily runs out.

Luke’s last interaction with his mom is him saying he never wants to see her again, but then up until his last days he regrets saying that and keeps looking for ways to reconnect.

But he never got to, because he died. And how did his parents find out? A news channel.

[trrenchertrash]

I was finding it difficult to reconcile with Caitvi’s arc this season, and so I’ve been thinking about it and in the end what made it work for me is that the through line of their entire relationship is trust. In s1 you have lines like “in what mad world would I trust someone like you,” and “this only works if we can trust each other,” and of course we’re shown that they do come to trust each other — up until s2e3, when Cait breaks Vi’s trust, breaks her promise. Then they reconnect in act 2 and hesitantly decide to put their trust in each other again, but not without wariness. That’s why Vi has a contingency plan set up with Jinx. She’s giving Caitlyn a second chance to prove herself, to earn that trust back, but she’s not fully convinced. It’s a test, and should Caitlyn fail, Vi is prepared. This leads to their conversation in e8:

Vi: She saved your life! Even knowing you’d never have done the same for her.

Cait: We’ll never know, will we? You didn’t let me in on that part of your plan.

Vi: Clearly the right call, since you still can’t trust her enough not to shove her in a box!

Cait: Trust? You believe I’m so daft I can’t recognize a contingency? She wasn’t there for my benefit, she was there because you didn’t trust me to follow through.

Vi: Can you blame me? How long were you sidled up with that shifty, self-serving war pig? She oinked poison in your ear and you just ate it!

Cait: I know!

Imo, Vi’s “can you blame me?” is the most important part of this exchange. This is Vi holding Caitlyn accountable: Remember what you did? I do. Can you blame me for no longer trusting you?

The second most important part of this exchange is Caitlyn’s “I know!” Her acknowledgement that Vi is right. That yes, she does remember and she knows what she’s done is wrong. She can’t blame Vi.

Initially I was pretty put out that Cait doesn’t outright apologize, but ultimately I think because we’re strapped for time, this is more important. The purpose of an apology is to admit that what you did was wrong and express remorse for it. And here, that’s exactly what happens. Now, Caitlyn’s remorse doesn’t look the way I expected it to. I think I’m probably not alone in that. Her remorse isn’t soft or weepy (at least not at this point), instead it’s angry and loathsome. But the next steps here are clear. Caitlyn needs to find a way to repair the trust that’s been broken between herself and Vi. And she does, by letting Jinx go, in direct contrast to the action that broke that trust in the first place. It’s I trust you to choose, and you can trust me to stand by you while you do. It’s proof that Vi’s “I always choose wrong” isn’t true (and it’s not, because the narrative payoff of freeing Jinx is that she’s able to rally Zaun to swoop in and save the day later on), and it’s proof that Caitlyn is ready to put Vi ahead of herself, as Vi did for her.

All of the turning points in their relationship revolve around the trust between them. S1 is about building the trust between Cait and Vi. The midpoint of their story, the darkest point, is the breaking of that trust. Then the second half of their story is about repairing that trust. It’s all there.

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i realize i will most likely never be loved the way i love and that i have always come second, third or fourth even tho i always make time to put people i care about first because i want the people in my life to feel loved in the same way that i so desperately want to be loved. just came to the realization that i will probably never ever get the love i truly want :,)

[stellewriites]

really fucking grinds my gears how my dad knows just how to make me feel fucking guilty for putting up boundaries and saying no

[padfootastic]

Sirius having a hatred of the Slytherins annoys me. A) James is the one to make the comment about rather leaving than being in the House, to which Sirius is not smiling and says his whole family has been there, so he’s clearly unamused by it; he even semi-defends it because when Snape says Gryffindor over Slytherin is fine if you’d rather be brawny than brainy, Sirius asks where he’s planning to go since he’s neither, implying he thinks Slytherin is better than Snape deserves. B) when he says Snape was part of a gang of Slytherins who all grew up to be Death Eaters, that literally just explains how Snape came to socialize with them as they’re in the same house? And it’s a straight up fact? He’s not hating them for being Slytherins, he’s disapproving of their life paths as homicidal bigots waging war

right like, just such an annoying little fanon factoid that has been accepted as general truth. i cannot tell u the amount of fics i’ve read where it’s just taken for granted that sirius is anti-slytherin. esp in the,,,indy/!harry ones, or where he’s in slytherin, or the grey/dark harry fics. just so much of-

sirius: i cannot believe ur hanging out with slimy snakes harry

harry: they’re actually polite and mature and correct and smart and the only ones with rational thinking

sirius: wah wah my godson!! evil!! how will i face james!! lily wouldn’t have cared but ur dad would be heartbroken!!

harry: so immature, you and dad tsk. now i shall go join the death eater who are infinitely more level headed and intelligent

and that’s it. it’s so ridiculous. U CAN WRITE THIS HARRY WITHOUT MAKING SIRIUS SO COMICALLY BIGOTED?!? ugh.

[sadgirlautumn]

I seriously think girls who are in a fandom centered around men need to go to therapy the second they start hating on men’s real life girlfriends. It’s possible to have a crush and read/write fanfic about a man without absolutely tearing down his girlfriend at every second I promise. If I could do it, you can too!

[deerlisteners]

thinking abt felix being protective of areadbhar and feeling entirely normal about it actually

[toddtakefive]

btw todd’s reluctance to join the dps because he doesn’t want to read (which is then accommodated for) and is scared to put himself out there (which is also worked through) being read as todd not wanting to go AT ALL, and thus neil making the proper accommodations (“todd anderson, who prefers not to read, will keep the minutes of the meetings”) and encouraging him to step out of the box that stifles him being seen as ‘forceful’ or like he can’t take no for an answer makes me insane with rage

[lanternlightss]

loop ….

[thetwilightroadtonightfall]

watched Elemental today <- is asian

[himblebo]

In Act 2 of Lempicka when Tamara and Rafaela enter Le Monocle for the first time they look around at all the women together and Rafaela says “a room full of nothing but US” and Tamara says “let’s never leave” and guys I just went to a lesbian bar for the first time (okay it’s actually a deli but they turn it into a lesbian bar at night) and GUYS? That is the safest I have ever felt out drinking and dancing and I felt so natural and I was surrounded by other queer women and that’s. That’s the first actual queer space I’ve been to in YEARS and especially post-pandemic. And I’m feeling such an overwhelming mix of emotions right now because I didn’t realize how isolated I felt from the queer community in my day to day life (ie not online). I just. God.

Dedicated queer spaces are so important. Lesbian bars are so important. This is the only one I’ve been to but I’m VERY aware that these days there are fewer and fewer of them but I just. I didn’t know how badly this kind of place and experience and connection to community was missing from my life until I suddenly had it tonight.

[pinksepia]

I think my issue with life makeover is that there is a lack of tops and bottoms and mix matching tops and bottoms like don’t get me wrong some of them are nice and all but some of them look the same, same style and everything, there’s a lack of diverse top and bottom outfit selection