#‘hey i wanna quit vaping’

[inner-space-oddity]

MY FUCKIN DIAPHRAGM ITCHES

[hqbaby]

nine — fan favorite

fuck ur instincts — suna x reader & atsumu x reader

you and suna are just fooling around—so why does he care so much when you start falling in love with someone else?

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word count. 1.9k content. swearing, marijuana use, alcohol consumption, use of pet names, mentions of vape, harassment

You don’t quite know how you got here, but it’s not like you’re complaining. 

It’s a Saturday night and you’re outside a convenience store watching Hinata try (keyword: try) to balance himself on the edge of the sidewalk while you, the rest of the volleyball team, and some of your teammates cheer him on. You’re on Atsumu’s shoulders, constantly reminding him not to drop you “or else” as you and Yukie scream the school chant at the top of your lungs.

An elderly woman walks out of the store and you catch her eye as she passes by. She offers you a kind smile and you can’t help but smile back, all teeth and no care in the world. You wonder if she has similar memories from her college days.

You hope she does. You hope everyone does.

You’re on top of the world—both literally and figuratively. You don’t know if it’s the fact that you’re with your friends (or the copious amounts of alcohol you’ve all just downed, or the weed that you’ve been passing around), but everything seems perfect right now. Like nothing in the world can stop you.

Until, of course, something does.

“I need to pee,” you say, tapping Atsumu’s head. “Let me down please.”

He nods and crouches so you can hop off his shoulders. “Ya need me to come with ya?”

You giggle, already linking your arm with Kaori’s. “No thanks,” you tell him. “Toilet time is girl time.”

He rolls his eyes playfully and waves as the two of you stumble over to the restrooms at the back of the store.

“Where’s she going?” Suna asks him, steadying himself on Atsumu’s shoulder when he stumbles a little. He was the repeated victim of the drinking games you all played earlier and even his (extremely) high tolerance to alcohol proved to be worthless in the face of Jenga.

Atsumu laughs a little at his friend, grabbing him by the shoulder to keep him upright. “Restroom,” he says. “Ya okay there, bud?”

Suna waves him off and hushes him. “Not now,” he says, then, “I need water.”

The other boy grins and props him up against Aran. “I’ll get ya some water. Be right back.” When the others hear him speak, they start asking for water too.. and soda and chips and candy. Before long, Atsumu—the designated sober friend—has a whole grocery list of things he needs to get, making him groan as he goes into the store to get everything.

On the other side of the store, you step out of the restroom and make sure Kaori’s okay before you let her in and close the door behind her. Feeling your head grow a little light, you lean on the brick walls of the building and close your eyes. What a nice night, you think to yourself.

“Hey, princess.”

You grimace. Spoke too soon. Peeling your eyes open, you find two boys standing in front of you. You know exactly who they are.

“Terushima,” you say coldly. “What do you want?”

The boy licks his lips, piercing glimmering in the moonlight. “What makes you think I want anything?” he asks in a teasing tone. “I can’t just say hi to a pretty girl?”

You cross your arms over your chest, ignoring the woozy feeling that’s starting to take over your head. Your eyes dart between Terushima and his friend Bobata. On a regular day, you would’ve gladly decked the two of them—it wouldn’t be the first time. But right now, you just feel sick. “Fuck off.”

Terushima steps forward, a hand coming to either side of your head. “Come on, princess,” he says. His face is so close to yours you can smell the vape on his breath. Vanilla. Basic bitch. “Don’t you wanna have some fun?”

You hear the door to the restroom open. 

“What the fuck’s going on here?” Kaori demands, but before she can say another word, Bobata grabs her wrist. “Don’t touch me!”

“Hey!” you exclaim. Fuck your head, no one grabs your friend like that. You try to free yourself from Terushima to no avail, he’s already gripping your shoulders. “Let go, asshole.”

He smirks. “Come on, Y/N, stop being so difficult. We’re just having fun—”

You blink. Terushima moves away from you, staggering and clutching his cheek.

“Beat it, you lame fucks.”

You feel an arm wrap around your shoulder. It’s familiar. 

Rin.

Holding his hands up in surrender, Terushima backs away and nods his head for Bobata to follow. His friend lets go of Kaori and they walk away.

“See you next time, princess.” He winks at you as they disappear behind the side of the building. “You too, Suna!”

“Pricks!” you yell after them.

You feel your body give, Suna catching you just in time to keep you from falling. It takes you a moment to realize that you were afraid. Those idiots scared you. For good reason, but still. You clench your fists. Assholes.

“Are you okay?” Suna’s voice is gentle against your ear. “Did he do anything?”

You feel yourself relax in his arms. “Just Terushima being Terushima,” you tell him. Your eyes immediately go to Kaori, moving out of Suna’s hold and taking her hands in yours. “Fuck, I’m so sorry,” you say. “I should’ve told you not to come out.”

She shakes her head and narrows her eyes at you. “And leave you alone with them? No way.” She looks over her shoulder and nods at Suna. “Thanks.”

He shakes his head. “Don’t mention it,” he says. “Come on. Let’s get back to the others.”

He keeps his eyes on you as you make your way back. It must be all the adrenaline, but he feels completely sober now. And extremely concerned. What would have happened if he hadn't shown up when he did? The thought makes him want to hurl.

When you’re back with the group, he explains what happened. The mood is dampened and everyone is either angry or worried or both. Atsumu most of all.

He’s at your side at once, asking you if you’re okay and if you need anything.

“I’m fine,” you reassure him. “They do this all the time.”

“That doesn’t make it any better,” Oikawa cuts in angrily. “They never fucking learn, do they? That fucking fan club. Jerks.”

Hinata frowns. “Fan club?”

“A bunch of sick guys on the basketball team,” you explain, clutching your head. If it would just stop pounding, you would be so grateful. But it doesn’t. “I turned one of them down in freshman year and they’ve made it some kind of game to try and get with me.”

“What?” Atsumu is horrified. “So they just do this shit and get away with it?”

You smile bitterly. “I’m used to it,” you say, staring at the concrete. When you’re met with complete silence, you look up and find everyone gaping at you. You recoil. Alcohol makes you talk too much. “I’m fine though!” you insist. “They never do anything anyway. They’re just annoying. I usually just kick them in the nuts and leave.”

Atsumu isn’t having it. “Y/N—”

You put your hand on his mouth. “I don’t wanna talk about it anymore,” you tell him. “Please.”

The two of you stare at each other for a moment. You know he means well, you really do. But you’re used to this crap. Having to talk about it with a bunch of your friends just makes you feel worse and you’d rather not do that if you can help it.

He gives you a reluctant nod and you pull your hand away. “Do ya want anythin’ though?”

You avoid everyone else’s eyes. “I kinda just wanna go home.”

“We can do that,” he says, a small smile on his lips because at least he gets to do something. “C’mon, I’ll get ya back to yer dorm.”

Suna watches from the sidelines as Atsumu plays the role of knight in shining armor, letting you ride his back and helping you say goodbye to all your friends before driving you home.

Somewhere in his alcohol-ridden brain, he wishes it was him who got to do that. Him who could be there for you when you need someone. Instead, he just watches you go, holding his bruising knuckles as you leave.

You wake up the next day in Atsumu’s bed. As much as you wanted to act all tough and cool after what happened last night, Kiyoko had gone home for the weekend and you really didn’t want to be alone in your dorm room. So you asked Atsumu if you could stay with him for the night and, of course, he was more than happy to oblige.

Your eyes are glued to the ceiling, worried that if you move, your hangover will come to bite you in the ass. You feel Atsumu’s arm on top of your stomach, his steady breathing at your side. You know you should be happy to have someone like this, to know he’s right there when you need him. But your mind can’t seem to focus on him. It’s too busy being stuck on something else. 

Well, someone else.

Rin.

He didn’t say a word to you after you got back to the rest of the group, but you could feel his gaze. You know he didn’t take his eyes off of you the entire time.

As much as you’ve wanted to, you haven’t been able to spend that much time with him these past few weeks. You only ever see him when you’re with the volleyball team or with his and Atsumu’s friends. The two of you haven’t been alone in a while—it feels like forever since he last touched you the way only he can.

“Hey.” Atsumu’s voice breaks you from your thoughts.

You smile at him. “Hey.”

He yawns and stretches to the side. “Wanna get some breakfast?”

“Sure.”

The two of you take turns using the bathroom before heading out to the kitchen where Osamu is waiting with two plates of bacon, eggs, and toast. He has a self-satisfied grin on his face.

“My two drunkards!” he greets, loudly. “Need a bucket for yer troubles?”

Atsumu hushes him. “I barely even drank," he says. "For Y/N's sake, shut up."

“I love ya, Y/N, but no. I made ya breakfast, so I can do anythin’ I want.”

You give him the finger and he guffaws.

The two of them bicker as you sit down at the counter and start eating your food. You stare out their curtainless window and chew, mind already drifting.

Rin.

You pull out your phone from the pocket of Atsumu’s hoodie that you’re wearing and find a message waiting for you.

rin: u good?

You try to keep yourself from grinning.

you: just peachy

rin: good for u

rin: i’ve been throwing up all morning

you: take some meds u big baby

rin: don’t have any

you: i can get u some

rin: lmao how

“Y/N, do ya want ice cream?” Atsumu asks, opening the fridge and fishing out a carton.

“That’s mine!” Osamu yells at him, making you wince. He turns to you apologetically and says, “Sorry, Y/N,” before going back to berate his brother. “Stop eatin’ it, ya pig!”

You look back at your phone, fingers hovering over the keyboard. Deep breath.

you: i’ll go to u duh

you: i can hang w u today

rin: is atsumu busy or smtg?

you: nah

you: just wanna spend time with u

You watch as three dots appear, then disappear. Then appear again. Then disappear. Then finally—

rin: cool

notes. this chapter should be named “reader is also bad with feelings” because that’s just where we are rn. also idk why terushima just gives me basketball player vibes like :”) he just has the personality yk?? anyway!! it absolutely makes me warm and fuzzy reading all your comments and tags, i appreciate you all!! sending everyone all the love 🩷

[lovelykil]

Hiii can I request hcs for killua with an so who smokes?? Like weed and vape and stuff like that she’s just someone who enjoys getting high yk? Like would he be against it and try to get her to quit or would’ve he want to try it or and if so do you think he’d get high w her often? I love your work btw I go to your page almost everyday to see if you’ve posted anything you’re honestly one of my favorite writers on here 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

headcanons—

: ➛killua

hc; reader who smokes

cw; 🌬🍃

note; STOP IM blushing tysm 😞

“are you seriously high right now”

I think he would lowkey try it, I mean hell whatever it's just some plant right?

first time he took a hit he either didn't have a reaction or coughed till tears fell out of his face while you tried not to laugh, attempting to help him.

then again I'm pretty sure he would be immune to the cannabis though I'm not entirely sure but for the sake of this headcanon he's not

anyway vaping? I'd assume he thinks vaping is pretty lame, just smoke weed pussy

he actually told you this one time lmao

"do you wanna hit my vape kil?" You held the device, shaking it slightly in your grasp.

he looks at you then the vape.

"vape?"

"yeah, it's watermelon flavored." You smile.

he looks unamused, scoffing at your confused face.

"you're a loser you know."

you almost drop the vape, feeling your eyebrows furrow from annoyance.

"you could've just said NO ASSHOLE"

"no, you needed to know" a cat-like grin paints his face.

killua would probably get high a few times with you just because. He sees you outside and you're already passing the rolled-up joint to him.

"I feel like you only wanna be with me when I'm smoking." You tease, watching him inhale. he takes the rolled-up paper out of his mouth and exhales.

"you're an idiot, of course that's not why." He turns to look at you. You grab the joint back and shrug, "whatever you say." You scoot closer to him and look up at the night sky.

you get high ALOT, while he's not that much into it. He doesn't really realize you do it like 24/7 till you guys get assigned a mission.

like take example the ant arc, training to fight knuckle. Of course you trained, but you actually sneaked away to get yourself seeing rainbows then made yourself back inside.

you, kil, and gon walk your way to where knuckle was. You're currently in the back of the two seeing the sky turn all sorts of peculiar colors as you giggle unconsciously.

the continuous laughing eventually makes killua a little annoyed while gon grows a tad bit concerned.

"y/n are you okay? You've been laughing the past 5 minutes." the ravenette stops, turning around. Killua does the same with his arms crossed, staring at you.

"cause the sky is telling me jokes, there's a talking cloud his name is George." You point up. The boys follow your finger, looking up. The boys look at each other having a mutual puzzled expression.

as kil looked down it finally hit him, his eyes meet yours and he could just see those glossy red eyes of yours. He rubs his face with a grumble.

"oh my god."

"hey y/n you kinda have a weird strong scent coming from you."

now at this point he grasps the intensity of this situation and tells you to maybe lay off the weed for a bit, as a concerned friend or if you guys are together

a concerned BOYFRIEND

he doesn't want you to fuck up your brain, cares for you to much.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hi guys! Got an anon ask with some triggers, so I'm copying it here so I can put a 'read more.'

TW: ED, SH

Here's the original ask:

hey Cas!

hru today? <3

I rlly don’t wanna bother u but I just need some advice bc I’m in a pretty tricky situation and I don’t know who I couldn’t turn to who wouldn’t then tell OTHER people (adults etc)

also a TW b4 anyone reads further: ED (not me but a a friend) and generally bad mental health (including sh and sui)

Basically I have this friend (one of my best friends) who’s struggled with really bad mental health and attempted in the past (we weren’t friends during this time but they’ve shared it with me) they have told me they no longer sh but I’m not entirely sure if I believe him on that but I guess there’s nothing to do except just take their word for it and they are definitely doing better than they were before (about a year or two ago)

thing is this friend does still have a (pretty bad I think) ED (specifically I think they have anorexia but I’m really not sure because I don’t know that much about EDs. I’ve tried to do some research but it’s actually incredibly hard to find any info about them especially in terms of ways to emotionally show support. In a medical sense they always seemed to be talked about like minor things(?) idk it’s hard to explain but often times I’ve been reading actual factual medical stuff and just been disgusted at the ways it’s discussed, like they try so hard to describe it from a technical viewpoint that they essentially the entire mental health aspect of it which kind of demeans the whole thing bc EDs ARE a mental health disorder)

sorry went on a little side rant there but basically I’ve tried to find stuff out but it’s really hard to learn about the mental health aspect and even harder to find stuff out about how to HELP someone through an ED

I’ve even resorted to looking thru some more unsavoury places for info (including anablr), I know these types of places encourage EDs and I am actually not a person who really loves their body very much but I do think I’m in a strong enough place emotionally to do this (and so far I’ve been correct, I’m unaffected) because I just wanted some actual insight on what it’s like

the problem with my friend is that she’s ALREADY in therapy. Her parents put her in it when they found out about her vaping habit but they just lie all the time (she tells me about it) because they have like serious trust issues due to past trauma and I’m gonna be honest, I 100% believe therapy is a good thing but sadly it is also entirely useless if the person doesn’t make any effort to get better

all I can do in that aspect of it is hope the therapy is going better than the jokes he makes about it or that eventually she will feel comfortable enough to share and process her issues

in terms of the ED what im really lost with is how to help

and don’t get me wrong, I know you can’t really help a person who doesn’t want to be helped but honestly I’m not giving up on this person I care about that easily. I will NOT be another person in their life who abandons them for being ‘too much’ or ‘too difficult’. I’ve already accepted the fact that I will not be able to help them out of it really (as best as I can at least)

I’ve already taken to carrying gum and mints in my school bag as much as I can (usually I’ll have a pack of both and I just share them with everyone so this person doesn’t actually catch wind that they’re the reason I do as quite often when they skip lunch they do help themselves to a few of my mints or gum pieces but ik if they knew it was for them they’d stop bc she’s just like that)

I just don’t know how else to help emotionally though, I’m one of the only people (I might be the ONLY person at all) that they feel comfortable enough to talk to about these issues and I just think its better that they’re telling someone who cares about them and is trying to help than telling no one at all which seems to be the alternative. The issue is I don’t know how to respond or show support especially because (thank u trust issues and trauma (/s) the window of vulnerability is SMALL (I’m talking a couple of seconds literally) before they’re joking and changing the subject

Also a small (but frankly compared to the rest of this, not very important) detail is that like I previously mentioned I am also not suuuper happy with my body ( I don’t sh really or have an ED in any way shape or form) and sometimes the stuff he says slightly upsets me (just like once I told him about how my mean grandma told me I was fat and had to eat less and he said his grandma forces him to eat more and that my grandma ‘sounds like her wet dream’ - I know this was just a joke obviously but I didn’t rlly love it considering my grandma is a pretty big source of my looks based insecurities)

like I said in no way is it on the same level and obviously I know it’s not coming from a place of malice because this friend also really looks out for my mental health like way more than my other friends tbh (I don’t know if it’s bc they struggled with it or whether they’re the only one who seems to notice I’m the therapist friend haha but they are the FIRST person to ask if anything’s wrong if I’m acting different and I rlly want to stress that because I know that from what I’ve said so far they may have come across as selfish or something but they are actually one of the kindest people ever) that’s especially why I’m worried if I bring anything up about wanting to help with little things or especially anything about not being a fan of little jokes that she’ll just stop talking about it at all in an attempt to make me feel more comfortable)

for context for all of this, I’m 15 (we both are) so still in school and they’re parents absolutely SUCK (in the most non violent way possible I would like to kill them [not actually but I do really hate them and wish them only the worst]) so there’s no emotional support coming from home for him

I don’t really have anyone I can talk to about this in real life because (for privacy reasons) they’ve asked me not to share it with like my other friends and I don’t have the greatest relationship with my parents (they’re not like abusive or neglectful or anything but we just have a lot of differences and just I’ve very much emotionally distanced myself from them)

sorry if this is too much because I do know it’s a really tricky situation and even though all of us sort of deify you, you’re still only one person and if this does make you uncomfortable or upset (not just if it’s triggering I mean just in general if you’re reading this and you don’t feel comfortable) in anyway please don’t force yourself to answer or feel guilty if you don’t because the last thing I’d want to do is put you in that kind of position

Im not sure if ill send in more anons but if I do then ill refer to myself (and you can call me) lacy anon so you know who I am (yes after the song bc i rlly love it haha)

Anyway sending lots and lots of love from the person who does basically look up to you as their adult role model and who I wanna be like when I’m older <3

Hi love! You're not bothering me at all!

So, first, I want to let you know that I am an adult, but when I say this, I hope you don't take it as...condescending, I guess? Because I don't mean it that way at all. I want to be realistic in the fact that these things you are dealing with are VERY grown-up and scary, and you are handling them in a remarkably mature way, but you are still legally fifteen.

This is way too much for a fifteen year old to take on.

You genuinely seem like the most amazing person. The fact that you have done research and carry around things for your friends, all to help them with their ED is frankly restoring my faith in humanity a bit. But I worry that you are placing WAY too much of the responsibility on yourself. I don't mean to be bleak or too blunt, but if god forbid anything ever happened, I would hate for you to blame yourself, and it sounds like you would. Your job is to be this person's friend. Not their therapist or caretaker.

So, here's my advice: I absolutely agree that you should not give up on them! But make sure you have boundaries. It broke my heart to read that you were going to places like anablr just to help- that's not healthy for you! As a friend, especially at your age, your most important job is to make sure your friend doesn't feel alone. And you're doing an amazing job, in my opinion. They seem to be willing to talk to you, and that's a big deal. But, in the best way, you are fifteen, and you don't have to have all the answers! Sometimes, the best way to support someone is to remind them that they are loved and they have someone in their corner. BUT remember that being there for someone doesn't mean you have to sacrifice yourself or your mental health. Say something if a joke makes you uncomfortable. "I love you so much, but that joke makes me feel uncomfortable. Can you maybe not joke like that?" It's okay and healthy to set those boundaries.

Please remember, you are not responsible for this person. You can love them and be there for them and care deeply, but you are responsible for you and your own health. Don't forget you.

My last very gentle suggestion is this: If you ever get to the point that you are so genuinely worried about this friend that you think it is a life-or-death situation, please don't take that on by yourself. I know it is scary, and I know that telling adults mean that there can be ramifications, but remember that if you are genuinely scared, then an adult needs to be there to keep everyone safe. Very bluntly: Trust can be rebuilt but you can't bring people back from some other very permanent decisions.

Again, you are a wonderful person, and a fantastic friend. But remember to take yourself into account and stay safe in all ways. I know this is probably not the advice you want to hear, but I hope maybe you'll consider it.

Sending so much love! <3 <3 <3

[yaminalapis]

@transingthoseformers I wrote a prelude

Prelude: A history of Maumee Lake Plain and its monsters

Since the founding of Detroit in 1701, rumors of monsters of all kinds have abounded. Stories of gigantic insects, too big to be of this world and regionally inappropriate, are almost as old as the city itself. As time marched on, and with no solid proof of their existence, these rumors faded until they were seen as nothing but spooky stories to keep kids inside at night. Little did people realize that these were more than mere stories.

November, 2057

“I can’t believe we have to come down into the sewers just to relax.”

“Hey, you don’t want my parents to see me smokin’ squares, eh?”

Two teenage boys hefted themselves into a large drainage pipe for the Detroit sewers. The taller one was skinny like a beanpole, with ragged red hair hidden under an equally ragged beanie. The smaller was dressed in a cobbled together outfit that had clearly been thrown on last minute.

“Man, I didn’t even wanna smoke, I wanted to go get a coney.”

“We’ll get your damn coney after I have a square.” The taller one snapped, fumbling for a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. “I swear, you need these man, or at the very least a joint.”

“Weed smells gross. I don’t like it.” The shorter boy grumbled, looking at the stained floor sheepishly.

“That’s what vape pens are for, dumbass.” The taller boy hissed, taking a drag from his cigarette. The smoke he exhaled gave the implication he might be a demon in another life. The two stood in silence for what felt like a long time, the sounds of late night Detroit filling the air and any room for conversation.

The shorter boy looked up, his brows furrowed. “Do you hear that?”

“Hear what?”

“That sound. It sounds like jackhammers.”

The taller boy stomped out his cigarette in the stagnant water of the pipe, one final puff of smoke escaping. “Your hearing needs to be checked. There hasn’t been road work in this part of the city for years.”

“I’m not hearing things, it sounds like a jackhammer.” The shorter boy protested.

“I don’t hear anything, quit your-“ the taller boy started to snap, only to stop when he too heard it. It sounded like it was coming from just beyond their position in the tunnel.

After a few tense moments, the noise stopped. Just as the taller boy was about to continue snapping at the shorter one, a jarring crash, like a huge creature smashing through a concrete wall blasted through the drainage pipe mere feet away.

“What the hell is that?!” The taller boy shouted. As the dust settled, it seemed that the crash had just been the drainage pipe collapsing.

That was, until a large hand warped the dust and curled around the broken wall. Then another, on the same side. The creature that emerged from the hole was at least 20 feet tall, probably taller. It had two pairs of arms, an insectoid abdomen branching off its rear, a pair of bent antennae and a set of mandibles caging its mouth, but otherwise looked like a giant woman. The back of its head sported what looked like an ant head, and it’s black and brown coloring made it near indistinguishable from the dim background if not for the purple glow of its eyes cascading down like spotlights on the two boys.

It said nothing, and the boys said nothing back. After what felt like hours of staring, the smaller boy took a picture with his phone, the flash illuminating the entire creature for a brief second. The creature roared, a mix of a woman’s guttural scream and a hissing teapot.

The boys fled in screaming terror, but the creature didn’t pursue them. Instead, it made a chittering sound not unlike snickering.

“Glad to see humans haven’t changed after all these years.” she said, mostly to herself.

“Lasius, what did you find?” Another female voice asked, a similar ant like creature emerged, slightly shorter and red in coloration, but otherwise the same.

“A tunnel?” A smaller voice asked. The owner of the voice peeked over the debris. It was significantly smaller and didn’t carry any specific insect traits, aside from having four arms and a set of antennae.

“No little one. This is too perfect to be a natural tunnel. Invicta, you’re not gonna believe this. I think we made it into the human city.” Lasius said, stepping over the debris and into the drainage pipe itself.

“It took us this long?” The smaller voice asked.

“We’ve been expanding south this whole time, of course we didn’t find an entrance into the city that way.” Invicta said.

Lasius stepped to the edge of the drainage pipe, bracing herself on the rim. “Things have changed significantly since our last encounter with humans. We should report this to the queen and requisition a scouting team.”

“Do you think they’ve developed arms to hurt us yet?” Invicta asked, pulling the smaller creature close.

“It’s hard to say. Humankind has always been skiddish, so if they have the means, they’ll certainly use them. For the colony’s safety, we should close up the tunnel until we can secure it.” Lasius said. “Get the rest of the team, and maybe call a team of wasps to help for good measure. Return Xyloni to the Dome.”

“What?! But we’re just getting interesting!” Xyloni protested, being escorted by Invicta back down the tunnel. Lasius followed after a few more moments of observation.

“Xyloni, this is a matter of not only your safety, but the colony’s safety. When we offered to take you into the mines to observe what ants do, we did not anticipate to find an entrance to a human settlement. This is an extraneous circumstance.” Invicta said. As Lasius pulled what rubble she could back over the entrance, tension hung in the air.

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

I love Janine this episode xD

"They knew I was lying" SLFHFJSKD xDD

I love her lol

"That's concerning" xDD

I mean they could be schools too though lol, tbh I believe them xD

Ahhh I thought it was the mx for a second like wrong first name but it's the spelling xD

JANINE LOL

Honey xD

MELISSA GOING TO GO STAND WITH HER SKFHDJS

Melissa xD

Their face 💀

"Ja" SLFJFHSK JANINE XDD

Jacob I swear if you do it over text or call- sir get it together 😭 xD

SPCJSUANWPAUUUOH NO I'M NOT PREPARED FOR THAT

Imagine if he proposed or something-

Lol sorry xD ik it wouldn't be I just mean like something the opposite xD

Gregory does not want to be here for this xD

OPE NO CHOICE NOW

He didn't say that I just know he won't want to

SLFKGHDKS JACOB STARTING TALKING AROUND GREGORY XDD

Oh poor Gregory I'm so sorry lol

I know it would pain me too lol xD

Also it would be wild if Zach really does go like "I realized how much I love you :))" or like "are you doing okay?" xD

Yk maybe if they break up now we can fix it later in the episode :'))

Maybe :'))

Hear me out xD

Because this moved along a lot quicker than I thought it would from being 7 minutes in lol I thought there would only be time to breakup xD

Though there is still Barbara's whole plot

Also they deserve better than a middle for he episode breakup You Know What if that happens 😤 xD

"I've been rather frustrated" sorry Zach I can't take you seriously- /lh xD

I think honestly any wording in a blunt way just makes it more awkward for Gregory and that may be a reason for it lol xD not that they can't be blunt but yk

Aww and confused 😭😭 stop he sounded so sad :'((

Turns out Zach doesn't think they're having problems :'))

Maybe if they break up Jacob will realize how much he still loves him and wants to be with him :'D or both of them :'D help please :D

Poor Gregory xD sir at this point just leave lol

I would not be able to handle being there for that xD not bc I love them but bc it would be awkward lol

SLFHFSK yeah you have been xD

See this is why you guys never break up because you're too honest and accepting of your faults and sweet xD except clearly not honest enough lol

I swear though if this is all some elaborate ruse

I don't think it is but like xD

"My brother if I could just-" Bro is trying his BEST SLFHSJLDS 💀💀 XDDD

He does not wanna be here for this and I wouldn't either

PLEEEASE don't do this to me I feel like they will and then Gregory's gonna be left standing there awkwardly as the end of the scene 😭

But hey maybe that leaves time for reconciliation :D

Probably not but I can cope :')

It would be funny if Zach asks if it's from quitting vaping lol like the behavior

And nice callback/consistency :)) or if that actually is the reason xD but yk the 7 months thing so who knows

I thought Jacob said he'd been being frustrating and confusing but I went back (just to go back not for that) and he did not so slightly less immediately broke down and was honest there lol

Wait nah he's not gonna-

YEAH COUPLE'S THERAPY LOL

Jacob xD you idiot

Unfortunately this means they will probably break up at the end of the episode :') or before the end anyway

Since it's not now xd

Help I'm hurting

Let's just hope they actually do and it works xD :')

AUGH JACOB

aoguh

oaughHaug my CAPS COME BACK HERE I NEED YOU

AOGUHAUAIOGH

JACOB STOP

JACOB WHY

WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME

The way he said it 😭😭 xD sad and funny

Also!hey :')))) at least this means they could get back together by later :'))

Or he'll back down now lol

But I think we might end the scene and come back to it later? Hopefully not lol

Gregory awkwardly standing there like xD

Let me see his face I need to see it lol

It's my only solace here xd 😭

SKFJHDKS Zach's face xD but also 😭😭😭💔💔 my honey DD':

My honeys honestly 😭😭😭😭 D':

Yep Gregory's awkward xD feeling it I mean

LOL yes run XD

SLFJGHDKS MR. JOHNSON STANDING THERE WITH A TRASH CAN LOL

He just wants to be in on it lol xD

It would be wild if he set all this up-

Sorry I'm fine and rational I promise xD

SLDKFHDKS MR. JOHNSON

A H NO THEY'RE BACK CRAP

But I mean at least I get to see it 😭😭😭 they deserve that much tbh xd

Or maybe they'll talk it out :')? Or be almost at that point and then later we found out they did? Whatever works? Please :')?

The sub stuff is already mostly figured out so we've got plenty of time for this and the other one 😭 unfortunately and fortunately xD

Jacob don't turn it back on him lol

Just stop repeating him man 😭

OKAY Zach said "Jacob. You s" before I paused and the genuine emotion like without comedy there was too much for me I ant handle this 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔

Guys help help guys save me

This is one of the few times I think you'll find me genuinely having a breakdown on my blog show wise lol. Like sadness wise, especially liveblog wise lol

So hey at least there's that xd I am not always happy (with the decisions lol)

Pleeeeas don't do this to me

I should stop the post but I think I wanna keep it going xd all in one post and what not

They deserve that 😭

Ik I'm talking like they're already dead but please guys don't break up xdd

I mean be happy but I want you to be happy together xdd

Okay there was some comedy there vibe wise as I figured out still that hurt 😭

Jacobbbb stop trying to pin the blame on him 😭 ik you hate this but you did it

Honestly despite my screaming howling pain and misery if they really do I will be proud of Jacob for actually doing it lol

And I'm afraid that's what's supposed to happen xd 😭

HE DID NOT

Jacob stop gaslighting him 😭 I love you but sir xd

AWW APIGUOSHUHHH- I can't the that time oh my gosh

He's about to do it

Or actually force Jacob to be honest

Or break my heart (though both of those would) but yk in a separate way like about he was gonna propose at some point or how much he loves him or something

That would just about kill me and I would die right here 😌

OKAY NOPE IT WAS A "WHAT'S GOING ON" OPTION TWO GUYS HONESTLY THE BEST OUT OF ALL BUT NOW I HAVE TO CONFRONT IT 😭😭😭💔

And so do they 😭😭😭💔 :'((

JACOBBBB NOOOO

But also don't deny it I mean xd

Tbh I just don't deserve this

One second let me just-

AAAAAAAAAUOOUUUGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-

I'm fine :')

Yk what no no I'm not 😭😭😭😭 :'((

Screaming sobbing throwing up how could you do this to me

No Jacob don't deny it sir I swear-

JUST BE FREAKING HONEST

OKAY AIGOGDUUAGAUUHHHOGIHHGGGGH but at least the did :') 😭😭😭😭😭💔

Jacob. That hurt me. How could you ever do this to me

Zach's gonna agree or something and that lessens the chances of fixing it but also that makes it slightly easier sooo idk xd

Okay at least we're being genuine now 😭😭😭💔 :'((

Honeyyyys 😭😭😭💔 I mean yeah that tracks but xd the afraid to rip of the band-aid bit, as the reason I mean lol

Okay bandage my bad I paused lol

OH MY GOSH HE'S ABOUT TO SAY SOMETHING WHILE SOUNDING LIKE HE'S CRYING LIKE THAT HE LOVES HIM I'M NOT OKAY-

Y'all this is too emotional for them to get back together they're really doing this to me 😭 I haven't accepted it till now and probably won't for the next 26 years but yk x'd

AOUGHHHHHAHHHHH "THIS SUCKS" YES IT DOES SUCK 😭😭😭💔💔💔

Not as bad as it could've been though, what he said wise :')

Yeah 😭😭😭😭💔

. . . do I deserve a kiss for all my efforts/pain though (the answer is yes but will I get one xdd a goodbye kiss for them I mean lol)

Should you be doing this in the middle of the school day by the way guys x'D sorry unrelated lol

Not really but yk xd

I better get a hug though not just a dejected stand

AOUGH NOPE THEY'RE GONNA CONTINUE TALKING OUCH

AUGHO why'd you have to say thank you I deserved an I love you there

We can worry about Jacob's growth later let me be sad and emotional and in the moment 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔❤️

SLFKFHSK JACOB

SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID THAT xd

I swear if the only reason Zach wanted to actually break up was because of the stuff you've been doing Jacob-

IF YOU'VE KILLED THIS FOR ME xd-

It is not a funny story Jacob bc ik that's what you're gonna say after really when I unpause this lol xd

Yep xD

And I think Zach agrees lol

Yk this was almost amicable xd

JACOB

How many times did that happen xD

I appreciate the jokes to lighten the mood but guys xdd

Also honestly just let me be sad lol I need it xd

NOT THE FULL NAME

Sir this was so close to being amicable 😭😭

I mean I don't want the secret but like xD

APCIENAO IS HE GONNA CALL HIM A SOB

Probably not but xD

Glad we're also acknowledging Jacob's non-growth lol

AOCURUANODAUHOL NOPE JUST THE B :O

SLFKGJDKHS LOWKEY ICONIC THOUGH ON ZACH'S PART AND ON JACOB FOR BEING CALLED THAT XD

Hold up now xd-

The what 😭

Guys I am not emotionally okay xdd

I'm shaking as I try to breathe lol

And I cannot take seriously what Zach is doing right now 😭😭 xD

Desperately hoping I get more in my feels so I can avoid this /hj-

WHY IS THE KRAKEN FLAPPING. ZACH.

YES understandable Zach xD but the yes was also for Jacob bc it needed to be said

Sweet prince??? Slfjghsks??? What do y'all have going here I swear xDD

Honestly fair though Zach don't have to care xd

But also. Did you have to try and break my heart in every possible guys xd

Zach this is about to be uncalled for- :OO >:OO THEY WERE NEVER FUN

Yk idk if I could get over this if they did ret back together ngl xdd

My babeys don't deserve this 😭😭😭😤💔

Fair and real though for Zach to go off mans was just broken up with

Also I cannot help but figure Mr. Johnson and Gregory are listening at the door 💀

:OOO AT TRIVIA NIGHT!!

Okay now Jacob looks angry too and fair enough xdd

Also not the callback to the first time we saw Zach, and I don't deserve this :))) 😭. The and isn't needed there but idk I wanted it

SLFJFHSKDS NOT THE SINGING XD

Fair and real Zach but also

Zach leads the choir song-

Awww honeyyy 😭😭😭😭💔💔

Now give me the sadness back xdd

Yk the anger makes it easier but also I still don't deserve this xd

Also as I've been wondering, where is Janine in all this 😭 your bestie needs you D':<

Yep Gregory's is stills standing there xD

Yep you should've xdd

SHLFHSKDS GREGORY

Nahh for him too

Awww yeah :')) 😭😭😭😭❤️💔

Awww :'))) (the "I do have other pens")

Okay! So! I did not deserve this!

[kimberlyfaithhinkson]

It takes a lot out of me to say this, but I am going to go ahead and use this platform to express myself about my relationship with my boyfriend who I love dearly.

Today was a day where I considered breaking up with him. It upset him; tbh he was already talking about some things that had upset him earlier, too, not to disregard his feelings, but they kind of went hand in hand.

He hadn’t told his dad or grandmother or brothers he was with me since I got out of the hospital. I had to be medicated for “chaotic mind,” as I boldly choose to put it. We had our first upset a couple days prior about it, cause it was really bothering me. At this point I’ve been out of the hospital going on three months, but barely. I was tired of being “secret-girlfriend” as I put it.

Much to my lack of understanding (guilty), it seemed like he was hiding our relationship cause he kept being bullied by his older brother. But I had used to (I guess) be friends with his brother. I still can’t wrap my head around why any of this had to be dramatic. IMO we could have just all been chill. Talking shit is fun, I guess. Not really. For clarity, I was being sarcastic.

Anyway, we talked about it. He said he would come out and tell his parents, guardians and siblings. That made me feel better. I wish I could still be chill with everyone, but at this point I’d rather just be chill with my boyfriend.

He also said he didn’t want me jumping to breaking up. I agree. I am his lifeline, and he said so himself, and I love him dearly, as I’ve said so myself, so it’s an agreeable motion. To say, “hey there’s something really, really bothering me,” instead of lunging towards separating.

I’m glad he said that and I’m convinced we shouldn’t have another break up moment for the ages to come. He’s really the last boyfriend I want in my life. If I have to leave the relationship or something I’ll probably get a big Catherine esque tattoo that says Love is Over and resume life single.

I thought maybe I’d be able to talk to his brother that way, too. Not that there’s any chemistry there. Just a now-questionable friendship. It’s not high on my list, though. I just want everyone to get along. I almost feel like I could clear the air myself if I had reins in the drama. I feel like it could clear if I called his brother. Maybe get a head on why he has been antagonizing N8 (that’s my boyfriend’s name stylized). But men will be ferocious and I’m a little timid to bring it up. But I’ll see.

For the meantime, we are back at home after I had to rescue him from the fight he had with his brother 2 1/2 hours away. I really wanna reunite their bond. I’d really appreciate it if I could talk to that brother. We had spoken for years while he was away for the military.

Dunno why this had to unfold like this. Maybe I won’t propose to call his bro. Feels like Sophie’s Choice. Or maybe he was being really serious that his family is really judgey. I know they have problems, but I like them; I didn’t want to feel excluded. But for real, next time I won’t leap the pistol. I’ll bring it up like a serious talk. I go too far with thinking as is, blessed it may be.

For the meantime, I’m gonna vape and try to get off of it at the same time. Thought I had quit.

Thanks Tumblr, for letting me vent.

[barbarakushh]

the new view from da sesh. i quit THC for life. i gave myself psychosis and almost schizophrenia. i didnt need to see a medical professional to know that those statements are true. i have supplemented thc with nicotine to get thru the withdrawals and because dopamine is still hard to come by for the ADHD brain. so tonite i smoke this geek bar. i am not proud but i am making little changes. fuckin sue me. getting reaquainted with my sober brain is hard but i amd much more joyful, controlled, and powerful. cant focus for shit doe, maybe i should go on adderall. but i still feel like i would be sacrificing control of my mind. i just have to meditate and slow down. real. i have healed significantly. already forgotten about whats his name and im convinced ive finally found the man who will be the love of my life. so i am staying as far from him as possible so as to not fuck it up. things end as quickly and they begin so i will take as much time as i can. im scared. i dont wanna fuck this up. and his venus is in aries 😭. but hey, if my parents can make it work with a cancer venus and aries venus, then theres hope. and neither of us have as much trauma or codependency/emotional immaturity issues as my parents, so theres definitely a chance. future me if youre reading this, i hope youve ended up with this man. imma hit dis vape till im bored or domed then go do a tarot spread and pop a melatonin. the moon is full is gemini. makes me think of janelle monae :) its nice to have learned to find dopamine in sobriety finally. life is good, im the most joyful and content ive ever been in my life. if someone were looking at my life from an outside view this would baffle them. but im living by my own values and definition of success, and couldnt be happier. thats a lie, i am excited to work towards much greater joy and contentment. and my spirit is finally ready to bring joy and positivity and light to the world. as above, so below. i love you, universe, thank you. 💚

[punkrocker56]

this is the new shit

so I moved to Arizona left dumb people and old habits behind I started dating someone new his name is Robert let me tell you its been the best 4 months of my life all the late night drives gas station giggles almost peeing myself and a cup of hot coffee that was shared by two people I no longer vape nicotine I only vape no Nic I had sex I acutally enjoyed not to mention. that I accidently decided when I left California to quit all my meds protection included oh fuck. bad idea oh well but hey everything turned out just fine I started a new job fucked up my finger and had my first er vist by myself go ahead and let. me have it I can't wait to go back and hangout in Tucson it was so much fun here's to new memories not to mention I'm moving again fuck me I don't wanna I hope its closer to my man but I doubt it I just wanna pack a bag and go on a adventure because I'm fucken bored so things are going sideways this is a shit town I don't have any friends and there's nothing to do. I hate having to to go 3-4 hours away to have fun unless u drive to Vegas a nd gamble your life away I don't wanna move but at the same time I wanna be closer to my bf and family but I know that's not gonna happen I guess its wishful thinking and I can keep dreaming well off to pack for a 4 hour roadtrip to see my bf and spend time time in the peace and quiet for 2 whole days then its back to reality it doesn't feel like Christmas at all because not even my siblings are here this just sucks I miss all my friends and family I want shit to change and get better

xoxo beach girl

[shocker54]

I had just gotten off of school and I was bored as an average tween would be.. so I decided I would go to the park alone because I didn't have many friends. there wasn't much to do in my home town it was quite boring it was just filled with weird teens and boys who sucked at being boys. I was sitting on the bench listening to music and breathing in the air that was filled with the awful musk of weed and vape.  this girl wearing a black hoodie and grey sweatpants goes up to this guy's black jeep with a baggy of money, her hair slightly out of the hood blowing in the wind. i look away and look at the kids fighting for the swings. The girl runs past me and looks at me and waves, I smile as she was absolutely out standing..

As I'm home I sit in my room talking to my friends about the situation, I don't know if she's a crush or just a girl I find so gorgeous.

The next day I decide to go back to the park I wait until the exact time I saw her yesterday, sitting on the same bench, listening to the same song, Atlantis by seafret, there was no sighting of this girl, until I look up from my phone and see her standing right in-front of me. I take my headphones off and look at her and smile, her gorgeous hazel eyes and her rosy cheeks. "Hey I saw you here yesterday, I just wanted to say you seem really nice, and you're very pretty!" I thought she was just being nice because I'm overweight and have no makeup on and I'm dressed in an oversized t shirt and Shorts. "Well thank you but you're absolutely breath taking" I say back to her. She smiles and her eyes seem to glow in the sunlight that was hitting her face. "Wanna come with me?" She says holding out her hand. I grab her hand "I saw you looking at me yesterday, wanna try something with me?" I look down at the ground "sure?.." she looks at me again "oh come on let's go!" She grabs my hand again and makes me run with her to the black jeep, she gets in the car "Luis this is .. I didn't catch your name.." I nervously look at her "my names Rory." She smiles "this is Rory" "by the way Rory my name is lily." I smile, I like how chill she is!. Luis looks back at Lilly "aight so what u getting today?" She laughs and slaps Luis's arm "oh cmon Luis you know!" He hands her a cart and coke. She gives him the money , she grabs my hand "Rory this is going to be the best summer of your life" she winks "I- I should text my mom lily.." she laughs "go ahead kiddo!" I text my mom

Rory: Mom I'm going out with a new friend I made, I'll be safe!

Mom: alright have fun be safe I love you!

Rory: I love you too!

Luis turns up the music, my girl starts playing "alright girls hold on!" He speeds off, Lily begins singing "my girl! Talking bout my girlll!" She could sing! She's a suprisingly gold singer! She takes the cart out of her pocket and screws it onto her battery and takes a few hits and starts coughing. "Oh Rory, Rory,Rory, such a pretty name" she smiles and looks at me, I smile back. "Luis where we going?!" He laughs "we're going on a road tripppp!" He turns the music up louder, sugar sugar starts playing and I can feel the beat in my chest.

We end up at Luis's house. He lets me inside. I think that was the first time I had ever saw a trap house... there was a huge pile of beer cans, the house reaked of weed. And there it was.. cocaine on the table while someone was putting it into baggies "don't mind him, that's Jason!" Lily sits next to Jason "he works for Luis, he's trusted" I nod my head, being surrounded with a lot of drugs was horrifying. "So Rory where'd you come from?" I laugh "what do you mean?" "Like where you live?" I look at Jason scraping the coke into these baggies "I live near the park, like 4 blocks away." She smiles "oh! So you know the streets huh?" "Yeah I guess I do a bit.."

An hour passes by and lily takes out her baggy of coke and grabs some in her pinkie nail, she had white fake nails on they had some gems on them, she snorts the powder and rubs the rest in her gums. She sniffs very hardly after, "so Rory you ever do drugs?" I chuckle nervously "uh.. no.. never touched anything in my life.." she smiles "ah I see!"

A while later Luis brought us to lilys house "so Rory wanna sleep over?" I grab out my phone

Rory: mom can I sleep over at my friend lilys house?

Mom:sure sweetie be safe and have fun!

Rory: I will!

I never expected this night to be so eventful.. but it was.. lilys mom was gone.. her mom was never really here because she was very addicted to drugs. So she had the house to herself half the time. "So I just got this amazing idea!" She puts her hand on my thigh "what's the amazing idea?" I say. "What if I invite all my friends over for a party?" I shake my head "yes that's a good idea!"

As the party starts and the music blasts, lily is introducing me to her friends, I hate introducing myself, "hey Bella this is Rory!" I smile "hey.." I put my head down breaking eye contact.

"Rory I have the use the bathroom come with me." She takes my hand and drags me to the bathroom with her. "You wanna try something with me?" I nod my head. She gives me a rolled up dollar bill, and pours some coke on the counter and puts it in a line "ok you just put the bill in your nose a bit and sniff in through your nose and snort all of it ok?" I shake my head and do as she says. Little did I know this was a huge mistake I would regret for the rest of my life. I starts to cough and hold my nose "fuck is this supposed to burn?" She giggles "yeah it's gonna burn a bit.." I hand her the dollar back, I pull my hand away from my nose and see blood, "lily do you have a tissue?" She already had some folded up toilet paper in her hand "here" she holds the toilet paper up to my nose "that's gonna happen, it's normal kiddo, don't worry" I smile and look into her eyes. And all of a sudden I feel a rush of energy "let go" she takes the toilet paper awayl. "What you gonna do now rory?" I look around "idk but i feel amazing!" She laughs "yeah you're gonna feel that way"

After the party I feel the come down and feel horrible, and want to do another line. I lay down on lilys bed. And she rubs my head and she snorts another line "how you feeling?" I look around "horrible.." she smiles "mhm you're gonna feel that way" I lay my head on her thigh and look up at her "you wanna do another?" She says in an awkward tone. I shake my head.. "you know weeds a lot better haha" I smile "yeah but idk if I wanna do that" she laughs "why not?" I shake my head "idk just don't wanna" I look around and she gets up from her bed, I hear the bed creak and she looks back at me, I put my hands on my face. What the fuck did I get myself into? Why did I do that? How could I have possibly been this fucking stupid?.

She comes back into her room and brings me some water. "Here... you might want this now." I take the cold class of water and hold it, I don't drink it. "Rory.." she closes the door and locks it. Why would she lock the door if no one's home? "Rory." I look at her "yeah?.." she comes closer to me and takes my cup of water and puts it on the floor. "Rory I think we should go to the bathroom" I look at her funny. All I knew is she was really high off of I don't know what.. she runs to the bathroom, all I hear is coughing and gaging.

I decide just to go to bed, and leave her alone for the night.. but I was worried about her I wish I could have texted this drug dealer of hers and the one we were in the car with, or just something! I didn't know what was going on but whatever it was it was not good, it wasn't good to the point she was throwing up, although I was only 12.

In the morning I go to the bathroom, there's lily on the floor, asleep in a ball dressed in an oversized hoodie that she did not have on when I saw her last. Luis walked in the door "hey Rory come with me" I follow him to the living room "I found lily on the side of the road last night.." I look at him "huh how?.." he shrugs his shoulders "so I brought her back here and carried her up here.." I sigh "fun fun." He breaths in deeply "yeah, that kids got one shitty life"

Luis leaves and I go back upstairs to find lily still in the bathroom asleep, I decide to just text her that I'm going home and I'll hangout with her tomorrow.

I walk home and I see my mom standing in the kitchen "so how was the sleepover?" I shrug my shoulders "fun I guess she had her friends come over and they were very nice but they were kinda scary.." she look at me "how were they scary?" I shrug my shoulders "just teenage girls you know how they are" she laughs "yeah like you!" I go in my room and lay in my bed. Staring at the ceiling not believing what had just recently happened... I fall asleep

I wake up to a text "I woke up a few minutes ago sorry, that shit makes me sleep like a baby, wanna come over again?" The rain began to pick up. I text back "sure." I put different clothes on and put my shoes back on, brush my hair and put on a hoodie. My phone dings "here" I run in the kitchen "lilys here" my mom nods "text me when you're home" I run outside and into the car "hey" she smiles. The butterfly feeling in my stomach continues. "Rory when we get to Luis's place you wanna do more?" I shake my head violently and smile.

When we get to Luis's house lily grabs my hand, and takes me into his bathroom, very rich and smells good "come on here" I snort a line and so does she, the rush hits me and it gets hard to walk, she holds onto my arm and we sit next to Jason "hey girls here's some more" I think the only reason lily liked Jason was because he would give her free stuff. She puts it in her pocket and slowly puts her hand on my thigh, going closer and closer to my area. I look at her "wh-what are you doing?" She smiles "nothing" she stops and then continues when Jason wasn't looking. She whispers "let's go to the bathroom." I shake my head "why?" I feel the tears form in my eyes. She looks at me "Rory come here!" I just decide to follow her to the bathroom.

"Rory I wanted to come in here to do another line that's all" I lean my head on her back "I don't know who hurt you sweetie but that wasn't my intention" she wipes the bit of coke from her nose.

[spiderculechronicals]

Aaaahh... I wrote a kinda romanticized diner scene with Peter 1 at his job being competent and thriving... idk I'm thinking the whole secret identity being leaked drama just fizzled out a lot in most people's minds, like they only half remember anything if it didn't directly impact them. So even though it's technically known that Peter Parker is Spiderman, like, he's been very lowkey about it for a while and most people don't put two and two together. (Maybe Strange did a spell that just kinda scrambled things up a bit?)

___

“Morning, Peter! Ugh, is that your weird oatmeal breakfast in a cup thing? Dude… I could not handle that texture first thing in the morning…” The line cook greeted him. Peter 1 rolled his eyes and set about making the coffee and stocking the pastry case with the bakery goods that had been dropped off just before he’d arrived.

“Morning Danny. Yeah, I know you’d rather hit a blinker on your vape and then slam a five hour energy shot with a waterboy for a chaser…” Peter 1 teased. “Gonna have a coronary before you’re forty, my guy.”

“Eh. Hey, can you do me a solid real quick and lift up this oven? I swear to God, Frank dropped the good turner and kicked it under here and didn’t tell nobody, and if I have to use the other one for my over easy eggs and the yolks break on me in the middle of the rush one more God damned time, I’m gonna lose it…”

“Uh…”

“… C’mon, dude. I saw you move the cardboard dumpster out of the loading zone last week. I know you’re like… enhanced, or whatever they call it. Extra shift meal for the rest of the month, on me. I won’t spread it around. Please?”

“Fine… gimmie something to cover my uniform, I don’t wanna get grease on my shirt, I just washed it.” Peter 1 took his apron off and stowed it by the register, then followed Danny back to the kitchen. He put on the proffered chef coat and full-length apron, then crouched down beside the piece of equipment. “Um. Gloves too, please.” Danny passed him a box and he put on a double layer of vinyl gloves, then started gingerly feeling around the bottom of the oven to find the most structurally sound spot to lift, finally settling on grabbing it by the legs. He lifted slowly, trying not to jostle it out of place too much in case it disconnected from the gas, stopping when the front was about a foot off the ground. “… good enough?”

“Fuck, man…! Yeah! … Oh shit there it is, I fucking knew it!!” Danny crawled down beside him and snatched up the grill tool, then backed out again. “Fucking lifesaver.” He took it to the dish pit and started scrubbing it down. “Dude if you weren’t such a touch-me-not I would blow you in the bathroom right now. Seriously. I’m taking this turner home with me from now on, Frank can go fuck himself.”

“Uh!” Peter 1 blushed, peeling the gloves into the trash.

“… Sorry, uh. That was, um, that was a joke and I hope I didn’t make you freak out? I mean unless you don’t want it to be a joke…”

“Danny,” Peter 1 laughed, “Oh my God…”

“Seriously please don’t freak out and quit, and that blowjob offer is a Schrödinger’s cat we can just let it go or like…”

“Danny, I have a boyfriend.”

“Oh for real?? Oh sweet, dude! I’m happy for you! He better be good enough for you, or it’s not just me, it’ll be all the regulars on his ass…”

“He is.”

“Hell yeah.” Danny smiled, then tipped his head towards the dining area at the sound of the door bells. “Got a customer.”

Peter 1 shucked the apron and coat and headed up front quickly.

“Morning, Tim! Morning, Paul. Got your coffee coming right up. Usual today?” Peter 1 filled two mugs with fresh black coffee and carried them to the counter. The door jangled again. “Morning, Janice!” He got another cup of coffee ready, this one in a to-go cup. He called out, “Danny! Tim and Paul.” Then went to Janice with her cup. “What’ll it be today?”

“Good morning, sweetheart. I’ll take a raspberry filled with this.”

Peter 1 rang in both items and swung the tap-to-pay out for her, quickly bagged the donut and passed it over. She winked at him and stuffed a folded bill into the tip jar. “Thank you! Have a good day!” He then hurried to ring in the first two orders properly, hearing the POS machine start to rattle off the tickets even as they were being plated up.

“Order Up!” Danny called out, putting two plates in the window. Peter 1 grabbed the two plates and took them to the counter, giving the plates a slight wiggle to judge the done-ness of the eggs before swapping the order and handing each man their breakfast. This earned him a chuckle of appreciation.

Peter 1 looked out the window and spotted a couple of other regulars on their way from across the street. “Danny, omelets incoming! Who closed last night? Is this all the mugs we have clean?”

“Shit, dude… it was Terry. How many you got up there?”

“Like… half a rack… but now I want to double check them to make sure they really are clean...”

“Fuckin’ Terry. Alright, I’m on it.”

“Who else is on today?”

“Just you and me till nine thirty, then we get Judy.”

“Judy starting late today? Trish wouldn’t cover?”

“Trish closed last night for Hailey. Judy’s gotta take her kid across town now to school every Monday morning or she doesn’t get the full weekend, since her ex moved. We got this, right?”

“Yeah, no problem. Feel bad for Judy. Dude, you’d better write Terry up about these mugs, I’m sending half of these back right now.”

“Fuuuck… yeah…” Danny sighed.

“… Dude.”

“He’s on his last warning, if I do this he’s getting fired.”

“Danny…” Peter 1 softened his voice with compassion but laid the facts out straight. “You’re not the one doing it to him. He’s had warnings. He’s doing it to himself. If you don’t write him up, Judy and Trish are gonna walk. Also check the filters on the machine before you run these, you know he only cleans them out half the time. If I use an extra sleeve of to-go cups that don’t line up with the tickets just because we don’t have clean mugs, who do you think’s gonna get written up about it? Not Terry, unless you write him up first, because if you don’t, Rebecca is going to want to know why not. And I can’t come back there to help and leave the front unattended.”

The door jangled. Danny huffed and took the bus tub of mugs to the dish pit, cursing as he checked the filters in the machine.

“Morning, Don!” Peter 1 called out, spotting his apron by the register where he’d left it. He tied it on quickly and grabbed a pot of coffee, then grabbed one of the last clean mugs and walked out to Don’s booth. As the morning rush started in earnest Peter 1 made his way around, subtly working the crowd to keep the tickets from hitting all at once, talking up the fresh donuts and a few judicious times “accidentally” ringing in an order to go that wasn’t originally supposed to be. Before ten minutes had passed Danny set a steaming rack of clean mugs in the window and Peter 1 kicked up the speed again. “Thank you Danny!”

“Right, let’s fuckin’ Go…”

[georginasparkzztoday]

002 11, September 2024 1:56am

Hey, I actually did quite alot around the house today.. House chores don't feel as draining as they used to. I feel quite proud of myself. That's not all I'm proud of today tho.. I finally stood up for myself. I am slowly being able to protect my mental health and my boundaries. I hope this continues.. Maybe tomorrow I'll have the energy to finish up editing this blog's look too! My vapes are running out tho.. I don't wanna go back to cigarettes.. I hope I can get another one soon.. Anyways, I actually already feel a bit sleepy! idk.. maybe it's the hydroxy. but who really gives a shit anyways? I really need to go back to my psychiatrist so I can get something harder than this lmfaoo 🤣😅

[bitchkay]

Hey guys😍😍

Story time(not really but-)

So yesterday was my last say of classes for the semester so me and my friends went to dinner

Let's goooooo

And we also went outside to

SMOKE👁👁

And this was my first time- well it wasnt my first time smoking with my friends and definitely(👀👀) not my first time smoking if you know what I mean

But it wasnt just us passing around the pen ya know we weren't just hitting someone's vape outside on break cus there was no way we were getting through the rest of class sober--

We had a spliff, a blunt, a big ole doobie-- we had multiple actually we burned like 3 of those mfs

But that's not the point--

I'm sober btw

I probably sound crazy but I swear to god I'm sober

But yes it was my first time passing around the ganja with my friends(and probably wont be the last--)

Anyway the whole point of this is my... friend... that I like😳

You know the one yea

I just thought he looked so hot

Idk

I've never been so attracted to a man

A MAN‼

Me nonbinary and very much sapphic

A MAN‼

and look this isnt new, I do like men guys, yes I very much love women and girls and kissing girls but yall I go both ways-- all ways in fact, as long as you're not an asshole ive probably liked you at some point even if I have a preference for women but anyways

But yea-- also this is the same guy I've been talking about for over a year anyways--

I just thought idk the way he held the blunt and brought it to he lips was very

Attractive👁👁

Idk I thought he looked like a man😍😍

Like y'know a man😍😍

But I also might be ovulating so it could just be my hormones wanting to fuck him--

I do wanna fuck him.

Yall that's so crazy

Also-- side note, taking the bus home high was so fucking fun, I spaced the fuck out and tuned back in at random moments to my friends conversation

Also I had to walk home-- that's besides the point

Anyway

Every time someone passed him the blunt I had my eyes on him😳😳 and now I fear I was being creepy but I couldn't help it I was quite literally on drugs and he literally looked so hot to me

in my eyes at least

In gonna ask if hes ever shot gunned before--

Anyway

Yall when I got home last night (after walking literally half an hour in the dark but it was cool cus it sobered me up) I had to greet my parents and bro the way I was trying not to like breathe too hard in their direction cus I knew, I fucking knew my breath reeked of oui'd🍃🍃

[bisluthq]

I cannot stand the smell of tobacco so I couldn’t possibly date someone who smokes, but I think people look hot when they’re smoking. On the other hand, I don’t think vaping is hot (except the two pictures we have of Saoirse with a juul and with an elf bar) but I could date someone who vapes because I really like how they smell 🫣 The other day I was outside and I thought “mmm it smells like cotton candy here” and it was a girl vaping

Lmao idk what to do with this info except to say I guess you have a shot with Saoirse? I will tell u one funny thing tho - my partner and I are both v heavy smokers but both of us pretended to be non smokers for the majority of our hanging out era and even when we first kissed (in a bar) we had an ashtray in front of us and did not use it or acknowledge it and then soon after that I popped round to his kinda unexpectedly (like I had time and I said “hey man wanna hang?”) and he’d forgotten to hide his ashtray and I almost burst into happy tears. Moral of the story is the same thing I told that Pickled Anon - if someone wants to be with you, they’ll move mountains. Our dumb asses were seemingly fully willing to quit smoking to not fuck it up 😂😂 thankfully we didn’t have to but still.

[thesaddestsong]

i need a new vape but my only legal friend still in town is trying to quit and i don't wanna be like.... hey bestie would you mind fueling my addiction while trying to kick your own🥰🩷🤞🏻 proud of him but ughhhhhhh

[nomatterthestorm]

It’s been a while friend! Life has been busy. Random question for you — what would you tell your 18 year old self?

Good to know you're staying occupied☺️

(this is gonna get graphic) I'd tell myself:

1. first stop being a little bitch about what happened with your parents, love your Mom AND your Dad, their problems with each other are not yours no matter what either of them says. Just love me both as much as you can and tell your Dad you love him, he's really a big softy he's just trying to toughen you up but you'll miss him when he's gone, and he's proud af of you as a man.

2. The girl you're with will fucking leave you so start applying for scholarships and go to OSU and have a good time. Meet people and form some meaningful relationships with those who see things the way you do, but also challenge you to change your mind.

3. You're not weird for liking alternative music and hip-hop simultaneously, in fact give it a couple years the world is gonna start making more music that fits your persona. Also that feeling you get when you're in beautiful moments and fitting somber music start playing in your head that makes you feel like you're in a teen Rom-Com will keep happening and this app called tik too is gonna blow up and you'll find that other people actually felt that and make these things called reels that display that feeling vividly for those who don't get that feeling.

4. I don't really know if you could've made it as far as I did without fucking up as bad as I (future me) did but if you can please figure it out. It'll save you 2 years of really shitty depressing filler episodes, smoking cigarettes (even though you quit eventually but for some reason decide to vape instead, because you've always known since like 8 that you'd smoke despite no one in your family smoking.), and that off and on seasonal depression that you'll deal with for a good 6 years. That shit could've really killed us bro, fuck the fights, the robberies, the over indulgence, the guns, the shady nights outside, drug deals, and racism. We could've killed us formal good thing we didnt do boy scouts cause them knots were loooose..thank GOD

5. Be yourself playa, like bro your mom is fucking right you're handsome AF and you'll attract some of the badest women, NO ONE IS OUT OF YOUR LEAUGE. Like I know right now you can't even imagine being THAT GUY because you think you've let people make you feel ugly and less than but you end up being HIM, all you really had to do was stop sacrificing every bit of yourself for all the people you love, cause let's face it you currently love a lot of people and you'll love a lot more.

6. You keep saying you'll save for a BMW coupe, you never do but it doesn't matter dream bigger you'll be in a 2017 BENZ by the time you get here.

7. Save your money, all the little rich kids that call you a bum right now will be hitting you up saying “Hey bro you wanna link” while ending your life because they were forced to get married just to live decent middle-class lives off two-income households, also fall in love with cooking..you eat out all the time..and it's not fast food but you could save like $1500 a month cause you don’t eat fast food for and have formed this habit of not eating the same thing every day, and you don't like left overs, or even driving to get food.

8. You're stretching that $350 paycheck and you're contemplating quitting your job just to sell weed.. that's a bad idea...like a really fucking bad idea, the only thing you learn from it is fast money will never beat moderately consistent progression. You just spent $500 on a section to party for like 4 hours in a club and you've gone back 3 weeks in a row cause you could and it didn't phase you..you have a fuck ton of electronics, live alone in a fully furnished nice apartment and you used to take your ex to dates and spend $300 frequently for the both of you. (also you don’t marry her or all the other loves that came before her, and being single saves you like $1000 a month) Did I mention you only put premium in your car and you always fill the tank...Stay hungry but save and trust no one that doesn't treat you how you treat them.

9. You've learned a lot so far, but I promise it's still not enough, study older people not just in your immediate life but other people’s too. Reacherch endlessly, not just what you like but things you don’t I know you already absorb information emensly but you need to find out how to use all of that more effectively. You'll think you're learning all of this so you can be the Hero you've always wanted to be but really all of this knowledge will keep you from becoming the villain you've always known you were capable of being. There are few things more dangerous than a powerful man who is not self aware.

10. I love you kid. I know we never told ourselves that growing up but seriously I love you so much for being strong and I know you probably heard everything I said and thought “Now I know so I won't do those dumb things” but the truth is you'll likely make different mistakes that'll probably get you here or put you in the ground so it's probably best you ignore me and just do what you were gonna do anyways because we'll get to where we wanna be regardless, and honestly WE HAD TO MAKE THOSE MISTSKES TO GET THIS FAR. As hard as that is to hear. We've been telling ourselves “One day I'm going to be successful, I don't know how but I will” since the moment we used to wait for all our friends to leave the middle school waiting area because we didn't want them to be alone. Then proceed to walk home alone because we knew we could handle the pressure. Like for real we even got away from that creepy fuck that tried to take us by offering ice cream, we were BUILT, BORN, AND RAISED DIFFERENT. We may not have always been deserving but we must continue to thank GOD for his guidance, and now we thank Dad too since he's up there watching the show too.