#‘eden thats just wishful thinking’ oh no its not….

[demadogs]

oh my god guys why the fuck would they kill karen lmao

[refigiowen]

Process Of Ruin

Chapter 1: Dirty Magic

My eyes are blown wide open, the ringing of my alarm fills my ears and i feel as if i had not slept for even a minute.

I turn off the alarm and reach out to turn on my lights but immediately realize that my room is lit up as if the mid day sun was shining. It is 4:30 in the morning. The giant billboard outside my window was much like a second sun, one that never stops shining. I despise it, truly i do. I stand up and take a look around the room: Trash, empty food containers, bottles of liquor, various juices that i cannot name, the dark green walls and the filth. Yeah, that is my home. A one room apartment that those poor bastards out in the outskirts would kill for.

I grab my suit, which i used as a blanket last night because my last blanket was infested with cockroaches, and put on my shoes. I would like to mention that i am dirt poor and would never be able to buy a suit like this if it wasn't a rule for every worker to be gifted one upon joining a corporation.

Upon stepping outside my apartment i am met with the door of my neighbour being open and his corpse laying on the floor. Clean shot in the head - Briah Security Force. Poor guy must have pissed off some big corpo for BSF to actually do their job (that being fighting criminals).

I turn to my right and am met with a mixture of scents and smells. Blood, vomit, a hint of piss and the smell of trash that has been set on fire to name a few. I take in the smell and can't help but smile. Not that i like the smell, quite the opposite, but i cannot help but see it as a sort of friend. I mean, it greets me every morning whether i like it or not, it's there for me when no one else is. Is that not what a friend should do? Either way i walk down the stairs and out into the streets.

They used to describe the cities of the future as these big, beautiful metropolises in the old world - in movies at least. I wish i was living in one, but sadly, i live in a shithole of a city called Eden.

The continents were mashed into one giant landmass called Pangaea and all nations that existed before that no longer exist. Mankind lives in a mega city called Eden where Corporations rule the world and a single central government called the Pale Garden helps them, at least that's what it feels like. Eden is divided into countless districts and areas such as Erewhon District, the place i live in. The closer the district is to the center - The Pale Garden - the less depressing and disgusting they are.

Sadly, i live thousands of miles away from the garden.

All humans are linked to something called the "NeuraNet". Long story short: a tool used by big corporations to either A: keep you alive for all eternity. Or B: to kill you or your friends and family with the press of a button.

It's basically impossible to escape NeuraNet as it's implanted into babies directly after they are born. Those who manage to unlink themselves are hunted down by the Pale Garden's Claws and basically every corporation in Eden.

The NeuraNet ensures that someone lives for as long as they are useful to whatever corporation they work for. The person becomes essentially unkillable through natural causes such as organ failure or aging. Oh yeah, they can control your mind as well by the way.

But hey, NeuraNet has its good sides though! I can order food with just my mind and stuff. I think thats neat.

I take in the smell of the street and begin walking to my job. What i work as and who i work for you ask? Like i mentioned, i live in Erewhon District and was lucky enough to get a job at Erewhon Corp., a corporation that specializes in.... electric guitars. Yeah, this district sucks. But i get paid enough to have my own apartment and to buy food. No one said the work life is fair. And once you're in it, you're not getting out of it. Few are lucky to be able to climb the ladder of the corpo life, with how little you get paid some can't even afford a roof above their head. Well, the buildings blocking the sky kind of serve as roofs but you get the point.

I walk into the building and scan my ID card.

"Caiden Jiang, 25 years old. 186 centimeters tall. Erewhon Corp. employee."

My job is to just check the guitars and distribute them to buyers. Ocassionally i get to look at some real goodies, like the guitar used by Mitch Mickleson the famous guitarist from Grovestreet District. Besides that it's just the usual paper work desk job that makes you want to blow your brains out. Whenever i can i look out the window and gaze down onto the streets.

Bloodstains, murder, gunshots and the filth of the city paint an almost beautiful yet twisted picture below me. In this chair on the 10th floor i feel like im above the city, in an empty sky, not chained by the gods of the city. And yet in reality im not even off the floor yet. I sigh and avert my attention from the window and continue staring at the screen before me.

Something i have not told you yet is that i am on the brink of getting a once in a lifetime promotion. Yes sir, you heard me right, a promotion. Getting a promotion in a corporation is as rare as finding a four-leaf clover in a field of roses! It's basically a free ticket to a better life, a decent wage and so much more. I had to hold myself back quite a bit from kissing my boss on his hairy cheek when he told me that i was gonna get promoted soon.

And with that knowledge i walk home, and for once, with a smile on my face. It has been, i don't even know how long, since i last left work with excitement for the next day in my heart. Truly, it has been forever since i felt anything other than sheer melancholy.

And so i walk down the streets of Erewhon district, occasionally looking down into the depths of Eden: "The Metro". No one quite knows what is beneath the city, apparently not even the big corps know anything about that place. I don't really care myself but i would be lying if i said that it didn't intrigue me. A place so mysterious that no corporation in Eden wants to go down there? Well, i for my part am more interested in that nice, nice promotion of mine. I know i am repeating myself but it is truly something special.

I continue walking home, around me are faces of sorrow and grief, sadness and terror. Oh yes, these people suffer. Oh yes, this city is terrible. And oh yes, i am sure the devil is looking down at us and feels lucky to not be down here with us. And as such, i feel as though i should embrace this chance at living a better life as much as possible. Look at these people, living on the streets, in dumpsters and slicing each others throat over a rotten artificial fruit. I live alongside these people, almost as a brother of sorts. But i decided to join a corporation and sacrifice my freedom for a chance to live a life that is worth living. And if i fail i still have my apartment and this suit that has not been cleaned for months. Freedom is something that i can live without. It doesn't let me pay for my healthcare and doesn't protect my wellbeing by sending Briah troops to my location should i ever be in danger. So what use do i have for all that free time when i can use it to work for a better life?

I walk into my apartment and look at my bed. Then my closet and then that godforsaken billboard outside my window. I sigh and smile once again, knowing that this all will soon be behind me.

The next morning i get notified about a Representative Corporation going out of business on NeuraNet. That kind of thing doesn't happen often, not around here at least and so i take a closer look at the article.

"The Representative Corporation of Erewhon District, Erewhon Corp., has gone out of business due to poor performance and low demand of their products. The contracts of every worker will be terminated and a squad of Claws has been dispatched to announce the next Representative Corporation."

"The Fuck..!?"

I begin to run, bumping into a person here and there. "This cannot be real", i think to myself, "they never mentioned any of that shit, they fucking lied - the boss lied when he told me about my promotion!"

And so, after running for at least a mile, i stand before the building, gazing up at the logo of Erewhon Corp. I feel betrayed, fucked with, and lied to.

They promised me a promotion, a better life. No.. they did that on purpose. To give me hope, that fucking bastard wanted me to feel HOPE out of all things? That smile on his face, how i want to rip each of his teeth out one by one. He had the choice of either telling me nothing but the truth, or feeding me poison. And now i stand here, promotionless, jobless, and with nothing to look forward to. I almost took a step forward in this sorry life, but once again, no, i still am at zero.

I can't even feel angry. I am more so... disappointed that i thought that i had a chance. After all, you either work till you die and get fed crumbs, or you die on the streets and get eaten by your neighbours.

And as i stare at my former company's logo, i am pulled out of my misery by the squad of Claws that the article mentioned.

And in an almost comedic manner i feel a woman's hand on my mouth and she pulls me away into any alley before the Claws could see me.

[breadboylovin]

hiii. let's say i wanted to check out hivemind. which I do. any episode(? video?) reccs for a newcomer :3 and feel free to tell why you like them also if you want!!

oh you are in luck my friend i already have an entire "hivemind greatest hits" playlist that ive been sending to my other friends whenever they ask about them. however you have also allowed me to ramble so please enjoy that down below

my personal picks for the best newcomer vids are:

guess the song from 1/16th second of audio & guess the rapper from the fiverr impression (grouped together bc theyre both quadeca videos): quadeca is a recurring guest on hivemind (honestly he could be a third host at this point) and i think these are the best vids theyve made with him :-) 1/16th of a second has a lot of really classic bits in it and is also relatively short by hivemind standards (a hivemind vid thats under 30 minutes is a real rarity at this point). the fiverr impressions vid is just really funny AND some of the impressions are actually quite good (the westside gunn one is a classic)

guess the song from the genius lyric annotation *2*: easily one of the funniest solo videos on the channel. the bit:game ratio is fucked but its not COMPLETELY off the rails like some later videos. this is also the origin of one of my personal top 10 hivemind bits, "meta girl on facebook dating"

casting rappers in hypothetical movies (with nickisnotgreen): now this one is quite long (just over an hour) which may put off some people. however i think it is one of the best video concepts theyve ever come up with and i NEED them to do it again. i wish graydon's hit coming-of-age movie CLIQUE (starring sza and babytron) was real so bad

guess the rapper from quadeca's styles of rap: legally i feel like i have to list this video in a newcomer recommendation post because of its importance in Hivemind Lore. youll understand if you watch it

honorable mentions for vids i just really like:

best tweets of all time tier list (this is in the playlist but i didnt list it above cus most of the humor is from the tweets theyre looking at. however it always makes me laugh and i put it on whenever im really upset)

guess the rotten tomatoes score from the movie (features graydon's girlfriend eden whos only been in two videos but is EASILY my second-favorite guest behind quadeca. she is fucking hilarious)

reacting to 10 sea creatures i can't believe exist (i just think this one is so wholesome. no bits, no game, just two dudes looking at weird animals. and it obviously appeals to me as a bio nerd)

[tmwcs]

HUNNYYYY LETS TALK ABOUT CHAPTER 14 SHALL WE? first of all…holy shiiiit that was fucking insane girl like I expected it but at the same I was still so surprised at the contents 😭 its legit insanely beautiful my love well done, no but like I wish I could see inside ur brain right now the way you managed to pull THAT off??!!!?!!! its very very dark my god but seriously its like im watching a whole ass 10/10 series, im happy that I got to see more of ethan and eden but I am just so excited for heeseung’s plans for the reader in the future like hello?? the house?? the children?? the aftermath of just everything that happened???? I am exhausted after everything in the past chapters woooo im super excited and ready for some more (fluff…unless??) 😄anyways thats all you did a great job mwaaaaa 💕

♥��� ♥️ ♥️ ♥️ Oh you don’t know how relieved I am to hear that lol yeah chapter 14 is dark but it’s the only dark chapter of the series. We’re going right back to fluff and normal Ethan and Heeseung and believe me, y’all are going to love it. But yeah, I couldn’t take anymore of Scott and tiff. Especially bc when I think about what Scott did to all those girls….I put on chaconne and was like “yo Ethan, let’s go”

and I loved that he had Jake by his side who was equally pissed bc yoooo…his y/n got hurt. ( I know I had referred to her as Emily up until now but that was just a filler name bc I didn’t want to spoil the surprise that Jake and his y/n are going to have their own series soon, which will feature Heeseung/Ethan and y/n/Eden)

but all in all, I’m glad you liked the chapter. It was dark and twisted but I still love Ethan and Eden…not to mention Ethan going animalistic ( which, next chapter Ethan is going to have a heartfelt moment…like out of his character type. So be ready for pure Ethan fluff ) 😆

[eclipsedpascal]

You Deserve This

Andy Dolan x Female Reader

GIF by @kissxmedeadly !!

“The reader asking Andy about his kiddo (let's pretend is a lil boy 🤣) and him being very emotional about it and the reader who truly loves him conforts him 😭❤️” - anon

Please read the warnings!!

Warnings: use of drugs (weed), smut, oral (female receiving), slight public sex, slight angst, mentions of rehab, mentions of suicidal thoughts, a lil bit of crying and VERY slight Eden spoilers, but thats only if you don't want to know anything AT ALL, so basically none? idk lmao:)

Notes: hi! So this is my first Andy fic, I wrote it very quickly last night after a sudden burst of inspiration and it doesn't make too much sense, also it’s kinda cheesy? I don't think I've ever written anything this angsty or soft before, but i’m trying to be more in touch w my emotions nd this is my way of doing that, so hopefully i'll do more things like this soon:) also if you’re interested, the title is one of my favourite songs by Men I Trust that I just thought fit Andy well.

Word count: 1.8k

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The warm, dancing breeze washed over your skin, plucking up your many goosebumps and blowing the rainbow coloured sea of petals that decorated the large garden from left to right. The bittersweet mix of their fragrances and Andy’s blunt rushed to you and filled your scrunched up, wrinkled nose as you let out a loud laugh. The vibrant expanse of fluffy grass felt close to a mattress underneath you, cradling your form whilst you laid amongst the greenery and watched Andy ghost a deep inhale of the blunt he had balanced precariously between two fingers. He flopped his arm across the gap between you and offered you another toke, the dopey smile spread over his features making you laugh even more.

“What’s so funny? Hmm?” He questioned you jokingly, rolling onto his forearms and bringing his face to hover just above yours as you brought the blunt to your lips. You couldn't hold in your laughter, your drug hazed state and the breeze that pushed his brown curls to tickle your blushing skin only exaggerating your amusement further as you choked out clouds of smoke.

“What??” He joined in laughing, finding humour in his own confusion and finding your laugh infectious. His lips found your own in a sudden yet gentle kiss which you gladly embraced, still not managing to fully compose yourself as you giggled into his open mouth.

You did your best to pull back from the kiss, but were reminded you didn't really have anywhere to go when you felt a blade of grass flutter against your ear. “It’s just.. your smile.” You rested your blunt carrying hand on his cheek as you spoke, feeling your heart swell when he pulled an overdramatic expression of insult at your reply.

“What’s so wrong with my smile?!” He half faked offence, not understanding what you could possibly find so amusing about it as you giggled more and more. “What’s wrong with it?- is it my lips? ‘They not good enough for you baby?” His thick accent aided his voice, making him sound even more attractive than he already was as he joked with you.

“Noo! it definitely wasn’t your lips, cause I love those.” You gripped his locks a little firmer, biting your lip as his stare changed from one of curiosity to one of want.

“Oh yeah?” He leaned back down and kissed you again, but this time rougher, the weed made you feel as if his lips were slowly melting into your own as it sent strong signals of lust through your body. He put all his weight on one arm, lifting the other and groping your waist with it whilst simultaneously moving to trail wet kisses down your neck.

His touches were deep, yet executed so delicately it convinced you if he was any rougher, you might just break. He opened the buttons of the flowing shirt you wore; one you had stolen out of his wardrobe that morning. He moved his head further down your chest to your stomach, mouth racing in slow motion to reach you were he wanted to most.

Forgetting to explain why you found his smile so funny in the first place, your high carried your thoughts closer towards how incredible his mouth felt on your skin, making you lean into his touch and let out a few small mewls.

As he reached your panty line, he tapped your hip, signalling for you to lift them so he could take your shorts off. He slid them off your legs in a quick, smooth motion that had them landing on a nearby lavender bush. The garden had quite a large variety of blossoming shrubbery and many clusters of beautiful flowers, it was probably down to the bi-weekly gardeners Andy had hired. You had known they were expensive and after spending so much time like this, lazing around, surrounded by the expensive home’s nature, you were beginning to understand why he had hired them.

You returned your gaze from the dangling shorts, back to the man nestled between your bare thighs. His beard was scratching at your skin in the best way possible as he laid small kisses over the thin fabric that covered your cunt. His hot breathe felt like fire as you wriggled and squirmed below him, just wanting some kind of contact from him.

He used two fingers to peel your panties to the side, groaning at the site of your glistening folds before kissing your clit gently. His tongue started swiping across your cunt slowly, taking all the time in the world to make you feel as good as he knew he could. You moaned loudly, grabbing at his hair once more as he sucked on you deeply.

“Mr Dolan?” You were interrupted by a throat clearing before hearing a man speak; one of Andy’s many servants you guessed. They had never seemed to leave the two of you alone whilst you had been staying there. No matter how big his home was, you always seemed to find another at every corner.

Andy looked up to the man with question and annoyance, raising an eyebrow at him as he wished for him to just hurry up and leave so the two of you could continue with your escapades. “It’s the phone for you Mr Dolan. Your son.”

Andy quickly rose from his place below you, his mind abandoning all thought of the act he was just partaking in as he jogged past the glass doors of his home, wanting only to speak to the young boy.

You sat up slightly, doing up a few buttons of your shirt and laying your crossed legs to the side of you as you held yourself up with your arm. You watched him as he scrambled into the house after his servant, little red marks from where he had been lying in the grass next to you were noticeably imprinted on the skin of his left arm, the one he had been leaning on, and his open shirt was flowing behind him with the speed he was moving.

You looked down to the flowers on front of you, picking a single daisy that bore tinted, pink tips on the end of each slim, white petal, twirling the stem around between two of your fingers as you listened to the breeze pick up. You could feel the mood of the air change as he left, the wind feeling more cold an irritating than once before as you pondered the call Andy was having.

You knew how desperate he had been to speak to his son again. It had been months since he had spoken to him without his ex-wife being the messenger. He missed him more than he knew to describe.

His recent divorce had been what had fuelled him to return home to Eden; hoping to find solace in the paradise he knew so well after feeling as if he had lost himself entirely. Spending too many years constantly playing other people had taken more of a toll on him than he had realised, that was until he was sent to rehab. After getting out, he felt as if staying in Eden was the only way for him to climb out of the dark hole he had managed to find himself in. Unfortunately, this journey of finding himself had meant making the decision to leave his son behind in Los Angles. Something he didn't like to speak on much.

When you had first met him in rehab however, he had been extremely open about his life, telling you how anger was the only emotion he could really feel anymore. Explaining that if he wasn’t at least the slightest amount intoxicated, he didn't think he couldn't go on with living; especially after the recent downfall of his career being showcased for the entire world to see. It was dark stuff, but you understood each other. That’s a big part of what made you grow so close.

You picked off petal after petal from the daisy, watching its beauty fade with each pluck and letting each one slowly blow into the breeze, creating a tragic stream as they blew away from you and down to the not so far off shoreline. As you plucked the last petal, you admired the daisy, still glowing with pollen and beaming in the sunlight despite have lost so many important parts of it. You stuck it into your shirt pocket and fell back down to lay on the grass as you waited for Andy to finish his call.

It had been maybe ten minutes you were lying with your eyes closed, enjoying the heat that beamed down from the clear, Australian sky when you finally heard the slow footsteps that you knew to be Andy’s, pattering along the grass. You shot up from where you lay to see the dopey-smiled man who had left you in the garden just fifteen minutes before, only to be faced with a red-eyed, teary one.

“Andy what happened? Are you okay?” He fell down onto the grass besides you, staring at you but completely wordless. You felt as if you could see into his soul. He was feeling so many emotions he hadn’t even been able to grasp at in so long. It was overwhelming him and you knew it. You reached out to stroke is cheek, concern running through you for the man that you had grown to love so dearly over the past few months.

He looked up “She’s gonna let me see him. T-They’re coming over next month.” A tear fell from his face as he smiled harder than you had ever seen him smile before. He was finally going to see his son after all these long months and you couldn’t have been any happier for him.

“Really?! That’s amazing, oh my god!” You moved forwards, wrapping your arms over his large shoulders and squeezing him in a hug so full of love it was palpable. “You really got to speak to him this time?” You questioned him once more before pulling away from his grasp, thinking back to the many times his ex-wife had promised he could speak with the boy but decided at the last minute he wouldn’t get to.

“Yeah!.. he uhh,” He took in a shaky breath, chuckling with joy as he recalled hearing the young boy’s voice so filled with excitement and energy over the phone. “He said he couldn't wait to meet you! You know, when I told him about you.” He stumbled over his words, running a hand through his hair as he shook with nerves, doing his best to calm himself.

In that moment, you felt your love for him soar higher than it ever had before. You were so proud of the progress he had made, and you knew his son would be too. “And I cant wait to meet him either.” You rested your forehead against his, the two of you enjoying a stand still and bathing in the happiness you both felt in the beautiful moment. The sound of the ever present breeze occupied your ears as the laughter emitting from two of you joined it, echoing a song throughout the garden that wouldn’t be forgotten any time soon.

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Thank you sm for reading!!🥺💗

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[pipedream-parrish]

Happy 34th birthday, Twinyards

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i

It is Aaron’s 14th birthday and he has just found out that he has a brother - a twin brother, an identical twin brother, who looks exactly like him and might just understand him, too. His mom didn’t do anything for his birthday - she hasn’t since he was little, or maybe those long-forgotten memories were really just dreams that have managed to worm their way so deep into his psyche that he’s accepted them as truth. The kids at school sang to him, which was fine, but Aaron can’t help but think maybe now it will be different. Maybe once he meets this brother of his, then they can celebrate their birthdays together. Maybe they can give each other presents, and eat cake, and blow out the candles using the combined forces of their breath. Maybe, maybe, maybe. 

(Andrew spends this birthday choking down cake that Cas got him, trying to hide the fresh marks on his arm, and thinking about the best way to keep his mysterious brother as far away from him as possible)

((one month later, Aaron receives a letter in the mail. He couldn’t tell you everything it said - he just knows that all of these maybes have just been thrown into the middle of a busy highway to be crushed under uncaring tires.))

ii

Its Aaron’s 15th birthday and his mother has celebrated by beating the shit out of him and then throwing a random assortment of pills from the bottom of her purse in his direction as an apology, and Aaron cannot help but think that maybe it won’t have to be like this anymore. He thinks about what Andrew said (Andrew, who really does look just like him, and who seemed so angry about Tilda, and seemed to believe that Aaron didn’t deserve, that he deserved good things--) had said to him, thinks about how maybe when Andrew moves his mom will stop it, maybe it’ll be alright, maybe nothing will hurt anymore and everything will be okay and he’ll have a brother. It’ll be the two of them against the world, and Aaron may not know this other boy all that well, but he promised to protect him, so that must mean something, right? Even if before that he said he didn’t want anything to do with Aaron, he changed his mind, and thats what matters, right? Right? And so when Aaron blows out the birthday candles that he bought for himself at eh convenience store the night before, he wishes for his brother to come home soon, and for them to be a family like they were supposed to be. Like he deserves.

((Six months later, Tilda is dead and Aaron has stopped believing in family.))

iii

It is Andrews’s 16th birthday and he has not spoken more than two words to his brother for most of the year, but Nicky tries to force them to do something, to celebrate, to be normal teenagers for once. Andrew leaves halfway through the elaborate dinner that Nicky has prepared, and pretends not to see the sad look he aims at his retreating back. Pretends that he doesn’t care what Nicky thinks of him, what Aarons thinks of him. Pretends that he stopped caring about Cass, that actually he didn’t care about that, either. Pretends and pretends and pretends, and convinces everyone but himself. 

((He’s not so great at lying to himself yet. He’ll get better with age.)) 

Late that night, after he’s heard everyone else going to bed, he sneaks downstairs and steals a slice of the double-chocolate cake that Nicky got them. There are already a couple of slices out from where Nicky and Aaron had some, so hopefully, this moment of weakness will go unnoticed. 

(Aaron spends his 16th birthday sad and mourning, refusing to look his brother in the eye. When he blows out the birthday candles with no help from a magical brother, he wishes that he never met Andrew in the first place. Not that he believes in magic or wishes or anything good at all, anymore. He barely has a bite of his cake before leaving the table. He, too, pretends not to see Nicky’s teary eyes as he leaves him standing alone in the kitchen, the remnants of a wasted attempt at love scattered all around him)

((he, too, is not so great at lying to himself yet. He, too, will get better with age))

(Nevertheless, when he hears Andrew come downstairs in the dead of night, he creeps into the hallway to watch his petty theft)

((He never mentions it.))

iv

It is Andrew’s 17th birthday and he is so high off the ground that he never even realizes the date.

Or maybe he does and just forgets.

The meds are still new, and he’s not used to them yet. Not used to the loudness, and brightness, and plastered on a smile. His cheeks hurt all the time now - he is constantly working muscles that have not had much use, the last couple of years 

(the last couple of lifetimes)

Needless to say, it is Andrew’s 17th birthday and he does not even realize it, and instead, he spends it in his room, his precious room that has a lock that works, coming apart at all his frying edges. Boys like him were never meant to grow old. Boys like him were never meant to last. And so he lays there and shakes uncontrollably, and laughs, too, tells himself this is fine, he’s fine it’s all fine and knows better than to believes it. Perhaps it is a mercy, that he eventually gets used to the meds. 

Perhaps it is not.

(Aaron doesn’t celebrate his birthday, either. Instead, he picks up extra shifts at Edens and goes to bed early. 

He cannot wait to leave this fucking house)

v

It is Aaron’s 18th birthday, meaning that he is a legal adult. He finds this funny. He has always been an adult; he was an adult when he was four and creeping across the house on silent feet to steal crackers from the pantry because mom forgot to feed him; he was an adult when he was 10 and forging his mothers signature on school papers, and making excuses for why she couldn’t come into parent-teacher conference night; he was an adult when he was sitting across from his reflection in a juvenile detention facility, and promised protection. One more birthday doesn’t mean shit.

(Andrew agrees. He, too, has been an adult for as long as he can remember.)

((Still, when Nicky slips cards under each of their doors wishing them a happy birthday and telling them he’s proud of them, and that he hopes that adulthood treats them right, well. If Aaron squeezes his eyes shut as hard as he can to prevent the tears from escaping, and if Andrew tares it up into a million pieces because it almost makes him feel something, then no one needs to know))

vi

It is November 4th, and the newly-coined monsters are in Columbia, just like they are most weekends. They make the same stops as always, go to the same club, the same restaurant. 

Never once is the word birthday mentioned.

vii

It is Andrew’s 20th birthday and he is about to make one of the worst mistakes of his life. For now, he sits against the windowsill, watching his smoke dissipate into the afternoon air, absently listening to the sounds of Nicky and Aaron’s video game wash over him. He’s grinning, as is usually is these days, and if he was capable of having a long-lasting coherent thought, he would want to carve that grin off his face.

Alas, he is not capable of long-lasting coherent thought. Oh well. Perhaps it’s for the best.

Renee got him a gift. Silly Renee. Always so nice, so kind, even to monsters like him. Hasn’t she learned better than that by now? It seems not.

When Nicky receives a phone call that leaves him in a panic, it is almost enough to garner Andrew’s attention. 

Almost.

When he leaves the room in a rush only to come beach with Neil, the enigma, the hallucination, the rabbit, in tow behind him, Andrew actually does start to pay attention. Only a little though. 

When Neil pulls him aside, and asks for the unimaginable, and then manages to make it seem like a good idea, well. Andrew’s interest has been peaked, and he agrees. Why not? It might be fun. Might be, might be, might be.

(It’s not. It’s not fun at all, and if nothing else then Andrew is finally allowed to leave that smile behind for good. Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday dear Andrew, happy birthday to me!)

((Aaron spends his birthday playing video games and wondering why the new kid holds such sway over his brother. When he looks back on that day, he will not remember any of that. He will only remember that that was the day everything went wrong, and he was unable to fix it.))

viii

It is Andrew’s 21st birthday, and it might just be a good one. No alarm wakes him up in the morning, even though he’s sure he set it last night, meaning he gets to sleep in. When he wakes up it’s to Neil bustling about the dorm room, clearly searching for something.

“Practice?” Andrew asks and is told in no uncertain terms that they will be blowing it off for the day. Yes, today is shaping up to be a good one.

Instead, they go out driving, blazing down empty roads as fast as the mas will take them, eating up millage and gas money and caring at all. Neil rolls down the window and lets out victorious whoops into the still afternoon, the wind flushing his cheeks and tousling his hair. Andrew almost thinks something disgustingly sappy about that but is able to rain in his own brain just in time. 

They got greasy diner food for lunch, and Andrew orders a massive ice cream Sunday that Neil doesn’t comment on. They go back to Fox Tower and lounge around their dorm, kissing and smoking and playing video games. They have pancakes for dinner, and Kevin doesn’t bother them once about going to tonight’s practice. Andrew goes to bed full and sated, and almost, almost, happy. It’s a good birthday.

((the next day at therapy, Aaron complains that he didn’t get to skip practice yesterday. Andrew shrugs and says that he should take notes for next year. It’s almost an invitation. Almost, but not quite.))

ix

It is Aarons’s 22nd birthday, and he takes a leaf out of Andrew’s book and skips practice. He and Katelyn drive into town, and walk up and down the streets, popping into stores at random and picking out delightfully ugly things for the other to buy. In one shop, Katelyn shows Aaron a shirt made from a disgusting green fabric with the gaudiest floral pattern he’s ever seen. In another, Aaron finds shimmering, sparkle filled pink and purple shoes with a six-inch heel. They both nearly get sick from laughing. That night, they go out to the fanciest restaurant they can afford and get wine drunk. Aaron tells Katelyn that he loves her, which is something that he’s told her a million times before, but that doesn’t stop it from mattering. This will always matter. She will always matter. He looks at her, just looks at her, and thinks about how lucky he is to have this. And he thinks about Andrew, just for a second, curses him for keeping her from Aaron. But then, for an even shorter second, the thought occurs to him. I hope he’s as happy right now with Neil as I am with her. 

((Andrew may not show it the same way, but he is. He is.))

x

It is their 25 birthday now (which it longer than either of them thought they would live), and after years of therapy and working through their issues, Aaron has decided once again that he wants a brother. And so he books a flight to Boston, and buys a ticket to Andrews game, and watches his brother play exy on their birthday. Their birthday. Sometimes he still forgets that they are a “they” now. He'll still say my birthday, my mom, my cousin, my family. But it's not just his, and so he meets Andrew at the player’s exit after the game and forces him to go to dinner with him. And they spend their birthday together, just the two of them, for the first time since they were born. And its-

Well, it’s not bad. It's kind of nice, actually. Stilted, at first, and undoubtedly awkward, but. 

But they’re still brothers, even after everything. They share family and history and most of their DNA, so it seems right that they also share a dinner. And they talk, about Andrew’s pro team and Aarons residency, and about halfway through Aaron realizes that even though he was the one who forced this, Andrew isn’t trying to stop it. He came with him to dinner, and he’s talked more in the last hour then Aaron thinks he ever has before, and Aaron realizes that he wants this too. Andrew wants a brother too. They part ways outside - Andrew doesn’t offer to drive him back to his hotel or to let him stay at his apartment, but that’s ok.

Because Andrew wants this too. 

Andrew wants this too.

epilogue 

It is the Minyard twins’ 34th birthday, and as has become a tradition they are each awoken by a phone call from Nicky. Aaron only grumbles for a moment before Katelyn is handing his phone to him and he’s picking up. Andrew takes longer, turning over and burying his face in Neil’s neck for a second or a minute or a year, before finally grabbing his phone. To be fair, it’s about 2 hours earlier for him than for his brother. When he was younger he would hang up, and Nicky would call back, and he’d hang up again, until around the third call when he would finally give in and answer and phone. He doesn’t hang up anymore. He supposes that he’s grown. It’s a facetime call, so he’s greeted with Nicky’s over-enthusiastic smile and Aarons bedhead that looks so much like his own. He props himself up on some pillows so that he’s nearly in a sitting position, and gives a halfhearted wave. Beside him, Neil stays lying down, curling himself into Andrew’s side. Andrew absently starts carding his fingers through his hair. Nicky starts to talk, telling them about the business, and the adoption process, and the cute thing that his and Erik’s dog did. King jumps up onto Andrew’s chest, and then there’s a lot of cooing over how cute she is. She starts to lick at Andrew’s temple, which makes everyone laugh and Andrew rolls his eyes. It’s ok. He doesn’t really mind. Aaron talks about the hospital, and then his toddler (who is really more of a kid now, she’s getting so big holy shit) bursts into the room, climbing up onto the bed. She says hi to her Uncle Andy (Neil taught her to say that when she was a baby, and it tuck. Again, Andrew doesn’t really mind) and Uncle Neil, and her cousins Nicky and Erik. they talk more, Andrew waking up and partaking in the conversion, occasionally mouthing things to Neil in Russian to make him laugh. He loves it when Neil laughs (he’s not so concerned with not thinking sappy things anymore).

It’s a good start to a good day. They order take out and eat it on the floor, just like they do every year. Neil gets him a cake, and he sings happy birthday, just like they do every year. 

A plane ride away, Aaron and Katelyn hire a babysitter and go out to dinner, just like they do every year. Katelyn gets him a loudly collared tie, just like she does every year.

It’s a good day for both boys (who are now much closer to men), but more than that, it is a good day for both brothers. For that is undoubtedly what they are now. Brothers. 

That night, they both get a text from Betsy. It says Happy birthday, my lovely boys. I hope this year treats you well. 

And then it does.

It does.

thanks for reading! if you reblog i’ll love you forever :)

[amoveablejake]

You Never Know...Right?

Why do we do this to ourselves 

At the beginning of the 2020/21 Premier League season I wrote a prediction piece for the year ahead. How that went, whose to say but rest assured I will be held accountable for my horrendous predictions in a piece soon. But today, is not that day. No, because today, less than a week until the 2020 European Championship begins (yes, 2020) I am going to throw down the gauntlet and make some more outlandish predictions that will come back to haunt me. Well, sort of predictions. Last time around I went through every team but I’m not doing that this outing quite simply because I don’t know each team well enough (sorry North Macedonia) so instead I will be going through them group by group and then immediately regretting what I’ve cursed my favored teams with particularly those with the three lions on their chest. *Sigh* Lets get going with the heartbreak shall we. 

Group A: Italy, Switzerland, Wales and Turkey 

I am always nervous about the Italian team. That’s not because of the historical strength of the Italian side and the masters of the game they have produced over the years, its not because of the wonderful kits they have this time around, its not because of the strength of the Serie A, no, its because they won the 2006 World Cup. And sure, since then they haven’t ever hit that height again, even missing out on the previous tournament but as that was the first true World Cup I can remember I live in fear of them. The team this time around is good, I would say even better than that one in 2006 in some key areas but its missing that spark. That Pirlo magic, that knowledge that Buffon is in goal ready to protect you. Ofcourse, I’m sure that Chiesa is going to make this his tournament and run rings around his opponents as he has been doing all season for Juventus. As for the others in this group, Switzerland and Turkey are those sorts of teams that always have an upset in their back pocket and are capable of rallying against the odds to progress further than they may have been tipped for. As for Wales, they are probably the other favourites to progress alongside Italy but I think it will be a much tougher road for them to get out the group stage and if I had to pick my top two its going to be Italy and Switzerland. Lets watch that age badly shall we. 

Group B: Belgium, Finland, Denmark and Russia 

Despite not winning the 2018 World Cup Belgium still managed to exit the tournament with a great sense of accomplishment and have enjoyed sitting at the top of the Fifa world rankings in the last couple of years. A position they do deserve, the Belgium squad is filled with wonderful players, De Bruyne, Mertens, Lukaku, Courthois and two Hazards. The thing is, Lukaku is coming off the back of an intense title winning season in Serie A, De Bryune is suffering an injury and Eden Hazard, well, its not clicked at Real shall we say. Belgium are truly a world class team but I don’t think this will be their tournament, they should however, make it through this group with relative ease. ‘Should’ being the operative word there. As for the others, I would love it if Denmark could make it through to the knockout stage and they do have a good, capable team but I think it will be Russia who make it out. As for Finland, I don’t know too much about the team but I’m always excited to see if an underdog can perform and capture my heart so maybe that will be them. They do have one of the finest kits of the tournament afterall. 

Group C: Austria, North Macedonia, Netherlands and Ukraine 

Like the Belgium group this is another one where you look at it on paper and see the Netherlands storming into the knockout rounds. And yes, they absolutely should. They have a wonderful team that qualified with ease. The orange clad men always seem to enjoy a good run out at international tournaments whilst always falling short of the finish line. I do enjoy watching them play and progress and thats no different here as I’ll be hoping that they do get through. They should, again ‘should’, be joined by Austria but I would love it, absolutely adore it, if North Macedonia went through. What a lovely time that would be. I’ve just realised I haven’t mentioned Ukraine which probably means they will win the entire tournament. 

Group D: Croatia, Czech Republic, Scotland and England 

Here we go. World in motion. Heartbreak city. The England squad is potentially one of the strongest its ever been, sure there are some omissions and the starting xi may not be what I have in mind but boy oh boy do I believe. I believe. And I will believe for about two minutes into the Croatia game. This is a group that has heartbreak written all over it and as a true England fan that is what I’ve come to expect. Pain. Pain that will ultimately come from a brief fleeting moments of the best football you have ever seen and daring to beleive it may infact come home only for that to be ripped away. Its how this works. I’m not even going to talk about the other teams beause I don’t want to tempt fate. Fine. I like Croatia even after all the suffering they have brought us over the years, Czech Republic are always strong and its nice that Scotland have at last come to the party. I just wish it wasn’t in this group. 

Group E: Poland, Slovakia, Spain and Sweden 

For me, this group is all about Lewandowski. After this truly historic season with Bayern I hope that run of form continues into the Euros. Lewandowski is one of those players I’ll be boring the children about and speaking of how incredible his forty one goal season is. It would be great to see him perform with Poland and to take them into the knockout stages and who knows, as Zlatan isn’t with the Sweden team that may happen. As for Spain, like with Italy their triumphant run of trophies from 2008 to 2012 (two Euros and one World Cup) has made me increasingly aware of them and I used to adore watching that team of Torres, Villa, Casillas, Xavi and Iniesta play. But that was then and this is now and the Spain team of 2021 isn’t quite the same of the masters of old but still, they should be progressing here. 

Group F: France, Portugal, Germany and Hungary. 

If Hungary make it through this group. Man alive, we should give them the trophy there and then. This is the party group, the group of death. Three incredible teams going up against each other including the Euros holder Portugal and the World Cup winners France. There are a lot of great narratives running through this group, Portugal are once again being led by Cristiano Ronaldo who is ofcourse desperate to win another trophy and cement his already concrete legacy. Germany are once again looking strong and this is Low’s last outing with the team before passing the reigns over to Hansi Flick. Not to mention Hummels and Muller have been recalled to the squad. And then, there is France. I adore this team, sorry, j’adore this France squad. It is filled with wonderful players (okay you’ve twisted my arm I’ll name them, Pogba, Kante, Lloris, Varane, Griezmann, Giroud, Benzema and Mbappe). They’re such a strong side and play with truly wonderful elegance. They won the World Cup in 2018 for a reason and have only grown stronger. Benzema has been recalled after carrying Real Madrid and Mbappe, well, he’s alright I guess. 

 Writing the above yet again highlighted the fact that this is an incredibly hard tournament to win. There is truyl world class talent on display and no team will walk to the final. But, you have to beleive right. And sure, tears will be flowing, I have no illusions about that, but for now its nice to beleive that maybe just maybe France won’t obliterate us too much. 

-Jake, a man who is getting ready to apply for a French passport, 06/06/2021

[figmentisms]

Tagged by @not-jodie-yet!!

Name: Sam

Nickname: Sammy, spaceboy (and variations of this), chaotic dumbass

Zodiac: Aries >:)

Favorite musicians or group: Palaye Royale, Cavetown, Wallows, Grandson, Atlas, Hippo Campus, Conan Gray, IDKHow, EDEN, a handful  of other people man I listen to so much music

Favorite sports team: ah yes. the sports ball. i definitely know about the sports ball things.

Other blogs: @space-boy-art is my art blog, @ask-themasters is the ask blog I run, i’m one of the mods for @ dw-masters aka the Masterversary Big Bang :)

Do you get asks: Not usually on this blog, but loads on my ask blog, and lately i’ve gotten a few on my art blog! hello all! 

How many blogs do you follow: 80 (yes, exactly 80)

Tumblr crushes: i don’t know what this entails idk if i have any?? bcuz crushes feels like people i don’t actually talk to but wish i did which i don’t have sjdkfhksj

Lucky number: 13, i picked it jokingly at first but its genuinely worked out for me thus far so :p

What are you wearing right now: Shorts w/ a tropical pattern and TIGERS on them (i love them i got them on clearance at walmart), t-shirt, blue hoodie

Dream vacation: It changes pretty frequently along with my interests, but I’d have a lot of fun in Japan i think! I know, very basic of me, other than that i REALLY want to be able to go to a big con like Gallifrey One someday

Dream car: idk man, something simple, not super large, will last me a while and isnt super expensive to fix up. probably a honda or something jksdhfksj  i do not have a license soooo

Favorite food: really just depends on the mood I’m in?? idk usually something thats not terribly healthy for you lmao, also eggs benedict is good

Drink of choice: blue flavored energy drinks (what flavor is blue, you ask? its just blue man idk. it varies)

Instruments: Oh!! I can play ukulele and guitar pretty well, and I can plunk around on the piano a little bit, although idk how to read the sheet music at all as I’ve never had lessons. I tend to have a knack for things with strings! I played cello for a bit but I haven’t touched one in three years so idk if i’m any good at it anymore, I certainly don’t remember how to read the music

Languages: In terms of actual real languages, only english unfortunately :( i would like to learn more but i can never get my brain to focus on them

Celebrity crush: listen i’m aro so its mostly based on aesthetics alone (and also changes frequently) but at the moment because of my current hyperfixation its a lot of people who have been on doctor who, aka Sacha Dhawan, uhhh Delgado has a good face, idk it varies. Also I forget his name but the guy who plays Elliot in The Magicians? He’s hot

Random fact: I accidentally learned how to write in wingdings at one point, then forgot half the characters, and proceeded to make up symbols for the ones I had forgotten. Now I can write in my half wingdings half bullshitted code as fast as I can write in english and it’s probably hell to understand if anyone tried to translate it when you combine my handwriting and the symbols that only i rlly know

Favorite ecosystem: no idea! forests are nice, but i’m gonna be honest i lowkey rlly like big cities cuz i don’t idle well

Favorite cat species: A L L   O F   T H E M 

I tag whoever would like to do this! But also @anxiousgod, @adorkreblogshats, and @inked-in-art, if you’d like

[willieowinsbury]

i’ve decided to rank hozier songs because i can and i feel like it

22. sedated: this song is solid, but sort of plain. makes you nod your head along but no dancing or mouthing along. it sort of feels like an amalgam of every hozier song. doesn’t slap. its the c- of hozier songs

21. someone new: cute, but sort of like a middle song in a wedding. nobody really talks about it for a reason. makes you smile, but not very catchy

20. run: its haunting, but not a cool kind of haunting, more just gives you the creeps. the chorus is pretty good though, and the lyrics seem like something you’d hear in poetry, so it’s better than the other two

19. moment’s silence (common tongue): this is the first song on this list that is legitimately catchy. its a song you turn up on the radio, but not by much. its fun, its bluesy, got some catholic imagery. its good, but its not “wow!” good. c maybe c+

18. better love: this was written in a month, and it feels rushed. a bit too fast, and if hozier had more time, im convinced he would have slowed it down. its the first powerful, devotional, love song on the list. i’ve heard people don’t like the drums, but im convinced its the extra singers and violin in the background. im always a violin advocate, but you’ve gotta pick like two instruments andrew. its crowded, but its got that power so its higher than say, sedated

17. from eden: i know everybody loves this, and i agree its pretty good, but i think the song could’ve used some more haunting parts? way extra points for the bridge after the third verse, thats super cool. i’d give it a b

16. nfwmb: i legitimately really like this song. it hits all the points, haunting, devotional love, necromancy, comparing your partner to nature, low bass. its a great low and sort of dirty song that could have used some higher string instruments. theres nothing wrong with this song in particular, i just like the others better. again, a b

15. movement: idk how y’all feel about this one, its his newest, but its one of his building songs. the atmosphere is different, and the lyrics are sub-par for hozier, but something about it just goes so hard. b+

14. take me to church: this was his first hit, and we’re all tired of it by now, but giving it a listen again, if not for the overplayedness, it would be more like a 6 or 5, not 14. a solid jam. gets bumped over movement for pagan imagery

13. jackie and wilson: someone new if it slapped. super relatable and arguably more lesbian than from eden, which i will argue. i mean, seeing a woman across the bar and immediately imagining your future kids and house? and getting so caught up in it you don’t notice when she leaves? big dyke mood, also super fun and catchy. feels like spring cottage cleaning watching cartoons on a saturday morning. b+

12. arsonists lullaby: this song starts of as innocuous and gets darker. really feel the fire and brimstone and rage and power of idk. mental illness? pyromancy? anyway it makes you want to dance naked around the bonfire, like in that scene at the end of the witch. one of the few powerful dark hozier songs with a snare drum beat, our first a-

11. shrike: its bittersweet ending of a relationship, and he conveys the pain and love perfectly, and the irish accent is the best. feels like a song at the end of a movie when two people who maybe could have made it break up, and maybe one dies in a war or something. its beautiful and lonely, and vocals are really great on this one

10: angel of small death and codeine scene: this song sorta feels like the folk/blues version of an answering song to dangerous woman by ari. mood is loving a woman who’s bad for you but you just can’t help yourself. the guitar isn’t my favorite instrument, but i really like it here. would be very energetic and rockin at a concert, love

9: nina cried power: i love this one, and its powerful and full and angry and sad, but there’s something fundamentally hozier missing from this one. i love it, but it doesn’t give me that fantasy inducing feeling, which might be an artistic choice. either way, a-

8. in the woods somewhere: the haunting, soulful, fever-esque, version of run. its the mind of someone whos going mad, in the woods. its a top tier hozier song. the clapping that you don’t really notice until you are only paying attention to the song adds to the maddening atmosphere, as well as the low and slow bass. the harmony in the bridge is keening, and this is one of the first songs that really screams hozier for me

7. cherry wine: bringing back the bittersweet love aspect again that he seems to capture so well, hozier uses such beautiful imagery in this song, you feel as if you’re in a cottage, doing ballet barefoot at dawn on dusty wooden floors, doing housework. its desperate in a way no other hozier song has lived up to. its keeping up appearances, stroking a baby bird oh so carefully, grazing your fingers over unused fiddle strings. it’s sad, and bitter, and so full of love. the first a

6. it will come back: the heavy drum and guitar are reminiscent of classic rock, but slows down so quickly at points it leaves you delerious and determined. it’s a stubborn song, it sneaks up on you on how much you love it. its toeing some sort of line. its falling in love with a monster

5. like real people do: it’s loving each other knowing you aren’t going to last, secrets that you don’t want to know, wanting enough time as possible before you have to leave. its beautiful and sad, and the harmony adds so much, and the beat is slightly like a heartbeat, steady, and there, but so quiet you barely notice. makes you smile sadly, a rare occurrence

4. in a week: something about this one is so sad and it reminds you of the place you were born. or maybe thats just me, i was born in iowa. its the same message from like real people do with a twist. you don’t have much time to love someone. it builds and builds and builds and is a tangle of messes and complications, and suddenly is so so simple. its longing, its wishing you had more time, its the last kiss in a battle in slow motion. bared necks and prarie grass, this song is about dying in the place you were made. the simple beat and melody give this song exactly what it needs to thrive. a

3. foreigner’s god: this is precisely the opposite of in a week, about dying in a place you were not born. about not knowing who you are anymore, about pleading with god, any god to spare you, let you go home. the fast beat in the chorus isn’t chaotic, but angry and sad and begging. its grief in every form, guarded and raw, hozier makes you examine your choices with this one. the beat is pounding in a subtle way, and it goes so hard

2. to be alone: this is big top energy. smoky bars and big boots, and slightly western? it’s tantalizing, crawling out of your own skin, and pure want. it’s slow and yet loud in a good way. it’s hard to explain why i like this song, but it feels like a storm in your bones

1. work song: this one is actually my favorite song of all time. its got so much longing, and stubbornness, and hunger, and love. this is the devotion we all love from hozier, the power and the darkened eyes. this is the epitome of hozier, and it feels like your soul and i just can’t articulate with words what this song feels like, it would be five pages long, this is the %100, this is the a+. this song brings everything hozier has ever made you feel to the table, and makes you feel it harder

[unproduciblesmackdown]

it’s 7am and for no especial reason im gonna throw out “bat boy” numbers that really go off which is, really all of them, but still, might as well share my wisdom

a) COMFORT AND JOY: obviously!!!!! THE song. it is seriously like, wow. the drama. and its Such a jam. what haven’t i already said to endorse it? cuz i’ll say some more.

b) SHOW YOU A THING OR TWO: automatically gets second spot b/c its second most likely to be in my head. it’s all “i’ll show you a thing or two, second verse with these-two-notes [two-notes]” and i do a little dance for those two-notes. and the lyrics “you’ll soon complete it—but, wait! ((??)) don’t eat it ((oh))” will loop thru my brain like fifteen times. lot of Musical Style variation in this whole show and this ones got like, a highstepping chorus line theme & thats a delight. and lots of incredible lyrics too, like this song’s “but now say howdy to a summa cum laude.” oh wait and i suppose its self explanatory but meredith The Mom and shelley The Daughter are teaching edgar The Bat Boy like, all of general knowledge in a matter of weeks / maybe several months. dr parker The Husband / Vet is tangentially helpful but not really because he sucks. meredith’s patience is v nice. you really have to root for them, except dr parker, because he sucks.

C) CHILDREN, CHILDREN: any ranking order beyond this is basically just me throwing darts w my eyes closed but this is a good third cuz its again that musical variety......this ones like, this 90s-ish movie credits remix echoey chimy synthy thing going on?? but its really a jam too. when the company joins in with the “oooo~shalala” i go BERSERK.....and there’s this suddenly punk rockish break in the middle of it. pretty great. what’s going on is that, as edgar and shelley are fleeing from Society into nature / the woods to reinvent their notions of humanity, the god of that sort of stuff Pan has shown up with an eden-esque panoply of animals to sing this song to set the mood. obviously.

D) WHATCHA WANNA DO: speaking of punk rockish...this is that? it’s a bit head-tiltingly jarring as its just this number in which one of the local teens who found edgar in the cave shows up to the parkers’ house where he’s currently caged and reacts to him in a Thematic Microcosm of what will be others’ reactions, aka to reflect a like, lack of inhibition re sex and mostly violence back at his feral nature and perceived inhumanity. one of the stranger numbers in a weird musical, but still a jam, see: punk rockish

E) A JOYFUL NOISE (REPRISE): end the musical here and everythings fine! just a real short one but a lot of fun because of what i just said. edgar goes to the local revival to beg the townspeople’s and preacher’s acceptance, and they give it to him. yet more musical style variety and a shoutout to this exchange

F) THREE BEDROOM HOUSE: send the musical in a different direction in the middle of this and everything could still be fine. this is a fun boppish number kinda reflecting elements of “show you a thing or two” musically, which i suppose is since its again mostly about meredith having decided that they can make this mess of a situation work. that mess being that, edgar Was accepted by the town but actually her husband killed a local teen and then showed up and blamed it on edgar & implied the mysterious plague upon their cows was edgar’s fault too and edgar’s run off into the woods. then this one is followed by children, children. i could go in order but its chaos rules only!!! the amount of fun energy in this song is frankly great and its like hell yeah meredith!!!!! hell yeah hock this stupid ring!!! kill your husband!! or whatever. js

G) CHRISTIAN CHARITY: god this one is fun idk......also self explanatory imo. local teens have found a cave cryptid, now the sheriff has him, he’s dragged him into the house where the local vet lives and is just p much casually dumping said cryptid on them, which is funny. there’s Musical Themes here repeated w some of the townspeople’s numbers & set up for comfort and joy....what really gets me is the sheriff’s part that starts abt a minute into the number where it’s like, this really neat almost-lilting musical phrase in the key of i don’t know, but its cool. i like it

H) INSIDE YOUR HEART: man, this one’s got this like, p simple musical Theme in there that’s just like, that’s all you need really. sort of like, the classic ballad duet type of song now. but also sort of cutting its own drama, b/c the musicals like, tragicomic and all. like edgar has this whole swelling “oh god this curséd existence you have to leave me” declaration and then immediately you get shelley’s matter of fact “...no.” even tho its a bit Meta Humorous like that, frankly its still a pretty great straightforward and sweet number which im sure a lot of musicàl love songs Wish they could be, which is just made more Smh by the fact that a) it’s about shelley trying to convince edgar its okay to drink her blood and b) because right after it ends meredith shows up to belatedly inform them that they’re half siblings. shits a wild ride.

I) A HOME FOR YOU: careening back to the beginning....this one is also less like, oh shit im gonna dance along, more of a subdued and quiet number, but its a nice solo of meredith’s and p sweet but not in a way like Inside Your Heart where its gonna get immediately wrecked. instead its one of the more grounded songs where she’s just telling the feral bat teen now in her house that maybe he can like, belong somewhere. it also has the Additional Depth not yet revealed in the plot that meredith is aware that edgar is her own child whom she had previously presumed dead. and this song is also Significant in that it’s Reprised when edgar realizes he might actually be fully human (he’s not) and is eager to go to the town’s upcoming revival and win their acceptance; and its Musical Theme is briefly reprised in “apology to a cow” when edgar is at the total opposite end of things, having been turned on by the town thx to the betrayal of his evil stepdad, and then having his and shelley’s attempt to forsake the need for social acceptance in the first place Also Wrecked by their mom telling them she’s their mom, so then he’s just mad at everything and murders a cow b/c he feels the only thing left is to embrace their idea of him as a killer monster, and he Reprises the a home for you theme as he swears to kill both meredith and dr parker, which he doesn’t, although they do Die around him. whoops. wanna @ will roland and be like “hey can you sing this one single line from Apology For A Cow?? cuz its rly cool and honestly a lot of these songs make me sure that wroland’s version of this material what with his voice and acting and how dramatically that production seemed to treat the outlandishness in general all means i’d fucking go ballistic and i wanna hear ‘this face will be the last thing that you ever see’ cuz that key change and that like, rise and fall at the end,,,,OOF,,,”

J) I IMAGINE YOU’RE UPSET: just round it off by slapping this climactic song right down. it’s a lot. dramatic again but also kinda fun...ish......i mean its the “everythings gone to shit and lets bring everyone together for peak disaster” so how much fun can be had? yet the quick exchange of “i smell [...] her sweat” “oh my god” whole town: “JESUS!!” and the sheriff singing “im sorry your life’s a sham” like hfvlmao thanks dude. but there’s all the clashes of characters’ built-up emotions and edgar is over here covered in blood and demanding to be killed while the town is like YEAH but all meredith’s lines are especially bittersweet and honestly like its a weird absurd story obviously and we’re all here to be ourselves and have fun but the story does make me bummed cuz of thinking about it all as “okay, yeah, but if you treat it earnestly,,,,Sad” like man you hearken back to three bedroom house and how meredith is determined to see it all be okay and really like just wants to live with her kids somewhere safe and NOT with her crap husband who’s been ruining everything the whole time for once. and then she’s here caught between the final confrontation of the Dramatic Foils that are edgar and dr parker and in general everything is a bit too late. ugh. lot of Dramatic Exchanges here and musical theme reprises!! that’s the good shit. and then the song ends on dr parker’s sort of ominous yet resigned-ish “are you hungry edgar” (shoutout to comfort and joy!!) after which he cuts his own throat, and, just like in comfort and joy, (and sort of like just prior to comfort and joy, when edgar reflexively defended meredith from dr parkers Violent Behavior) when he presents edgar w the fresh blood edgar automatically Attacks, wherein dr parker takes the chance to stab him, and inadvertently stabs meredith when she tries to shield edgar, and they all three die w edgar bleeding-outly refuting his humanity to shelley, and then there’s the final number where everyone’s like wow that was some shit. but ACTUALLY there is also this one specific detail i’d be desperate to see from the nyu steinhardt version, which is that after they all die and there’s that Breathless Moment, the Man From The Institute who the sheriff had called earlier to deal with edgar Rushes In and sort of beholds the whole town gathered staring at these three bodies and maybe a cow’s head off to the side, and one of the townspeople just goes “...you’re late.” and i am so certain that this line is HghhfGH-wheeze-laugh worthy; but the performance i saw they did NOT do the timing right!!! they said it like right off whereas what you need to do is hold the pause at least three full seconds!! and then go: You’re Late. i’m adamant about this. so much of Landing The Delivery is timing!! anyways. god. press f. anyways. it’s now 9 am. thanks and good morning. basically saying that the whole soundtrack is basically pretty great and really will roland has doomed me to actually be invested in this weird story, b/c its the ol magical realism comedic-framed wild obviously-that-would-never-happen plot, but, still, you’ve got this teen trying his best and it COULD all be fine actually but it all goes to shit b/c nobody killed dr parker in time really. well i’d just like to conclude by saying it’s raining and that’s great b/c i love when it’s raining

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[Diabolik Lovers: Dark Fate] Subaru Sakamaki Ecstasy Epilogue Translation/Traducción

Please no reposting onto other sites, just link back to this post-and ask me before translating this into other languages!—-Por favor no republiques y preguntame antés de traducir a otras idiomas.

English

Scene: Exterior of the Sakamaki Castle

Subaru:....

Subaru:...I understand.

Shin: Ehh...He’ll do it?

Yui: Subaru! What do you think of doing! Stop that!

Yui: That’s something you absolutely can’t do!

Subaru:...Shut up!

Yui:....

Carla: What will you do. Are you going to do it? Or else...

Subaru: Killing them, is fine...

Carla: I see.

Subaru:.....

Subaru: Until I return, if I see that you did something to Yui...

Subaru: At that time...I’ll really break you to pieces. 

Carla: Fu...Fine.

Shin: Heheh. Well, we can just talk to her. 

Subaru:...I’ll come back. 

Subaru leaves

Yui: (Stop...)

Yui: (Dont leave, Subaru...)

Yui: (Thats the one thing you shouldn’t do.)

Yui: (I know. That you will regret it forever...)

Yui: (Because, over anyone, you’re a gentle person.)

Yui: (And over that, I can’t see you get hurt.)

Shin: Now then, I wonder how long it’ll take to kill all of them...

Shin: I mean...How much would you really be able to kill with that lack of ability...ua!

Carla:...Shin?

Yui: Kuh...!

Yui leaves

Shin: Tch! She, bit me...! ...Wait! 

Shin and Carla go after her

Scene Change: Sky

Yui: (I have to get away...)

Yui: (To stop Subaru, there’s no other alternative...)

Shin: Oi...What do you think you’re doing getting over that fence? Wont you die from this high up?

Yui:...Thats why.

Yui: If I fall from here, there’s no reason for Subaru to kill everyone...

Yui: And over that, I wont let Subaru do your bidding!

Carla: I see....

Carla: This woman...is almost starting to think as bad as Subaru. 

Yui: Dont come near me!

Carla:.....

Yui falls 

Shin: Brother!

Yui:....

Yui: (Goodbye, Subaru.)

Yui: (I honestly wished we could spend more time together. I always wanted to be by your side to support you.)

Yui: (But, for you to feel more hurt, I wont let that happen...)

Yui: (I’m sorry for doing something selfish...)

Yui: (It’s because I adore you.)

Yui: (I love you.)

Shin:...It’s an endgame! [TN: Shin says よせ which can also mean a last move, either works.]

???:...Guah....!

Yui:...!?

Yui: (....)

Yui: (...I’m...?)

Scene Change: Forest

Subaru:....

Subaru: What a stupid thing to do! 

Yui:...Suba..ru..?

Subaru: That was careless! For what reason could you do that...

Yui: Subaru!

Subaru:...

Yui: Please...dont kill them.

Yui: I...didn’t want to see you do something so cruel...

Subaru:....

Subaru: How many times do I have to tell you to not do selfish things...Dont mess with me...

Subaru: Haha. You didn’t want me doing something so cruel?

Subaru:...So!

Subaru: Until the end of the world, I’ll never let you die withouot my permission!

Yui:...!

Subaru: If you did that, I would never forgive you....

Subaru: Losing something this important...again I’d...

Yui:...Subaru....

Subaru: Now...The only thing I have left is you...

Yui: (Right...)

Yui: (Being betrayed by Karlhienz in that way, and then losing Christa...)

Yui: (When it comes to Subaru...this is the one thing that can’t be done.)

Yui: Sorry, Subaru...I was wrong...

Yui: I, wont leave your side.

Yui: We’ll be together forever.

Subaru:...Yui....

Wolf howl

Yui:....

Subaru: They’re coming...Stand up.

Yui: Yea.

Subaru:....

Yui:...? What...Ah!

Yui: (Subaru���s arm is bleeding...Surely from my fall...)

Yui: Subaru, give me your arm! We have to treat it right now...

Subaru:...It’s fine. Anyways, we need to go now. 

Yui: But...

Subaru: Tch. My body doesn’t work as you would normally think. ...In this state. 

Subaru: Because of the eclipse...

Subaru: Oi, hold me tight. 

Yui: Ah...

Subaru:.....

Yui: Subaru...Where are we running away to now...

Subaru:...Oh, right.

Subaru: Running away...Let’s stop that, already. 

Yui: Eh...?

Subaru: There’s something I need to settle. ...About my mother.

Yui:....

Yui: Uhh...Subaru, about Christa...

Yui: (Christa, those two...)

Subaru:...Where the ones who gave my mother that poison, the Tsukinami guys?

Yui:... You realized that...?

Subaru: Its what I gathered from what you guys spoke about before. 

Subaru: To get me away from you, they killed my mother...

Yui:....

Subaru: Of course, I’ll never forgive those guys. I’ll be sure to kill them with my own hands. However...

Subaru: After all, what Carla said was right... The one who was weak, was me.

Subaru: All of this is because I was weak. The fault is...

Yui:...That’s not true!

Subaru: No, it’s true.

Subaru: Because I was weak....

Subaru: Because I kept running away, my mother ended up dead.

Subaru: At this rate...I’ll lose something else, surely...

Subaru: Yui...I dont want to have regrets anymore.

Subaru: You’re the only one I dont want to lose. 

Subaru:...So, I wont run away anymore. 

Subaru: From here, we’ll go to Eden...I’m going to kill...my father.

Yui:...Thats...!

Yui: (After all, I dont forgive Karlhienz...)

Yui: (For him to speak of Christa in that way, there’s no way I could ever understand it... But...)

Yui: Thats unreasonable! Cause, you’re already injured...

Subaru: Even so....I have to settle this. 

Yui: Subaru....

Monologue

While holding me, Subaru looked straight forward. 

I dont want him to be at risk.

-----But.

As I looked at his profile, he looked like he had grown up. And I realized, there was no way I could stop him. 

As I tightened my grip, I prayed. 

At the end of this battle, I hope that Subaru is safe----.

Monologue Ends

Scene Change: Eden Entrance Hall

Karlhienz:...You came?

Yui:....

Subaru: Ha, you’ve finally come out....

Karlhienz: Fu...Subaru. As usual, that’s quite the tone you have while speaking to your father. 

Subaru: I dont consider you to be my father!

Karlhienz: Oh, I see you’ve grown more hateful towards me. 

Subaru: Of course I would be! 

Subaru: You...What have you done to my mother?

Subaru: If you didn’t love her...why would you make her your wife!

Subaru: Because of you, those guys...my mother...!

Karlhienz:..This again. 

Karlhienz: When I spoke to Eve before, weren’t you outside listening? 

Subaru:...Shut up!

Yui: (...Karlhienz knew...)

Yui: (This person...)

Yui: (He knew that Subaru was listening, and yet he still said those awful things...)

Karlhienz:----Because I needed to.

Karlhienz: For my plan, I needed someone of close blood...

Karlhienz: Subaru, bringing you into this world was vital.

Karlhienz: There’s no other reason. 

Subaru:...! Dont fuck with me!

Subaru: We’re not your pawns! 

Subaru: I...you’re the only person I could never forgive...

Yui:...

Yui: (...It’s futile. Should I look away from the knife? No, I have to see...)

Yui: (This is something that he must do. Subaru will really kill this person...)

Yui: (Because of Christa...Subaru is more than willing to go through with it this time...)

Yui: (I’ll watch Subaru until the end.)

Yui: (So, when everything is over, I’ll tell him properly.)

Yui: (Hey, Subaru, You...)

Yui: (You’re not weak.)

Subaru: Karlhienz! I have to kill you!

Karlhienz:...That’s fine. 

Karlhienz: Become Adam, my son!

Subaru:...Uaaaaaaa!

Ecstasy 10 ♥ Vampire End ♥ Manservant End ♥ Brute End

Español

Escenario: Exterior del Castillo Sakamaki

Subaru:....

Subaru:...Entiendo. 

Shin: Ehh...¿Lo va a hacer?

Yui: Subaru! ¡Que pensas hacer! ¡No lo hagas!

Yui: ¡Es algo que absolutamente no puedes hacer!

Subaru:...¡Cállate!

Yui:....

Carla: Que harás. Lo harás? Si no...

Subaru: Matarlos, esta bien...

Carla: Veo. 

Subaru:.....

Subaru: Cuango regreso, si veo que hicieron algo a Yui...

Subaru: En ese momento...realmente te voy a destruir. 

Carla: Fu...Esta bien. 

Shin: Heheh. Pues, solo vamos a hablar con ella. 

Subaru:...Regresaré. 

Subaru se va

Yui: (No lo hagas...)

Yui: No me dejes, Subaru...)

Yui: (Esa es la única cosa que jamas puedes hacer.)

Yui: (Lo sé. Que te vas a arrepentir.)

Yui: (Porque, comparado a cual quier otra persona, eres una persona amable.)

Yui: (Y más que eso, no quiero verte adolorido.)

Shin: Ahora, ¿me pregunto en que mucho tiempo los matara?

Shin: Quiero dicir...Con su abilidad, no puede ser facil, ¿no?...ua..

Carla:...¿Shin?

Yui: ¡Kuh...!

Yui corre

Shin: Tch! Ella, me mordio...! ...Espera!

Carla y Shin va tras ella

Cambio de Escenario: Cielo

Yui: (Necesito escapar...)

Yui: (Para que no lo haga Subaru, ya no queda otro alternativo...)

Shin: Oi...¿Que piensas que haces con esa cerca? Vas a morir de esta altitud. 

Yui:...Por eso. 

Yui: Si me callo de esta altitud, ya no va a ver razón para que Subaru los mate...

Yui: Y sobre todo, ¡no dejaré Subaru ser ordenado por ustedes! 

Carla: Ya veo....

Carla: Esta mujer...esta empezando a pensar en la misma manera que Subaru. 

Yui: ¡No se acercan! 

Carla:.....

Yui cae

Shin: ¡Hermano! 

Yui:....

Yui: (Adios, Subaru.)

Yui: (Honestamente me gustaría tener más tiempo contigo. Siempre quieria estar a tu lado para apoyarte.)

Yui: (Pero, hacer algo que te da más dolor...)

Yui: (Perdóname por hacer algo tan egoísta...)

Yui: (Es porque te quiero mucho.)

Yui: (Te amo.)

Shin:...¡Ya es el fin! 

???:...Guah....!

Yui:...!?

Yui: (....)

Yui: (...¿Soy...?)

Cambio de Escenario: Bosque

Subaru:....

Subaru: ¡Que cosa tan estupidad!

Yui:...Suba..ru..?

Subaru: Que descuidada! Por que razón harias...

Yui: ¡Subaru!

Subaru:...

Yui: Por favor...no los maten. 

Yui:Yo...no quieria verte hacer algo tan cruel...

Subaru:....

Subaru: Cuantas veces quieres que te diga de no hacer cosas egoísticas...No juegues conmigo...

Subaru: Haha. ¿No quierias que yo haga algo tan cruel?

Subaru:...¡Y que!

Subaru: Hasta el fin del mundo, ¡nunca te voy a dejar morir sin permiso!

Yui:...!

Subaru: Si haces algo así, nunca te lo voy a perdonar. 

Subaru: Perdiendo algo tan importante..otra vez...yo...

Yui:...Subaru....

Subaru: Ahora...la unica cosa que me queda eres tu. 

Yui: (Tiene razón...)

Yui: (Después de que Karlhienz hizo, y luego perdiendo a Christa...)

Yui: (A Subaru...es la única cosa que no le puedo hacer.)

Yui: Perdoname, Subaru...No tenia razón...

Yui: Yo no voy a dejar tu lado. 

Yui: Siempre estaremos juntos. 

Subaru:...Yui....

Aullido de lobos

Yui:....

Subaru: Estan veniendo...Levantate.

Yui: Si.

Subaru:....

Yui:...? Quet...Ah!

Yui: (El brazo de Subaru esta sangrando...Seguramente por mi caída...)

Yui: Subaru, ¡dame tu brazo! Necesitamos tratarlo ahora...

Subaru:...Esta bien. Sin embargo, necesitamos irnos ahora...

Yui: Pero...

Subaru: Tch. Mi cuerpo no esta actuando como lo normal ...En este estado. 

Subaru: Por el eclipse...

Subaru: Oi, subete. 

Yui: Ah...

Subaru:.....

Yui: Subaru...a donde vamos a escapar esta vez...

Subaru:...Ah, verdad.

Subaru: Escapar...Ya paremos de hacer eso. 

Yui: ¿Eh...?

Subaru: Hay algo que tengo que resolver. ...Sobre mi madre. 

Yui:....

Yui: Uhh...Subaru, sobre Christa...

Yui: (Christa, los dos...)

Subaru:...Los que dieron a mi madre el veneno, ¿fue los Tsukinami?

Yui:... ¿Lo sabias...?

Subaru: Era por lo que hablamos antes...

Subaru: Para alejarme de ti, mataron a mi madre...

Yui:....

Subaru: Por supuesto nunca los perdonare. Seguramente voy a matarlos con mis propios manos. Pero...

Subaru: Despues de todo, lo que dijo Carla tenia razón. Quien era débil fui yo. 

Subaru: Todo esto paso porque fui debil. La culpa es...

Yui:...¡No es verdad!

Subaru: Si, es verdad

Subaru: Porque soy debil...

Subaru: Cada vez que me paso algo quería escapar de mis problemas, y por eso, me madre salio muerta. 

Subaru: En este curso...Voy a perder más, seguramente...

Subaru: Yui...no quiero arrepentirme de nada. 

Subaru: Eres la unica quien no quiero perder. 

Subaru:...A si que, ya no voy a correr. 

Subaru: Desde aquí, vamos a el Edén...y luego...voy a matar a mi padre. 

Yui:...¡Es...!

Yui: (Despues de todo, no perdono a Karlhienz...)

Yui: (Hablando de Christa de esa manera, nunca llegaré a entenderlo... Pero...)

Yui: ¡No es razonable! En este momento, ya estas herido...

Subaru: De cual quier manera....Necesito resolver esto. 

Yui: Subaru....

Monologo

Mientras en sus brazos, Subaru vio hace adelante. 

No quiero que este a riesgo. 

----Pero. 

A ver su cara, aparenta que maduró. Y realice que no pude hacer nada para que no lo haría. 

Mientras me sostenía, yo me puse a rezar. 

Al fin de esta batalla, Espero que Subaru este a salvo----.

Monologo Termina

Cambio de Escenario: Pasillo de Entrada en el Edén

Karlhienz:...¿Veniste?

Yui:....

Subaru: Ha, ya pudiste salir de tu cuarto...

Karlhienz: Fu...Subaru. Tienes la misma manera que siempre en hablar con tu padre...

Subaru: ¡Yo no te considero mi padre!

Karlhienz: Ah, veo que tu desprecio hace a mi ha grecido. 

Subaru: ¡Por supuesto que si!

Subaru: ¿Que...le hiciste a mi madre?

Subaru: Si no la amabas...¡por que la convertiste en tu esposa!

Subaru: Por tu culpa, ellos... a mi madre...!

Karlhienz:..Esto otra vez. 

Karlhienz: Cuando hablaba con Evá afuera, ¿no estabas escuchando?

Subaru:...Cállate!

Yui: (...Karlhienz sabia...)

Yui: (Esta persona...)

Yui: (Sabia que Subaru estaba escuchando, y todavía dijo esas cosas horribles...)

Karlhienz:----Porque fue necesario. 

Karlhienz: Por mi plan, necesitaba alguien de la misma sangre...

Karlhienz: Subaru, tu existencia fue algo vital. 

Karlhienz: No hay otra razón

Subaru:...! ¡No jueges conmigo!

Subaru: ¡No somos tus peones!

Subaru: Tu...eres la única persona que no puedo perdonar...

Yui:...

Yui: (...Es inutil. ¿Deberia voltear a otro lado del cuchillo? No, necesito ver...)

Yui: (Es algo que necesita hacer. Subaru va a matar a esta persona de verdad...)

Yui: (Por Christa...Subaru ya esta preparado a hacerlo...)

Yui: (Lo voy a ver hasta el fin.)

Yui: (Cuando todo ya a pasado, se lo voy a dicir.)

Yui: (Oye, Subaru, Tu...)

Yui: (Tu no eres debil.)

Subaru: ¡Karlhienz! ¡Necesito matarte!

Karlhienz:...Esta bien. 

Karlhienz: Seras Adán, mi hijo!

Subaru:...Uaaaaaaa!

Ecstasy 10 ♥ Vampire End ♥ Manservant End ♥ Brute End

[himbosims]

The Simself Challenge? Is that what this is called? I have no idea. . .

The challenge is basically to make a simself then answer a fuck ton of question so here we are. Thanks @willowbomb and @sim-borg for tagging me. I’ll tag: whoever wants to do this because idk who hasn't done this yet

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Taylor

2. WHAT IS YOUR NICKNAME? My childhood nickname was Tot. My friends call me d*ke and slut though so hey

3. BIRTHDAY? July 23, 2001

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK SERIES? Series definitely The Mortal Instruments or the Infernal Artifacts by Cassandra Clare

5. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS OR GHOSTS? Both i think, definitely aliens. I don't fuck with ghosts and all that because I don't want to die

6. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE AUTHOR? Right now my favs are Adam Silvera and Becky Albertalli

7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE RADIO STATION? Where I live we have five stations, one that plays music from the 30’s all the time, three country, and one that says it plays pop but ends up playing country anyways. So, none.

8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLAVOR OF ANYTHING? Idk man, thats a loaded question. Probably vanilla

9. WHAT WORD WOULD YOU USE OFTEN TO DESCRIBE SOMETHING GREAT OR WONDERFUL? ??? lit… idk dude I was trying to think of something that's weird but I can't think of anything

10. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONG? Be My Mistake by The 1975 or Not Warriors by Waterparks

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE WORD? Serious answer, lunacy (there's a reason its my username) not as serious, I just heard someone outside yell for the chillin’s and I started laughing because that word is great

12. WHAT WAS THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO?  I’m currently listening to From Eden by Hozier

13. WHAT TV SHOW WOULD YOU RECOMMEND FOR EVERYBODY TO WATCH? Shameless, Glee, Shadowhunters, Grey’s. I could go on.

14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE TO WATCH WHEN YOU’RE FEELING DOWN?Love, Simon, Call Me By Your Name, or The Perks of Being a Wallflower

15. DO YOU PLAY VIDEO GAMES? Obviously

16. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? Spiders and needles

17. WHAT IS YOUR BEST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? nothing

18. WHAT IS YOUR WORST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? Everything, in seriousness, my selfishness or narcissism,  

19. DO YOU LIKE CATS OR DOGS BETTER? Cats are my favorites but dogs are cool

20. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? fall

21. ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP? Never have been

22. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU MISS FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD? NOT AS MUCH STRESS

23. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND? Irl- my friend EJ. Online- @hallowiamshebsims

24. WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR? Green

25. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? brown

26. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU LOVE? Read 23

27. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU TRUST? Read 23

28. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? Read 23

29. ARE YOU CURRENTLY EXCITED ABOUT/FOR SOMETHING? I don't remember the last time I was excited for something

30. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST OBSESSION? Writing I think

31. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW AS A CHILD? Hannah Montana, Ned Declassified, Drake and Josh, Flapjack, Courage the Cowardly Dog, Chowder, Rugrats. I'm a true early Gen Z kid

32. WHO OF THE OPPOSITE GENDER CAN YOU TELL ANYTHING TO, IF ANYONE? My girl best friend, I dont tell him everything because i'm a secretive bitch

33. ARE YOU SUPERSTITIOUS? Nah

34. DO YOU HAVE ANY UNUSUAL PHOBIAS? Read 16

35. DO YOU PREFER TO BE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA OR BEHIND IT? Both

36. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HOBBY? Writing, reading, creating imaginary worlds to live in

37. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? I am almost done with History Is All You Left me by Adam Silvera and oh boy that book

38. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Paranorman: “You’re gonna love my boyfriend, he’s like a total chick flick nut.”

39. WHAT MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? N/A

40. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL? Cats

41. WHAT ARE YOUR TOP 5 FAVORITE TUMBLR BLOGS THAT YOU FOLLOW? @hallowiamshebsims @simmerberlin @willowbomb @pollinationqueen @gunthermnch

42. WHAT SUPERPOWER DO YOU WISH YOU HAD? The ability to always have the money to pay for things

43. WHEN AND WHERE DO YOU FEEL MOST AT PEACE? My room probably

44. WHAT MAKES YOU SMILE? People falling down, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WJq4jWSQNd

45. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? That’s cute

46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK? Coffee

47. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A HAND-WRITTEN LETTER OR NOTE TO SOMEBODY? I have two teachers that are really weird about phones and talking in class so we pass notes instead

48. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? Nah

49. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? LOUD EATERS

50. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO A CONCERT? I went to a christian concert when I was like 5 so there's that

51. ARE YOU VEGAN/VEGETARIAN? Nope, I live in the south how do you expect me to not eat meat

52. WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE, WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP? Teacher since I live in the south and that's the only jobs beside retail or waitress in my town

53. WHAT FICTIONAL WORLD WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE IN? The Shadow World, but I wanna be a warlock, not a dumb shadowhunter lol

54. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU WORRY ABOUT? Everything

55. ARE YOU SCARED OF THE DARK? I’m afraid of what's in the dark, which is a hard ass way to say yes

56. DO YOU LIKE TO SING? All the time but im tone deaf so its bad

57. HAVE YOU EVER SKIPPED SCHOOL? If I was sick, yeah. Other than that, I did twice. Once because I had a really bad panic attack right before the bus got to my house and I called my mom claiming I was really sick, and once a few weeks ago because my dog got sprayed by a skunk therefore making me smell like a skunk

58. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET? uhhhhhhh

59. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE? New York City, LA, San Francisco, Toronto, Portland, London. Any big city to be honest

60. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? A dog and three cats

61. ARE YOU MORE OF AN EARLY BIRD OR A NIGHT OWL? Both. I sometimes stay up super late and sometimes i'm up really early. And if I can actually force myself out of bed I can get a lot done in either of those times

62. DO YOU LIKE SUNRISES OR SUNSETS BETTER? Sunrises

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DRIVE? Yeah but im gay so its not good driving l

64. DO YOU PREFER EARBUDS OR HEADPHONES? Everything that wont break in a week

65. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? Nah

66. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC? I don't really have a favorite, I listen to all kinds of stuff

67. WHO IS YOUR HERO? Uhhhhh, Deadpool, or Spiderman

68. DO YOU READ COMIC BOOKS? Nope

69. WHAT MAKES YOU THE MOST ANGRY? It takes a lot to make me angry but when im angry it's bad and I forget what i do when i was angry so i don't really know

70. DO YOU PREFER TO READ ON AN ELECTRONIC DEVICE OR WITH A REAL BOOK? Real

71. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? English and Creative Writing

72. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS? Younger sister, younger step brother

73. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? A starbucks coffee last night

74. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5’7 or something

75. CAN YOU COOK? Depends on what i'm cooking

76. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU LOVE? Books, music, friends

77. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU HATE? Racists, homophobes, sexists- so basically most the people in my town (hell what am i kidding, this side of the Mason-Dixon line)

78. DO YOU HAVE MORE FEMALE FRIENDS OR MORE MALE FRIENDS? One of each

79. WHAT IS YOUR SEXUAL ORIENTATION? I am on the ace spectrum and I am panromantic

80. WHERE DO YOU CURRENTLY LIVE? ‘Merica the brave

81. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TEXTED? Sheb

82. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Like, yesterday

83. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE YOUTUBER? CallMeKevin RTGame The Shane Dawson squad

84. DO YOU LIKE TO TAKE SELFIES? sometimes

85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE APP?I guess this hell site

86. WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENT(S) LIKE?My mom and I are kinda close, i don't really talk to my dad much (even though I live with him half the week)

87. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOREIGN ACCENT? Aussie, British, Scottish, Irish… all of them

88. WHAT IS A PLACE THAT YOU’VE NEVER BEEN TO, BUT YOU WANT TO VISIT? Everywhere that’s not my state and the ones touching it

89. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 23

90. CAN YOU JUGGLE? notta

91. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS? Yes, but not crazy religious. I just believe in fate and that there is some type of higher power

92. DO YOU FIND OUTER SPACE OF THE DEEP OCEAN TO BE MORE INTERESTING? Nasa bitch

93. DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF TO BE A DAREDEVIL? I have an issue with adrenaline. As in, although i am an anxious person with too much adrenaline anyways I like to do things that give me a rush of adrenaline

94. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING? I can't have my eyes pierced because I'm allergic to metal in the sense of having it in my body

95. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? Yep

96. CAN YOU WIGGLE YOUR EARS? Nope

97. HOW OFTEN DO YOU ADMIT THAT YOU WERE WRONG ABOUT SOMETHING? Next question

98. DO YOU PREFER THE FOREST OR THE BEACH? I mean netiehr, but i'm not a huge fan of sand

99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIECE OF ADVICE THAT ANYONE HAS EVER GIVEN YOU? You’ve made it through your worst day before, you can do it again

100. ARE YOU A GOOD LIAR? I think so

101. WHAT IS YOUR HOGWARTS HOUSE? Sytherlin, not surprise

102. DO YOU TALK TO YOURSELF? I’m talking to myself right now

103. ARE YOU AN INTROVERT OR AN EXTROVERT? Introvert

104. DO YOU KEEP A JOURNAL/DIARY? Nah, my writing is kind alike my diary

105. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES? I give people too many chances

106. IF YOU FOUND A WALLET FULL OF MONEY ON THE GROUND, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? Check the ID, maybe take the money and leave it in a bush or something. I don’t know

107. DO YOU BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE ARE CAPABLE OF CHANGE? For sure

108. ARE YOU TICKLISH? Please don’t  tickle me

109. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A PLANE? Nope

110. DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? Read question 94

111. WHAT FICTIONAL CHARACTER DO YOU WISH WAS REAL? Alec Lightwood or Magnus Bane, but young Alec because I can't be friends with 27 year old Alec

112. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS? Scared of needles, remember?

113. WHAT IS THE BEST DECISION THAT YOU’VE MADE IN YOUR LIFE SO FAR? Doing things for me

114. DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? YES

115. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS? Both

116. DO YOU WANT CHILDREN? Not really but if my future partner wants some i’d be open to talk about it

117. WHO IS THE SMARTEST PERSON YOU KNOW? My ex-best friend. I used to hate how she never had to try to get good grades or be good at things, she just was

118. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING MEMORY? All my memories are embarrassing if you look close enough

119. HAVE YOU EVER PULLED AN ALL-NIGHTER? At least twice a month

120. WHAT COLOR ARE MOST OF YOU CLOTHES? Nutruels and black

121. DO YOU LIKE ADVENTURES? Sure

122. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON TV? I think I wa son the news once

123. HOW OLD ARE YOU? 17

124. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE? I have a lot, “Words have the power to change us.” “perhaps it is because of time that we suffer.” “I remain a work in progress until I die.” “The thing you are most afraid to write, write that.” I could go on

125. DO YOU PREFER SWEET OR SAVORY FOODS? Sweet

[arytha]

@joelleity kjsdfg oh thats all very relatable i see what you mean lol. yeah specifics of arcs are just. floating around vaguely in my head at all times not anchored to anything and a reread would probably help nail those down at least. and also the Enhanced Suffering Of Knowing Whats Getting Set Up that must be very delicious <- also feral. MANGAKA CHAR WAS VERY INTERESTING .. miss her

My favourite bit is to watch SP react pre-reveal while knowing who they are-its so funny. Which kkoma is watching? Who knows. Also being able to get into yjh's head more bc you can filter out dokja's no-homo reverence of him. Knowing who the Punisher is and knowing who certain constellations are beforehand. Watching kim dokja plan out his deaths beforehand knowing what will go wrong and what wont. Understanding the 4th Wall more (and also getting blown away by. the part where kdj is eaten by the Outer God and is woken up by hsy and yjh you know the thing that isnt resolved until the epilogue yeah) and also like. Not understanding the 4th Wall. Realizing just how much the 4th Wall helps him live through this entire thing.

Being able to piece together shit as i read that makes it seriously feel like I am noticing new things with every reread. But also over the last three years learning more abt the culture and KR constellations as their actual historical selves (orv was my second KR novel i've ever read so I didn't get a lot of the KR constellation stuff on first read) makes it a lot funnier to watch their personal interactions as well.

Getting hit every time with the 999th round stuff and dissecting the Outer Gods and sticking them under a microscope bc I love Uriel and the Eden angels and the 999th guys way too much...

But its also easier to keep track of names. Part of the reason why I'm going through ORV for myself in google docs and editing the chapters to be consistent between the translators is to make it easier for a first read of it for my bf who I keep shoving the book at rip. I need to get back to editing that (im at like 252/549ch)....

I wish we had had more on Asuka Ren (? i think thats her name) or author type characters more than just hsy like *grips* please tell me more. how many more were there. how many author's creations are in the Star Stream. Heck how many earths and what is going on with them huh? Let alone scenarios like Oz. I love dissecting the implications there.

I could write a million essays that both prove nothing and do nothing but my thoughts that constantly swirl in my head would be on paper fhdjssj

Sometimes i realize i'm a bit fuzzy on some of the plot points of o r v and feel the overwhelming urge to read all 549 chapters of it for the 6th time in 3 years

[deadmanzp]

aftg asks; questions by triquetrine

these are so interesting so i did all of them.. i want to come back after a year and see if id still answer the same! 

op is the post before this or also tagged “misc” 

neil josten: favorite/most iconic line?

first one that comes to mind I’m not sure is a favorite or iconic line? but it’s a line i think about a lot and it always hurts to read. it’s when they're at the cabin in TKM. 

“He didn’t care how much it hurt so long as he could pull Andrew closer, and he let Andrew take him apart until he couldn’t think anymore.”

that comes at the very end of Chapter 14 and gosh just the paragraph that line comes from and the paragraph before…. the fact neil thinks andrew doesnt care about him the way he cares/feels about andrew is like….. CMON MAN but also i just love the pining angst of it. i like this line especially because the line right before it mentions neil working his “bandaged fingers into Andrew’s hair”. so the “he didnt care how much it hurt” to me always carried a double meaning of 1. the physical pain he felt bc of his injuries but also 2. the pain of unfamiliarity abt his feelings towards andrew and thinking it was unreciprocal AND THAT HED HAVE TO “WARN” ANDREW like the implication.. of neil thinking abt their “relationship” possibly ending bc andrew doesnt feel the same and maybe wouldnt want to be entangled in whatever neil was feeling …… IM LIKE neil knows andrew so well and him being so sure abt this but hes like …. WRONG …. e

nathaniel wesninski: one thing you would change about the books? (plot, characters, etc)

there is very little id change about the books if at all. mainly bc while i know there are upsetting things that happen/the charas do, i think all of those things make the series really interesting to analyze and talk about. i will say a moment i hated was when neil touches andrews scars when andrew makes it clear he doesn't want neil to pry about them. i know neil offers his scars in turn when he's trying to convince andrew to let neil look over kevin but that was controlled. he let andrew touch them and find out about them of his own volition. neil touches something directly related to the trauma andrew had just experienced again when he had 0 permission to do so. while i always get mad at neil for this when i read it i still dont think id change it or get rid of it. im not really sure how id change it anyways and i think andrews relationship with his scars (and himself in general) is probably what allows him to brush it off(?)/never bring this up (plus maybe neil offering his scars was enough for andrew) but i havent thought too hard about this. but ya i remember i got rlly angry w neil the first time i read this scene and i still get mad abt it when i reread.

andrew minyard: if you could be friends with one of the characters, who would you pick?

i mean realistically i wouldnt be friends w jocks ILL BE REAL LOL and i think as much as i love the monsters, theres no way id be friends w them haha uhm but prob dan would be most realistic! maybe even katelyn tbh.. 

kevin day: if you played exy, what would your position be?

oh i think dealer! in sports i liked being able to do both defense and offense bc it made me feel i had more control over the field, like i could always do something if there were any holes

dan wilds: favorite moment/scene?

definitely the hotel reunion scene. theres so much to it; it drives me nuts!!!!! but honestly there are probably a lot of really good moments im forgetting. to me the whole series is really enjoyable and every scene has something i could say about it haha

matt boyd: song you would love to see in a live-action adaptation?

Oggghh this is so hard… esp since it takes place in 2007???? Idk.. iconic artists then i suppose ghfgkjhf BUT i think general vibes i think itd be so cool if paramore (time relevant), ptv (also time relevant), and mitski were on the soundtrack……. Ya…….. 

nicky hemmick: which made you more emotional, neil at evermore or neil in baltimore?

neil in baltimore for sure… neil at evermore i can't remember what i felt the first time i read it (maybe pain LOL bc he was doing it for andrew and i felt like riko wouldnt keep his promise) but in my latest reread i was unimpressed by it (mostly bc i think riko is boring and unimpressive). i think i mightve said evermore in the past though….. maybe... neil in baltimore is like … GOD neils emotions are so strong during all of that its really juicy haha. i think like him being angry bc he was on the cusp of having everything he couldve ever dreamed of; the desperation of wanting to fight back and get away; even just the fear of being in the same room as his father for the first time in so long... all really juicy 

aaron minyard: a character you will defend to your death?

defend…. im not sure is the word i would use and i dont think i really believe in defending any of these charas “to death” bc of how flawed and complex they are; id like to acknowledge when they did wrong. i think id “defend” any of the characters if i saw anyone misinterpreting or misunderstanding them.. theyre all really interesting even if they didnt get too much spotlight. except maybe riko. hes incredibly boring to me. and also nathan ig and any of his crew just bc there is Nothing abt them rlly...

katelyn: which minor character do you wish you could see more of?

uhhhmmmmmmmm hmmmmmm….. idk maybe… jeremy…. gjfjgkdngmdghs just bc him and kevin r so funny.. i was thinking maybe jean too but…… idk a diff kind of kevin relationship lol (yikes) (pain) but really im satisfied w jeans screen time. i think ichirou is interesting but again i think he didn't rlly need more. maybe erik actually. im interested to know what nicky is like with him :0

allison reynolds: favorite headcanon about the foxes?

actually something i recently thought abt was neil and photography. iirc? andrew gives neil a camera in the ec and i also imagine kevin eventually gets another camera too (i loved that detail when we saw his room at the nest) so i thought abt neil and kevin sharing/trading pics they take of (mainly) scenery. i imagine neil takes pics of anything he wants to remember/keep while kevin is more prone to taking pics of subjects related to some nerd history stuff (lol) so thats why they trade scenery pics mainly. but i like this small connection bc i want more to their relationship than their exy obsession and i imagine they have room for more now that riko is gone and i just like this other commonality btwn them. i think maybe they mail the developed pics to each other maybe w small descripts/notes but thats it. and i also imagine it kind of just is something that started happening.. neil and andrew r on a roadtrip and some building reminds neil of kevin so he snaps a pic and eventually sends it to kevin w some note. kevin replies 1. either a text being like that is nothing. > neil: shrugs brushes it off but figures he is welcome to send more when kevin sends his own picture back or 2. kevin simply replies back similarly w his own photo. i dont know.. maybe this goes beyond what their actual relationship would be like but i do like the idea of them just bein like… dude friends u know so i want them to have more than just exy and a traumatizing experience between them. 

as for common headcanons within the fanbase…. i do like the allison + neil haircuts thing.. although im not sure if i imagine it the same as most haha i feel neil would know how to cut his own hair from his life on the run (though theyre not Good or bad just like ok u know like passable generic w/e) i think hed definitely be tense the first couple times but he has experience w allison being close from needing to be covered up w make up after winter break so i think she would be allowed. 

renee walker: favorite non-canonical ship? (renison, jerejean, etc)

uhmm to be honest none really… im way too attached to canon to be able to dismiss any established relationships. i think kevemy (??? is that the name) is rlly amusing but i dont want them together necessarily haha i used to rlly like renison mainly bc im a lesbian and i want “main” chara wlw relationships lol but i recently read something abt how bi allison doesnt rlly sit well w some bc she outs andrew and neil during the hotel scene.. i also agree this is kinda :/ if she was bi Mainly bc i feel a lot of ppl (or at least this is what i gather from renison stuff ive seen) portray allison already being established bi? if this makes sense. i think if renison/allison realizing shes bi is a later development id feel better abt it but usually renison is already established so ya her outing them does bother me…. BUT aside from this, thinking about them as characters and what their partners (would) look like… im not sure if theyd rlly choose each other.. but i still enjoy seeing them together in art and in fic bc in the end…. im a sucker for women lol….

seth gordon: most underrated dynamic? (matt & neil, wymack & andrew, etc)

my first thought was wymack and andrew bc i rlllllyy like their dynamic especially after reading their ec stuff. i loved their first meeting (andrews terrible sandwich??!?fhdhfjd) and when andrew breaks into wymacks apartment BUT i think ppl mention them enough its not underrated. i Actually think renee and andrews dynamic/friendship is rlly underrated/overlooked!!! especially after reading the son nefes ec i love their dynamic a lot… 

some son nefes moments of them i liked:  tw // rape

renee convincing andrew to go with her to see matt after his trip to edens

how many knives do u carry / one more than u IS SO FUNNY and just andrews persistence abt fighting renee is also rlly funny to me

tw // rape : the moment when andrew asks renee if she killed her rapist/abuser that whole convo was good… 

their convo in the rain w their tea

i cant remember when this happens or rlly exaclty what was said but renee offers andrew something (some help??) and he says i dont need (w/e it was) and she says something along the lines of  i know but it wouldnt do any harm or SOMETHING like that.. i like this bc she acknowledges their abilities while showing shed still like to offer some help. im p sure she does this another time too (w neil???? or someone i cant remember maybe it was andrew again) and i remember liking it too. she has a way w words and talking (also seen in her convincing andrew to see matt)

BUT regardless of ec stuff i think their relationship/dynamic seen in the books is rlly good too. theres def enough to be intrigued by them and i always have been? so i'm reeeaallly happy son nefes exists i loved reading it..

david wymack: which ncaa team would you play for?

oh to be honest i dont rlly remember many of them but of the Three (ravens, foxes, trojans) prob trojans. i remember i even got them in a uquiz once… 

abby winfield: which character was the most realistically written?

first that came to mind was aaron actually.. i remember before when i didnt rlly like him or care abt him it was actually bc he was too “boring” to me. i always thought he had the most realistic reactions to things which is what made him boring to me amidst the ridiculousness of, well, everything in aftg lol… i still think he is really realistically written but now i dont think hes boring haha

besty dobson: how many times have you read the series?

fully i think…. only 3 times… i wish this were a higher count but i actually feel guilty everytime i try to reread it.

riko moriyama: coolest exy moment? (kevin’s last-minute point against the ravens, andrew shutting down the goal, etc)

uhhmm uhmm i def think kevin during the final game against the ravens…. hes so cool haha but i KNOW there were a lot of game moments that i thought were really cool so i cant rlly say…. oh also i love neil being defense in that game too rlly juicy wish i could pull up obscure moments bc i know i rlly enjoyed reading the games but terrible memory...

jeremy knox: which do you like reading more, domestic!foxes or chaotic!foxes?

uh i guess chaotic? not rlly sure exactly what that could entail but i do like… their chaos.. when they have fights and squabbles and stuff… this includes the high tension moments. ALTHOUGH i do like the tiny lines in the books when we see the monsters just doing like random basic everyday life stuff like playing video games or whatever. i like…. imagining them... fhdjfjshfjs… as for fic def chaos. i feel domestic is usually too softened….. 

jean moreau: favorite friendship?

oh i think this goes back to andrew and renee. but other than them… i do like neil and matts friendship.. though probably not the same as its typically portrayed 

[mikessoftlemonade]

Hey! (: Do you have any music recommendations? (Any genre is okay)

boy oh boy do I have so many recommendations. ( i apologize for the huge list thats coming)

Buy the stars- Marina and the diamonds

body party- ciara

motivation- kelly rowland

love on the brain- rihanna

DNA- lia marie johnson

youre too young- lucy spraggan

tea and toast- lucy spraggan

thinking about it- lauren aquilina 

a love song from paris- jon cozart

non love song- dodie clark

sick of losing soulmates- dodie clark

you are the coffin- flatsound

a morning spent thinking of a life without you- flatsound

message man- twenty one pilots

forest- twenty one pilots

love is a losing game- troye sivan

blue moon- troye sivan

not over you- tessa violet

sense- tom odell

the world is ugly- MCR

joyriding- frnkiero andthe cellabration

holes- layla

korea- twenty one pilots

trapdoor-twenty one pilots

i want you- childish gambino ft. twenty one pilots

space- ally hills

overthinking- acid ghost

all for you- wallis bird

novels- rusty clanton

savannah- reliant k

6 am- fitz and the tantrums

afraid- the neighbourhood

a beginners guide to destroying the moon- foster the people

boyfriend- tegan and sara

chemical angel- watsky

sloppy seconds- watsky

dead girl walking- heathers soundtrack

do you want to die together- stars

falling- iration

its not a fashion statement its a death wish - mcr

pretty girl- hayley kiyoko

when- dodie clark

boys will be boys- benny

anything by Years and Years (someone recommended them to me a while ago and i fell in love instantly) 

make me (cry)- noah cyrus ft. labrinth

castle on the hill- ed sheeran

shape of you- ed sheeran

cancer- Mcr or the top cover (both are good in their own ways)

river man (mashup)- bishop briggs and twenty one pilots

ramen king- pink guy

i slept with someone in fall out boy and all i got was this stupid song written about me- (you guessed it) fall out boy

get busy living or get busy dying- fall out boy

werewolf- cocoRosie

golden days- panic at the disco

fancy man- devendra banhart

sex- eden

young- phoenix

girls like me- will joseph cook

somebody else- 1975 (dodies cover of it sounds like an angel came and blessed my ears)

something to believe in- young the gaint

happy pills- weathers

i dont wanna know- weathers

bad habit- the kooks

drugs- eden

honey whiskey- nothing but thieves

life itself- glass animals

you dont get me high anymore- phantogram

give me a try- the wombats

so sad, so sad- varsity

genghis khan- miike snow

breezeblocks- alt-j

guys my age- hey violet

dont wanna be your girl- wet

my trigger- miike snow

jenny- studio killer

wonderland- caravan palace

first- cold war kids

starboy- the weeknd

lets go- stuck in the sound

lone digger- caravan palace

she wants me dead- cazzette

black betty- caravan palace

3005- childish gambino

aftermath- caravan palace

just kiss her- concorde

made for love- concorde

halfway to nowhere- chelou

acid rain- lorn

no john trumbull- hamilton mixtape (the roots)

an open letter- hamilton mixtape (watsky)

deat theodosia- either the original or the mixtape one (regina spektor shares my heart with gerard way)

folding chair- regina spektor

the calculation- regina spektor

swim- fickle friends

the thoughts that give me the creeps- hellogoodbye

palm trees- lowell

wine red- the hush sound

freaking out- mystery skulls

nearly there- destery smith

vagabond- misterwives

comeback- ella eyre

together- ella eyre

powerful- major lazer

cold soul- trevor moran

anarchy date- queer rocket

youth- daughter

no angels- bastille ft. ella eyre

sex, death, and landscapes- tom rosenthal

i didnt just kiss her- jen foster

runs in the family- amanda palmer

still hurting- the last five years

porcelain heart- opeth

gravel to tempo- hayley kiyoko

moment 4 life- nicki minaj

how would you like it?- lauren aquilina

lowlife- that poppy

oceans- seafret

habits- tove lo

hideaway- kiesza

ally- danny padilla

on your side- the veronicas

the way i am-ingrid michaelson

i have a lot more but this list is getting really long and i dont want everyone that follows me to hate  me. i guess if anyone wants to know more about my crappy music taste i can put a link for my spotify idk. but yeah i apologize for the huge list.

[kounfetti]

[Diabolik Lovers: Lost Eden] Kou Mukami Ecstasy 03 Translation

(TN// Please don’t put this translation anywhere outside of tumblr- link back to this post only. I don’t mind this being translated into other languages as long as you link back to my blog and ask for permission before hand\\\)

Scene: Street

Yui: Fu....We went bought so much stuff...

Kou: Its nice having everything I could possibly want.

Kou:...Ah... Should we call a taxi? Are you worn out?

Yui: No, rather, I think having a breath of fresh air made me feel better.

Kou: Oh ok, I’m glad.

Yui: What about you, Kou? I’m sorry that you’ve got so much to carry....

Yui: Why did you let me get so much stuff?

Kou: What’re you saying? Even though you can walk, you still need to recover some more.

Kou: I mean, if a girl gets stuff, wont that cheer you up?

Yui: But...

Yui: (Ever since I came back, he’s been so extra, its getting bad....)

Kou: Hm---...Well, can I ask you something?

Yui: Yep, Tell me.

Kou: Alright, can you hold it?

Yui: Eh....?

Yui: (He outstretched his hand,but,....)

Kou: Come-on, quickly.

Yui: (He’s asking for me told hold his hand?)

Selection: Take your hand away (S) or Obediently hold hands with him (M)

♥Hold hands with him (M)

Yui: (But, it it really alright to hold hands with him with so many people around...)

Kou: Thank you for holding~

Yui: (Holding hands with him, is embarassing as I thought, I think it would be better to let go...)

Yui: Hey, Hey, Kou...

Kou: Nope.

Yui: Eh?

Kou: You wont want to lose me midway though. That’s irresponsible, so dont do that.

Kou: You would have to take responsibility, right?

Yui: (H-His expression...)

Crowd gathers

Yui: (As I thought, I feel like I’m being stared at...)

Kou: Come on, dont fall?

Yui: ...uh..

Kou: If you aren’t walking confidently, it’ll stand out. 

Yui: I understand but, we’re a bit too close....

Kou: Eh...? Are you trying to order me around?

Yui: Its not like that, but...

Kou: Understood. I’ll let go.

Kou steps away

Yui: Ah...

Yui: (He let go of my hand....)

Kou: Well? Your expression dropped. Do you want to say something?

Yui: You, let go of my hand...

Kou: Fufu..., alright...

Kou: You told me to distance myself, so that’s what I did....

Kou: M Neko Chan, I really dont get you sometimes.

Yui: Uhh...

Kou: ....I wish it could we could stay like this forever. 

Yui: Eh...?

Kou: Hm, its nothing.... Do you want to hold hands again? 

Yui: ...? Hm, yea, but...

Kou gets closer

Kou: Did you that kissing the back of a hand signifies a romantic relationship...

Kou: So, thats what I’ll do...

Kou: I love you...

Kou kisses her hand

Yui: ...uh What was that just now...?

Kou: Fufu.. Its a secret. Well now, lets go home for real.

Yui: (Kou.....)

Ecstasy 02 ♥ Ecstasy 04