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i miss carpisuns sometimes </3
#not necessarily that I regret switching over but i just get like nostalgic for an earlier time in the ml fandom#s3 was soooo much fun for me#and the long hiatus before s4 was also the best. so good wasn’t ready for it to end when it did haha#things just feel so different in the fandom now#both the fandom has changed and I have changed#and of course the STORY has changed#and I like don’t know what to do about that or how to react#cause I am used to being one of the guys who is defending ml’s honor with my life lol#committed to spreading positivity#and I still want to be that guy!#but it’s like. idk. I don’t recognize this story anymore#this isn’t the same story that I fell in love with years ago. but I don’t want to just like Leave??#I do want to see how things play out bc I am still invested in these characters#and I would love to still be part of the fan community and connect with people over a mutual love for this thing#that has been important to me for years and has inspired me to create and learn new skills and make new friends!#but I also don’t just want to shut up and pretend I’m happy about things I am decidedly unhappy about lol#like it’s honestly surprising to me that a only a small minority of the fandom seems to feel the way I do?#and the majority are still super pumped and frustrated at the people who are complaining#and really. I don’t WANT to rain on anyone’s parade. I honestly don’t#I was part of the parade for years! I had the best time in the parade! I don’t want to ruin the good time!#so i try not to be too salty on main ? but i feel like I’m going a little crazy lmao! like I’m just one bitter little miser fhdjjd#i mean i guess it’s kind of a good thing that I moved blogs tbh lol#cause now when i whine only a fraction of the people have to be exposed to it 😂#but man i hate knowing that people might think of me as a salter#I mean it’s valid if people are trying to have fun and do not want to hear my complaining haha#but also do i automatically have to be a salter. are the only options support and defend ml 100% at all times or Be A Salter#or can there be a third category of certified ml lover that is just disappointed in recent events & disagrees with the new writing direction#is that too much nuance for tumblr lol#see maybe that’s why I miss carpisuns. she didn’t have to ask this question. she was only full of LOVE!#but therein lies the irony…like marinette I have made this choice out of love…for what the story once was…what is to become of me now…
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2005 Australian Grand Prix[Redux] - Giancarlo Fisichella, Rubens Barichello & Fernando Alonso(my personal post-race highlights)
#redoing this made me realize how much I slept on Fisi the first time I posted this race! hes so handsome!!#but then I also realized he is a victim of the first race winner curse :((#I JUST REALLY LOVE THE RENAULT BOYS AAGHHHHH ;;;#also hehe if youve seen my og post you will recognize the rubens alonso headpat aka the moment that made me want to start posting#(its been so long since i watched this race that while making this i had to keep reminding myself that this content isnt new haha)#(its rly funny to me that i made one gif for the og post yet didnt gif anything else???)#(like okay what is this partial effort catie)#(its especially painful bcs this race has actually prob the best camerawork for this season so AGHHHH)#(thats why im doing a redux btw lol bcs this race truly deserves better treatment)#(also its crazy how much time making a post can take up i started a race and i got halfway through???)#(also maybe expect two monza posts: 2005 of course and also i want to gif seb 2008 str win since ive already watched that but didnt gif it)#oopsies sry for all the tags!! i love rambling!!!#giancarlo fisichella#fernando alonso#rubens barrichello#we do a little bit of f1#f1#formula 1#(2005: 1/19 races watched)#fa14#renault#2005 australian gp#race posting:2005
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This is a friend of a friend of a friend I offered a ride to😭 how am I supposed to be in the car with him now
NOW THE CAR RIDE IS GONNA BE AWKWARD HELP
#what's crazy is that i alreasy know him and he doesn't remember which is so funny bc#i assume he didnt recognize me because my hair is much different and covers my face now lmao#usually it's the other way around lol#trying to look like an emo kid#we've met at the bar plenty of times#so it's gonna be EVEN MORE AWKWARD when he realizes that he knows me#.bdo
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scrolling back through my liveblogging of the day of the nyc concert because of recent notifications and its such a fun mixed bag of emotions to relive it all again
#helloooooo pineapple in my notes i do not mind the likes and reblogs <3#but it was such a crazy day that day of the show. so much happened#i also didn't remember that the day before the concert is when my bus got messed up and was taking me back to ny#and i had to get a car service home and everything#and then there was the concert the next day!#and what i had done was worked monday. took all of tuesday off for the concert. got like maybe 4 hour of sleep if that#and then went back to work wednesday. stupid#it worked out fine lol but i dont think id do it that way again idk#other remembrances of the day:#my biggest regret is getting all worked up abt my stupid letter that never got to them anyway like jeez. obviously i still enjoyed the show#but still. OH and i missed out on getting the latte pinback buttons#not the biggest deal but i did want those. i was just awkwardly standing around before the nyc show#and the merch line was always super long anyway#what else. oh i wish i could have met those of you that were there. but next time! im cooler now so next time.#the show itself was crazyyyy. again so fun and surreal#one of the tags on my original review was something along the lines of me having not been this excited since i was a kid#and it was really like that. like it really was that absolute pure overjoyed excitement that i haven't felt for a long time#i felt the same at the hollywood bowl. just having so much fun (missing it now lol 🥲)#cant remember if i mentioned this before but when i was standing outside the stage door i saw both spike lee and adam driver leave backstage#adam driver is Tall. i didnt even recognize him at first fdhgkgkg#anyway. some thoughts almost a year later wow!
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tryingggg to decide what augustus and the changeling dress up as for halloween
#N posts stuff#the thing is that augustus is a goth and the changeling is crazy into horror as a genre#augustus doesn’t usually Style traditional goth bc she has too many sensory issues to want to bother with all the variety of it#but i think for halloween she has an outfit that she like. meticulously (and clumsily) lined to be tolerable on the skin#and she goes as a vampire (she has the teeth but always takes them off after like ten minutes bc she cannot speak with them in)#and she gets very excited for it and wakes up early to put it all on and even puts on makeup and it’s like#The One Day she can femme the hell out for#meanwhile the changeling i think picks like. really obscure horror protagonists and gets annoyed when no one recognizes it#like ripley is like ‘okay enough people would recognize the jumpsuit well enough’#but then it’s like. ashley evil dead ‘well. that’s just a guy…’#and it wants to do blood/injury effect makeup SO BAD but it is both extremely mediocre at applying it#and also can’t actually stand the sensation of it on its face for longer than like ten minutes#so then it truly is like Just A Guy. only distinguishable from chsngeling’s usual clothes bc it Only wears black tiedye shirts typically#(the ears stay ON for the halloween costume which. also doesn’t help)#i think they decide to coordinate costumes and it takes them like over a full calendar year to decide on actually following through#bc augustus is like ‘my one costume i’ve worn for the past ten years straight :(‘ and changeling is like ‘well all ur ideas are lame!!’#and then they go as like. The Lost Boys bc it’s vampire enough to satisfy augustus and horror enough for changeling#and no one recognizes what they’re doing and they get so mad about it#and then all this aside i’m also like ‘augustus should make a crazy detailed bug costume and be a beetle’#and Changeling just shows up to work poodling in the hypothetical world it can afford a fursuit. lol#i like you too
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the SECOND I saw a really intense woman questioning another woman hooked up to a lie detector I was like "I CANNOT believe 9-1-1 is putting Lie Detector Bridezilla on blast like this lollllll" and within SECONDS the episode confirmed it. And you know what? I CANNOT believe 9-1-1 is putting Lie Detector Bridezilla on blast like this lollllll
#9-1-1#911 abc#911#lie detector bridezilla#can't believe I recognized this so instantaneously#but also as far as I can tell they changed nothing#it's just them going “what if we put this exact story on our TV show wouldn't that be crazy lol”#obviously I'm seasons behind#just started watching and I'm finishing season 4
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Well, it's official, folks...
Bo Burnham's quarantine beard is NO MORE 👀
This photo was taken at the Re:SET concert in LA that boygenius played on Saturday, and I do find it very cute that Bo is just tagging along for all of these Phoebe-related events. I sure hope he likes their music at least (I enjoy Not Strong Enough, personally)!
Anyway, here's a proper place for Bo's beard RIP
#also that looks like ayo edebiri#is it? anyone recognize the people in this pic besides Bo and possibly Ayo?#bo's beard#bo burnham#short hair and no beard makes SUCH something something#go crazy?#don't mind if I do#simpsons quote ftw#boygenius#phoebe bridgers#bo and phoebe#phoebe and bo#also bo looks SO much younger now lol
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I think I’ve realized that if you get sober enough for long enough, you just end up remembering why you said yes to drugs in the first place
#me posting#I don’t recognize pictures of myself anymore rn and looking at them makes me feel deeply uncomfortable#kinda want to delete my face off of other social medias#I just feel like I’ve gone back so far. it’s just fucking disheartening man#like I know I’ll be okay again but being here fucking sucks#also shoutout to the gay people in my phone watching me document what feels like a descent into madness#I hate the word crazy but I FEEL fucking crazy#sobriety…ish lol
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me at 4:52! Thank you OP for including me in your video :D
#fursuiting#awu2024#plus saw some of my friends in there too!#zena at 0:16#happy at 0:20#talon at 0:53 (appears to have lost his headband lol)#trash at 4:57 (yes that is her chosen character name not an insult 😅)#plus a few people who i'm loosely acquainted with but don't know well enough to call friends#and some who i know of/know by reputation but haven't actually talked to#when you see some of the same suiters coming year after year to what started off as a pretty small con (albeit a rapidly growing one)#you start to recognize them even if you haven't personally interacted with them lol#crazy how the very first AWU back in 2017 had only around 600 attendees iirc#and this year we had over 2400!!#that's like...quadruple the size of 2017 lol#it's a very well run con it deserves the popularity!#Youtube
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I am coming to the realization i have been slowly killing myself with work i think oops
#m thinking now and im like#i havent read ... anything consistently .. or watched anything .. or had time to like do anything#in genuinely so long#and i was like kinda becoming ok w it#my brain issues .. nothing matters i dont need anything all i need is me i dont need to have anyone or anything with me <- bad. stop it#part of this was the i need my dad to be proud of me braincell but well i win award i have 4.0 gpa and he still yell at me#deciding now to stop caring so much (i still do but ill ignore it) i need 2 be alive again i dont care#im so mad i dont even know .. im so viscerally angry like actually i dont even know what to do with that lmfao#my brother does shit all and u give him sm slack have NEVER treated him as bad as youve treated me#and nothing i do NOTHING is good enough or changes how u look at me#like idk he called me and i cried so much i got so fucking upset i fhkdhdkf ok. ok.#he will b like omg im so proud of u i love u so much ive always believed in u and i just think back to when#he yelled at me once like fiiive years ago and i was like u just make me feel so worthless all the time#and he was like yeah bc you are worthless#and im like hmmm idk bestie i dont think youve ever changed from looking at me like that and it is insanely obvious lmao#i dont even know bro im crazy. m insane got given an inch and tried to take a mile like omg i can actually be recognized as worth something#nevermind ill stop killing myself for that pipe dream now lol#m not even upset im just mad lmao i dont wanna hate my dad and i dont but every day i feel more and more like i should#vent
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rewatched the serpent's pass last night to take notes for my fic, and all night right up until waking up, i just. couldn't get over how unsatisfying the sukka reunion was. even with my silly shipper goggles on, i'm just like. it didn't sell me, and I don't know how much of that is me being in all likelihood demiromantic, and how much of that was just genuinely lackluster writing :T
like, right before their near kiss, her whole “I lost someone I cared about. He didn’t die. He just went away. I only had a few days to get to know him, but he was smart, and brave, and funny.” just...........Doesn't do it for me. it's so tonally different from what sokka had just said, and also like!!!!! you knew him for like A DAY!!!!!! you did not have NEARLY enough time to care about him like that please be real dlkjfhdkj
#i mean in a lot of ways i'm laughing bc i saw soooo many variations of complaints all boiling down to#''they made natla!suki nothing but boy crazy!!'' and i'm just like...#do what i did and watch the warriors of kyoshi back to back with the serpent's pass and tell me shes ANY better in the original lmfaO#i DO think the writers of the original tended to only remember she's the /leader/ of the kyoshi warriors when it was convenient#IDK really i'm just wrestling with asking myself ''how much liberty am i /really/ going to take with this suki deep dive''#how much am i allowed to change bc this original ep probably came out in like. 2007 and here i am in 2024--#i just want it to be more satisfying#i ALSO want moments between her and other characters since most of her interactions were limited to sokka#BUT ALSO ALSO.#to me suki is very much a ''once she has made her mind up about something nothing will get in her way''& she def made her mind up about him#and i DO think that huge smile of his once he finally recognized her out of uniform absolutely melted her heart in the moment#a sort of ''oh nobody has EVER been that happy to see ME''#ALSO x3: did love seeing her with that main character animation budget - but also loved how many shots shoved her in the very back#like yeah i'm sure relatively speaking in her kyoshi gear she was expensive to animate lol#talking tag
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actually honestly to be quite honest it is a little funny talking about my systemmates like ... true crime coded And then they disappeared and were never seen again... and nobody quite knew what happened... til this day... Like to be clear i hate true crime. So so bad. so fucked. but like it's a little funny that i have that mystery. Brain fucked up so bad because of trauma that it got failsafes in the form of six different people but then all six of them mutated in front of my eyes because of the trauma until i couldn't recognize them and couldn't touch them and then they never came back ever. And it took like six months. Is that not objectively metal as fuck, like it's liferuiningly devastating and ill never recover or be able to actually talk about it But like it's kind of sick.
#nightmare.system#SORRY I RECOGNIZE KIND OF FUCKED UP THING TO POST LOL#But like it is like crazy interesting right. Does anyone feel this
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was just chilling in the pegoryu tag (as you do) and you were listed as the #2 top pegoryu blog. congrats on this accomplishment
Oh my, what am i doing up there? I feel like i havent done anything of note recently …suddenly my blog feels indecent, like i got caught eating ice cream in my pjs 😭 please dont mind the mess…direct urself to my pegoryu tags to keep urself entertained 🙇🏾
#chattin#i wonder if it was me whining about the fic i was looking for#please note that i feel doubly like i got caught w my pants down#bc for the first time in like. possibly years. i decided to peek in the pego/ryu tag#so when i checked my activity and read this i was like HUH. OF ALL TIMES TO SAY THIS#I feel like i got caught redhanded LOL#i never check the tag so i had no idea!#interesting. theres some names in here i dont recognize#this is not a surprise; as i exist in a fandom safe bubble of my own making#as in. i follow literally 3 people who post p5 content in any capacity#so if they dont reblog it i simply Dont see it#i should change that tho; i kinda hate being a little recluse here#but fandom at large has burned me too many times#and even discord spaces feel hostile to nonwhite fans#so maybe if i found some more peeps to follow#ppl i vibe w#then maybe i can branch out a lil#unrelated but its also crazy to see so many younger ppl#like early 20s#its sweet how this game keeps attracting ppl#and how ppl stayed w this game for almost a decade at this point. unreal. its how i feel about ffxv#hey. im rambling. its late so thats my excuse. feeling a little. soft.#and gay. WHATEVER
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thinking about replaying all the danganronpa games and reading more of the novels and spin offs n stuff…
#I’m always thinking about komahina and komaeda but it’s been a while since I was actively into danganronpa itself… I’m feeling the urge now#honestly I never finished dr3 anime because I didn’t like it 😭😭😭I know everything that happens in it I just never finished the last 4 episo#bc I got ultra depression and couldn’t watch anything for a while when I was 15#I did actually like most of dr3 but there were like just a few things I didn’t like#I don’t remember why so I’m curious if I’ll feel differently about it now. I also didn’t like some of komaedas characterization#I liked most of komaedas characterization but I also felt like they used him for fan service too much. not talking about the shower scene#that was just funny and awesome. I love komaeda sexualization#I remember not liking him blowing the gym up or whatever bc I felt like it was more fan service than anything. but that’s just my opinion#and it’s been so long so maybe when I rewatch it I’ll feel differently who knows#I just felt like thag part was kind of silly and didn’t make much sense. it felt like just fanswrbeice like here’s Komaeda blowing somethin#up like ok thanks. I guess. like it’s not even completely out of character really I just didn’t like it#also honestly I got so into komaeda at some point that seeing him made me feel ill I can’t explain it. like I got sick seeing people talk#about him or make videos about him or mention him… it was crazy#even now I still get stressed out to an unreasonable degree when people from my pov mischaracterize him or stray too far from my specific#headcanons like it’s not super healthy LOL but I think I’m allowed to be super insane about at least one gay anime boy ok#I’m better at recognizing when I’m being unreasonable now though… I respect some different interpretations… sometimes#damn this ramble paragraph might be proof that i should not get actively back into danganronpa itself
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it's fascinating to see people running the exact same scripts as trensmeds/exclusionists but for mental illness.
I just crossed paths with a post that was a screenshot of a tiktok where someone was clearly frustrated because 'I thought I might have autism but when I tried to bring it up with my therapist she said she literally wouldn't discuss it with me because 'everyone thinks they have it because of tiktok', and the original poster/about 90% of the notes were... celebrating this. Either variations on 'lol based psych' and 'she was right' or people explicitly saying shit like:
'Well, I was trans diagnosed with autism/adhd before it was cool and trendy! I can't believe that the diagnostic criteria is getting made stricter, it's the fault of those transtrenders tiktok kids who pretend to have mental illnesses. I get to gatekeep because I really suffered!'
(Shoutout to the confusing outlier who sagely was like 'and usually they just have bpd' in the tags. just???? just, my fair sir? also source???)
And like. It makes sense and is also so incredibly frustrating for the same reasons as transmed/exclus stuff. When you're a hurt person stuck interacting with a system that makes a lot of decisions about your personal autonomy/function, it messes with your head. It taps into that particular reaction to trauma that there was that one great post about--the mindset you get in when you see people get help when you didn't, and get furious and often default to 'it shouldn't be so easy' or 'why should they get help when I didn't?' And if you're struggling with a system that is, lbr, way more about luck in what specific people you got to talk to than any kind of well-built system, which is historically very flawed and still very flawed... well, a lot of people don't want to admit the system is a crapshoot and the people in it can be wrong so, so often, because then what about my diagnosis? my confirmation that I am what I am? fuck kids with stargenders and self-dxed teenagers with autism, I suffered for this, you can't take it away from me.
Which they aren't. If diagonistic criteria for anything is being made stricter, that's not on tiktok teens, it's on the people who write the criteria and decided that this was how they were going to handle an uptick in people thinking they are/might be autistic. If people are passing anti-trans legislation, that's because they're transphobes, not because of demigirls and non-op trans people. And are all of these kids queer, or mentally ill/ND, in the way they think they are? Probably not. Being a teenager is fucking confusing and often traumatic, and it's also a time when most of them are investigating and trying to build their identities. But I'm willing to bet that almost all are genuinely struggling with something/deviate from 'the norm'; if you want to stop kids from 'believing they're something wrongly' maybe focus your energy on putting the message out that it's ok to be wrong about things, that self-discovery is a process-- in this specifically, how to interact with mental health diagnoses and manage your symptoms, no matter where they stem from, in helpful ways, etc etc.
But please do the bare minimum and don't let personal pain turn you into a bitter, smug asshole who celebrates when they see kids experiencing gatekeeping that could really, really fuck them over, OK? Like physical disability and queer identity, the few 'fakers' you'll 'catch' by being cruel and suspicious will in no way be worth the people dead because only people who REALLY need help should be able to get it.
#long post#sorry lol I just#I can get the emotional/mental place this attitude comes from but as always i feel like i'm the padme meme#'and then we realize those feelings are unreasonable and don't act on them right?'#'....'#'and then we realize those feelings are unreasonable.... and don't act on them#right???'#also just *pulls out another smaller soapbox for a moment*#'kids these days think all their problems and quirks are due to mental illness!'#kids Back In The Day died. or struggled all their lives. because the understanding of mental illness was even more fucked than it is now#do NOT be a fucking 'EVERYONE THINKS THEY HAVE DEPRESSION YOU'RE JUST A WEAK BABY' conservative guys#'oooooh everyone thinks they have adhd and autism'#everyone started 'thinking' they were trans or queer or whatever after learning that it was a possibility#and learning how to recognize whether that was the case with themselves.... fucking crazy right?#I LITERALLY SAW SOMEONE SAYING#'oh they're seeing how symptoms of autism are socially contagious due to tiktok'#do not make this another ROGD! do not make this another ROGD!#mental illness#pro self diagnosis#AND FINALLY. 'lol based psych' PSYCHIATRISTS ARE EXACTLY AS RELIABLE AS ANY OTHER KIND OF DOCTOR.#SLIGHTLY.#THEY CAN BE AND ARE WRONG A LOT#i say this as someone who's benefited a lot from therapy (although i've had to educate my psych on some things)#and who is on medication. doctors and psychs can be lifesaving but they can also#really truly fuck you over because they are human and sometimes idiots or jerks and we should not be trusting them solely#with our mental and physical well-being#ok ok my arms are hurting i shouldn't have typed this much
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Holy WHAT
Out of curiosity I browsed the tag for my old tumblr, and when I hovered over my old (long since deleted) url, it gave me a freaking preview of the blog??? though the blog itself does not actually exist?????
#nagnerd#i haven't seen that be a thing before...?#then again I am NEVER on desktop so that might be why#but no i can't seem to do it with other deactivated blog urls....?#i feel crazy now but does tumblr somehow recognize that it is my old account lol 😭
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