#`•introduction post

[fyodorsushankaaa]

introduction post!! :3

name: olivia or any nickname you want (as long as you're not being weird)

pronouns: she/her

mbti: isfp

birthday: october 18th

nationality: turkish 🇹🇷🐺

languages i know: turkish (mother language), english

languages i'm currently learning: arabic (a1), russian (a1)

things i love: music, books, painting, poems, coffee, tea, milk, rain, thunderstorms, flowers (especially roses), mythology, psychology, games, guitars, violins

characters i kin: osamu dazai, ranpo edogawa, fyodor dostoevsky

fandoms i'm in: bungo stray dogs, percy jackson and olympians, gravity falls, harry potter, arcane, persona 5, doki doki literature club, hazbin hotel, helluva boss, alien stage, the art of murder, the amazing digital circus, animation vs animator, animation vs minecraft

moots list: (coming soon)

detailed information: https://en.pronouns.page/@olivia.charder

time zone: utc +3

strawpage: https://oliviacharder.straw.page

my favorite;

colors: purple, blue, brown

bands/singers: mitski, the neighborhood, artric monkeys, melanie martinez, indila, rebzzyx, marina, mother mother, bo burnham, billie eilish, tv girl, lana del rey, cavetown, olivia rodrigo, taylor swift, the living tombstone, halsey, panic! at the disco, palaye royale, maneskin, jann, isabel lasora, conan gray, sodikken, 6arelyhuman, roar, girl in red, my chemical romance, penelope scott, the crane wives, adele, alex g, britney spears, ic3peak, ado and more (my music taste is more complicated than my room.)

animals: cats, foxes, jellyfishes

animes: bungou stray dogs, vanitas no carte, moriarty the patriot, kakegurui, toilet bound hanako-kun, jujutsu kaisen, my hero academia, demon slayer, angel of death, death note, seraph of the end, classroom of the elite, persona 5

ships: kunizai, ranzai, fyozai, sigzai, nikozai, yosazai, atsulucy, taniatsu, akulucy, tachitani, vanoe, vanijeanne, sherliam, alcroft, satosugu, itafushi, bakudeku (after recent chapters), lawlight and more

writers: fyodor dostoevsky, osamu dazai, nikolai gogol, adora yağmur, leigh bardugo, sir arthur conan doyle, lucy montgomery, rick riardon (there're more but i don't remember rn qwq)

genre of book: russian, japanese and turkish classics, fantasy, crime, horror, mythology, action

season: autumn/fall

my other blogs;

@14yo-dazai 14 years old dazai rp

@ideals-of-the-night pm kunikida rp

@kuni-in-the-water orca kunikida rp

@the-coming-storm-verlanie verlanie rp

@the-silver-wolf-in-the-dark fukuzawa rp

@lil-sig 9 y/o sigma rp

@akira-thelilone bsd oc rp

@fyodor-dostoyevsky-rp fyodor rp

@subject-fyodor fyodor rp for lab au

@olivia-charder gonna post my fics there

our little kunizai community;

https://www.tumblr.com/join/DK136ck6

𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑

my yt channel: https://youtube.com/@fyodorun_usankasi?si=DEK5enbPMutXkQEw

my spotify: https://open.spotify.com/user/313bidxg6foc4vkgto7g57wefrfm?si=FnUV2gZETnuSWlkgUpFI5A

my instagram: olivia.charder (i'm not online there tho)

[kuni-in-the-water]

"do we know each other?"

22 years old

same personality as canon

bisexual with female preference

spends his time usually with trying to regulate other ocean folk

although he never admits, loves spending time with dazai ( @mermaid-dazai )

for more info about the au, look at the intro post of @mermaid-dazai please!!

mod goes by anything but preferably she/her

[ideals-of-the-night]

"just go away already."

22 years old

he/him

on aroace spectrum (but ships are still okay)

doesn't have a lore yet

headcanons will be added (one day)

[akira-thelilone]

name: akira kobayashi

age: 15

gender: demigirl

pronouns: she/her

likes: coffee, dark chocolate, thunderstorm, her friends, purple, fighting, stars, flowers

dislikes: her parents, people who are impertinent, arrogant and stupid, dogs

appearance: has black, short and wavy hair with light blue eyes. is 5'5" and 47 kg. usually prefers wearing anything that's comfortable and oversize.

notes:

her mom and mori are siblings

has terrible relationship with her parents

gets along well with mori

has adhd, eating disorder, anemia and insomnia

you can easily talk to her, she loves interacting with people!

more might be added by time

mod uses she/her

pfp cr: @/spookyavenuestreet

[nedlittle]

it drives me bonkers the way people don't know how to read classic books in context anymore. i just read a review of the picture of dorian gray that said "it pains me that the homosexual subtext is just that, a subtext, rather than a fully explored part of the narrative." and now i fully want to put my head through a table. first of all, we are so lucky in the 21st century to have an entire category of books that are able to loudly and lovingly declare their queerness that we've become blind to the idea that queerness can exist in a different language than our contemporary mode of communication. second it IS a fully explored part of the narrative! dorian gray IS a textually queer story, even removed from the context of its writing. it's the story of toxic queer relationships and attraction and dangerous scandals and the intertwining of late 19th century "uranianism" and misogyny. second of all, i'm sorry that oscar wilde didn't include 15k words of graphic gay sex with ao3-style tags in his 1890 novel that was literally used to convict him of indecent behaviour. get well soon, i guess...

[breegadey]

we're getting the "love that corrupts" brothers in today's episode!!

[forgettable-au]

FORGETTABLE-AU (Page 36-39)

* To note. Her hands are scaly. * And...unexpectedly wet?

[BEGINNING] [PREVIOUS] [CONTINUE]

[phibsies]

nobody asked, but all the bros have nicknames for Branch :3

[cirrus-grey]

Interesting detail: both Bonzo cases have been Category 1, Rank B. The only other CAT1RB case has been Needles.

[yunoftheclouds]

What’s with this sassy, lost child?

[starstrike]

Mithrun's desire as an SA analogue

TW discussion of SA and detailed breakdown of aesthetics evoking SA. The way I discuss this is vivid in a way that may be triggering, though there is no discussion of actual sexual assault. Just survivor's responses to it.

People relate to Mithrun and see his condition as an analogue for a few different things, like brain injury or depression. And I think all of them are there. But I also see Mithrun's story as an SA analogue, and Ryoko Kui intentionally evokes those aesthetics. I think it's a part of Mithrun's character that a lot of people miss, but I very much consider it text. This is partially inspired by @heird99's post on what makes this scene so disturbing; so check out their post, too :)

So to start off with, the demon invades Mithrun's bed, specifically. There's even a canopy around it, which specifically evokes this idea of personal intrusion; the barrier is being pulled apart without consent or warning. The way the hand reaches towards Mithrun's body from outside of the panel division makes it almost look like the goat stroking over his body. It's an especially creepy visual detail; similarly, the goat's right hand parts into the side of the panel as well. It's literally like it's tearing the page apart; but gently. So gently.

Mithrun is in bed. It is his bed that the demon is intruding on. He's in a position of intimacy. The woman behind him is a facsimile of his "beloved" that he left behind; the woman who, in reality, chose Mithrun's brother. He is in bed with his fantasy lover, who is leaning over him. While this scene isn't explicitly sexual, it is intimate. And it is being invaded. The goat lifts Mithrun gently, who is confused, but not yet struggling.

The erotics of consumption and violence in Ryoko Kui's work(remember that the word 'erotic' can have many different meanings, please) are a... notable part of some of her illustrations. I would say she blurs the lines between all forms of desire: personal, sexual, gustatory and carnal, in her illustrations in order to emphasize the pure desire she wants to work with and evoke to serve her themes. Kui deploys sexual imagery in a lot of places in Dungeon Meshi, and this is one of them.

In this case, horrifically. The goat's assault begins with drooling, licking, and nuzzling. The goat could be enjoying and "playing with" its food. But it can also be interpreted as it "preparing" Mithrun with its tongue as it begins to literally breach Mithrun's body. The goat also invades directly through his clothing; that adds another level of disturbing to me. There's nothing Mithrun can do in this moment of violation. Mithrun is fighting, but he is fighting weakly, trying to grip on and push away when he has no ability or option to. All he can do is beg the goat to stop. And it doesn't care. This all evokes sexual assault.

The sixth panel demonstrates a somewhat sexual position, with Mithrun's thighs spread around the goat's hunched over body. In the next, the goat pulls and holds apart Mithrun's thighs as he nuzzles into him. The way the clothing bunches up looks a bit as if it has been pushed up. It has pinned Mithrun down onto the bed, into Mithrun's soft furs and pillows. It takes a place made to be supernaturally warm and comfortable, and violates it. It's utterly and intimately horrifying. To me, this sequence of positions directly evokes a rape scene. I think Kui did this very explicitly. These references to sexual invasion are part of what makes this scene so disturbing; albeit, to many viewers, subconsciously.

This is also the moment the goat takes Mithrun's eye. Other than this, the goat seems exceptionally strong, but also... gentle. It holds Mithrun's body tightly, but moves it around slowly. It doesn't need to hurt Mithrun physically. But in that moment, it takes Mithrun's eye. Blood seeps from a wound while an orifice that should not be pierced is penetrated. This moment, the ooze of blood in one place specifically, also evokes rape. That single bit of physical gore is a very powerful bit of imagery to me.

Finally; it is Mithrun's desire that is eaten. After his assault, Mithrun can find no pleasure in things that he once did. He is fully disassociated from his emotions. This is a common response to trauma, especially in the case of SA. It's not uncommon for people to never, or take a long time to, enjoy sex in the same way again; or at all. They might feel like their rapist has robbed them of a desire and pleasure they once had. I think this makes Mithrun's lack of desire a partial analogue for the trauma of sexual assault.

Mithrun's desire for revenge was, supposedly, all that remained. Anger at his assaulter, anger at every being that was like it; though, perhaps not anger. Devotion, in a way. To his cause. I don't know. But the immediate desire to seek revenge is another response to SA. But on to Mithrun's true feelings on the matter.

This is... So incredibly tragic. Mithrun feels used up. Like his best parts have been taken away. Like he's being... tossed aside. This certainly parallels the way assault victims can feel after being left by an abuser. Or the way assault victims feel they might be "ruined" forever for other partners. These are common sentiments for survivors to carry, and need to overcome. In the text, it's almost like Mithrun feels the only being who can desire him is a demon who might "finish devouring" him. That that's his only use. It's worth noting that Mithrun trusted the demon. Mithrun's world was built by the demon, and Mithrun, in that way, was cared for by the demon. I think this reinforces Mithrun's place as a victim.

There's also something to be said about Mithrun as a victim of his own possessive romantic and sexual desire. The mirror shows him his beloved just dining with his brother, and it infuriates him. He doesn't know if the vision is real, nor if she has really chosen his brother as a romantic partner. The goat then creates a whole fantasy world where she loves him. As Mithrun's dungeon deteriorates, she is the only person that continues to exist. Mithrun continues to have control over her. And that is the strongest desire the demon is eating, isn't it? There's something interesting there, but I don't know what to say about it.

In conclusion, I think Mithrun's story is an explicit analogue for sexual assault-- though, certainly, among other things! The way the scene plays out and is composed explicitly references sexual violation and invasion of the body. His condition mirrors common trauma responses to sexual violence. And, at the end, he finally realizes he can recover.

Let's end on a happy Mithrun, after taking the first step on his journey to recovery :) You aren't vegetable scraps Mithrun. But even if you were-- every single thing in this world has value. Even vegetable scraps.

[sevinite]

dorian art dump (i really like him)

[angelbbynatalya0f]

Welcome :3 I'm Natalya, I'm 23F British and I love to make slutty content, especially in costume! If you like what you see and want to see more, you're welcome to head over to my free OnlyFans or Fansly 💗 I love all things dark and gothic (especially whimsigoth style!). When I'm not making sexy content or doing admin work for my sites/socials, you can find me gaming, taking a relaxing bath or doing my nails c: thank you for reading and I hope you like what you see ✨

[soup-mother]

desperately need to forcibly beat the terra nullius out of how people on this website talk about Australia. you fucking cannot be saying shit like "oh everyone lives on the coast because it's the only habitable bit" in full seriousness.

doubly so for how everyone acts like indigenous tasmanians don't exist anymore. even fucking UNESCO said that shit for like 40 years and only got rid of it recently.

[heilos]

Howdy, I'm Heilos and welcome to my tumblr blog! Never got around to making a pinned introduction post so better 13 years late then never haha. I'm a long time freelance artist, animator, and overall generalist in skill set working on the Mystery Skulls Animated music video project team over the past 10 years with my best friends. I'll probably add a frequently asked questions section later when I get the chance. Other Socials: Bluesky Twitch Featured Tags: My Art Mystery Skulls Animated Video Updates Mystery Skulls Animated Character Info My Little Pony AU "Living Harmony"

[milkdollie]

I don't know if introductions are really necessary, but the whole reason I'm here is to put how I feel into words.

I've always been obsessed with boobs, it started with the massive implants of 90s porn and was probably exacerbated by hentai. I lived in Japan for a bit of my teenaged years and it just seemed like big, juicy tits were everywhere, and I stumbled upon so much lactation and breast expansion Manga, i couldn't help but become fixated.

I was always incredibly flat chested and I needed to fix this. I eventually got implants and loved them (so did so many others!). I went from a AAA cup to a g. They're not obnoxiously fake looking (which I kind of regret from time to time) but incredibly plausible, and now that I've gained weight (I'm an I cup now) they look and feel so soft and luscious.

I definitely have boob greed and would love bigger implants, but I'm not 100% sure of it.

When I got my boobs I went on a bimbofication tear, went blonde, got many an injection in my lips, tailored my look to my own sexual desires. Unfortunately this look is also very male gaze-y so it's often a deterrent to other women 😅

I'm a lot less bimbo in my aesthetic and more of an elegant milf that has a sunny, golden radiance with my well blown out hair, well taken care of skin and fantastic bone structure. My lips are still plush from the after market add ons (and long to suckle on, well something ;)) . I'm not as large as a lot of others I see in hucow content, and I don't think I'd like to gain weight.

That isn't to denigrate those larger than me. I definitely have a size kink if you could not tell. You'll catch me creeping in r/boltedonbooties (I have fantasized about getting a bbl many times, and have even gotten lipo but wasted that precious fat!) and r/boltedonmaxxed but I also like big natural boobs, asses and bellies.

Now back to the 🐮 thing. It's something I've always had in the back of my mind, a subconscious fixation. I even have induced in the past with the aid of an online friend who ordered me domperidone. But recently it has been my dominant fixation. I'm constantly thinking about it, reading about it, looking at media of it and it gets me so so wet. I've also started a protocol to induce again and it feels so sensual and dreamy.

I want to explore more. I want to know more.

I myself am sapphic and I'm wondering it there are others like me? Are cow/cow relationships even a thing?! I'd even love to be a farmer with my own little cow. I just want everything to do with this kink.