#^ i dont know if ive talked about it here much but im going to a specialschool so i can finish my highschool credits or w/e. Yaaay.

[azonewithu]

Its too much. You americans try to hard but youre not hatd like me. Your boyfriends cant get it hard for as Long as i can. Nor do yhey have sny supernsturslnpower like i do. I devastaded the religios. And they deserve foul yreatment from God. They csn do nothing yo stop me theyre terrified of me i won this war a long long time ago. When i visited earthband masacred your so named gods. They were false gods who idolized evil. Thats all of them exceot me i just killed them all. And i miss a few of them Jenna but they had to go. They just cpuldnt stop arguing and fighting amongst themselves over nothing. Kind of like smericabs do with everyone today. Thetes nothing grest about your country these days no matter whet dome wvil fat talking head says to the caneraaks.hes a totsl fuckn ssshole fdespot loving goof. Your soldiers like chris kyle shivering in purgatory kyle awaiting sentence are fuck all in a fight. They cant fight thry cant even swim well from what i hear. Thry sink and drown. Ive challenged you rat seals to a duel. Your nahe is going fien who wilk duel? Whose a fool. Im gonna dump your veterans sould into the flames. When i do uour whole nation will burn until its gone. Do not fuck with me agsin you srupid ineot smericsns. Youre judged you are not good people. You fo npt know ehat good people even are. Im a bad ass Srch the deadliest so i know. Come on lil bsby sesl here biy cone get clubbed. I just told you wortjless rsts youte hated by God. I ordwred Chriss removal. He wsnted yo come up and tell God its ok yo shoot poor littke kids. Well he gound outbits not. A little ouss a little ggas sn smerucsn glag bunch if fags. One match. Goodbye americans we are not ftyienfs snymore. Fuck you uour nstion your oraident younoeople God and Jesus fucking hste you. Depise is a bettervword. Jenna your sdiers are eipeoutnpeasant killing demons. Your whole military now. We choose to fight you see your punk yellow asses on the battlefield. The isealis eont stop theyre said theyll stwrve yhe rntite population to death of gaza to death. If they have to nuke iran withput anyknes permission they will. Nobosy caresxehst an anericsn thinks. Why? Becausecyoute sll backstabbing mother fuckers yhatsxwhy. Youre only concerned eith money not life or Gid. To fucon hell with your people and your ounk ass YELLOW goof ridden nation. You csnt really show your faces many pkaces. I can go anywhere. Because ehen you lose rvery war you get involved no one fewrs younir tsjes you seriously. They intend to win. They jntend to ein they do to. Youre sll gonna lose. And om gonna laugh. And get it together with your movies hollywood and uour tv its really really bad latrly. Ads dont fuckn sasy je if course faggits iyn the movie i smdustry who ate greedy and move onky money ste gonna say its a goid mivue. None if yhem ste thet good not even oscar winners. If was in thet industry id rsie it taje away the money the. Tell it fuck off and go live a better REAL life. Lufe on film is not real. The peopleceho make the shit arent that great in any respect sll things tolled. Or very respected by real people. Fans atent people theyre desperate to fit in. Too desperate. Im a fsn but not that. Thsts pathetic to me. I to t need your fyckn autograph id never ask anyone. You should ask for mine in twrms of greatness Jenna i yhink you knpw thsts true. Abd that sll the lol smericsn boys ste like boo hoo. Thry know theyre fucked. People who ate fucked jnow it. Go make a tostitos or dkip your life vommercisl fucon dip shits. Your ad guys now not artists or actors. Fuck you i destoyed you. Im moore interesting im mlt a computer goof rech bug like you are. Theyll sell snything Jenna including their souls. Thats why they dont look handsome in real life like i do Jenna. Theyte not appealing like i sm when you get up vlise. And theyre slm ti y smurf people resl shoet. They wesr lift dhoes like you. Yeah but you lolk cute in them i like demure eomen you cannouck them right up upside down and…. Well you know. Dont emd up like those people. You know why admire and live Emma?

JENNA ORTEGA as RIDLEY KINTNER DEATH OF A UNICORN (2025) dir. Alex Scharfman

[pathos11-11]

analyzing balors potential backstory bc i dont think ive many other people try to piece it together yet

ok so starting off, one of balor's loved gifts is the family crest pendant. if we look at the wiki (or even just in-game really), we can find a tidbit of info on the lore behind this artifact:

"leaving home for the first time"

why this artifact specifically? (I mean, other than the fact that balor likes shiny things, and that this artifact is uncommon and thus can fetch a price if sold.)

but here's the thing.

yes this voiceline is noted to be for gemstones, but i've also gotten it when gifting the family crest pendant to him as well, so he doesn't just like the artifact because it can go for a decent amount of money, as he implies he has a personal collection too (dragon hoard, much?)

so what we can glean from this little bit of info is that balor really likes the family crest pendant, which was given to those who left the home for the very first time.

why does he have a COLLECTION of things like this??? does he not have one of his own? or is he just really interested in the concept of family? as seen in this voiceline:

next off, we know balor talks a fuck ton ab the capital, but in one voiceline i had to hunt down, he says something that sticks out to me:

"only holds bad memories" ??

we never do really get a straight answer on what bad memories he hints at here, so thats up to our imagination for now until (or if ever) the devs give us more to work with.

do these bad memories have to do with the scar we can see on his chest?

third thing: hes definitely got some shady dealings from the past. take this summary of his 2 heart event as an example:

or this voiceline about maple:

so far he's really fitting into the merchant/thief archetype you'd see in dnd tbh

not to mention balor's 6 heart event where wheedle comes into the picture offering to buy/take over balor's business.

aaaand judging from these lovely comments of a thread i found on reddit, it seems im not the only one growing suspicious:

so there's one thing im excited to learn more ab in the future

[[[PART 1/?]]]

[lemongogo]

sry i dont know what 2 draw anymore T_T . elendira portrait #999

[azonewithu]

You try sometimes but you cannot just bring yoursrlves to be himsn bejngs instead of royals. Being human is better thsn being royal. It should be human first thrn roysl ehatevervthat fuckn even neans these days no one jnows. Not even the royals. Its true imnever realky liked you people really and rightfully so. But i liked something about you. Ot doesnt mean ur specisl or good it just keans i like you. And i defended you better thsn your husband coukd ir sny of your pussy ass useless punk knights. I never heard any of thrm say a pedp much in ur defence. Maybe to you not to the world. I crushed their prrceotions i torched half their homes. Do you see that chick on tv saying anything anymore. Shes terrified of me everyone is. Maybe even you now. But i just woikdbt write my family beefs down id ysje it up wiyh ky fuckn idiot family first. Yhen never write about it thats just me not everyone. Still those kids are ok. You shouldnt push your family away no matter what they did. You dont know what my old man did to me i still talk tonyhatvfucon goof. And its not going ina book. Youre rude to ke in return i shoildnt have boyhered st sll to stick up ffor strangers i dont know anyway. You coukdnt just slip away thpugh i see everythong snell everyone: i knew youbwete here. All in purple. Whats your problem afraid uoudike me ytoo lych if i tried to kiss you? Your husband aint got shit on me when it comes to ladies. But neither fo americans. Yer men and american nen very similar. Not good with women like i am. Spl talk n show no results. Theyre more in love with themsrlves those monkey ass rats. They raally think theyre something kate?? Hiw cone i kicked all their asses bar not one? They atent grast hi donnie ur mama bifch. The eitkd days fucknand you asshole. Hey willie. Willie willie eillie boi. Ily boi thst guts p didfys friend. Ha ha ga ya sure ya kniw about ur husband. Oh you fo know. Hes a playboy uoubcsught him. Do you have one in the bank id love to kiss you. Ahh but i e out upnwith homewrechers myysrkf donid likely not even try. Stupid nice guy not even finishing again. Assholesctske my work. Americans are mostly scum scum scum scum scum watch ehst hspoens this summer. Oh its war its in im gonna toast their asses to desth. And drown them too. They have a cataclism on its way. Nobody i ever tslked yo in this workd has a good opinion of thrm. None. People hate them. Stick with the common wealth forget scum bags eho hate HmGid hate peopke and hatevthrmsrlves like smericans do. Ive put a desth citse on thrir bation Katy. Yhey ate dead. Gid hstes them like baaaad. Theyre not good people are ya gonna argue. They e never bed. Good fuckn leople. Thry wete a big beyter begire but yheir devil drmon soaens not humans. They think evil is funny look at yhrir contorted faces. They carey the mwrknif the beast. Thry ate sonsfraid of je so dont you fear thrm. Yhry ste fuvk sll and nothing to fear. Anericans ate the dhitiiest fighters on earth. I gought a binch in glorids i best thrm mercilessky. I nevef lost s fight in the states. People hste those people. Donfomt go fugon loving demons kste unless youte one too. Eho knows. Youte rude i know that. But all english lsdies ste s bit cold n rude i like that. Ill warm you up. But you sre not smericans thank fuckn God. And me. I devended uour name. People fied im sn assasdin. Then i threstened thevrert into silence. Youll he er hesr it brought up again. Im the fucon nan and yhe Arch. Doed t thst tirn you on just s little? You hot kne in yhe bank none in the oven. Ill make you feel like you hever have befire……but in a good way. Yiull explode.

[ask2ps]

I love 2p japan

CHINA: 日本さえ恋がしたいということ、考えられないことではないねぇ。(It’s not unthinkable that even Japan would want love, right?)

JAPAN: 闭嘴。(Shut up.)

[broareweabouttoviberightnow]

I know I don't often post about the musical but. dear god. Jesus fuck. tusla '67. my god. hey. Jesus christ. holy hell. know that every time I listen to that song i look like this.

[nabaath-areng]

Been impossible to take photos of these nails due to horrible weather lighting, but since it was specifically inspired by Ieeha I needed to figure out a way... thank you closet for having surprisingly decent lighting and dresses for being a surprisingly decent backdrop!!!

[spookythesillyfella]

This is going to be a weird inbox to get considering it's 3 in the morning (On my end) as I do sent it but I've been wondering if you ever associated any song with digitaltime? This is a relatively new question for me to ask anyone since I don't usually go digging for ships out of the idea MAYBE people may feel embarrassed/uncomfortable talking about it? (Even if it did give them comfort!) If not song(s) at least maybe you can talk about them a bit, I used to love digitaltime back when I first joined dhmis in 2016 so I'm always really amazed the ship LIVES ON somewhere! (FEEL FREE TO TALK ABOUT SONGS AND HEADCANONS/IDEAS if you wanna do both I'd LOVE to hear!) I've been meaning to inbox you for days actually! Just couldn't seem to get myself to do so relating to mental health crisis haha. I'm hoping I'll be able to reach out WAY MROE OFTEN just to remind you I am here!! Really always excited/interested in what you have to say even if I've not expressed it forwardly back at least this way uuhh uh. You can ignore this </3 I know it's been hard lately!

Stay strong !!

HII !!!! HI HELLOO HIII !!!! :DDDD

ouhhh goodness i adore thiz question – i love listening to muzic and thinking about theze lozerz X33 I JUST NEVER GET THE CHANCE TO CUZ NO ONE AROUND CAREZ ABOUT THEMMM >X[

i actually have quite a lot but i cant just go on a 3 hour analysis of all the onez . so might az well give you the short n sweet of it – i really wouldn't want to waste your precious time ahaha ¥_^

★ "505" – Arctic Monkeys ; probably my favorite on the list but itz also one of the most SELF INDULGENT

the lyricz are just really fitting with my vizion of them – the lyricz "I'm going back to 505 // If it's a seven hour flight or a forty-five minute drive // In my imagination, you're waitin' lyin' on your side // With your hands between your thighs" fit with the fact they really love one another tremendously – their devotion

also the lyricz "Not shy of a spark // The knife twists at the thought that I should fall short of the mark // Frightened by the bite, though it's no harsher than the bark // The middle of adventure, such a perfect place to start" and "But I crumble completely when you cry // It seems like once again you've had to greet me with goodbye // I'm always just about to go and spoil the surprise // Take my hands off of your eyes too soon" LIKE I DUNNO HOW TO EXPLAIN THEZE BUT THEY REALLY REALLY DOMAKE ME THINK OF THEM ........

★ "I Wanna Be Yours" – Arctic Monkeys [dont ask why i associate them with Arctic Monkeys so much . okay ???]

y'know how Colin tendz to talk a lot about how clever and cool and useful he iz ? i think thiz song iz very fitting to how he'd want to be like . useful for Tone – the peak of intimacy iz to be uzed . something something etcetera

★ "As The World Caves In" – Matt Maltese

fitting from Tonyz perspective . in my opinion – how he'd want to spend hiz remaining time alongside Colin . even if . in the grand scheme of everything . itz such a small speck ; how Colin makez Tony feel fulfilled . and how even when all run out of time . hez happy to have spent it together – none wasted

★ a couple of honorable mentionz that i won't go in depth on :

– "Cigarettes out the Window" – TV Girl [mostly cuz i wanna do an in-depth au related analysis on it sometime in the mear future]

– "Show Me How" – Men I Trust [would like to analyze thiz one too but can't really see myself doing it ; the lyricz "Tell me why // Your hands are cold" are rlly hv digitaltime though i swear]

– "Daisy Bell" – Harry Dacre [iz thiz in part cuz Colin iz a computer ? if i answer that question truthfully . you'll chase me with pitchforkz]

– "My Love Mine All Mine" – Mitski [i can't go in depth about thiz without bursting into tearz ; i really love it]

– "Lovers Rock" – TV Girl [im scared of talking about love ; love iz very scary to me]

– "P.U.N.K Girl" – Heavenly

– "Who Knew" – The Correspondents [a relatively new song ive started listening to and i hadn't had the chance to properly dissect the lyricz and analyze them – but . since it remindz me of me n my lover . therez a 90-ish% chance it remindz me of them too]

TYSM FOR THE ASK AGAIN !!!!!!!!! I LITERALLY LOVE TALKING ABOUT DIGITALTIME – THEZE FREAKZ ALWAYZ LINGER IN MY MIND !!!!!!!!!!! IVE BEEN SO STUMPED WHEN IT COMEZ TO IDEAZ TO WRITE AND / OR DRAW THEM SO JUST GETTING TO GET SOMETHING OUTTA MY BRAIN IZ REALLY GOOD

TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF CUZ ILYSM !!!!!! YOU HAVE NO CLUE HOW HAPPY THIZ ASK ACTUALLY MADE ME . SO THANK YOU <33

[carnivallsarchive]

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See the thing is. I know I'm good at writing. Like I have my weak areas or things I need to improve in, but it's not a skill I otherwise spend a lot of time feeling insecure about because a) if I don't believe in my writing literally who will b) if I want to publish my writing I ought to at least feel a resting level of good about it because editors and agents likely will not be cradling my face like a prize cat and telling me how talented I am while asking for their edits c) I've always had an audience for my writing even at its worst– I started sharing my original works online when I was around 16 & that really helped sell to me the idea of 'there will always be someone out there who likes what you do' d) untalented men never think this hard about the quality of their works and they always end up published anyway and e) I don't have many other thoroughly developed skills so why not have one I feel good about. Having said this. Awkward feeling to realize you're one of the authorial weak links in your postgraduate creative writing degree's social circle

[shroomerr]

what brushes do you use on procreate ((if you use it)) and how do you get your lines so smooth ?? :0

Im dabbling in digital drawing but it’s still kind of a struggle for me shshs so if you have any tips I’d love to know ‼️‼️ also your art is amazing again 💪😫

Oh my first brush question!!

So I mainly use this brush called the "Funny Haha Brush." It's completely free on gumroad, but you can tip the artist if you'd like!

https://oryozema.gumroad.com/l/YQWUE

It's my go-to brush for both sketching and inking! Inking with it is really fun, and when I sketch with it, I lower the opacity all the way down. I like the sort of "crunchy" look it has and the texture it gives me! Though if you're looking for something cleaner, like a G-Pen, maybe this isn't the one skfdhlj. Try it out and see if you like it though!

Though in terms of getting better line quality, im afraid to say that just comes with practice 😭 im getting flashbacks to when i was younger and i'd ask artists i looked up to how they got so good, and they'd just respond with "practice"... SO IM NOT GONNA DO THAT AND INSTEAD YAP ABOUT IT

So the thing about getting smooth lines is that you have to be confident with your strokes: big, quick and broad lines. For example, chicken scratching is a habit I see a lot of younger artists do (not to say this is something you do! just something I've observed).

This is something you'll just naturally get better with over time as you become more confident with your lines, but a good exercise you can do to see improvements quickly is practicing drawing shapes like ovals, circles, parallel lines in quick succession and as cleanly as you can (and in the case of the parallel lines, making them as parallel to each other as you can). Ex:

What this does is you're essentially developing your motor skills to create cleaner lines, and training your muscle memory. Speed isn't the key here, it's more about precision! But you'll naturally get faster over time. Another good exercise that I also learned is where you create two random dots, and try to make a line connecting the two dots and make it as straight and clean as possible! I like to do "ghost" strokes where I plan how the line's going to move before I commit to paper.

Honestly these are just a couple of the exercises ive learned and picked up on over the years, but even I don't do them myself SJLFHKDJL which something I really slack on. But this is definitely for if you want to see results in your improvement faster!! And also, these are also great for warming up before you start drawing.

I totally get the digital art struggle ;; it was SUCH a learning curve for me, going from predominantly traditional to digital. Honestly, the most important tip I could give you is to just draw and have fun! There was a point where I didn't draw (apart from very small homework doodles) for 3-4 years, and in that time I never tried going out of my comfort zone out of fear that it would bad. And even after I started art school, I still wasn't able to draw at the level I thought I would be at. The gap between my perceived skill vs my ACTUAL skill was so big, I kept getting tripped up and being upset about it. The fear of failure was so strong, that I was more comfortable not trying at all. In fact, it wasn't until July that I started seeing improvements in my art!! Just a couple of months ago, I couldn't draw guys for the life of me, and now all I ever draw is south park boys sfljhjl. I'm still not entirely satisfied with how my art looks, but I'm much comfortable and happy with my art now than I ever have been in the last 7 years (holy shit its been 7 years).

So, TL;DR,

1. Line exercises are your friend!

And 2. Have fun! Find your muse, and just keep drawing that!! Find ways to insert your muse in everything!! DRAW TO YOUR HYPERFIXATION'S CONTENT!!

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

can i just be totally honest for just a sec. this past year hasnt been my favorite. it hurt a Lot and i really didnt think id be as happy as i am when the end of the year came around. it was not the best year by far for me. kinda nothing has been Great since i was like 12 honestly. But also i've learned a Lot about myself this year. I've healed, hurt, loved, laughed, everything in between, and will continue to do all that because thats life and im living (!!!!). I'm about to have a birthday that i didnt even think i was going to get to see like 4 years ago so. yeah. happy new year everyone and im really really happy im here <3 thank you all

[frobby]

i love madoka magica however i dont think we as a fandom talk enough about how tragic madoka herself is. probably because the narrative itself steers you away from thinking about her personally. shes not a character shes a desire that homura has, shes a force of good, shes homura's foil. but those are all madoka's narrative roles but madoka herself as a person is not really looked at because we are viewing this world from an unreliable narrator(homura) who only sees madoka as those things. The best thing homura could have done for madoka was give up on her, to let her go. because every time we go back in time the image of madoka is distorted, she loses more of herself every regression of homura's as she tries harder and harder to save her. We don't even know what madoka originally wished for to become a magical girl in the original timeline. and she actually acts quite differently than the madoka we meet. shes a lot more honest and caring and bold. by the time homura's has reached the actual anime madoka has been reduced by the sands of time to a figment of herself. she has no wants or desires of her own beyond wanting to do good and help her friends and when all her humanity is stripped away is when she finally acends to godhood because thats all thats left of her. an ideal and a faith in her. madoka kaname died a long time ago and all that is left is her ghost.

[bobzora]

i dont remember if i've ever mentioned my mew mew au lmao. but i drew some of that

[rinofwater]

I just found a clinic nearby that does gender-affirming surgeries so top surgery might actually be a feasible thing for me in the near(ish) future

I found a job that seems to have all the stuff I liked from one of my last jobs without the extra bullshit I didn't (can't apply for it currently but that kind of job exists and that's reassuring)

Things might be starting to look up for me

[autism-corner]

fucked up

[microwavetoaster-selfships]

See. It's like I know that if something makes you happy then it isn't a stupid purchase because it makes you happy. But man just hearing an outside source say it is different. Brain and the power of validation or something.

Anyway, apperently the little Dr.C Fingz can't be shipped in an envelope because the post office won't allow something that isn't completely flat. This information and me asking my co-worker what his rule of thumb for buying something stupid is which lead to the "if it makes you happy then it isn't stupid"