#[ HHHHHHHHHHH i love how it turned out ]

[despairforme]

TEN YEARS WITH NNOITRA !!!!!!!!!!

[ An. Entire. Decade. Dedicated to writing him, and blessed by him as a muse. It feels surreal to know that I've been writing him for this long. I somehow also always knew I'd reach 10 years, since I've never imagined myself not writing him.

10 years later, and I'm still excited about him. Still loving him. We've been through a lot together and I can thank him for my confidence, and for how he's allowed me to meet so many amazing people over the years. Taking the time to write him is always worth it, and all the hours I've spent writing for him are treasures to me.

Nnoitra is truly special to me as a character. He is the source of my inspiration and it's my honour and privilege to write him.

I thank my life for him.

And also! Thank you to ALL of you who've written with us over the years! You've made roleplaying my favorite hobby, and I have a ton of friends on here!

THANK YOU ALL!! And --- Onto the 11th year !!!!!!!!!!! ]

[kyouka-supremacy]

Failed a social interaction 0 injured 1 killed (me)

[peaches2217]

Hello my dear, I’m going to apologise in advance for sending this ask because I did send in an ask earlier regarding about Mario and Peach but I don’t know whether it actually went through (funny and unstable Internet connection…) after I heard you’re not feeling the best.

Now this is linked to @silenzahra’s musicians lore post and her promised story as well as my previous headcanon of Mario and Peach expressing their loving affections to each other through how they hold hands…

Well Peach adores it when Mario plays the piano, especially when he sits at the grand and magnificent instrument in her castle…she would sit by his side, watching how his hands flit over the keys and marvel at how his sturdy, weathered and scarred hands are so capable of producing such beautiful melodies with finesse. Her sincere compliments often cause him to blush and give him the motivation to learn a variety of musical pieces and songs from his world…in turn, she would hum or sing to him, which would make Mario admire her with the most tender and softest expression you can imagine. I imagine that she already has a lovely singing voice. However with her experience as a mermaid in the Sparkle Theatre, her singing abilities have extended and enhanced further to rival an angel’s chorus. Mario would gaze at how she would clasp her hands on her chest as she sings heart out, her lovely face beatific and her eyes sparkling with emotion…with this, their love for each other deepens, now sharing music as another medium to further express their romantic bond…

I hope you that this cheered you up and that you’ll feel better soon, my dear…

Hhhhhhhhhhh this is beautiful 🥹🥹🥹 Thank you so much!!

[totaldramafan-lauri]

EPISODE 2

HOLY FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFRICK THAT WAS INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!

I-I knew I wanted an Alastor song and GHDRJKFGDFHFJGH WOWOOOWWOWWOOWOOOWWWWW????? I-I mean, this wasn't the solo song I wanted, it was a duet with Vox, but he STOLE IT!!?!?! I'M TOTALLY FINE WITH THIS!!!!! I'LL TAKE THIS!!! I-I LOVED THAT SONG!?!!?!?? I-I'M GONNA LISTEN TO IT SO MUCH AND I'M GONNA QUOTE IT ALL THE TIME

VOX WAS LOSING HIS MIND AND- A-ALASTOR WAS JUST SO SMUG AND WAS JUST CASUALLY OWNING HIM

CALLING HIM OUT ON BEING MAD AT BEING.....ESSENTIALLY REJECTED PFFFFFFFFFFFF

AND THE ENDING

THAT ENDING WAS JUST-

CHILLS!!!! I ACTUALLY GOT CHILLS-

Hhhhhhhhhhh.....th-that's the kinda moment I was looking forward to....Moments like that.....y'know....? Scare me! SCARE ME!!!!! Th-that's what I wanted more of, for so long....!

Favorite song!?!?! I literally can't tell yet. Needs more listens to see how it stacks up to "Poison"

VOX WAS SURPRISINGLY A VERY FUN CHARACTER!!?!? I like his voice a lot, I like how in-control he is until he learns about Alastor and just loses his mind- I-I really like my manipulative villains, and he's that but I kinda want him to keep being a punching bag for Alastor, cuz it's so much fun to watch this guy who's on top of the world just...FLIP OUT over his rival like that. It's so fun XD I think he might be one of my fav characters now but we'll see what happens

The fact that he hates Alastor because Alastor said 'no' to his offer to join him is SO fun XD Guy with mind-control tech not used to someone turning him down, doesn't know what to do. Perfect

That moment with Angel was really sad...The kinda things Valentino said to him......This episode really made me more aware of the kinda character Valentino will be....He's kinda pathetic, but also, you should not let your guard down around him....cuz in the right situations, he can be....well, y'know....hard to watch. We aren't supposed to like him, but he's doing his job so far

ALASTOR MOMENTS OUTSIDE THE SONG: "I definitely remember you now...." and "It must have meant a lot to you~" The way he said that line.....fffffffflipping perfect......Y-yeah, Pentious just ripping of a part of his coat was about as bad as throwing off his groove in the pilot....XD

The "Sorry" song was MAJORLY overshadowed by how amazing the other song was, but....i-it kinda made me emotional? C-can I say that? Cuz I'm someone who's made major mistakes and had to deal with the pain and guilt over it, and saying sorry is never where it ends...but it's where it starts. I-I'm glad Charlie forgave Pentious, I'm glad he's still at the hotel, and I'm wondering where he'll go from there.....

AND THEN THE ENDING MAKES ME FREAK OUT AGAIN......

Y-yeah....t-try harder, Vox......>//////<

[gregoftom]

Greg’s zoology major has recently been haunting me bc we have so much that shows that Greg is such a goofy little (big) lovable dumbass but like he has to be at least decently academically smart to have a STEM degree?? Even if he has average grades, he would have had to do biology, chem, physics, and like calculus as just foundational courses.

And tbh he probably forgot alot of it the second he didnt need it anymore but I keep imagining a situation where they are in a meeting and they suddenly have to do quick math to figure out a percentage increase or something and Greg does it like casually in his head and Tom is like oh this is really fucking hot

And so he casually create situations where Greg is forced to do math at the top of his head and just kind of stares at him desperately turned on as he watches Greg thinking

[to be less horny I also think Tom would find Greg throwing out random animal facts and knowledge to be super endearing and cute]

that’s very true!! i see greg as someone who struggles with a lot of like, how to put it… like, he finds it hard to hold down a job, i get the feeling he never completed his zoology course or it implied it in the script somewhere…? idk but basically he’s a nd bitch who finds life hard and i think many of us can relate but like yeah he definitely needed to do those classes and all you say and i think of everything he mostly retained basic animal knowledge/health autism GET BUT!!!! YES i Do like the thought of thaaaat. i do love a good bitch who shows ppl up like, that’s what makes greg so great and also so dangerous, ppl underestimate the hell out of him bc he appears a certain way.

and i doooo love the thought of tom watching greg calculate stuff or be like “wait i need paper” and tom could get his phone out and so could greg but he hasn’t thought of it, and it could make life easier but something about it all is so hot, his sweet little greg being old school and calculating especially at tom’s behest. yeeeesss like. maybe greg picks up on it like, okay? i’ll get my phone and tom is like i BELIEVE i asked you to calculate it yourself, knave. need to keep you fresh. and greg is like UUUUgggghhhhhhhhnnnmghggghhhh okaaaiiee and puts his thinkie face on and tom is like hhhhhhhhhhh.

sometimes greg will catch tom staring like, uhhh tom? it’s kinda hard to concentrate with you looking at me, it’s like, off putting. and tom blusters, oh i’m off putting to you, gregory? and greg; no! i mean it’s distracting! tom; well don’t let my horrifically unappealing looks get to you. and greg is just uuuughhh this man is going to give me high blood pressure.

he would!!!!! augh he’d find it so cute. his ass is NOT beating the greglover allegations!!!

[thatonelightyear]

i have FINALLY gotten the time (and courage) to repost this.

(for my normal moots uhhhhh yes this is a pivot apologies for the whiplash but i am unwell over this drama)

very very interesting to see the takes, ngl!! honestly, valid for ranking the mortal arc that highly because yes they were both badasses in that arc, and we got so many fantastic characters which were well fleshed out and had aims and objectives of their own (pianran and qingyu my beloved omgyegfyshfs) yeah but honestly the crazy-borderline-psychotic isnt my particular cup of tea, so thats just me XD but luo yunxi pulled it off brilliantly actually all the acting in this was a LOT better than i expected (of a chinese xianxia iygwim)

bo're for me was... hm. idk man the severe lack of consent and miscommunication (HOW IS IT WORSE THAN THE MORTAL ARC) just made me die a little inside as i watched it take its steps to the inevitable tragedy. sangjiu was freaking just. powerrrrr lesgo in this arc. i loved her look and fit when she turned evil - also how she like deepened?? her voice which i thought was a rly good acting touch

immortal arc immortal arc. sigh. okay so i like this one best.... but im really biased because i just loved seeing (if only for a while) jiumin/tantai jin actually have friends and companions and love and care like awwwwwwww he deserves it sooooo much yeah and also because i actually like our two best dads too much (quxuan and zhao you) and their friendship is everything to me istg. but yeah this arc suffered frfr the cuts were just hhhhhhhhhhh pain and agony we could have had so much more (sobs) anyways its time to hunt down the full script to see what could have been ig XD

（forgive the influx of asks but like im just idk suffering the barren abyss that is tteotm fans -- or perhaps I havent gone far enough yet) lmao.

in your opinion- rate the arcs from best to worst? (mortal, bo're, immortal)

(i am still salty they cut the drama from 58 eps down to 40 like nahhh)

I think it would be mortal, bo’re and immortal for me. Which is pretty basic bc that’s the order we got it in

The thing is, I’m here for toxicity and people who should be in jail (susu) or a psychiatric ward (ttj) and I think the mortal arc fulfills that the best lmao

Even with that it’s mostly early mortal arc that I enjoyed the most i.e. everything before bo’re like Sheng arc perfectly embodied ms. Megan’s “He lyin' to me and I'm lyin' to him, guess we both ain’t shit”. Both of them being sooo trusting and actually nice to each other while they were actually just serving their own agendas was absolutely PEAK.

Also. Like. THE BOAT ARC. insane insane insane. I could go ON about this era. Ttj’s delusion + horniness. Susu constantly being ready to throw down at the drop of a hat. Him somehow becoming more down bad for her after she strangled him, beat him with sticks, punched him and said she fucking hated him.

And THE CABIN SCENE. Talked so much with moot abt this this specifically

This is NOTHING short of “she yell at me n I moan”. Word for word during my live tweeting I was like. This is the look of man wanting to be impregnated and I continue to standby it that man wants to be bouncing on it SO bad.

The Bo’re arc was also very fun. Tian Huan was a cunt but also kind of a girlboss? Idk. LOVE how Xiao Lin was Susu’s brother here & love how his only role was hating his little sister’s loser husband. Ming Ye & Sang Jiu had me after the first ep of the arc I swear I was 🤤 all over them day one. Ming Ye sucks for fumbling a bad bitch though

Immortal arc ranks last for me bc of how choppy it is. It’s very clear that chunks had to be cut out, I found the script summary of the dream demon arc on Reddit and I’m so pissed the original version sounds great. Also there’s this one scene where Susu shows up to the abyss in a black veil but she’d left the sect in a completely different fit and ik I just KNOW there was a yiyue tribe interaction there…

The cuts hurt the drama a lot. However unlikely it is I hope we one day get a blurayof the complete version or a streaming platform buys the rights to it or something…

[the---archive]

Hellooooooo sunshine how have you shown yourself love today?? I had lunch with a bestie and it was Vietnamese noodles and tofu?? So good! And I was Emotionally Authentic with him too which is!! Hard! Djdjdj ✨

hi angel !!! i love that for you!!! that sounds so good and im so proud of you!!! emotional authenticity and trusting the people we love RIGHTS !!! and omg today was wild actuallie ok so. like the morning was very. depression vibes/missing class which yikes but then the afternoon was like!! big self care hours + zoom w one of my best friends that was soooo nice i love her sm + spending time reading + being productive and it was so lovely !!! i also made like the Best overly elaborate coffee drink today which was fun

[taeilskitty]

Hey there! I saw that you open for a request so here's what I thought : what kind of sound did nct make when having sex? Are they more into whimpers, groans, or maybe dirty talk? Thank you so much for answering my question and hope you have a good day!

i was BORN to answer this omg. lemme tell you, i have thought about this so SO much!! (i'm leaving chenji out of this bc i don't know how people feel about that yet)

anyways, i hope u enjoy and i hope this matches what you had in mind <3

taeil

oh fuck. taeil is most certainly a groaner. i think (and trust me, i've thought a lot) he must make these gorgeous low moans like right in the back of his throat if that makes sense - have you ever heard his bubble voice messages? oh my god, they're so fucking hot. his raspy voice in the middle of the night is just to die for. that makes me CONVINCED that he dirty talks super up close. even thinking about it makes me shiver :(( he's the king of praise, i just know it. i think he degrades too, but his favourite is when he mixes both together - "you look so pathetic there baby, how cute." "daddy loves his pretty slut so much." "god you're so fucking good for me, my cockslut~" taeil also asks things, i think that suits him so much. "yeah? you like that?" "is daddy's cock too big baby? shh, i'll be done soon..."

taeyong

whiner. whiner. undoubtedly. this boy has the sweetest, prettiest little moans... he gets all high pitched when he's close and oh god when he sinks into subspace he just mewls and his voice gets so weak </3 little "yes" and "a-ah thank you"s slip out because he such a good kitten. he's so precious... and if he gets asked to speak while he's getting fucked he just squeaks out an answer. "m.. love it... ah..." n he will never fail to say his please and thank yous - he's so well mannered even when hes getting used !!!

johnny

this is just. oh my. i think he's silent for the most part. heavy breathing and quiet grunts and groans until he's close. THAT'S when he starts moaning, all sorts of things slipping out. "god you're so good" "i love this hole so much" ahh??! i think he talks down too. fuck !!! daddy!johnny is so patronising, and not just outside of the bedroom. kinda like taeil, he asks things, but he makes u feel so dumb and cock drunk :( AH AND he like... coos when you feel all dazed from his cock... "awh~ is that good? you like that don't you sweetheart? yeah, i know."

yuta

i have this vision of yuta just SLAMMING from behind with his face right up in your ear, telling you all sorts of dirty things lowly with just the hottest voice ever. he's very vocal about what he wants, and he loves cumming inside... so expect him to talk about that. oh, he is so fucking possessive too. "hmm. mine. this is mine. you're mine." he probably bites your ear/neck when he says it... the grunts that come out when he slams are enough to send anyone reeling, but i bet he tells you "fuck. gonna. gonna cum in my fuckdoll--" n his voice just trails off as he fills you up and sighs<33

kun

now kun is !! an interesting one !! ... i envision him as a pretty hard dom, so i don't think he's any stranger to degrading. that being said, i think he's more talkative when he's giving punishments (e.g. spanking over his thigh... heaven<33) rather than when he's fucking. i think he moans lowly, semi-quietly but as he gets more and more pent up he gets louder. (i think this is the case for most of the nct doms but oh well) he'll praise how good you make him feel - assuming you've been behaved enough - but that doesn't stop him from cursing under his breath at every chance he gets ,,..

doyoung

definitely has pretty moans !! he probably does whine, but i mean that in a dom way - if that makes sense? higher pitched moans but not pathetic, in fact it's probably paired with him whispering "fuck yes, good [insert ur fave petname here]". i think he's the type to kiss you a lot during sex and like... moan into your mouth; any space not taken up by the sound of moans will for sure be filled with the sound of his panting and his tongue dancing with yours.

ten

another semi-whiner. i always saw him as a dom but i'm sliiightly succumbing to the idea that he may be a switch... which is why i think there's so much BEAUTY in his moans?? ten makes really pretty, breathy whines and moans i'm sure, i don't particularly think he talks a crazy amount but rather short instructions. (yes i'm going back to dom!ten) "turn around." "get on your knees" "quiet." AH !! he always lets you know what he needs - however, sub!ten will just whine and squirm till you make him cum because he is most definitely a slut who takes anything:(

jaehyun

first of all, this man wrecks me to the fucking core, and i could talk about this for... a while. but his moans are definitely like, raspy high-pitched type. think about his vocals. esp in try again... i bet you they sound like THAT. i'm sure he talks a bit too, tbh he probably says rather textbook dirty things but it sounds so fucking hot when it's him. "yeah take it, take my cock" "fuck yes just like that", he loves how you whine when he moans right up next to you btw - it just makes him do it even more. oh, and bonus - he will never call you ANYTHING without prefixing it with my or daddy's. daddy's girl, daddy's boy, daddy's pet, my dirty slut... ahh<3

winwin

it's almost contrasting to jaehyun but sicheng's voice is so low. i can't explain this in any way other than that he's kitty, but his moans are so... puppy? and when he's fucked, he makes himself sound so dumb too. he's constantly slurring his words and biting his lip because he's trying to keep quiet but anyone who walks by the room will hear "mm.. m!!" because he just can't help himself :( when he's close he probably squeaks like taeyong and cums all over the place GOD i want him

jungwoo

oh god there's no doubt that jungwoo talks SO much during sex. he probably loses his fucking mind with how good he feels. he's such a good boy but sometimes you just need him to shut up - but he can't. he squeaks out a little moan when you push into him, or when you start touching his cock, but withn minutes he's babbling non-stop; "oh god oh god mommy/daddy i love it so much, a-ah like that, please~"

lucas

my brain used to be convinced that xuxi was a dom, but i'm now sure he's a switch. either way, his moans are pretty much the same. they're very heavy and... i guess manly is the best way to put it. in my head i can literally picture him being like "ughhh..." when you start fucking because he just feels like he's wanted to fuck you so desperately - yes, even if you fucked hours before. it's always so breathy and moany and i think he sounds like a bit of a fuckboy tbh... "fuck yeah" as he slides his cock into you? THANKS

mark

loud baby loud baby LOUD BABY:((( no matter how much you cover that pretty mouth of his he will be so LOUD!! he can't stop talking and whining and panting, kinda like jungwoo but honestly... more. he swears a lot too. he tries not to but he just can't help himself :( "aw shit... god shit!!!" under his breath UGHHFDGGDFDD SO FUCKING CUTE IM GONNA SCREAM !!! he's very polite though, so he always says sorry every single time :( he babbles like hell when he cums, he can't stop himself, again like jungwoo. "i'm gonna cum i'mgonnacumi- i'm -- ah fuck, shit--!!"

xiaojun

two words. action figure. everyone knew that was coming, HA - i'm sorry but THAT verse means we all know how he sounds. i think he tries his best to talk normally while you edge him but his little voice keeps on wavering and cracking and just... he can't help but sound all pretty and pathetic :( but surely dejun has some (very frequent) moments where he can't keep his front anymore and just whines like a whore because it feels so good<3

hendery

the things i'd let this man do to me:))) i think at first he'd actually try and hide his moans because he feels like that's what he's supposed to do, but no. for me personally, i know i would NOT LET THAT HAPPEN !! he probably sucks the air in through his teeth in an attempt to hide it - it's very fucking sexy when he does that, granted - but he can't keep doing that for long. i think he hums and laughs when he can't keep it in any longer because he almost feels some kinda defeat but then he just moans semi-loudly and lets out a "good girl/boy/baby... let me fuck you, huh?"

renjun

renjun scares the fuck out of me. why? because his moans are fairly quiet. he's master and it S H O W S. he grunts quietly, maybe muttering things under his breath like "so fucking tight" "mmh there you go..." to fill some silence but he does it subconsciously; he goes so far into domspace sometimes that he just can't control himself. when he's close he talks through his teeth and he's like "i'm. i'm gonna cum baby..."and the more you whine on his cock the more he just laughs at you because he's a sadist hhhhhhhhhhh.........

jeno

most definitely a fun one... you see when he's sub, he pants and whines and drools all over himself like a big dumb puppy boy and he just breathes so heavy n his moans are all shaky... if he's a brat he will try and talk big but he can't take it, he just gets so pathetic and !!! but dom jeno is fucking TERRIFYING because he talks down and tries his best to intimidate you. he chuckles and degrades you, but one of his faves is when he can big himself up under his breath. "look at you now. you love this fucking cock."

haechan

this isn't good for my mental health :) i fucking cannot TAKE this brat :) AHA! hyuckie is honestly such a whore, he's bratty and rude and always talks back at you like he's the king of the fucking world. he's constantly laughing at you and trying so hard to make you feel like you're not worthy but he feels so good he just gets fucked dumb by you :( he is SO loud too. he wants everyone to hear what a dirty whore he is and he makes sure he puts on his prettiest pornstar moans. he whines like his life depends on it. on the off chance that he's being a good boy, he begs and cries and whimpers when he finally cums - and i mean CRIES. sobs. he'll be heaving by the time you're done with him, but god he fucking loves it.

jaemin

fuck... fuck okay... well firstly he loves to talk. we all know how much he praises and how he's constantly showing his love off... that doesn't stop at fanservice, nope. he will fuck you like a ragdoll and keep calm and composed as ever, talking down to you as if you're in his lap for a soft cuddle. "baby loves nana so much hm~?" "oh you really love that don't you?" "you know you're so pretty. nana wants to cum in you so bad~" yes, he calls himself nana because he's a cocky fuck and loves how it sounds. especially when you're moaning it for him.

yangyang

i'm kinda in 2 minds about this... on the one hand, he's kinda like hyuckie in that he whines a LOT. but he can actually keep his composure - he's a breathy whiner, he's not quite as loud and he most certainy doesn't crumble as easily. (that's not to say that he can't, he most definitely can.) on the other hand i think when he's in a more neutral headspace rather than subby, he talks to you like a total fuckboy. not in a mean way but he's just like "hah. i know you love me fucking you like this." he gets so cocky and he sucks hickeys into your neck and hums quietly<3

shotaro

he's such a shy baby :( he wants to moan so much but he probably gets all self conscious and tries to hide it... so you gotta make him feel safe :( when he does he whimpers and it's so pretty and pathetic. the way he wells up with tears and hitches his breath is. adorable. he whispers "thank you... ah..." every time he feels that good and by the time he cums it's just falling from him like a waterfall :( the more comfortable he feels, though, the sluttier he can get... he will always be a good boy but i think he lets his whore side come out every once in a while <3

sungchan

last but most certainly not least, yet ANOTHER boy who pains me to the core. i think sungchan whimpers too. THERE I SAID IT. his cock is too big for his own good so he just... needs you to do SOMETHING to him :( he always sighs at first, maybe hissing just a little but then he gets to a point where he's quietly whimpering because he just needs to cum so fucking bad <//3 "need it... p-please..." he's always nervous to use titles but if he wants to cum he has no choice :( when his dom asks please who? he blushes bright red n mumbles a little "please mommy/daddy... 'm so good..." and god yes he is he deserves it so much ugh<33333333333333

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

Ooo pray tell about the bimbo and the giant guys?

Ahahaaa... lemme hide my thoughts from the public sksksk

CW: noncon, smut

Hhhhhhhhhhh just wanna be all pretty and dolled up with a mini skirt and thigh highs and my tits barely covered by my shirt and going to a frat party all alone bc I've never been to one 👉👈 not knowing that i need to be careful around all the jocks in this frat house bc they love thicc women like me. Not knowing that their eyes are on me the minute i walk into the house, their growing erections VERY noticable in their sweatpants and cargo shorts. Me being naive and thinking that nobody here would be attracted to a chubby gal like me but the minute im in the kitchen getting a drink there's at least five guys swarming me asking who i came with and what my major is. Me thinking they're just being nice but really they all wanna fuck me. All these big burly guys putting their hands on my waist and hips, handing me cup after cup of spiked punch and leading me upstairs while we talk. Them suggesting we play truth or dare, daring me to take off my panties and bend over to pick something up. Me, buzzed and not thinking too clearly, doing as they ask and getting so turned on by all these big hot guys getting a glimpse of my chubby pussy. The guys finally losing control when they see how wet i am as i bend over. The guys coaxing me onto the bed and complimenting and praising me, telling me how hot/cute/sexy i am as they grope me over my clothes. Me getting even MORE aroused by all their attention, and maybe my skirt is pushed up and my shirt is pulled aside to release my tits and maybe these guys start licking and sucking every inch they can reach. 4-5 big men with their big strong hands squeezing my tits and thighs and ass while they eat me out and suck my nipples. Each one wanting to have a taste, each one making me cum at least once on their faces. Each one letting me pull their clothes off so i can suck and stroke their cocks. They're surprisingly gentle as they fill up each of my holes, cooing about how precious i am when im stuffed with their cocks. Letting them fuck me as long as they want, not caring where or how much they cum. Waking up the next morning in a stranger's bed, clean and wearing an oversized hoodie, not remembering what happened last night. Going downstairs and meeting all of the guys that i fucked last night. They washed my clothes and made me breakfast 🥺 cute poly relationship ensues between thicc bimbo (me) and at least four hunky guys who just wanna protect me and make me cum 💕

[fantastic-bby]

SKZ vs. being embarrassingly drunk

Pairing: Reader x Member 

Word count: 3k

Genre: Fluff

Summary: Spending a night out with the boys and they get absolutely hammered (and cuddly)

Warnings: Alcohol usage

A/n: 1. Pls drink responsibly 2. Anon I’m so sorry this took so long but I hope you enjoy it ^^’

Masterlist

Chan

Probably wouldn’t let himself get drunk drunk

Like he knows how to have a good time 

He just wouldn’t get all CRONKED 

Or at least he would try to avoid that 

BUT 

There’s a big but 

He strikes me as someone who has a low/moderate alcohol tolerance 

Which means that if he really doesn’t watch how much he’s taking 

This man would end up flying into the next dimension

So in the situation that he does end up getting cronked 

He probably would be clingy or quiet 

Would hug onto you like a koala 

Would also end up being embarrassing  in his mind he’s doing perfectly fine

“(Y/n), you’re reeeeeeeally pretty” 

Ofc you’d just giggle at him 

You’re aware of how Chan doesn’t really let himself go like this 

You find it so amusing but you know he should probably drink water or smth so he doesn’t end up throwing up in the bathroom 

“Drink water, Channie” 

“No!”

-_-

“I don’t need water, (Y/n). I have youuuuu”

Chan wraps his arms around you and kinda smooshes his face into your arm

And as much as you love how amusing it is 

He hasn’t drank water since he started drinking alcohol

“Channie”

You slide the glass towards him and he shakes his head like a child

Of course he has to be stubborn when he’s drunk 

“Drink water”

He sticks his tongue out at you 

Now you’re >:( bcs you don’t want anything happening to him!! 

“Drink the water, Chris”

The moment he hears his English name it’s almost like he sobers up a bit 

“Why are you so scary?”

He wouldn’t admit that when he’s sober 

But he’s scared of you only because you have the tendency to be strict with him when it comes to taking care of himself 

You’re the only person that he honestly listens to when it comes to caring for himself but he would NEVER admit it 

Bcs admitting to that means admitting that he likes you c: 

Chan listens 

He drinks the water and he smiles when you smile at him

“Good job, Channie” 

The praise makes him give you a toothy smile while he wraps his arms around you again and pulls you into a hug uwu

Minho

Seems like he would get cronked on a normal Tuesday evening bcs he can 

But I think Chan mentioned once?? That they actually don’t like alcohol?? Don’t quote me on this pls I could be wrong

Anygays 

Minho would probably just be really flirty or might become more dry 

Like he would roast people more than usual if he gets cronked 

“(Y/n), you should drink more, you lightweight”

But you know he’s joking 

Would pretend he isn’t flustered 

Tbh if he gets flustered while he’s drunk 

It’s not like anyone can tell bcs his face might be red as hell

“(Y/n), do the shots”

o_o

“I have to drive you guys home”

“Noooooooo, you have to drink with meeeee” 

Minho grabs onto your hands and he starts tugging you closer to him 

Kinda just grabs you and pulls you until you fall into his lap 

“Let loose, baby” 

Wow okay 

o_O 

“We can always get someone else to drive us home”

O_O

He pushes the shot glass towards you 

And you’re just staring at him like uhhh…

The reason Minho wants you to drink with him is lost in his wasted ass mind 

But he just wants to make sure you don’t remember anything that he might end up telling you

Like if Min accidentally confessed to you c: 

But he can’t really tell the difference between sober you and drunk you when he’s absolutely wasted out of his mind 

“I think you’re really nice, (Y/n)” 

“You’re nice too, Lino”

“Nonononono”

He shakes his head as he pushes you back so that you’re sitting straight and pulls you towards him so that he can hug you

“I think I like (Y/n). But you can’t tell them that” 

Oh no 

“(Y/n)’s always so pretty and cool looking”

“Minho”

“Nooo sshh I’m not done talking yet” 

You just look at him like :| bcs you know that when you tell him about this in the morning, he’s gonna be embarrassed and start whining about why you didn’t give him water

Which you actually tried to do 

Minho just 

Decided he didn’t want any water -_-

“Do you think (Y/n) likes me back?” 

A whole ass cutie 

You laugh and smile 

“Definitely” 

Changbin

This man 

I had input from some of my other friends 

We all collectively agreed that this man is a TANK 

And by ‘tank’ I mean he would not get drunk easily 

Could probably take Changbin like a shit ton of shots before he starts to feel anything 

So if he gets drunk drunk 

He might end up being a bit more wee woo than usual 

And by ‘wee woo’ I mean that he would be completely off the fucking rails excuse my language

But I feel like since Binnie’s more of an extrovert anyway, if he were to get drunk then 

Well

He would be even more of an extrovert 

Like he would be going WILD 

So if he was embarrassingly drunk and you just happened to be his crush 

“(Y/n)!!!!! (☆▽☆)” 

His face is red, his shirts |  | this close from coming off, and his beanie is lost under someone’s ass because he threw it off before he started dancing on the bar

“Bin, get down before you hurt yourself”

He looks down at you w his head tilted and this grin on his face

You have to admit his eyes are sparkling like you’re the most interesting person in the room and it makes your heart bust the fattest uwu

“Come on!” 

He doesn’t give you a choice 

Changbin’s climbing down the bar and taking your wrist to drag you towards a less crowded area 

“Dance with me!” 

His hands are holding yours respectfully while he sways you’re actually keeping him up bcs he’s stumbling all over the place

“Binnie, be careful” 

He almost trips and you have to hold this hunk of a man up 

He giggles tho and pokes at your cheek

“You’re so cute. I’ve spent so long wanting to tell you that I find you so cute!”

Now you’re blushing like a mess 

“You shouldn’t drink so much, (Y/n). Your face gets super red!”

:|

Yeah blame it on the alcohol when you haven’t even drank a drop

“You need water” 

Luckily for you, Changbin obediently follows you to the bar so you can get him water 

He gulps it down almost immediately and you panic slightly because he might choke

But he’s fine when he puts the glass down 

For a moment he turns to you and his eyes widen 

Like he’s sobered up and he realises what he’s done

“Oh god—”

“More drinks for the entire bar!” 

You look towards the voice 

Surprisingly it’s Chan 

You turn back to Changbin and he’s already on his fifteenth shot of the night -_-

Hyunjin

A FLIRT!!!

If he’s already a flirt now 

Alcohol would just increase his flirting to a BILLION 

I hate him and his perfect face and his perfect dancing and his perfect hair I HHHHHHHHHHH

Hyunjin strikes me as someone who would either be more moderate to high tolerance w alcohol 

So he would probably be better at holding his alcohol than Chan is but not as much as Changbin 

But this man OOF he probably also just starts dancing like a madman when he’s drunk and also flirting with everything he sees 

He might even flirt w a chair but that’s just me bullying him at this point

I feel like he would only get hammered on nights when he either needs to relieve stress or when he knows he doesn’t have anything important the day after 

So it’s like a weekend, Hyunjin’s chilling with the gang, he’s drinking 

You know he’s pretty much gone when he slams his shot glass on the table and turns to you 

“(Y/n)... you are… amazing”

You stifle a laugh but you don’t say anything bcs you see that he’s still going 

“You’re like… godly… I can’t believe you’re driving me home…”

His eyes are barely open btw that’s how hammered he is 

“I can’t believe I’ve never told you this before”

“Mhm? What is it?”

“It’s a secret”

He moves closer towards you and smooshes his face against your shoulder

Hyunjin opens his eyes a bit more and they sparkle when he sees you 

“I like you”

“Aww”

Your heart’s actually beating a million a minute bcs you’re certain he’s confessing to you

But you wanna brush it off as just him meaning it as liking you as a friend

“No, you don’t get it. I like like you.” 

“Huh”

“I never wanted to tell you because I didn’t want anything happening to our friendship”

“Hyunjin…”

Aaaaaand he passes out 

(;¬_¬)

Now what do you do

He’s snoring now 

Oh god 

“Jinnie”

You shrug your shoulder lightly to wake him up and his head snaps up to look around 

“Huh”

“I think it’s time to go home”

Of course, when you take him home, you leave water and advil on his bedside table 

You also make a mental note to ask him about his confession in the morning 

But Hyunjin’s too cronked to have a proper conversation so you’re honestly not even sure if he’ll remember the whole thing :|

Jisung

Might retreat to himself 

I don’t know where exactly Sungie would be on the skz drunk spectrum

But it’s probably low to moderate so maybe around wherever Chan ranks

When he’s drunk he’ll probably cling onto someone he’s comfortable with 

Just so happened to be you 

Jisung’s usually quiet when he’s drunk because he doesn’t like talking or he feels too lazy to actually talk 

But he’s hugging your arm like a koala when he puts his eighth beer bottle down onto the table

Everyone else left to dance except for you, Jisung and Jeongin 

Jeongin’s pretty much bordering passing out beside you while Jisung doesn’t seem to be leaving your side anytime soon

“Sungie do you wanna go dance with the guys?”

He shakes his head like a stubborn child and only holds onto you tighter 

“Okay”

You pat his head and he leans into your touch when you do 

God he's so shdjdbdje a aDORABLE

"Sungie, do you want some water?" 

He nods silently and you slide the glass towards him

He drink the water without a problem but then turns to you

"You’re like an angel" 

Jisung’s lips are kinda pouty as he looks at you with half-lidded eyes 

“You alright?”

He nods before leaning his head against your shoulder and curling up closer against you 

“You’re warm” 

(｡♥‿♥｡)

“Do you wanna go home now?”

“I wanna cuddle with you” 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

You tilt your head and Jisung only looks up at you with a slightly bigger pout 

“(Y/n), I wanna cuddle with you” 

You give him water and he almost spills it drinks it

“(Y/n)! Come on and dance!”

It’s Minho

He’s pretty much pissfaced 

But Jisung shakes his head furiously and almost pops your arm with how tight he’s holding on

“Don’t go!”

You turn to him and your heart almost bursts out of your chest with how cute he looks 

So you turn back to Minho

“It’s okay, Min. You guys have fun”

“I don’t want you to go anywhere”

Jisung’s voice is softer now and you’re pretty sure he might pass out soon

That’s when you decide it’s time to head home 

“Let’s take you home, Jisung”

“Are we gonna cuddle?”

“We can do whatever you want once we get back” c: 

Felix

Super giggly 

There’s two outcomes to drunk Felix 

Cuddly Lix 

Or ready to party Lix 

I feel like he falls on the lower end for alcohol tolerance 

Wouldn’t be surprised if he gets hammered after just a few shots 

But also wouldn’t be surprised if he tried to control his alcohol intake for the sake of staying sober 

In the chance that he does get hammered tho 

He would be a giggling mess 

“(Y/n), drink drink drink!” 

Lix pushes the bottle towards you and you laugh bcs you’re supposed to stay sober for the night 

“I can’t drink tonight, Lix”

“Nononono! Someone else can drive us home! We can always call a cab!”

You give him a look that tells him that you really shouldn’t and it gets him pouting 

You pat his head as a silent apology just as you turn around to see Changbin and Hyunjin playing with the empty bottles

Immediately you’re like AA WHAT so unfortunately you have to turn your attention away from Felix to stop the rest of your friends from getting kicked out of the bar

Felix gets even more pouty 

Because he wants your attention! 

Because he likes you and he’s wondering why you’re giving everyone else your attention! 

Felix becomes quiet 

His intoxicated state makes it easier for his mood to dampen he typically wouldn’t be so open about his feelings

But now he’s all sad and pouty and watching you stop his friends from trashing the entire place 

And he only thinks 

Give me attention!!!! 

So he starts tugging on your hand 

“Hold on, Lix. CHANGBIN”

He retreats into his seat and sulks 

 When you turn back to him he’s just watching you with his brown eyes all sad looking 

“I’m sorry, Lix”

“Hmph” TT

You pat his head gently until he leans into your touch and finally returns to holding onto your arm 

Seungmin

Idk why but he’s part of the higher alcohol tolerance line 

Probably up there w Changbin 

I genuinely don’t know why but I feel like Seungmin holds his alcohol really well

But I also feel like he’s among the line that tries to stay away from actually getting really really drunk unless he knows that he can let loose 

So if he’s like cronked as hell

It would probably be after about eight or nine shots 

His face is all red, he’s just kinda stumbling all over the place and trying to convince you that he can walk in a straight line 

“(Y/n), I’m totally fine, I promise”

“You just tripped over a whole table…”

It takes a bit of convincing but he finally lets you guide him from the bar to your table he tried to push you away at first but then he almost fell over

Seungmin almost immediately falls into his seat 

When you sit next to him 

He squeezes closer to you and throws his arm over your shoulder 

“(Y/n), you have to spend more time with us”

You give him a silent agreement by nodding your head because you know that if you open your mouth you’ll probably end up laughing instead 

“I don’t know why I’ve never told you this, but I like you a lot”

HUH 

O_O

“Minnie, you’re drunk”

You try to tell yourself he’s just spitting nonsense because he’s drunk 

But at the same time 

He probably wouldn’t be saying it if it wasn’t true because he’s drunk

“Nooooo, you don’t get it”

He shakes his head and moves closer to you 

“I’ve never told anyone this, but I really like you. You’re really cool and you’re really pretty and I don’t know why I’ve never mentioned this before”

“Hahaaaaa…”

“I’m so glad that you’re drunk because then you won’t be able to remember this”

“Seungmin…”

How are you supposed to tell him… 

“It’s okay, (Y/n). I don’t think I’ll remember this either when I wake up.”

You just watch him and try not to giggle because he’s cute, but your heart’s about to break through your chest from how hard it’s pounding 

How are you supposed to bring this up in the morning without embarrassing him 

But you can’t just ignore it either 

“Can you take me home please? I think I’m done for tonight”

You’re surprised he actually has the mind to tell you that he wants to go home before having more shots, but you oblige anyway

The conversation of his confession can wait until the morning 

Jeongin

Feels like he’d be more on the quiet side 

Maybe he’d be slightly more giggly and excited 

But I feel like he’d just be clingy and quite kinda like Jisung 

So he wouldn’t want to leave your side either ^-^

But he’s also this |  | close to passing out in the bar

You’re there to drive him home but you’re also there to make sure he doesn’t get hurt while he’s there bcs Jeongin would be super stumbly 

You hold onto him bcs you’re paranoid and you’re worried 

Part of you knows that he would most likely be fine 

But he’s a smol child so you’re just making extra sure he won’t get hurt 

Might get a bit reckless too will tell you he’s fine

He’s sitting beside you while you try to make sure he doesn’t wander off on his own like Minho has and no one knows exactly where in the bar he is

“(Y/n) can we go to the arcade?” 

You turn to him and he has these soft pleading eyes that just make you go AGH (♥ω♥*)

“Not now, Innie. Maybe tomorrow”

Oh no

HE’S POUTING NOW 

You go into mild panic bcs you’re worried he might get sad 

But instead he smiles lazily 

“Don’t worry, (Y/n). I’ll wait until tomorrow” ^-^ 

“As long as I get to spend more time with you, I’ll wait”

AWWWW 

“We can spend as much time as you want, Innie.” 

His smile only grows and he leans into you

“You’re always so nice to me”

Jeongin’s smile becomes cheekier 

He giggles and closes his eyes 

Leans his head on your shoulder

“Innie, are you tired?”

He nods silently 

“Do you wanna go home?”

He nods again

And looks up at you

And he has the brightest, sparkliest puppy eyes as he looks at you 

Your heart goes BOOM BOOM BCS HE LOOKS SO CUTE AAA ╰(´⌣`)╯♡

“Let’s go home, Innie.”

[nadjasnandor]

Hiiii💞💞💞 I’m the person who sent the super long ask, and the short one after it, thank you for responding!!! I was delighted to read that♥️ Another thing I didn’t mention about my rewatch and Noticing things, (bc it’s not nandermo related, and also someone’s definitely pointed this out lol BUT!) when Colin is first checking out the library for stuff on energy vampires and Laszlo is supposedly checking out the porn collection, there’s a bit where he rips a page out of a book in the background, right as Colin is talking about what he’s looking for in interview, and when he turns to ask what he’s doing Laszlo just says “I’ll wank my way you want yours” WHICH is just a meaningless, funny joke if you have no reason to be suspicious of him. BUT ONCE YOU DO ITS LIKE. Okay so he was obviously hiding the information from him. Also I love how Colin’s mother is obviously an energy vampire that he inherited it from and he doesn’t realize. ‘She’s still boring’, he says, as a hundred year old man. The dumbassery of it all. Also I hate how this, plus Laszlo’s interest in asking after Colin’s mom, and how he’s been acting towards him, gives credence to the “he’s his dad” theory you mentioned. Maybe it takes a regular vampire and an energy one to make another energy vampire. Hhhhhhhhhhh. This show!

Hi! 💕 Yeah, that does seem suspicious, him ripping out the page, looking back. 👀 I'm sooo intrigued to find out what the big twist is going to be. 'This show!' is right.

[whoreadsnowadays]

TALK ABOUT HIM TO MEEEEE I WANNA HEAR EVERY THOUGHT FR 🗣🗣🗣

HHHHHHHHHHH OK OK OK OK-

This isn't solely gonna be abt Shatter, bc I genuinely cannot think of much to say that I haven't touched on at least a little in the actual story, and I have so much to say for 2012 Leo in general he's so hhhhh brain worms.

That being said- LEO BREAKING DOWN CRYING IN FRONT OF HIS BROTHERS. IN SHATTER OR NOT. LEO BREAKING DOWN CRYING IN FRONT OF HIS BROTHERS.

And along that line, the turtles in an extreme maybe apocalyptic situation, everyone turns to Leo like "What's the plan? What's going on what do we do?" and because Leo's in front, his back to his brothers, none of them can see the pure terror and horror on his face as he stares forward at the mess they've encountered. The others continue to prod at him, until he snaps, "Just give a second!" And the others can tell just from his voice how terrified he is- LITERALLY JUST- LEO BEING FORCED TO BE VULNERABLE AROUND HIS BROTHERS- that's my shit right there.

And, headcanons now, when he's anxious he hugs himself, rubs his arms, and paces. It gets so bad sometimes that his legs ache for days at a time, but he still has to get that pent up energy out somehow, so he ends up making the pain worse by pacing even more.

And after the leg injury/window thing he's constantly tapping his hands and his good foot, trying to get the same sensation that pacing gave him and always falling short. So every time he goes to pace he has to force himself to just pat any nearby surfaces, trying to resist the urge to get up and move around

Honestly during the farmhouse arc I feel like there isn't any part of that adventure in which he isn't on the verge of a panic attack.

SPEAKING OF PANIC ATTACKS- when he has an attack he has a tendency to hyperventilate to the point that he gets dizzy and almost faints. Usually when he gets the head rush it's like a wake up call, like "Oh you're about to pass out get your breathing under control" but sometimes when it's rly bad n he's panicking too much to fix his breathing, he'll fully collapse and faint. And while it's an incredibly unhealthy way to deal with it, he does always wake up feeling calmer. But that's just because he's too shaken up to really panic anymore.

The first time he works himself up to fainting his brothers all panic simultaneously, only for him to wake up and go "what? I fainted? Weird. Anyway."

ALSO. ADHD. THIS ASSHOLE HAS THE ADHD WITHOUT THE H. His brain is always going a thousand miles a minute, and he's gotten good at sorting through his thoughts quick enough to come up with a quick game plan, but when hes nervous or anxious or just plain scared, he has trouble sorting through everything because it's going too fast for even him

AND FREQUENT HEADACHES. This bitch gets headaches at least once every 2 weeks. Normally they aren't that bad and a nap can make them go away, but occasionally the pain will be bad enough that it has him holed up in his dark room for a whole day.

(Before u continue I must say I love Splinter he's a good character, but I am borderline Splinter bashing for the next three paragraphs)

Daddy Issues off the fucking charts. This bitch is craving validation and reassurance. He loves Splinter, and he knows Splinter loves him, he's shown that multiple times, but his sensei is just so emotionally distant that he doesn't feel entirely comfortable coming to him for reassurance or affection.

AND as an oldest child myself, I can say with confidence that this bitch has the weight of the whole household on his shoulders. Sure Splinter trains them and gives them wisdom and advice and all that, but Leo is the one to force Donnie to bed at 3am, he's the one to make Raph take breaks when training, he's the one that listens to Mikey's rants and hangs his art on the fridge.

Honestly Leo's relationship to Splinter is rly fucking interesting ok? At least the idea of it I have in my head. Leo looks up to and admires Splinter, he wants to be as good of a ninja and a leader as Splinter is. He wants to make his father proud. But also he's scared of Splinter. When anything goes wrong he knows that Splinter will look to him for an explanation, and he knows that if his explanation is less than ideal it'll be his head on the line, no matter who's fault it was. It's always "Leonardo, why were you not watching your brothers? You are their leader. You need to be leading them, keeping them out of trouble." And Leo can't help but feel annoyed as well, because really what's he going to do? Put them all on child leashes? He can't help what they do and it's unfair for Splinter to put the blame on him as well.

[pianostarinwonderland]

Reasons why I love Azul Ashengrotto because I’m a dirty rag once again 🤡

So........... part 2 of this?

OKAY LISTEN, I TOLD MYSELF I WAS GOING TO DO A PART 2 IF THE PREVIOUS ONE HITS 300 NOTES BUUUUUT NOOOOOOOO MY FRIEND IN MY FUCKING DISCORD REALLY WENT

“so....... Azul shoulders 👁👄👁”

And so here I am 😔 rotting......... immensely.............

OKAY SO I BROUGHT UP AZUL SHOULDERS SO NOW LET’S GET INTO IT

Listen listen, I don’t know what is with Azul’s shoulders

I don’t even know when I got so enamored with them ????

MANS WEARS LONG ASS SLEEVES ANYWAY

SO WHY

THE FUCK

AM I SO ATTRACTED TO HIS SHOULDERS???

LIKE???????

I DON’T KNOW IF IT’S THE WAY THEY’RE CURVED OR WHAT BUT IT’S JUST SO DAMN HOT LIKE??????????

WAYYYY BEFORE I FINALLY DECIDED I STAN AZUL, I DREW A FANART OF HIM AND HIS SHOULDER but haha you will never find it

MY FRIEND AND I WERE SCREAMING ABOUT THEM IN VC A WHILE AGO

AND THEN MY FRIEND PULLED THE TRIGGER

SHE PROPOSED TO ME THE IDEA THAT HAS CAUSED ME TO FALL INTO ROT HELL

“Imagine massaging Azul’s shoulders.”

HDJJSJFJSKFSPPFEKPDOWFKSJFKWPDPFJEIDDJFOWODSODPAKDJDKKDOD JESUS SAVE ME

I SWEAR, I RETURNED TO MY ROOTS AS AN APE WHEN THAT IDEA WAS SUGGESTED AND MELTED INTO A PUDDLE A SECOND LATER

LISTEN, I AM ALREADY THE ONE WHO MASSAGES MY FAMILY AND I ALWAYS MASSAGE THEIR SHOULDERS (and back)

SO LIKE, YES I WOULD LOVE TO MASSAGE AZUL’S SHOULDERS BUT ALSO I WOULD DIE BECAUSE HOLY FUCK

Idk, when someone proposes to me an idea with my fav that I already kinda do in real life, I die 10x harder

HIS OVERBLOT SUPER SHOWS HIS SHOULDERS THOUGH

Maybe that’s how I am attracted to them

It’s just HNNNNNNNNNNNNNGH

Ok speaking of his overblot

Ahem

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

LISTEN RIGHT HERE, AZUL’S OVERBLOT FORM IS SO GORGEOUS???????

Mmmmmm I’ll be very honest and say in his live 2d sprite, I’m not as crazy over it kdjjsjfjskkfjs

BUT IN HIS CHIBI????

HE LOOKS LIKE A QUEEN

A QUEEN I SAY

I LOVE THE WAY HIS TENTACLES LOOK LIKE A GOWN???? IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL

AWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Okay but let me be real when I say this: why the fuck does he have abs in that form

I Do Not Perceive

He totally stole those abs when he went crazy taking other people’s magic and skills (I mean he did say “I’ll take your athleticism” on his rampage wwwwwwww)

Please Yana, let those be stolen abs

O okay but 👉👈💦 his arms are ,,,,,

Like okay, I like to joke that he’s a twig but

I love how toned his arms are in his overblot 😳

I Idk,,, I just feel something and I

Hhhhhhhhhhh

Okay, before this turns into all-out thirst, I just want to say there’s so much more to Azul than just how beautiful he is in terms of looks 😭

Like ok, I just wanna hug him too man,,,

Even in that image above, I know we’re supposed to fight him but,,,,,, my heart just feels a slight jolt of sadness every time I inflict damage on him,,,

PLEASE, I JUST WANT TO HOLD HIM GENTLE,,,,,,,,,,,,

I WANT TO TELL HIM THAT HE’S DONE SUCH AN AMAZING JOB, COMFORT HIM, HUG HIM, GIVE HIM ALL THE LOVE AND AFFECTION HE DESERVES

I just want to tell him that he’s more than enough as he is,,,,,,,

I’m not gonna lie, some days I wanna beat Azul’s ass glares at gacha and all elements test

But most of the time, I’m in protective mode when people joke about eating takoyaki or beating him up 😢😢😢 like I know it’s a joke but I still wanna hug Zuzu,,,,

YES I CALL HIM ZUZU IT’S A CUTE NICKNAME

Zul and Zuly are also cute but,,, Zuzu

I’d say Azuly but that’s the ship name the Discord server I’m part of gave me and no it ain’t a true ship

But anyway

Yeahhhh I go “noooo don’t eat himmmm” every time people joke about eating him

Tbh when school started, I found myself empathizing with Azul more and admiring him more???? Because holy fuck,,,,

How does he manage being a dorm leader, a student, and a restaurant manager all at once??? I could barely do 1/8 of that work and I easily burnt out at the beginning of the school year,,,

Often, I had to tell myself that Azul does all that work to push me to keep up with school and hey it works ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

But it also made me think “does Azul ever catch a break???” and God I just want to give Azul one (1) day of relaxation because man, he deserves a rest hh

Also I kinda relate to his problems with body image?? Like, it lowkey hurts when the people you live with comment about you gaining weight and it sounds like a bad thing

And I just think about how Azul is conscious about his body image and shit and it just makes me want to hug him even more because God, he’s beautiful in any shape and form,,,,

,,,,,,,,,,,

SO ANYWAY

ONE LAST THING

I DIDN’T REALIZE HOW LONG HIS LASHES ARE UNTIL I SAW THIS IMAGE OF HIM ANGRY???

LOOK AT HOW THICC THAT LINE IS LOOK AT HOW LONG HIS LASHES ARE

AND ALSO HIS ANGRY EXPRESSION IS LITERALLY MAKING ME GO 😳😳😳😳😳😳

HE’S SO BEAUTIFUL WHAT THE FUCK DISNEY

LONG LASHES ARE BIG SEXY MAN I SOB SO HARD

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEJFJDJFKDJFJEODPSKJFKEODJJDKJFDKDKDJJD

So yeah, that’s the end

Ending it here before I rot over his smirk once again

L listen MY PHONE IS LAGGING BECAUSE OF HIM I FUCKING—

Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck that smirk does a shit ton of things to me

I swear to God, I better not make a part 3 🗿

[alovesongshewrote]

Day 27: Hhhhhhhhhhh, weather | Reader Headcanons

THIS IS THE SECOND TIME IM TRYING TO UPLOAD THIS F U C K

@furblrwurblr​ @einahpetsyarcip​ @sorrels-scribbling​ @anxious-stitcher​ @alive-and-afraid​ @animedweeb333​ @douxiesdamsel​ @saroski05

THERE’S FLUFF AND SNOW, ENJOY PLS

K, so im canadian, right?

So i know me some snow

And while this is a whumptober prompt

Y’ALL GETTIN SOME FLUFF, K??

K

SO

IT IS VERY WELL ESTABLISHED THAT YOU WOULD FOLLOW DOUXIE TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH

YOU’D COMPLAIN THE WHOLE TIME, BUT YOU’D BE THERE, AND THAT’S WHAT MATTERS

Anyway

This time, Douxie’s led you to somewhere cold

You’re both searching for some Merlin Macguffin thing, and it’s cold outside 

So, y’all find/rent/obtain a cabin which is more or less in the middle of nowhere

And yeah, it’s the middle of nowhere, but it’s got candles, and a bed, and electricity so that’s a plus

It has electricity because i say so

Also, that’s right, there’s only one bed

It isn’t really relevant, but you should know

SO, Y’ALL IN THE CABIN

RESEARCHING

AND IT’S CHILL (haha pun)

Then you find a lead and go to investigate, this isn’t important, your arm gets a lil’ scratchy scratch, y’all get in, obtain vital information and get out

Here’s the problem

While you were on your little quest, which was presumably in a cave, a blizzard picked up

So now there’s more snow everywhere

And you can’t walk super well bc you’re arm got that scratchy scratch and y’know, blood loss is a thing

Im not going into that because even though it’s almost 4 am, i don’t want to pass out right now

So anyway

Archie turns into a bear to get you guys home

Archie has become a comrade, don’t @ me

Once you guys get to the cabin, Douxie’s primary concern is taking care of you

But isn’t it always?

After he patches you up, he and Archie go around the cabin looking for blankets

They don’t find anything before the power goes out.

There isn’t much they can do about that since this cabin had electricity, but no backup generator

Really, it’s just a cabin of conveniences for my authoring pleasure

And your reading pleasure i assume

SO, now there’s no electricity

Which means no heat

WHICH MEANS IT’S FIRE TIME

BOOM, FIRE IN THE FIREPLACE (THANK U ARCHIE)

CANDLES EVERYWHERE (THANK U DOUXIE)

YOU TECHNICALLY AREN’T ALLOWED TO HELP BECAUSE OF YOUR ARM BUT YOU’RE A LITTLE REBEL WHICH MEANS S W E A T E R S

(THANK U, YOU)

After the room is decently lit, and as warm as it can be, y’all settle in for the night

Archie curls up on the rug in front of the fire and konks the fuck out

You and Douxie are on the couch, chillin (ha)

He’s reading a book, you’re leaning on him, legs over the side (of the couch, i felt like that needed to be specified)

And then it’s quiet

Bc snow

And it’s dark

Bc night

And you’re bored 

Bc it’s quiet and dark and you want something to dooooooooooooooooooo

Is that thing Douxie??  Shit, maybe, idk fam

REGARDLESS, YOU TRY CONVERSATING

“It’s quiet tonight, huh?”  “That’s probably because of the snow, love.”  “Mhmm.”

Cue you sinking down into the couch further

Shivering a little bc it’s cold

And trying again

“Hey, you know how moths eat through clothing?  Wouldn’t it be fucked up if they could eat through people?”  He just nods and you continue, “Is that why people are so afraid of mothman, is that what he does?  I mean, it’s implied that he ate through that bridge I think. I don't know though.”

He puts the book down and just stares at you for a second.

“Yeah, that would be… messy.”

It was your turn to nod.

AND THEN YOU SHIVERED AGAIN

AND YA JUST

KEEP SHIVERING

BECAUSE IT’S FUCKING COLD

FREEZING

THE TEMPERATURE IS B E L O W ZERO

How is Douxie not cold?

Idk

I mean, his hands are always cold, i guess it’s just keeping the rest of him warm

Sacrifice the hands ig

O, shit, maybe it’s the blood loss

Who knows

SO ANYWAY

SINCE DOUXIE IS A CERTIFIED GOOD BOI

HE NOTICES YOU ARE COLD

So he gets up, pats ur leg and is like, “I’ll brb, love u”

And you just kind of sit there 

“Alas, he’s finally tired of my bullshit”

He isn’t

He could never be tired of your bullshit

He loves all of you, bullshit included

So, yeah, he comes back with a pile of blankets

He searched the cabin and just

Collected

All of them

He brings them over to the couch and just starts wrapping you up into a lil’ warmth burrito

And to do this, he has to get real close to you

So you’re a blushing mess

He’s nearing the end of the blanket pile when you grab his hand

(which is cold btw)

And just

Pull him onto the couch

And he’s laughing a little bc soft s/o is a feisty little creature

Y’all are basically John Mulaney and his wife if that helps

Anyway

you’ve pulled him towards you and now is the time for cuddles

There is no other choice

So he lies down and lets you use him as a pillow

Ur head is on his chest so you can listen to his heartbeat

AND IT’S G R E A T, BECAUSE WHILE HIS HANDS ARE COLD, HIS BODY IS W A R M

YOU HAVE ESCAPED THE COLD

And then he starts running his fingers through your hair and asldflkasfdkjakldsfahl nice

It’s so nice that you start falling asleep

Bc hhhhhhhhhh, boyfriend comfy 

Said boyfriend picks up his book again, keeping one hand in your hair and he just reads in peace 

And it’s

Nice

[thebraingremlinsaremad]

Daily Blog #15: August 22, 2021

Dollar Tree is honestly pretty fucking awesome 👌👌👌

I set my alarm for like 6:25 this morning, but it took 6 minutes for the "Horsin' Around" theme song instrumental to wake me up. I was pretty tired lol. I just dismissed it and went back to sleep.

I only went back to sleep because I knew I had another alarm set for 7:00. That got me up.

I should mention that this was still in the RV over an hour away from the house.

After I got up, I went to go get a shower, and did so successfully.

Unfortunately, I had forgotten my brush this time and had to do it afterwards after my hair had a bit of time to dry, which did make it a little more difficult lol.

I got dressed and grabbed my stuff, putting it into my car.

I made it a point to see and say "see you later" to my grandparents before I left for the flea market.

My dad insisted that I stayed to say goodbye to my mom, so I left.

I did NOT have cell service up there, as was mentioned in my previous 2 blogs of which I could only post today, so finding my way was a tiny bit difficult until I got some service to ask Google to take me to "...".

It worked and I got there.

On my drive, I listened to 1 by Simple Kid, a CD I had previously purchased at a Dollar Tree location.

I got a call from the guy at the flea market saying that I had some people there waiting for me. He asked how far away I was, to which I said "about 10 minutes." Ironically, that call made me miss my exit, as Google couldn't talk during the call, and added about 3 minutes to my arrival time lmao.

I did sell the Xbox that he said someone was interested in. I got $40 for it. I spent 27¢ on it. Pretty good return if you ask me.

I couldn't sell it with anything other than a power cord because the controller and AV cables I had been using to play it there were for my personal console. I'm just glad I can actually hook my Xbox up and stop having to drag them to the flea market along with a small library of games.

Not too long after I sold the Xbox, someone came in and asked if I wanted to see some electronics he had in his car. I went out with him. It was a pair of 3ft speakers and a Pioneer audio system with dual cassette decks (although neither of them works) and a 25 Disc CD-changer, as well as the standard AM/FM tuner. Additionally, there was a Fisher amplifier and AM/FM tuner as well as a Fisher Direct Drive turntable. He said he wanted $60 for em, but before that he casually, and probably accidentally, dropped that he was just gonna take em to the thrift store.

Big mistake.

I got em for $35 lmao. THERE GOES MOST OF MY PROFIT.

Oh well.

I tested everything. As I mentioned, the cassette decks don't work, but everything else does apart from the turntable needing a new stylus.

I posted some new photos of the shop to Facebook, and someone soon DMed me about a stereo system.

I priced everything, and it turns out I have about $300 worth of equipment from that deal, the Fisher amp and tuner being worth about $150.

The buyer will hopefully show up next weekend, for he wants to buy the Fisher stuff ($185 with the turntable), the 3ft speakers, an 8-track deck, and a Kenwood deck we've had for a week or two.

The speakers are listed for $50 (and are worth around $100-150), the Kenwood Deck for $50 as well, and the 8-track for $35. That makes it about $320 in equipment. Since he's buying so much, I'll knock it down to $270 and essentially give him the speakers or cassette deck for free lol.

Apart from that stuff, not much happened at the flea market. I sold some records, cassettes, CDs and I think 2 DVDs. One person bought a VHS tape? That money was the other guy's though. Oh well xD.

I can't say that I didn't miss my wonderful partner while on the trip. I actually brought along the stuffed animal they gave me (who's name is Greg) and snuggled with him both nights.

I was very happy to hear from them UwU.

They let me rant and I let them rant.

I honestly give them too much responsibility over me xD. I'm like, "Okay, I'm gonna do this. HOLD ME TO IT."

I know I can't hold myself to anything I personally say (this blog being the only exception apparently), but I listen to them pretty well I think 🤔. If they tell me, "No, you don't need that VCR," so long as it's not some weird specialty thing, like a worldwide VCR 🥵, I'll be like "Yeah, you rite bro."

I love you man xD. You control my craziness pretty well. I'm so thankful for you UwU.

#relationshipgoals

So part way through the flea market day, I went over to Dollar Tree to buy some snack, but ended up looking through the CDs to see if there was anything good. I took photos of about 18 CDs and flipped through them online for the remainder of the flea market day.

I deleted the photos of the ones I didn't want and kept those that I liked. Surprisingly, I ended up buying 13 CDs there, but not before dropping them on the floor like the dumbass I am.

Also, sorry for all the nerd shit I spilled on your lap earlier. No one cares about amps and tuners xD.

I'M LISTENING TO ONE OF THE DOLLAR TREE CDS RIGHT NOW THO.

I already transferred over to my online library on iBroadcast and put the disc into my CD changer, which is now holding 164 CDs.

Its max capacity is 300 discs 🥵

WHY AM I NERD

Oh well

I like being a nerd gurl

Also maybe a technosexual 👀

I get really excited over some electronics. Like. REALLY excited.

Some editing VCRs are like "Holy shit that is SEXY. Look at those goddamn VU meters 🥵. And hhhh there are like 7 inputs on this thing and individual controls for left and right audio gain, not to mention Hi-Fi S-VHS recording. Hhhhhhhhhhh please gimme 😭. Why are you so expensive?"

I uh, mean, uh, *cough* look, pretty lights.

Oh yeah, I was gonna say the album I was listening to xD. MAN I GOT SIDETRACKED.

It's 37 Everywhere by Punchline. Def give it a listen; it's pretty heccin good.

Another notable album I picked up was Page One by Steven Page. I very much like the first track, "A New Shore." It's quite catchy and he has a great voice imo.

Also at dollar tree, I bought a regular bag of Fieras and 2 bags of Fieras Sticks, which were marked down to 75¢/bag because they're expiring soon.

I honestly like the generic Dollar Tree version of Takis more than actual Takis. They're a lot more flavorful when it comes to the lime, but also hotter at the same time.

Don't get the hot nacho ones tho. Hot nacho? More like hot pile of shit.

HAH

Goteem.

They're not that good xD.

THE REGULAR ONES ARE FIRE THO

"How do you do fellow kids?"

I got home and started working on putting the CDs onto my computer, and then onto iBroadcast, but not without first adding The Music Man to my digital library, something I had neglected for a month or two. The CD had just been sitting there lol.

I also switched my digital file for "The Black Parade" to that of the uncensored CD, which I had purchased before I event started working over 2 months ago.

MAN I'M LAZY

I eventually get around to shit tho lol. I guess it's just a matter of priority.

What usually takes priority is digging through everything to find something that I forgot about but then remembered, making a mess in the process that I would then have to clean up, at least partially.

I think the album just ended. I've been writing for a while xD. I'ma start "I Made You Something" by The Island of the Misfit Toys.

I'll tell you where that album came from in a minute.

In the meantime, where was I?

I kinda lost my train of thought despite reading up to see where I was. Oh well. On I go.

I ate dinner and kept working on those CDs, eventually putting my clothes from the week into the washer.

I FORGOT TO PUT MY SHAPING UNDERWEAR IN. FUCKING HELL MAN.

I wanted to wash em for this week 😭

No tight pants for Leonna I guess qwq.

Meanwhile, the box of my CD album cases is overflowing. I need another box.

I keep all of the album artworks in a big CD folder. That's almost full.

I wanna fill my entire CD changer. That's one of my big goals in life. Idk why, but I just wanna legitimately fill the entire thing.

My clothes are in the dryer now. I don't think I have the time (or energy) to fold them tonight. I'll leave that for tomorrow morning before work.

And God. Fucking. Damnit. I start school again on Wednesday. NOT looking forward to that, and neither are my 2 coworkers. We already have low enough staff, but only the two of them working is gonna be a pain in the ass.

I'll still work Saturdays.

I need to contact my guidance counselor to get out of the gym class I signed up for. I scheduled this shit before I found out I was trans, and I don't wanna deal with the fucking locker room situation 🙄 I have far more important matters.

Okay so anyway, the album I'm listening to came from a cassette. I bought this cassette a few months ago at the flea market along with a few others. The reason I bought them? They were all newer cassette releases from the 2010's, and they're all actually pretty good music from very indie bands.

Currently getting mad at iBroadcast's compression algorithm. It's unnaturally fucking anything over -10db up. Oh well, there's not really anything I can do about it.

I have like 13GB of music on my phone btw. That's about 3.5k songs on 268 albums.

I'm kind of an audiophile, but I'm too cheap to pay for a lossless service. Oh well.

They do actually have a lossless service on iBroadcast, but once again, too cheap.

Someone just sent me a friend request who legitimately posted that BLM and the democratic party are hate groups.

BLOCK.

Goodbye ho.

I don't get that. They call the democratic party a hate group when they hate people like me, and I, being more of a democrat although not fully because the 2-party system is fucked, think nothing more of them than they're very wrong about certain things, especially, as shown, that black people, as well as asian, Indian, native, and people of all ethnicities and backgrounds, are not equal to white people.

Yeh.

Totally.

You go buddy.

Anyway, yeah, I can, and do, convert music and video from analog formats to digital files in order for me to archive and listen to whenever and wherever I please. I've actually made a bit of a business out of it, but I don't get too much work from it. At least I'm not overloading myself xD.

I honestly have so much more to say, but I should probably go to sleep soon.

A few final shoutouts to the following people and companies:

-Dollar Tree

-Steven Page

-Broken World Media

-The Island of Misfit Toys

-Simple Kid

-Punchline

-My incredible partner QwQ I love you so much. Thanks for being the best all the time. I hope I can give you the best life ever.

Anyway I suppose this is goodnight. Lmk if you want a full list of the CDs I bought today! I'll link that song by Steven Page here.

And here's a good song from Simple Kid

I really like music lol. Enjoy these pieces.

Anyway, goodnight lol.

Lots of love,

-Leonna.

[stray-tori]

An Innocent Sin & the good gay flashback ft. my descent into madness

I wasn’t sure if I should post this but I mostly want it archived so here we go. This is from like,, September?

So. “An Innocent Sin��� is a dumpster fire unlike anything I’ve ever seen. I don’t remember why I decided to read it. maybe I was crazy. Either way... I read it. It soon started to touch upon (very very outlandish) sexual abuse which I thought was interesting. (the angst, not so much some of the wack circumstances surrounding it)

ANYWAY. at some point... we have a flashback. And not just that. It has a gay character.

And it turns rly gay. which mind you, is still in a het smut manwha (that has a “gay” side couple, but still!)

And it destroyed me.

For those who want to read it because I genuinely think the flashback is a decent bit, it’s all the bonus chapters between chapter 77 and 78 I think. There’s a part before that too, but idk where exactly anymore. (It’s on lezhin! or your platform of choosing)

I don’t THINK you’ll need any other knowledge to get the flashback bit? but it’s been a while.

Below the cut (rip mobile users), you can read all of my amazing reactions (all of these were text messages, for context - but I took most of the replies and convos about other things out). Post is also tagged as long post. :))

(i’m serious, this is fucking long)

__________

Here I am. Liking the gay flashback character. Feck. Main dude is still straight but idk it's cute pff

This is a mess. The girl white hair likes, likes black hair, maybe, but thinks white hair is attractive

What just happened is sth I'd like to know too pff He's so cute tho omg. Watch me melt Can we stay in this flashback before everything got perverted af and before white hair gets assaulted all the time I would send an eyebrow emote if I could Context: he's asking he says it again

Ik it's not mutual but loookkk he's so sweet. He's kinda rude in present time, can't we stay in this flashback forever

I never asked for gay, never expected gay but I got gay

This story is trash why am I still reading it shdhhd

He caught his mom cheating. And now she's forcing him to watch??? What is thissss Well adoptive mom But still sudhdidu what Bitch how dare YOU exist

Save my babyyyy

Yay sister that's not yet a rapist to the rescueee

This flashback is actually just nicer in every way let's just stay here This is a super long flashback btw Idek anymore what triggered it

Okay I think I'm gonna make the sensible decision and let this dumpster fire rest and just go sleep

It was very wild. I kinda wanna see white hair get therapy but it has 90 chapters and I'm at like 30... So I'm very concerned this is gonna be very dragged out. Idek if it's even finished ahahsududi - but I do kinda wanna see where it goes and see more cute Noah (white hair) so. Here we are.

yeahhh like i was down for the sexual abuse angst but then the mother killed the adoptive son's mother bc the dad had a thing for her?? and it was someone a person studying with white hair knew and so he's investigating and I'm like how did this turn into a crime organisation kind of plot

hhhhhhh i... i appreciate these horny things also tackling abuse but it always kind of gives me weird vibes to have both, especially when its very horny. And when people are horny to people who've been abused. Idk but I'd assume... you might try NOT to tie them up if they're frequently bondaged during their assaults. I'm just.... disjdksdj hello?? am i weird?? why are they fine with it???

also this manwha is so wild, theres this murder mystery investigation thing and then theres just a couple doing honry stuff sprinkled in between and i'm like OKAY

they rescued a guy in their basement and he's understandably very traumatized and they're trying to question him cut to our main couple trying bondage which i still dont understand bECAUSE HE'S A RAPE VICITM WHY ARE YOU OKAY WITH THIS the ones questioning arent the main couple of course but idshkjds

like im glad he's somehow okay with all this horny stuff despite his trauma and im glad he can be happy and have a nice relationship but DO WE NEED THIS MUCH OF IT he's very cute tho

i like that even when i try other stuff lezhin recommends me it still has large amount of gay in it

[mei: i mean... that's pretty great, if you ask me]

I mean I agree, I'm enjoying the gay eheheh these tonal whiplashes there's not even that much white space between the panels fhjd nvm it just turned horny goddamn it can there be 1 chapter without fucking? okay, there were the flashbacks

WE ARE BACK IN FLASHBACKS but im not getting the gay relationship, sad

OH WAIT AM I GETTING GAY COMFORT bc thats very good too

OH NNOOO this turned sad very quickly

I'M SORRY IM SPAMMING BUT THIS IS JUST ANGSTY

I'M :((((

different species confirmed

I rly like them :((( I like the current girl too but it's just..... very horny with her. the flashbacks are nice [current tori edit: she’s very unloyal idk why i said I liked her] im weird HHHHH RIPPP 

someone help him he looks so saddddd

not sure if thats the most healthy relationship but I'LL TAKE IT

AWWW black hair's mom cooks mild food for them bc Noah can't eat spicy food :((( im soft

PFFF

I LOVE THE FLASHBACKS :(((

awww

i feel like theyve done much more bonding than noah's current relationship. I mean yes I think its cute when she comforts him, too, but they rarely do anything besides be horny together

OH OH THEY'RE KISSING

best buildup, honestly

the position is hornier than I'd like later here goes hope it stays cute

D-did someone just respect the word "stop"??? I am amazed

i think you might uh. have some trauma stuff too so yknow

Dohye is a little dramatic in his reassurance but it's all rly cute so I'm :(( I like them a lot pls stay like this getting invested in flashbacks is always like: ik it wont stay but pls stay like this

hELP

chapters ending in "i wanna touch him" is never good. I'm scared. Oh okay he didnt do anything. PHEW. He's already better than the girl, can't they just end up together lmao

[Noah was jealous]

w-why do you look so evil dohye haukdhjs

oh. oh no. the horny is starting. pls dont... just be cute forever

DOHYE NO YOU WERE SO DECENT WHY ARE YOU LYING ABOUT KOREAN TRADITIONS TO GET HIM TO DO STUFF HORNY STUFF TOO NO PLS STOP I JUST- WHEEE TvT the manwha is actually less visually horny in the flashbacks but im not sure if its bc its BL which isnt rly the genre of the manwha or if its bc they're still kids basically, which... I'd respect the latter, tho I'd prefer it to be like this constantly haha

okay. he's not respecting stop anymore, but it's also more of embarrassed nature more than "no i dont want this stop" so maybe i can forgive it. Still losing points, but he hugged him and it was sweet so HHHHHHHHHHH NOT SURE HOW I SHOULD JUDGE THIS SITUATION

They [Noah’s family] forbid him to visit his friends house I AM DEVASTATED

understandable they're a rapist, a fucked up murderer mother and a father with a thing for younger women so

tho he dont know any of that but yknow he's so pretty just fucking end me on the spot

hooo

they are boyfriends and ik from the future that his sister is gonna ruin it allll she has those drugs that make visual imaginations feel like they rly happened to the person (dont know if thats real but holy fuck its terrifying) and she's used it before to say that Noah assualted her. and im pretty sure shes gonna use it again bc there was a panel of Noah remembering Dohye being uhhhh intimate with her and thats why Noah began to hate him and im so sad im not ready for it. bc he's denied it in the future and i honestly couldnt see it happening even before that or she drugged Dohye, i guess thats a possibility too

[current tori: oh girl, it’s neither and it’s wack]

which if, btich you gonna die even more enough rambling, more reading. this makes me so sad but also spicy

on the manwha note, he thinks Noah doesnt like his family bc he's adopted and doesnt feel comfy which....... fair enough i suppose. and he's so cute im gonna melt just looK AT THIS 

SHUt UP, IM GONNA CRY

OH MY GODDDD he ate like ice and gum and all that, and Dohye assumed it was bc of the more spicy food and got rl worried, but he was just trying to get the smell out of his breath bc he wanted to kiss him ukhsdjs HOW CAN YOU BE SO CUTE HELLLOOOOOOOOO

look at them. LOOK AT mY BABIESSSS

how am i ever gonna care about the main couple again aww he-he wanted to go to the same highschool as him :((( im sad bc i know its not gonna happennnnnn

[mei: also at this point, you're literally never gonna care about them. i don't even know the main couple that well and i honestly don't care about them whatsoever.]

WAIT NO they're actually going to the same school awww ik it wont take long until sister fucks it up for them but for now theyre so sweet ohmygodddd

cant he move in with them, fuck his family honestly

dohye he's not a fucking pokemon iukhsdjs

oh. its. turning horny i am displeased with this development but i guess its natural for their relationship however COULD YOU DO IT AT HOME AND NOT IN SOME DUSTY SMALL ROOM how do ppl do this i like that the comments too are just "... is anyone still carng about the other girl?" sakjds

this is the best 3 panels in existence.

h-he just took your hand dohye idk what to tell you

[mei: "you blush at everything i do" god if that isn't me, idk what is]

awww its cute dohye is getting bonus points bc he invited Noah over while his mom wasnt home, they watched some sexual stuff and he DIDNT try to do anything what is this where can i get more of this

"well im not okay"

MY BABIESSSS 

they still didnt do much btw they're just kinda exploring and its honestly nice TvT I dont want this to ever endddd

[Dohye sees Noah’s sister and approaches her] N O

N OOOO

this is the starttttt of something.......... TERRIBLEEEE 

:((( babyyyy

I AM EMO

Noah was drugged im sure. hes having dreams and waking up in pain and the sister is asking doyhe over I DONT LIKE THISSSSSSS OH HE DECLINED

OKAY OKAY he saw him with her again but it was from behind and im not sure if it rly happened??? oh no this is terrible. Noah :((( poor child

i am so emo about this

[reminder he’s been abused TvT]

[the sister: “Don’t you want to know why?”]

i will. murder someone he called to ask her to delete his number btw what is this manwha but this is just gonna make it that more tragic when whatever happens that breaks them apart :(((

he's such a good bf but Noah just wont TELL him his side I'M SO SAD

I AM SO SAD

No

NO

It cant end im actually tearing up nooo you were so cuteeee and happpyyy

[*sister is telling dohye to come to the gym hall*]

what else is she gonna do she already teared [current tori: ahem... T O R E] them apart THAT'S NOT DOYhE. THATS NEVER HIM. OH MY GOD. is it a look alike??? damn, she's dedicated to just. ruining it, huh

I’M

I’M SO SAD

now he's switching SCHOOLS NO NOOOOO how will i ever find happiness againnnn NO they're misunderstanding further they're not talking properly i mean i get it but oh my god

I'M :((( 

NO NOOOO pls make up in the future at least omg he tried to clear it up tooo ahhh i dont even have hopes for them getting back together but i just i want them to clear it up im crying first manwha to make me cry and it's this dumpster fire ahaha maybe a little too bc it kinda hit a little close to home i guess but goddamnn ittttt they were so cuteee and so happy and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

OH NO. Noahs getting drugged and assaulted. And he's realizing it happened before, he just forgot. I am. so sad it's not horny drawn either which i appreciate but MY HEART NO

N O DONT YOU DARE MAKE THIS WORSE

Im. gonna cry more 

Doyhe kept an eye on him im so emo :(( but he thought he was doing well enough and gave up.... Im im so sad no i want you to make up and get back together its all just a stupid........... MEHHHH will i ever find sth like this flashback again

[mei: p-probably not, no]

i am so devasted i dont even wanna go back to the main couple just fucking. i want this relationship back :(((( but i guess the investigation might end up somewhere so hhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhh the baker manwha had a similar flashback feeling so. i just gotta find more of that haha

BUT THIS WAS SO SAD??? im so emo

[Dohye got kidnapped // the flashback commentary stops here but I think my descend into madness is pretty funny too]

OH YEAH THAT HAPPENED. THE FLASHBACK WAS SO LONG I FORGOT. NOOOO SAVE HIM. JESUS CHRIST PLS JUST ONE GOOD THING

its. actually rly smart to have another, more focused on them flashback, before the arc where he gets kidnapped by the rapist murder household so. good job. from a meta perspective but also NO but also. maybe theres hope for them making up at least after all :(((

[main couple kissing] this is. very weird now. but im glad he has someone, he deserves it but dohyeeeee

and switching to sex, YET AGAIN now i wanna see this EVEN LESS THAN I DID BEFOREEEE it's even.... a threesome now with one of the other characters why are you like this why can't you be. like in the flashback i am so upset HAHHHHH WHEEEZEEEE

I am just stop fucking jesus christ PLEASE I DONT WANNA SEE IT ANYMOREEEEE

im just stop the horny pls just tell me who that new guy is and why doyhe likes him so much

[mei: this manwha is a fucking mess but at least we got your lovely commentary out of it]

dhsuksj thanks i feel honored at least i got cute BL out of it before everything went [back] to shit

[mei: THAT TOO]

[...]

tbh im getting kinda mad about doyhe... i dont... feel like he'd just fall instantly for a guy who looks like Noah... but eh not my character

i just want closure for dohye at this point, fuck everything else ... not literally pls theres already too much of that

pls get it together for like 1 chapter is the investigation even still happening i am so confused save dohye plEASE wait what i have less than 10 episodes left Dont tell me this shit isnt even wrapped up yet

[Dohye is having a breakdown over the Noah double not coming to see him anymore]

yeah i this... doesnt feel like Dohye... at all... Even when Noah was rejecting him he was just kind of... taking it with some humor and maybe he was a little desperate and risky sometimes but... oh well... i do want him to get better but... im having a hard time believeing this development??? he never seemed overly anxious or anything. but who knows what else they did to him. Sister can still go fuck off tho

[...]

i mean. i liked the flashbacks a lot honestly??? it stayed simple and focused on the dynamics and less trying to balance smut with murder plots

[dm partner: NO THAT'S WHAT I MEAN LIKE CLEARLY THE AUTHOR CAN MAKE A GOOD STORY SO I'M JUST... CONFUSED AS TO WHY THEY DIDN'T STICK WITH SOME SOFT, FLUFFY BL ROMANCE MANWHA AND DECIDED TO MAKE WHATEVER THIS IS INSTEAD ]

okay i dont care bc dohye is currently getting assaulted nobody asked for this why i just. this is terrible. he was... so sweet. he doesnt deserve this. nobody does of course but jesus christ pls someone save him at least its not horny visually, one saving grace

ah... the assult is back to being depicted horny-ly thank you for nothing

[... removed some general confusion about the plot]

YES. SOME SHIP FOOD.

i am. suffering i mean i cant stop but GOD

okay so apparantly. the sister. has just an arsenal of people who look like other people Dohye, then Noah... and even Noah's GF??? this is ridiculous??

one good message 

why 

did you feel the need to add that [actual tired rage]

im gonna die this manwha is gonna kill me im laughing but im suffering oh hes arrested great and thats the end and the last update was in january of this year

why AS IN NOAH IS ARRESTED nobody who actually did anything is arrested What is this why is this AHHH I at least wanted the complete-ness of finishing this but now I'M JUST SUFFERING

[ mei: I MEAN TO BE FAIR I'D BE SUFFERING TOO BC JUST... WHAT THE FUCK I HAVE?? MANY QUESTIONS?? AND MANY CONCERNS BC THIS MANWHA IS JUST... AN EXPERIENCE ]

its an experience allright WELL

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yup that’s it.

in my head, in a twist of events Dohye and Noah make up and are actual endgame. Something like that must exist out there but I won’t ask because it’d destroy the surprise and ruin the point.

That’s it.

Have a nice day.