#//haven't. talked as the pharmacist in a while

[daily-airimomoi-vitamins]

“Heya~ I’m here for the antidote refill!”

Three kids walk in- it’s the bear girl, her girlfriend, and the guy that was carrying her last time. She seems oddly cheery- almost as if she’s forcing it so her friends won’t worry. Her girlfriend’s holding her remaining hand, and the guy seems to be looking around casually seeing as he doesn’t have to watch the short one.

-akko, @pharmacity-weekly

Akko? My dear it's been so long~!!

Ehe..of course I'll bring it over right away..take a seat while you're here!

[you locked eyes with Akko and grinned]

[perry-my-shmirtz]

Accidentally skipped Night of the Living Pharmacist (bcs Disney+ pooped out on me and skipped multiple episodes including this one), and MAN. There are some good Perryshmirtz moments here that I haven't seen anyone talk about (then again, I'm effectively new to the fandom since I stopped watching sometime during season 2). I want to highlight a specific moment though: Heinz sacrificing himself as bait the same way Buford did (which is already pretty romance coded)

Like, for most of the special Heinz is pretty blase about creating an apocalypse where everyone is turning into evil zombies clones of himself. He's mostly annoyed at the situation, complaining about being inconvenienced more than anything. And while he starts to take things more seriously when he realizes Vanessa is in danger, he still is otherwise unbothered (he's focused on stopping the apocalypse, but he's not in any serious distress).

And YET. Heinz finally, finally breaks when not only Vanessa is turned but Perry, too. Like, it's pretty heavily emphasized that Heinz chooses to use himself as bait--- something we know is otherwise pointless considering he's immune, the mob largely ignores him, or they try to kick him out-- because he literally can't handle losing the two people that mean the world to him and having to live without them.

Anyway, Perry and Heinz are actually gay married and Vanessa is their daughter 😌

[our-queer-experience]

I'm a closeted transmasc and my periods are pretty rough but the pms/possibly pmdd is honestly worse. One time I tried to talk to a doctor about it but they only did a phone appointment and was just like "ok have birth control" without even bothering to look into what was causing it. I feel like my concerns about side effects (since my mum used to have pretty unpleasant side effects and a lot of the listed ones seemed like it would stick me in permanent pms mode) were just brushed off and still nobody bothered to answer whether it would still stop the period if I couldn't take it at the exact same time every single day (I can't do that with my ADHD medication let alone this). The pharmacist just kept repeating that I could get pregnant. The whole experience was so horrible, even ignoring the trans side of things. I haven't been taking it because while my cycle is horrible it's at least incredibly predictable and pain is easier to pre-emptively handle than the mood swings. I wish I could tell people the full reason why I really don't want to stuff myself full of estrogen but I don't have the guts to come out to my parents, and don't really want to tell my GP that with the current state of trans healthcare in the UK. Also it's made me super reluctant to try and get help for some related concerns I've been having lately because I don't want to just get the phone appointment then "okay okay just take these pills and go away" treatment.

Idk where I'm going with this I just feel kind of stuck. Compared to some other horror stories they're not even that bad. They're a week at minimum but are only heavy for the first half. I get anemic and nauseous but I don't pass out or throw up. I get cramps but if take a paracetamol and ibuprofen before they get bad they're really not a problem. The PMS sucks and I sometimes only realize it's happening when I alienate my friends or my brain thinks of something drastic after a minor inconvenience, but the thoughts regarding myself aren't anything I'd actually act on. I almost sort of wish it was worse so people would take me seriously and I'd have a shot at getting the offending organs removed, even though I know that's not how that works.

speaking as a trans man on birth control who is out to my doctor: if you’re not using it to prevent pregnancy, i was told by my doctor that it’s more about taking it around the same time each day. you can even miss a day and then take two, it’s totally fine.

while i understand your reluctance to take the medication, birth control is one of the most commonly prescribed things not just for general menstrual pain but for other conditions that affect people who menstruate. it regulates your hormones and is proven to make periods lighter and reduce the pain.

obviously, birth control is not the right method for everyone, and i am not trying to force you to do anything that will make you uncomfortable. i am trying to make you less uncomfortable with the possibility that these pills may help your hormones be regulated and your cycle become less painful to you, but i also understand if none of this is helping. if your doctor prescribed it, you might want to give it a try, at least for the sake of being able to work out another solution with them.

at the end of the day, it’s absolutely your choice and i am supporting you either way! i’m very sorry you have to go through this, and i hope your symptoms get better whatever solution you find for them. 🫂��

[lolli-popples]

🌻

Really anon? Anything I want? Is it my birthday?? Thank you so much!!

Okay so I want to take this lovely opportunity to talk about an ESMP s2 AU that I've drawn a few things for in the past (specifically Jimmy and then Fwhip and Katherine)

The base premise is: "There is a serial killer in the town of Empire Port, and it is the goal of private detective Jimmy Solidarity to solve the murders and stop the killer for good."

...Unfortunately for Jimmy, Empire Port is rampant with other types of crime, and he has to sort through a slew of false leads.

And unfortunately for everyone, Jimmy is about the WORST detective to ever exist. You could not trust this man to find his town on a map, much less find a killer. But despite everyone telling him this at every opportunity, Jimmy remains dedicated to his career choice. To the detriment of many. (But mostly himself)

Jimmy's not the only one on the case, though. Katherine, self-proclaimed vigilante by night, is also trying to catch the killer, with the help of Fwhip, her hired detective. Fwhip used to work with Jimmy, but has since moved on to this more-than-slightly better-paying job. And there is not contention there AT ALL and they're both COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY normal about this.

Despite Fwhip and Katherine actually being competent at their jobs, the killer keeps evading them. Meanwhile Jimmy randomly ends up in a crime scene every other Tuesday, and yet refuses to share any of the information he's found with them so they can't take credit for solving his case.

And so, the case remains unsolved.

Some other fun background characters:

Martyn is a retired corrupt cop who "helps" Jimmy sometimes. (sits around his office while giving out the worst/ most incomprehensible advice known to man) The rest of the time he's at the bar.

Scott owns a local bar that's 100% not a cover for an illegal smuggling ring and does not have a gambling room in the basement. He's the best bartender there! (Because the other one is Owen)

Shelby's a pharmacist who may or may not sell drugs on the side to help her pay off her loans for med school.

Sausage runs a popular restaurant and strip club! Separate establishments, notably. Different places. Both popular though, he's a great businessman.

Lizzie is the town mayor, who's campaign was funded 100% by really lovely and standup members of society and she has no alternative agendas because of it.

Pix is also a civil servant, a judge who does not take bribes in emeralds and historic artifacts for his personal museum but if he did you should hide them in the janitor's closet on the 2nd floor of the courthouse.

Anyway, I'll cap it there. All this is subject to change, I helped cook up this AU with @liveandletrain (MC blog is @minecraftbookshelf), and they may very well switch things to suit the needs of the story, if/when/however they decide to tell it.

But I think it's super fun and I wanted to take the opportunity to share my favorite bits while trying not to spoil anything important.

There are obviously other characters, every Empires character has a role, as well as the nearby city of Hermittopia, but I didn't go over everyone because a good deal of the characters are less developed/ haven't been developed at all, and I don't want to have to go back on anything.

If you're curious about anyone in particular feel free to ask, or if you want to know more about Jimmy, there's a lot of silly random details about him I didn't mention.

[explosionshark]

💌 but also we haven't talked in a while so let me tell you something I appreciate about you, too (: for a long time you were a very steady, comforting presence in my life. A few weeks ago I got to share Little Dawn by Ted Leo & the Pharmacists and In Case It Gets Lost by Sioux Falls with a friend of mine in a really bad place. It helped them like those songs helped (and still help) me. Still hanging on to see those northern lights ✌️

Just the other week I was back on a Ted Leo kick and Little Dawn came on and I honestly got a little choked up thinking about you! That's an Adair song for me now and it always will be! Makes me love it even more :)

But what I admire about you now is what I've always admired about you - your sincerity and your heart and your creativity and the way you care for others. You're compassionate and principled and man I know the world can feel really dark sometimes, but it's certainly at least a little brighter for having you in it. I love you, buddy, always ❤️

Send me an 💌 and I'll tell you something I appreciate about you

[assiconicillnesschronic]

Alright, so... life can go sideways really quickly when I don't have all my medicines in stock. While I was at Target restocking, see last post, we also placed in an order with Kroger delivery and for the first time in weeks they fulfilled the meds all correctly. So now my basic first aid and allergy kit has entirely too many pills, which I will take anyday over running out.

We got 140 Kroger brand Cetrizine at 29.98. My two-thirds of that comes out to $20.00. I take at least two a day. Sometimes during peak allergy season I'll take a third pill if needed. That dose has been doctor and pharmacist approved so don't take that much unless you've talked to someone about it.

3.00 for two distilled water for my CPAP machine. I usually buy one or two jugs a month but they're is a shortage of distilled water where I am so I can't always get it. It's suppose to make your machine last longer using distilled over tap water but I haven't noticed any difference

2.49 for ibuprofen (100)

This brings my out of pocket medical expenses to 2018.75

[loustat-0]

Hello, hello it's me 👋🏽

Okay so, there's something you mentioned about Claudia on this post here:

(Sorry, for some reason it's actually not letting me add the post link. So maybe if you want you can add it in your "answer" post so others can check that out as well)

I can quote you though: "I also believe Claudia has the mind gift which effected the process" In reference to ep 5 -- we all know what scene.

I wanted to ask you, can you expand on what you meant in saying you think she has the "mind gift" AND how did it effect the process, or why do you think it did?

-- One of the reasons why I had such a strong reaction to that statement, is because while it's possible that I may be living under a rock about it. I have yet to see anyone else even mention it. And there's a very specific scene in the show that always stumps me, and I always considered something along those lines may be possible. But I just haven't seen literally anyone else talk about it. So I've just kept it to myself. So I'd love to know what your meta, or theory or analysis is on this --

Okay so first of all Claudia can block Louis out of her head and I think a young vampire fledgling who is 19 years old can't do that . Louis himself wasn't able to do that even though he was older than Claudia .

When Claudia goes out on a date with Charlie , charlie stated that he can't do it with Claudia because she looked so young but Claudia convinced him otherwise & it looked intense she wasn't being a cute girl on her first date she wanted charlie & she got him to do it with her . Either charlie was so attracted to her that didn't mind the age 😬 or Claudia used some mind gift on him . I think she didn't know if it's a power or not yet . At that point she just did it anyway.

But In Ep 5 when she came back to the house to take Louis I think she knew she had the power she didn't know what it was but she knew she could use it on Louis or even Lestat . I think if she wants to use it intentionally to get something she would do it very well . She came in & created a situation in which the argument started first between herself & Lestat & then she got Louis involved . She damn well knew Louis is Lestat's trigger point she damn well knew Louis wouldn't leave Lestat without seeing him actually hurt him or Claudia she damn well knew Lestat wouldn't let go of Louis easily . Go back & look at how Claudia is talking to Louis in his head in comparison to how she said some stuff louder , her eyes get bigger & more determined & angry while she's talking to Louis in his head . And when Lestat said read her Louis she changed the subject completely on Lestat's insecurities instead of her own . Which eventually blocked Louis to not be able to read her at that moment . And then she gave the last shot : let's be vampires with vampires worthy of your love . As if I'm the only one who is worthy of your love not Lestat . And Lestat couldn't do anything even when he yelled as if he was trying to take his mind out of control of Claudia's mind but he couldn't .

When Claudia went to the pharmacy she wanted a drug which was very dangerous & forbidden especially if you're a 14 year old kid . She wrote on a piece of paper & the pharmacist just gave it to her 😯

Both in the books & on the show She convinced Louis to do something he didn't like to do . She made him believe he wanted to kill Lestat while Louis didn't want that & if he did , he wanted to do it for Claudia . Louis hurts Lestat just to protect Claudia . After Louis killed Lestat on the show he became hateful of Claudia for awhile and Daniel called it out & we saw how Louis pushed Claudia to the wall & also in one of Jacob's recent interviews about S2 he mentioned that they're having problems . In the book when Louie took Lestat to the swamp he started to actually understand who he had killed it's the same on the show Louis realized what actually happened after Lestat was dead . As if he was under some kinda influence to that . In the book when Claudia was slitting Lestat's throat Louis wanted to jump in but Claudia yelled at him to stay away & do nothing so again some kinda mind gift I sense here & there .

Most importantly , in the recent trailer Armand who is the master of mind gift himself told Louis that she's good at shielding her thoughts & that's coming from Armand so he might have sensed something too . And I personally think even in the book Armand noticed that & besides wanting Louis to himself he killed her off Bc she would have been a threat to herself & Louis & himself & others .

[eventinelysplayground]

New Experiments

This story is the third one from my WIP Poll a while back just two left now! I'm not 100% on this fic but I'm overall happy enough with it. This one is a bit different as it focuses more on Emma with a side character that we haven't seen in English yet but she's been in several fan translated events and I wanted to expand on Emma's relationships with people outside of the princes. The only info needed is that Yuel is an apothecary/pharmacist who becomes Emma's teacher after she moved to Jade. I don't know the fandom overlap here but Yuel gave off major Matsu from Sekirei vibes whenever I would read events she's in so that along with the translations was my guide for her. There will be a sequel to this in the future just I wanted to do them as two seperate fics. Yuel and Emma conduct an experiment which leads to both of them being excited for different reasons. WC approx 1379. CW: mentions of pregnancy. Also thank you to the ancient Egyptians for their knowledge which made this story possible.

“Now this plant is quite interesting! It has strong implications as a replacement for some harder to find ones with minimal effect on efficacy which would open up so many possibilities. Oh, but do be careful when handling it as it's thorns are extremely sharp and.. Emma?”

Emma was having a lesson with Yuel on some of the new plants being cultivated at the palace, or at least she was supposed to be having one. All her mind could seem to focus on was the scents.

“Emma!”

Emma's head reflexively moved back as Yuel snapped her fingers in Emma's face.

“Yuel, I'm so so sorry!”

“What's gotten into you Emma? Normally you're a model student but lately it's been hard to get your attention.”

“I know and I'm sorry it's just…”

“Just what?”

“The plants.”

“The plants?”

Emma watched as Yuel looked around at the various plants she had brought out for today's lesson.

“Is one of the new ones bothering you?”

“It’s not just the new ones, it's all of them.”

“All of them? Are you sure?”

“Yes! All these plants and flowers, and the wet soil ugh.”

Emma dropped her head onto the desk in frustration and let out a long sigh.

“I don't know why but any strong scent lately bothers me, I can't even stand the smell of roses anymore!”

Emma looked up at Yuel to see her staring down at her with her arms crossed over her chest and a sneaky smile on her face.

“Let's forget about these for today, I have something else I want your help with.”

“What?”

Emma was yanked from her chair as Yuel pulled her up and started practically rushing out of the room and down the hallway.”

“Wait Yuel, where are we going?”

“First I need to stop by the palace infirmary and pick up what I need for my experiment then we're going to my quarters.”

“What experiment? Can we even do an experiment in your quarters? Yuel? Yuel!?”

Now it was Emma who found herself being ignored, apparently forgotten in Yuels enthusiasm. Just as they reached the infirmary Yuel came to a sudden stop.

“Actually it's probably better if you wait here for me Emma. I'll be right back, don't go anywhere!”

Emma watched as Yuel hurried off into the infirmary. She hadn't been waiting very long when she heard a familiar voice call out to her.

“Emma?”

“Prince Keith!”

“What are you doing outside the infirmary, did you get hurt? Are you alright?”

Emma waited as Keith walked towards her looking concerned.

“It's sweet of you to worry about me but I'm fine.”

“Are you certain? I know you said as much this morning but you really have seemed unwell lately.”

“I'm certain. I'm just waiting for Yuel she said she wanted to-”

“Talk to the physicians about an order that I completely forgot about! It's all sorted now though so if you'll excuse us your Highness but we need to get back to the lesson, come along Emma.”

“Oh okay, I'll see you later Emma.”

“Yes of course!”

Emma once again found herself being dragged along behind a quickly moving Yuel. Once they were safely away from the infirmary Emma spoke up.

“Just what exactly is this experiment if you aren't telling Prince Keith about it?”

“You'll see soon, my quarters aren't far and I promise to explain everything then.”

Those were the events of five days ago and they kept playing over and over in Emma's mind making it hard for her to concentrate on anything else. She had gotten up early and was now just about sprinting through the palace hallways on her way to her teachers quarters. It wasn't easy keeping a secret from Keith and she hated to make him worry about her still but it was best to wait. She reached Yuels door and had barely knocked when it flung open and Yuels arm shot out grabbing her and pulling her inside.

“I was going to go and get you if you hadn't shown up soon.”

Yuel enveloped Emma in an almost smothering hug.

“Come take a look.”

Yuel gestured towards the workbench set up in a corner of her room. Emma let out a breath she wasn't aware she was holding and slowly walked towards it. On top were three dishes containing some seeds, the seeds in the first dish still looked dormant but the seeds in the other two had begun to sprout. It had worked, it had really worked! Emma was hit with waves of emotion and she clasped her trembling hands over her mouth in shock.

“Oh Emma!”

Yuel placed her hands on Emma's shoulders from behind keeping her steady on her feet.

“I…it really worked.”

Emma's voice had been trembling at first but now she was laughing as she looked between Yuel and the seeds.

“We didn't make any mistakes? Everything was how it needed to be for it to be accurate?”

“What kind of questions are those!? We did every step perfectly Emma, our control seeds are responding as they should and our two test seeds are doing just what I told you they would.”

“So then-”

Yuels loud laughter cut off Emma's question.

“Yes Emma I can say with almost eighty percent accuracy that you are with child. You'll still need to wait a month or two for the palace physicians to be able to confirm it physically but that's more just precautionary really.”

Emma was shocked, though not as shocked as she had been when Yuel first explained the experiment to her.

“These are grain seeds but under the right circumstances and environment they have a very special purpose, they can be used to tell if a woman is with child.”

Yuel was staring at Emma with a serious but soft look on her face.

“What, me?”

“Well it's certainly not me!”

“But…what makes you-”

“The aversion to scents. It's not an entirely common symptom but it happens and usually quite early on. These seeds will be able to tell us with an almost eighty percent accuracy.”

Emma sat there blinking at Yuel while still trying to process what she was hearing.

“I've never heard of there being a way to confirm it so early other than well…”

“Most Jadeans are aware of it but the seeds are incredibly finicky so we don't export them. If even one thing is off, the temperature, moisture in the air, exposure to light…any of them can affect the accuracy and render the results invalid so it can only be done by specially trained apothecaries or physicians. Only two of us in the palace have the training required but this is an excellent opportunity to teach you how as well.”

“What if I make a mistake?”

“Don't worry about that. Alongside the one you do we'll have a control as well as one I perform myself, also nothing will be said to anyone outside the royal family or head physician for a while. Although the test is incredibly accurate when done properly there have still been inaccurate or inconclusive results so nothing is announced publicly until the physician's final physical confirmation.”

Emma was pulled out of her reverie by an excited and quickly talking Yuel.

“This is such wonderful news! A new little prince or princess and so many new experiments and formulas to try out, I can hardly wait!”

Emma felt Yuels hands release her shoulders and watched her almost jump up and down with joy.

“New formulas for what?”

“Well first we have to figure out something for your sense of smell. Then if you have trouble keeping down food, something to help with that. A compound to make sure you're getting an adequate amount of nutrients, maybe something to help you sleep later on. You'll definitely need something to help with aching muscles and a new cream to help minimize the stretch marks. That's probably going to be the most difficult one, I mean you're so tiny compared to his Highness…”

Emma sat down in a chair smiling and listening to Yuels obvious enthusiasm then slowly ran a hand over her stomach. She almost couldn't believe the news and was overcome with joy at the thought of the, hopefully small, baby to come.

[fredpoptheprophet]

Dwight in Shining Armor Reverse AU

So I haven't seen anything like this written or drawn by anyone else but I'm sure other people thought of it.

One day, a girl named Gretta is riding her bike to the forest near Woodside. She goes to a clearing where she uses the open space to practice lacrosse and overall just to enjoy the quiet of nature. While practicing, she loses her ball in the woods nearby and she ventures into the woods to get it. After some time, she finally finds her ball but right as she bends down to pick it up, she's suddenly startled by an owl and is sent stumbling back. The ground collapses as she falls into a cave below and lands face first on something solid. She coughs as she wipes the dust off her lips and looks down to see a boy about her age dressed as a prince. His eyes open wide, startling her backwards to try to get away from him. The Prince quickly gets up while scrambling to pull his sword from its sheath. Gretta grabs her lacrosse stick and holds it defensively towards the Prince as he points his shaking sword at her. Panicked, he asks "Mortal enemy or harmless peasant?" in a scared and defensive tone. All Gretta can say is a confused "what?" as a sudden woman's voice shouts "Hold, your highness". Just then, an aged woman dressed as a high priestess appears telling the prince to lower his sword and revealing that the spell worked. Gretta is at a loss for words when the prince asks "Who is this girl, Nana?". The High priestess says "I'm afraid she's the one who has awakened you, Prince Dwight. She is your champion." Dwight pauses for a moment to look at Gretta, then to Nana and then back to Gretta before saying "This dirty brute? This horrid, mannerless wolf pup?". Gretta is visibly offended by his insults. She stands up to say "Whoa. I just fell down a hole by mistake and now I'm getting insulted for it?". Dwight turns to Nana demanding a new champion but Nana cannot change the rules of The Champion Spell since it was sealed with Gretta's kiss. Embarrassed, Gretta says "No. No no, I didn't kiss anyone. I never kissed anyone." with a bright blush on her face. Prince Dwight looks at her and says "I am awake, therefore you kissed me. As per the contract." he points to a carved contract on the wall. Gretta decides to just back away from these crazy people and leave but she backs right into the sneering face of a troll. She immediately bashes the creature with her stick which stuns him enough for Dwight, Nana and Gretta to leave the dark cave towards the town of Woodside.

The story plays out the same as the show but this time, Dwight is the millennium old Prince who is reluctant to use violence and prefers diplomacy over what little fighting skills he has. As a Prince, he understands the value of talking through issues instead of just fighting, but as more time passes with Gretta, he learns that standing up for yourself is not only necessary but rewarding.

His only living relative is his High Priestess grandmother, Nana who uses magic to protect Dwight until Gretta accidentally breaks her staff. Nana relies on her knowledge of the occult to solve problems while also acting as a guiding hand for her beloved grandson.

Gretta is the modern girl who thrives for sports, specifically lacrosse and she prefers simple life to complicated things like school and technology. She's not doing well in her classes but she has plenty of street smarts which is very useful when looking after a pacifist like Dwight. The more time she spends with Dwight, the more she starts to open up to people and even does a little better in her studies.

From a young age, Gretta lost her parents and was put into the foster system which means she has moved around from home to home. She currently lives with her foster dad, Baldrick or "Rick" for short. He's the only guardian that Gretta has formed a bond with. Rick works as a pharmacist in Woodside but also dabbles in street magic as a hobby which has cheered up Gretta more than once.

Rick was even kind enough to take in Gretta's only cousin Chlodwig (Misspelled "Chadwick" on his birth certificate). Chlodwig never goes to school and mostly spends his time wandering wherever he wants. Since he graduated, he's got all the time in the world to talk to girls, see the sights and even pick a few fights with a local restaurant owner.

Nana didn't know what to expect when she and Dwight woke up but she didn't expect to run into her old Coven sister, Hexcela. Last time she saw Hexcela, she was a withered old hag, now she's a gorgeous, black haired woman who has opened up her own cosmetics shop called Lotions and Potions. She's set up right across from Rick's pharmacy which makes their interactions a daily occurrence. Hexcela teases Rick about his fake magic but is secretly amazed that he can do magic tricks without magic which leads to more teasing/flirting.

[sophiamcdougall]

So to sum up

This was yesterday: * Wake up with a migraine * Take the last of my "emergency supply" of ADHD meds * Contact Boots to say 'hey, remember how you decided not to bother to reorder my medication, didn't tell me and left me to run out? Well, you said you'd text me when it came in and you haven't, what's up?" * Boots doesn't have my meds * Boots is fucking rude about it too * Already upset. HAHA I know nothing. * Call another pharmacy. Discover that the fucking global shortage of ADHD meds has struck again * Call all the other pharmacies. * Nothing. *Call GP *GP says to call the psychiatric clinic * Tell GP: "They WILL say there is nothing they can do and to call you back." *GP says to call the psychiatric clinic *[Still migraine] *Time to start work! I have a document to edit this afternoon! * Call psychiatric clinic. Psychiatric clinic does not answer. Says to call in office hours. It is office hours *Call psychiatric clinic several more times *[I hate making phonecalls! They make me stressed and uncomfortable!] *Psychiatric clinic answers. Psychiatric clinic says there is nothing they can do and to call the GP back. *Call GP back. *GP says "Oh, you're completely out of meds"?? as if this was a surprise. *GP says they will try to get me an urgent referral to the psychiatrist to get me prescribed something else. * I say I don't! particularly! want! to do that! I just want my normal, boring medication and even if the 40 and 60mg pills are out, might it not be available in another dosage somewhere? *GP, who keeps interrupting me literally every two seconds, to the extent that I think less "man" and more "honestly needs to read the description for the condition we're talking about" has apparently not thought of that. Will call me back *Edit document *[Still migraine] *GP somehow manages to interrupt me several more times to tell me they're trying to do Things which is nice but not! helpful! when you are trying to edit a document WITH A MIGRAINE! *GP finally says that while there is no way on God's earth to get me 120 mgs of my medication, I CAN get 100mg. Which you'd think we could maybe have got to SEVERAL HOURS AGO but OK. GP spends a long time arguing with me that this is a good idea even though I am not arguing back and agree with him. *Finish editing document. Time to go to GP, to get new prescription for 100 mg! Troubles nearly at end! *Migraine maybe fading? * SLAM foot into large box where keep craft supplies. * Wait for pain to subside. * It doesn't. * Think toes are broken. Can't walk. *Have to walk. GP about to close. GP not on bus route. *Hobble, gasping and wincing half a mile to GP. Hobble, gasping and wincing (and occasionally singing Italian pop music under my breath to take mind off pain because it's That Bad and we do what we got to do at this point) further half mile to Pharmacy. *Walking mile not good for foot definitely at all. * Pharmacists watch me limp into their shop in obvious dismay. "Hi!" I say brightly "This is unrelated to why I'm here!" * Pharmacy interested in toes. Says maybe toes aren't broken? Aren't black. *I agree maybe I'm making a silly fuss and only later think that it had been less than an hour at this point and despite what fanfic will tell you, injuries take longer than that to GO black.¹ *Get my 100mgs of meds. *Limp to bus stop, * Get home. Eat a consolatory ice lolly. *Hobble to bathroom to wash hands *Inexplicably, just to add baffling insult to ludicrous injury, a pile of towels falls on my head.

[¹Today still not black, but still cannot walk and even the weight of bedclothes unbearable -- they're broken as fuck.]

[stormyweaver]

Damn it. Finally gave in and napped twice this weekend.

gonna put a cut for more personal details, 'cause I hate having my own dash clogged sometimes.

Details: I've been struggling with lethargy/sleepiness through out the day for the past... jesus, at LEAST over five years at this point. I was diagnosed with anemia when I was younger, and over the course of my adulthood I guess it's just gotten worse?

I had some bloodwork done recently and it came back that I'm still dealing with it now - but my psych. was like "Since this medicine makes you REALLY sleepy" and I told him it was affecting me getting up on time (sometimes I've slept THROUGH my alarm while taking it) he's scheduled me to see a nurse soon.

I also talked to my pharmacist, AND I've made an appointment to see my primary (which is like, a lot more difficult than it should be? I've been re-scheduled TWICE now and they just keep pushing the date back .-.) but I just decided to try taking B12 supplements again. Honestly that and my multi-vitamin, plus working again and generally being better about being active in a healthy way has helped a ton.

I'm just confused as to why this weekend I suddenly like... broke my schedule. 'Cause I haven't napped in weekends past, but this one my brain was just like "You're gonna suffer from the eepy".

Idk, I always feel like a failure whenever I "break" my good habits (going to the gym, cooking at home, working on stuff I enjoy for recreation, mindfullness) but then I remember something me and my therapist are working on: not beating myself up for every fucking mistake.

Which I'm working on big time now, bc I genuinely hate that I took a nap that took up a good chunk of my day.

But! It's okay! Not like it's gonna be the death of me, it won't. I'm okay. It's okay.

[esper-union-lounge]

🌌Mid-Autumn Festival

🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕

Image from ilikedyourablogithere

It's been a while since I made a "Review post". This my first actual "Review".

In this upcoming update, I can see there are a number of things that are associated with the Mid-Autumn Festival, especially with the new Esper, Emma.

For this review, I am not going to go into depth about the myths associated with Mid-Autumn Festival because: 1. People always talk about Chang er's story to the point I feel like beating a dead horse.

2. I just think it would be more interesting to do a "Review" about my own 2 cents instead of retelling the same old story.

I was in for a surprise when I saw her design. I immediately knew the dev team are preparing for a Mid-Autumn update. This year's Mid-Autumn would be a little different. This is due to the date falling so close to China's National Day on 1st of October. Thus, a longer holiday. The more reason to enjoy the festivity of Mid-Autumn.

Image from the Dislyte Wiki

First of all, I was not expecting Emma to be a fully transformed animal Esper, like Trevor. So this is a really nice surprise.

I was begining to find Dislyte suffering from a similar design pattern of Bi-shouen/Bi-Shoujo designs, like the other mobile game, Onmyoji.

And, I think, the charm about Dislyte is their character designs uses a more western design approach to create characters while still having traces of influence from the dev's lens.((I am not saying which approach is better, be it western, Anime, or indie, they are all wonderful in their own ways. And, I am not here to create animosity. If you find my opinion not suited to your taste, tough.))

Emma's design reminds me of a Moon cake box for some reason. Nowadays, Moon cake boxes are designed and packaged lavishly, as if they are some sort of artwork of their own.

This, for one, attracts more young people to purchase moon cakes, paired with all the other modern and wacky flavours developed over the years. Two, it makes a perfect gift for friends and family.

The details of her wearing an astronaut suit, is really fun and cute, and I think it is a clever way to convey the Jade Rabbit's assosiation to the moon. I can see how Emma's design can be seen as one of a possible design on a Moon cake box.

I like how they gave her a pestle and mortar, in reference to the role of the Jade rabbits; often seen as pharmacist. Not the mention, the eye brows!

Her eyebrows stood out to me, because of how whimsical it is. I am guessing it is to reference how some mythical beasts have strange looking eyebrows or marks on their forehead. (I am sure Fushi got some wack eyebrows too.)

Honestly, I can't wait to see how she plays out in the gameplay, and her adventures with Ethan.

Image from the Dislyte Wiki

As for Heng Yue, I wasn't expecting to get her new skin for free. But it's Mid-Autumn, so... *shrugs*

To me, her new skin design, it got a nice colour scheme going on, but I feel as though, the dev team could do a little bit more than to simply give Heng Yue the typical Chang er design.

I understand that, Heng Yue's original design is somewhat in reference to the Hanfu boom in China; the trend where people uses Hanfu cuttings to design trendy and modern clothing.

This is just a personal preference, but I think if the devs could give the Chang er look with a refreshing modern edge, I think Heng Yue would look really cool and it fits more into the hip hop scene of Dislyte. I also think if the dev could add a Mid-Autumn special SFX effects in her in gameplay, that would be cool, and really complete the skin package.

As for the feature event, I unfortunately haven't picked it up since Javid, so I couldn't really make a comment or review about that.

Overall, I am looking forward to the upcoming patch, see what Mid-Autumn has installed for us.

-Esper Union Lounge

[nsk96]

Rant:

Lowkey feel like I'm watching my body slowly deteriorate because I'm getting increasing muscle weakness after 4 years of not working out (weight-lifting included). So much muscle weakness that I feel like my legs can barely carry me across a 10-minute walk; and my bag with my laptop and lunch weighs down my shoulder, my upper-body muscles can barely hold it up. Not to mention the muscle soreness I get at the end of each day now while I'm at this rotation.

And it's not like I haven't been active. I've been on my feet everyday since May, throughout my compounding rotation and retail rotation. I even felt like I was getting stronger at some point, but my health seems to have plummeted recently.

What bothers me even more is that I wouldn't be in this predicament if my mom let me go to a gym. Our deal when we decided to move here was that we get rid of our weight-lifting station (because it won't fit in the new house. I used it back in 2019. I became strong enough to lift heavy boxes during the move) and to make up for it, we'd join a gym and go for walks. Surprise, surprise, promises were broken.

We didn't do the gym because she deemed it "unsafe" (we just made it barely halfway through the parking lot. Didn't even go in before she backed out). And well, because I'm dependent on her financially I couldn't go, despite asking so many times the past 4 years. She'd make excuses like "you don't have the time" and emphasize how unsafe it is. But when it comes to other things that she deems important, she tells me "you need to make the time"...make it make sense. "It's not safe" and "you don't have time" seems to be her arguments for every time she doesn't want me to leave the house (like when I want to go to the school library to study over the weekend).

It's interesting though that she was actually opposed to me weight-lifting because she thinks bulking up would make me look too masculine and she would say that muscles don't look good on women, and go on to say my shoulders are already really "broad like a football player".

Today, I mentioned how much pain I'm in and said I need to workout. She said, "what's stopping you from working out?" What a fucking joke. All we have is that glider thing and a treadmill which won't do anything for my muscles. I'm already walking a bunch everyday, up and down stairs, between the pharmacy and the residents' room for daily rounds. To the outpatient pharmacist's office downstairs. If cardio was what I needed, I get enough of it.

She loves saying that I need to use the glider because it "works out the whole body." Trust me, it doesn't. It works for her, because she sits for her job all day...at home. Then when she's done with work, she puts her feet up to watch tv. She does chores intermittently. I told her the glider wasn't going to work and she said, "how is the treadmill going to help?" I didn't even mention the treadmill but she felt the need to bring it up because I always preferred the treadmill for my cardio (by the way I can't use either of them because they're set up in the garage; a one-way ticket to heat exhaustion). I told her I need to work out my upper body, especially work on the muscles for posture, and she finally said to go to a gym if that's what I need. tf. Then she goes on to say, maybe the one in ___ if it's safe.

"If it's safe". I'm so fucking done, because I know nowhere is safe in her eyes, and I'll just be stuck at home and become her. I'm convinced she wants me to become her, projecting her own insecurities on me all the time, and trying to keep me home. Her telling me to workout is just a mockery.

Well, it seems to be working. The negative voice in my head is hers. She's that voice. Imagine being your own kid's first and only bully.

Also, just a side note: the way she talks about other women is disgusting to me. Talking shit about how they're dressed, or what kind of plastic surgery they got, or judging their confidence like "she thinks she's all that". I know it's her own insecurities showing up, but I hate it so much, because it was because of her saying those things that I viewed myself and other girls negatively growing up. It took me so long to rewire my brain to think positively of other women who look/dress "better" than me. Undo the negativity she instilled in me, and still tries to instill in me. My own friends, she talks shit about. I become more of a girls' girl every day, but I know my mom will never be one. Maybe it's because of my narc dad, or maybe it's her own internal misogyny. I'm still working on viewing myself better but she's made that difficult my whole life. The part that kills me is that I don't think she even realizes what she's been doing to me, but if I were to point it out, she'd just get defensive and/or deny it.

[nightcall99]

Notes from 2.7.24

I parked right in front of the entrance to the primary school near my work. When I drove home at 5:30pm, it was dark out. I noticed the main office building was empty but the lights were still on.

I think the 2% I was running on just went down to 1%. Emotionally, I have nothing left. I don't have empathy for anything anymore. I fake it a bit, for that sense of normalcy but it reminds of when Clea was talking about how she saw a dead cat and felt nothing. AL's budgie isn't doing well, she had to take it to the hospital and it's probably dead today. I haven't checked in with her and I don't care. Another co-worker's friend passed away. My aunt got hospitalised for a stroke. My mum's started on BP med. None of it is real. No one is here.

Some people, maybe, are still here. I've been suspecting for awhile that Con the junkie might be. He was high on ice today and asked me for a glass of water. When I gave it to him I noticed he was carrying a book about dreams. He said he wanted to learn about how to control them/become lucid, how to manifest things etc. He offered to lend it to me but I declined, then he walked off singing '...Katherine, I see her on a boat, no, I see her on a plane...". He has this energy about him. A customer gave me a fake smile once and he called it out and started freaking out LOL. He was like "THAT'S A FAKE SMILE. THAT WAS FAKE" and got really angry on my behalf. Last month, he wrote a love letter to NM. On the second page, it got really real. He wrote "I love (proceeds to list a bunch of our names) with all my heart and I always will and when everyone dies that love each other they spend life together in eternal joy and happiness. That is the spiritual heaven. I'm going to be in heaven with _ and _ and _ too and the girls that work here and the pharmacists too, and I'm going to be with all the girls and men that work at IGA (a supermarket) next door and all my friends and Mum and Dad and Grandma and everyone in heaven where there is no matter, just spirit without a body, just a spirit of light. Who knows maybe in heaven you (NM) will have lunch with me there because maybe you eat spirit food. Anyway bye for now". I think everyone was laughing at it but I teared up while reading it at the time. His grandma passed away (she made it to 95 I think) not long after. She was so cute. On her profile someone wrote 'they see me rollin', they hatin', bc she used to walk really slow like a shuffle.

Anyway, the dude from the dreams is just whatever. I saw him today and it was just small talk all day. I didn't give a fuck about his trip but I asked all the necessary questions. He kept making comments of a certain energy that I realise as I write now was just like the dream, jabs to see if I'm still here. I know he's in there but it's impossible and I'm at peace with that. It's never not going to be low vibe and I think my HS has had enough so I don't think he is going to be appearing on our rosters anymore from what I can tell. So what was the point of that? Did I really wait '15 minutes' for that? I had no expectations, other than to get to the bottom of it. And well there it is, I have. I've let go of the 3D story. Can I go now?

Also today randomly I got recommended on YT, a community message from the channel from about a year ago where Clea had transcribed the final message for that session. It was about how some of us have soured to the idea of NE but it will be everything we could ever want, and more.

[sparklyharmonyphantom]

Okay I haven't been active on tumblr for Several Years at this point, which means I can simply scream into the void and know it's unlikely someone will scream back.

I had a bad day at work yesterday. It's a new job, I almost cried (~~did cry~~), and I couldn't stop thinking about it. Went to pick up my prescription after work and it was BAD. Like, people were getting antsy, everything was messy, and the pharmacist looked at me the same way I looked at myself in the mirror at work and I went. Oh. She's struggling today too.

She admitted as much and maybe as bad as it is to admit it, I'm glad I had a bad day because I knew her for a second. We got to talk about our bad days while she rang me up and I was glad I had a bad day so that I could have that moment.

Like, sure, I still would've been nice, I still would've said "I totally understand, dude, don't worry about it,". Me not doing well didn't mean I magically gained empathy. But maybe I wanted to pretend that the reason the day wasn't good was so I could be the person to share that with. Anyway.

[marigoldenchrys]

the british-pharmacist guy

I'm here again to post about a dream of mine. This one's an old one, from a few months ago. It'll be pretty rough since I no longer remember every detail of it but I'll try my best.

Let's call him, Hide. He is my actual work-crush and yes, I'm still crushing on him. (weakbitch) But anyway, it started last March when our schedule got changed from 4pm-1am to 7pm-4am. At first, I thought I was fond of him because he plays drums and it seems that I really get attracted to people who play any musical instruments, may it be guitar, piano, drum or whatever. I thought I only wanted to be good friends, like isn't it cool to have a guy friend, like you're really really friends with him? Hide is a cool guy, for me, although he doesn't get dumb jokes right away, he's still cool. He's not a British man but he sure does sound like one whenever he speaks English, and yes, he's not a native English speaker. That accent of his got me coz he really sounds good and I just go melt listening to him lol.

Hide is career-oriented and has such huge dreams and I liked that about him. He wants to get out of poverty and experience luxury. (I mean, who doesn't?) But his vision of his future is far from mine, although I've also thought about it but the older I get, I just want to live in a very secluded place where I'm only surrounded by beautiful mountains, trees, flowers, and lovely animals. Cottage core, huh? Lol. While Hide, wants to live in a skyscraper. I want that too but... ah whatever.

Anyway, I got to know him a little bit because we both have the same schedule, we're both in one team and we both have the same time for lunch breaks! Yey. So yeah, we go on lunch together, talk a bit about work and people from work, gossiping haha! And going off work, we kind of walk on the same path so, more talking and sharing stuff about each other's lives. I found out that he has graduated college already, he's a future pharmacist! Haha. During those moments, I realized that it felt so comfortable with him and that I'm learning a lot and the way he thinks really amazes me. I wanted to keep in touch with him, I wanted to always know what he thinks about this and that. Until all the signs of having a crush showed up one by one and I haven't stopped myself from crushing him since March. Until one afternoon, here's the dream y'all have been waiting for ~!

Once again, y'all know dreams are weird and it's just like random stuff happening all at the same time with no meaning at all.

I found myself in a hospital, and there's like a mental context that the reason why I'm there with Hide, Anna (another coworker of mine whose preggy irl), and some of my coworkers that I do not remember the faces, was because we needed to get some type of access from the hospitals pharmacy or where they kept the medicines and all that. Knowing that Hide is a pharmacist, we all looked at him and were like,

"Um, Hide, since you're a pharmacist, why don't you get us access?"

He didn't hesitate and went his way. It's weird because it's as if we're all trying our best not to get busted. For what? Why were we even there? Did we need something for the preggy Anna? I guess so.

He got us access and we all went into this room with all sorts of medicines. Hide seems to know what to get so he did all the work and we're all just roaming around. The room was really big.

And then the next thing I know, it's already evening and we were outside, at the sidewalk, away from the hospital and we're all talking. Here's the craziest part!!! Hide...

Hide just suddenly walked up to me and leaned his face to my face, I thought he was gonna whisper something on my ear but on my lips?!? Like whaaat? He whispered something but not on my ear but on my lips! So he whispered and kissed me gently? And he's smirking after what he'd done? JAIL JAIL JAIL Haaaaaa

***

And then I woke up.

That was really crazy dude. I mean, when I woke up from that dream I immediately touched my lips like, why did it feel real? Like something really landed on my lips. That just fueled my delusions.