#//AND APPARENTLY HE GETS EVEN WORSE
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//OH THIS SEASON IS ALREADY FUCKING ROUGH DUDE, IT'S FUCKING ROUGH
#misc :: ( ooc )#//season 19 is probably my favorite season so far (minus tweek x craig)#//and then i get 2 episodes into s20 and i'm on the verge of tears#//like i'm sTRAIGHT-UP NOT HAVING A GOOD TIME#//I HOPE GERALD DIES LIKE AAAACCCTTTUUUAAALLLLYYYYY#//LIKE ACTUALLY FR#//man just ruins the lives of dozens of elementary school kids and THRIVES off of it#//AND APPARENTLY HE GETS EVEN WORSE#//THEN I KNOW VAGUELY WHAT HAPPENS IN THE SEASON AFTER THIS ONE TOO#//AND GODDDDD...#//i really want to make it through so i can create my south park multi but oh my god this is R O U G H#//NOBODY'S LAUGHING!!!!!#//like tweek x craig devastated me but everything else about s19 was HILARIOUS#//this is just. i don'T THINK I'VE LAUGHED ONCE YET#//I WANNA BE DEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAADDDDDD#//the only good thing is craig with a knife#//and him being the one to start the carnage against cartman#//even though that in itself was hard bc it's just like... such a stark reminder that cartman is also A CHILD#//and he's INNOCENT in this case#//i just have a guilty pleasure for craig being violent but COME ON
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me: finally im able to cope with how much i hate totk and can fuel that energy into other things :)
nintendy: the shiekah tech just dissappeared and no one knows why or cares enough to investigate it lol. lmao. its gone bc the calamity is gone or something even tho it literally isnt bc ganondorf is right there haha lol, stop asking, why do you care. just forget it existed and look at that sexy goatman and glue instead!! glue! isnt that wild?? also its totally a direct, 100% same universe and exact same characters, despite them act totally out of character, sequel to botw-
#ganondoodles talks#ganondoodles rants#zelda#totk#im just fucking!!!! at my limit!!!!#what the fuck do you mean#the calamity is the equivalent of ganondorfs farts trying to wake himself up and you say lololo is gone so the techs gone#then why do some parts still exist huh???????#fuyking clowns#all the threads leading organically into another game WOOOP NOPE CUT THEM ALL WE DIDNT MEAN TO GIVE IT MEANING LOL#what is ancient energy and whys there a big concetration under these regions including hyrule castle? oh my god is it bc gan is there an-#NOPE forget we ever said that haha lol lmao even#can you really blame me for feeling like im being laughed at#like totk is mocking me bc i care about botw and thought theyd take up the interesting things they set up in it to expand upon???#and no instead they backpedal like oh no we accidentally made it seem interesting quick get the iron out we need to FLATTEN this bitch#and they keep making it WORSE by insisting that its totally 1000% a direct sequel#just fucking say its some alternative bullshit again#i am begging them to let soemone else direct the next game#bc when the guy makes accidentally good lore he needs to immedaitely flatten all the good stuff when it comes to a sequel apparently
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some of us are suffering barbussy drought and they dont even care smh
#im DYING. please i dont care <3#also really... another cliffhanger?#obey me nightbringer spoilers#obey me#obey me nightbringer#i need barbatos to be nightbringer just so he gets ANY screen time apparently#simeon's even worse off right now. i have zero trust tbh
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putting this all under a readmore and not tagging i just wanted to put my thoughts down somewhere .. talking about marius and his fans & tw for mentioning csa / sa
personally. i understand that the marius/armand relationship has been a popular part of the book series for decades and it's fictional and yes i get it. but. i dont understand those fans who encounter people who find it purely horrifying or upsetting and then get mad at them for it. just because of how it's framed in the books as a beautiful gothic love story (filtered through both the author's intention & the skewed perspectives of the two characters involved in it) doesn't mean EVERYONE has to romanticise it and it's only babies or idiots or show only fans who "can't handle gothic fiction".
and then the people who try to convince everyone marius is armand's saviour who only ever treated him with love and kindness really confuse me. like, is it a wholesome relationship built on mutual love? or is it abusive and awful AND loving and caring at the same time? aren't the people who deny marius did anything wrong to armand really the ones who can't stomach enjoying gothic romances and have to twist it into something else?
it's a story of a fully grown man, a millenia old vampire, rescuing a teenager from sex slavery by purchasing him for himself, renaming him, showering him with affection, sexually abusing him, genuinely loving him, treating him like a child and an adult and student and son and lover all at the same time, making his entire world revolve around his master, punishing him emotionally and eventually physically whenever he gets too clingy or aggressive. and it's all done, not under just the 'guise' of love, but from a place of genuine love, and that's how both characters see it. it's entirely damaging and fucked up and the aftereffects of it on armand's mind and sense of self are present for centuries, compounded by everything else he went through. he still draws both comfort and pain from thinking about his past now and even tries to partially recreate the dynamic with someone else both in the book (with daniel, armand taking the role of the master; and keeping young 'mortal slaves' for a time) and in the show (with louis, armand taking the role of the slave)
it is a super fucked up relationship & i'm not one of those people who thinks you shouldn't be allowed to enjoy those in fiction. there's a lot of them that appeal to me obviously, and of course everyone has their own boundaries when it comes to that too. AND i know it's not all marius fans or even all marius/armand fans. i literally don't care what people like in fiction and i think we should all just mind our own business honestly
but it's the people who act like they're the only ones who get that it's just a tragic beautiful romance, that nobody else can read apparently, that 'marius haters' are just looking for things to be mad at that make me go ???????
#or they get pissed at the show for apparently 'making him worse' but. he was already worse#nothing in my opinion in the show has stated 'yeah he was ONLY ever awful and abusive' because clearly A looks back on his time with M#with a kind of sad fondness and reverence. the main source of his pain is how it all ended#the show is just taking the pre existing abuse and making it more obvious to the audience the outside viewer#even if it isnt recognisable to the character. he makes a disctinction between the abuse he experienced in the brothel#and the 'worshipful mercy' of his master#he feels bitterness at the 'donations' but he also felt bitter at M sending him to the brothels to get him out of his hair basically#and then yknow. hes also punished and pushed away for enjoying that#clearly hurt and confused and upset because he doesn't know how to please his master and make him love him all the time#and M DOES love him above all#but sanitizing all of that and making out its NOTHING BUT a tragically romantic monster/human love story..... i dont understand it#im the same with DM yknow its horrifying and beautiful all at once#you have to commit to it if youre gonna enjoy relationships like that i think. embrace how horrible it all is
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just going about my day idly contemplating how some of the ways hawke can interact with a romanced anders are not at all unlike how they interact with leandra (and a bit of carver too, especially with a purple hawke), and then thought about my hawke in the timeline where he romances anders and was hit straight in the face with 'was he ever actually in love, or was he just desperately trying to renegotiate with his mother's ghost in any way he could' and now i need to lie down. this is the power of dragon age 2
#'you don't know my mother' haunting me through the years#dragon age#dragon age 2#hawke#On second thought let's not go to Kirkwall; it is a silly place#there are of course as many ways to do/read that relationship as there are players to interact with it haha and all valid!#but my personal version of handers is sooo fucked up and bad times for everyone involved and I love it haha.#this is a relationship neither of them should have been in and that made everything worse and everyone unhappy in the end#locked tomb levels of the horrors of love. i ship it but in the way that I want to make it sadder and more gutwrenching each time#to be clear this is a very mutual two-way kind of fucked up but I think varric in his loyalty and love would downplay hawke's side of it#for huge swathes of their relationship anders is not in a mental place to be a good partner and the emotional blackmail is Not Okay#(but it's just like how mother used to make it! hawke's soul cries sadly as it reaches for it hungrily)#which is in some ways fair enough no one could accuse him of not warning you ahead of time fjskda#but hawke is messy about it in a way only available to a covert people pleaser who has never had a millisecond of therapy#with some added stuff that my hawke is always acespec in some form and when he gets together with anders...#is the sex something he doesn't particularly care to have or not have but it 'makes anders happy'/he longs to feel wanted *and* needed#and also a way he gets out of ever being *actually* vulnerable (which I think he'd had to be with varric for example if he Went There )#'you want the hawke who's in your head so badly and I kind of wish I were that hawke too. so let's be collaborateurs with that fantasy'#(and then maybe if I do it right every time you'll finally be happy hawke says in his heart looking at this leandra-anders phantom form)#(and echoing stuff in varric's relationship to hawke but I think the important distinction there is that varric -- is a craftsman haha#he KNOWS when he's lying/making up a story he KNOWS the difference between what is and what he wishes the world was#(I think there's some deep longing there to not know; for it to blend together or have the power to change things. but he always knows)#which ironically leaves him in a better position to actually see and understand hawke the person#even as he is creating hawke the literary figure. almost to protect him in some ways? god da2 is so full of STUFF!!! I adore it)#and of course anders gets so disillusioned with hawke's inertia and lack of action (you all but married this man anders!#you should know this about him he's already carrying the whole family and city on his shoulders if you add a gram more he'll collapse!)#and hawke feels so desperately hurt that the promise anders seemed to make that he'd be enough -- that he could fix things for him --#('I'm the one bright light in kirkwall and that apparently doesn't count for shit so I'm just slowly turning to ash for you')#turned out to be untrue. anyway. sad now. imagine them meeting like twenty years on what the fuck could you even say to each other then#(I can't imagine Hawke ever physically hurting anyone he loves so he just tells Anders to leave at the end of DA2. they COULD meet again
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Went out to check in w/place we interviewed at. Had a breakdown in the fucking place. Person we needed to see wasn't there. Ended up feeling like a complete fool by the end of it. Had another breakdown heading home. Gonna try again at 9.
#sepiasys.txt#Ideally alone#Because yeah I'm FUCKING RIGHT. We can't do anything with bestie present. We can't mask! BECAUSE HE IS THERE!!#If I sense any chance of him looking at us; I can't keep the anxiety down enough.#Also confirmed we just get cold and shakey as fuck when we're secretly anxious. Apparently.#I get that buying smth would make it less awkward but thats if he comes with. If not even if I have deal with a line of ppl idc#aint buying shit ESPECIALLY if it turns out we weren't fit for the job because why the fuck would I do that?#I might try to get something online if need be idgaf {says someone who wont feel the same later}#It's just people. just people.#I think the most disheartening thing is hearing some dude say it was their first day here; idk what the context was for it#if thats a new hire tho then WHAT THE FUCK MAN!! DONT JUST FUCKING GHOST ME LIKE THIS SHIT!!!!!#I feel sick >:( Our roommates are gonna fucking hate me.#Also the way bestie acts; in retrospect it looks like he's trying to ignore me actively. But he also pushes me to lead. BITCH⁉️#YOU'RE NOT THAT KIND OF PERSON WHO NEEDS A FRIEND TO LEAD OR WHATEVER LIKE FUCK OFF WITH THAT‼️ I know ur tryna help but DUDE.#You literally make everything worse when you treat me like this because I can feel the expectations weigh on me. Because you have them.#It's like you're secretly watching and listening even if you're doing everything you can to NOT do it for my sake.
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im so normal about him.
#AAAAAAAAAA#AAAAAAHHHH#BARK BARK#GUYS#INEEDHIM#PLEASE#PLEKWKZJJWJSJJWS#he's so dilfy#One Chance please#jfc hes so fine#dave mustaine#megadeth#dang mustang#i love dave#i think my obsession is just getting worse#Is that even possible?#Apparently yes
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Vent in the tags....
#dont read if you dont want to know a bit too much about my issues#ok#i dont know how to feel self confidence as an academic#i dont know if it is a female academic thing or just grad school#but i really struggle with knowing if im good enough to do what i want to do#and i dont want to put anything on my advisor#he's very nice and very knowledgeable and well-respected in my field#and ive heard way worse from other people in my cohort about their advising relationship#but....his confidence in me comes in the form of being quietly sure I'll do well#like apparently i wrote one of the best exam answers he's ever seen for my qualifying exams#but he didnt tell me this#the department admin person told me this#my advisor was just like “good job you passed”#or him just saying repeatedly that i WILL get a prestigious fellowship#even long before i knew i did#i dont know what else to ask from this relationship or if it even is a him problem#but i don't know how to build my own confidence#i have no doubts in my project just whether im the person to do it
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K so, Semblances are connected to Aura which is a manifestation of the soul yeah?
In Before the Dawn, the father of the villains confirms that one of twin's semblance was active in the womb throughout a good portion of the pregnancy
Meaning, in Remnant, fetuses have souls. Wonder how legal abortions are
Edit: just remembered Pyrrha had to unlock Jaune's Aura in V1, so does that mean someone cracked open a fetus's Aura inside the womb? Was Gillian strong enough as a cluster of cells to unlock it herself?? Wtf is this origin story???
#rwde#I don't think myers wrote this w the angle of prolife propaganda but hoo boy did he not think this plot through#(tho idk his politics so he could have subconsciously done it. this is the doctor who moon abortion episode all over again)#btd sucked so bad but what keeps snagging in my brain is that the whole thing that kicked off the twins monarchy scheme -#- the crown birthmark born to one every generation - was apparently burned into gillian???#and its NEVER FOLLOWED UP ON#like kudos to FUCKING COCO OF ALL PEOPLE for commenting on her enemy being BRANDED but why is it just the one comment???#idk who I'd go for first: the father or the brother. who's ego is inflated enough to justify burning their own kin?#and why even do it? i dont think myers would write jax and gill to follow the royal tradition of bloodline purity-#-so they couldnt rule together right? why even bother marking her if the crown would always go to jax?#and why cant a single rwby villain have a scheme that makes sense to some degree?#jax wanting remnant to get a little bit genghis khan is so fucking stupid and baseless. where is the logic behind it?#the best villains either do heinous shit for shits and giggles or they genuinely do have a point but came to the wrong conclusion#thats why tyrian and watts are the only decent villains post v3. theyre both in it for themselves and unapologetic abt it#jax and gill are just annoying. go join a fight club and leave vacuo alone kthxbai#anyway thanks for attending another episode of rwby has shit world building and even worse implications#yodeling into the void
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am i the only one who wants to see alastor get smited next season like…. he needs to be dealt with
*Holds your hand while I tell you this*
Baby, he’s gonna be the center of everything next season. Vivienne Medrano confirmed it.
I’m so sorry.
#one of the reasons I’m not that enthusiastic about it#it’s apparently gonna be about him and Vox#or that’s the impression I’m getting#I don’t hate Alastor (I hate Vox) but I’ve already had enough of him in the show#he was such a let down and I’m betting you he’s gonna be even worse#he’s already way too much as well#like it’s kinda nuts how a character can be overwhelming and underwhelming at the same time#Hazbin hotel critical? idk
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got into yet another fight with my mom, again about voting/the election, she said that she’s only voted once in her life and never cares to again because she ‘doesn’t care about politics’, saying that shit almost proudly?? and it set me off for obvious reasons, then she got mad at me for saying it’s because she’s privileged and ‘most’ shit doesn’t affect her directly so she can afford ‘not to care’
#i’m so tired man#yeah because you’re a cis straight white woman#but what about your queer child?#what about other lgbtq+ people? you say you support them/us but apparently not enough if you don’t care to vote#and then she started on about how kamala is just as bad if not worse#bc she’s an easily influenced boomer and listens to other dumbfuck boomers#plus the internalized misogyny#i just can’t yall#i know some have it worse with their parent/family member being full on pro trump but this#is just so fucking frustrating#not to mention my bitch sister who within the past couple years moved to the midwest with her abusive bf & got knocked up twice#is suddenly loudly pro trump#the same woman who a mere handful of years ago was about to marry her trans girlfriend (whom she also dated before they realized they#were trans!!)#the same woman who has dated girls multiple times#and had more than a few abortions#like just because you now have two children and no longer interested in having abortions no women should have them?? fucking hypocrite#she just disgusts me#like did he beat the brain cells out of you or did all the heroin you used to do kill them#i’m sorry im just so fucking angry with her like i didn’t think i could get more pissed/upset with her#after she ‘indirectly’ killed my cats#which i will never ever forgive her for#but this is just extra on top#legit no longer acknowledge her as my sister - i now only have one vs the two i was raised with idfc im better off#i’m just tired#and it’s not even an ‘election time’ thing this is just … never gonna end/change huh#personal#tdl#vent
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Am I the only one who thinks that Eric Kripke is dragging out the Soldier Boy potential return just to get fans of Jensen Ackles to keep tuning in? Because I do. I did read online that Kripke apparently didn’t think much of Jensen during the whole Supernatural run, constantly suppressing Dean Winchester’s development just so he wouldn’t become better than Sam(now I’m a bit worried about the rumors concerning Kripke trying to get Jared Padalecki to come onto the show, especially if Jensen does return). Hope that’s wrong, but I could believe it too.
But I thought he at least respected Jensen a little bit more than to give him a stupid write off like that. Then I remembered what he did to Dean at the end of Supernatural.
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Here, *everyone* basically joins up to take out Soldier Boy. It kinda makes sense a bit for Butcher because of Ryan but he and Starlight have such beef against Homelander, I really don’t believe they would join forces with him instead for anything. And it’s partially Butchers own damn fault that Ryan is in Homelander’s grasp in the first place.
I also have to laugh that some people apparently honestly think that Soldier Boy is even worse than Homelander. Just saying.
Why do people think this? According to Screen Rant, it’s because he was unmoved when Homelander got attached due to his man-child mindset and even introduced him to Ryan. Oh and he called Homelander “a f*cking disappointment” and hurt his feelings. Also from the same article, “He’s Homelanders father! He shouldn’t be mean to him like that!” Um, no. Homelander was a test tube baby who was created from Soldier Boy’s DNA without his knowledge, it’s not like they had an actual relationship. 🙄
Homelander has killed lots of people simply because he can, he feels like it and to make himself look better. He has no regard for human life and views them as things or “other” while he sees himself as a god because of his powers.
On the other hand, Soldier Boy seems more oblivious to any casualties he’s responsible for even if he does have a flippant attitude “because it was war”. Plus from what we saw in the show, the two times that Soldier Boy kills lots of people, it was because of a PTSD triggered flashback and not on purpose. His Payback teammates are a different story considering the fact that they betrayed him and sold him to the USSR where he was tortured and experimented on for 40 years. And I say this even being fully aware of how much of a dick he was to them first. Soldier Boy is not an innocent but he’s not the worst either.
Also unlike Homelander, it does seem that Soldier Boy actually has some morals, honor and does hold up his side of the deals that he makes even when those he made the deal with turn on him instead. He was betrayed AGAIN and this time it was basically for no reason other than to write him off.
Quite frankly, Soldier Boy could’ve been utilized for so much more, but he was wasted as a character. And that is so disappointing. I mean what was the point of giving him a new ability that is established as being able to neutralize the powers of other supes if he was just gonna get frozen in storage again.
I’m sure I can run more, but I think I might end it there and edit later. 🤷♀️
EDIT 1: now I’ve seen theories that this is possiblely just the beginning of Soldier Boy’s “Winter Soldier” because season three was his “Captain America” phase. Hmmmmm….
#I kind of wish they didn’t go with the family route between those two#but get real#The worst villain is Homelander#And apparently he’s set to get even worse in season four#the boys#the boys discourse#my opinion#soldier boy#jensen ackles#eric kripke
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I feel kind of mean for laughing but I’m currently trying to figure out how specific Burning Maze puns can get before it ventures too far into spoiler territory
(Listen, just trust me, it’s worse the MoA for one fact that is very spoilers)
I now live in terror thanks for that
#the elf talks#pjo#me: I just want to read a fun nostalgic series and get tot he ones I never did#yall and Rick (apparently): Lol. lmao even.#don’t get me wrong I’m having a lot of fun but WHAT DO YOU MEAN WORSE
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THANK YOU OLI I don't get the season 8 hype. No Cas, Sam and Dean have the same conflict they've been having the entire show with no new angles like why????
YEAH LITERALLY. inital conflict is literally dean being angry at sam for trying to move on and heal which is just so intensely unlikeable and for some reason i was shocked by it and it made me genuinely dislike him. to me dean is at his most awful in s8..... like he's not. he's definitely not. gadreel possession in s9 and like most of s9/10 with the mark is much worse than anything he does in s8 and killing amy in s7 was sooo awful too. but dean is just so intensely a dick in s8 and i was so angry with him and not even in a fun way. like in s9/10 he is AWFUL but i enjoyed the drama. i didnt even enjoy the interpersonal drama in s8. which is when you know something is wrong
then again. im probably too harsh on it and am basing it off memories of sitting through the first half because i LOVE the trials and sacrifice and the great escapist so so much. and i love kevin <3 he's s8 right. but. to me s8 will always be the worst season. maybe i just hate what it brings to the shows canon. sam leaving dean for a girl and a dog (which is NOT EVEN WHAT HAPPENED... and if it WAS it wouldve been justified.... id support sam even if i thought he abandoned dean unprovoked idc.....) is constantly brought back like the worst of his sins even as late as like. s11. SHUT UP. first half of s8 is just upsetting for sam reasons and not in a fun way
#i was fully a dean hater for a while back in s8#i still love and support dean haters i just could never manage being one myself. god bless.#self recognition through the other (derogatory) but i would never pull his s8 shit at least#i just. HATE the whole. omg sam is in the wrong for trying to move on even though thats what he wanted dean to do while he was gone#and he thought its what dean would want because surely he would want sam to be happy (no he wanted sam to destroy his life looking for him)#and deans going to punish him for the evil crime of Wanting His Own Life and Getting Free and the narrative is also going to condemn him fo#this and its going to be treated like yet ANOTHER thing he needs to repent for. season four all over again except season four was really#fucking GOOD it was just emotionally devastating. s8 isnt even GOOD. the episodes were fucking boring half the time#tbf i also didnt like s6 very much because i hated the campbells being brought back so much i found it devastatingly boring#and apparently s6 and s8 are some of the most popular seasons. so. shrug#i preferred s10 a hell of a lot to both of them.. am i crazy..... s10 wasnt good but like. it was entertaining and i liked watching dean ge#worse and worse and it had rowena and claire and sure its thematically a mess but it was enjoyable to me. plus i liked the finale a lot#spn#s8#objectively i do actually think some of s8 is much better than anything else but emphasis on SOME#i find dean entirely uninteresting also when hes just Sooo sooooooooooo angry all the time unless its coming out in more interesting fucked#up possessiveness or hes actually killing people. so s8 dean was so boring#anyway. s8 haters of the world unite#asks#oliver talks
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also i do still love the idea of swapping claire and leon's re2 scenarios but i cannot help but think that the scene with sherry and chief irons would have been a LOTTT worse with leon instead of claire
#arry plays re2#like. the guy already barely held back with claire. he was fully ready to kill her if either her or sherry didn't do what he wanted#also the game takes place in 1998. i think he would have been a lot more liberal with the punches if it were leon instead#i think about this regularly actually. i don't know if the police uniform would make it better or worse for him#probably worse. idk from what i've seen from leon's campaign it does seem like he met irons before. probably when he got the job#idk if the recognition would do him much good though.#hm what to tag this.#idk if it necessarily warrants a tw?#idk re2 goes hard into the corruption and corporate greed side of things. idk about the original but its a HUGE part of the narrative#in the remake. i kinda wonder how much chris shared with claire about the events of the first gamw#probably not much. she seems pretty clueless about it all and he doesn't seem to have reached out to her like. at ALL#and neither has jill for that matter 🤔 oh man i gotta play re3 after this too#i know the remake for re3 wasn't that good apparently but there was something abt jill being suspended in that game#so she may not have seen chris' letter but i really don't know#iirc jill seemed pretty set on leaving the city too. she might have quit#which. i do Not blame her akdjskdjs i would quit too after that bullshit#anyways! :D good game so far. even with mr. x getting all up in my business#he can fuck off but like it was the only time i've been actually scared so far sodjskfjdknfd#i also love claire's little comments/insults towards the zombies akdjskfjsjf#'what the hell is up with you???' claire girl they're fucking dead#well. undead technically. still. that's what's up with them.#violence tw#yeah it does warrant the tw actually
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lmao looking at her insta highlights was a mistake
#i feel worse WHY DOES SHE HAVE TONED MUSCLES UGHHH#also my confidence has gone down a tiny bit bc why is she hanging out w all these cool ppl#how is this girl simultaneously a lawyer and also has her social life on max like give me a break#thered a photo of her walking around in heaven either before closing or after opening shes sooo#HOWEVER. i just had a call w her yesterday that made me realise my idea of romance is more romantic than her idea of romance#but also that she doesnt want to do smth super romancey on a 3rd date which according to my friends is fair but according to my heart#it is not. like why are u on a date if u dont wanna do anything romancey at that point just hang out w friends#odd of her to say that too considering our first two dated were quite romantic . anyway#yo this cafe is playing persian music nice. anyway yh#also she makes being middle eastern so gay yk the goodbye fake cheek kiss thing we do . where u like . kiss the air on the sides of the#persons face when ur saying goodbye. ygwim . yeah she doesnt do the fake air kisses she gives u two tender kisses like . anyway#i discussed the stuff she does w my friend and like why r her words so aloof and her actions so...not . and my friends reaction was#basically this is fuckboy behaviour. apparently he used to do that to girls ?? like tell them he rly liked them#and be all charming and romantic even tho he rly wasnt invested at all and he mostly wanted to hook up. like ok#im gonna kill myself then. why would u stroke my hair w my head on ur LAP THEN. WHAT IF SHE TURNS AROUND AND IS LIKE#oops it was nothing#....ill kms actually. no i womt. but anyway#also got added to the gc w the other lecturers givjng talks on the 6th so its getting more real#my friend was like did u do the script yet :))) . almost died shes so scary i love her . but . fuck two exams . crush. talk. ucl cambrdige#three conferences aaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAA im so anxious i dont even feel anything atp#......I HAVE NO MONEY!!! TO TOP IT OFF#my crush and i are both iranian (aka born w extremely expensive taste woven into our genes) but i wanna like#treat her w the entire 2 quid in my bank account ig ♡♡♡#crushposting
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