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you either die mae borowski or live long enough to see yourself become bea santello
#i’ve said this before somewhere but#thinking about this again today#called my friend for college for like an hour and we were both making dinner and doing the dishes and talking about how boring our lives are#i’m like if bea santello went to college but stopped after getting her AA and just started working and i actually mostly like my job!#but it’s still a job#and i don’t go out enough and do too many taxes and paperwork all the time and miss hanging out with my friends in college#like damn i really wanna hang out all night with like five of my homies again#but they live across the country so.#i guess i’ll just call them while i make dinner#god#it hurts haha#but i guess that means it’s worth something! as mae says#love u mae#love living#even when it hurts#maybe because it hurts#anyways#nitw#bea santello
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Look what we've become.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#Initially I wanted to do a 'Mutiny' quote to follow the 'Luck runs out' quote.#But the musical earworms demanded a different blood to be drawn. And I think it works just as well.#Alright. It's time to confess something. I really struggled with this comic. I didn't want to draw it. Then I didn't want to upload it.#Because I knew I would be here in the tags writing and backspacing for hours trying to articulate my thoughts.#I'm going to talk about death and grief in the tags today so this is your WARNING to look away if you aren't in a headspace for it.#Sometimes in media there are scenes and characters which land on topics so specific to your wounds that it reopens them all over again.#Because here's the truth. When you've known someone like this for nearly your whole life...it doesn't matter how bad the fight is.#You always think 'We'll always have time. One day this dust will settle and we'll rebuild the bridge.'#And then the fucker dies!!! He dies and suddenly there will never ever be time to repair the rift.#Someone you loved died thinking you hated them. And part of you did just a bit. But love and hate aren't mutually exclusive.#He's fucking dead and you are left with so many broken and unfinished pieces between the two of you.#Jiang Cheng loses Wei Wuxian thinking that WWX thought they hated each other.#He's a younger brother who will one day be older than the person he lost.#Who has no one else in the world who understands those feelings of love and hate and grief.#I can't be normal about this character. I don't think he even heals me. Zero catharsis to be gained here.#I just look at his sour grape ass and think 'shit that's a little too close to home.' JC is my discomfort character.#I'm probably going to regret being this vulnerable in the tags in like. An hour. So. sorry if you see this once and never again.#EDIT: Yeah sorry this took 4 hours to muster the courage to post. Surprise update!#EDIT 2: You guys were being too nice to me on my sad comic to point out the spelling error. I have fixed it now B'*)
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Angela Orosco Silent Hill 2
#in anticipation of the incoming remake#i tried my best to imitate the SH font but#silent hill#silent hill 2#angela#angela orosco#theme of laura (reprise)#i've said it before but in spite of its occasionally clunky diction i think silent hill 2 is an unusually emotionally intelligent game#for any year and still today but especially so for where gaming storytelling was in 2001#and for as many pitfalls a story like hers could've dipped into i think it particularly shines through with how they treated angela#not just choosing to depict victimhood as something that can be ugly and fractious and open quote “difficult” but then this#actively rebuffing james for trying to be a white knight and dressing him down for it too#“i know you mean well and want to help but this isn't a simple problem"#“and it's really hurtful and a bit insulting that you act like you can”#the switching to a first person view turning it into an address to the player as well#maybe even old videogame tropes too#“this isn't some princess in a castle kind of situation dude this is more serious than that”#it felt like a very deliberate statement about the depth and severity of a trauma like this#and in doing so showing it so much respect#there is no quick easy solution to this and you won't get one#then angela just leaves#and you never see her again#i really don't think it was to imply that it consumed her i think it was to underline what was just said#this isn't your problem to fix#this is where your part in this story ends#there's some strength in that
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one last dance, mr. holmes?
#I’ve had this roughly in my head all week drew to destress after today#I think Sherlock should be blindfolded next#I’ve already drawn that yeah well I’ll be thinking about it again#sherliam#yuukoku no moriarty#moriarty the patriot#yuumori#ynm sherlock holmes#liam James moriarty
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rage.
#welcome to today's episode of “me trying to draw 76 different emotions at once”#rage+grief???sorrow??? anguish?????#hmmmmmmm#definitely pain#and a hint of fear#no but like he's angry but there's sadness underneath you get what i'm saying#the kind of rage caused by something that left you traumatized and you just can't stop thinking about how unfair it was#like “i didn't deserve this nobody deserves this” kind of rage#well anyway#i don't even care about anatomy at this point#just let me see how much i can distort the face and still have it somewhat resemble the character#didn't mean to draw him crying again but my hand slipped oops#astarion#bg3#baldur's gate 3#bg3 astarion#baldurs gate 3#astarion fanart
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wait if he was a first year here and vil said he bulked up/grew bigger during the latest beanfest then...then what is this. is this not bulky enough what h..how big did he grow now that he's a third year..h-he grew bigger???? h-he gained more muscle now that he's older??? a-and he's still working out???? w-what do you mean wha..what i..i like...like he GREW BIGGER????????
BIGGER!??!??!??!?!!?!!??
#twisted wonderland#twst#pomefiore#rook hunt#i need to undomesticate him again vil we are not having this conversation today#YOU'RE JUST MAKING HIM BIGGER BY DOMESTICATING HIM#HIDING HIS BICEPS DID NOTHING HE'S JUST GONNA RIP IT OFF WITH ALL THAT MUSCLES#I DON'T EVEN WANNA THINK ABOUT HIS BACK MUSCLES#...fucK HOW HARD ARE HIS ABS NOW????????#IS THIS WHY HIS DORM PANTS LOOK LIKE LEGGINGS TO HIM????#I MEAN YEAH BUT THOSE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE LOOSE#ROOK THEY'RE SLACKS NOT LEGGINGS#OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHH WHAT A TWINK OHHHHHH WOW HAHA WHAT NOW HUH
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bowling doodles
next thing you know, he’s got a custom jersey and ball, a shelf of bowling trophies, and is on a local team.
i know that loid is supposed to be good at everything, but just once i’d like to see him pathetically fail at something despite his earnest efforts. every time i go bowling i am consistently surprised at how difficult it is.
#i went bowling with my classmates today#after today we’re all going our separate ways#because we’re graduating#and i’ll probably never see them again because most of us live in different countries#after they left i continued bowling alone for a while#thinking about how much i’m gonna miss them#i really care about those guys you know?#doodles#spy x family#sxf#loid forger#yor forger#anya forger
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Stories referenced:
Pentecost: Acts 2:15
Peter and John escape prison: Acts 5: 21-26
Peter escapes prison: Acts 12: 1-16
Paul and Barnabas worshipped: Acts 14: 11-18
Paul's fatal preaching: Acts 20: 7-12
Paul's rules-lawyering: Acts 26: 30-32
Paul's snakebite: Acts 28: 1-6
Paul turning his enemies against each other: Acts 23: 6-10
Philip's teleportation: Acts 8:39
#catholic things#lol#going through this during easter made it clear how much of a sitcom it was#and i was thinking about it again today#my vote's for paul's preaching#i almost had to throw in the moment where luke throws shade on athenians#'we all know that athenians are hipsters who are obsessed with whatever's new'#but it wasn't quite the same kind of thing as the others on the list
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Hey hey hey may 31th anon! How's 2024 going? ☆ヾ(*´▽`)ノ This year I have for you a leaked Sherlock season 5 image. Thinking of you!! And everyone!!
#may 31th anon#Hello hello hello friends!! How are you!!#I miss you all I miss tumblr I miss drawing these silly men#work was soooo boring today I was really happy that I got to draw John in a baby carrier afterwards (*´︶`*)#what have you been up to??#my job is very boring most of the time unfortunatly!! I want to have a new job a little bit but I also never want to have a job interview#ever again and also I might get a lamp this year (!) I have heard that someone has already printed out the lamp form#are you excited for good omens season 3??#I am!! I have also been watching a lot of x-files#(*´▽`*) we also have moths in the kitchen#I do not know what they are eating we have been storing all of our food in the fridge since last week but new moths keep coming#yesterday one flew out of the forks and spoon drawer#it's her kitchen now#I also got a mole removed#now instead of the mole I have a scar the exact same size an color of the mole#I have also been working on a longer comic project!! I think it will be ready to be shared this summer and I really hope you will like it#it's about the old dragon bros characters and their life with the princesses (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤#I'm having a lot of fun drawing again!!#I hope you're having fun too#also I had to write an email today and I had to attach a pdf file but it was upside down#I could not fix it#I just hit send
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the 'what i hate about a ship might be what someone loves about it' also applying to 'what i dislike about this story might be exactly what the author sought to do when writing it' etc etc sincerely a very tired english major proshipping maybe it's not queerbaiting maybe the ambiguity is the point. maybe it's meant to make you uncomfortable maybe the pacing is a meta narrative aspect. etc etc. also making me think of like. when i became an atheist i had to figure out what concepts of god i was disavowing and stories are like that too y'know? u have to Know you Know what was the intent/aim before you can fully disavow
thinking about how one of the core tenets of proshipping / being anti censorship is "you have to slow down, stop, think about what's actually happening (or not happening) in / because of the work of fiction, not judging it solely just by how you feel about it" but sometimes how rarely that gets transferred over in actually engaging with the text before labelling it as bad / unsatisfactory. this doesn't mean the text can't be 'bad' or dissatisfying, but... taking time to get there and remaining grounded, with the caveat "this isn't for me but that doesn't necessarily mean it's Bad™" y'know?
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i feel like i failed you.
#me? sobbing my eyes out about these two again? it's likelier than you think!#featuring an exercise in actually doing backgrounds and lighting for once! hooray!!#also i don't actually know what the official name of the track is yet. so let's just call it zack in sector 5 for now lol#gets the point across#ffvii#final fantasy vii#ffvii rebirth#zack fair#cloud strife#zakkura#my art <3#my music <3#phew.#this. uhh#took a while.#which is to say i started AND finished both the music and the art TODAY#do not recommend! don't be like me. take breaks lol#in my defense! i had an idea and i NEEDED to get it out of my body or else i would die. you know how it goes.#anyway uhh. enjoy!
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Reunion
#meadowart#in stars and time#isat spoilers#isat loop#isat siffrin#sifloop#i finished my second playthrough today#got 2hats obviously#and they made me ill again#couldn't stop thinking about their postgame meeting. i think it'd be pretty emotional at first. but once they processed everything they'd#just cling to each other and have a moment. maybe a long tender talk too#Sif looks different bc it's somewhat late postgame?? and i can't not think about Loop pointing out his change and feeling bitter because#they'll never get to change#(they will but they have to go through some thinking first okay)#hell yes i managed to load this#and even recovered the tags
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#my art#haikyuu#man. im thinking about them again today lads#(they say as if they dont think about them all day every day)
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must a book have ‘plot’ and ‘structure’ and ‘progression.’ is it not enough for characters to be in a place. and for that place to be really fucking weird.
#this post brought to you by. who else. lay me down. one day i will post about things that r not her but that day#is not today i fear#anyways today the concept of pacing knocks me down and kicks me in the ribs over and over and over again more news at 12.#ithink i’m having trouble bc the book starts out VERY fast paced for like the first 2-3 chapters (<- Agnes And The Awful Horrible No Good#Very Bad Day) but then REALLY slows down and stays slowed down from then on. idk i just need to find a way to either slow down the beginnin#or make the rest move faster eye think#wip: ghost story
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there is something about pathetic men that enchants and beguiles me
#vu talks shit#vu's talkin a lotta shit today#listen#listen to me#hear me out#there's this wizard#i CANNOT shut the FUCK UP ABOUT#finally stop thinking about him and youtube goes “btw here's something you may have missed about him” and now#NOW IM BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIN
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griddlehark modern pen pal au where they don’t know each other but are assigned as pen pals for those pen pal projects you get in middle school and it just turns into them sending each other hate mail and somehow they just keep going for several years, even though they dont rly have to
#smth about them yearning through letters???? sign me up#this was inspired by me sending a lot of letters at work today#n also inspired by my old pen pal ly (if u r readinf this i miss u sm)#the locked tomb#griddlehark#i kinda wanna write this but i have never written anything rly#maybe one day idk#harrowhark nonagesimus#gideon nav#gideon the ninth#bonus points if stop at some point because Emotions and then one day at a rly low point one of them sends a letter to the other#ans they just start up the whole thing again???#one day harrow would def be like im at this coffee shop at this time meet me if you want#and gideon would drive any distance to meet her or smth#and they r both like?????????? thats what you look like#and then they live happily ever after or smth#i might delete this later#also idk if that pen pal project thing is A Real Thing In Real Life#i think i mightve made it up
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