#// sorry for the babbling and oversharing

[txmxkis]

headache from holding in tears

[battlekilt]

'Ye Ole Lady'

— or "Old Durasteel Sides"

@rochenn

Cody's follow up to his love-letter to the Negotiator. This time, it the Resolute.

Somewhere in the distance, less so positioned to draw an eye, another Jedi Starcruiser crept on the edges of the ghastly tableau. Nevertheless, she too drew his attention, and even though she blended in with the pod of other cruisers, Cody knew her on sight. As always, his eyes tracked her, felt her name creep under his thoracic plate, until her name was echoed by the sound of his heart: The Resolute. An older starcruiser retrofitted to match the updated -class model specs, the Resolute was held in less esteem by others. Still, a formidable starcruiser that many Separatists loathed to meet in battle; they called her ‘Ole Durasteel Sides.’ Though, to her crew, she was just ‘Ye Ole Lady.’ She certainly had the right attitude to match such an indomitable Clone Legion, their Jedi Flag Officers, Clone Captain, and the flagship Battalion that shared the Legion’s numerical moniker—the 501st. Like many elderly women up in her years, the Resolute had an attitude. She was foul-tempered, contrary, and seemingly held grudges—be that enemy or ally. She always demanded the attention of her maintenance crews, and anyone else. From Jedi General and Commander, Admiral, Clone Captain, ARC Troopers, Medics, Infantry Troops, Support Crews, and culinary specialists—everyone helped maintain her. Never an envied starcruiser, The Resolute would never be the first choice to host any important guests of State. She may have lacked the Negotiator’s cyclical tankless water system and required her crew to be mindful of water rations, but the scrappy 501st Battalion felt at home with her and would proudly defend her honor. More than that, to the 501st Battalion and even the Legion at large, the Resolute was home. She reflected the tenacious grit, stubborn resolve, and ornery refusal to surrender the 501st had become known for. Though nothing glittering or gilded, she had been given a second chance, and proved her worth with every battle her flag waved victoriously over—just like her men: from her Jedi General down to her lowest Clone specialist. Though, others may cheer when the Negotiator led the charge into battle because of her technological prowess… They breathed a sigh of relief, when, at last, the Resolute sailed out of the great black night, for on her decks stood General Skywalker, Captain Rex, and the men of the 501st.

Yeah, I went hard on world-building lore behind these ships. And others! I indulged in playing with some facts about them, but it really helped serve to deepen the story I'm working to create. The ships are more than just objects and backdrops, they are characters—you can see the influence Star Trek had on me. They mean something to those who work on her, and those who live on her.

Cody's character development over the ships has been fascinating. He starts out with, "I know how the ship works, and how—IT—functions in the interest of the ARMY"; Oh the horror of his words to a Navy officer. To, "SHE! Last it all, OUR SHIP is a LADY!"

Admittedly, some of it has to do with an OC I created for a one-off reason, and is now a standard operating feature. Forsil becomes Cody's Navy dad and mentor, and really helps Cody understand not just the ship in the practical sense, but the sailors that work on it. It really helps Cody build a cohesive relationship between the Army and the Navy, the latter of whom, a well-established military in the Republic, kind of resents this baby Army coming up and stealing all their thunder. Also, muddy boots—MUDDY BOOTS! Grunts wash your boots ASAP. Ok, Cody understands that.

There's other lore that I've created, and in doing so I've setup future story lines about Cody and his great ship. It helps tell the experience of the Clones, the Navy sailors they work with, and also has developed a way for me to show Cody's experience. How he deals and processes things.

But, Cody has been a wonderful narrative operative for me to really extend the dynamic of the Troops and their starcruisers, but also an ARMY Clone coming to not just appreciate his navy cruiser, but come to love her, revere her...

And in time, mourn her.

[slutforsidewalks]

Having a real There, There by the wonder years moment

[pumpkzsafeplace]

bear and babbles 🧸ྀི⋆˚✿˖°

welcome to the first episode of bear and babbles!! we're both super duper excited for this new segmeant! leave any questions below, teheh! ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა.

key code │ 🧸 - daddy │ 🍼 - pumpkin.

what is bear & babbles!

bear & babbles is a cute thing that we decided to create to help talk about agere in a safe environment! we will be answering questions (both me & daddy!) and answering some emails!!

i think it'll be fun to see both point of views too, from a little (and someone who struggles with mental health) + a caregiver whose been in the role for a while now.

all emails will be addressed anonymously, please don't include real names!

today's email: opening up

This email is centered around opening up to other people. They are new to the agere & little community & they want a cg and little friends, but the thought of opening up & being vunerable makes them really uncomfortable. Can we give them some advice? send ur own email: lil_bee_bambi @ hotmail.com (no spaces).

˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗

🍼 : i'm sorry that you're feeling like that :< i know exactly how it feels though, honestly! even now, after being with daddy for 4 years I struggle with vunerability & opening up about things. i'd suggest that you go at a slow pace, don't overwhelme yourself & don't try and do everything at once.

remember that everyone's regression journey is different, you can go at your own pace and fit in things that make your regression a little eaiser. for example, if you do get a caregiver but still feel a little shy at opening up about things- then you can create code words with one another, so that both of you know 'in your own private language' how you both feel in that moment, same with friends.

i'd also make sure to positively re-inforce everything that you're doing, all the small steps your making. for example, if you make a little friend application or cg one and then turn your phone off for the rest of the night and treat yourself to a tv show you like, or hobbies you enjoy.

things can be really daunting at first, but you can make those leaps for yourself, i promise <3.

🧸 : I think Opening up to new people is a must in life, as much as I struggle with it myself. I find that I can do so but Once I've found someone I'm happy to be around I close up a lot more as I'd rather nurture and protect my positive connections than try to find more connections.

It can be a thin line to walk as you shouldn't overshare or brick wall people; but the only way to figure it out is to do it. Even if you come across awkward or struggle with it, the people who actually matter in your life will always stick along with you as you learn and grow. I believe in fate and that you'll form those connections you're destined to as long as you do everything in your power to do so (Not in desperation but in curiosity).

Basically just be you, I know its cheesy but its true. When I first met Pumpkin I was so awkward it hurts to think about, but they stuck around with me as I grew and learned how to be myself more, which has built my confidence immeasurably.

˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗

i hoped this helped!! <3

if you want to send an email for us to respond to, or if you have any quick fire questions you wanted answered more in depth, leave a comment or send an email using the address below!!

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[kaurwreck]

omg i’m the one who sent the ask about the headcanons and it literally never occurred to me that any of what i said could be taken in a bad way 😭 i just meant ‘against my will’ as in like the same way you may react to a vaguely disgusting but extremely interesting tidbit about a deep sea creature, like kunikida being a raging misogynist!! + i said ‘oversharing’ to like reassure that i really enjoyed reading all of the tidbits u add to posts but i see now that i didn’t rlly make that clear mb :(

Thank you for clarifying! I'm sorry for taking you in bad faith; I misunderstood "against my will" as a reference to my chatter in reblogs and the tags, and "oversharing" to mean that I posted too frequently.

I have an itty bitty follower count and try to engage productively and meaningfully, but I tend to garner strong reactions in fandom spaces, so I've become defensive. That's not constructive to the sort of relationship I want to have with media, literary analysis, or fandom, so this was a good reminder that I shouldn't jump to conclusions.

Thank you for reaching out and for your kind words! I enjoyed answering your ask a lot, and I appreciate your interest in my headcanons. I wouldn't have shared them without you offering me the space to feel comfortable doing so, and I've been aching to babble about some of those.

[clownnotes-png]

hii i’m not sure if you r still doing the genshin cg pairings and I also don’t remember if I sent one in a while ago, but here’s my req to be matched :3

my name is lagoon, I regress from 1-4 years old, i’m a virgo(aug 24th). I mostly regress around bedtime so I don’t really do much aside from snuggle with stuffies, watch cartoons, scroll on my phone, and maybe read a children’s book or color if i’m feeling big enough.

i’m mostly non/semi verbal, usually just sleepy and giggly or wanting cuddled and babied. I don’t do good with loud noises or brighter things, most of the time I lean towards softer “sad beige baby” colors or muted pastels because they're easier on my eyes when small.

I don’t rlly care who u pair me with but i’d prefer a m!char or someone from liyue/fontaine/sumeru if that’s doable >_<

srry if this was a lot of info I have a tendency 2 over share by accident bc i’m autistic, but I hope this was enough to use !!

-sincerely, fishie(🐠) anon :3

HIII you have sent one in before sorry it took me like 3 years to get to it (it was actually next now that I’m. Actually writing again) ALSO dw !! I overshare like sm too, frequently gotta cutdown my yapping :/

ANYWHO

I match you with…!

Caregiver Freminet !

Freminet is a very quiet person and would understand if you can’t or don’t want to talk/babble! He would love to read or color with you and would happily snuggle with you and your stuffies!

If you’re not big enough to read on your own Freminet would help you choose a book and gather some of your stuffies and you around in a circle and have “reading time” with you! He also always keeps the lights dimmed so they don’t hurt your eyes - it’s also a pro for him since it reminds him of the depths of fontaines seas.

Fremi has all of your favorite cartoons saved in his watchlists on streaming platforms so it’s easy to get to them and turn them on! He also has a small wheel in case you hit decision paralysis on deciding which show to watch.

Bedtime with him is so comfy, he stacks all of your stuffies around and dims all the lights (except a nightlight if you need/want one <3) and tucks the sheets a bit under you so you’re snug as a bug :)

[pudgy-st-barts]

*I react to Petey putting her hand on my leg with a smile.* I think I've always kind of known. I mean, I like guys too. I just think people are beautiful, you know? And sexy. There's a lot to appreciate in everyone. How... How about you?

She smiles back and slinks right up against Anon, putting an arm around her waist again.

Yeah! That's how I feel, but I just never really, never thought of it as something I was allowed to act on? I thought I was only supposed to look at boys and I felt weird looking at Victoria's Secret stuff for reasons I just didn't get. Until this year, I guess. I dunno. Since Swamp Day, I've just been... thinking about stuff. Thinking about what I want, and how much I should do to, to have it. OMG, I'm babbling again I'm sorry.

Her free hand goes to half-cover her face, burying her head against Anon's shoulder. Overshare much, Pete?

[avatardoggo]

you hurt me and hurt me and hurt me and ask why i don’t talk to you. you take my sanity and innocence and heart and stomp on it and ask me who made me the way i am. i can’t explain these things to you. you don’t listen. you. don’t. listen. im not your anything and i wish that meant you expected something small from me but no. it means you expect more. im just a redundant photo copy that you don’t believe to be original enough to stand on my own. i’ll never be my own person to you and that’s why you hold on to me. i was your mindless chess piece until i grew a mind and heart of my own. and now you want me back the way i was before. before i realized how you hurt me and used my insecurities against me. but i can’t. i won’t. it’s only about you and how you feel. only you can to beat down on me and crush me until i can no longer fight back. and now, im all apart. you tear me to shreds and ask how it happen. you turned me into a ticking time bomb and ask why i exploded. you ask, “what happened? who did this to you?” and the answer is you. you’re what happened. its always you.

[i-am-the-balancing-point]

uuuuhhhhhh because this has been the vibe for sixty-four-million years the past weeks

my therapist has literally ordered me to hit the fucking breaks actually she told me she’d tell other people to go to the hospital in this state but she knows I refuse that bc I know it would make everything even worse and me actually su*cidal lol and do things that at least give me a little serotonin instead so… expect a lot of music in the coming days I guess? also, I’m always up for video chats/playing cards against humanity/other fun online party games with mutuals since those are rly making my heart and brain go brrrr (I have so little social interaction atm it’s depressing. and I want to spend time with you, my beloveds of course) and now I’m pretty much always available since I had to put uni stuff on the back burner so pls shoot me a message if you wanna ♡

[dante1138]

Sunshine :33 🌻

sunshine - what’s the nicest compliment you’ve ever gotten?

Ok this one is hard. Because my dumb brain physically will not let me remember compliments, only insults and compliments that rubbed me the wrong way (someone called me a manic pixie dream girl 2 years ago and it haunts me to this day). But I think I'm torn between my piano teacher comparing anything I create with tim burton and Danny elfman or when someone really close to me told me that they trusted me more than anyone else. That one...really stuck with me.

[soup-fish]

Me hovering over a message bar for the 12th time that day: Initiate human intereaction or stay safe from rejection...

[kalofi]

get some rest! sleep!! hydrate and eat well!!! you gotta do those things!! you gotta!!!!

haha, yeah! im trying

i only get about 3-4 hours of sleep a night and i usually dont even eat breakfast cause otherwise i’ll miss the bus. and if i wake up any earlier then i’ll only get like two hours of sleep haha 

im just getting progressively more exhausted everyday and i dont know what to do. it feels like my body is shutting down on me. i haven’t even been alive two decades dude!!! and yet i feel like im completely worn down

its just…

ugh

[grumpycakes]

-lays down- just woke up to mom calling me cause the dog grooming place called her, realizing that I’d missed their drop off time. And I called and got them in for next week, and it’d been crazy that they’d had an opening for today when I called them yesterday anyway. But I’m struggling rn, since I just woke up, with not spiraling into my pattern of self loathing cause I didn’t wake up on time. And I’m trying to tell myself it’s okay and be nice to myself but it feels like I shouldn’t cause I messed something up. But the dogs are still gonna get their hair cut.

bluh I’m even realizing that I’d forgotten by the time I went to bed cause I didn’t set my alarm with enough time to get up and get them there

my brain is mean to me :C

[jencala]

You've said a few times in the last week there is another upcoming story you're going to post. Did I miss it? Is it just not posted yet? Not trying to rush you, but just want to make sure I read it. I love your writing.

Thank you for reading my writing, Nonny, and for looking out for my next update or fic.  The easiest way to find out other than Tumblr where I pimp it all out with no shame is to subscribe to my Ao3.  It will notify you whenever I post something.

I did have plans to have the very overdue birthday fic for @blitheringmcgonagall posted a couple of days agoactually and it’s almost done, but life has been insane.   My life is usually hectic enough with my boys, my business, and my other personal commitments including the fact I volunteer at my boy’s school three times a week.  But things go from crazy to absolutely insane quickly around here.  

Let me give you an idea of my week:  A Sheriff’s deputy just left my house after taking a report. 

Why, you may ask?  Well, my 9-year-old son with Autism was assaulted by a teacher in his classroom yesterday.  Yup, you heard right.  This substitute teacher was apparently not aware of my son’s emotional outbursts when he gets frustrated as his regular teacher is.  He became frustrated with a math problem and was making noises out of frustration.  Instead of reprimanding him quietly she yells at him.  When it makes him more frustrated she yells again.  He starts to cry because he’s nine and has Autism and a teacher is yelling at him.  She continues to yell. So what does this piece of shit of a human do at this point when she has a sobbing child on her hands because she’s continuously yelling at him?  

She grabs him by the wrist roughly and yanks him out of his desk, says “Get your problems out of my class” and drags him physically to the class next door. Let me repeat.  She physically grabbed him and dragged him.  

LONG story short, the principal was immediately notified because this Mama doesn’t play and I called the Sheriff’s office to see what my options were.  There are 23 witnesses to this.  This bitch will pay for laying her hands on my child.

So that’s a hell of a lot more detail than you asked for, but my brain is on overdrive and I’m trying to relax and get my mind back into fic-writing mode, but it’s all over the place right now.  

My conscience is killing me because this birthday fic is so overdue and I have so many other projects screaming for my attention, but my life is insane and my kids have to come first.  So it will get posted soon, but I can’t make any promises on how soon.  

 Thanks for the ask, love, and I hope your week is going better than mine! ;-)

[decaflondonfog]

when you’re already having /a day/ and your MIL makes a not-so-subtle snarky comment about her lack of grandchildren as if that’s your problem

[cherry-flavoured-thot]

C-Can I get some soft hcs of Venti? 🥺

Venti: 

-Drunk! Venti who rambles on about his s/o until his words are incoherent babble or are now in the form of an impromptu song, that goes on about about all the little things he loves about them and on occasion overshares.  

-But when he sobers up the next morning and his s/o mentions it, he purposefully misremembers all of the nice lyrics he sang about them and instead it’s more oversharing and full of things that are going to make his s/o go red in the face. 

-If hungover/or still slightly drunk Venti gets a hold of his s/o he’s not letting go, sorry, his clinging onto them and not letting go, and if he passes out his grip just tightens, while murmuring something about not wanting them to go anywhere as he drifts off. 

-”If I give you a kiss will you buy this for me?” “No get a job.” “Okay but hear me out what about two kisses?” “Tempting.” He doesn’t actually want s/o to buy him anything, so when he offers up the promised kisses and if they decide not to buy him anything he isn’t actually that upset but he likes over reacting to see what they do. 

-”I carry my lyre in one hand but my other is empty, perhaps you could give me something to hold?” He absolutely knows that this is a dorky way to ask if he can hold his s/o’s hand but the way they laugh with a shake of their head while moving to hold his hand, is just as important to him as actually being able to hold their hand.