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I love binge reading ed related stuff,

I probably read all fanfics that even contain the slightest mention of eating disorders for every fandom I'm in💀

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Hey anyone interested in becoming ed Twitter moots??? Drop your @ in the comments and I'll follow you!! :D

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MAGIC SPELL EVERYONE

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Reblog to lose 7 pounds in a week

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Reblog to weight less than yesterday

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Not my mom flexing on me that she can fit into child clothes 💀

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I swear, my friend keeps telling me that I would loose more weight if I were to be on a normal diet and not starve myself

Like

Bitch

If I eat 200 cals a day

Rather than a thousand

Then I'm obviously gonna loose more

Bruh

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I wasn't really open with sharing this. But hey, sometimes we gotta do stuff we don't want. Get out of our comfort zone. And I have to share this somewhere, because my friends wouldn't get it.

So, about a year ago I went into recovery. So my friends wouldn't have to worry, and I wanted to enjoy life again.

But I was doing it alone, it didn't really do anything besides make me take on weight. Well, at some point I accepted my body, even though I was starting to get overweight. I felt good, and I stopped weighting myself.

But some time ago I stepped on the scale, because one of my favorite pants didn't fit me anymore, so I wanted to know how much weight I gained. It was much. 20kg.

At that moment my whole "I'm recovering" mind set crashed. I started planning how to get back into all of this.

I fully relapsed, not even a week passed and I lost 2,5 kg. I'm proud of myself but I'm sad at the same time. I destroyed a whole year of 'getting better'.

But I wasn't really getting better was I? A forced recovery with no mental support won't work at all.

Well, I hope I can get rid of those 20kg as soon as possible and wear all my fav clothes again, with no fear of them being to small.

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Name a food and I won't eat it for a month!

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Who do you want to be?

It's your choice.

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Today's breakfast!! :3

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Im trying to get back into eating less

Because I ate more and exercised, but now I don't have time to do so, so I have to lower my calorie intake,

My daily cal intake should be 1600

And I'm on 1000

Where I ate 1600 and burned 600

So overall, I think it's pretty okay

I'm trying to not be harsh on myself because it'll demotivate me otherwise and I'll end up in a binge - restrict cycle.

Remember! Don't be so hard on yourselfs, everyone messes up from time to time.

The point is to not give up! Just believe in yourself!!! 💖💖

We can reach our ugw!! I believe in all of you:)

(I might be drunk typing this but who cares at this point)

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Shout out to the time I made a hit post

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I think I'm starving depressed artist and summertime drunkorexic lol

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Once when I was at my absolute worst a friend of mine went to grab me and she wrapped her entire hand around my upper arm.

Isn’t that beautiful? To be so holdable?

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I need to be better then them

I need to achieve perfection

I need to show them that I'm capable of loosing weight

I'll prove that my ed is valid

I can do it.

I believe in myself.

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Sometimes I wish I had a good relationship with food,

But then I remembered that I would end up fat and disgusting.

So I'd rather stay disordered but skinny 🤞🏻