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the rock

I am kicking a rock down the street

metaphorically

literally

watching the world fall in love

be in love, find love

love

but I am stuck on the street

kicking the rock I’ve kicked

and kicked

and kicked…

wondering if I’ll ever get to get off the road

if I’ll ever find a side street

connected to the road

wondering if the rock will ever lead me

to someone

maybe I’ll meet someone who’s also kicking a rock

as I walk and walk and walk

and maybe we can kick our rocks together

forever

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I was never meant to be alone

which makes being alone that much harder

I crave people

and family

and overall, love

I was never meant to be alone

but I haven’t got a clue how to change that.

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I feel stuck,

tethered to you and

still completely

removed from you

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and suddenly I’m thirteen again

and the world feels too big

and me too small

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I don’t think it doesn’t make sense.

I think it makes more sense

than anything I’ve ever tried

to make sense of.

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Yeah, it doesn't hurt anymore

but the point is,

it did hurt, 

and I refuse to

purposefully misremember

to help you feel better

about the way you treated

me

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I could swear my name sounds sweeter coming from your lips confirm my theory and speak it again and again and again

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healing feels too much like breaking

I don’t want to face it anymore

at least when I pretend it’s okay

it feels like nothing

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maybe I am unrealistic

too optimistic and in love with the idea of love

but I can’t imagine love without magic

and honestly, I believe it exists

I’ll let you know when I find it

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being in love with you

was never what I planned to be

but here I am

and I’m starting to realize that I cannot escape

no matter how hard I try

my heart is yours

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and if I don’t reach out first

would you forget me

the silence is starting to feel

like you would

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maybe you were meant to be in my life

in a way peripheral way

you’re nearby

I can see you

you’re just not directly present

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in my dreams

I lay my head upon your chest

and we sit in comfortable silence

the thumping of your heart

and my content smile

screaming to the dream world

that I love you

and you return the affection

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the persistent press of loneliness

on my chest, in my heart

causing the sobs to come out broken

and the tears suffocating

mourning, grieving

the time I felt whole

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It’s weird,

catching up to the reality

there was never anything

wrong with me

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