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days 2 and 3 because I forgot to post yesterday and it’s now 5 am here 😭

2: I’m 5’5” and yes I love my height! I’ve been this tall since I was 12 lol so I don’t really have any complaints, it’s average and at my LW was distributed really well

3: I’m not comfortable posting myself here bc you never know who could be lurking 😭 but my thinspo is genuinely what I looked like at 170 I was so strong and fit I’d do anything to be that weight again

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me scrolling on ed tumbler and edtwt at 3am

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LMAO ME

LMFAO

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i need to be air with a personality.

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A Ballerina’s D13t.

What Maria Khoreva, Scout Forsythe and Theresa Farrell eat in a day.

Maria Khoreva

A Vaganova Ballet Academy trained ballet prodigy, who is currently a first soloist with the Mariinsky Theater at just 24 years old.

What she likes:

First thing in the morning:

- lots of water, she prefers sparkling

Breakfast:

- oatmeal with cottage cheese, black currants and honey

- small slice of sourdough bread and 1 slice of hard cheese

- espresso macchiato

Lunch:

- air fried salmon

- salad with cucumber, tomato, half an avocado, pomegranate, sesame seeds, olive oil, balsamic vinegar

Dinner:

- 1 boiled egg with steamed broccoli

- high protein yogurt with 1/4 mango

Before bed:

- 1 glass of milk from time to time

According to ChatGPT the net c4ls are 400 for breakfast, 478 for lunch, 255 for dinner, so 1133 in total (minus the c4ls burned through 8 hours of exercise daily).

Scout Forsythe

Part of the Corps the Ballet with the American Ballet Theatre (ABT).

What she likes:

First thing in the morning:

- water

Breakfast:

- 1 slice of sourdough bread

- 1 poached egg

- 1/2 avocado

Snack:

- 1 apple (or another fruit)

- water with keltic seasalt (to help with digestion and electrolyte balance)

she avoids processed snacks like granola bars

Lunch:

- broth biased veggie soup or salad (easy on the stomach in between rehearsals)

Backup Snack if necessary:

- a few pieces of puffy hippeas

Dinner:

- pan-seared salmon

- roasted veggies

- kale salad

- kombucha

Dessert:

- she’s not a dessert person but if she wants something sweet she’ll go for something fruit based like a chocolate covered strawberry or a caramelised apple

After 8pm it’s only water for her.

ChatGPT’s verdict: 270 for breakfast, 80 for the first snack, 125 for lunch, 45 for the second snack, 510 for dinner, additional 50-80 if she has dessert, so 1080-1110 in total. Again, keep in mind that she’s an athlete.

Theresa Farrell

Co-founder of and dancer with the American Contemporary Ballet Los Angeles.

5’7”, 114lbs.

(This one’s for the junk0r3xics lol)

What she likes:

She eats 1600 c4ls a day to loose 1 lbs a week with about 8h of intense ballet classes and occasionally a 1 - 2 hour morning hike before that. According to herself, she burns 800-900 c4ls a day through her training.

Breakfast:

- turkey corndog

- stuffed pepper with turkey and rice

Snack 1:

- 1 clementine

- protein shake

Lunch:

- chicken curry pasta

Snack 2:

- granola bar

Dinner:

- cobb salad

Dessert:

- cereal

She mostly eats pre-packaged foods as they’re easily trackable.

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veronica mars/y2k inspo

because I just started watching this show and I’m literally obsessed also her outfits are so pretty like omg I wanna be her she’s so cool

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Girl please you did not gain 40 pounds of muscle 😭 that’s DIFFICULT did you lift or smth??

god no I definitely don’t think it was that much 😭 I didn’t lift but I gained about 20 pounds after my lw bc I did colorguard in high school and would spend 4 days out of the week tossing a six foot flag in the air and teaching choreo and practice on my own time bc I was captain

lowkey needed that wake up call though ty 😭 the weight gain happened literally exponentially after I started taking my birth control everyday :/ I hate myself for letting a relationship derail my body but I can’t wait for progress I don’t even feel like me :/

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active nov 2024 💖

hi pookies 🫶 I’m going to be doing this 30 day challenge to keep myself motivated towards my goal hehe

⭐️height: 5’ 5”

⭐️SW: 218 lbs

⭐️LW: 170 lbs

⭐️HW: 255.5 lbs

⭐️CW: 254.9 lbs

GW: 195 lbs / UGW: 150 lbs

W-H-T: 50 in-54 in-31.5 in

while there’s like a significant amount of gain btw my sw and cw, I look completely different than I did at my sw so I know that it’s muscle to an extent but I look so disgusting

as much as I don’t like my cellulite or the shape of my thighs at least my bottom half looks good my top half looks absolutely disgusting I can’t wait for progress

upside is I lost a half pound!

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me today fr

when ur using a c4l0r!e c0unt!ng app and you stay 800+ below the lowest goal you can set it to

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11/19 food log

hey pookies 🫶 here’s todays food and exercise log bc I’m really tired and want to crash for awhile

breakfast

healthy choice meatball marinara 280 cals

celcius blueberry lemonade packet 10 cals

benefiber 30 cals

lunch

healthy choice beef and broccoli 270 cals

ice cream sandwich 130 cals

dinner

steak and potatoes meal prep 346 cals

asparagus 2/5 cup 18 cal

exercise

walk to and from class 4000 steps

ab workout

total cals

1084 - 346 = 738 🧘🏽‍♀️

I’d call that a success 🕺🏻💅

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♡ My ultimate anti binge and getting through fasts advice. The order doesnt mean smth is more or less important. Mwah.

1) Water. Even if u hear this a lot, water is what u literally going to need for this. And im talking about actually getting ur water in, through out the day and not randomly remembering to drink it at 10pm. It doesnt have to be a torture, it shouldnt be! Get urself a cute water bottle, add some ice if u like and take small sips.

2) Sleep. And in the best way possible, i mean that u can use sleep literally as a distraction, to pass the time. Whenever u feel like those food thoughts are becoming too much, get under ur covers and sleep it off. Many times i did that and woke up, not feeling hungry anymore. And also, sleep itself does really help with weightloss, u will also feel less tired through out the day if u get nice sleep ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১

3) Mints! Chewing zero sugar mint gum is a must. If that becomes too boring for u u can try the zero sugar flavored ones, my fav is raspberry or watermelon. U can also try to brush ur teeth whenever u feel like binging or eating when u shouldnt. Having that mint feeling in ur mouth often makes u want to not ruin it.

4) Distractions. Choose smth to distract urself, smth that actually takes a lot of time and doesnt make u think about food. Theres so many things u could do instead of being so bored u feel like u have to eat. Has to be smth u enjoy doing, for me its usually cleaning/organising, not only my room but around the house, watching movies and shows, saving pins on pinterest, organising my phone, making wishlists, playing games, and my fav one - talking to ppl on the phone or irl, so i dont want to interrupt it and i wouldnt want them to hear/see me eating.

5) Motivation. U wont do it if ur not motivated. Keep urself aware of how u look, try on clothes that u havr and see which ones are too small, and use this to motivate urself to fit in them. Think about how different everything could be for u in a couple of months if u stay strong now, and compare the situations if u fail. Write a list of things ur doing this for. I personally like to also have a hidden th3nsp folder, and i go back to look at the photos everytime i feel unmotivated and weak.

6) Dont jump into a fast too quickly. For example, if u ate a lot one day, and u decide to start a fast right away, it can make u fail pretty fast. Try to slowly make ur body more used to it, eat 100-200 cals less each day and THEN prepare to start a fast. So many times i made that mistake - started a fast out of nowhere, and my body was just too shocked, so i was way more hungry.

7) Wear a lip product. This might not be the most helpful one, but its just a small tip that works for me. Choose a lip product, bonus points if its scented or has a minty, cooling effect, and wear it. It makes me not want to ruin my lips and i usually choose not to eat when i have it on. Best combination is mint gum and this!

8) Zero drinks. We all know this, so i wont write too much, but zero drinks are usually my choice when i feel like i need smth with flavor, but i dont want any calories in. U have many to choose from.

9) Choose volume eating on the days u eat - instead of eating smth very small that has 300 cals, eat more but with less calories. This way u will feel better, and most likely wont eat even more. (Salads and fruits are heaven sent in that situation.) Always look for smth to switch to a less fat version, it isnt as hard as it seems.

10) Be patient. This is hard for me cuz im such an impatient person and if i could, i would want everything the same hour i start. But why did i make this point? Because if it feels pointless, like its not working, working to slow, just wait a month. U would be shocked how much u can change in just a month.

11) Doing lighter exercise while fasting. Ur already doing enough by fasting, so on those days dont torture urself with very long heavy exercise, even tho ik its tempting, i used to do it, but i would just end up feeling super shaky. U can workout more on the days ur restricting.

12) Parents that force dinners on u - I used to struggle a lot with that. Im older now, so no one can rlly tell me what to do. But i say, if ur parents make u sit down and eat dinner with them, try to make it ur omad. Nothing is really ,,ruined", if u dont think it is and dont start eating even more after, of course.

13) Rewards 🎀 Not food! But u can always set a bunch of goals and reward urself for them, it feels way nicer to do when u have to wait for smth and work for it. Choose a gift for urself and get it when u achieve a specific weight. U can have smaller ones for the small goals and choose smth bigger/more expensive when u hit a bigger goal.

14) Buying one piece of clothing thats too small for u. I had one, even a couple, and it was the greatest motivation ever. It was with my own money, and i felt so pathetic for thinking its too much work for me to just push myself and finally fit into that tiny top.

15) Keeping a journal. I usually do that in my phone notes and lock it. It helps u, u can always look back at it, learn from ur past mistakes and prevent urself from making them again. It can also motivate u! For example i wrote i was unhappy on my bday party cuz i felt too big. That motivated me to look way better on the next one, luckily a long time before the event.

16) Keep one thing in ur head, always - Food is not going to run away, it will be here. The cake ur mom bought, is not the last one u will ever see again, same with ur fav snacks someone brought home. The only thing running away from u is the years u spend unhappy, cause u keep giving in.

Good ♡ Luck !

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weighed myself today and I was fucking 255 I can’t believe my lowest weight was 170 I wanna cry

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sk!nny meal prep!

total: 67 dollars

pros: got light/low fat where I could, veggies and whole foods

cons: processed meat in sausage patties, I got the ice cream sandwiches and apple chips to portion out a tiny sweet treat 🧘🏽‍♀️

meals [for 2 weeks]

breakfast

chia seed Greek yogurt parfait (already have most of the ingredients at home)

maple sausage biscuits

lunch - healthy choice frozen meals

dinner

steak, asparagus, mashed potatoes with cheese

terryiaki chicken with veggie stir fry

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things i want to lose: we!ght

things i lost: basic human rights

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craving something sweet?

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11/18 food log/ana blurb

*psa I totally have adhd*

1 pm - Starbucks grilled cheese and chocolate croissant (total 820 cals) peach monster (10 cals) - I usually get the egg bites but I was so hungry 😭

6:30 pm - 2 small white chocolate macadamia nut cookies

since I skipped breakfast and have only had two small cookies since this afternoon I’m probably going to have a small frozen meal (the healthy choice options are literally my favorite there’s so many options and a lot of them are really low cal!) and order a chicken Cesar salad (maybe a small Alfredo I’m not sure yet)

plans for tn

eat small meal

workout

shower

skincare

dinner

girl blog + reading time

sleep 🧘🏽‍♀️