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Loneliness - Oppressive silence. The thoughts in your head feeling like neon signs, bright and beckoning towards your own doom.

You don't know what day or time it is anymore. Life continues to go on but you're stuck within yourself, spiralling downwards. You aren't sure you want to get out either.

You pray and plead to the Gods you aren't sure exist anymore. There is no answer. That is the most damning of all, that even they have forsaken you.

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I hate you (but I love you)

I don't know who you are anymore (sometimes I think I never did)

I don't want to see you ever again (but I can't live without you)

I wish it would all end (I want to live, to thrive and to fly)

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When E.E Cummings said, "Yours is the light by which my spirit's born - you are my sun, my moon, and all my stars."

When Mohammad Rafi saab sang, "Chaudhvin ka chand ho, ya aaftaab ho, jo bhi ho tum Khuda ki kasam, laajawab ho."

When Bashir Badr said, "ik deevar pe chaand tika tha, main ye samjha tum baithe ho."

When Wajid Shaikh said, "Teri yaad chaand ki shakal mein ubhar kar aati hai."

- the age old tradition of comparing your lover to the moon.

[chaand teri roshni ka halka sa ek saaya hai]

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There are words inside me and I don't know how to make them coherent. I don't know how to put them together. I don't know what I am doing anymore. I am starting to think I never did.

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When Jaun Elia said, "meri har baat be-asar hi rahi, nuqs hai kuchh mere bayaan mein kya"

When Franz Kafka said, "I am constantly trying to communicate something incommunicable, to explain something inexplicable."

When Mizra Ghalib said, "vo na samjhe hai, na samjhenge meri baat."

When Talha Yunus said, "na samjhe meri baat to kiyu lafzon ka mohtaaj hu."

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Iss gham bhari duniya mein aakhir kon kiska hai? Kon paraya aur kon apna? Hazaron lakhon log apne apne zindagi jeete rahe hai. Koi na jaane kisi ki mann aur dil mein kya chalta hai. Dard mein khoye huye poori zindagi nikal jaati hai. Tanhai dost ban jaati hai. Dil toot ke phir jud jaata hai par kabhi pehle ki tarah nhi ho sakta. Aakhir sukoon kab milega?

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Does God exist? Who can truly answer this question? Our entire existence is built on belief in a God, who is merciful and kind, and faith in His words and ways.

Does God exist? If He does, why is there such despair in the world? Why do bad things happen, day after day with no relief and respite from the pain? Who do we hold accountable?

Does God exist? Who truly knows? If not him, who else can we revere and despise in equal turns. Who else can we turn to in our deepest, darkest moments of sorrow or agony? Who do we thank for the moments of joy and happiness?

Does God exist? The answer seems to be that He must. Perhaps not in the manner of the Almighty, the All-powerful, but a simple belief, and an unshakeable faith that everything is going to be alright. Perhaps a sense of direction in troubling times, or a glimmer of hope in the horizon.

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Anxiety - It feels like a knot in your chest. A sickness in the pit of your stomach. The thoughts hit you, inexplicable and unrelenting. 

You're fighting an invisible enemy that has taken over your mind and body. You plaster on a fake smile and try to hide the signs, but you're one step away from breaking.

You eventually get tired of trying. You stop fighting, surrender to the pull of the thoughts. You dare your mind, do your worst, and it whispers back, I already have.

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You're like a magnetic force, and I'm iron. You're irresistible. But I'll let you in on a little secret. Even if you were resistible, I would be putty in your hands, cause you're just that magical. If there was picture for perfect in the dictionary, it would be your picture. Angels look at you and weep in envy because they know they would never be able to match the level of perfection that you are. Every cell of my body calls out to you, I yearn for you in every moment that I'm away from you. If it was the last day on earth, the day of the apocalypse and the day of judgement, I would long for nothing except to see your face and hear your voice until oblivion

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When Franz Kafka said, "I am not well, I could have built the pyramids with the effort it takes me to cling onto life and reason."

When Frida Kahlo said, "I hope the exit is joyful and I hope never to return."

When Elizabeth Wurtzel said, "I want to explain how exhausted I am. Even in my dreams. How I wake up tired. How I'm being drowned by some kind of black wave."

And when Jaun Elia said, "Har haal mein hasne ka hunar paas tha jinke, woh rone lage hai, toh koi baat toh hogi."

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When Franz Kafka wrote, "I long for you; I who usually longs without longing, as though I am unconscious and absorbed in neutrality and apathy, really, utterly long for every bit of you."

When Hasrat Mohani said, "chahat meri chahat hee nahi aap ke nazdik, kuch meri haqiqat hi nahi aap ke nazdik"

When Vladimir Nabokov said, "Today I can't write about anything except my longing for you."

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When Caitlyn Siehl wrote, "You are kissing her in a crowded restaurant and it feels like praying."

When Hozier said, "I slithered here from eden just to sit outside your door”

When Pablo Neruda said, "I want to do with you what spring does with the cherry trees."

And when David Le'aupepe wrote, "Where you go I'm going, so jump and I'm jumping cause there is no me without you "

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When Khalil Gibran said, "Between what is said and not meant, and what is meant and not said, most love is lost"

When Jane Austen said, "And sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself, because I could find no language to describe them in."

And when she also wrote, "I am half agony, half hope."

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When Ahmad Faraz said, “tu mujhse khafa hai toh zamaane ke liye aa”. If you are mad at me, come just for the sake of this world

When Jaun Elia said, “woh jo na aane wala hai us se mujhko matlab tha” The one who is not going to come, i cared about them

And when Wajid Shaik said, “ittefaaq se milne waley marzi se bichar jaate hain” The ones we find through destiny leave by their own will

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Haruki Murakami once said, “memories warm you up from the inside. but they also tear you apart.”

when Wajid Shaikh said "dua mein kisi ko mangne se leke usko bhulane ki dua tak ka safar jisne kiya hai, wahi dukh janta hai"

and Khumar Bankvi wrote, “wohi phir mujhe yaad aane lage hain, jinhein bhoolne main zamaane lage hain.”

and Majeed Amjad said, “jane walay tujhe hum yaad, kahan tak rakhte?”

And when you finally realised that sometimes it hurts less to let something or someone go than to keep holding on

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When Bonnie Tyler said, “once upon a time I was falling in love, now I’m only falling apart”

When Munir Niazi said, “mohabbat ab aur nahi hogi”

When Paloma Faith said, “only love can hurt like this”

When Jaun Elia said, “sau baar dil ko kaha chal bhul jaa usko”

And finally when Rahat Indori said, “tumse rishta ab kuch aisa hai, na nafrat hai na ishq pehle jaisa hai” and you felt nothing.

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When Taylor Swift said, “you’re not my homeland anymore, so what am i defending now?”

And when Mahmoud Darwish said, “out of my ignorance, I called you a homeland and I forgot homelands are taken away.”