theunmanipilateddiaries

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We had a dream last night where we got top surgery, and we were talking to all our trans friends about it, and for some reason bragging about it to our trans woman friend? Like, why? She literally wants the opposite, she wants the jigglies (or whatever Matthew called them). Was not expecting that, but now very sad to wake up and find out we didn't have top surgery. TwT

Front: Evan (xe/they), Michael (he/corpse/death)

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Our knee is killing us. So bad. It hurts so bad. But is that going to stop us from seeing our (fellow trans) brother from another mother? Most likely not. We want to give him the scarf we crocheted for him.

Who cares if that means we're going to be dead for days? Not us. 🕺🕺

On the other hand, we're not going to sign off posts with both our preferred names and whoever was in front when something was posted. Our preferred names are in our bio and in our intro post pinned to the top of our page. We're just going to write who was in front so then we as a system know who posted what. :)

Front: [REDACTED] (virus/he/glitch), Lemon (he/she/they/glitch)

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Dysphoria is kicking our ass today, and we just woke up an hour ago.

Today's gonna be fun. /sarc

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Evan (xe/they)

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Now this, this made us, like, cackle, for lack of a better descriptor. This is amazing.

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Evan (xe/they)

here’s a transmasc joke for the internet:

i like my estrogen like i like my coffee…

…i’d much prefer T

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Oh, man, we have so many interesting stories with these traits! We could ramble about examples of us showing each these symptoms if we wanted to. xD

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Evan (xe/they)

Autism Bingo!

Here’s mine

Here’s a blank below if you want to participate

Mrs. Speechie P

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Absolutely love our cargo pants, makes us feel so masculine. <3

Just love our outfit in general, flannel is just so madculine-izing (in our opinion) and it's so nice.

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Andie (he/she/web), Evan (xe/they)

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We (most likely) get to see our (fellow trans) brother today! :D

We're excited lol—we made a bracelet for him at school a couple weeks ago with his favorite color, the trans flag, and his name, and we can't wait to see how he reacts!

So hopefully, we'll actually get to see him.

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Andie (he/she/web)

Side note, I've been in front a lot recently. I wonder why that is... I'm literally just a fictive, I have no other role. xD

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The dysphoria was hitting us like a truck today. No idea why, it just was. Maybe because, since Saturday or Sunday, we've been planning to dress hypermasculine tomorrow? And we're excited for that? No fricking clue, man.

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Andie (he/she/web)

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I want a binder! I want a binder!

I wish binders were free, man. This sucks, I don't want the jigglies anymore.

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Matthew (void/he/star/eclipse), Evan (xe/they), Eclipse (they/them)

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Plural Ask Game

We figured we’d try making an ask game! This is for anyone who’s a system–regardless of origin–to use. Remember that you’re not obligated to answer any of these if any are too personal!

How many members are in your system, and does this number change frequently?

What are your collective pronouns, if you have any?

What’s your system name if you have one, and how did you choose it?

Are there any activities your system members like to do together? Collective hobbies? Talk about those!

What sort of music do people in your system like?

What’s the average age of your systemmates?

If you have a singletsona, what is it? Explain a bit about them!

Does anyone in your system have roles? If so, what roles?

How long have you been a system and/or known of your system?

How did you discover your system? What was the process?

What does switching feel like to you, if you switch at all? 

Are your switches voluntary, involuntary or a mix? How often do you do it, if at all?

What’s your favourite part of being a system?

What’s your least favourite part of being a system, if you’re comfortable sharing?

Are your headmates generally different from the physical body? How do they differ from it?

Do you have any fictives/factives/etc? Tell us a little about them!

Does your system have a headspace? Are there multiple of them? What are they like?

Are there differences between systemmates surrounding sensory things? (For example, one person likes the taste of one food and another doesn’t.)

Does anyone have any different accents, or speak any different languages?

How would you describe your system in 3 words or less?

Do you have any LGBT+ headmates? What do they identify as?

Does anyone outside of the internet know you’re a system?

Do you have any cool/funny stories from inside the headspace that you’d like to share?

What’s some advice you’d give to yourself when you were first discovering your system?

What is something you wish singlets knew about plurality?

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system ask game!

any systems of any origins may reblog this :]

name asks

1. do you have a collective name? how was it chosen?

2. how do new system members choose their names?

3. are there any system members who identify with the body’s name?

4. which system member has the most stereotypical name?

5. which system member has the weirdest name?

age asks

6. how does age work for your system’s members?

7. does your system have ageless system members?

8. who is the oldest system member? how old are they?

9. does your system have system members who age slide or age regress?

10. if you have them, do your system’s littles want to be treated like children or adults?

queer asks

11. do system members tend to have similar sexualities, or are they different for each member?

12. does your system have more male, female, or nonbinary system members? is there any overlap between those?

13. do any system member use xenogenders or neopronouns?

14. does your system collectively identify as anything? if so, what?

15. do you& consider the body to be transgender?

nonhuman asks

16. what system member is the strangest species?

17. do any system members have wings?

18. does your system have any animal system members?

19. what is the weirdest part about being a nonhuman system member?

20. is the majority of your system human or nonhuman?

introject asks

21. do you have multiple system members from one source?

22. are most of your system’s introjects connected to their source? disconnected from their source?

23. what is the weirdest source that an introject in your system has?

24. are any of your system’s introjects in relationships with other system members? is their partner(s) an introject from the same source? different source?

25. do any of your system’s introjects have non-canon source memories?

syscourse asks

26. do you engage in syscourse?

27. were you previously anti-endo?

28. if you could tell all anti-endos one thing, what would you tell them?

29. does your system have a collective opinion on syscourse, or does it vary?

30. do you think that syscourse is more helpful or harmful?

asks for the current fronter

31. who is your favorite member in the system? (alternatively, who are you closest to?)

32. which system member has the most based takes?

33. what is the funniest piece of system drama?

34. do you enjoy being part of a system?

35. what’s something you like that no one else in the system likes?

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I can't wait for the day when we can get our leg amputated. It'll make our life so much easier, in regards to dressing more masculinity or androgynously, in regards to pain levels, and so much more.

For context, our left leg is extremely screwed up (as in permanent damage-wise). Our knee is our biggest issue, constantly in pain, frequently swelling, subluxating and dislocating, giving out and being unsteady, and more—and we don't even have a diagnosis about what's wrong because we can't see all of the damage on MRIs or x-rays! Our ankle is also an issue, with being weak and hypermobile from constantly spraining, straining, and rolling it in elementary school. And last but not least, tendinitis. In not one, but more recently TWO tendons in our lower leg. (There's three tendons in lower legs.)

Our left leg is literally a piece of crap.

Someone take it away, please. I beg you. ToT

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Evan (xe/they)

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We had one of our clubs today. It was really fun, though very dysphoric. We're not out to our clubmates yet because I'm the eldest, and we don't want to cause issues with the younger ones who may not understand yet. It was definitely awkward, though, like... that's not our name, but... okay... :,D

On the other hand, we'll be able to see one of our brothers this weekend! Hopefully, at least. (For privacy reasons, we'll just say that his parents and our parents are divorced.) We haven't seen him in almost a month, and he's really good at using our pronouns and names. And we made him a little gift, too, so we're excited to see how he'll react to it.

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Michael (he/corpse/death), Mimic (he/it)

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Hi! Welcome to the Unmanipulated Diaries. We are Max or Kenneth (Kenny for short), otherwise known as the Eclipse Labyrinth Collective. We are a system that collectively identifies as a transmasc non-binary person.

Our parents are extremely transphobic. So much to the point that, when we first came out as genderfluid and later transgender to them about four years ago, we were forced back into the closet and manipulated into thinking that we were making it up and were just a girl. The Unmanipulated Diaries is our online diary recollecting our experiences of realizing we are transmasc non-binary and refusing to go back into the closet this time. Note, we are not out to our parents yet, we are simply out to friends who are aware of our situation and know not to use the correct names and pronouns around our parents.

Here, we will mostly talk about our experiences of being a transmasc non-binary  person living in a transphobic environment and how being disabled affects that. (We are both neurodevelopmentally and physically disabled, and as we are also an OSDD system, we have many alters that have various identities that causes struggles from time to time.)

There will be some posts on random things, but we'll try our best to keep it on "theme." If anyone ever has any questions about our experiences, disabilities, or just about anything else, send in an ask! We love receiving asks, they're a lot of fun for us.

Hope you have a great day!

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Michael (he/corpse/death), Andie (he/she/web)