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When you see an autistic meltdown over a "small thing", usually it's not that one thing that caused the meltdown, usually it's just the final straw amongst a lot of many other issues that piled up

(And even when it really is over a "small thing", it may not be small to them)

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We're basically just allergic to showers at this point. We get so hypoxic that our hands—and our feet, if we're in there long enough—turn blue. (Cyanosis, yippee.) Not to mention, our heart right skyrockets and we start to feel faint, and it's so bad to the point that we have to sit down for either a super long time or until we're done bathing.

Yay, medical issues!

Front: Evan (xe/they), Riley (they/them), Michael (he/corpse/death)

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Back from winter break fit except we're starting a new school today. Yippee! Time to add yet another school to the list!

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Lowkey tempted to steal our own OC's name. Lucian, Luci for short. (They're non-binary, Lucian is their chosen name.)

Lucian sounds so badass and honestly love the feminine nickname.

Front: Matthew (void/he/star/eclipse), Evan (xe/they)

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...

...well, then...

@inhurtandincomfort

Nothing gives me whumperflies faster than a simple "don't fight it"

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Why must cramps hurt so bad? I hate our period, someone please just take our uterus and throw it out, I don't want it. ToT

Front: Evan (xe/they)

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Our friend called us a twink (as a joke). ._.

I get we're a guy, but we're not gay! We're aroace!

Front: Matthew (void/he/star/eclipse)

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Woe testosterone be upon ye

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(TW/CW in tags!)

I hate being a stupid people pleaser. Can't even dare to bother any of our friends to help us during a bad panic-induced spiral because it's "too late" and we don't want to wake them up—despite the fact that they have repeatedly told us that we can talk to them whenever we may need it, no matter the time.

We're specifically avoiding talking about the issue causing this spiral with our two closest friends for good reasons. But our other friends? Why are we so hesitant? They've told us before that they are always there for us when we may need it, so why are we still terrified?

It's not an inconvenience. We are not an inconvenience. Everyone has told us that before. But the people-pleaser side of us refuses to believe it.

We're just a burden to everyone, I guess. So we must make up for it by listening to them whenever they need it but not letting them listen to us when we need it.

I'm so over this. I just want to cry and talk to someone about our issues right now.

Please, just let someone call us because they need us. Any of our friends, distract us, please, because we need the distraction. Distract us with your issues so we don't have to deal with ours.

Front: Evan (xe/they), Michael (he/corpse/death)

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I agree! I prefer it so much more when people lie and say that we pass as a guy, even if we're wearing a dress. Because knowing that your friend actually thinks of you as a guy rather than just acting nice because they think it's a "phase" (or whatever other reason they may have) is a powerful thing. It gives you self-esteem—especially after a lot of that is stripped away from the non-accepting culture we (personally) live in. It gives you hope that, maybe one day, you'll be able to pass to anyone who sees you, and that is a powerful hope to have, because it can help you get through the hard times.

Front: Matthew (void/he/star/eclipse), Riley (they/them)

Honestly when people tell me that they didn't realize I was trans, i mostly don't believe them because those same people sometimes misgender me anyways.

I don't know if cis people know this (and i don't know if trans people feel the same way), but know that I appreciate it so much more if one makes the effort to see me as a man despite the way i look, then lying about how I pass and how they thought I was a guy anyways.

I have no time for niceties. Too look deeper then my skin and see my soul inside, that is true allyship.

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Ah, what a perfect day to confuse an old lady why a "girl" is singing bass in their school's choir, while also being dressed androgynously and planning to sing soprano for the event. (Said jokingly but not sarcastically.)

Not to mention, they're also on crutches without a brace or cast on. Even more confusion for the old lady.

Today will be fun. xD

Front: Matthew (void/he/star/eclipse), Michael (he/corpse/death)

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We had a dream last night where we got top surgery, and we were talking to all our trans friends about it, and for some reason bragging about it to our trans woman friend? Like, why? She literally wants the opposite, she wants the jigglies (or whatever Matthew called them). Was not expecting that, but now very sad to wake up and find out we didn't have top surgery. TwT

Front: Evan (xe/they), Michael (he/corpse/death)

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Our knee is killing us. So bad. It hurts so bad. But is that going to stop us from seeing our (fellow trans) brother from another mother? Most likely not. We want to give him the scarf we crocheted for him.

Who cares if that means we're going to be dead for days? Not us. 🕺🕺

On the other hand, we're not going to sign off posts with both our preferred names and whoever was in front when something was posted. Our preferred names are in our bio and in our intro post pinned to the top of our page. We're just going to write who was in front so then we as a system know who posted what. :)

Front: [REDACTED] (virus/he/glitch), Lemon (he/she/they/glitch)

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Dysphoria is kicking our ass today, and we just woke up an hour ago.

Today's gonna be fun. /sarc

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Evan (xe/they)

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Now this, this made us, like, cackle, for lack of a better descriptor. This is amazing.

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Evan (xe/they)

here’s a transmasc joke for the internet:

i like my estrogen like i like my coffee…

…i’d much prefer T

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Oh, man, we have so many interesting stories with these traits! We could ramble about examples of us showing each these symptoms if we wanted to. xD

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Evan (xe/they)

Autism Bingo!

Here’s mine

Here’s a blank below if you want to participate

Mrs. Speechie P

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Absolutely love our cargo pants, makes us feel so masculine. <3

Just love our outfit in general, flannel is just so madculine-izing (in our opinion) and it's so nice.

- Max / Kenneth

Front: Andie (he/she/web), Evan (xe/they)