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[illicit-astrology]

Pluto in Aquarius: The Rise of Individualism

Where's Pluto? Now, it's in Capricorn, giving power to wealth, classism, the corporate world, traditional societal roles, relationships that serve the status quo, and the privileged.

However, it will move to Aquarius, the edgy rebellious sign, soon... Actually, very, very soon. What does that mean? Quite a lot.

First, Pluto influences a whole generation, so it stays in a sign up to 30 years and brings complete cathartic transformations. What was before Pluto, will never be the same or even exist after Pluto. Pluto, often called the planet of sacred destruction, destroys foundations at its core, in the goal to build something more authentic, better, leveled up and more powerful. It's scary at the begining, but oh so beautiful and poetic at the end.

With Pluto entering Aquarius; it will be very difficult to maintain anything that compromises your indiviuality. That corporate job you accepted to gain hierarchical power? It will feel like hell until you quit. That relationship you were pressured into to fit in and costed you a lot of your individuality? It will crumble. That marriage or pregnancy you agreed to, due to family or societal pressure? it will taste like regret everyday. Everything you susbcribed for, that was against your authentic desires, and that compromised your indivduality and independence, will either crumble or feel emotionally taxing until you take the decision to course correct.

It's no surprise that Pluto in Aquarius, will give power to individuality. We are already witnessing a lot of people quitting their corporate jobs, being deinfluenced by celebrities, owning their individulaity, leaving relationships, getting divorced, deciding not to have kids...etc. These are going to increase even more when Pluto settles in Aquarius.

Also, we will witness the minorities and group of people who were once outcasted by upper social hierarchy, rising to power. As long as those people don't subscribe to the current status quo, or values that goes against their true authentic self, and maintained their individuality.

Bottom line: Pluto favors and gives power to what feels authentic. In the sign of Aquarius, you have to be authentic & loyal to your own indivduality and not take any decision that compromises your true identity, indiviuality or independence. Falling into peer or societal pressure will be deemed foolish during this long transit.

[i-lick-your-gun]

Just reblogging again. Want to read this in its entirety. Only read first three episodes, and it shows a lot of promise. :)

All the star signs in my comic, Realta Part 1!

Part 2

[russersprouts]

Does anybody else have like. A go-to scent/perfume? Mine is an indie brand’s zodiac collection in Cancer (because I’m pretentious) but I am genuinely so curious what scents yall use

The scent notes if anybody was curious

[brainrotandbedrot]

okay. im a perfume nerd and i just can’t get this out of my head and these are all my own little brainworms so 🤪

perfume scents that every man in the 141 loves.

price is a classy man. but i also think he isn’t a huge fan of anything strong — he likes how you smell naturally. anything light, airy, a little floral but not like grandma rose perfume floral. price is the type of guy i see having fresh laundry scented candles in his house and a “fresh and clean” air freshener for his car. this man is tired and approaching middle age and he just wants his shit to smell good. including you. i hc something along the lines of maison margiela replica’s lazy sunday morning edt, glossier’s you edp, dedcool’s fragrance 03 blonde edp. for something more recognizable, gingham and sweet pea from bath & body works.

i feel like he’d also like chanel no. 5 just because of the name. his mum wore it. it’s sentimental for him.

notes: crisp fruits (pear, apple), light floral (jasmine, rose, lily of the valley, lilac), light musk, milk

gaz loves when you smell like a cashmere sweater. warm, sweet, but soft and homey. he wants to come home and just sit there and sniff you because you smell like a warm hug after a long day (it makes sense in my head okay). he’s the type to come along to sephora and ulta and hold the bottle while you spray the testers and he’ll tell you if something smells good (everything smells good, he likes seeing you smile & he’s paying anyway). philosophy’s fresh cream edp, ariana grande’s cloud intense edp, byredo’s slow dance edp, and skylar’s fall cashmere edp are all scents i think he’d love. i also feel like ivory cashmere from bath & body works is a given.

notes: almond, warm vanilla, berries (juniper, cranberry), cinnamon bark, sandalwood, light musk

johnny. johnny is a man of taste, okay? this man loves a unisex fragrance. (they all do. but like. johnny truly just loves a scent that is just a scent. no feminine or masculine packaging.) literally anything that smells good has his paws all over you. i feel like he’s a woody, earthy scents kind of guy. just smell like a forest and he’s head over heels. like le labo’s santal 33 edp, tom ford’s oud minerale edp, zodica perfumery’s eau de dallas edp, dossier’s ambery saffron and woody oakmoss edp. mahogany teakwood & into the stars from b&bw will also get this man’s heart rate wild.

notes: bergamot, oud, amber, musk, sandalwood, cedarwood, spices (cardamom, ginger), fir balsam

simon is a gourmand man. change my mind (you can’t). this man will get a whiff and have to stop himself from nibbling on you like a cat. or he doesn’t. you just smell too good, love. i don’t think he has a specific preference in terms of general scent, but anything that smells yummy has him drooling. sweet, warm, similar to gaz but more in the food direction than the cozy warm direction. i think le monde gourmand’s crème vanille edp, kayali’s yum pistachio gelato intense edp, billie eilish’s eilish 1.0 edp, sol de janiero’s brazilian crush cheirosa '71 fragrance mist. sweet whiskey and viva vanilla from b&bw are also delicious to layer with.

notes: gourmand (warm vanilla, brown sugar, marshmallow, caramel), amber (and ambery musk), florals (jasmine, orange blossom), nutty (almond, hazelnut, pistachio)

sorry simon’s scent notes are so long gourmand fragrances just have so many and they all smell good

[theladybrownstarot]

MONTHLY-READING

2024 MAY 2024

Pick a card reading ~

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Pile 1. Pile 2. Pile 3.

𐙚 Pile 1 .

Namaste pile 1 ! Let's get with your reading :-

☪︎ The first half of your pile no.1 is all about connecting with your intuition or the very deeper side yourself . Now , from what I sense , a secret is being revealed which could be of any kind also this month your intuition will be the protector and solution to all your queries and problems so stop taking tension and control your emotions because most of you will have mood swings .

☪︎ The second phase of your will be about collaboration , adjustments and being introduced to things or people in general , You are making better decisions and choices for yourself which will make your work easy . If you had financial trouble or issues/any important talk with second or third party can be seen here taking a good turn .

☪︎ The last phase of your month is about releasing of any strong patterns in your life or anything in general which is getting released slowly slowly , you are seem to be patient this month regrading things as it feels like you are shifting your energies or anything in general with patience for long term . Its more like preparing yourself for something . Be cautious of your money usage and job.

𐙚❀˖° Monthly Advice : 333/444 can be a number you may see quite often and date 18th is quite important for you .

A wish you made is coming true but work hard to keep events cool as things may unfold more .

Take some break or take action for same and adjust .

Connect with your emotions more otherwise emotional explosion may happen .

Surrender your things to divine whole heartedly .

❀ Prominent zodicas and houses : Pisces, Capricorn , taurus , Virgo , 4th house , 1st house, 6th house , 5th house , Jupiter and Neptune .

𐙚 Pile 2 .

Namaste pile 2 ! Let's get with your reading :-

☪︎ The first half of the month will be about completion of a cycle happily at last , good moments with family and people . You may get some sort of achievements that you always wanted . It will be calm ,joyful and happy. Some sort pregnancy possible.

☪︎ The second phase about your month is all about taking charge and going ahead with the things fastly but in an aggressive manner which is not good because it is possible that a conflict may emerge out of this or in general so calm your horses .

☪︎ The third phase of the month is all about disbalancing the balanced and then balancing the disbalanced . A lot of fastness in nature will lead to disbalance and instability of things you created all again so be cautious. You need to prioritise things because handing a lot or more than your plate could result in failure .

☪︎ There could be a feminine figure you may be dealing with who has a negative influence on you . You need to focus on your things not people whom you have conflicts with otherwise you will end up regretting .

𐙚❀˖° Monthly Advice : You need to make adjustments and compromises with the things .

please be patient and do not hurry for more till your sown seeds grow.

A balanced communication is required for something important or balance your self talk .

win is coming .

release any negativity if you are holding onto no grudges please .

❀ Prominent zodiacs and houses: libra , aquarius , gemini , cancer , scorpio , pisces , libra , taurus , capricorn , eight house , 7th house , mercury and moon .

𐙚 Pile 3.

Namaste pile 3 ! Let's get with your reading :-

☪︎ Okay , In the first phase of may i see you people chasing after something or running for something that you want more than anything else , you are constant and high with speed for anything you are working for also this may lead you behind some things which may needs your focus . Be focused but be alert too .

☪︎ In the second phase of your month you are letting the guard down , moving in a flow like a river calm and giving attention to all that requires but there's warning do not use any unethical way to get things done , also be cautious as someone may deceive you ; the person appears to be sweet but isn't. Don't self sabotage your feelings too .

☪︎ The last phase will be quite tough as struggles will be their in any form you can expect accordingly to your context . You need to put this thing in your head that don't give up.

𐙚❀˖° Monthly Advice : success is close , just try as you are being tested.

deal with your emotions now and take actions.

make sure you don't blow events out of proportion.

Shift your perception .

shed your old skin

❀ Prominent zodiacs and houses : gemini , libra , aquarius , capricorn , taurus , virgo, scorpio , cancer , leo and aries , 10th house , 11th house , 2nd house and 3rd house .

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[astroameesh]

Vedic Astrology

Vedic Astrology can also be called Indian Vedic astrology. Ved is the origin of Vedic. Veds, as everyone knows, are the basic hindy olds. Vedic astrology can be considered a Hindu astrology. Our blog www.astroameesh.com has detailed information about astrology.

Vedic astrology is based on nine planets and twelve Zodicas.

Nine Planets in Vedic Astrology

In Vedic Astrology, the nine planets are: Sun, Moon Mars Mercury Jupiter Venus Saturn Rahu Ketu. The nine planets in Vedic astrology are Sun, Moon Mars Mercury Jupiter Venus Saturn. Rahu and Ketu, however, are shadow planets. Rahu and Ketu are known in English as Dragon Head and Dragon Tell, respectively.

Twelve zodiacs in Vedic astrology

Vedic astrology has twelve zodiacs: Aries, Taurus Gemini Cancer Leo Virgo Libra Scorpio Sagittarius Capricorn Aquarius Pisces. The Vedic zodiac is divided into four sections: fire, earth, air, and water signs.

Names of fire signs

Aries, Leo and Sagittarius in astrology are fire signs. Fire is the alignment for people born under fire signs.

Name for earth sign

In astrology, Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn are all fire signs. Earth signs are aligned with the earth.

Name of Air Sign

Gemini, Libra and Aquarius are all fire signs. Air is the alignment for people born under fire signs.

Name for Waster Sign

In astrology, fire signs include Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces. Fire signs are aligned with water.

Names of 27 birth stars

There are 27 birth starts in vedic astrology:-

Ashwini, Bharani, Krittika, Rohini, Mrighasira, Ardra, Punarvasu, Pushya, Ashlesha, Magha, Purva Phalguni, Uttara Phalguni, Hasta, Chitra, Swati, Vishaka, Anuradha, Jyestha, Moola, Purvashada, Uttarashada, Sharavan, Dhanishta, Shatabisha, Purvabhadra, Uttara Bhadra, and Revati.#

[iratheforeteller]

Fun alternative names for the zodica

This is just a joke, don't take it seriously.

Libra=Librarian

Capricorn= Capri-sun

Aquarius= Aquarium

Virgo= Vertigo

Taurus=Toberlone

[badbitchzodiac]

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[lonelychicago]

Y and Z plssss 💜🩵

y- your last hug

i think it was two sundays ago. my aunt. she's the only one in my family who likes hugs ksbsj

z- zodica signs

im an aries babyyyyyy

send me a letter to my inbox

[vbee-miya]

cute blog theme!!! I'll have to fix mine some time (/T~T )/ butttt could i get a chainsaw man and a demon slayer match-up? that would really make my day :/

i'm a tall fem bodied person T-T. i go by any pronouns but prefer it/they. my zodica signs are sag, leo moon, and i think it's also leo rising i'm not sure hahhah. i have really thick hair i used to have it long but now i have it as those short wolf cut hair now and i thinned it out so that a bonus for me! i recently died my eye brows a dark magenta and people say it accents out my eyes a lot as i have a sort of prominent green pigmentation. i'm over 18 i have been for some time. lol felt just like yesterday i graduated highschool! my mbti is isfj or that's what it told me i was last time i checked which really wasn't that recent. LOL! i'm also straight!

as far as my hobbies i really don't like reading so I would much rather be doing something fun with other people but dont' get me wrong i HATE HATE parties! but I love people let alone helping others out whenever i can get the chance. but sometimes helping others feels like a burden and I really don't want to upset anyone so I'll try to push myself :/. I'm clumsy and i get told that a lot especially by my bf lol! i love quality time with others and wouldn't mind getting all comfy and cozy with the ones I love especially with my two little dogs and cat :(. I'm all for hugs and cuddles and I could be clingy from time to time, but i suposse i give others their time and space. ah! this is a lot i'm sorryrrr!!! dislikes? i hate people who chew gum really loudly. it's actually DISGUSTING!

okie okie that's all!!! thanks so much if ever you get this!!!

༺❀༻ matchup ༺❀༻

anon (1) here’s the first part of your request

aki hayakawa

it may seem like an odd pairing, but just hear me out as stoic he may be he’s just as much of a softhearted man than he is blunt.

he’d appreciate the little things you do around your surroundings just to be as helpful as possible.

he’ll notice your introvert-ness and I wouldn’t say he’d instantly approach you right then and there because he’s also pretty quiet and kept to himself unlike denji.

Give him some time and when he does it’ll be because you’re out somewhere hauling loads or boxes of something god knows what’s in them.

he see’s your determination and your actual dedication to be helpful to have some form of reason to live. and that’s already more than enough for aki to like you.

you’re not like denji who’s a simpleton. head empty *said random obsession*because of that he’ll constantly offer to lend a helping hand.

he’ll definitely see how clumsy you get and would probably be irritated just a tad bit by it, but nonetheless will help you pick up the pieces one by one.

he knows how hard you work to please others, but to him helping others for the sake of helping others shouldn’t feel like a chore nor a choice to feel like you should be struggling with.

so from time to time or even when he gets at least an hour of your time he’ll do whatever he can to be of service to you and let you have the break you deserve.

though if you refuse his offer to let him help you he wouldn’t bother, but he’ll out help you and make sure you get that break necessary.

and when you do get those breaks headcanon for you two, but his love language or at least one of them is definitely quality time alongside acts of service. but for this case he’s definitely a quality time person.

because he’s a fairly busy man, watching a movie and getting comfy cozy with you would be such a stress reliever for him.

he’d probably come home all pissed because of denji but then coming over to you and the three pets he wouldn’t have anything else in the world to trade for.

please please do his hair. for my sake his hair is so ugly. that’s a headcanon you know what hairstyle he should get and you’ll make sure he gets it.

headcanon aki would pop any gum bubble anyone near him makes. rip power.

[nikethestatue]

Is the dark fae series any good? I’ve read ZA and enjoyed it a lot.

I am going to go with 'it's okay'. For some reason, I wasn't into it. I love ZA, and I read DF before--as you are technically supposed to, since it's a 'prequel' series. So you meet Gabriel and Lance, and Dante when they were in Zodica/Aurora and good ol' Lionel and it's a good prep for ZA. It's an RH, so I know it's not everyone's fave, but I think my main issues with it was the main protagonist, Elise, just didn't jive with me. I didn't care about her throughout the series and she was just blah. The other thing was that some of the stories in DF were never finished, because they spilled over to ZA--like Gabriel's. So it was a tad frustrating.

There is nothing wrong with DF, the story is pretty engaging, and I liked most of the guys, but it's a weaker series compared to ZA.

[tgcnews]

Hall of Fame - Allen Lamb

Allen Lamb has been inducted into The Game Crafter Hall of Fame because his game, Spellpath, won the Word-Up Challenge. The designer interview is below:

Tell us about yourself and how long you've been designing games.

My name is Allen Lamb. I'm a software developer from Kennesaw, GA, and I've been designing games in some capacity for most of my life. I started to take the hobby a little more seriously when The Game Crafter site was first launched. My first game on The Game Crafter was a simple trick taking game called Zodica which was published in 2011.

Please tell us about Spellpath

Spellpath is a hidden movement word game that I designed for the Word Up Challenge contest. The game takes place in a cemetery which is a hex grid with one tombstone in each hex. Each tombstone has a letter on it. In the game, one player plays as the ghost and will typically not be visible on the board. The other players are ghost hunters that try to find the ghost. They do this by moving from tombstone to tombstone to form words—Spellpaths. If the ghost hunter Spellpaths have letters in common with the Ghost Spellpath, the ghost will have to communicate this information to them on a spirit board (Ouija Board).

Where did the idea for this game come from?

I lost my father about a week before the Word Up Challenge contest began. That, no doubt, had an enormous influence on the theme of the game. Despite the gloomy setting, I do not intend the game to be dark and depressing. It's more about finding ways to communicate with those that we love. I'm not much of a word gamer, so when I found out that the theme of the contest was to develop a word game, I tried to make the game as strategic as I could… a 'normal' game disguised as a word game.

What makes this game special/unique?

I suppose word games are fairly rare to begin with. But, it seemed to me that all the ones I knew about were abstract games or lightly themed. I wanted Spellpath to have a more immersive feel to it. To achieve that, I aimed to make the word gaming elements in Spellpath feel thematically relevant. You're spelling out words for reasons that make thematic sense in the game. I wanted this to feel like magic spells that produced an effect. The communication between the ghost and the ghost hunters is achieved through a spirit board which adds to the immersion.

There is another aspect to Spellpath that could easily go unnoticed. The board is made of modular tiles with 7 hexes on each tile. Each hex has a tombstone on it with a letter that is used to spell words. A tremendous amount of work went into figuring out how to layout the tiles with the goal of making words as easy to spell as possible. I downloaded a list of the most common words in the English language and wrote some code to analyze it. Without going into all the details, the tiles are designed in an attempt to meet 3 criteria:   A) Letters appear in roughly the same frequency that they appear in the English language. B) Letters appear on the same tile as other letters that they are commonly found next to in words.  E.g. Q is found on the same tile as a U. C) Common letters are evenly distributed across the tiles.

I love stuff like this in games. The players don't have to think about it. You don't have to write a rule about it in the rule book, but it improves the game.

Did you create a design journal for your game? If so, did you publish it somewhere we can link to?

No. I've thought about keeping a design journal, I've even tried to do it a few times, but I could never keep it up. I'm not sure how my game design process compares to others, but for me, the games stay in my head for quite a long time. Sometimes I feel like I've played a game in my head 100 times before I put it on the table in front of someone else (almost always my wife and kids). That process seems incompatible to journaling… or maybe that's just an excuse I use to not do it! 

Did you already have the idea for Spellpath in your head before the Word-Up Challenge?

Not really. I did previously have a vague idea to design “a game played in a cemetery,” but I certainly didn't imagine it as a word game or even a hidden movement game. I think pretty much all of the design came from the thought “word game, huh? I wonder if I could design a word game in a cemetery.” Everything else evolved from that.

What made you decide to enter your game into the contest?

While I haven't entered a game in all of the contests, I have at least considered all of them. For Spellpath, I had something resembling a workable game in my head fairly quickly so it was a simple decision to enter.

Would you have been motivated to work on the game as much as you did without the contest?

I really don't think I would have even tried to design a word game if it weren't for the contest. The contests are absolutely a driving force in my game designs. They provide constraints to work within and a deadline to meet them by. They also provide an opportunity for others to view and provide feedback. And if you are fortunate enough to win one, there are a few extra bonuses.

Did winning this contest inspire you to enter more contests or design more games?

Honestly, probably not. I think I was already maxed out on the number of games I could design and contests that I could enter.

Could you describe any influence The Game Crafter has had on your success as a game designer?

Simply put, I doubt I would be designing games in any real capacity without The Game Crafter. They both provide the means and the motivation to do so.

What’s next for you?

I will continue to design games and enter them into contests when they seem like a good fit. As for Spellpath, I added a couple of features that I didn't have enough time to get into the contest version, but this is probably the end of the line for it. In theory, I would love for the game to get picked up by a publisher and sell millions of copies… who wouldn't? However, I've come to accept that I love game design but hate game marketing and promotion. I'm a fairly severe introvert and the thought of constantly having to introduce the game to new people is… unpleasant. I do the parts I enjoy and not the parts I don't with full knowledge that my games won't have much success in the traditional sense. At best, they are lottery tickets that have a slim possibility of paying out.

Any last words of encouragement or advice to all of the designers reading this?

There is no one way to design a game. What works for one designer may not work for you.

When you get feedback, listen to it, but don't take it at face value. Pay close attention to the problem that they are complaining about. Take any solution that they suggest to fix it with a grain of salt. Often their fix isn't the right choice. They aren't the game designer, you are. Even if they are a game designer in their own right, they aren't the designer for your game.

Don't be discouraged if you find out your 'unique' game mechanic has been used before… it's still a 'rare' game mechanic which is nearly as good.

Have fun…  that's the point isn't it?

[whiteswaninsaturn]

credit : thanks to canva for inspiring me create the header

I'm a leo girl and it's always said that mostly leo people are people pleaser. Well it means we're not as scary as a Lion we have compassion and we can give to anyone too much.

Look among those zodicas Leo is one of biggest people pleaser. Do you think i believe the zodiac theory that what make me people pleaser it's because i'm a Leo gurl with fire-sign . Well, it's absolutely untrue. I'm a professional people pleaser because my father want me to be that kind of person. My father was passed away 7 years ago. He had been through the horrific time in his life since cancer undermine his body. It was made a powerful man into powerless old man with no hope. I never feel Daddy's compassion or love in my life and so does my younger sister. We grew up fatherless and when he died we doesn't even surprise to our new situation of being raise with single parent. It was already like that since i was born which means 24 years ago and 19 years ago for my little sister. Mom is everything for both of us, as 2 daughters that used to live with vicious father it feels like victory for us or perhaps only for me. Papa was always wanted everything's perfect so in his mind 'Life must be Perfect' from that mindset we know he wasn't a wise man. He's a workaholic with wonderful fundamental which is something i adore and i apply it now as a mediocre office staff. My papa expected his first born was a boy however it was dissapointed news for him to know that it was a girl and it is me. Maybe i already dissapointed him since I was in his wife womb before the new series of dissapoinment he would face.

I was a girl with unattractive appearance . I'm not saying i'm attractive now but at least i made progress and i look better. I look cleaner and finally make up can completely applied on my face. Back then i used make up and it was jut melted, cracked, like the products were refuse to be applied on my bumpy face.

credit : dashmagazine.com via pinterest (i don't know who's the artist whoever you are, You are amazing) That was me 12 years ago. I had my acne when i was 12 - 22 years old (THAT'S FUCKIN SUCK). My father told me in a restaurant which mean we were in public spaces he said I look like a monster because i have severe acne. Well my reaction was only about to cry but i held it until we got home. He enrolled me to music courses i was excited at that time, I was thinking i would learn guitar but ended up i learned keyboad. My mom said she registered me to had guitar class but my father changed it on my first day lesson to join keyboard class. Both my mom and I couldn't do anything not made any argument. Luckily my little sister felt the same thing, at least my father was playing fair here. The reason he altered the plan was just because he thinks it's not that classy for a girl play guitar, guitar it's not something grande, everyone can be guitarist just being autodidact. Guitar is an instrument everyone can reach it doesn't need a big-fancy room to place it. That was a very deep thinking papa, well as 13 yo teenager at that time i was only grumpy but now as i grow up i just realized my father unconsiously make his children brainstorming of his mindset. He sent me to kindergarten 1 when i was 3 yo just because he didn't enjoy anymore to walk with me in the morning before he left to work. He forced me to be in science class in high-school although it was out of my capability but i tried so hard to get smart score so i could fit the requirement lucky me I passed it i was part of those cool-smart students, Unfortunately, through 3 years in school my rank was 36/40 students. It was obviously said ' you are not belong here'. I can't tell the details of being raises with absent father. I will make a new post sharing about that topic. Well, I think i'm deserve to grab an Oscar I claim myself confidently i have oscar acting skills due to I used to acting in front my father. Not being my true-self. If i made mistake , sick , misbehave as a normal human being do, not an extraordinary, not having a good look He would scolded me, if i choose something he doesn't keen on or eat something he doesn't like. He also mad at me. Like why would I do thing he doesn't like?. So the way i acted and spoke just only to please him. At the other side to protect myself from his temper. I could say I nailed it sometimes and failed it most of time. I always unexpectedly awful in my father eyes. He said i'm lesser than anyone i'm not good enough and worthless. He always make me unworthy.

via: Pinterest Nevertheless, i learn that if you are a people pleaser you are likeable, you have more friends and people mistake you as a very nice person in fact you are just a people pleaser. You feel deeply guilty when you can't complete or help someone else mission. I used to be a person my father wants me to be = I can be a person society expect me to be. I never knew i'm a people pleaser if my friends don't tell me, i was just ignore what they said because i didn't understand. As long as i still get along with my friends i am okay. There's nothing wrong with me. I feel easy for building my friendship just being like this. I never get myself in trouble moreover enemy.

[ask-the-entity-lovecraften-god]

day 21 - do they have a favorite number? from your secret santa

I honestly don't know if they would have a fav number. (Is that like a zodica thing, a fav number has deeper meaning?) Imma just go for lucky 7.