#zi writes

[nowandthane]

She had the same jarring reaction she felt when she saw Tali on Freedom’s Progress, like she had been shocked back to wakefulness. Only she had never really been asleep. She felt more like an automaton, checking off her list of duties, not fully aware of reality — her consciousness still lingered in the dark void of space, falling endlessly, awaiting a death that would be denied her.

“Shepard.” His deep voice tugged at her senses, both familiar and foreign, comforting and terrifying. Her body felt awash with prickling sensations, like she was a numb limb coming back to life. “Are you okay?”

She blinked at him, forcing her thoughts back into order. Did he know her so well? Did he still? Was she recognisable as whoever she had been before, or had something else come back to life?

She didn’t feel like herself. But here, with him, she could almost convince herself she had never died.

“Of course.” She peeked out of their cover and shot another Eclipse merc in the head. “C’mon, Vakarian, try to keep up!”

[plumpkinsx]

denial .

context: where soobin finds a cute girl that wears skirts and bows for a living, with a cute face and cute attitude.. why wouldnt he wanna take that innocence out of her?

pairing: dom!soobin x virgin!fem!reader

warnings: corruption kink , petnames (bunny, baby) , soobin is a perv lowkey.. smut (mdni)

soobin liked a lot of things in a girl, if shes cute , short , has a little bit of attitude and shit a pretty face, and to soobins surprise you were exactly what his type was. you walked around in your cute skirts and stockings and fuck did you look so fucking cute and irresistible, especially when you slightly bend over and soobin takes a peek just to see your cute cunt clothed in pretty pink panties , he swore he could just take you right in that classroom. he always took a glance at you but rarely talked to you because ase he’d immediately pop a boner, until..

one day you and soobin were partners for a project in science , you looked at him when it was announced and saw he was already staring at you , a pink dusting your cheeks as you looked away. you cant react like that, you knew how soobin was and how he acted.. with the help of your friends they all told you that he was a blatant pervert. you didn’t believe them but part of you felt like the rumors were true so you stayed away

you were walking out of class until soobin approached you “yn… you wanna come over to work on the project?’” he said his sweet deep tone that made your knees weak even though it shouldnt ‘you cant fall for his charms yn.. get it togther’ the voice of your friend echoed in your head “um.. i.. think we could just do it in the library..” your sooth voice sent chills straight to soobins dick and he started to corner you “aw baby.. are you nervous?.. it’s alright if you come to mine.” he said gripping your hips and lifting your leg up to grind his boner on your cunt “soobin..! you cant i dont..” “dont what?… cmon just be good f’me okay bunny?.. ill take care of you real good..” he says as he unzips his pants and looks around “and.. nobodys even here anymore.. so we wont get caught.” he smiles and bites into your neck ripping a moan from you , his fingers pull your panties to the side as he slips his cock out “see what you do t’me bunny?… all this just f’you..” he jerks off and lines his dick up with your cunt. “it wont fit! please dont.. i..” “shh.. just take it.. ill make it feel good.” he slowly slips in and starts to move before you can adjust. seeing the tears well up in your eyes was a beautiful sight to soobin.. he would be lying if he didnt wanna push you to your limit even further.

[seyaryminamoto]

Fic-to-Art #42: Hotaru, Mari and Zi

This month, our prompt was children, specifically our next gen kiddos in Gladiator. Surprising very few people, this little trio got the win, even though another trio (Yue's kids!) were really close runner-ups! It's a lot more interesting to write kid characters than I ever expected, even in a story as dark as what I work on. The dynamics between these three will be lots of fun to write someday, I know it! But for now, we get to enjoy a glimpse of them together in art form, with Mari having given the three of them makeovers with all those ponytails and pigtails and what have you x'D

I really hope you guys enjoy this piece, it was a lot of fun to work on <3 they're adorable cousins and it's always wonderful to think of how their eventual bond will be undisputable proof that their world is healing for good, after all the efforts of their respective parents.

If you'd like to be part of the creative process behind these pieces, a $1 pledge makes you eligible for voting and suggesting prompts, as well as reading Gladiator snippets 6 days before the new chapter releases!

[t-u-i-t-c]

Giftober 2023 │ Day 30: Goodbye

Tragic Duos + Goodbyes

[tytangfei]

Even if we live like this for a lifetime, I also feel happy.

[rustbeltjessie]

That night, I had two opposite—but equally intense—impulses. One of them was to get fucking wasted. To get as wasted as I would have in those “singing along to ‘Sally MacLennane’ in the pub” days; to get so plowed all the stuff that Shane’s death brought up for me would sink beneath a stream of whiskey. The other was to not drink, at all; to not only stay sober that night but to never touch a drop of booze again. Because of Shane’s life-long struggles with addiction, because of so many of my beloveds’ struggles with addiction, because of my own struggles with addiction—my own affinity for hurling [myself] toward oblivion in the back of some grim and sticky dive, as Amanda Petrusich put it in her wonderful tribute to Shane. —from "That night, Rain Street went on for miles."

The newest installment of my newsletter is about Shane MacGowan/The Pogues, punk/poetry, addiction, and romanticizing things that are 'bad,' amongst other things. I've been working on this one for a month, and I'm glad it's finally out in the world.

[zigraves]

Chapters: 8/8 Relationships: Astarion/Wyll (Baldur's Gate) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, background ulder ravengard, background vampire spawn, Post-Game, Fairy Tale Retellings, Canon-Typical Violence 

Final chapter of the Cinderella “Astarion didn’t get a tadpole” postgame AU is now up.

[musashi]

Fandom: 逆転裁判 | Gyakuten Saiban | Ace Attorney Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Ayasato Mayoi | Maya Fey/Karuma Mei | Franziska von Karma Characters: Ayasato Mayoi | Maya Fey, Karuma Mei | Franziska von Karma Additional Tags: Sickfic, Hurt/Comfort, Developing Relationship, Fluff, Domestic Fluff, Zine: Lavender Blue - An Ace Attorney FranMaya Zine

Summary:

There in the unremarkable shelter of her apartment kitchen, Franziska is unraveling. Or, rather, she has been for quite some time now. Maya can pinpoint exactly when that first thread came loose. Early—but not that early—in the bed they often shared.

I can finally share my piece I wrote for @aafranmayazine! Getting to be a part of this zine, alongside so many of my favourite artists and writers, was an absolute dream come true.

Leftover sales are open RIGHT NOW and go until November 24th! Get 'em while you can!

[quantumshade]

gomez!master is by far the best one of nuwho and I will NOT hear otherwise. she feels so much like delgado!master in that her motivations are not exclusively world domination. even before her redemption arc in s10, she has a complex agenda of her own and sometimes that means her goals align with those of the doctor’s. i love seeing the master team up with companions it’s my absolute favorite thing. her dynamic with clara is absolutely fascinating and i find the “i want my friend back” motivation to be five million times more interesting than the “i want to Destroy You Forever” motivation or whatever it was that dhawan!master had going on

[nowandthane]

7 snippets, 7 people

thank you @vakariansvixenand @stormikins for tagging me!! <3<3<3

no pressure tagging @xoshepard @poetikat @sweetmage (feel free to not read this it's all mass effect jsdhfg) @illusivesoul @westernlarch @sillyliterature @mxanigel @menacingmetal @grim-starling

These are all gonna be from Sarani's longfic because I'm not writing anything else atm. Mostly rough and unedited too so beware xD

cw for suicidal ideation in the last two

She turned to look at him, shocked at the outburst. His eyes were wet with tears that stubbornly refused to fall. He glared back at her, as if challenging her to defy him. Somewhere in the back of her mind, she thought that she really should. This was insubordination. But she felt so relieved that someone else was making the decisions that she just relented, turning to look back out into space in silence.

“How could I have left him behind?” she whispered, long minutes later. Her face was wet. Joker was quiet for long enough that she stopped expecting an answer — what could he have said, anyway? But he did answer.

“You were doing your job, Commander. I… I’m sorry.” And he really did sound sorry for her.

“This job fucking sucks.”

-

Finch sneered. “I can find a dozen Reds who’ll swear they saw you kill aliens for fun. Who’s going to believe you then?”

His grey eyes caught hers, and held them steadily. The world slowed down as she seriously considered whether he really did know. Even without proof, anyone who had known her then could put two and two together and figure out what she did — no one else could have done it. But no one ever cared before.

Now it was something they could use against her. And they were threatening to.

Was that was he was doing? His words saying one thing, but meaning another?

I know you killed her, but I won’t say it in front of them. As long as you do what I say, no one else will ever know.

Was that what was behind his words?

The image of her, of Nazia, crying and begging Shepard for forgiveness intruded on her mind. Her screams echoed in Shepard’s ears, her blood sticky on Shepard’s hands.

-

“Do you compare yourself to your old Captain a lot?” Garrus asked.

“Not really. Not anymore.” Shepard shook off the thoughts rattling in her head. “I know I have a screwed up moral compass. That’s just a result of my ‘upbringing’. But I don’t let that turn me into monster. I don’t want to cross any more lines, but I keep stumbling over them anyway.”

Garrus looked at her, his thoughts and emotions inscrutable. She was getting better with reading turians, but he seemed closed off to her at this moment. Silence became heavy in the air, and she did nothing to break it.

“I wonder…” Garrus finally mused, “if I killed Saren, would I be struggling with it now as you are about Finch? I don’t know what the answer to that is, and that — that kind of scares me. Am I a monster, Shepard?”

“No, Garrus.” She smiled at him a little sadly. “You’re not a monster.”

“Yet,” he said. “Don’t you ever think that it takes a monster to stop a monster?”

“Sometimes,” she answered. “Mostly, it feels like an excuse.”

Garrus nodded. “Why did you get so angry when he called you by your name?”

-

“How about a new name?”

“What’s wrong with Shepard?”

“No, not that. Don’t you want to change Jane?”

“What’s wrong with Jane?” She frowned.

“Well clearly the orphanage just named you that because they couldn’t be fucked to actually care about you. Don’t you want a name more fitting for who you are?”

“I don’t want any connection to the people who threw me away like I was trash,” she said curtly.

“It’s not about your parents,” Nazia insisted. “They suck, but you have a whole culture that you come from.”

“I know nothing about it.”

“So? Don’t you want to reclaim it?”

“Well, you clearly want me to.”

“Just think about it. It can be like… like a new start for you!”

Considering it. Maybe it is better, to have a new name, one untainted by the dirtiness of her beginning. And if Nazia was the one renaming her, so much the better. She was the one who made Shepard feel like a human. And if this was important to Zi, then it was important to her.

-

“You think you know me so well?” she asked, sneering. She regretted it almost immediately when the animation that had taken hold of Garrus abruptly left him. He had seemed more alive for a brief moment there, much more like the angrily passionate man who had argued with his superior at the Presidium, or the one in Dr. Michel’s clinic, ready to take on a group of thugs alone.

As his commanding officer, it didn’t feel good to have made one of her own people feel so small. But even outside of that, she felt bad because she did think he was a good person, just misguided. And this conversation they’d just had was their first real one. They had been getting to know each other.

He was turning to leave when she said, “Wait. I’m sorry.”

He turned back to her, expectant, but now that the apology had come out of her mouth, she floundered for what else to say.

“I was trying to compliment you,” Garrus pointed out, breaking the awkward silence. “Didn’t think you’d take it so badly.”

-

“Do you still want to die?” Shepard asked.

“Do you?” Thane returned.

She had to turn away. “Sometimes.”

Leaning against the viewing window, she turned her gaze on the drive core below — pulsing, powerful, dangerous. Peripherally, she noticed Thane standing and coming to her on silent feet, but she still couldn’t bring herself to look at him.

“I don’t.” His presence behind her felt like a weight she couldn’t shake off. “I agreed with you, once. That perhaps those of us who have died should stay dead.”

“You never really died,” she said.

“In all the ways that matter, I did.” He touched her shoulder, so softly that she barely felt it, except that there was no atom of her existence that could ever be unaware of him. “Will you not look at me, siha?”

-

The dream begins as it always does: with the fall. Falling through the nothingness of space, the alarms in her armour chiming as she gasped desperately for oxygen. There is a breach somewhere. Probably around her torso, where pain and warmth radiated.

She flailed helplessly, heat and hurt building. But it never did reach an unbearable point. They faded away as she fell, and with them went the burdens she carried. Her legs stopped kicking and her arms stopped reaching. She fell looking at the vastness of space, that blanket of mystery she had watched so often when she was stuck on Earth, so determined to get away.

And she did. The choices she was presented with had been unacceptable to her, and so she had found another way. She became more — made herself more. She had explored the galaxy, helped people, saved lives… She’d made a difference.

For better, not worse.

When she lost consciousness, it was without pain. Without worries. Peace was not something she had ever been familiar with, but she learned what it meant, right there at the end.

If only it really was the end.

[plumpkinsx]

enhypen!maknaes reacting to you dodging their kisses

A/N: this is pretty short since im running off tiredness lololol

#warning: kisses ? cursing in ni-kis , nothing else :3

k.sn

you laid flat on the bed biting your lip and pouting , you were in a mood where you wanted attention but your beloved boyfriend was working and ignoring you!!!!

so you decided for pay back you’d ignore him and dodge his kisses. smirking to yourself as you heard your boyfriends voice say “finally im finished ” so you prepared to ignore him by playing games on your phone when you heard his footsteps get closer to the bedroom “baby? im sorry i got caught up with my work! lets cuddle okay?” he giggled before leaping on the empty spot beside you , as he leaned in for a kiss on your cheek.. you turned your head and looked away which sunoo looked at you with his legendary bambi eyes in confusion “babyyy? are you mad?” he said tugging on your shirt sleeve , sighh how could you ignore him when hes this sweet? you whipped your head around and captured him in a loving kiss!

y.jw

jungwon wasn’t the type to initiate physical contact with you most times, but this prank would be entertaining

you were on tiktok while jungwon was in the living room with jake and heeseung , they have been in there for hours and you were starting to get bored of being alone. until you came across a tiktok of a girl pranking her boyfriend and she immediately got an idea, that’s how she was going to get his attention and she knew it was going work because Jungwon tended to get clingy when not infront of his friends, once you heard him say goodbye and make his way to the bedroom you knew. “ah jagi! i was expecting you to be asleep now..” he smiled and came to where you were sitting and laid his head on you shoulder “wonnie you should wash up and get ready for bed” he hummed in agreement at your statement and raised his head to land a kiss on your cheek until you abruptly got up “yahh jagii.. i wanted a kiss” he pouts and grabs your arm to pull you down “wonnie!” you called before he started to kiss your face all over.

nsm.r

“babe ill be finished in a bit don’t worry” is what your boyfriend told you while turning around in his gaming chair and leaving you on the bed sulky

riki has been on the gaming system all night and you were starting to get drowsy untill an idea struck your brain, riki was a persistent guy. when he wanted something he made big efforts to get it so you decided when riki came to kiss you as an apology (because he does that every time) you were going to ignore him. a couple minutes or more like hours past and you heard riki announce that he was going to bed to his teammates and make his way to the bedroom “babyyy are you awake?” he said with a smile on his face “shit.. please don’t be mad at me! i did not mean to be on for long!” he made his way towards the bed and laid his body on yours, rubbing your tummy he said “i can make it up to you” he leaned in and tried to kiss your nose before you put your finger on his forehead to stop him “yah! let me kiss you” he pinned your arms above your head and grabbed your chin “see now you cant run away” were the last words he uttered before pecking your lips over and over.

—————————————————————————————

[disenchanted-youth]

[movielosophy]

New Life Begins ~ She melts

[sweet-drmzzz]

HOLY FUCK I LOVE THE IMPERFECT FRIEND GROUP

Ok ive posted about it before but basically its this big collaborative story in a server im in, me and one other person ( @arctic-the-otherkin-alterhuman (lmk if u dont wanna be tagged btw) r the ones usually doing it, but we also het lots of help and input from others.

it is based off of that meme thats like "emo - the world is broken and im upset about it, goth - the world is broken but theres beauty in the dark parts" etc. etc., and it follows five aesthetics as main characters.

idk just smth abt having this big open collaborative story rly gets my creativity flowing.

:>

[zigraves]

Rating: Mature Relationships: Astarion/Wyll (Baldur's Gate) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, background ulder ravengard, background vampire spawn, Post-Game, Fairy Tale Retellings, Canon-Typical Violence Summary: A Cinderella AU for the Wyllstarion server weekly prompt: Fairy Tale.

Set post-game, in a world where Astarion was never snatched away by the Nautiloid (but everyone else had the usual adventure) - a new Grand Duke is set to rise to power after saving the city from the Dead Three's plot, and intends to host a ball to seek his future love. A perfect chance for Astarion to escape his existence beneath Cazador's cruel thumb.

[toxic-sugar-piie]

group-pic yay!!!