#zi writes

[milkbunnicult]

I rise

A quick measure of whos asleep and the light from the sheet-covered window to figure out if its midnight or 5 am

I tiptoe

Or I try to

Its a little hard to judge with how many 'one more sip's I've taken by whichever point I'm at

Still

I try

And I go. And I sit. And I forget time and everything exists, if I ever even really knew it did, and I blink, and both years and seconds pass in it.

I stand. I pull some ratty, likely paint stained pants up.

I stare at the mirror after I'm finished.

Its not wistful. Its not 'Noir film protagonist splashing water on his face before he goes to his thankless job'

Its just that, exactly.

Staring.

Memorizing lines and shadows that hadn't been there before.

God, when even was the last time I look in a mirror for longer than a fleeting flash of a glance

Thats me.

Its a difficult two syllables, to even think.

Thats not me. I'm still 17, with bright hair and still somewhat bright eyes. They're a little dulled but what wouldn't be by almost dying a handful of times and trying to so many more than that.

And somehow both hours and mere seconds have passed again. I'm not even sure I blinked

I asked a silent, self pitying question, of if this is all I'll ever be.

The answer comes from not some distant voice or higher power.

If this is what I'll accept as all I can be

Accept

Do I have power in it...???

Was I born rotten? Or did one of the too many to name vices plant the seed that grew into whatever decaying thing that burns in my brain and my lungs and my heart and my throat and my

I blink

Seconds or hours

Does it even matter at this point...?

Get through the next hour.....or more accurately, get through the next *insert unnameable and incomprehensible jumble of time felt missing* and try to take another breath and feel another beat of a heart

Its weak.

It may not feel it to outside hands

It may feel strong. Resilient. Normal.

I can feel it

I can feel it

I can feel it

[plumpkinsx]

denial .

context: where soobin finds a cute girl that wears skirts and bows for a living, with a cute face and cute attitude.. why wouldnt he wanna take that innocence out of her?

pairing: dom!soobin x virgin!fem!reader

warnings: corruption kink , petnames (bunny, baby) , soobin is a perv lowkey.. smut (mdni)

soobin liked a lot of things in a girl, if shes cute , short , has a little bit of attitude and shit a pretty face, and to soobins surprise you were exactly what his type was. you walked around in your cute skirts and stockings and fuck did you look so fucking cute and irresistible, especially when you slightly bend over and soobin takes a peek just to see your cute cunt clothed in pretty pink panties , he swore he could just take you right in that classroom. he always took a glance at you but rarely talked to you because ase he’d immediately pop a boner, until..

one day you and soobin were partners for a project in science , you looked at him when it was announced and saw he was already staring at you , a pink dusting your cheeks as you looked away. you cant react like that, you knew how soobin was and how he acted.. with the help of your friends they all told you that he was a blatant pervert. you didn’t believe them but part of you felt like the rumors were true so you stayed away

you were walking out of class until soobin approached you “yn… you wanna come over to work on the project?’” he said his sweet deep tone that made your knees weak even though it shouldnt ‘you cant fall for his charms yn.. get it togther’ the voice of your friend echoed in your head “um.. i.. think we could just do it in the library..” your sooth voice sent chills straight to soobins dick and he started to corner you “aw baby.. are you nervous?.. it’s alright if you come to mine.” he said gripping your hips and lifting your leg up to grind his boner on your cunt “soobin..! you cant i dont..” “dont what?… cmon just be good f’me okay bunny?.. ill take care of you real good..” he says as he unzips his pants and looks around “and.. nobodys even here anymore.. so we wont get caught.” he smiles and bites into your neck ripping a moan from you , his fingers pull your panties to the side as he slips his cock out “see what you do t’me bunny?… all this just f’you..” he jerks off and lines his dick up with your cunt. “it wont fit! please dont.. i..” “shh.. just take it.. ill make it feel good.” he slowly slips in and starts to move before you can adjust. seeing the tears well up in your eyes was a beautiful sight to soobin.. he would be lying if he didnt wanna push you to your limit even further.

[musashi]

Fandom: 逆転裁判 | Gyakuten Saiban | Ace Attorney Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Ayasato Mayoi | Maya Fey/Karuma Mei | Franziska von Karma Characters: Ayasato Mayoi | Maya Fey, Karuma Mei | Franziska von Karma Additional Tags: Sickfic, Hurt/Comfort, Developing Relationship, Fluff, Domestic Fluff, Zine: Lavender Blue - An Ace Attorney FranMaya Zine

Summary:

There in the unremarkable shelter of her apartment kitchen, Franziska is unraveling. Or, rather, she has been for quite some time now. Maya can pinpoint exactly when that first thread came loose. Early—but not that early—in the bed they often shared.

I can finally share my piece I wrote for @aafranmayazine! Getting to be a part of this zine, alongside so many of my favourite artists and writers, was an absolute dream come true.

Leftover sales are open RIGHT NOW and go until November 24th! Get 'em while you can!

[seyaryminamoto]

Fic-to-Art #42: Hotaru, Mari and Zi

This month, our prompt was children, specifically our next gen kiddos in Gladiator. Surprising very few people, this little trio got the win, even though another trio (Yue's kids!) were really close runner-ups! It's a lot more interesting to write kid characters than I ever expected, even in a story as dark as what I work on. The dynamics between these three will be lots of fun to write someday, I know it! But for now, we get to enjoy a glimpse of them together in art form, with Mari having given the three of them makeovers with all those ponytails and pigtails and what have you x'D

I really hope you guys enjoy this piece, it was a lot of fun to work on <3 they're adorable cousins and it's always wonderful to think of how their eventual bond will be undisputable proof that their world is healing for good, after all the efforts of their respective parents.

If you'd like to be part of the creative process behind these pieces, a $1 pledge makes you eligible for voting and suggesting prompts, as well as reading Gladiator snippets 6 days before the new chapter releases!

[t-u-i-t-c]

Giftober 2023 │ Day 30: Goodbye

Tragic Duos + Goodbyes

[nox-scrie]

Sărbătorile se simt din ce în ce mai obositoare pe măsură ce îmbătrânești, iar singura scăpare e ficțiunea clișeică? Mai jos găsiți remediul pentru această afecțiune ce poate fi fatală!

Da, am terminat în sfârșit fanficul cu Luceafărul x Cătălin x Cătălina (Hypecat!!). Da, e mult mai cheesy decât îmi închipuiam că poate ieși.

În această poveste, Hyperion, mare magnat ce știe mult prea bine că banii nu pot cumpăra fericirea, încearcă să o invite la un date pe femeia de care este îndrăgostit, pe numele ei Cătălina, ce este administratora + propietara unui lanț de pensiuni cu numele de Luceafărul. Motivul pentru care Hyperion (thinks he) fumbles pe una dintre cele mai frumoase persoane pe care le-a întâlnit vreodată? Ei bine, Cătălina este măritată de mulți ani- și de ce este oare soțul ei, Cătălin, tot atât de frumos pe cât este și ea?

Hyperion ar vrea să dispară de pe fața pământului de rușine când își dă seama că voia să se bage pe o femeie măritată (și pentru o secundă și pe soțul ei), dar nu o face, căci datorită unui mecanism narativ foarte folositor (fenomenul înzăpezirii), Hyperion este obligat să stea cu aceste două bomboane de propietari și să navigheze sentimentele complexe și conflictele inutile pe care aceștia le trezesc în el ca simpli moldoveni queer. Serios, fanficul ăsta e doar Hyperion fiind a loser în cel mai aesthetic și adorabil mod posibil.

Dacă vreți să vă alăturați lui Hyperion, Cătălinei și lui Cătălin, alături de doi invitați speciali complet irelevanți, anume Mihai Eminescu și Ion Creangă, găsiți link-ul mai jos. Acestea fiind spuse, lectură frumoasă și aștept să aud de la voi orice fel de opinie, emoție sau gând demn de a fi împărtășit pe urma lecturii.

Crăciun fericit! 🎄☄️🌄❄

[tytangfei]

Even if we live like this for a lifetime, I also feel happy.

[rustbeltjessie]

That night, I had two opposite—but equally intense—impulses. One of them was to get fucking wasted. To get as wasted as I would have in those “singing along to ‘Sally MacLennane’ in the pub” days; to get so plowed all the stuff that Shane’s death brought up for me would sink beneath a stream of whiskey. The other was to not drink, at all; to not only stay sober that night but to never touch a drop of booze again. Because of Shane’s life-long struggles with addiction, because of so many of my beloveds’ struggles with addiction, because of my own struggles with addiction—my own affinity for hurling [myself] toward oblivion in the back of some grim and sticky dive, as Amanda Petrusich put it in her wonderful tribute to Shane. —from "That night, Rain Street went on for miles."

The newest installment of my newsletter is about Shane MacGowan/The Pogues, punk/poetry, addiction, and romanticizing things that are 'bad,' amongst other things. I've been working on this one for a month, and I'm glad it's finally out in the world.

[songforten]

gomez!master is by far the best one of nuwho and I will NOT hear otherwise. she feels so much like delgado!master in that her motivations are not exclusively world domination. even before her redemption arc in s10, she has a complex agenda of her own and sometimes that means her goals align with those of the doctor’s. i love seeing the master team up with companions it’s my absolute favorite thing. her dynamic with clara is absolutely fascinating and i find the “i want my friend back” motivation to be five million times more interesting than the “i want to Destroy You Forever” motivation or whatever it was that dhawan!master had going on

[disenchanted-youth]

[plumpkinsx]

enhypen!maknaes reacting to you dodging their kisses

A/N: this is pretty short since im running off tiredness lololol

#warning: kisses ? cursing in ni-kis , nothing else :3

k.sn

you laid flat on the bed biting your lip and pouting , you were in a mood where you wanted attention but your beloved boyfriend was working and ignoring you!!!!

so you decided for pay back you’d ignore him and dodge his kisses. smirking to yourself as you heard your boyfriends voice say “finally im finished ” so you prepared to ignore him by playing games on your phone when you heard his footsteps get closer to the bedroom “baby? im sorry i got caught up with my work! lets cuddle okay?” he giggled before leaping on the empty spot beside you , as he leaned in for a kiss on your cheek.. you turned your head and looked away which sunoo looked at you with his legendary bambi eyes in confusion “babyyy? are you mad?” he said tugging on your shirt sleeve , sighh how could you ignore him when hes this sweet? you whipped your head around and captured him in a loving kiss!

y.jw

jungwon wasn’t the type to initiate physical contact with you most times, but this prank would be entertaining

you were on tiktok while jungwon was in the living room with jake and heeseung , they have been in there for hours and you were starting to get bored of being alone. until you came across a tiktok of a girl pranking her boyfriend and she immediately got an idea, that’s how she was going to get his attention and she knew it was going work because Jungwon tended to get clingy when not infront of his friends, once you heard him say goodbye and make his way to the bedroom you knew. “ah jagi! i was expecting you to be asleep now..” he smiled and came to where you were sitting and laid his head on you shoulder “wonnie you should wash up and get ready for bed” he hummed in agreement at your statement and raised his head to land a kiss on your cheek until you abruptly got up “yahh jagii.. i wanted a kiss” he pouts and grabs your arm to pull you down “wonnie!” you called before he started to kiss your face all over.

nsm.r

“babe ill be finished in a bit don’t worry” is what your boyfriend told you while turning around in his gaming chair and leaving you on the bed sulky

riki has been on the gaming system all night and you were starting to get drowsy untill an idea struck your brain, riki was a persistent guy. when he wanted something he made big efforts to get it so you decided when riki came to kiss you as an apology (because he does that every time) you were going to ignore him. a couple minutes or more like hours past and you heard riki announce that he was going to bed to his teammates and make his way to the bedroom “babyyy are you awake?” he said with a smile on his face “shit.. please don’t be mad at me! i did not mean to be on for long!” he made his way towards the bed and laid his body on yours, rubbing your tummy he said “i can make it up to you” he leaned in and tried to kiss your nose before you put your finger on his forehead to stop him “yah! let me kiss you” he pinned your arms above your head and grabbed your chin “see now you cant run away” were the last words he uttered before pecking your lips over and over.

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[sweet-drmzzz]

HOLY FUCK I LOVE THE IMPERFECT FRIEND GROUP

Ok ive posted about it before but basically its this big collaborative story in a server im in, me and one other person ( @arctic-the-otherkin-alterhuman (lmk if u dont wanna be tagged btw) r the ones usually doing it, but we also het lots of help and input from others.

it is based off of that meme thats like "emo - the world is broken and im upset about it, goth - the world is broken but theres beauty in the dark parts" etc. etc., and it follows five aesthetics as main characters.

idk just smth abt having this big open collaborative story rly gets my creativity flowing.

:>

[thatoddhaystack]

ssp angel!! my girl....

[toxic-sugar-piie]

group-pic yay!!!

[tiredghostness]

I hope you are aware of Macaque's actions during the series and not disregarding them under the impression of "Oo wholesome dad who just wants to keep his children safe" or some shit.

Obviously, that is not what I'm planning to go for it. The angst scales are already on 11 and I'm not stopping at anytime soon.

Under 'read more' is where I dive more into how I am planning to portray Macaque in the story;

Macaque's morals are something that Will be questioned in the story. As while on one side, Qiū Zi's lack of a parental/proper adult figure does affect her on terms of trusting people who seem to want to help her but don't know how.

His main goal in making Qiū Zi as his student was to drain her out of her powers and just kill her to make sure none is left. I've stated this a couple of times during my previous posts, as it ties to his og plan during S1 EP9 of LMK.

However, this plan was quickly cut short after a few more incidents involving the kid and how negative the curse actually affected its hosts, Regardless whether they are familiar with the powers or not. Which kinda made him sympathize with her and try to help her heal instead, especially when the curse Did get worse and became an actual threat to Qiū Zi's life.

Bro did Not want to die a second time again. Nor did he want her to experience it (guess who failed at one of those two)

Does this explain things? Ehh not fully, I am trying to hold my mouth until I can actually start with the story making.

On another Note!

I am taking elements from Other fictions on the web , so if I say that Macaque's demonic nature got in the way and made him protective of Qiū Zi later on in the series then guess who got inspired by a certain soysauce duo fanfic.

It has been majorly characterized (HC) by the fandom that Macaque comes as a natural baby sitter and knows how to take care of children, esp the baby monkeys in ffm. Also seen in the S4 specials.

I hope this explains stuff. If there are more questions then feel free to let me know. My asks are open in regards to story making.

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Honorable mentions/j @lmk-oc-competition

[shalom-iamcominghome]

I'm still thinking about my professor proof-reading my rhetorical analysis essay about white supremacy, violence, and antisemitism because it went a bit like:

Prof: *shakes her head while reading* I can't understand how someone could believe this

I mean... You guys value education, and learning, and family, I just don't get it!

And the food? Have you ever been to Brooklyn?! Ugh, the food!

I don't want to be overdramatic, but it subtly tells me how different we engage with this subject. I definitely like my professor, and she's nice, but that essay for me was scary, and raw, and it's a subject I've been forced to experience and the violence that comes from these movements are violences I have experienced in some ways and just... I don't know, it was a weird dichotomy to simultaneously feel so raw while also realizing that non-jewish people will not understand why