#young!ben

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VALENTINE'S DAY ! BOT RELEASE.

i honestly didn't think i was going to do valentine's themed things but ... i got a lot of sweet n romantical reqs and suddenly i'm doing a valentine's drop LOL. enjoy !!

CONTENTS INCLUDE young ! soldier boyㅤㅤsoldier boyㅤㅤstanford ! deanㅤㅤdean winchesterㅤㅤㅤㅤ+ vought exec's daughter ! userㅤㅤ&&.ㅤㅤcontroversially young ! user !!

color theory !! young!soldier boy. ben didn't think he'd meet his soulmate in this era - until his world erupts into color upon meeting the daughter of one of vought-american's execs. just his luck, right?

written in ink !! soldier boy. ben wasn't known to be a kind, or easy man, made worse when he was well into the new century and he hadn't met you yet, the name written on his wrist. fuck this soulmate thing, right?

first impressions !! dean winchester. (req!) dean always knew that meeting his soulmate would be a hard interaction, with the words on his forearm, foreboding and ominous, being please don't leave me.

thought process !! dean winchester. (req!) you were in dean's head; he didn't know a time when you weren't in his head. when you go radio silent, desperate measures are taken to find the soulmate attached to those pretty thoughts.

lessons in chemistry !! stanford!dean. (req!) the last thing dean wanted was a tutor when his life was already falling apart at the seams. it only gets worse when you end up being the one stuck with the job - his ex.

[quietwings-fics]

I Knew You, Once

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply Fandom: Star Wars Ship: Gen (Rey & Ben Solo, Poe & Rey, Leia & Rey) Additional Tags: Character Study, Relationship Study, Alternate Universe - Pre-Canon, Brother-Sister Relationships, Rey Needs A Hug, POV Rey (Star Wars), Kylo Ren is Not Nice, Young Ben Solo, Young Rey, Family, Angst, Attempt at Humor, One Shot, Ben Solo is Kylo Ren, Rey is a lesbian btw it's mentioned like once its important to me, Not Reylo, Growing Up Together, Betrayal, Force Bond (Star Wars) Wordcount: 1351 Podfic Length: 09:06 Summary:

Rey is the only one who never calls him Kylo Ren.

She understands why the others have to. They need to separate the man who is slaughtering defenseless villages and the boy who used to play hide-and-seek with her between the X-Wings. Leia can’t fight a war against her own son, but she can fight Kylo Ren. Han is trying to mourn him, and by mourn, Rey means he’s trying to forget that Kylo Ren exists. Luke, before he leaves, before he abandons them, calls him Kylo Ren because that’s the name he was given when he fell to the Dark Side and only when he finds the light again can he become Ben Solo.

To Rey, that’s all bullshit. Kylo Ren is just a mask, and if you took it off, Ben would still be there, staring back at you.

So, she never calls him that, not in meetings with the resistance, not when talking to the General, not when Poe is saying goodbye on his next mission and she is saying back, “Be careful. Ben almost caught you last time.” When she feels resentful, she likes to think she’s taking away his power, the glamour of the Dark Side he’s used to disguise the fact that he used to just be a man. When she’s so sad she can barely talk or leave her room, she likes to imagine that Luke is right, and that every time she says his name, she’s bringing him back, just a little.

She still dreams of him. Not the monster he’s become, but the boy she grew up with. They used to be inseparable. She’d start a sentence, and he would finish it, and they’d both grin like they’d planned the whole thing. They dashed through crowds without ever losing track of each other, pulled pranks on Poe that left all three of them laughing, and always had each other’s backs. They hid away in the Falcon, Rey fumbling with a mechanical puzzle box Luke had gifted her when she turned twelve, and Ben with his ‘serious’ face on that he thought made him look more adult. It kind of made her want to throw the toy at him.

“Uncle Luke is going to train me to be a Jedi.” She nodded absently, and Ben frowned, annoyed. He reached out right as she had almost solved it, and the toy flew out of her hand and into his. She felt a protest form and die on her tongue when she realized what he’d done.

“That’s awesome!” Ben was at that age where the most important thing in the world was how cool he appeared to others, and when she held out her hand, he floated the toy back to her, carefully, brow furrowed in concentration. It took him weeks to perfect even that, but he never told her. He wanted it to seem effortless. Years later, when she’s trying to learn herself, she laments how easy it was for him, how she’ll never be as good, and Leia is eventually the one to tell her that the first time he tried to use the Force, he hit himself in the face with a rock he was trying to make hover.

“You could be one, too.” He leaned back, proud, already certain she’d be by his side. Because why wouldn’t she? Rey turned the box over in her hands. She wasn’t sure what she wanted to do. She knew she could feel the Force, humming in the air around her and burning in her lungs when she and Ben got into a rare fight. If Ben could use it, so could she.

“Maybe,” she answered, finally. “Maybe, I’ll be a smuggler. And then I can come flying in to save you.” She’d been raised on the stories of the rebellion, most of them from Poe, who liked to embellish. For a moment, Ben scowled, but it vanished as quickly as it had come, and Rey wrote it off, like she did every time. She wishes she hadn’t. She wishes she’d seen the pattern long before it led him to the First Order, not because she could have stopped it, but because it would have saved her a lot of heartache to understand why he could turn on them. The Skywalker family legacy weighed down on him in a way she never experienced, and instead of letting go, growing beyond it, he let that resentment fester until all he wanted to do was tear apart the tapestry his mother and uncle wove out of a broken and divided galaxy.

He still hasn’t seen the irony in doing it all in Darth Vader’s name.

“Wait for me,” she’d told him firmly, on that last day before he left with Luke. “I’ll be ready soon. I’ll come join you. We can both be Jedi.” By then, she had made up her mind. Wherever Ben went, so did she. She thought it’d work the other way around, too. He hugged her, and he promised, said he would always wait for her. She had no reason not to believe him. Ben had spent his childhood with her running after him, three years younger and never as fast as him, but he’d always let her catch up. He’d always waited.

Until one day, he didn’t.

Rey woke up screaming, clutching the sides of her head like there were blaster bolts bouncing around inside it. She was screaming for Ben, begging him, trying to make him hear her and stop doing whatever was hurting her, hurting them. She’d never felt anything like that pain, and in the back of her mind, it still lingered, her senses dulled to it purely by how long it had been happening, but the first time was agony. She’d lived so long with Ben a part of her that she couldn’t have ever been prepared for him to try and rip them apart.

He almost killed Luke. He took the other students, killed the ones who wouldn’t follow him, and chose Snoke to be his new master. And he made Rey do it, too. She had nightmares through his eyes of tearing the school apart, the smell of a lightsaber cutting through flesh making her sick when she escaped the dream. She’s still not sure if Ben knew he was damning her with him, and she doesn’t care if it matters or not. He still did it. She’s still dreaming about it and every other monstrous thing he’s done.

That’s why when Leia says that there might still be Light in him, she laughs bitterly. She’s been in every corner of his head as he’s been in every corner of hers, and if there’s still a chance, she’s yet to find it. Poe, at least, understands. He watched Ben grow up too, if from another perspective, already an adult when the First Order rose to power. He’s the only one who knows she still has nightmares. She’s learned to muffle the screams. Poe doesn’t try to fill up the space Ben left, either, but he stays, tells her pilots’ gossip and makes terrible jokes and gives her tips on how to flirt with the other girls on base that he isn’t remotely qualified to give. Ben was her brother, or another piece of her soul, depends on who you ask, but Poe’s her friend, and that’s worked out much better for her so far.

Ben Solo is Kylo Ren is a monster and a murderer and a terror upon the galaxy and is still Ben. She wants to hate him, but can’t, and wonders if she could forgive him, but can’t, and wishes she could do what everyone else does and believe the mask he’s chosen and the name he’s been given and the lies he’s weaved around himself, but can’t. She’s going to have to face him one day, maybe even fight him, maybe even kill him, and she’s not sure if she can do that either. The worst part is that she misses him, even though he doesn’t deserve to be missed.

It would be so much easier if she could just kill Kylo Ren.

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[too-many-rooks]

serious spy show

[inkpads]

ok but Klaus and Five are Sirius and Regulus variants

[trixeclipse]

Padawan Obi using references of young Ewan McGregor with long hair ❤️

[fairweathermyth]

BLACK DOVES 1.04 ⌁ Go Bang Time

[abesetacringe]

concept where BEN can possess literally any tech stuff in the slendermansion

[leoholzer]

Helen Webb & Sam Young + touches Black Doves

[keirahknightley]

That's probably Spycraft 101, isn't it?

Black Doves 1.02 "A Little Black Dove"

[moonminho]

Amita loves to play chess.

[daylighted]

1000 followers on c.ai feels so so crazy to me. i cannot thank all of you here that follow me there enough!! ever!! it's crazy that u guys not only support me & my endless aus but??? like them?? insane! i literally adore all of you :( so of course this calls for a celebration and that means... big bot drop. gotta feed the people, y'know? sticking to my jackles roots but with a few little easter eggs & surprises tucked away in here hehehe. hope no one minds they're being posted a lil early!

SERIOUSLY THANK U :( !! my heart is so big and full with love, and i cannot wait to show u all what else i have in store for the year, but for now ... ten in total. linked below & located on my acct by [🖤]!

TOXIC EX !! STANFORD!DEAN passion fueled you and dean's tumultuous relationship & pinched it out just as quickly. now you just needed to figure out how to navigate campus life with him around every bend.

HUNTING TRIP !! STANFORD!DEAN old habits die hard. that's what dean told himself, at least, when he wound up sneaking out of your dorm room to blow off a little more steam. bold of him to think he'd escape without being noticed.

GOTH GIRL !! STANFORD!DEAN part of the dean & the girls he can pull line of stanford!dean, in line next to shy girl & party girl. your relationship isn't exactly fitting the conventional stereotypes, but he's a little too obsessed to care.

COVERT OPS !! DEAN WINCHESTER based on an unreleased fic. the "family business" doesn't involve hunting monsters in the literal sense. you were playing a dangerous game, sneaking into the unsuspecting clutches of the man who killed your parents...

HIT MY LINE !! DEAN WINCHESTER the front desk receptionist, you, at this particularly motel was irresistible, and completely detached from dean's charms. so he calls, and he calls, and he calls, hoping that this one will be the one to woo you.

BAD HABIT !! YOUNG!BEN ben had things to prove and a reputation to build, all of which couldn't involve you. but here he was, newly acquired strongest man alive, unable to break the spell that you'd put him under.

NIGHTMARES !! YOUNG!BEN comfort bot. the nightmares and the insomnia kept you from ever inviting ben over, but he knew what he signed up for with you. let him talk you down and keep you company, and scare off the scary things in your head.

CHANCE ENCOUNTERS !! JACKLES you'd gone to high school with him, once. loved him, twice. now, he was a television star rubbing elbows with big names. but even jensen has a family to visit back at home, and how ironic is it that he remembers his high school sweetheart by name?

GROW OLD !! OLDER!ALEC MCDOWELL the world's started to even itself out after the pulse and alec's begrudging venture into the real world. no longer fighting, no longer looking over his shoulder, he has you by his side, and the domesticities of everyday life have never looked so pretty.

DILF NEXT DOOR !! DILF!RAFE CAMERON i bet you weren't expecting this one, were you? future fic. no matter how many times rafe tried to escape outer banks, he always came back home. so it was an easy choice, deciding where to settle down now that he had a daughter to take care of.

[p1zzaparty]

sorry for the lack of art all i got is fucking headshots today 😭

[teddybarebones]

Some shots of Ben Whishaw as Sam in Black Doves

[m0ose-idiot]

Ever wondered whether Yonderland or Ghosts is the sauciest show? WONDER NO MORE, let this Very Important ScienceTM put your mind at ease

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[fairweathermyth]

BLACK DOVES 1.02 ⌁ A Little Black Dove