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'I feel my shadow dissolving will you cleanse me with pleasure' x
#behave yourself vessel#you're causing me distress#always with the fondling#vessel#sleep token#see my problem#i chastise him but i’m so down#i won’t even pretend that this is not a post of just that
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Get your pro-Hamas bullshit out of our hashtags
least racist liberal ^^^
yousef isn't hamas, he's an accountant. he really liked working as one, but he hasn't been able to since the attacks started. he'd like to move himself and his family to sweden, they have some friends there, and he'd like to start working there as an accountant again. his wife mona isn't hamas either, she's an artist! she sent me some pictures of her art (I'm only not sharing them because I haven't asked permission) and her drawings are beautiful. she does realistic portraits, she's very talented. she'd love to make art in peace again. and alaa isn't hamas either, he's one year old! he gets very scared by the bombings nearby. i'm sure he wants out. but the crossing isn't open yet, and they still have to pay for all their general expenses, the last price yousef told me for one bag of flour was $450, and prices are only rising faster! it went from $140 to that in a matter of days! if anyone can help this family I'd really appreciate it <3
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10 kr is 94 cents usd
#arcane#is that the tag you're from? isn't that about occupiers and revolutionaries?#caitvi#wicked#gelphie#voltron#throwing that one in there too idk if anyone looks at it still. but also about a revolution against an empire#disco elysium#mouthwashing#dropout#<- i am seeing if anyone scrolling those tags will stop to share the fundraiser#if it is genuinely causing that much distress you can just block me it's ok 👍#now addressing the asker directly: i didn't put any hamas posts in your hashtags. you may be stupid i fear
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im so fuckin sick rn billy joel please stop plaguing my thoughts i've got enough going on what with the plague (the cold my roommate says she definitely didn't give me that she definitely gave me but no hard feelings) and the literal wars i am fighting in school right i don't need the piano man in my skull please
#help#she really thinks she's not contagious but I'm like girl. maybe your sinus infection isn't contagious but the cold that caused it sure is.#im so fucking tired#i slept 2 hours last night#i was studying for an exam and then I was going to go to bed at 9 pm#but it is now nearly 4 am and I'm still up because something distracted me from literally sleeping#girl#you're tired#go to bed#I feel like a gust of wind could take me out rn#very ill#and fucking billy joel is in my brain and he won't stop singing#PLEASE SHUT UP#billy Joel be quiet#college is a lot#and now I have to deal with billy Joel + don mcclean popping in every once in a while to sing American pie#I don't even like that song#😭#I want to go home#please#free me from this torment#i don't even listen to billy joel's music why won't he leave me tf alone#please ignore#these are the ramblings of a girl in distress
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gonna be kind of funny to go to the counseling appointment i made last week when i was in crisis and be like yeah so most of the stuff that was making me crazy just suddenly and unexpectedly resolved like yesterday so i'm probably mostly fine now aside from being confused that that happened LOL
#i mean i still want to talk about why it was causing me so much distress and now suddenly is not LOL#because that's completely insane#and my anxiety levels have tbh been very high for months so like#it's not like everything is just magically better now#but congrats to student counseling center you're getting a very different version of me than you would have literally 2 days ago#personal
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maybe one day when I can get a hold of a therapist with expertise that fits my particular issues, I can finally address the crippling feelings of jealousy and worthlessness whenever people who's kindness I treasure deeply are nice to others 🤔
#hate to admit it but deep inside i am just the absolute worst. jealousy and worthlessness are eating my insides every single day#not as bad as it once was. I've gotten pretty good at repressing my reactions. but i still feel it like a knife twisting in my chest and gut#and i don't think that's normal ✌#hate to admit it but this jealousy and the resulting feelings of worthlessness and me wanting to avoid The Bad Feelings#and unnecessary drama: if i remove myself from the situation/person i won't hurt anyone. sound logic when you're in distress. stupid asf tho#has caused the breakdown of a few friendships. and I'm not proud of how many people I've hurt this way over the years.#just wish i could get All Of This under control while avoiding all human contact#but i'm part of a social species and if i'm on my own for too long i go crazy crazy and that's not good either#will i ever get on top of this? who knows#...would that be considered black and white thinking?#like when people i care for and am happy to receive love and attention from give that same attention to others#and it feels like they won't ever give it to me again or that i am not special/our bond means nothing#and it makes me feel this ugly ugly jealousy -> shame -> worthlessness -> shame -> gotta isolate thing???#IDK?????????? i'm just working here (in my fuckdd up brain and body) i don't control the manifestation of my mental issues#anyway confessions at 6am after a sleepless night while feeling delirious from being sick with a cold 👍#might delete this later idk yet
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I lost my plushie for several days now and I have like flipped my entire bed and bedframe upside down trying to look for it cause it normally never leaves my bed and I swear if I found out that I left that thing at school I am going to take a very long time to forgive myself
#Cause there's no way I wouldnt have noticed it leaving my pocket..#and the only time i take it out of my pocket at school is when i set it on my desk and that's usually only ever in the library.#but even then I just. there's no way. I'm going to ask just incase anyway today though cause it's distressing me not having them.#I'm posting this here cause I mostly associate them with John cause they're a horse.#and they're name is Clementine and in the Disney Infinity game you can hear John humming “Oh my darling Clementine”.#Which is one of those songs like “You are my sunshine” where it sound sweet but then you see the rest of the-#-lyrics anr you're like. oh. this is. a very very tragic and sad song.#self shipping#selfship#self ship#selfshipping
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a bit of context if you're not quite sure how to answer:
the girls in the book Are You There God? It's Me, Margaret would fall into the "very positive" category - they were excited to get their periods and would speak openly with their friends about puberty
a child who obsessed over a fear of menstruation, felt dread when they thought about it, or was deeply in denial about this aspect of puberty, would fall on the "very negative" end
note: anyone being judgmental or hateful/bullying on this post will be blocked (ie. transphobia, disrespect toward intersex people, biological essentialism, etc.)
#if you expected to start menstruating but never did you're still in the target audience of this poll btw#feel free to elaborate in tags i'm very interested in others' childhood experiences and how they may interact with other factors#periods#menstruation#if i see any truscum or terf shit you're gone. everyone be normal to each other even just for this one post i beg you#i wanted to make this post bc i was SO scared of starting my period and i obsessively thought about it for at least 2-3 years#it caused me a lot of distress. i've always had high anxiety and i'm trans so it's not that surprising#but when i judy blume the attitude i was seeing was sooo different from my own experience#i didn't talk to my friends about it at all either. not until we were like late teens was it discussed at all in my circle#poll
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still thinking about how my ex-best friend went on an entire conversation tangent about how they Just Couldn't Understand Why People Use Neopronouns, They Just Don't Make Sense literally right after i'd mentioned i use any and all pronouns, including neos. it wasn't sparked by my comment, but like, dude. what the hell.
#like. read the fucking room would you. those are my pronouns too.#tried extensively to explain it. they just weren't open to changing their mind#NOT a fun experience!#is it so hard to go ''i don't understand it but frankly my understanding isn't required for me to respect it''???#bitch you're trans too do you HEAR yourself. ''it's ridiculous but i Guess i'll go along with it. to be nice.'' like???????#and like for ages i was like ''man have they always been this much of a dickhead?? what on earth happened???''#went back and read my old journal entries from 2021 recently#this was not new#they were causing me distress and anxiety for years and i just. didn't let myself think about it#bc they were there for me when no one else was#and as expected i'm feeling Totally Normal And Fine about that#i'm so glad we don't talk anymore#friday chats
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#idk i just feel so scared????? men are soooo terrifying#like i can think a guy is normal then the more i learn pfc he gets off to rape!!!#like it really feels like all men love rape and idk it's just so...#even if they use the excuse of only fantasizing abt it .. theyre fantasizing abt raping someone (mostly raping women lol)#if they watch a show and a horrific rape scene comes on they get turned on. bc they like the idea of raping a woman. they like rape itself#if i watch a scene like that i get distressed nd heartbroken nd sad bc *i* see the humanity of the woman nd the extreme pain nd suffering#she's being caused. i dont get turned on???? i feel sad and feel empathy for her#but men dont feel empathy for pieces of meat that much is clear#idk its just so sick and vile that they see a woman being caused extreme pain and they like it#they get turned on??? wtf is wrong w them how can u even do that??#and im supposed to.... be in a relationship w a man??? who doesnt view me as a human who gets off on hurting nd abusing women.....#like even him i love said that he got off on the idea of me being asleep nd not being able to consent skksksks#how do u think like that abt someone u supposedly love????? if i love a woman i'd never think abt hurting her or seeing her in distress????#and if you're w a guy who openly admits to jacking off to raping you how do u know that he wont actually do it?#if hes in a situation w you nd he has the opportunity means nd motivation nd he knows u wouldnt say anything.. why would he not rape u???#idk men are so fkn terrifying i dont rlly wanna be anywhere near any man like theyre so sick#rape is heinous. and clearly men dont care bc theyre always the rapists so why would they care abt the fear of being raped#no idk. even if i love a man sm it hurts i dont think its safe or smart to be with one. they'll always rape or abuse or hurt u
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who the fuck is dying
fdgjkhsdf anon,,
Well,! That's a complicated question... One of 'em is just gonna feel like they're dying/gonna die, but they'll be fine, just a bit fucked up!
The other one.. uh.. it'll be okay dw about it👍
#wren speaks#anon#ooc#this was so funny to get suddenly#sorry i dont wanna spoil anything for the people who don't know about those plots!#if you're the kind of person who needs to know about oc's dying or anything because it causes genuine distress tho#I can tell you if you dm me#or send an ask off anon <3
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just saw someone tag a post about Big still being alive as “korn is hiding him” and well it seems I’ve discovered a fear I never knew I had
#kinnporsche#kinnporche the series#kinnporsche big#just the thought is so incredibly distressing#full disclosure I don't really believe it but damn if that's not a whole ass Concept#(we all know which version of events I believe lmao theres almost 50k words of it)#if this was your tag and you're seeing this hello you've caused me psychic damage this day thank u
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Are we allowed to share RenRuki fic ideas with you?
Ummmmmm.............I guess the question I have is, I guess it depends on why you want me to see it?
So, on one hand, I always want to support the Renruki fanfic writing enterprise. If you sincerely want help developing an idea, I am open to help with that, although if that is the case, *please* do not send your ask anonymously, because I would probably prefer to reply privately. You can also email me for that sort of thing. If we are already on a DM basis, and you want to chat about your ideas, I am happy to listen and support you! (or if we're kinda friends and you want to make the jump to DMs, maybe that's a good excuse).
On the other hand, I sincerely do not like it when people, especially people I don't really know, send me things that are like "here is an idea that I had!" because I have no idea what is being asked of me. I cannot even conceive the thinking behind sending something like this, I would never. What on earth would motivate you to put that in someone's askbox instead of just posting it on your own blog, where your followers, the people who want to see your ideas, can see it? If you tag it, then everyone who follows that tag will see it too! Maybe people want my blessing, or something, but I am deeply uncomfortable being put in that role. It's all well and good, I guess, if I happen to like your idea (although I still don't know what to say...I would be so much more comfortable reblogging a post that you made), but if I don't like it, that really puts me in an uncomfortable spot, you see? I have kind of particular tastes, but I very intentionally keep the things I don't like to myself. I don't ever want someone to be sad because I hated on their favorite idea, but sometimes I don't know what else to do when someone shoves it into my inbox and my only choices are to make a public comment on it, or just delete the ask, either of which is going to hurt the asker's feeling. I don't ever really think that what the asker wants is a sincere criticism of their idea, but unfortunately, that's what I usually end up doing and then I feel terrible about it and then I close my ask box for three months. Also, literally, who cares what I think? If you have a fanfic idea and you like it, you should write it. (Although, I guess maybe part of the reasoning behind sending strangers your fanfic idea is because you have no intention of actually writing it, in which case I am doubly not the person to send it to)
To be honest, I don't care very much about fanfic ideas. I care about fanfic execution. Most of my own fanfic is pretty low-concept. I know many people enjoy just talking about their ideas with no intention of ever writing them and this is not me. If I could write the fanfic without ever having the ideas, I would. I read just about every Renruki fanfic I see on ao3 (unless the tags are a no-go) and if I liked it, I'll leave a comment, and if I don't have anything nice to say, I won't.
I guess the third case is that you want to tell me about your fanfic idea in the hopes that I'll write it, to which I will say, a) please be very clear if that is the case, and b) I suppose if it's interesting enough, I might, but the odds are very low, and it will probably take me forever. Oh, also, once again, please don't ask on anon, so that I can reply to you on private.
#sorry to be weird and neurotic about this#but these kinds of asks cause me an enormous amount of distress ☹️#it's always helpful if you're really clear about what it is you want me to do!#i have bad social anxiety and do not thrive on ambiguous communication!
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someone made a trobed fic to you're losing me by taylor swift. i'm going to be sick
#trobed#troy barnes#abed nadir#troy and abed#you're losing me#taylor swift#i'm on the verge of tears#it has the unhappy ending tag#i don't think i can finish it#this is causing me legitimate distress
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actually, no this is not correct.
autistic elope to run *away* from perceived danger (or even because they got interested in something else and went to seek that thing out).
autistic children who elope can be put in dangerous situations, yes, but to say that autistics "run away for no reason into danger" is not what elopement is. elopement occurs because the autistic is overstimulated or feels unsafe, it is an extreme reaction to their normal flight or fight response.
the solution is not to say "elopement is always dangerous" it is to ask "WHY is my autistic child running away from me right now" "HOW can i be more accommodating of their sx so that they dont get in this state again"
and also not all autistic who elope get into dangerous situations and to act like this is the *only* way it manifests in autistics is ableist towards lvl1/2 autistics because you can learn to overcome your elopement desires and just because you don't give in or can manage the response doesnt mean the response isn't there.
Autistics:
#to be fair its also ableist towards level 3 autistics because they DO NOT DESERVE to be overstimulated just to fit in or be viewed as normal#its used to justify putting children on leashes instead of oh idk not forcing them to be in places that cause them distress#also i mean can learn like is possible to learn not that every autistic should be forced to overcome this sx#also elopement is actually considered to be a normal part of development when you're a toddler#but autistics don't outgrow it/the sx is very persistent in autistics and that is why it is of concern for autistic parents#because autistic children can just walk for much much much longer than allistic children without getting tired/needing help#or they may not even know how to communicate their need for help either#just so much wrong information in this response idk where to begin#the thing that rubs me the wrong way is the idea that autistics run away for 'no' reason just because your parent doesnt know the reason#doesnt mean there wasnt a reason for that happened
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Nyx and Castor with Evelyn Evelyn by Evelyn Evelyn (but could also fit any of the characters with sibling like dynamic/are siblings)
#time diary(?)#audrey/kellie's time diary#smrh smth “Why do we bother to stay?Why are you running away?Don't you feel like severing?#everything's just come together at last. it's broken i dont want to play.“ / ”we grew up so very close. a parasite needs a host. im only#trying to do what is best for us! well i never asked for this. i never wanted this. all that i wanted was some time to myself#looking in your eyes. im coming home. just get away from me. please just stop touching me. youre always trying to be somebody else#now i realize im not alone. well you're only scared of me. but you never cared for me. why dont you let me free? cause you never#dare to be. cause you never listen. youre always insisting (im just/just stop) reminiscing. i feel something missing#i just want (you here with me/my privacy). God (cant we just get along/wont you leave me alone)?“#alnst oc#alien stage oc#anyways#alnst oc: onyx#alnst oc: nyx#alnst oc: castor#yeah#alnst ocs#alien stage ocs#alnst season 39#alien stage season 39#(not tagging the creators because they have things to do and I'll only add to more of their distress)
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Hey google how does one Let Go Of Things?
#no seriously if anyone has tips i'd appreciate them because this is staying in Distressing territory and that's not exactly ideal#much harder to learn to do your job if you're also panicking about appearing abled the whole time#got lectured by my supervisor/leader because I displayed (genuinely one of the most harmless) autistic traits and it's *still*#bothering me and causing a lot of anxiety about going back tomorrow and i just. cannot get past it#i had a good cry about it after work and everything whyyyyy is this still causing me problems
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