#you guys dont fuckign understand.

[druidshollow]

the thinkerrrrrrrrr

[whippedcreamcookie]

EVERYONE COLLAPSED AND DIED

[6-2-aestheticsofhate]

Ultratober day 15-16 character you hate

Technically, saying I hate M/inos or V/2 would be VERY inaccurate because i do like them but sometimes people use them to put down Sisyphus or V1 and THEN I momentarily dislike them but then I bounce back and enjoy them again not long after.

[goldenguillotines]

I must also say. The flavor difference in Moirailships is amazing sometimes. This post is about fish to fish communication

[skrunksthatwunk]

world's thinnest walls versus parents' stupidest argument

[k-0re]

SHITTING CRYING THROWING UP

SHES FUCKIGN GAY GUYS ‼️‼️🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈IM SO FUCKING HAPPY YOU DONT UNDERSTAND

ANOTHER SLAY FOR THE GAYS

[illusioncanthurtme--art]

In this house we believe in MASTER KOHGA SUPREMACY!!!!!!!! 🍌

I know this might look like "oh haha Veronica likes another fictional guy go figure 🙄" but NO. You dont understand. this goes so fucking deep, I LOVE this man. When his ass showed up on screen I SCREAMED. Literally no different from a girl at a Harry styles concert or something, except in this case it's me in my living room, and a fat old dude (who is VERY silly mind you) from a video game. We're almost encroaching self ship territory, but thankfully link is here, and to quote our lord and savior austin powers, he’s the town bicycle and EVERYONES had a ride. I can live vicariously through him. Let me tell you a little about my master kohga journey (totk spoilers)

So way back when I first played this game in 2017 or something, I really liked him, and when he fell down that hole I was CONVINCED he wasn't dead. I had a theory that link would go down in the hole in the sequel and kohga would be there, stuck. I remember I told this theory to someone and they actually LAUGHED!! well GUESS WHOS LAUGHING NOW BITCH!!!!!! MY FUCKIGN BOYFRIEND IS ALIVE!!!!! My theory was basically right, I just didn't know about the depths at all obviously. I came across kohga at the temple and I shit you not I was SCREAMING like an insane person. Like actual cringe fangirl shit in my living room. I was SO happy, that actually made my whole day and the days afterward. I'd just be sitting there and my brain would go "DUDE master kohga though" and then I would go ":)" I'm gonna go meet him in the gerudo depths and i’m excited to see him again :) This is what I have been doing between commissions. This is what keeps me sane somehow. Pear shaped king 😔💞 I hope you like my design for him sans the mask. He is so tricky to draw so idk if I'm gonna draw more of him BUT, just know that I WILL be thinking about him

(Also WHAT is with me liking characters who like bananas??? Why is this a reoccurring theme???)

[psshaw]

You have been one of the most unapologetically yourself artists Ive come across and I dont mean that in the cliche way I mean like... your idiosyncrasies seem particularly unstifled. Your art is purely yourself and the mainstream isnt gonna go for it but the audience you do speak to gets to feel like an alien finding someone else from their homeland. AI image gen feels like a beautiful cake with flowery frosting and when you cut into it its actually frosting all the way down and has nothing of substance. I obviously can speak only in metaphors lol so I just wanted to say I appreciate reading your thoughts on AI and tho I feel strongly abt it I have a hard time putting exacting words to what about it is so worrying to me. As an artist it energizes me when I see artists who are wildly unique and expressing themselves without a care to their skill limitations or personal strangenesses (read: mainstream unmarketability). Manga artist ONE and his charming and funky style is a great example. Anyway I love your thoughts and wanted to say thanks and also throw words at you

FUCKIGN DAMN DUDE, ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME CRY? Why is the weather getting misty on my face specifically. Thank you. My most contentious trait is that I keep forgetting to care what people want from me.

It's really interesting following people who are very honest but more mathy than me, because the way they talk about art and AI lately has gotten... increasingly callous. Even bitter. It's partly justified, because artists tend to suck at defending themselves charismatically. ("AI art isn't real art"; the "AI can't do hands" thing was always destined to age badly) But also, I can't stand the sheer selfishness of people who claim to be rational but don't seem know how to investigate what art at its best is for and why they view it the way they do. When I read "AI is great for hobbyists" I'm like. 95% of the time, I'M A HOBBYIST... I would never generate a script, or music... javascript maybe, but I'd feel guilty about it... but the excitement? I think some guys are just looking to suckle on a feeding tube. Cos they were done a disservice by thinking they had to stop visual art after fingerpainting!

I don't think AI NEVER has substance, but the type of person who gets excited about AI doesn't tend to do interesting things with it. And what really bothers me is that I can never tell exactly WHAT they did, versus how much was a coin flip. This is useless for understanding your voice as an artist. I don't care to see more by you.

ONE is a perfect example. His style MAKES that story. The manga and the anime feel so different. That's why I hate when people say that hating AI is discriminating against people who can't draw, cos like... if you can't make something intentional and real without using what's functionally a search engine, why would I believe you're having ideas worth the cliche conceptartdotcom overrendered AI polish at all? Not to be a dick, but like. In terms of rate of return on my attention investment, so far I'd do better by sitting at a craps table.

[mossy-rainfrog]

Build A Cowboy Round 5!

Hi good evening sorry for vanishing OK SO i mentioned in the tags of my first poll that this cowboy is not just going to be a vaguely historical cowboy, but from a Very specific time frame, because of the fic that his partner Javi exists in. That being said, there is a lot to unpack here with this! The time period exactly is 1841, the setting is Texas (because I am texan and we are predictable) and oh my god this is one of the most insane times for a character to be from texas 😭

Our cowboy will have in fact lived through the Mexican War of Independence (1810-1821), the Texas Revolution (1835-1836), tx's CRINGEFAIL attempt at self governing, rapidly approaching our annexation into the US in 1844-5, and then coming right up on the fuckign CIVIL WAR in 1861. These guys deeply understand the concept of "get me the fuck out of the interesting times, im sick of the interesting times". im so sorry cowboys, you can blame Herman Melville for this.

anyways yall didnt come here for a history lesson but you are in fact going to get one because i am insufferable first and an artist second :) and also as a note, race and backstory are always intertwined things but Especially when it is fuckign 1841 so. yeah exercise caution, there will be discussion of racism, medical close-calls, and anti-indigenous genocide. PLEASE ACTUALLY READ THE BACKGROUNDS BEFORE CHOOSING ONE! you dont have to read the sources. those are just there because i have autism. 👍

DETAILS BELOW THE READMORE BC I GOT WAYYY TOO WORDY⬇️

BACKSTORY A: Black Cowboy fled Texas* to Oklahoma with his family after the revolution, now travels up the trade routes breaking wild horses, passing along abolitionist messages, and assisting refugees. A miracle baby surviving a cleft lip with limited surgery and sustained permanent hearing damage as a result, he took up the trade of horsebreaking with flying colors, keeping right up with his older brothers. A sharp shot, keen eye, and a talented horseman, his best trained horses help him identify sounds that he otherwise can't hear. Loosely familiar with PSL, but primarily used a mix of lip-reading, localized/community generated sign growing up.

* After the US aided Texas in staging a coup against Mexico and declaring independence, an ordinance passed in 1836 that fully banished free Black people from the region unless they had personal pardon from Congress. This ordinance was not passed without pushback, and it changed shape and restriction over the years as people of color such as Joseph Tate, John and Charity Bird, Diana Leonard, Allen Dimery, and more all fought for their right to their own lands and lives. The law eventually settled into what was known as the Ashworth Act in 1840, which allowed free Black people to stay IF they had been residing in the state before 1836. It certainly wasn't the victory many had hoped, and even though many free Black persons in Texas were granted pardon to stay, like the Ashworths who the act was named after, many others were forced to leave after their allotted time was up, and were threatened with the future of slavery should they return. thank you texas history for being a vile piece of shit 👍

BACKSTORY B: Mexican/Tejano Vaquero from West Texas whose family has been ranching and cattle driving for decades. Has no interest in moving post-revolution, fuck you very much. If the borders are going to cross his family without asking*, then there's no need to cross them back. Technically lives with his family, but spends extensive periods of time away from home on cattle drives. Steady-handed, steadfast, quick to keep his herd safe. Miraculously survived a cleft lip as a baby and sustained permanent hearing damage** as a result, but that didn't stop his father from teaching him everything he knew, nor our man from taking to it like a fish to water. Knows more about cattle driving than you will ever forget.

*Some brief notes on the borders shifting and alienating people in their own rightful land.

**There was no official sign language of Mexico until the first Deaf school was established in 1869, but he and his family likely have a community-based one that works for them.

BACKSTORY C: Coahuiltecan (specifically Payaya)* cowboy, farrier, and leatherworker. Picked up the line of work as family was pushed to assimilate, one of the few still claiming Coahuiltecan identity at this time**, and has made a good living for himself and his sisters with it. Like the others, miraculously survived a cleft lip as a child but sustained permanent hearing damage as a result. Knows Plains Indian Sign fluently, and also relies on the direction of his horse for picking up sudden sounds before he can spot them. Tries to keep his work as local as possible to avoid separation from family for long, and whenever that is necessary, makes sure to come back soon.

*Note: Coahuiltecan is a term referring to several northern-Mexican and southern-Texan autonomous groups with distinct cultural differences. However, since Spanish and French colonizers lumped these groups together, an immense amount of distinguishing knowledge has since been lost.

** Also note: the Tāp Pīlam Coahuiltecan Nation is still very much around today (check out their site!) but nearing the mid 19th century, people at least claiming/listing this heritage on legal documents dwindled immensely for a variety of reasons.

[cupcraft]

i hate when they gaslight house about his pain. i definitely think that sometimes his physical pain is exacerbated by his stress/mental pain but that isnt something to disregard either. When hes stressed he thinks about his pain more even if it doesnt hurt any more than it did yesterday and people brush him off like it isnt a real thing. like 😭😭😭It still hurts guys

Exactly.

Like stress, anxiety, trauma, etc. are all things that can exacerbate pain and make it worse. They are things that can be caused by the pain, intersect with it, etc. It can make the pain harder to process and manage. Many things. Chronic pain and your mental state are linked but that DOES NOT mean his pain is "made up" just "psychological".

House needing therapy and addiction counseling aside, his pain is still real. It's always real. HIs pain being amplified by stress isn't fake. His pain causing stress which then causes it to be amplified in a cycle isn't fake. His pain is real and deserves to be taken seriously. Every fucking doctor in this show has no fuckign clue what chronic pain is like and it shows. They also act like House being addicted to vicodin is some moral failing when in fact like um he also does need pain management...and opiates are a form of pain management and a consequence of long term opiate pain management can be addiction which becomes a chronic illness on its own that deseves its own patience and management. People, other than fellow patients and disabled characters that also get what he's going through, see House's pain as a made up moral failing that is just his long sinister plan to be drug seeking which is just one of the most gutting parts of the show (and unfortunately a reality for how many people and the medical system treats disabled people and also addicts).

I think it becomes the most jarring when there's a narrative how many people defend Stacy's decision to break House's medical consent and autonomy, and the near sort of judgement he gets for not wanting an amputation. His decision over his body part is his own, his relationship to his leg is his own, his autonomy over wanting a prosthetic versus a leg and a cane is his own. There should be no morality assigned to what House wanted to do with his leg injury. And maybe, that morality is assigned as a sense of guilt people (especially Cuddy) have for the fact the only reason he was injured in the first place is that people gaslit him to think his pain was made up and that he was just some drug seeking individual (see the lecture episode where he talks about this especially amplified about how even the med students thought this patient who was really him was drug seeking and not having a blood clot).

There's also a way that many characters weaponize his pain, like they're trying to teach him a lesson to his "ego" and "selfishness". For example, I think to the episode where they took his parking space and made him and another disabled doctor be pit against each other. I think to how like "well technically the ADA and your accomodations says you can walk 50 feet so your new parking spot is exactly 46 feet so that means youre full of shit house!" and I think to how Cuddy was like "um being ambulatory is less disabled than non-ambulatory" which is gross and fucked up. I hate how she made him "prove" his disability by making him use a wheelchair, and I hate how she punished him for standing to save a patient's life. I hate how she was unreceptive to House being like "hey well 46feet or not you dont understand how much goes into my day planning where to walk, when I use the bathroom, when the elevator's out, etc. My whole day revolves around managing and mitgating my chronic pain" and like telling her there's more to his accomodations just being like "50 feet" because it is in fact more nuanced than that. And instead, it's again, yet another moral failing. The narrative pushed on house of "If only he amputated his leg and stopped seeking drugs he'd be so much better" versus the reality f addiction and chronic paina nd how that intersects with mental health

[pivsketch]

DUDE YOUR PIXEL ART IS GORGEOUS HELLO??? SHANE LOOKS SO GOOD IN YOUR STYLE???? I love the way you did elliots goofy-ass drunk sprite too its so, so fuckign good all the way down. its so cool to see what you're able to accomplish and add with (what im guessing is) the same pixel dimensions and perimeters nstuff as the original sprites

thanks! working with the default 16x32 dimensions is certainly a challenge. i dont know if you could change the sprite size nowadays but when i started on this way back when, the content packer didnt even exist so youd have to re-pack everything back into XNBs lol...

the first sprite i did was actually harvey's, because i wanted to make sure the format/style i settled on could handle all the tricky edge cases and he had glasses AND a tie AND a mustache. if i could fit in those three things then everything else would fall into place.

my files for this have always been in disarray since i kept picking it up and putting it back down, and i can barely find the stuff i already worked on, but heres a screencap of some of the villagers i was working on back in 2018

still plenty of things i need to fix or figure out or redo (palette adjustments and then some).

i wanted to keep their relative heights but because i made everyone's heads bigger to fit a whole face in, it makes the shorter women look like they got goofy bobble heads... one of the things i gotta look into is to see if theres a way to make that look less weird or if i gotta just make them taller. maybe i'd have to make the guys taller to compensate? its a lot of work and it definitely made me understand why nobody's really done something of this scale lol

[hesitantvampirealien]

you guys dont understand i fuckign love drawing current gerard's hair and giving it fluff

[theartistichuman]

i really dont think you guys understand how much the lyrics "i dont care if youre sick//i dont care if youre contagious// i would kiss you even if you were dead" have impacted my brain. you dont get it. you dont fuckign get it.

[leonardalphachurch]

I ALSO THINK. YOU MADE A WHOLE CUCKING CHARACTER WHOSE WHOLE THING IS THAT HE CANT GET OVER THE DEATH OF HIS BEST FRIEND HES SO HUNG UP ON THE PAST THAT IT DRIVES HIM CRAZY AND YOU FUCKIGN. YOU DONT INCLUDE HIM IN YOUR TIME TRAVEL STORY ONLY ONE SEASON LATER??? WHAT????? HELLO????? temple’s LITERALLY the perfect villain for a time travel story he’s the perfect jumping off point for the characters to think about the people they’ve lost and what they would or wouldn’t do to bring them back he’s the perfect mirror to them trying to save wash without caring about the consequences aggghhhhh because temple wouldn’t care! if it destroys the world to bring biff back. he’d make a deal with the devil he’d ruin EVERY timeline to bring him back and your “heroes” are doing the same thing how are they any better than him! (because i’m the end they decide to let the past be the past and move on and deal with it while temple refuses at every chance)

i just don’t understand how this show that had so many of its themes be about the past and how people deal with it barely even touch upon this theme in its time travel season. especially when the season! directly before it! written and directed by the same guy! was literally all about how people deal with the past! where did this GO. how did you drop the ball that badly

[perilegs]

yeah i love happy transgender characters but sometimes i personally crave the catharsis of seeing some transgender suffering similar to what i have felt and this post is going to be me rambling (and by rambling i mean spamming screenshots) about the house in fata morgana and discussing vague spoilers bc i have to get at least some of these worms out of my brain before i can sleep. this will be very long and make 0 sense so i dont expect anyone to read it all but if you do im sorry and i love you. also theres going to b transphobia and dysphoria and being super edgy and broody

first of all this man gets outed to the love of his life as transgender and

being rejected for it and ive had my fair share of being outed and my god. rereading makes me feel like gnawing my arm off. are you seeing this.

and. ok not not to be mr mommy issues on main here but this guy doesn't have a great relationship with his mom. im referring to him as this guy bc his name is kind of a spoiler probably i think so bear with me. anyways. his mother has and will always see him as her beautiful little girl. this guy is just trying to live his life and. my god. my ramble is going to be nothing but screenshots but like im currently so unwell about the frequency this game resonated with my soul with

i know this will seem like the most boring edgy and gloomy transgender guy who suffers too much to a lot of people but you have to understand that i love suffering and have a difficult relationship with myself and some around me. i am being so fuckign cringe and exposing my ass a bit too much here over something that seems mediocre to a lot of people but the way this is all written just. makes me feel a lot. lets look at this guy's childhood

this guy transforming from a girl into a man and looking into the mirror and saying "This... is me..." people looking into a mirror and seeing themselves is a trope that will never get old. to me.

meeting his less than supportive family after transitioning:

this is just going to be screenshots im a bit unwell about. there's one part im especially unwell about but it's too big of a spoiler to get into but a spoiler free way of saying it is this guy's mother caused like the biggest dysphoria moment of the century to him and spent several lines describing every single one of his feminine features. that's insane. i cant believe they wrote it. i mean yeah this is a game full of tragedy but! ouch!

this next one isnt about transgenderism but thinking about it too hard makes me. mghmghgnf,hd.

moving on to more things that make me feel a lot of things

more mommy issues

anyways.

[kusundei]

i dont fucking get it you cant just switch up randomly like that asking me ab japan and being kind and offering to buy me clothes like whay the fuck. after fucking lashing me for being dramatic when i wasnt even doing anything i didnt even show it????? literally lashed mtself in the bsthroom and took the time to calm down so you wouldnt yell at me and you did it regardless and j also just dont fucking get how you think yelling at me that way will just magically make jt okay.

no i never understand that bchz if youre trying to console me and assure me you wont be evil then why not say it in a way thats not fucking evil??? because why r you yelling at me from across the house and staring at me pissed off brcause i was even a slight hint of upset. you coildnt even see it all im doing was sitting in the doorway like ? i fucking do this normally anyway??? and yoy lash me and threaten me because its “pissing you off” that im even showing thag im even slightly upset about it??? like oh my gd what the fuck is wrong with you im still so upset . not still i am just upset again. started fucking lashing me i started crying again like bitch what the fuck??? you think threatening me will make me feel better ablutit???? its like how my family yells at aiden and matthew for crying. like “stop crying or ill give you a real reason to cry” like what the fuck?? that doesnt fucking help???? god forbid i cant save those two but thats not slmething i feel like pondering rifht now i. just. am. upset. icant fucking do this but no imfine im okay its okay . i just dont get you guys sometimes and np im still being fuckijg lashed like whatever ifont fuckign fcare its fine