#ty for coming to my ted talk i know im cringey and predictable and its embarrassing for the whole community that

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yeah i love happy transgender characters but sometimes i personally crave the catharsis of seeing some transgender suffering similar to what i have felt and this post is going to be me rambling (and by rambling i mean spamming screenshots) about the house in fata morgana and discussing vague spoilers bc i have to get at least some of these worms out of my brain before i can sleep. this will be very long and make 0 sense so i dont expect anyone to read it all but if you do im sorry and i love you. also theres going to b transphobia and dysphoria and being super edgy and broody

first of all this man gets outed to the love of his life as transgender and

being rejected for it and ive had my fair share of being outed and my god. rereading makes me feel like gnawing my arm off. are you seeing this.

and. ok not not to be mr mommy issues on main here but this guy doesn't have a great relationship with his mom. im referring to him as this guy bc his name is kind of a spoiler probably i think so bear with me. anyways. his mother has and will always see him as her beautiful little girl. this guy is just trying to live his life and. my god. my ramble is going to be nothing but screenshots but like im currently so unwell about the frequency this game resonated with my soul with

i know this will seem like the most boring edgy and gloomy transgender guy who suffers too much to a lot of people but you have to understand that i love suffering and have a difficult relationship with myself and some around me. i am being so fuckign cringe and exposing my ass a bit too much here over something that seems mediocre to a lot of people but the way this is all written just. makes me feel a lot. lets look at this guy's childhood

this guy transforming from a girl into a man and looking into the mirror and saying "This... is me..." people looking into a mirror and seeing themselves is a trope that will never get old. to me.

meeting his less than supportive family after transitioning:

this is just going to be screenshots im a bit unwell about. there's one part im especially unwell about but it's too big of a spoiler to get into but a spoiler free way of saying it is this guy's mother caused like the biggest dysphoria moment of the century to him and spent several lines describing every single one of his feminine features. that's insane. i cant believe they wrote it. i mean yeah this is a game full of tragedy but! ouch!

this next one isnt about transgenderism but thinking about it too hard makes me. mghmghgnf,hd.

moving on to more things that make me feel a lot of things

more mommy issues

anyways.