#you can buy a tattoo gun online

[zouffle]

sometimes you go on a year long spree of tattooing your body in every place you can reach with your dominant hand and then you stop giving yourself any tattoos for a year and then suddenly start tattooing yourself again with what appears to be the same ferocity. and that's ok

[vykko]

finished making a ref for a character of mine :)

[super-lovely-star]

Summer/Hot Weather Things for Middle Regressors and Dreamers

Make some lemonade and freeze it in molds to make lemonade popsicles. These are super tasty and refreshing after a long hot day!

Water gun or nerf blaster battles with friends. If you’re using nerf or another toy that shoots foam darts, remember to protect your eyes with goggles.

Temporary glitter tattoos! You can get them done at some boardwalks or you can buy a kit online.

Body glitter, now that it’s tank top weather! I bought some at claire’s and it smells like strawberries :D

Just chilling outside in the evenings now that the days are longer. Bring a plushie with you and enjoy the nice weather.

Once it gets dark, you can play games like flashlight tag!

Thrifting summer clothes can be fun and affordable!

Dressing up dolls in summer clothes and swimsuits, or pinning flower hair clips to your plushies’ ears.

Summer playlists! I have to admit I always tell myself I’m going to make one and then forget, but remembering will be worth it.

If you have someone to drive you, take a summer day trip to somewhere you don’t usually go. Now’s a good time for that summer playlist.

Friendship bracelets! You can make kandi, rainbow loom, or traditional woven bracelets and give them to the people close to you.

On that note, miniature friendship bracelets or collars for your plushies.

Make a summer bucket list of all the fun things you want to do this summer, and check them off as you complete them!

Last but not least, remember to wear your sunscreen!

Make sure to keep cool and stay hydrated <3

[needtoloveoutloud]

When did Sho get his tattoos? ^^

Hi Anon! :)

I think (head canon) that he got them over the years. Started in high school by buying a cheap tattoo gun online and then messed up when trying to give himself a tattoo (it had to be professionally covered up later). The others came gradually, when he had enough money for them (tattoos are expensive, especially big delicate ones). I think he got the three for Hizashi, Oboro, and Muri at the same session. Yoru's came later, about half a year or something after he officially took her in. He had the big ones before he adopted her.

So, it should be between 16/17 (illegal) and 22.

Thing is, tattoos can be kind of addicting - so maybe now that money isn't as tight he might get/have already gotten some more. Then again, when you get a tattoo you need to take good car of it in the beginning and should avoid sweating or working out. Not sure how that's an option with his jobs, so he'd need to time it well.

Thanks for your ask 🤍

Do you think he has more tattoos or will get more? (I've got another one in mind for the future, but we're not there yet).

[cadaverdolls]

Ayoooooo, plushie gun time everyone!!

I choose this pc because of the eyes and knee tattoos. I thought it was really cool.

The doll of today is the character of @postmortemespresso !! Liliya!

Tried to make the eyes a little sad.

Doll break down below!

Each post I try to cover just the hair for all of them since that has the most variety with choices and when new topics or subjects come up I cover them. So for this doll? Long or medium fur is an appropriate choice for a doll like this, a little styling and the right choice with cutting on the doll makes end and you’d have a great hair style! For body embroidery for places other then the face, as stated in the past, may cost more but is usually offered by most makers. They have to do the belly button and nipples so of course they can do some extra details. Tattoos are tricky. If it’s to close to any seems then you can’t embroidery it which is why I recommend fabric pens for cases like that. These tattoos are right in the knees so I think it’ll be fine to embroider. Last to post have details on piercings and custom clothes but let me cover necklaces. Bracelet making kits are good for making custom stuff for your little friends. Just buy a thread, ribbon, etc you like for the necklace then find a charm that fits what you want. Or you can make it with clay and over materials. Lots of choices. Of course you can also com someone for one or buy doll stuff online.

Made the tattoo a lighter color since I wanted it to be a bit more subtle with the soft brush I picked. Also!!!! I used a new brush this time. Wanted to try doing softer lines this time and I like it lots! Might make this the norm? Or I’ll try changing it up each time. Need to get back into the habit of using my textured brushes. The eyes came out great. I have an original doll coming out soon (not a product but drawing) and I feel it’s a lot better than my last ones.

A progress pic. I use lots of different colors cause it makes me happy and helps me tell apart what layers each things are on.

This character would look cute with short hair.

[customirons]

Key Factors to Consider While Choosing a Tattoo Machine

If you want to buy a tattoo machine, which machine should you choose? Have you ever thought about that? In this blog, we will discuss about these things. We will understand the world of tattoo machines, things you must consider before buying a machine, and some benefits you can get for choosing the right machine. Try to read the full write-up carefully to learn more.

Tattoo components are hugely important for any tattoo. Unless you have the best tattoo items, you can’t create the best designs possible. If you want to buy tattoo items like dynamic tattoo ink in Australia, you must visit a popular online shop and buy the items you need. If you need any help, consultation with an expert can help you.

Items We Must Check Before Finalizing Our Tattoo Machine

If you are going to buy a tattoo machine, the following tips are going to help you-

What is Your Style?

There are different tattoo styles in this world. Before choosing the tattoo machine, you should know about your style. Depending on your tattoo style, you can choose the tattoo machine. If you choose the right machine, it can improve your tattooing journey.

How Much Experience Do You Have?

Have you enough experience in making tattoos? Depending on your experience level, you need to choose your machine. If you are new to tattooing, you can start with a rotary tattoo machine. Once you have gained some advantage, you can switch to coil tattoo machines. 

Your Budget

Budget is an important factor to play when choosing tattoo components. For example, if you need to buy a wireless pen tattoo machine, your budget must be greater than if you want to buy a coil or rotary tattoo machine. Decide your budget first, and then choose the machine that fits your budget.

Weight of the Machine

The weight of the machine too is important. New tattoo artists can’t handle much weight, so it is better to choose a lightweight tattoo gun. One major disadvantage is that when the weight is low, it is difficult to control the machine. You need to have a balanced weight machine that you feel comfortable in your hand.

Precision

Finally, we need precision. When you are making a permanent tattoo, you must be precise. Choose the best iron tattoo machine and start your tattooing journey. Especially when you are making fine-line tattoos, having precision is a must.

Benefits of Using the Best Tattoo Machines

Here are some of the benefits you can have for choosing the right tattoo machine-

You will feel much more in control while making the tattoo design. It can help you be consistent at your work.

If you choose any wrong tattoo machine, you will become tired too fast.

A proper tattoo machine needs to be versatile so that you can use the machine to create different tattoo styles.

A reliable tattoo machine will last longer than usual tattoo machines.

There are many more benefits to choosing the right tattoo machine. We have discussed a few ones here in this blog. You should consult with an expert to learn more.

[latinedestiel]

They wake him up at unholy hours in the night when he's not sleeping anyway cause,,, nightmares,,, because Dean I need help and he just goes.

Cooks his famous hamburgers for them and bakes pies for them and gifts them copies of his old tapes and let's them take his shirts and teaches them how to drive in the Impala and let's some of them burrow his pearl gun and goes LARPing with them and he's helps them get ready for a date and he opens the door when their date arrives and tells them over a beer to be careful, okay?

It's not even the hunter thing.

Buys them embarrassing shirts and plushies, calls them occasionally to check if they have done all their college assignments before going on a hunt.

Gives them ridiculous nicknames. Tries to be there for their sport events. Nerds with them over tv shows and movies. Plays tablegames online with them. Takes them to tattoo the antiposession symbol.

People around those kids get blue from all the times they mention Dean. He's like their major reference when it comes to music and pop culture. "You can never beat me at this, I used to play with Dean" and "Sorry I have to cancel, Dean is coming over" and Dean this Dean that-- their crushes are jealous of this Dean they don't know until they met him and realize it is like a dad or older brother figure.

Teachers ans friends and everyone alike go "oh" watching the Impala park and the kid in question pretend they are not about to jump in excitement. Trying to play it cool. Trying to hide just how excited they are when they pull the passenger door and go in or when this fake-looking man gets out, eyes trained on the kid like nothing else matters.

It's not even just Bobby in the hunter sense as much as it is Dean, real pure Dean.

D is making me think again about the many dad dean episodes and wjdhejjfjdjdjdjdmd

[gta5-catlady-ao3]

Things we might have forgotten in GTA5

In many fanfics scoping the internet, I had to compile a list of things some players tend to forget. Many of them are small, but others are pretty good for character enhancements, I hope you enjoy it! 

(Also most of them are about Trevor lmao, but I tried to stretch it for all of them)

Franklin went to prison prior to the events of the game causing him to want to reevaluate his life and eventually getting a real job with Lamar. 

Michael was a football quarterback in his youth.

Trevor played hockey and golf growing up. 

Trevor had a brother (named Ryan) who disappeared under mysterious circumstances, some believing Trevor had been the root behind it, but nothing was proven. 

Both Michael and Trevor where criminals from the beginning, but Michael had been the one who influenced Trevor first. Leading to the infamous story of the flare gun in someone’s eye. They both got sick and threw up after disposing the body.

Amanda had been a stripper and it’s hinted that her name had been Krystal. Michael had met her at a strip club and bought her plastic surgery to enhance her boobs. 

Trevor has tattoos on his hands. A pentagram on the back of his right hand, a scorpion at the bridge of his right thumb, a skull on the back of his left hand, and a pair of pilot wings on the bridge of his left thumb. Also the words “Fuck You” written on his knuckles. (I believe he’s also the only character to have in-canon tattoos without the influence of the player) 

Franklin’s dad had been abusive and left before Franklin was even born. Franklin’s mother had also turned to cocaine and died when he was very young leaving him with his grandparents until they too died, leaving him with his aunt. 

Trevor was prepared to kill an officer when he finds out cops had racially profiled Franklin. Despite Franklin taking it as a joke, Trevor is still disgusted.

Michael calls Franklin “son” many times in the story line solidifying the father-son dynamic they shared and proving that Trevor had been correct by saying Franklin was “the son he never had.” 

Trevor actually didn’t like Brad, confessing to Franklin (while drunk) that Brad wasn’t the best and he was only going to leave with him since Michael could no longer pull jobs. 

Michael and Amanda grew up in a trailer park somewhere in the mid-west, most likely North Yankton. While Trevor grew up on the Canadian-American border. 

Trevor had been there for the birth of Michael’s kids, coming to even be known as “Uncle T” by his kids. (This is pretty common, but it’s cute, can you imagine the fics around this time???)

Franklin is never seen wearing purple, the rival gang’s colors as homage to his own affiliation. (He wears mainly green, but every store you take him will never actually give you a choice to buy anything in purple.) 

Trevor is very intelligent. He’s not a stupid hick, he’s excellent at math and even shows how he can pull off whole heists (successfully too) without help.

Michael is a sharpshooter, which means he’s excellent at darts. 

Trevor has track marks up and down his arms, and he also has a cut scar right above his stomach, though it’s never implied on what the cut scar had been from. 

Franklin is still in love with his ex-girlfriend despite her announcement of an engagement, he has a photo of the two of them in his bedroom at his aunt’s house. 

Michael’s son, Jimmy, had been a baseball player sometime in his youth.

Tracy knows how to bake.

All three protagonists smoke cigarettes (as there are packs throughout the character’s bedrooms and homes), but you only ever see Michael light up a cigar. 

Trevor is a serial killer. Known for taking drifters and hitchhikers. 

Michael is the only character to graduate high school, Franklin had been expelled, and Trevor dropped out. 

After GTA:5, Trevor moves to LS and became a “lifestyle coach,” but it’s still hinted he is still in the drug business.

Trevor’s mom in Mrs. Philips, had most likely been some form of hallucination, as it’s implied that she may have died, or was still in prison. 

None of the character’s family, other than Trevor’s brother, Ryan, have been named. 

Trevor tends to be interested in older women.

Michael should still have a scar from being shot all those years ago, but I can’t find it nor is there proof of it online. 

If I remember more I’ll post a part 2 :)

[ussgallifrey]

Dagger Squad Headcanons | Part 4

MICKEY "FANBOY" GARCIA

The elusive Florida man.

Doesn't actually get the whole Star Wars vs. Star Trek feud, he's just here vibing and loving them both.

Okay, he gets it - just look at the last three movies of the trilogy. And why did George Lucas have to go in and digitally re-alter everything? It was fine the way it was. Seriously, they ruined Jabba when they CGIed him. And another thing...

But also Undiscovered Country and the Next Generation movies are a mess. And he could probably go on and on about the lack of respect for the first Star Trek movie (1979).

Bro. But Chris Pine's eyes in the 2009 movie though...

He has a love/hate relationship with Jar Jar Binks as a character.

Definitely has a Yoda tattoo somewhere on his upper body, probably on the back of his shoulder.

Actually, definitely has the most tattoos out of the squad. Albeit most of them are relatively small, basic black outline images.

Some include: a mini millennium falcon on his inner forearm, the Starfleet insignia on his chest, an X-wing on his calf, and a small chubby dinosaur eating a cookie on his upper arm.

There are at least six old grainy videos online of him and a friend having different lightsaber battles in the middle of a Walmart parking lot, circa 2007.

One of these days he will buy the Lego Millennium Falcon and sit down and have time to put it together (no he won't, he doesn't have the patience for all those stupid little pieces).

He dreams of the day he can walk around SDCC. He's either never had the money for a ticket or he's been deployed during the con. One day, damnit. One day he will walk amongst the sweaty crowds of cosplayers and be in awe.

An amateur soccer star before he enlisted. Is still fast on his feet and can do trick kicks with a ball if you egg him on.

Turns into the touchy-feely goofy time drunk when he's downed more than 13 drinks. He can hold his liquor exceptionally well, just don't let him near a microphone.

Did somebody mention shots?

He listens to a lot of Bad Bunny. But don't be surprised to find New Kids on the Block, Britney Spears, Weird Al, or Megan Thee Stallion on his rotation too.

Had a stuffed Mickey Mouse plush when he was a baby that he dragged around everywhere as a kid. That thing came out of the 90s with one eye and an arm that was barely holding on by the stitching, but he loved it.

The Playstation is where it's at. Tony Hawk: Pro Skater consumed his life for two years straight. And don't you dare interrupt him when he's playing Final Fantasy.

Had a pet rat growing up that he named Artoo.

Has one older brother and one younger brother. Also, a ton of cousins who lived within the same neighborhood that he was always hanging out with.

Everything is a drum - except the weapon control buttons. Hardcore band kid.

He did not give a damn about concert season, he lived for marching band. Hates the bells and xylophone with a passion - his heart is with the snare drum.

Made his way up to center snare when he was in senior year.

Absolute menace during football games when the drumlines would go head-to-head with each other.

Twirls things constantly between his fingers thanks to his eight years of drumming.

If he's not on top of his grooming schedule, his hair will absolutely explode into natural wavy curls. It's why he's gotta maintain the buzz cut as hard as he does.

Has an affinity for hats. His closet mostly consists of baseball and trucker hats in pristine condition.

Still eats like a teenage boy, but with the occasional bout of tummy problems that has him rushing for the antacids.

Absolutely loves cinnamon gum.

There is a giant green plush dinosaur on his bed at this exact moment. His name is Grogu.

˚ ✧ more top gun headcanons ✧ ˚

[pigeonflavouredcake]

I'm an adult now take my advice

(or don't i'm not your dad)

Idk how old my followers are overall but i want to make this post in case any of you are actually teens... I am Officially 20 now. I am no longer a teenager so here are some things I learned as a poor teenager that helped me as a poor adult. Some are witchy, some are just about life, most are food related. Buckle up this will get pretty long.

Write as much down as you can bc puberty can really fuck with your memory.

Staying up late because you simply can't sleep is not something to be worried about unless you want to change that. It's pretty much all your natural body clock.

Get a big folder. Like a massive accordion folder and put all your personal documents in, birth/adoption certificates, bank statements, prescription receipts, diplomas, etc. So if you're ever in a dangerous situation at home you can make your escape a lot easier.

Now is a good time to learn new things that aren't school related. Practice cooking your favourite meals, learn how to properly clean a bathroom, if cleaning is overwhelming there are methods online that can help with that. Like playing a spot the difference game.

NO, tarot is not a closed practice, tarot is a tool for everyone and NO, tarot decks do not have to be gifted to you, you can buy one for yourself. I don't even know where that came from but it's complete bs.

Save the little gift baggies you get when you buy jewellery and use them as spell bags.

Stay away from any woman who calls her vag a yoni. it's weird.

You may want to be seen as smart and mature because it's better than being treated like a kid but you are still a kid. Your safety matters more than how mature and responsible you are. An older person should NOT be talking to you in a romantic/flirtatious setting and if they say it's because you're mature for your age or they can't wait until you're legal fucking bully the living shit out of them then block them and warn your friends. that attitude is creepy as hell bc they want someone they have power over. Same with any friends that brag about their partner being 15/16/17 when they're 18. BULLY THEM THEY'RE GROSS AND THEY DESERVE IT.

If you're in a country with the NHS USE IT NOW WHILE IT'S FREE. The first 6-8 weeks of therapy is free from the NHS. Eye tests and dentist check ups and medication are free untill you're 19 GET THEM NOW.

You can make your own oat milk by blending up oats and water. You don't need to cook with oil, there's enough of it in processed food and fresh veg have enough water in them to cook straight in a pan. You don't need the seasoning packet in ramen you can make your own. Tamari sauce has less sodium than soy sauce. Food always tastes better when it's in season. Try to find space for two food wastes, one for processed/cooked food one for raw. The raw food can be composted and given back to the earth

Best healthiest dinner option I can think of is steamed veggies. Here's my recipe: Heat up a pan on high, pour a bit of water in and then your veggies, stir frequently until all the water is gone. Turn heat down to low. Coat with something like balsamic vinegar and add any seasoning you like. Cover and steam for 10 minutes ish and you're good. You can serve that with a grain or some noodles.

Locally sourced meat and fish is WAY better for the environment than supermarket because there's less preservatives and they're more resourceful with their products.

A standard pie dough is one of the easiest things you can make and the trick is in the amount. Half the flour equals the fat, half the fat equals the sugar. so if you have 200g of flour you need 100g of fat and 50g of sugar. Just throw them in a bowl and mix together and add some cold water to bind together into a dough. It should be solid and little sticky, if it's crumbling add more water, if it's not holding it's shape add more flour. then just fridge it for a few hours to set and you're good.

You made your own soup/stew/pot thingy and you got left overs for the next day? Put it back on the cooker and bring to the boil on high, once it's bubbling take the heat down to low and simmer for 10 minutes (keep stirring if it keeps bubbling). This will help kill any bacteria that developed overnight that might make you sick.

Foraging is good but wear gloves, don't take all from one place and don't eat anything you pick until it's been thoroughly washed. Don't be afraid to go hog wild on things like blackberries, dandelions, or nettles. those things are an invasive species.

Deer are bigger than you think they are.

Air drying takes longer but it will help your clothes last. You can also hand wash with a bowl of hot water and about a teaspoon of washing up powder. Air drying also goes for your hair too.

Stock up on your favourite scented candles any size is ok and use them for spells and rituals.

You got a ghost in your house? Leave them be they're usually just passing through.

If you can't focus on work without music but it needs to be specifically wordless and needs to be easy to fill your brain so you don't focus on every noise other people make listen to animal crossing music that shit got me through two years worth of academic reading.

Bus is late or can't find your keys? Stop looking and start complaining. They'll turn up as soon as you give up.

Piercings are a medical procedure and are safer when they're done with a needle because they're hollow, so they're carving out the skin and cartilage instead of just pushing jewellery through like a gun does. Go to a tattoo parlour that also does piercings bc they're likely to be a lot stricter with rules and customer care.

Life is gonna kick us all in the but so we gotta be there to help eachother out however we can. It definitely feels like it's everyone for themselves but it doesn't have to be.

[papirouge]

Plenty of fundamental evangelicals and new age modern Christians in the US I've noticed will cherry pick the bible and then go on rants against the secular world. Like sir, your entire arm is tattooed and your wife praises guns, the death penalty, and paid politicians and terminally online edgy personalities for their 'hot takes' like they're idols on her twitter feed. Pls stop. Many of women and men too do hate muslims because they were fed the diet of how islam is a terrorist religion so even if a woman is following the guide of modesty by covering her hair and her body whole, plenty of these Christians have voiced how they'd want to tear it off of her in some perverted sense of patriotism. Like I remember the Boston bombing (that tbh felt fake but that's my conspiracy for another day..) and when pics of the wife of one of the bombers were public with her wearing her hijab, one of those commenters mentioned that she didnt care about her husbands actions, she just thinks the wife should be arrested for wearing a scarf that covered her hair. You are to be modest, but not too modest if that's possible. To be Christian after 9/11 was a trip.. God became guns in one hand and the bible in the other, unread of of course. Does Frances secular approach to life feel the same way for you as a Christian? Like sure, you can be modest but too much modesty is too much. But you can be naked too. But only if you have a perfect body that's perfect in today's standards too

"Like sir, your entire arm is tattooed and your wife praises guns, the death penalty, and paid politicians and terminally online edgy personalities for their 'hot takes' like they're idols on her twitter feed. Pls stop."

"God became guns in one hand and the bible in the other, unread of of course."

Queen, you didn't miss a beat. I wish I was as eloquent as you because you told not a single lie. I legit was vibing like Michelle when reading your post lmao

These Evangelicals feeling threatened by women with modesty clothing are sooo weird!! Why would you care about whether a woman covers "too much" skin?? They will justify assaulting Muslims based on their outfits, but in the breath will whine about how "savage" and intolerant brown people are, I-. They will use Islamist terrorism to argue how violent Islam is compared to Christianism, and in the same time use the "sell your cloak and buy a sword" verse to justify violence against non Christians... How any of that makes these zealot Christians different from salafists???

In France the approach to secular life is very different bc unlike the US, since the revolution of 1789, there is a strict separation of the state and the church. It would be UNTHINKABLE to have the President or politics swear on the Bible or say "God" lol (even in court we don't swear over the Bible or anything)

Catholicism is the dominant Christian sect here. But the Catholic demographic is getting super old, and while morally conservative, they are very kin to charity and social welfare (unlike USAmericans who will call communism anything involving social welfare).

French Christians are generally very humble and sweet because unlike USAmericans, they are now a minority (there are stats showing that around 45% of French people don't believe in God, and only 10% of the population is actually Catholic) so you won't see them being entitled for political or cultural power. They humbly live their truth, as God intended for every Christian ; no big pricey "Catholic" convention, no "Catholic" university campus, no political mingling... They will stand their ground (being against gay marriage or surrogacy for example) but you'll never see them saying or doing the crazy things like American evangelicals do on the regular.

NOW, you have this (kinda new) scene of crazy nu crusaders type of Catholic, pleading for new crusades against Muslim invaders in Europe, but they're nothing but boastful brats on the internet. All bark and no bite. There are plentiful of Muslim district in France and they never did nothing ; they'll just rage post about it on the internets lmao

Maybe before threatening to kill the "Saracens", they should be concerned about the rampant de-Christianization of their country. IDK Maybe the reason God is letting Europe being invaded by foreigners is because the Western has become an abomination in the eyes of God and refuses to protect the continent any more? and that He would rather use foreigners to carry His message like He did with the Jews/Gentiles? see how Christianism is booming in Asia, Middle East and Africa? it's all linked. But racist nu Catholics are just too bewildered to realize that. Getting to such conclusion would ask actual spiritual self awareness and they don't have none. They're just zealots with no Spirit.

It's also funny to see White "TradCath" being so petty at Africans invading Europe when you see how many Africans there are in 'their' churchs lmao They loathe Africans, but Black Africans are huge chunk of worldwide Christiandom (there are 650 millions of Christians in Africa). Maybe if they actually went to church and left their online echo chambers of rightoid nu crusaders they'd realize that 💀

[lovemesomesurveys]

Did you ever pretend you were someone else as a favor for a friend? No. I’ve been in a situation where someone did that for me and my friend, though. Do you think men prefer curvy women or skinny women? I think it depends on the individual. Everyone has their own preferences.  Do you own a water gun? No, but I have mist fan. It’s a must for me during the summer.  What item most embarrasses you to purchase? I’m 33 and still feel weird when I’m buying undergarments lol.  Do you know any actual dances or do you just move to the music? All the dancing I do is just bobbing my head and moving my arms and shoulders a bit. 

Do you eat pork and beans? Blech, no.  What is the last thing you refered to as legit? Hm. I don’t remember.  Or do you think that term is lame? lol I say it sometimes.  Do you give cards to people for holidays or events? Sometimes. I’m conflicted when it comes to cards cause I kinda feel like they’re a waste and some of them are too pricy for what it is, but on the other hand they’re cute and can be nice.  Do you have anything hanging from the ceiling of your room? Just the ceiling fan.  The rear view mirror of your car? I don’t have a car, I don’t drive.  which do you prefer, dr or dentist? Neither. Do you know which side your appendix is on? I do.  Do you have the fixins in your fridge to make a sandwich? What kind? I don’t know what’s in my fridge right now, I haven’t been home for 3 months.  Are any walls of your room blank? No. When was the last time you ate fruit? Back in May.  What color are your favorite shoes? Black with white stripes Adidas.  If someone was willing to tell your crush you liked them would you let them? I don’t have a crush on anyone.  Do you know the zodiac signs of your friends? I don’t have friends, either.  Favorite dog ever, real life and cartoon. My doggos are my fave of course. My favorite cartoon dog is Goofy.  Do you own anything with fur on it? What? No. Do you choose surveys based on their titles? Sometimes, like if it says what type of survey it is and it’s not one I feel like taking.  what would be worse for you, unplanned pregnancy or cancer? Cancer. I can’t get pregnant, so that’s not a concern of mine.  What was the last thing you made from scratch? My brother and I made our dough for sugar cookies last Christmas.  Do you drink any hot beverages? What? Coffee, tea, hot chocolate.  Do you put Q-tips in your ear or just round the outside? I’m careful about not putting them too far in.  Have you ever popped another person's zit? EW, NO. I think that’s so disgusting.  When was the last time you listened to a radio,NOT online? It’s been awhile.  Do you have any odious chores hanging over your head? No. What is the last thing you confessed to someone? I don’t recall.  Have you ever told a friend to dump their SO? Did they? Basically, yes. Her boyfriend treated her like shit. She eventually did breakup with him.  Name two things you put whipped cream on? Hot chocolate and frappes.  Who is the last person who saw you with bare feet? My nurses and my mom.  What do you think is the coolest piercing on someone else? I like ear piercings and lip piercings. I wanted snakebites when I was like 16.  If I wasn’t such a scardy cat I’d get more ear piercings, but as of now the only piercings I have are my earlobes. Colored tattoos or plain? It just depends.  Do you ever eat peanut butter straight from the jar? I have, but it’s not something I do often. I don’t even recall the last time I did.  Do you know how to ride a bike? Do you own one? No. What was the last pill you took for? Pain medication.  How many devices do you own that hook up to internet? Four of my own items, but there’s several other things in my house that do as well.  Any best friends you only know online? No. Do you ever talk to your next door neighbor? No. Do most of your friends live in houses, apartments or mobiles? -- Did anything shock you today? I was surprised to hear the hole where the trachea tube was is already significantly smaller and it was just taken out yesterday.  What is the thing you last stubbed your toe on? I don’t have that issue as someone in a wheelchair.  Favorite faux curse word I say “dang”, “shoot”, and “hecka.”  Who do you tease most often and what about? My brother and I playfully tease each other.  slip on or lace up shoes? Lace up.  Thing you stress over most about the holidays. I tend to get too caught up in the gift shopping for my family cause I love getting them stuff, but I end up stressing myself out because of the money. I know it’s not what Christmas is all about and my family appreciates whatever I can give or even if I couldn’t get anything, it’s just me stressing myself out.  Food you take a second helping of on Thanksgiving? I go pretty hard on the appetizers more than the actual food to be honest, but I sometimes go back for more of the main course. Especially stuffing and rolls.   Would you rather spend Thanksgiving with friends or family? I always spend the holidays with my family.  Most disgusting bug. I don’t like any bug.  nastiest thing in your fridge. *shrug* song you hate but keep singing anyway. I can’t think of one right now, but I do tend to get songs I don’t like stuck in my head.  cookies or brownies. Mmm, both.  Do you own any movie soundtracks? Which? I have The Sound of Music on vinyl.  How many pillows do you sleep with? I’ve been using 5 while here in the hospital. I’m surrounded by pillows and then have one across my lap I use as a desk for laptop.  Favorite outdoors smell. The ocean air at the beach and wood burning smell in the fall.  are you wearing a hoodie right now? No. Do you ever sleep in your day clothes? Yeah. My day clothes and night clothes are mainly the same, just leggings and a graphic tee. T-shirt dresses, too.  Do you prefer your clothes loose or close fitting? With leggings and jeans I like them to be close fitting, but my shirts and sweatshirts are a little baggy. I used to like all my clothes to be more form fitting, but oversized tees are much more comfortable.  Are your fave pants jeans? I live in leggings or t-shirt dresses. I haven’t worn jeans in like 5 years.  Do you own any under things bought to impress the opposite sex? No. Favorite thing you've ever painted? I like the ceramic Easter decor thingy I painted this year. It was a fun little activity my brother and I did.  Do you eat applesauce? Yeah. I didn’t eat it often, but that’s actually one of the many foods I’ve been craving lately. Once I’m able to eat and drink again I have to start out slow, so that will be one of the food items I have. Are there any songs that remind you of your mother? Yes. If you had a sister, would you prefer her older or younger? Why? Older, but close to my age.  What is something you wanted to say today, but didnt? I can’t think of anything.  Where are your keys right now? At home.  Is there any product you always buy at the dollar store? Yes, Andy Capp’s cheddar cheese fries chips.  Can you recite any prayers by heart? No. When it's your birthday, do you have the correct number of candles? I’m 33, we’re long past putting individual candles lol. I’ll just get the number candles or none at all.  birthday cake alone, or cake and ice cream? Mmm, both. 

[ms-demeanor]

While I appreciate that you want a person to live, have you considered that you are just another person who has refused them help? Sometimes it doesn’t get better. For how many years, and from how many people, is a person supposed to be ok with being dehumanized before it is ok for them to throw the towel in?

Telling someone what caliber of gun is most likely to kill them so they can start a savings fund for it isn’t helping; refusing to respond to that with anything other than mental health resources isn’t refusing to help.

But okay we’re going to have the It Gets Better talk.

I am almost thirty four years old. I’ve been getting treated for depression for literally more than half of my life. I have spent even MORE of my life than that kind of wishing that I was dead and occasionally REALLY wishing I was dead and sort of getting off my ass to do something about it. I have the standard CSA/multiple rape survivor Oh No The Trauma backstory and spent the last *nine* years living with an emotionally abusive relative who had recently taken to tracking my activity by filming me in my home.

I kind of hate “it gets better” narratives because you know what, sometimes life is shit and it doesn’t really get all that much better. Sometimes things are bad and the only thing that gets you out of the abuser’s house is the fact that your partner nearly died. Sometimes everything sucks and it sucks for a long time and there’s no end of the suck in sight.

I have friends who are chronically, degeneratively ill. I know “It Gets Better” doesn’t really help them because they aren’t going to get better. They’re going to stay sick, they’re going to keep hurting, and in a lot of cases things are going to get worse.

So “It Gets Better” kind of rubs me the wrong way. I’d like to reframe it.

You get better at dealing with the bullshit.

Sometimes your situation doesn’t improve but how you approach it does. You may be stuck in the same shit but dedicating less mental space to caretaking an abuser’s emotions. You may still be dealing with daily pain but you’ve gotten to know what triggers it and what to avoid. You may be stuck in a miserable, terrifying situation and have a rich and thriving community of fanfic authors you talk to when shit gets to be too heavy.

The people who “it gets better” narratives tend to be really helpful for are young people who don’t have any autonomy who are close to being old enough that they’ll finally get to make some choices about their lives.

It’s harder dealing with feeling trapped as an adult because you can’t generally escape the things that are trapping you by living in a college dorm or getting an apartment with a bunch of roommates or coming out because you may have already done those things OR you may be in a place where those things aren’t possible for you.

So what do you do?

Well, for starters instead of saving up money for the best kind of gun to kill yourself with save up money for something stupid and funny that you like. Save up money for a tattoo, save up money for an arcade-size DDR cabinet and pads, save up money to buy a camera to make a youtube channel of you doing bad cover songs. (And if you don’t have money to save up then take up a free hobby; if you’ve got access to the internet to send me anons about how to kill yourself you’ve got access to the internet to use AO3 and I strongly recommend you start writing self-insert fic where you get to hang out with the cool fictional characters you like because it’s sort of like maladaptive daydreaming but people will stop by and say nice things about it and you feel validated when the numbers go up)

If you *can’t* fix your situation (because you live in a country that doesn’t recognize your gender, because you’re poor and have to live with people who hurt you, because you’ve got such deep and overwhelming anxiety that making the change seems impossible, because you don’t want to abandon someone more vulnerable than you to the bad situation) then do something, ANYTHING, that you and you alone are in charge of. You’re in charge of your bad cover songs youtube channel. You’re in charge of the smiley face tattooed on your ass. You’re in charge of what happens in your totally self-indulgent, fluffy, found family fic.

Find one thing, ONE THING, that allows you to assert your autonomy and everything gets a lot easier from there because A) you’ve got proof you can do something for yourself and B) you’ve now got something to fall back on when you ask yourself “why do I keep going?”

You keep going because you like your gender affirming roleplay group online. You keep going because you want a horrible butterfly tattooed on the other ass cheek. You keep going because you want to see how many kudos the next update gets.

And while you’re doing all of that you’re making a plan.

Let’s not kid ourselves here, suicidal people are GOOD at making plans. Not at keeping them all the time, but good at making them.

So you plan to get out.

You might not *keep* that plan but if you can sit and fantasize about eating a gun so that the pain will stop then you can sit and fantasize about buying a plane ticket or running away or looking for a different doctor so the pain will stop.

Do the little things that you can do. Write fic, go fishing, fold paper cranes, take long walks by yourself, pet a cat, get a tongue piercing, read a book. Do the little things that you can control, that you enjoy, that you do just for you.

And while you’re doing that think about the train you’re going to take to leave, how much nicer the nurses will be at the new doctor, how great it’s going to feel to dress in a way that feels right.

And even if it doesn’t work and you’re stuck living with a shitty abusive harpy who screams you awake and makes you have panic attacks whenever you hear her moving around the house you’ll get better at dealing with the bullshit. You’ll build up a space for you in your head where the bullshit isn’t there.

And then maybe someday the outside matches the inside. Maybe your friend needs a roommate, maybe you get a job that pays better, maybe a new medication is released. You don’t know for sure that it’s going to happen, there’s no guarantee it’ll happen, but at least if it doesn’t happen you’ve carved out a little space for yourself where you can survive.

ALSO

I know that a huge number of suicidal people are suicidal because they feel helpless.

One way to IMMEDIATELY make yourself feel less helpless is to help someone else. Here’s an app where you can give visual assistance to blind and low-vision people: https://www.bemyeyes.com/

The world is shitty and everything sucks and sometimes you can’t make your own situation better, but you can write video and image transcriptions on tumblr and maybe that’ll cheer someone else up.

Anyway, it’s not up to me to say when anybody else has had enough, but I figure you shouldn’t try to kill yourself until you’ve gotten a stegosaurus in an admiral’s hat tattooed on your thigh or something because who knows, that could be the thing that makes you feel better enough to keep going and if you’ve put up with the pain and bullshit this long what do you have to lose by putting up with it a little longer?

[amoc94]

Wings

Pairing : Jeon Jungkook x Female Reader.

Genre : Yandere.

Warning : Also none for this part. 🤭

Full Masterlist and elaborate warning please read here.

Part 2.

You couldn't believe your luck to have met with Jungkook on that day. He became your best friend, both of you were practically unseparated.

He assigned the room next to his bedroom to be yours, and designed the room according to your taste. He even helped to enroll you to his school, and took care everything for you.

As the only child, his dad spoiled him to the brim, there were almost nothing Jungkook couldn't get, especially after he lost his mother when he was ten years old.

You felt so grateful of him, and you promised to yourself, once you graduated and have your own job, you would pay him back.

You had a dream to be able to join the performing arts university in Seoul. You were working hard by accepting online translation, to save money for university. You didn't want to keep being a trouble for him and his father.

Since your early stay at Jungkook's house, you knew that Mr. Jeon's business was more on the shady side, with lots of men with suits came and went out the house, most of them had similar tattoo on their arms. On several occasions, you saw some of his father's men carried guns and blade, or samurai.

You never question Jungkook about it, didn't want to burden your mind with something that wasn't yours to worry about.

As long as you have him by your side, you were safe, even your stepfather wouldn't be able to touch you, not that he could find you here, you never heard of him ever since Jungkook brought you to his house.

🔸️

It was one sunny afternoon when both of you stood at the garden of his house.

"I brought you something."

Jungkook smiled his boyish grin at you, his handsome face looked so bright and happy.

"Some snacks? You got the matcha chocolate that I like?" You threw a hopeful glance at him.

"No silly. Don't keep eating chocolate, you will get fat." He grinned at you while hid his hands on his back.

"I don't care, as long as I can get my chocolate fix." You pouted, and he laughed while flicked your chin playfully.

Jungkook fished out a red velvet box from his pocket. "I'll buy you a big box of matcha chocolate, if you wear this for me."

He opened the small box, and there sat inside the satin pad, two rings, one was bigger than the others.

A pair of promise rings.

"Jungkook..."

You were too stunned, didn't know what to say.

"It's been three years since we first met, and everytime I am so grateful to meet someone like you. Promise me that we will always be together? That nothing can come between us?"

He pleaded.

"And I promise you, I will always protect you, you are the most important person in my life."

That's right, he was your best friend. You could not imagine to have other friend like him.

He would always hold a special place in your life.

So you held out your left hand, and let him put the ring on your ring finger, and he put the other ring on his finger.

Best friend for life. He kissed your cheek after that.

Everything would be all right, as long as you had him.

🔸️

Until two years later, when you just got home from your school, you found everything about him would change. That fateful afternoon, when Jungkook lost his father in a brawl with another gang, the man died not long after he arrived at the hospital.

You remembered when Jungkook came to you, he couldn't hide his tears, he cried silently on your shoulder.

You remembered the next day, you and him wore the same all black outfit, he held your hand along the time during funeral, surrounded by a crowd of his father's men.

He didn't let go of your hand even after the ceremony, when both of you climbed inside the car, his hand gripped on your hand tightly.

And you remembered when he locked himself in his room for two days after the funeral, he didn't eat, didn't even answer to his phone or knock on his door.

That was when everything about him changed.

Part 3 (Finish).

[readyplayerhobi]

Flower | 28

; Hoseok x Reader

; Genre: Fluff

; Word Count: 4.3k

; Synopsis: You finally decide to take a dip into the world of online dating and find the Flower dating app. One of the top matches for you proves to be a guy who looks to be your complete opposite; tattooed, pierced, a metalhead and oh…incredibly handsome. What happens when you throw caution to the wind and reach out to him?

; A/N: After a month of no Flower...here’s a chapter. Please reblog and let me know what you thought in comments or an as! I’ve been struggling a lot with writing lately and feedback really does help to motivate me!

; Flower Masterpost

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Taking in the sight of the tattoo gun and all the necessary accessories that are being prepped in front of you, you can’t help but purse your lips in slight worry. As excited as you were for this, you were also afraid that it was going to hurt. Because getting a tattoo wasn’t a quick process.

Nervously, you glance over at Hoseok. He’s sat on a stool that Jay, the tattoo artist, had brought over for him while you sit on the padded, leather chair. Taking in your uncertain expression, he gives you a bright smile before squeezing your hand to give you a little reassurance. Which you need, because you were a big baby when it came to pain.

“You’ll be okay, I swear. You’ve watched me get tattooed before.” Hoseok says sweetly, white teeth flashing for a moment as he grins once more in another effort to soothe your worries. It doesn’t work though, as you almost immediately begin to frown upon remembering the one time you’d gone with him to watch him get tattooed.

“Yeah...and you ended up crying in pain.” Twisting his lips in a grimace, Hoseok’s expression is suddenly unsure before he sighs deeply in acknowledgement. Lifting your hand, he kissed the back of it gently before running his thumb along the thin, soft skin.

“Hey...I was getting tattooed on my ribs. That’s one of the worst places to get done because you’re tattooing on bone and muscle. Jay can attest that yours isn’t going to be that bad, I swear.” His tone is gentle and you can tell he’s trying to keep you calm. Glancing over at Jay, you watch as the tattoo artist finishes up his preparations before giving you a wry smile.

“He’s right. I won’t lie, it might hurt but if it does, it should get better hopefully. If it gets really bad though, tell me. We can stop if you can’t handle it. You will end up with only a partial tattoo but...” His shoulders shrug casually beneath his Amon Amarth shirt and you want to complain. But then you realise he’s right, and he’s only telling you the truth. 

Grinding your teeth together, you sigh deeply before nodding at him in acceptance.

“Okay. I’m a big girl, I can cope with this.” That line is directed at Hoseok, your tone slightly sarcastic and he snorts in response. Leaning forward, he gives you a quick peck on the lips before settling back and starting up a conversation between the three of you once you approve the positioning.

There’s a brief pause before you feel Jay’s cool, glove covered fingers pressing against your shoulder to make sure he gets the right angle. Your first dip into the tattoo world as going to be a small one; just a watercolour style tattoo after extensive research. Jay had frequently tattooed Hoseok over the years and so had been Hoseok’s number one recommendation, leading to him creating a pretty little cherry blossom flower design.

The first press of the tiny needles makes you flinch slightly as they begin to prick and you wince at the slight sting before breathing out slowly. It’s not as bad as you’d thought it was going to be in reality though you certainly wouldn’t want to have to sit for hours upon hours and have large, intense pieces done as Hoseok does. Still, you felt like this was a little bonding moment between you the two of you.

Even if there was a third person here, but whatever.

You weren’t getting the tattoo because of him exactly, but you wouldn’t deny that he’d been a big part of why you’d finally made the decision. Tattoos have always been something that you thought were pretty but they were also something you’d never considered getting as they were permanent. But Hoseok’s love and pride for his own had led to you gaining a new appreciation for them too.

When you’d told him that you wanted to get one, and what kind of style you wanted as well, Hoseok hadn’t asked if you had a special meaning behind it. One of his philosophies, when it came to tattoos, was that you didn’t always need to have a special reason to get a tattoo. It was more than acceptable to get something just because you thought it looked cool or pretty.

You’d discovered early on in your relationship that Hoseok had a real axe to grind against anyone who wanted to gatekeep tattoos and make it so that you always had to have some sentimental reasoning for it. He’d said something along the lines of ‘this isn’t fucking American Idol or X-Factor and you don’t need to have some dying relative to get it. Just get something cos it looks badass if you want.’.

But you did personally have a reason for getting it. Firstly, you’d made sure that Jay made it look pretty enough that you wanted to go through with the pain and have it on you. The second reason, which was incredibly cheesy and you’d rather die than tell anyone the meaning because you can’t handle emotions well, is because it’s a flower.

Part of it was that you’d met Hoseok on an app called Flower, which had led to the most important relationship you’d ever had. It wasn’t his name or anything, but more symbolic of how you’d met. The other major reason for it was that it was a symbol of how much you’d grown over the past year, becoming more confident in yourself and accepting that while you may have weaknesses, they didn’t make you weak overall.

Your research had shown that the cherry blossom, aside from just looking pretty, was also seen as the symbol of renewal and life. They’re only around for a few days, maybe a few weeks, every year but they’re bright symbols of beauty and happiness. Your own life had been renewed in the last year with all the changes that you’d experienced and you just wanted a little reminder that your while you’d struggled, your life was just as bright.

And that kind of cheesy talk was exactly why you wouldn’t explain the meaning to anyone. Not that Hoseok had pried too hard, though you were certain he’d probably at least figured out the whole Flower app connection. He hadn’t mentioned anything though.

As a result, you’d decided to get the tattoo on your first anniversary together. Which obviously, was today. It truly boggled your mind to realise that you’d been in a relationship for a whole year now. A year of being romantic with someone and them not getting bored or tired of you. Hoseok was still here and he loved you more than ever.

Technically, you didn’t have an actual anniversary. Neither of you had formally asked the other to be in a relationship. It had ended up being one of those weird adult relationships where you just start dating and just never stop. As a result, you’d both agreed that you’d the anniversary of your first date to symbolise the beginning of your relationship.

It was the first time you’d been together after all, and neither of you had even looked at anyone else since then. A whole year later, including many moments of bickering, confusion, anxiety, panic attacks, depression and moving your whole life around, here you both were. Still together, very much in love and tentatively looking forward to the future.

As a result of moving in the last month, the two of you had initially agreed not to get presents for each other today as a lot of money had been spent buying the things you needed to fill and decorate the house. Yet it had become quickly apparent that you both seemed to have secretly agreed to spoil the other with the excuse of ‘it’s our first anniversary, I can’t just get you nothing!’ being thrown around a lot.

You’d been bought the cutest fluffy Pikachu that you’d spotted in a store earlier today and he’d promised to pay for this tattoo given it was your first. And you weren’t any better as you’d bought him the BluRay boxset of the Godfather along with a gift box of flavoured teas that he’d been surprisingly excited over.

After your meltdown in the house the other week, it felt nice to be back to being happy. You still weren’t completely content or settled, but you’d managed to get yourself to relax enough to not snap or get grumpy with Hoseok anymore. The house was mostly finished with only the yard needing to be done, but you’d both agreed to wait until springtime for that.

It didn’t feel like home yet, but you knew it was just a matter of time.

But yeah, your anniversary was going pretty great so far. Even if you were having to put up with being pricked hundreds of times with the tattoo gun. You tried your hardest to ignore it and instead focused on Hoseok. He was busy talking to Jay while occasionally stroking his thumb over your hand, absentmindedly comforting you. 

Looking him over carefully, you took the time to simply admire him. How you’d managed to end up with such a stunningly handsome man as your boyfriend, you’d never know. Or understand, not that you were ever going to complain. What was even more baffling to you was the fact that along with being one of the most beautiful people you’d ever seen, he had a heart that was perhaps even more beautiful.

You were sure that if you’d ended up dating anyone else, you would have probably had multiple arguments that resulted in someone storming out by now. Or the relationship would have been ended long ago. Yet the most you’d done with Hoseok was bicker over small things with the incident the other week being the most friction you’ve had so far.

That was probably solely down to the fact Hoseok seemed to the unnatural patience of a saint. Something you didn’t take for granted, that was for sure. Just the thought of it has an overwhelming surge of love swelling in your chest.

You wished that you were the kind of person who could easily vocalise your feelings. It frustrated you eternally that you weren’t because there were so many times you wanted to tell him you love him. Instead, you gently poke at his hand with your free hand. Happiness fills you as he smiles at your way of telling him that you love him, poking your calf gently in response while carrying on his conversation.

He’d probably never realise how important he was to you. How much he’d helped you to grow as a person and with your personality. You owed him a lot and you would happily spend as long as he let you repay it. Not that he’d like that idea if you told him of course, but you didn’t care. You loved him, more than he’d ever know.

Tuning back into the conversation, you realise that they’ve been talking about the next tattoo that Hoseok wants. He was planning on getting a watercolour style tattoo similar to yours only he was contemplating having it be space-themed to match his sleeve. Jay is nodding as he discusses options with Hoseok, occasionally checking on you with a gentle touch before carrying on once he realises you’re okay.

And then the conversation moves back round to you and your tattoo. Jay had designed it after Hoseok had made the appointment for you and you’d emailed over what you were thinking. He’d sent over the design and tweaked it to your desire and finally, you were here today, getting it done. 

But apart from that, he didn’t have much knowledge of why you wanted it. Given Hoseok was a long time client of his, he had trusted that your boyfriend had given you enough information to make sure you were knowledgeable at what you were getting into. He’d sent over stuff as well but you’d discussed it in depth with Hoseok to make sure you were comfortable.

“So how come you decided today to get your first tattoo? And I’m honoured to be the artist you chose by the way.” Jay says, his tone sweet and you look to him giving Hoseok a slightly sarcastic smile. He’s given one back by your boyfriend and you snort, rolling your eyes at their interaction. As if Hoseok would let you go to anyone else other than his trusted artist.

“Err well...I’ve been considering it a while but wasn’t sure whether to get it or not. And Hoseok said I should try and go to you if I did want it as you’ve always done good work for him, so...yeah. I just decided I want it.” You mumble out, shy at explaining why you’d finally gotten a tattoo. There’s nothing more to say on that and Hoseok squeezes your hand in reassurance before taking over the conversation for you.

“And it’s today because it’s our anniversary so...why not get your first tattoo on your first anniversary, right?” Hoseok grins broadly, letting his fingers lace with your own and you feel yourself go warm at his pride and the affection laced into his voice. Jay pauses what he’s doing for a moment to look at you both with surprise.

“It’s your anniversary today? Oh man, congrats. Happy anniversary,” You grin at his good wishes for you both before he carries on, the needles pressing into your skin once more. “A whole year, that’s great. How did you both meet then?”

Hoseok glances at you with a small smile, wrinkling his nose slightly until you give him a smile in response. He seems happy with that and kisses your hand once more, playing with your fingers as his gaze turns back to Jay.

“Online dating, believe it or not.” There’s a snort of what sounds like amusement from behind and you frown, wondering what’s so amusing about that. Lots of people get together through online dating. That’s the whole point of it. Or is it that someone like Hoseok was on an online dating service? It still confused you, in fairness.

“Oh yeah? Take one look at the pretty lady and decide she was going to be your girl?” He teases and you see Hoseok’s smile turn devilish.

“More like she saw this handsome specimen and decided she wanted a piece of that.” Now you’re the one pulling a face at him, rolling your eyes at his bravado while being secretly amused the whole time. He wasn’t wrong in reality, only you hadn’t been quite as bold as he made you out to be.

“Would you and your ego like some space? I’m sure I can arrange that for you. Also, we love a woman who knows what she wants and goes for it.” Jay applauds you, smirking at Hoseok’s outraged face in pure glee and you can’t help but laugh softly at them both. It was obvious they’ve known each other awhile with how they interacted and you liked how Jay made you feel at ease.

“It wasn’t as...bold as that.” You murmur shyly, looking down at your hands as you recall the panic and anxiety you’d felt after messaging Hoseok the first time. It was hard to believe you’d come so far since then. Even harder to believe that outrageously attractive man was now not only your boyfriend but living with you.

“Ignore her. She’s weirdly bold in ways you wouldn’t expect. But anyway, yeah. Officially one year together today. Can you believe it?! Me? In a relationship with the prettiest and funniest girl for a whole year?” Hoseok snorts as he makes an incredulous face while Jay laughs as well. 

You’re not sure what to make of that at first before you recall that they’ve known each other years and Hoseok had been pretty notorious before you. Though his compliment does make you squirm in embarrassment, a desperate need to deny his words bubbling inside you.

“I’d say it’s shocking but honestly, you’ve been looking at her with the biggest heart eyes this whole time. So not really. I’m happy for you both though.” He says and you can practically hear the smile in his voice even though you can’t see him. It’s not too long before he’s finished with you, cleaning up and showing what your tattoo looked like to you to make sure you’re happy and then covering it.

You were beyond pleased with the tattoo, excitement flooding through you as you’d looked over it and realised it was even better than you’d hoped for. Grinning at Hoseok as you stood up, you gripped his hands tightly before wiggling with a bright smile.

“It’s so pretty!” He’s smiling at you in agreement as Jay cleans up his workstation before you all move over to the front desk to pay. The sweet receptionist from earlier is there, covered in even more tattoos and piercings than both men with you. At her request, you show off your new tattoo with a happy smile and accept her compliments with joy.

“How much again?” Hoseok asks, pulling out his wallet. You frown at him immediately, lips pursing into a pout as you remember he’d said that he was going to pay for it but he just tuts at you, shaking his head. “Shh, anniversary present, remember?”

Pushing at his stomach lightly, you sigh as you realise you’re not going to win this argument. Not that you were even arguing really, but you knew that Hoseok would refuse point blank to let you pay for this. Plus, you would admit to enjoying being spoiled by him sometimes. It wasn’t something you were used to but you couldn’t help enjoying it when he did it.

“Actually, it’s on the house today,” Jay says with a smirk, looking you both over with what looks suspiciously like fondness in his eyes. “Consider it my present to you both for your anniversary. Maybe you can make this a little tradition and I’ll see you both for many more years.”

Hoseok is silent and you look up to see his jaw dropped. It’s not often you get to see him so surprised and you can’t stop the giggle that leaves you at the sight of it. Smiling at Jay, you thank him profusely and squeeze Hoseok until he’s muttering out thanks as well. 

“It’s nothing. Use that money to spoil your girl today. And I hope you’re okay with being spoiled.” Jay grins, tilting his head at you as he practically gives you both an order. It might not be overly feminist of you right now but you certainly weren’t going to say no to it. You’d never had an anniversary before and damn it, you wanted the full experience!

“I will, I promise. Thanks, man.” Hoseok reaches forward and does that whole man hug thing with Jay, causing you to roll your eyes with the receptionist in amusement. Jay doesn’t try anything with you and you suspect Hoseok had probably told him you weren’t fond of physical contact from others. Instead, he gives you a nod of goodbye as you both leave.

“That was nice of him.” You murmur, brow rising as you take Hoseok’s hand and link your fingers together. He hums in acknowledgement, lips twisting slightly as a light frown touches his forehead.

“It was. So you like your tattoo?”

“I do, it’s so pretty. I didn’t think it’d look this good but...I like it.” Smiling up at him sweetly, you don’t miss the way Hoseok’s eyes soften as he looks down at you. Jay was right, he did go all heart eyes around you. Not that you were going to complain though.

“Good, I’m glad. I’ll make sure we look after it properly. For now, though, I’m hungry so how about we go get something to eat?” He throws his arm around your shoulder, hands still linked together so that you end up with your arm crossing over your chest. Laughing at the movement, you happily push into his side as he pulls you even tighter to him before agreeing.

“Okay, but you pick. We’ve been sat there for over an hour now just for me. Your choice.” Hoseok’s about to complain before sighing and giving in, letting go of your hand to purse his lips as he hums in contemplation. Your lower lip juts out at the loss of contact with him and you momentarily pause in bemusement at how much you’ve come to love physical affection from him when you dislike it from others.

“Let’s recreate our first date and go to the Indian restaurant. Only this time, let’s not talk about girls throwing up on my dick and end the date with us going home and having some hot anniversary sex instead.” Raising a brow at him, your lip quirks in amusement momentarily.

“You never cease to amaze me when horny, you know that? You just literally talked about someone vomiting on your dick and then went straight into having sex. Ew.” Wrinkling your nose, Hoseok snorts in amusement before grinning broadly.

“Look, we’ve established many times by now that when I’m horny, my IQ drops to almost single digits. Anyway, we’re not doing it now. We’re gonna eat and then go do it.” Laughing, you stop to wrap your arms around his waist and hug him tightly, resting your chin on your chest to look up at him as a confusing array of positive emotions bubbles and swirls around your body.

“Okay...that sounds good…” You trail off, brows creasing as you feel so many words and emotions stalling in your throat. Like a lump, you can’t get past. Instead, you squeeze him harder before pushing up onto your tiptoes to kiss him. He lets you, amusement causing him to chuckle slightly as he carefully hugs you back.

“I love you too. Now let’s go eat, I’m so damn hungry you can probably feel my belly rumbling.”

-

Wincing slightly, Hoseok manages to shift until his arm is sliding out from underneath you. Massaging feeling back into it, he clenches and unclenches his hand before settling onto his back more comfortably. As much as he loved to cuddle you at night, he did often end up with a dead arm.

Sighing quietly, he stares up into the darkness of the bedroom. Your breathing is slow and steady, a calming and soothing sound to his ears as you sleep comfortably. Without even realising it, he's smiling gently before glancing over at you.

A whole year. He'd been with you for a whole year. If someone had told him this two years ago, he'd have laughed. Even though he was in a much better place than when he was a teenager, he knew that some part of him had avoided relationships. Like he still hadn't felt worthy of one.

He did now. He had to. You didn't deserve anything less. And if that sounded cheesy then dammit, it was his first anniversary. He was allowed.

Thinking over everything that has happened in the last year, he feels immense pride at how much you've grown. How comfortable you've become in yourself around him. How happy you are. There were bumps along the road of course, but the two of you had gotten through it.

Expanding his cheeks almost childishly, he lets out a slow and deep breath as he contemplates just how mushy he's being. If the guys could hear his thoughts…

And it's then that he realises he hasn't even posted anything today. Nothing to declare to the world that you'd both made it a year. Even when people hadn't expected you both to last a month.

Grabbing his phone from the nightstand, he unlocks it and opens Instagram. Choosing the right pictures takes him a solid 10 minutes. He has so many and he wants to make sure that you'll approve of each picture that he chooses.

Finally, though, he settles on them. A selfie of you both grinning broadly from today, the photo of him kissing your cheek from his birthday, a picture of you sat reading a book in your old apartment, a selfie of the two of you kissing and finally, a picture of you holding Kasumi and smiling so big.

Each one gets edited carefully until he's happy with them, moving forward to the part where he has to write. Glancing at the time on his phone, he sees that he has fifteen minutes left of his anniversary.

So he starts to write.

Jungsevenfold: Today we celebrated our first anniversary!

One whole year of being with the funniest, kindest and on occasion, strangest, girl I've ever met. I've learnt many things being with you, from discovering I like board games to the fact it's a bad idea to destroy the moon.

I'm never quite sure what you're going to say and I love that. I love the way your mind works, what you find funny and so much more. We're often told we're mismatched but I think it's working out. Better than anyone thought.

I think this is long enough and mushy enough, so I'll finish up. Y/N, my princess, my little meeple; I love you ❤🥰. So may we have many more years!

/cheesiness

Posting it, Hoseok watches it upload and feels a momentary pang of embarrassment at what he'd written. But glancing back over to you, he pushes it away. You deserve for him to yell his feelings.

Rolling over, he places his phone back before smiling to himself and wriggling into the covers. You're hard enough on yourself, so if a little embarrassment on his behalf can make you smile.. then it's worth it.

[customirons]

Things You Need To Buy For Tattoo Aftercare

Having a tattoo is not enough. If you don’t care properly, it will not look how you want. In this blog, we will discuss the basics of tattoo aftercare and the things you need to buy for it. You can consult with an expert or read the full write-up carefully to learn about them.

You must look for a reliable online shop to help you get items like tattoo aftercare products, inks, cartridges, rotary tattoo machine in Australia and many more. You can get all the items you need when you have a tight space.  

Prepare To Get A Tattoo

If you want to have a tattoo design, you must prepare for it. Without preparation, things can go very wrong. Always consult a professional before getting a tattoo; it will help you in the long run. Here are some tips that you can follow before getting the tattoo.

1. Always choose a reliable tattoo shop to get the tattoo design you want. You can get any design you want when you have an experienced tattoo artist.

2. Drink water and keep your body hydrated throughout the process.

3. Don’t smoke, drink or do drugs during the process, before or after, to avoid complications.

4. If you have any major health issues, you need to consult with a medical person beforehand.

Following these simple tips, you can get the tattoo without any hazards.  

Tattoo Care You Need To Take Initially

Once the tattooing is complete, your tattoo artist will provide basic care. He will most probably do a bandage around your tattoo to avoid infection. Don’t peel off the bandage before a couple of hours. Your tattoo artist is the best person to suggest tips to follow. Try to tattoo gun buy from a reliable online shop for better results.

Washing A Newly Made Tattoo

If hours have passed by, you need to clean your freshly made tattoo design. Cleaning a tattoo is not that simple. You should take time; to have clean water and antiseptic lotions to clean your tattoo design.

Use a warm, clean towel to puff all the extra water from the surface. Remember not to use chemical soaps, as that can worsen things. Consult with an expert to learn more about them.

How To Do Tattoo Aftercare?

Here are some tips for you that will help you during tattoo aftercare.

1. Don’t get outside in direct sunlight, which can affect your tattoo.

2.Try to avoid swimming during the tattoo aftercare.

3. Chemicals are not good for tattoos.

4. Buy numbing creams and ointment gels to have some relief.

5. Always consult with an expert if you have any confusion.

6. Get a reliable shop where you can get all the items and more.

When you follow these simple tips, you will eventually get the tattoo design you want and more.