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[fatimalec12]

• Yoongi . ミンツヤ

Just 'cause you feel it, doesn't matter it's there

[jeonpriori]

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[kth1]

ʕ•́ᴥ•̀ʔっ♡ for @taee 

[aurorun]

[minttangerines]

Luna! Because I know she was in the room for this one!

Have you written a toxic ex before? It’s not coming to mind. But shit Sunny! You and the villains. I was actually hurt when he said to lock the door 😩 but then got happy when he texted afterwards 🫣

This man would own my ass entirely. That’s the thing about these fictional toxic men. As I grow, they remain the same sexy bastards that know how to put it down 😮‍💨

Always happy to be a tour guide, camp counselor, partner in crime, professional Barney (bag included), the latest recruit to the Fast & Furious franchise, and most importantly: your friend 💕

two am | yjh

Pairing: Jeonghan x GNReader (afab)

Genre: smut, angst, porn with the barest of plot, exes to lovers, non-idol!AU

Rating: M (18+)

Warnings: late night texting, excessive use of the pet name 'baby,' fighting as foreplay, dirty talk, multiple references to reader's pussy, implied/referenced cheating, references to oral sex (reader receiving), slight exhibitionism, riding/grinding, nipple play (licking/biting/sucking), p in v protected sex, Jeonghan is bad for reader but they can't stay away

Word Count: 1.6k

Disclaimers: NSFW, obviously I don’t own SVT - they just inspire me

Summary: It's two am and your ex is texting you again.

Text Prompts: Both are in italicized pink font in the story.

A/N: I'm back with another installment in my SVT texts series. This one is dedicated to @minttangerines. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUCE!! 🎉🎉 I brought you some toxic Jeonghan, hope you like him. 💜 Thank you for being such an amazing friend, tour guide, driver, and partner in crime. 😘

Soundtrack: 2AM by SZA; Sleazy Bed Track by the Bluetones

Unbeta’d as usual. If you like this, please let me know! I’d love to hear what you think (but please be kind I’m fragile 🥺) 💕

SVT Masterlist 💜 Main Masterlist

It’s nearly two in the morning when the warning pops up on your phone:

Cover your phone, explicit material coming your way

You barely have the time to excuse yourself from the table, heading in a panic towards the bathroom, before the next text from your ex arrives.

Jeonghan never includes his full face in his photos. It’s always just that maddening smirk of his, catching your eye first before it’s drawn down to the main focus - thin fingers wrapped around an obscene bulge, a darkened tip poking above the waistband of his boxers. 

You lock yourself in a stall and fire back.

You: You have to stop sending me these photos

Satan: That’s a rude way to say thank you

You: I’m serious, Jeonghan. We’re done

He doesn’t reply. You know better than to think he’s accepted your response. He’s refused to accept it for the last three months. 

Your phone chimes. Another photo. The boxers have been pulled down. You bite your lip, then catch yourself, snarling at your reflection on your screen.

You: I said stop!

Satan: That’s what you say now, but we both know that’s not what you’ll be saying later

You: There won’t be a later

You: Not this time

Satan: Really? You gonna tell me you don’t miss this cock?

Satan: That your pussy’s not already dripping imagining it inside you?

It’s the anger his words stir in you that’s making your pulse pound right now, you tell yourself.

You almost believe it. 

Satan: Come over, baby. Wanna make a mess of you like I did last time

You: Not. Happening.

Satan: You out with your friends again tonight? 

Of course he knows where you are. You’ve been going out with your friends every week since the breakup. Tonight’s the first night in a while that you’re sober, not in the mood to drink. This conversation is making you regret that. 

You: What does it matter if I am?

Satan: It’s almost closing time. Think you can find someone to take home?

Satan: Someone to make you forget about me? About how I fuck you?

Satan: You know no one can make you cum like me

To think his confidence is what once drew you to him. Now it repulses you, almost as much as your thighs suddenly clenching together does. 

You: You’re unreal

Satan: That’s right

You: That’s not a compliment

Satan: I know what you want

You: What I want is for you to fuck off forever

Satan: Baby please. Don’t pretend you don’t enjoy this

Satan: You can block me anytime you want. But you don’t

Satan: Why do you think that is?

You could answer him. Argue for a while, like you always do. Like you always did. It was the thing that the two of you did best - second only to fucking. You scroll upthread, looking at the last time you fought, reminding yourself how it ended:

Satan: Don’t tell me what to do

You: Eat me out

Satan: Okay tell me what to do

It’s not in your phone what happened next, but it’s seared into your memory, replaying behind your eyelids - lying on Jeonghan’s bed, legs splayed while he puts his wicked mouth to its best use. 

But you also remember the come down. The anger at your weakness. The shame. Knowing nothing has changed. That he hasn’t changed.  

You keep scrolling back, seeing the same thing over and over, watching the pattern repeat. You could stop it right now - end the conversation, delete him from your phone, and go rejoin your friends. That would be the smart thing to do. 

Satan: It’s okay, baby, you don’t have to admit it

Satan: Just come over and show me

If only you were smart.

“Mmmphm!”

The hem of your shirt makes a terrible gag, doing nothing to keep your volume down. Jeonghan’s head snaps up, gaze torn away from where he was watching himself disappear into you.

“Quiet, baby. Do you want them to hear you?” 

The “them” in question are his roommates, Joshua and Seungcheol, who are both sleeping on the other sides of the walls. Jeonghan would be sleeping in one of those bedrooms, too, if he wasn’t out here fucking you on the couch. Or, rather, sitting back and looking smug while you ride him on the couch. 

He knows you don’t want anyone to hear you, so you don’t bother to answer him, just glare while stuffing more of the already spit-soaked material into your mouth. His roommates would judge you for being here. Just like your friends did earlier, when you told them you were leaving. You said you were tired, but they’ve noticed your pattern too. And they’ve stopped trying to get you to break it, unwilling to expend their energy on such an impossible task. 

That’s fine. You don’t need to drag anyone else down to the bottom with you.

Jeonghan runs his fingertips over the exposed skin of your stomach, chuckling when you shiver. 

“Always so sensitive,” he tuts, shaking his head. 

He cups your breasts with his warm hands, pushing your shirt up further until the chilly night air hits your nipples, then bends his head down enough to lightly graze one with his teeth. You gasp, nearly dropping your impromptu gag, and Jeonghan pauses with his lips near your other tit, looking up at you, saying nothing, but his eyes communicate so clearly what he’s thinking - Be good, baby. 

If your relationship was a song, that was his refrain:

Be good, baby, I have to work late this weekend.

Be good, baby, I’m going out for drinks with some coworkers.

Baby, she’s just a friend. Don’t worry. Be good for me.

Despite everything, a part of you still yearns to be good for him. So you bite down harder. 

Jeonghan hums in approval. His mouth latches onto your other nipple, sucking lewdly, not much quieter than your whining has been. Hypocrite. You close your eyes, trying to shut out your loud as fuck thoughts and focus on the wet warmth of his tongue as it laves over and around your nipple a few times, in broad, messy strokes.

You arch into him, lacing your fingers through his hair to try to hold him in place. But like always, he can’t be tamed, lifting his head to smirk at you. You whimper, and he smiles harder, arms wrapping around your waist, pulling you to his hungry mouth. You eagerly lean forward as your shirt falls from your jaw. 

Jeonghan’s kisses overwhelm your senses until you’re drowning in him. His tongue glides like honey, thick and slow, melting over yours, and you groan, grinding on him slowly.

This is what you needed. Even after all that went down, all the lies, all the tears, you still crave him, body and soul. If this is the only way that you can have him, this two a.m. interlude, then you’ll take every second you can, ignoring the little voice whispering that you’ll regret them all.

“That’s it, just like that.” Jeonghan looks down again, mesmerized by the smooth roll of your hips. His fingers sink into the flesh of your ass, hard enough that you know you’ll still feel his touch tomorrow. “Fuck yes, baby, ride it.” 

He guides you up and down his shaft, the wet sounds of your cunt sliding over him embarrassingly loud in the still room, and you let him control the pace, all your concentration on his lips - kissing them, nibbling them, sucking on them one by one. Trying desperately to get your fill of them, of him, because this is it. This is the last time. You swear it. 

Maybe this time, it will stick.

Jeonghan’s thumb rolls over your clit, making you gasp into his mouth. He does it again, and again, and just like that you’re falling apart, body singing electric as he lights up your nervous system with his touch. He keeps thrusting up into you, taking control again as you tremble above him, and you know he’s reaching his crest, the familiar signs too obvious to miss. He drops his head, muttering an endless stream of ‘fuck’s and ‘baby’s in that choked voice of his, and then his hands lock your hips in place, as deep as he can get as he fills the condom he wears.

It’s always intense, this moment, when it comes. The two of you, breathing heavy and spent, clinging to each other as you ride out the waves, like you’re hanging on for dear life. Or maybe that’s just you. Because you know that once the high is gone…

“Knew this pussy missed me.”

…the lows return.

Jeonghan laughs when you push yourself off his chest. He pinches your ass cheek for good measure, and you scowl, scrambling to climb out of his lap as quickly as you can, which is pretty difficult given your loose limbs. 

“Don’t say that.” 

Jeonghan watches with simmering amusement as you dress hastily, fumbling with your bra to the point that you nearly decide to leave it. “But it’s true.” 

“No, it’s not, and besides, it’s fucking gross when you talk like that. Like I’m not a person or something.” 

“Whatever.” He’s already losing interest, reaching for his phone. No need to argue anymore. He got his. 

You can’t get your clothes on fast enough. “Stop sending me photos. Don’t text me again.” 

You might as well be talking to the couch. He hums mechanically, scrolling away. “Lock the door on your way out.”

In the elevator, your finger hovers in its usual spot over the delete button. 

A chime. Jeonghan’s mouth, tongue extending between the peace sign he’s flashing, followed by four words: Sweet dreams, baby. 

You slip your phone back into your pocket as you descend.

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[bear-0]

IA yoongi 🏀

[stormblessed95]

Didn’t yoongi technically come out? Like I might be misremembering but didn’t he once say his type wasn’t restricted to girls, or something along those lines? I’ve been operating on the belief that yoongs was actually Out™️ for a while now 💀 rip if I’m wrong

LMAOOO friend, Yoongi comes out a couple times a year since their debut years (from saying his type isn't limited to women and even describing the type of man he would want, which macho, manly and with a beard lol) and the fandom still likes to pretend he is "just joking" or it's "translation errors" 😂 because of course. I have 3 posts about all of Yoongis queer/rainbow moments already where he is talking about it or wearing pride stuff. Which I'll link here:

My man is so unapologetically queer 🥰 he is just living his life and if you don't want to see, you won't. He doesn't care either way it seems. Lol but honestly, what a good excuse this post gives me to make another YOONGI RAINBOW MOMENTS post from even more things he has done more recently!!

On the D-Day tour, he wore a shirt that said the rumors are true from the LdSS brand which has an openly gay designer who has mentioned in interviews how their core fanbase is "quite queer, gay, and sex positive."

Again on tour, performing with Halsey (one of his besties) who is openly bisexual, under Bi lighting on stage

Seriously, the Bi lighting all through tour lol

The way he giggles over his guitarists and friends flirty jokes with him all the time 🥰😂 honestly, the reaction of falling on the floor giggling, blushing, and kicking your feet in the air when a man proposes to you before killing it on his guitar is both 💅🏼 and VALID

Ally Pup on his D-Day Tour Crew! 😍🥰

Rainbow cake in his Road to D-Day docu

Yoongis admiration for Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence. This Twitter thread actually explains it quite well and links to a video further in the thread too, so I'll just make yall go read about it from them. But do go read it

And going back in time just a little bit, when BTS was in Vegas for PTD and Yoongi got the marry me jokes again during the OT7 live stream and he said that marriages in Vegas are legal and possible no matter what your gender, I love him so much

I don't know what ANYONE else wants this man to do. This man is part of our community, like it's sooooo clear. I have 4 posts of him hinting at or out right just saying gay shit at this point lol Let the man live his truth!!

[taehyungfirst]

I am going to be very honest and people may not agree with me but I have to say this. I am happy armys are supporting Yoongi, even the ones who have ia are active. You can see old unity back. Deciding to boycott official news by sk media. I just wish they could have done this for Taehyung too. Unfortunately, they were the one to do same things with him what k media did with yg.

I agree, unfortunately Taehyung had to take the burn for multiple things, he never received the grace Jk or Jm got with their own dating rumors, he never got grace for smoking, for having his own show, for anything. Armys may have all the collective amnesia they want, but I will remember how they never took the invasion of Tae privacy seriously (invasion that tried to even search for his siblings’ faces), how they joked about it for years and blindly told everyone “well it’s on the medias”. Well, it’s on the medias, indeed.

[layoutlin]

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[themfchase]

— themfchase

you can call me dee or may (like the month). born in 1993, brazilian born, american raised. writing is my form of escapism, i usually do it as a way of coping with hyper-fixations, but my activity comes and goes in accordance to my work. i work in the music industry, songwriting mostly, so my schedule varies at times i go IA for months. i'm very strict about my anonymity. please refrain from asking me personal questions. if you stumbled upon this page from twt rp, this account isn't roleplay, but you are more than welcome to read my work. I'm a libra, an ENFP-T, an ambivert, she/her pronouns, and very bad with routines. my interests are: jujutsu kaisen, kpop, books, poetry, love and music. — bts was my first k-pop love, i have a seven tattoed on my skin because they have changed my life forever, jk biased, and yoongi wrecked. enhypen is my second love, i root every single day for their success and well-being, I'm lee heeseung biased and park sunghoon wrecked. music is my entire existence, the air i breathe, the life i live. there is not much more i can say that can summarise me better than that.

— I hope you enjoy my blog, my writing and my dumb, silly reblogs from time to time.

love - dee/may.

[mediapiays]

https://www.tumblr.com/mediapiays/750294212495441920/it-would-be-a-funny-take-but-most-so-called?source=share

I'm not sure how much I agree with this take but one thing I totally agree with is that armys focus is on all the wrong things and I think it's because they genuinely don't like most of the music bts releases that much anymore. They love the old beats like mic drop or black swan or fake love or hyyh era but among the new stuff? That's why face era, short and terrible as it was, in some ways totally reinvigorated armys for a short while because they were totally into the music again. Now they're back to having to praise MVs and song lengths and visuals because nobody really likes the new songs or feels like streaming them 20-40 times a day because they're tired after the fifth listen.

The thing that keeps them armys is because they like the guys personalities and relationships. Even when Namjoon or someone releases good songs, he's doing it ways they don't like. They want that classic bts sound back and they just feel obliged to support their music because they like them. Also maybe not being able to focus on them as artists is why a lot of them just fall into shipping or some weird parasocial loop? Or spend all their time focusing on their bodies and their looks or spend way too much time on things like their idol or military friends or fighting with other fandoms. That's the stuff that gives them the serotonin boost nowadays. Streaming for them is a job because trust they do not wanna keep listening to those songs over and over again nor are they interested in discussing them after the first two days of release

No bc you can definitely tell when armys like a song. You constantly see hit tweets about like crazy and closer by rm bc those were GOOD songs and armys truly liked them. You never see them talking about layover or golden music wise bc one was boring and the other was a compliation of jb rejects. They don't talk about jin outside of him being free soon, yoongi outside of him being IA and jhope outside of lollapalooza ☠️.

[please-someone-give-me-love]

The new BTS kdrama ia amazing and capture a lot of the scence of BU, it's so incrediible the way the chemiatry between the seven guys are, it capture completely their dynamic and the stoories are not overslapling but it feels more like connecting to each other.

But I do have to admit that I have some mixed feelings of how accurate they are rpreresentating the guys. I know they are supposed to be BTS just obvsly they are not bc BTS essentially are not actors and you know something? They do an amazing job but also I feel conflictive because their acting is so good ressembling them that feels kinda off at some point.

There are things like the way they talk that even a little weird, it feels more like a reference than anything, but there are aspects like Namjoon being clumsy or Yoongi's bitting his nails that feels a little too close to the home but more essentially in a way that it feels likr they are taking aspects more from BTS real personality than BTS BU like we know Hobi wasn't abandoned or that Tae didn't kill his father, that's BU.

So I feel a little akward thinking "oh that's an actual trait from Namjoon" or "this aspect ia from Yoongi"

[dearweirdme]

The tkk community changed a lot in the last 2 years, imo.

Before, it was basically ot7 people that most had them also as bias, but we would also see ppl that bias other members around (Yoongi biased were very common).

Now, they are basically OT2 or even solos that do believe they are together, but don't actually like this fact.

With solo works and the difference in threatening, a lot of Tae stans turned into solos (they were basically ot7) and dropped JK/Tkk.

I also knew a few Jimin stans that got tired of tkkrs shitting on Jimin every day and stopped shipping or at least interacting with tkkrs.

As you said, the fandom is in a weird place right now. It needs a cleansing, imo. Too many toxic solos/shippers/y/n.

Hi anon!

I always find it hard to say much about the state of fandom (though my general opinion on it is that it’s very fractured atm). It’s hard for me to deduce the distribution of Tkkrs, Jkkrs, solos, etc amongst the entire fandom. I think no-one is actually able to do that. You need a total overview of fandom for that, and it’s just not doable. We always tend to listen to the loudest voices, who aren’t necessarily representing the whole.

Having said that. I do see a lot of hate going around from all sides. It’s an odd thing to me. Not one of the members has done stuff that deserves hate, and yet they get it. I understand not liking a person. Jm-luke-warm-anon and I might not agree, but I can at least understand that someone isn’t your cup of tea. There’s plenty of people I don’t like.. it’s also very easy for me to just not go there. Hate is a strong feeling. A feeling I reserve for people who deserve it, because they have actually done harm. Members don’t deserve hate for talking about each other, for doing better in the charts, for breathing.. and that is the crazy thing that this fandom has become.

It often feels as though the angry fans lose a bit of the connection they have with their bias. None of the members would want their fans to talk badly about another member and yet there are those fans who will obliterate a member in the name of their bias. It astounds me.

Well.. I went on a bit of a general rant there I’m afraid. To come back to Tkk fandom a bit. I think many will leave during the next year (but I also think plenty will return when BTS reunites). We could already see a bit of a rift forming last year, and no actual Tkk moment for a year and a half ia probably going to mean that many get bored, or doubtful. It’s fine really.. Tae and Jk don’t need us to stick around.. and to me that is actually a very comforting thought.

I feel I was a bit all over the place here. But yeah.. fandom is weird right now.

[minttangerines]

Wait! Who was packing in secret? Was it OC from BadCop!Yoongi?

If 1 fight has you seeking solace in the arms of another man, it might be time to let Jay go. I mean yeah the man looks like this:

But you have this at home:

Also, how did Jay get an invite to Hoon's party!? Yes, that happened previously but Jay is good at his role and I'm forgetting his motivation.

I feel like Jay knows about the kiss. He saw it. He had to.

Dasom, how can you be upset with this face?

Da-som is quiet when she opens the door to her apartment, but Jay is up anyway. She finds him in the bedroom, stuffing clothing into a bag. Her throat closes up and she takes a step back, stumbling, suddenly thrown in memory, to a time when she'd caught someone packing in secret. Jay takes one look at Da-som's face and drops the bag, reaching out to grab her before she can fall to the floor.

He accepts her excuse of lightheadedness. The bag turns out to a hamper, and Jay is on his way to the laundromat, not the bus station or wherever it is that people who abandon their loved ones go these days, and she feels stupid and childish for the way she reacted. She takes a deep breath, trying to steady her heart. Maintain a hold on herself.

She's the first to ask the question loaded on both of their tongues. He went to the bar, he says. She went to a friend's, she says. Neither of them ask any follow ups, silently agreeing to drop the whole thing. Or at least that's what she's hoping they're doing.

She tells him he doesn't need to go to the laundromat, even though that's what started this whole mess, the two of them fighting over chores of all things, but he insists. It's his way of apologizing. She accepts it with a grateful smile. Trying to ignore the twinge in her chest that has been growing since she climbed out of Sunghoon's car.

She decides to take a long shower. Like she can just wash away the unease. The sense that she's done something wrong. Jay seemed so concerned during her mini panic attack, being so attentive and sweet. He's always sweet. Again she inhales deeply, steadying herself. She can't keep letting her emotions take over. That was always her father's biggest lesson to her. Never lose control.

She remembers the feeling, then, of Sunghoon's lips on hers, and wonders what it would be like if she could.

[gdsmonoton]

Ruang di Sudut Pikiran (12)

Halo? Lama tidak mampir ke RDSP dan menuliskan perasaanku, mungkin karena itu kepalaku jadi lebih berisik akhir-akhir ini.

Aku kembali dengan bahasan sesuatu yang berkaitan dengan salah satu track album D-Day (Trilogi AgustD), yaitu: AMYGDALA.

Um, aku cuma mau bercerita experience mendengarkan lagu AMYGDALA dan menyampaikan apa yang aku tangkap dari salah satu masterpiece dari seorang Min Yoongi ini.

Lagu ini mungkin jadi salah satu comfort song bagi banyak ARMY, kemungkinan juga menjadi salah satu lagu yang mungkin dihindari karena memancing semua hal kurang mengenakan dari masa lalu.

Aku pribadi menjadikan lagu AMYGDALA sebagai comfort song yang bisa membuat aku merasa kalau aku gak sendirian mengalami hal sulit di muka bumi.

Sulit sekali mendapatkan teman bercerita ketika usia kita semakin dewasa. Seakan kesepian akan menjadi teman setia di usia 20 tahun ke atas. Banyak hal baik dan buruk yang aku lewati di masa lalu, tetapi memori buruk bersemayam lebih lekat dibandingkan memori-memori baik.

Amigdala merupakan salah satu bagian dari sistem limbik yang berbentuk seperti kacang almond, yang berada di sebelah hippocampus dan memiliki fungsi utama mengatur respons emosional, seperti perasaan bahagia, takut, marah, dan cemas. Selain itu, Amigdala juga berperan mengaitkan emosional dengan ingatan—menentukan seberapa kuat ingatan itu untuk disimpan. [Pusat Jurnal Ilmiah UMA, (Sistem Limbik yang Berperan Penting dalam Fungsi Otak), https://pji.uma.ac.id/index.php/2021/12/16/sistem-limbik-yang-berperan-penting-dalam-fungsi-otak/, (diakses: 29 Mei 2023 pukul 23:10 WIB)]

Dalam lagunya, Yoongi (Aka SUGA BTS, aka AGUSTD) menceritakan berbagai rentetan memori buruknya di masa lalu. Bagaimana ia merasakan cemas dan ketakukan, lalu mencoba melawannya hingga ia bisa bertahan sampai saat ini.

Musik menyampaikan pesan tersirat, dan aku menangkap bahwa Yoongi ingin orang-orang yang mendengarkan AMYGDALA menyadari bahwa mereka tidak sendirian di dunia ini, bahwa mereka hebat karena dapat bertahan sejauh ini dari segala rasa sakit pada masa lalu.

Aku biasa mendengarkan lagu AMYGDALA ketika di malam hari aku merasa kesulitan untuk tertidur. Waktu tersebut cukup pas untuk aku memulai sesi berbincang dengan diriku sendiri, meluapkan segala perasaan sedih dan ketakutan yang tak pernah bisa aku ungkapkan pada siapapun.

Sambil melakukan butterfly hug, terkadang aku tidak sadar kalau aku sudah menangis tanpa suara hanya beberapa detik dari setelah aku mendengarkan lagu AMYGDALA.

Aku terlalu tidak percaya pada orang-orang yang kutemui, setiap hari ada kekhawatiran mengenai apakah aku bisa percaya dengan orang ini? Ataukah tidak? Dan lagu AMYGDALA seolah hadir menjadi teman berbincangku bersama diriku sendiri di malam hari.

Aku bisa melakukan pengeratan hubungan dengan diriku sendiri, memahami 'anak kecil' dalam diriku yang mungkin masih belum menerima segala luka masa lalu, juga bersyukur—sebab aku bertahan, sebab aku mampu mengendalikan segala ketakutanku dan berdiri kokoh hingga saat ini.

Kadang aku berpikir, apakah aku bisa menghilangkan segala rasa sakit hatiku? Segala memori buruk yang tertanam di otakku, apakah aku bisa menghapusnya? Tetapi, akhirnya aku mencoba memahami bahwa satu-satunya yang bisa aku lakukan adalah mencoba untuk berdamai dengan masa lalu.

Memang sulit sekali, buktinya aku masih sering menangis jika mengingatnya. Masih sering menyalahi beberapa keadaan yang tidak bisa diubah, dan menjadi khawatir tak berujung. Tetapi, kita juga tidak bisa selamanya tenggelam di dalamnya.

Ada banyak hal yang dapat menjadi alasan mengapa kita harus bertahan lebih lama lagi. Di mulai dari hal sekecil ingin menikmati berbagai macam jajanan kaki lima, ingin berkeliling tempat wisata, melukis, melihat matahari terbit dan terbenam, dll.

Seberat apapun memori buruk masa kecil menghantui, sesakit apapun luka masa kecil yang tertoreh, kita harus tetap memiliki welas asih pada diri kita sendiri, menghargai hadirnya diri sendiri, dan menyadari bahwa kehidupan kita sangat berarti.

Hal-hal yang tidak kita inginkan terjadi di masa lalu, hal-hal yang berada di luar kendali kita, tidak pernah kita minta dan diharapkan terjadi. Tetapi pilihan terbaik adalah bertahan.

Karena suatu saat kita akan menemukan rasa haru, sebab kita tidak memilih untuk menyudahi kehidupan, sebelum waktunya selesai.

-gds_monoton.

[minniepetals]

minnie i thought u were busy 🥺 pls concentrate on ur real life happenings, we'll wait patiently for your updates until ur not swamped!

but since u updated, my heart cries for little sunoo 🥺🥺🥺 i hope he doesnt carry that trauma for too long. im really happy oc broke her facade and comforted him. also, im happy yoongi ia closer to forgiveness!! we're slowly crossing the bridge 🥲

WE'RE SLOWLY CROSSING THE BRIDEG ASDFGHJKL i mean, after all, y/n knows it wasn't entirely the other guys' fault for deserting her