#yk the kinda like. thoughts stuff they do in dialogue

[noxtivagus]

rinoa n squall i love them so much they're the cutest 🥺

[cloudcountry]

fuck i literally realized a lot of this is due to how much I relate to him IM SORRRYRYRYRYRY but i just wanna talk about him today (i have no fun insights this is just yapping... URGGBSHGRFYGH I RELATE TO AND LOVE HIM SO MUCH SOBS ON UR DOOR STEP)

im sorry, i believe a little warning for the first paragraph i bring up my own dead sibling cause I wanted to get that out of the way

This is decently specific to me: I have a younger dead sibling and idia is just i can relate just so hard to bc of that one fact, (gets out the idia journal) we were around the same age when our siblings died we think we both got them killed through harmless fun comments and just having someone so close to you as your younger sibling die at a young age kinda fucks with you and stuff idrk whats going on but something is

we both have social anxiety i don't think mine is as bad but if i had the option to just talk through a tablet i would, especially in certain situations where i'll freeze up (aka talking to any waiter ever) I genuinely a lot better when im there for someone else that has so we could have a symbiotic relationship for social situations

+ I NEED TO REASSURE HIM HIS DAMN IMAGINARY AUDIENCE ISN'T ACTUALLY REAL NOT EVERYONE HATES YOU YOU DON'T HAVE TO ACT LIKE IT IM RIGHT HERE I LOVE YOU SM :((

Okay funny silly time: love of cats omg cats i love cats he loves cat give him cat he would be unsure how to treat it exactly bc he never had a childhood cat but he has done so much research on cats that he probably could info dump on the cat on why it so cool and the best thing ever "Awww did you know you get a lot of your water from your food bcuz you're a dessert animal and you avoid still standing water due to your prey possibly contaminating the water" please let him see those stray cat cams in china he would love donating food to them,, he would be spear heading naming everyone and making sure they all get a wiki page

OKAY ENOUGH ABOUT IDIA AND CATS BUT HE WOULD SEE IF HE COULD GET THE FUNDS TO OPEN A CAT SHELTER AND FEED SO MANY STRAY KITTIES MOVING ON

baby noooooo,,,, :(( yes im looking back on his after overblot dialogue as a reference even though i just read it anyways,,, Idia will never be able to have his own life separate from his family, since yk cursed and shroud, it's basically a path that was bricked in for him. its like his life path is a long corridor that leads to the same road no matter what he picks. Especially since his unique magic locks him into working for STYX since he can just open a very vital thing and idk almost take over the world. if the shrouds acc got unique magic i think idia could have actually went on to lead a decently good life whether he was STYX head by choice or something else (game dev)

hes so passionate about the things he enjoys, there is so many examples of this, he's into so many things and loves them all with his whole heart it's so endearing (also uhsn dfbghrg bonding over media is the best, hes probably so fun to talk to about media... but he might lord knowing so much over you >:p ily just let me put my two cents in you can keep info dumping idia) OUGH (ignore me doing the hand thing PLEASE I LOVE IDIA I LOVE ORTHO IM ENJOYING WRITING THIS SM) OKAY ANYWAYS aww okay reading over idia's dialogue like im writing you an argumentative essay or something,, STAR ROGUE! the idia of idia (wtf r u writing edie) HIS SILLY ASS SLANG HRGBHRBGVLRHG "OUR LEGEND, POP OOOFF!" Anyways idia just recounting everything about star rogue without second thought he loves it sm he probably played it sm he knows the opening by heart (IDIA AND ORTHO SAYING THE TAG LINE TOGETHER THIS IS KILLING ME AUBURN)

hes heard so often that he was genius when he was really young it was just hardwired for him to think he was the best in the room especially with the advancements he has made from the ages of 10-12. like building ortho is genuinely a feat and he did it and two years definitely he's going to let that go to his head. ngl i feel that his parents were not too great probably absent most of the time since he can just lock himself in his room and work on something that no one knows about for two years. probably fucked him up developmentally too, he was NOT properly socialized the internet was his parents for the entire time probably

he wants to be FUCK THIS SHIT ACC OMG CRIES IN A CORNER SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD HE JUST WANTED TO BE A COOL ADVENTURER HERO GUY HE DIDN'T KNOW THAT WOULD HAPPEN!!!!! WHAT WENT WRONG IS NOTHING YOU WERE JUST A TOO SMART KID,,, IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT AND NEVER WILL BE YOU DIDN'T KNOW THAT WOULD HAPPEN OMG. DFGVJKDHJHBCBSHFBSFBSFR

it's like 12:30 right now my mental state is deteriorating this is stupid opinions for the most part i tried my best im sorry if this is bad but YOU SAID GUSH IN YOUR INBOX SO I MADE THAT HAPPEN???

-- with lots of love Edie

EDIEEE MY FAVORITE IDIA KISSER‼ THANK U FOR SHARING YOUR THOUGHTS READING THEM WAS SO INTERESTING!!

first of all holy shit im so sorry about what happened to your sibling. i totally get why you'd find him comforting because of that but Oh my gosh. im so sorry.

i think having social anxiety is something a lot of people can relate to with him, even myself. identity actually brought this up but seeing him being pushed into situations where he is ABSOLUTELY not comfortable makes me want to run in there and help him GET OUT. like i may not like this man that much but nobody should feel pressured or panic over entering a social situation they dont want to be a part of.

AH YES THE CAT CARD

RIGHT YEAH its so SAD how he will never get to live his own life and THATS one of the things that ive thought about a lot concerning him. like it would suck to actually have your fate predetermined no matter what. like he's just going to be stuck there with nobody else except for like ortho and his employees(?) but actually. yk what thats how he spent his school days which is even sadder hello

"the idia of idia" HELLO WHAT DOES THIS MEAN

actually! you bring up a good point about idia always being considered a genius since he was young and how that affects his self esteem and how he interacts with people now. i have literally never thought of it that way but it makes a lot of sense.

THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR THOUGHTS EDIE <3 I LOVED HEARING THEM!!

[sarasarami10]

Avatar boys x exhausted introvert reader (SFW) part 2

Song I listen to while writing this (not content related)

(Gender not mentioned)

Warnings: loak being a curious boy, fluff.

(Basing this on my own experience as an introvert btw)

*Reader has had their consciences transferred so that why they possess human stuff (idk how they would survive as introvert whitout a good depressing song and a comfy hoody)*

(Takes places at the metkayna village)

Word count : 1554

*= actions

« »= dialogues

[my own thoughts and feelings]

Already did neteyam (part 1) might do aonung and rotxo if this goes well.

I’m sorry for the errors I wrote this in my note at 11pm so.

Loak:

- You had been extremely social all week but for the past 3 days you couldn’t bare to see anyone, not even your boyfriend loak.

- Of course you would get out of your room to eat with your family and other stuff but you praticaly didn’t leave your bed, either listening to sad/calm music or watching your favorite old human tv shows on you tablet. ( just relaxing really)

- The first day he didn’t really mind it. He had asked one of your sibling about you and they just said you were tired and resting at home.

- He didn’t really thought anything of it, it was true you really look exhausted the day before.

- But by the third day he started to become anxious. Your siblings didn’t have any new news of you, and honestly he didn’t understood how someone perfectly healthy could just sleep for 3 whole days.

- At this point he thought this was only an excuse to not see him which was kinda annoying him, had he done something wrong, or did you just suddenly stopped liking him?

- By the end of the day he decided that he had had enough and when straight to your Maori after finishing his daily tasks.

- Upon arriving at your home he saw your sibling and asked them if he could go see you. Your sibling pointed at you room and left.

- It was the first time he had really been in your room. The first thing he noticed was you, laying asleep on the floor, then all the sky people’s stuff that was laying around your room.

- He walked toward your desk seeing something that had caught his attention.

- It was a strange wooden box. He open it and inside was a lot of weird stuff : some sparkly looking jewelry, a pair of sun glasses and a weirdly shaped bottle with liquid in it. [yk those old perfume bottle with the little squishy thing]

- He stared a it, sniff it: it smelled nice. Then focused his attention on the thing that was hanging at the back of it giving it a light squeeze.

- He felt the strong smell spray him in the face making him sneeze uncontrollably, waking you up from your sleep.

- « Lo’ak? What are you doing here? »

- The sound of your voice surprised him, making him almost drop the bottle he was still holding.

- « Oh. Hum…nothing? *sneezes »

- You giggle and gestured him to come sit next to you.

- « *faking being mad* What were you doing looking through my stuff huh? »

- « *Slightly agitated* Well… you were asleep… and I didn’t want to disturbed you. »

- *smilling softly* « it’s ok…. I don’t mind… but what are you doing here? »

- *pauses*

- « ….Why are you ignoring me…? »

- « Huh? »

- « You haven’t come see me in days so, why are you ignoring me? »

- « I’m not ignoring you… I just didn’t went anywhere »

- « liar. How can someone not go anywhere for three days and just sleep? »

- « I didn’t just sleep… I made a few jewelry, I drew for a bit I watch my fav movies… but yeah… mostly I just slept and listened to music. »

- *genuenly confused* « why? »

- « Idk.. I just didn’t felt like doing much I was just… really tired »

- *not convinced* « haha how can someone be that tired? You didn’t even do anything physically demanding lately. »

- « Well cause I wasn’t tired in that way »

- *lays next to you facing you* « what do you mean? »

- « Well… sometimes… when I spend too much time with other people… my energy just get drain really fast. So I need to take some time to myself to recharge my batteries. »

- « Oh… now that I think about it… I think it happened to kiri once…. She didn’t left her room for two days. Even my dad started to worry. *You giggle* …Is it because of me ? Am i too…much? »

- « *a bit sad* oh sweet boy no….*caress his cheek* It’s not because of anybody in perticular… I just exhausted myself by hanging around so many people at the same time I guess…? »

- « …So ? What do you usually do to “recharge your batteries“ »

- « *smilling* I mean… a good confort movie always helps… »

- « What are you wearing btw? »

- « It’s called a hoodie. »

- « Aren’t you too warm with that on? »

- « No not really, it’s more for comfort anyways »

- He touches you hoodie feeling the material.

- « I just got an idea. »

- « What kind..? »

- « You’ll see »

- You stand up from where you were laying and started walking toward a pile of clothes laying on the ground. Shuffling trough it, you get your hands on another hoodie, slightly bigger, that you had stolen from the RDA along with your other stuff. You also walk to your desk to grab a tablet that was laying on it.

- « Here sit and put your arms up. »

- Loak obeyed you whitout questions, lifting his arms above his head.

- You took the hoodie and slide it down all the way. You then gave a slight tug at the cord that was hanging, making the hood close himself half way on loak’s face.

- *you laugh* « Hey! That not nice! »

- *pulls the hood down* « See? It’s comfortable huh? »

- « I mean… I guess you could say so… »

- *slightly pushes his shoulder* «  shut up I know you like it. »

- *loak laughs* « here, let’s watch something.

- You took the tablet that was laying on the floor, opening it and clicked on the movie app. 

- « *mostly to yourself* What could we watch… »

- *loak points at the screen* « what’s that? »

- « It’s a car, it’s made to travel from one point to an other…. Kinda like those train the sky people uses [it shown it the movie] »

- Realizing you didn’t feel like explaining everything that shown up on screen to him, you settle for an nature documentary on earth’s marine life thinking his skills in English would suffice for him to understand.

- Even thought you still had to explain a few things here and there, loak was mesmerized by the documentary listening carefully to what the men on the screen said. Almost not noticing you drifting to sleep on his shoulder once the shrimps came up [kinda random ik]

END

[lovinggarou]

Very messy garou rant

Okay now I was taking a shower and I started to rant to myself abour garou .specifically abour garou avoiding bombs dojo because it was straight up related to bang and even though that ended up being Just a silly headcanons I still loved to think about that. I have to clarify 2 things is that 1. English is not my first language and 2. This is a rant not really analysis or looking for something too deeply is just messy thoughts with a Huge lack of redaction skills . I don’t think I’m good analyzing stuff and I don’t have the dialogues in hand 💔

I was genuinely about to ask what do people thought about it mainly basing myself on what garou said in the anime, manga and webcomic (mentioned in the databook too) about how he avoided using Stream Rock Smashing fist because it straight up reminded him of bang .which sometimes gets a little bit insane because a part of me thinks that he could’ve polished the technique (that was lacking of so many things which is shown during his first fight he had with bang) instead of just placing it apart. Bang even after months of being away from garou always showed how he still thought about him .st first when they mentioned him for the first time in the anime s1 episode 10 he sounded a bit resentful, but as the time passes and garou starts to show up as a hero hunter he starts to get melancholic and genuinely remorseful about it (which by the way has a whole page in the databook) -> I also want to clarify how I’m very aware how bang is not a sunshine and that he’s also one of the reasons of why garou ended up on the edge, not really wanting to fault him about it because it was a garou decision but well, feeling neglected by the only person that you probably trusted (and not at all), leaving you behind not just you his #1 disciple (just imagine how beinf the #1 something meant to him and how he probably felt after noticing that not even like that he could have that attention) but his whole dojo . making feel that he didn’t have nothing more to learn .like!!!!!!! Okay dude . bonus grief if you have in mind how garou thought about the heroes and knowing that his master was one now .idk but .garou beinf constantly neglected and pushed away and being pointed out always instead of actually someone taking the time to make him understant why the things he thought were wrong since he was a child. Bang instead of taking him and try to put his former disciple on the right path again after seeinf with his own eyes how far that “darkness” (in the databook they say en las tinieblas but idk how to translate that) was getting into him .instead of doing that pushing him away leaving him alone and also “freeing” the beast garou was “about to become” . and yk bang way of thinking is not the best too.he may have good intentions but well .ok . That’s probably why garou didn’t need at all .he needed someone to CARE about HIM not to baby him but to actually concern about him and to take their time .no one in his whole life have him that .he ended up seeking that attention into other things such as the hero hunting things that probably helped him to boost his ego. there’s lots of things but ok now I already ALREADY talked too much about things that weren’t the main point hello .sorry . messy thoughts .

Going back with dojo hunting..because yeah he kinda .was being called like that (lobster extra chapter from volume 8) .he was supposed to be fighting a bunch of dojos with the purpose of getting stronger (probably sort of the training he usually mentions becasue that’s the way garou gets stronger, also mentioned in the databook even though that’s super obvious, I think it’s cool because if he looses or not a battle he always hve something to absorb and to learn and apply for the next one .so no battle is a loose-> something that he also said in the manga) so here is where I had that silly headcanons of him avoiding bomb’s dojo .again repeating the same thing but without the .ramble . bang means a lot for garou .is a huge weak spot he has specially considering how much he reacts to him in the first place, him saying that he was avoiding his technique, his reaction when he heard bangs voice in the manga (and I specify the manga because in the manga they take this relationship and SQUEEZEEEE THE SHIT out of it . they WORKED IT BETTER and that’s the reason of why I like the end of his arc a little bit more in the manga but that’s another point that I won’t touch SORRY .focusing .), and that specifc internal dialogue he had when he was about to attack saitama .admitting thst he lacked of determination after he mentioned how he felt relieved to know that bang was alive after the fight he had with the centipede . Those little things that tell us how meaningful bang is for him and lowkey being the only one in his life (the lack of care his parents have for him completely abandoning him and leaving him with his master) .i liked the thought of him not wanting to have contact with bang and not wanting to feel weak out of his own emotions being the reason of why he didn’t like the idea of going for bomb’s dojo BUT SADLY IT got destroyed when I remembered that in fact bomb is almost (almost because even though he was stronger than him in the youth .bang is the one that could take monster garou without fubuki’s help) as strong as bang and GAROU IS NOT STUPID HE KNOWS HE WOULDVE GOT SABOTAGED here it comes wh y-> by that point garou wasn’t as strong or stronger than any of them . if I think about it a little bit more maybe if he tried to destroy that dojo and lost he could’ve become a little bit more stronger at the start of his arc after experimenting what bomb’s technique was after him losing because he was obviously gonna loose .but loosing would not just mean oh damn .i lost!!! Shame !!! but like .thats his brothers master .Bomb was probably not letting him go AT ALL . and he would’ve had to face the consequences of his actions sooner and hero hunting would probably have never happened .maybe if he achieved to escape but again …he couldn’t escape when he was fighting both of them he had to have the help of other monsters (which was frustrating for him) … yeah ….. there’s so many things to talk abour garou in my opinion and in this app they don’t have word restriction so #awesome . hell yeah . Goodby . e.

[juvederm]

actually yapping

feel like a lot of my thoughts about not getting enough notes or whatever on a drawings can be dissolved by just accepting that art of the Game (its plot, events, etc) will pop off more than some self indulgent sketch. people will like things they can recognize, which i was aware of but i just thought that my art would reach the fandom people, yk the ones who are not just attached to the story but the characters too. so making recognizable art of the game wouldn't matter bc it would instead be of the characters

but the thing is, making Serious art of the game is tough. it's hard coming up with ideas, and who knows if the process is gonna be fun or extremely grueling. and on top of that, what hasn't been done so far? every idea has been drawn, been brought to life. the game is like 8 years old now. i kinda don't wanna draw more "Mountain. Blood. Snow. Ugly winter outfits" anymore lol. i mean sometimes i do bc i love the game obviously but when i wanna have fun, i'll tend to do other things that kinda combine with my own personal interests. so like fashion for example, i'll take the characters and dress them up. that's me having fun.

i want to think and Know that people understand this concept, but it feels like they don't? maybe they do. i know for a fact my mutuals do, because you are all very supportive of every silly josh doodle i make lol i appreciate it a lot 🤗 you guys are the kind of people i make this art for, the Character Likers. because i myself am someone who will attach to the characters more than like, the story. which isn't to say i just disregard the source material, that's not it at all, but for me regarding UD, imma be honest yall... i do not give a fuck abt the creature lore in the game at all. i don't care abt billy bates and whatnot. it's fine if you do, but me personally ehhh i don't care much abt that part of the story

i really like the characters out of all of this, i like certain dynamics, dialogue, etc. and i love the story too, and especially love when the story involves the characters (which i think the sanitarium segments doesn't really do? it kinda just gives insight on the 1950s mine incident and shjt) but i like the parts of the story relating to the twins. bc those are characters and they kinda haunt the narrative.

speaking of the narrative, it's part of the reason i like josh. he doesn't haunt the narrative but he controls it a lot id say. he's a very captivating character, very compelling. you want a lot out of him, like what's wrong, why is he doing this, why did he say that, blah blah. i honestly love characters that are attractive in this way, even to other characters in the story. so sam and chris for example. i enjoy the dynamic they have with josh because they're worried about him, they're thinking about him, or they want to know if he's okay, what's up with him and all that. he holds their attention like that, and ofc that led to ships and stuff. i feel like ashley's actress said it best when describing josh: "you think he's one way but then he's another"

which is honestly just so fucking true. you think he's dead, then he's not, you think he's okay but then he's not, you think he might live but he doesn't. he's even like that personality wise i'd say, but that's teetering onto like headcanon territory just somewhat. because sam does say "it's hard to tell with him" but that's mostly bc of the incident with the twins, she can't Tell if he's okay or barely hanging on. josh is hard to pin down, he's Complex, as stated in the game

sorry for getting into a little josh analysis there but since he is an important character (in general) to me, i kinda felt the need. because this also goes into my gripes about people not really getting why i draw him the way i do. j know i won't shut up about this, but i just Want everyone to know, bc i feel as though it was part of the reason why i wasn't really interacted with for as long as i've been a part of this fandom. like nobody really understood what i was doing, but it was really just simple fun. i mean, now i've completely given up hope with ever really Connectinf with the fandom, but i just want this off my chest honesrly lol

like i really don't want to keep drawing josh one way. like i said i wanna have fun so that's what i do. i can't really "make an him an oc" because i don't change anything about his story or writing. putting him in a silly outfit doesn't make him eligible for "original characterification" lol. so that's what i mean by i make a lot my art for the fandom people, the ones who like the game for more than its story, people who like making headcanons, people who like writing for the game, etc

and the reason i do it a lot is bc of what i said before. making art of the game is tough, it's a lot of thinking. what Hasn't been done already? not much lol. so i'll just keep sketching the silly stuff and sharing it with cool ppl who kinda get what i'm doing 👍

but i definitely will make art of the game and not just the characters, i'll make art more recognizable to the average player because guess what. that's also what i like. it just takes a long time for me because Serious art has a lot of thinking and planning behind it and is just very time consuming in general. but oh, josh in a skirt? took two minutes and i can just close my ipad and not worry about anything else lol

i hope this made sense??!?&?@ i kinda wanted to talk to people about it so if anyone else feels the same way i'd love to know. i'll prob make a followup sometime soon but i just wanted to get all my thoughts out in one place because i've kinda collected them all finally leleleleel

[bisluthq]

I feel like we might be going a bit far with the whole "he didn't make an effort, that's his thing". We're making it sound like Taylor was putting up with someone who wasn't there and didn't like her. And sure idk Joe personally but I don't see him as this passive human being with no will to live or with no personality at all. I know the haters see it that way, because he doesn't give much away but everyone has a personality and a mind on its own. And not everyone's personality is the kind of loud, fill the room personality. That doesn't mean the person is not interesting, maybe it just means you have to get closer to them. Maybe it means they are not as comfortable as to show themselves to strangers as other people do.

I mean yeah by the end he was probably done, but I don't think he spend months and months on end or like a year or more just being there, not making her feel loved or anything and just being there yk. Do we think he was some kind of mad man who suddenly forgot he had a girlfriend or would do his life ignoring her and she was just like oh yeah I'm going to put up with this for some weird reason?

If that was the case things would have ended sooner. There's a lot of theories about this breakup just based on one song that depicts the end of it, but that's it. And even if you see in the song, she says he was still telling her he loved her...it wasn't like he forgot about her or stopped acknowledging her. In my honest perception, YLM is mainly about miscommunications (on both ends by the way). I don't even see it as a lack of effort like most people not necessarily atleast. To me that song tells me Taylor was unhappy with how things were doing between them and felt like for some reason he was pretending they were fine or didn't acknowledge they weren't by talking to her about it at the very least. I feel like neither were communicating with each other tbh. He didn't acknowledge what was happening and by what she described neither was she. The only time she mentions talking to him is the opening line and if that was the kind of dialogue that was going on...I mean...

My point is throughout all the song she just keeps waiting for him to say something, hoping he does but it doesn't seem to me like she was doing anything herself. Besides all the signs she was hoping he would see, which gives me crappy communication exile vibes more than anything.

Idk if I'm making myself clear, like I'm not saying Taylor was crazy and everything was perfect but I also don't believe he is this passive person who supposely asked her to marry him just because and in a lazy non chalant way and that apart from the first two years or something he stopped giving a shit about her or about romancing her.

I'm sure they had their problems but I think it was only in the last months the same will to solve wasn't there on his part. That was probably what was hard for her. Up until that time they were both in to fight and solve stuff and then he decided even if not conscious, maybe it wasn't worth it anymore. But like I said there were two people in the relationship fighting for it until they weren't and it feels a bit uncomfortable to assume otherwise.

I buy this very thought out take entirely.

But I do still think he didn’t make enough tangible effort towards the end and again, it’s not just YLM - it’s also Sweet Nothing. Again, I get the romance of the song intellectually but knowing they were on the rocks I kinda think it says it all - he wasn’t expecting anything from her at the end and in return he wasn’t really doing much.

obviously this doesn’t apply to 6.5 years but the last year or so clearly wasn’t amazing for either person.

[after-witch]

Hey! It’s me! The anon who said they were reading Small Spaces with their mom! We just finished the last book and ;; we’re kinda bummed with the ending. Though I’ve noticed a lot of people are. The fact that they led up to the smiling man to be some sort of tragic/lonely figure and then promptly didn’t resolve any of it was sort of a major bummer. We have more questions than answers. But yk, the more brainworms I have about the guy the better tbh. More stuff to stew up in there. Gives us stuff to talk about. (while waiting for the audible credit to listen to empty smiles -libby didn’t have it- I picked up The Invisible Life of Addie Larue since I saw you talking about it and it was absolutely amazing. Currently trying to get my mom to read that too lol.) We’ve kinda made ourselves a two person book club. Haha! Thanks to you and your blog we have a new thing to do together. Thanks Theo! (Oh! And would you ever have any plans to write any fics for Luc?)

Hey!! I also had mixed feelings about the ending. It felt very rushed. I kind of wonder, and I feel bad for writing this because maybe it's not true at all, if Arden wanted to focus more on her new book, which she said she'd been writing for 5 years, and sort of whipped through it. Since the series wasn't originally intended to be more than one book, maybe she got contracted into a quartet and found it hard to finish. I also remember she said somewhere that the original concept wasn't a carnival but something radically different (This like avant garde puppet show based on a real puppet show) so maybe she ended up having to scrap original thoughts/drafts/etc and rewrite something new.

Regardless, definitely feels like there's about 20-30 pages of story missing.

I really like the audiobook for Empty Smiles, particularly the Smiling Man dialogue. I really love the narrator's choices for some of the dialogue. "Save me from stubborn girls" had me kicking my legs.

I'm glad you guys were able to read the series together!! Really, ahh thank you for sharing, idk I'm being really sappy but I just love that it's something you guys get to do together. And that you're continuing it with more books!

Ahh The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue! I'm glad someone else recommended it. I really enjoyed it. I don't have any plans to write for Luc, but I do find him intriguing. If I did write for Luc, it probably wouldn't be romantic,

Did you know that Katherine Arden's new adult book coming out in 2024 is described as being The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue meets All the Light We Cannot See? I hope you and your mom pick that one up when it comes out!

[kneelingshadowsalome]

woah sorry to hear you got plagiarized! it reminds me of something i recently saw

someone published a fanfic in a pretty small fandom, and through the first few chapters i could recognize several details, and even a similar writing style, from another fanfic that was published a few years ago, although the old author from the original fanfic is no longer active in the fandom. the new author even formatted their chapters the same specific way the old author did.

and as i read on i saw whole ideas and chunks of dialogue being copied, and it made me think gosh are you not embarrassed??!! 😣 you blatantly stole like 80% of someone’s concept!

i guess i’m looking for advice or tips on how to approach it. i don’t want to stir up drama, but i also don’t think i should just let it happen. is there a respectful way i could go about it as a reader, without making a harsh accusation?

whew oops that was long. sorry if it seems random that i’m coming to you with this, but i thought you might understand the ick i got!!

Heyy! 🥰 Answer below the cut ->

Firstly: damn that sounds such an awkward thing to come across. I think it's very kind and sweet of you to want and do something about it.

Yk, my "case" was small potatoes compared to this. Doesn't mean I think it's cool 😅 It gives you this feeling of "Wouldn't it be nice to like... come up with your own stuff?" 👉👈

And I know certain things are repeated across the fandom because it's canon or fits the character so well, such as Ghost muttering Fuckin' hell or calling their boo Sweetheart or Luv (the latter being basic terms of endearment and, to my understanding, more commonly used than e.g. Honey or Babe if you're British.) So I certainly don't view things like that as plagiarizing or copying.

But stealing story ideas and plots and chunks of dialogue and even the formatting style...? Like, what is this person thinking exactly 🥺

I would perhaps inform the original writer about this case, but if they're not in the fandom anymore/can't be reached through message, well, that leaves the uncomfortable option of stepping up and telling this person that you noticed so many similarities to author Y's work X that you want to kindly remind that this is plagiarism and that copying someone else's creative work is not ok. (Or something along the lines of that. I don't know how you can put shit like this kindly because it is what it is)

And then there's the fact that people can simply have certain incapacities in understanding what they're doing sometimes. And I don't mean this in a demeaning way, it's just that not everyone is doing unkind things out of spite or lust for fame or whatever. They just might not see how problematic or even illegal it is.

And some people just don't care and mainly hope they won't get caught. In these cases it's only kinda sad that you don't want to use your own imagination to create but have to lean on other people's skill and talent and passion to feed off from. It doesn't even make me angry, you know? Just makes me confused.

If I was this writer getting mugged I would be eternally grateful if someone informed me (like someone did in my case of small potatoes 💖) about it. And if it ever came to my knowledge that someone had called out such blatant stealing of my work, I would probably be moved to tears.

BUT you ultimately do what you deem right and also feel strong enough to do. These things happen and sometimes you just have to accept it. It can be very exhausting to intervene because like we both agreed, this shit is uncomfortable. Just saying this as a kind reminder to take care of yourself first before helping others 🩷

Hope this was of some help!

[incorrect-hs-quotes]

Mod terezi you are now obligated to do the other trolls (yk like aranea, kurloz etc etc I tend to forget what to refer to them as) and their thoughts on twilight

I've been sitting on this, mostly because ya gurl am lazy and needed a breather. So Imma get right on it.

Alright here goes.

Damara: Much like Rufioh, she thinks it's trash. But again like Rufioh, she can't seem to quit it. It's one of the few things she enjoys without all the sburb baggage so she goes back to it every now and again when she's feeling especially despondent.

Rufioh: He never particularly cared for it, despite being a trashy romance character himself. He doesn't think it's bad or anything it's just not his cup of tea and he's cool with leaving it at that

Mituna: I feel like he just kinda hated it when he was fully cognizant, like he would make snide remarks about it on the side but mostly just leave that pile of nope alone. But after he busted his brain (and lost any semblance of impulse control) he will go apeshit at the drop of a hat when he hears it, and sometimes when he doesn't. If he really doesn't like something he will find a way to bring it into the conversation so he can crudely insult two things at once.

Kankri. Not in the slightest, nor does he really care about it one way or the other, but he really plays up how "pr96lematic" (god I hate that word, it's a non-descriptor) it is just so he can look woke. He'd like to stop, he really would, but he's entrenched himself too deep at this point and there's no going back now. He's going down with his ship and ego in flames

Meulin: Yes. She adores this book, cover to cover. She's read it multiple times, seen the films over and over, owns the collectors editions, even has a cosplay at the ready. Not that slapping on a khaki skirt and some white makeup is hard, but it's still there. She is a die-hard fangirl and she is in the team Jacob camp for life. She thinks Ed Wood is neat but Jacob is just a heartthrob

Porrim. No, she thinks it's reductive and pedantic and portrays ladies as flighty broads who can't do anything for themselves. While she's all for woman authors and sordid romances, this is definitely one author she wishes didn't take off

Latula: Between you and me, I think Latula is the biggest nerd of the bunch who plays up her "r4d g1rl cooln3ss" factor because she's really insecure over a lot. I also think she's into troll period dramas, which is just Star Trek but Gray, and b-list romances which includes Twilight as The B-List Romance. She reads this every now and again, and like most pleasures for her, it's a guilty one. She loves it dearly but knows it's cringe and that is the last thing she wants to be seen as.

Aranea: Being the shy, nervous, nerdy bookworm she is, you would assume that she's gung-ho about Twilight, but I would say otherwise. She may be a shy, nervous, nerdy bookworm who fell in love with her alt-self for how badass she is/was/would be, but she is still an academic and after reading Twilight for more than ten minutes she finds the plot, writing, and dialogue insulting. While Mindfang may be the stuff of legends, this is not that. It's a dusty paperweight with pages

Horuss: I'm honestly torn here, because like all Zahhak's, he's a huge hornball. But even by Zahhak standards, he's curmudgeonly. Like, I think that's a thing that people forget. His more positive attitude was something he only started doing recently at the behest of his new moirial Meulin, and that's because he saw how happy his ancestor was with Nepeta and wanted some of that for himself. Otherwise he's as sour as they come. I'm getting off track. I think, given how recent a development his willingness to try an attitude shift was and that's come with mixed results, I don't think he's truly pulled his head out of his ass enough yet to give it an honest go, so I'm gonna say no he thinks Twilight is just trash that even he wouldn't indulge in

Kurloz: Ugggggghhghgghgghgh again with the clowns. Kurloz, Kurloz, ughghghhh I'm gonna say no because unlike Gamzee he's always been sober and he's pretty hardass about most things. He's not very self indulgent so I can't see him doing that at all.

Cronus: Are you kidding? Yes this human loving weirdo loves all things human, especially their trash. You could call him the garbage man with how much trash he's picked up. If homestuck were written early you can bet your life and come out unscathed on him being a die-hard Twilight fan

Meenah: Like Cronus, her tastes can get pretty trashy. But unlike Cronus she needs a little bling or ka-ching to catch her interest. What I'm saying is it's not flashy or packs enough punch for her to look at it for more than five seconds before moving on.

- Mod Terezi

[svtbooyeonce]

WELCOME TO SERENITY'S BOOKSTORE-CAFE!

law school kdrama review

(note: this is written over multiple days so might be kinda distorted? please bear with me, my thoughts are incoherent asf)

started: nov 9 finished: nov 12

rating: 10/10

how do i even talk about this? where do i even start?

it all started when i finished crying in h mart by michelle zauner. that book took so much out of me emotionally, i just needed something to get my mind off of that. i was originally looking for something lighthearted but when it couldn't stop me from constantly thinking about stuff, i kinda randomly started law school. tbh it wasn't even in my to-watch list hfbdjsvk (don't judge me, i'm still developing a taste palette)

BUT i did stay up until 4:30 in the morning watching the first 4 episodes :)

this is exactly what i needed when my head was so full with thoughts. it captured my attention right from the intro (i mean that ost??) and i loved this so much-- i remember texting my cousin after watching this at 1 in the morning, telling him how i would never be able to put all the emotions i felt during this watch into proper sentences in my review and how i will never be able to let people know how much i love this and it hurts me to be like this. i haven't felt this much want and need to tell someone about how much i loved something and wasn't able to do so from when i first discovered seventeen.

rambling aside, this story follows a law school where, one fine day, one of the professors is found dead in his office. long investigations, wild accusations and fear follow. filled with emotions and the urgency to know the truth and reasonings behind betrayals, this drama is bound to keep the viewer on the edge of their seat.

i adored the found family trope. finding solace in one another, helping out each other-- it made my heart full with love (and with envy cause i want friends like that :') ). the academics part was so interesting to watch and it lowkey made me want to study hgrfbjkdn

my favourite characters would definitely be seungjae and prof kim. i loved seungjae from the first time he came on camera. now don't get me wrong, malpractices in exams are a bad thing buuuttt yk... btejnfkdjf-- prof. kim on the other hand, what a depiction of a true slytherin. being loyal towards people but also crushing them for their wrong doings-- gosh i loved her so much.

yeseul and sol b had a soft spot in my heart. the depiction of controlling partners and parents was so well done. from sol b developing trust issues to yeeseul not even realising the toxicity, it felt as though watching two of my friends go through so much and not being able to do anything.

also, is no one gonna talk about how ji ho's story line was the perfect villain origin story??

also (2), i love how yebeom and bokgi's motives were brought to light through junhwi and sol a. i loved bok gi sm-- to be protected at all costs!! (this applies to the whole squad but)

yangcrates-- god this man confused me so much. like he's the kinda dude who believes everything is grey and there is no black or white. one dialogue, he's trying to dig up something from a person and the next he's telling them how he could use the way they formed their sentence against them in the court and how they should change the way like speaking. like WhAT??

for a day or two after finishing this, i just couldn't understand why i liked this drama so much. sure, i love a good mystery thriller but why did this mean so much to me? i haven't had one drama that i wanted to rewatch immediately after finishing it and spammed everyone i know, in hopes of getting an confirmation that there would be a second season. this made me do things i wouldn't normally retort to doing and it lowkey scared meugfjnvk

what i realised i loved so much about this drama is how subtle the development of sol A and junhwi's relationship is. the friends to lovers is just a speck in the back while the murder mystery is taking up the focus of the camera.

sol A is a i-feel-guilty-if-i-take-any-credit sorta person, brushing away compliments with a slightly teasing tone (with friends) and passing on the credit to someone else (when with teachers or in a professional setting).

on the other hand, junhwi is the embodiment of actions speak louder than words. from setting up a cctv camera in front of their house when sol A's family's security was threatened to immediately agreeing to help sol A with her studies.

it is just so subtle that i texted a group of friends immediately after finishing the drama, asking, if they shipped junhwi and sol A together or wanted them to remain friends if there was a second season. the friends to lovers trope has been done justice and i am here for it!

this drama is so well presented. no character is left out, are properly and fully developed, the ending was fantastic, nothing felt rushed, the murder mystery was properly handled, the foreshadowing, oh the foreshadowing-- everything was so well done, i just can't help but be in awe. i am desperate for a second season and my favourite scene was the one where junhwi confronts seo byung jae and is like "it's your car wasn't it?" over and over with his voice becoming louder each sentence. i won't go into detail but the hurt, anguish, desperation and anger were so well portrayed. another one would be when the all of them are quoting stuff while lying on the grass and junhwi gets super emotional while talking about his uncle and that is followed by sol a snoring rhbsdjn.

basically, i need a second season and recommendations for a found family, academic, law setting drama. you can find me reading theories and observations and reblogging them here and on twt *holds up peace sign*

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bookstore checkouts:

~ law textbooks

~ mock question papers vol. 1

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highly highy recommend, but there are quite a few tws so make sure to check them out!

well then, this has been long, i hope it makes sense and yeah, see you next time and happy watching!

[cannibalisticcorpse]

didnt get tagged but im high and realllllly wanted to do this

How many works do you have on AO3?

63

What’s your total AO3 word count?

214,757

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Dream Team/dsmp, Achievement Hunter/fahc, Cow Chop/fake chop, Red vs Blue, RWBY, Wolf 359, (and these are all deleted/orphaned now) voltron, supernatural

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

i promise the titles do not reflect me as a person

1. The Dick Pic Fic - 1884 kudos

2. the text fic - 1136 kudos

3. The Kitten Fic - 589 kudos

4. The Cup Fic - 516 kudos

5. The Piss Fic - 406 kudos

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

i try to, but sometimes i get like.... the same comment so many times that i cant really say anything more on it yk. but i usually try to say thank you at least T-T

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Cassiopeia and Cephus - GeorgeNotFound/DreamWasTaken, T, 1,187 words, among us AU, additional warnings in note

summary: Dream leans in and whispers, “George you’re supposed to be Cetus the sea monster, and I’m Andromeda, cast in stone.”

Do you write crossovers? If so what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I wrote fake ah crew/john wick where trevor was just... john wick.... that's it tho. i think it'd be fun to write a dsmp fic where every british person just talked like gavin but i dont think that's a crossover technically...

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...... i had a member of a youtuber group i have a tattoo on my shoulder of read one of my fics, a gorey smut fic, out loud, live, to over 1k people and then he read my twitter @ at the end of it. (and this was just 1 instance)

:biteslip: so yeah i guess you could say i've received hundereds of death threats and other nasty shit

i will say most of it is deserved to be fair

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

uh.......

yes. i have a kink request fic going so that's like..... everything? idk i usually write to vent and that means i write violent stuff sometimes and that gets turned into smut

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of, but i have inspired a lot of fic titles and plots. i had a 13 yr old accuse me of stealing their fic once?? idk i just blocked them

Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope

What’s your all time favorite ship?

ummmmm i dont know actually. maybe dnn?? snf? idk

Whats a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

T-T birds, stars and sunshine, the soulmate zombie apoc au

features childhood best friends to loveres bbh/skeppy, meet cute love at first sight karlnapity, and meet cute enemies to lovers dnf

it's such a good au but im so shit at world building for it

What are your writing strengths?

i genuinely don't know, the only common compliment on my writing i can think of is writing characters.... in character.. and dialogue? idk im a good ideas guy kinda

What are your writing weaknesses?

also genuinely dont know but im gonna say describing smells, feel free to tell me if any of u have read any of my shit

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

a few words are nice and cool, but just make it natural and don't over-do it? like if you're fluent in the language or have an editor who is then like pop off and write multi lingual characters, if it's like a whole conversation i beg u to put a translation after it. i only speak eng

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

supernatural

What’s your favorite fic that you’ve written?

Concept of Joy :(((( i've been writing it with my partner for over a year and i love it sm...

if u see this and you write, please do this too and tag me at the top so i see it for sure :]]]

[jeongjaebae]

ok long feedback time bc i like to talk. i haven’t done such a long in-depth feedback in months so i figured it was about time. it’s kinda all over the place but i’ll try to organize my thoughts.

here we go, time to disect this 12k monster masterpiece (also don’t mind the incoherent fangirling. it’s me. skrtskrt. you should be used to this)

my favorite parts:

the scene where the reader fakes shit to get younghoon to notice her. honestly? comedy GOLD. never kept it up but its something ive done in the past akajsk. needa start doing it again for attention though

secondly the part where the reader gains a different perspective from younghoon at the study session. i liked how you wrote out the dialogue, you could really sense how there was a bit of tension between the two characters with the insensitive reader. just the way you wrote the reader’s carefree personality overall in contrast wity younghoon’s slight coldness was my favorite. also you said i liked bad guys and wouldn’t like this fic (?) WRONG. i like all men LMAO.

my favorite lines:

“he seems so guarded all the time that making him open up to the idea of love might be a challenge in itself."

idk man something about that sentence hits me. i really like it too bc younghoon really does give off those kept to self vibes yk? he a real softie inside tho wbk

“Would it be so bad to just stay in his arms forever? You wanted to drown in him, to be so overwhelmed by his love that you forget everything except for the sound of your own name coming out of his mouth. But unfortunately, he couldn't be the solution to your problems if he was also the cause of them.”

ok i said this before but i truly mean it every single time. i love the way your words flow to express emotion. like you always focus on word building and all that stuff but i think everything about your writing is flawless. amazing writer things!!

"But you can't exactly break my heart if I never fell for you in the first place.”

ok that line just hurts but we love angst so it’s ok. Plus Y/N deserved that. i be bitter too. also the way you broke my heart man…

"Honestly, aren't we all trying to figure that out?" he says thoughtfully. "I don't think it can be defined in just one way; it's something that we learn a little more about each day. The stories we live to tell and the events that shape our lives—they may teach us to love the world a little more, and by extension, each other. So in a way, love can be anything you want it to be."

OK FIRST OF ALL. You know a fic is GOOD when the author manages to make you fall in love with the lead character. (in this case Younghoon) idk how but you manage to do it everytime jiejie… like i’m falling for him bad. SECOND OF ALL. honestly as someone who doesn’t really believe in love but finds the idea temporally fun (iykyk lmao) but like i loved that whole paragraph. you didn’t jump straight into the i love you but instead dived deeper beyond the surface of the topic. considering the circumstances they dealt with, the way you described love was perfect. but fr tho, as time goes on, we’re always learning so everything we do and the people we meet will end up shaping our views on things (in this case love).

ok wow this was so long. SORRY LMAO. i’ll keep it short next time but i like to ramble. also unrelated but i really want juyeon as my chem partner still. that fic is still my fav loll, no one ain’t ever topping that. also i’m curious was your major in college biology? you always seem so interested in science loll, ok bye i talk too much🔫

i— 🥺🥺🥺

this is coherent dw!! omg you even organized it by lines 🥺

yes i turn up the charm on purpose sometimes for attention too HAHAHA it's fun. and please, what is there to like about men 😔 maybe just men written by women. but anyway, i kind of treated this like a character study? recently i've noticed that sometimes the characters sound the same in people's fics so i've been kind of self conscious about that happening in mine (though i think i've been doing a decent job at making each character distinct)

first quote: i barely paid attention to this part but hmm interesting. ok at least his characterization was on point then phew

the second quote!! not one of my faves but now that you've pointed it out, i kind of like it. it flows nicely. but omg i don't think i focus on world building AT ALL 😅 "you look hideous on me" was a bit of an exception but even the world building in that was unintentional. guess i generally prefer my fics straight to the point so world building seems kind of unnecessary at times. might've been nice to have some in this fic though, would've given it more dimension for sure.

the angst line... well, hurt people hurt people so. just him lashing out nbd, we all know it was false hAHAHA

the last quote is definitely one of my faves!! from the mc's perspective i would've thought younghoon had it all figured out, but then hearing him say that was like... wow. it's a fresh perspective that lets us peer into his mind and it's also quite true. his mindset towards life was what allowed him to forgive our mc and be understanding about what the mc did. hmm i guess i snuck a lot of my own ideologies into this fic, and maybe that's why i love it (and this younghoon) so much. and of course, never jump straight into the ily or the BOOM KISS part!! 😂

no, omg not straight up biology. it was my least fave of the three sciences in college LMAO. i did a bit of everything tho: majored in neuroscience, doubled minored in math and biochemistry, and added a lil physics specialization on top of that, then went into biostatistics afterwards but we don't talk about that part. (NERD!!!! i hear you, don't worry) but i guess you probably already know from reading my old works since i used to sneak in a ton of science references (deffs cringing at them now tho). so yeah if you ever need help with courses... hmu i guess LOL

but anyways, i wrote 12.8k of pure ART and ur still goin on about chem lab partner juyeon??!?! 💀💀💀 ur in DEEP girl. i would consider writing something else from that world but i'm still brainstorming for your prompt atm. when ur album comes i hope u pull juyeon tho hehe 🤡

[13eyond13]

What's your opinion on different interpretations of Light and L's characters? By saying that i mean how they were portrayed in DN Drama, Musical (let's take Japanese version) and Movies.

Personally I find the most interesting interpretation of Light in the Drama, bc he's more soft and sympathetic. I'm not saying that I would prefer him to animanga!Light (animanga!Light is still the best), but at least it's something new and fresh (also, i absolutely LOVE the scene where Souichiro learns that his son was Kira all along and Light is just split bc he can't decide whether he wants to be Kira or wants his father alive and the scene is absolutely gut-wrenching I would sell my soul for it). If we speak about Japanese musical, I don't get Light's character here? In his first song ("Where's the justice?") he sings about unjust world and how everything is "just law, not law and order, but in the next song ("Hurricane") he already sings that he's the god of brend new world? I mean, his motivation moves from "wants to help innocents" to "wants to be god bc of boredom" kinda quickly? And DN Movies, well.... They certainly made Light darker and i don't like the fact bc it feels they made him darker so he could contrast with softer L.

Speaking of L, again, the best version is animanga version and we all know it 🛐. But I think I love his interpretation in Musical too? I love these songs that show us his thinking process and I love the fact that in Musical L and Light seem to obsess over each other like in canon (yk, bc they always sing about how it would be like to see the world through other's eyes etc.). I find Drama!L to be veeeeeeeery fan-servicy, but he's still entertaining, especially when the show allows him slow scenes where he doesn't have to take his shirt off 50 times during the dialogue, but instead speaks about his ideology or relationships with other people (scenes with Near, Yagami Souichiro, Light (esp the one where he tries to make him confess). As for Movies!L, well... I just don't like him. Neither L nor Light are the embodiment of good or justice but the creators made it seem like Light is absolutely evil and L is absolutely good and this pisses me off. L lets Misa Amane go free after Rem's death even though Misa killed tons of people and he tells Souichiro that he was sorry that he couldn't save Light so I presume that he would have let him go too (even if he wouldn't, it's still dumb, bc he let Misa go). Also fans are like "awww look at him giving a candy to a crying child he would've been such a great father". I mean, I'm not against making characters softer or kinder, but even in the animanga, where L tortured people and sacrificed criminals, there's still a huge L fanbase that sees him as a completely good guy. And by making Light darker and L kinder they as well could have said "yep, we have a villain and a hero, they are complete oopposites". Idk I just don't get it.

Your thoughts?

Hi hello! I have only seen half of the j-drama, watched the anime twice, watched the musical once, and saw the Netflix movie when it first came out. And I never really liked any of them nearly as much as the manga, so that's why I always sound like a broken record about it on this blog 😆 I just think the manga is by far the best-written, funniest, saddest, and prettiest-looking version all at once.

The drama might actually be my favourite alternate version Light as well out of all the things I've seen too, because that adaptation was also funny/entertaining and sometimes sad, and it often surprised me in a good way. And yeah, drama!Light was like an entirely different character, and maybe that's why he was more interesting and sympathetic to me than just a more watered-down/cardboard version of the original complicated manga guy. I find Light often gets turned into a privileged Mikami sort of character in adaptations, rather than the oddly-chill-at-times one with the weird sense of humour he was in the manga to me. And L is just almost always made more cartoony and goofy and/or emo and somehow cast in a heroic light while simultaneously still being a shady dude in everything he does, so I haven't ever really liked L in anything else very much. I do often hear people like musical!L a lot. And I feel like a wet blanket especially when talking about the musical in the fandom, because I just didn't really like it or feel particularly moved by it most of the time. Especially when it came to L and Light and the Lawlight aspect of stuff, which was boring and lacking in chemistry to me. I found most of it too sincere and serious and somber to be entertaining, as DN easily becomes extremely tedious to me when most of the dark/goofy humour and ironic slyness is sucked out of it like that. I feel a lot of adaptations focus so heavily on Lawlight that it actually gets boring to me too, even though it's also my favourite ship. It's a bit hard to explain, but I prefer Lawlight to almost be left as this curious little unspoken background thing going on in addition to all the other interesting stuff, rather than featured as this big, obvious central element of the plot. At least outside of fanmade stuff.

My next favourite version of DN overall after the manga is definitely the anime, simply because the voice acting and soundtrack is so good. But even that is still like "why the heck would you watch the anime when the manga is right there??" to me most of the time... 😆

[juvederm]

blarg

honestly . this is such a non issue. but since it has to do w my special interest it's hard to not feel strongly about it. i truly do feel like i'm not well liked in the ud fandom. and maybe that's just my anxiety and trust me i'm not fishing or anything it's just how i feel and how i have felt since i've been here

i made that post abt how the fandom was shit bc of the arguments and the entitlement. a part of me is like um bitch you contributed and sometimes i can't tell if i have or not. i know it's cuz like i genuinely don't play about this game (unserious btw) and i know it inside and out and i know every dialogue option and could probably recite the game in its entirety depending on what ending and routes you want me to do

i do wish i was normal abt it though 😭 i see how laidback everyone else is as they discuss it and i'm like hhhh i have so many words and thoughts and i could go on about it and sometimes i feel like that's me forcing my opinions on others. even tho i love hearing other povs.

i thought the reason why i wasn't liked as much was bc of my opinions bc i don't think i hold back. i do get nervous about posting like all the fucking time bc i just don't want to argue with anyone, even though at times there's some... angering takes but i mostly try to ignore them

at the same time though i don't know if i'm disliked or not. sometimes i'm like Oh it's prob cuz i draw and talk about the same character. like trust me i've noticed that when i draw the others they get more likes lmfaooaoa. i wish that kinda stuff didn't matter to me but as an artist who's kinda been bogged down for my art, i valued it a lot even though i suck at accepting compliments (bc i used to hardly get them)

nobody has to read this but i appreciate if you did or got this far loool i have just a lot of feelings and thoughts and i never really stop thinking or talking about this game. like every idea i have is content for the game, and i feel like people are sick of me. it's just kinda hard to Not. i never really figured that out. i've lost interest in previous things before yk like that were kinda on this same level, but that happened without thinking about it

and if i think about losing this interest it makes me really anxious lmfoasioasidh i know that's unserious but it's just how i feel

[mysterystarz]

Hii!!

Uh I don't really know what to day I kinda suck at starting conversations..

Hm if you want, could you give some tips on how to start writing? Like.. I want to try fanfiction but I feel so awkward doing it hahaha

oh that’s alright! conversations are always weird at first but you can talk to me about anything!!

you want to get into writing fanfics! go for it (and if you’re comfy you can tag me — i’d be more than glad to signal boost them!)

oh and as for tips :: i’m still a learning writer myself and my writing is still in the works but i’ll hand you some stuff that helped me!! (more under the cut)

so when i first started writing fanfic, i used to have a lot of ideas and just wanted to have them down — i would say the first component to writing is having that one idea that just *sparks* you! once you’ve got that, you can get to the actual writing part!!

• find a style that works for you! there’s a lot of ways of writing, so figure out one that compliments your strengths! for me, i know i’m good at dialogue, descriptions of feelings, and imagery, so usually i write things that work well with it to make it easier for me ;)

• find things that bring you inspo — for me, listening to music and having a playlist really helps me set the tone for writing and it’s just a vibey way for me to enjoy the process yk? ofc, music doesn’t work for everyone, but there’s always a lot of places you can look for amazing ideas!

• sharing ideas with friends! a large component of my writing comes from bouncing ideas back and forth with people (in this case, some of my moots heheh) — they say some genius things and BAM (this also helps me craft dialogue bc i tend to base it off real convos!)

oh and of course one of the most important parts! share your fanfics <3 i promise you that you are a talented writer and the feedback you receive will all be lovely ;) it’s always a job writing, but honestly, sharing and seeing what people thought fuels me to write more!!

yeah that list was so cheesy and stuff but im just a writer who does random stuff all the time so yeah :p

hope this helps darling 💕💕 thanks for coming in to say hi! feel free to pop in anytime <3

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hall🎃ween k🔪lls!; deffo spoilers going forward:

im just writing all of this out properly bc I dont like leaving more negative stuff in gif-makers’ tags, ykwim?

this is. god its a fuckn weird movie - but not even like in a particularly memorable or likeable way. its weird just in terms of the choices made when it was being made. 

ill admit fairly up-top that I didnt see the 2018 1st in the trilogy one of these - so I was coming into this with only a vague osmosis’d knowledge of that, as well as this* review as an idea of what was up. So.. I wasn’t necessarily coming in with super high hopes, and the middle part of a trilogy is always yk. a weird one, kinda saggy lol.

more than anything else I guess, I dont understand where the part of this im meant to enjoy, is? Personally, if we’re assuming this is a slasher, I like to read those as the kills only working on some pretty basic conditions - the Ultimate one being that you ~the audience~ has to enjoy them, or be scared by them, have some sort of reaction at least! and imo, where that reaction can be built is through the victims either dying luridly/gorily, ‘having it coming’(TM)**, or having enough to them that the audience can identify/empathise. this has none of that at all. the kills like, sure theyre pretty horrible! but its so cold and early 00s nu-metal-esque that they did nothing for me personally. boy are they gory! but its all quick cuts, and jump-ins for emphasis or trying to milk the ‘aw this shits legit’ factor. like, its just violence for the sake of violence and its not that fun and its not that interesting. 

There’s a scene when Myers exits the house fire, and he’s faced this big gang of firefighters, and he readies his weird double-ended stolen fire-axe, and goes to town on them. Like splatters their skulls open, leaving some looking like anyone from alien who got acid spat onto them. Its just like all.. so nu-metal, early 00s blue & red cold lighting. As a better example, it seems to be trying to set the thing up as like, ‘ANYONE could get killed here!’ - Mr. Myers is a fully equal-opportunity killer let it be known- he tears his way through these firefighters, then ends up in the house of some old couple and kills them, and so on and so on. As soon as a character appears on screen you’re measuring the time until they get killed off coldly and uninterestingly. There’s no tension to it.    

I know the previous film got a lot of praise & stuff for the themes that it was working with; esp the way that trauma effects family units. As far as I can tell thats not carried forward too well in this one?? The themes are THERE I guess, but never in action imo, only in dialogue. There’s a brief glance at the way that a tragedy can effect a community, and how mob justice can lead to hyperbole (”Evil Dies Tonight!”) and off the rails behaviour; as well as that Michael will ‘always return’ as long as there’s people to be scared of him. To be frank, I dont actually recall enough of it at this point to get into any more detail. /obvs/ I know that people aren't coming to these for the riveting and deeply meaningful dialogue, but sometimes it’d be nice to see an effort pretend to be made.   

This has all been super negative, so let me kinda ‘wrap up’ on stuff I liked about it. I thought the set-up of,, he’s Always on a quest to return ‘home’, to like, re-inhabit a specific moment in space/time; there’s something that I do find compelling on some level to that, like, a constant act of trying to return home. Tied up with that is that I did like the stuff with the window, idk if its actually worth much, but I thought the ‘who ever looks through that window sees what he sees and is doomed for it’ thing worked, idk! The Two Johns were also a highlight! Even if more of the ‘equal opportunity movie monster/murderer’, and ‘as soon as you see a character u start the stopwatch for their death’, but!! I thought they were honestly well played and well brought to life! I thought their scenes were charming, got across a lot of character p efficiently, and - biggest compliment here - was actually a bit bummed about them dying despite knowing they were definitely going to for the previous 45-ish min.    

Ah otherwise, idk, it moves pretty fast, like... its not incompetently made, just made without much heart or respect for the audience. But who knows! my friend who I went with, who also hadn’t seen the previous movie, said that she liked it so much that she wished she had been bothered enough to watch the trailer beforehand - so it must be doing something for some people! 

Thanks for reading, sorry that this is so much

*reviews worth reading! articulate if scathing! ** think any particularly obnoxious set of 80s teens, or ig, the cast of Roth’s cabin fever, lol