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byakugoseal · 2 years ago

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Anonymous asked: As someone new to the naruto rpc are there any blogs you would recommened following? I wanted to ask you because you seem pretty active

Unprompted messages for the mun // ALWAYS ACCEPTING

☆ ━━ Hi nonnie, welcome to the RPC! Yes, there are quite a few blogs I would recommend. However, let me preface by saying that I follow a lot of people and there are SO MANY blogs that I would recommend. I would love to gush about each and everyone of them but we would be here all day! I want to say that only picking a few of you guys was extremely hard because I want to scream from the rafters about all of you! Without further ado, here are a few of the blogs I would recommend (but please know I would gush about all of you if I could!!):

*Please note these are in no particular order** There are SO MANY more of you that I would LOVE to promote and gush about your portrayals and I will do that in time! Please know that even if you were NOT mentioned here I would 100000% always recommend you!

@xmpereur - So I’ve been following Dollita for a few weeks now and I absolutely love everything about their blog!! Their writing is phenomenal, eloquent, and truly beautiful! I cannot stress enough how much their world building brings Sasuke to life in a completely refreshing way. I am in awe with our current thread we have (and I do owe a reply which will be coming soon) because Dollita effortlessly breathes life into Sasuke’s character and truly captures his inner thoughts and emotions! Sasuke (in my opinion) is a complex character with a very deep and rich history that influences their motives behind every action. Dollita brings these influences and motivations to life without outwardly having to tell you why Sasuke is doing what he is doing. I cannot stress enough how much I love the aesthetic of their blog, their writing, and portrayal of Sasuke!

@annienne - Annie!! I absolutely LOVE every single one of Annie’s portrayals, she has a true knack for bringing everyone to life! I do believe that she has a true talent for writing and I can genuinely hear her characters’ voices in her dialogue. She has a wealth of muses across various fandoms and writes them all so well. Like everyone on this list, she is a very talented RP partner and has a muse for many fandoms. I absolutely love their Juvia and Hao so so much (well, I love all of their portrayals but I just want to gush about two of them for a moment). Shaman King is one of my favorite series ever and Annie does a phenomenal job adding depth to Hao’s character and brining their motivations to life in a refreshing way. Her Juvia is topnotch and I cannot stress enough how well she is written! But we are here to talk about Naruto muses so let me tell you how well written her Naruto and Tobirama are! She does these characters justice and gives them new life with every post she makes!

@kanashimitohiai - Pie where to begin? I adore every one of their portrayals. I absolutely love their take on Haku is should be a canon member of Team Seven thanks!! Pie is such a sweet person and I adore all of interactions be it in character or OOC when we are screaming about our muses together via discord! From canon characters to OCs’ I absolutely love every single one of Pie’s muses! Whilst I could write and gush about ALL their muses let me just tell you how amazing their Haku and Sasuke is!! The characters are brought to life with depth and ease on this blog and I do recommend you check them out! I will protect their Lee with everything I got, Lee is Sakura’s buddy!

@maitiest - I have said once and I will say it again I ADORE Kaddy’s blog with every fiber in my being! Gosh do I love their Lee so so much! I will always stan this blog no matter what! I know I have said this statement before BUT to take a character and truly make it your own, to write them in such a way that it becomes THE CANON character I associate with when I think about their characters is no easy feet. However, Kaddy does this with ease. Sakura would protect their Lee and even Gai with her life! I absolutely love the world building they have done for Lee and Gai

@godsand / @fowleyes - AMY!!! boy oh boy does Amy write ALL their muses PHENOMINALLY! They do every character they write justice and breathe such life into all of them. She brings all her characters voices to the forefront and brings to life each and every one of their motivations, inner feelings and morality to life. The characters she writes come to life with eloquence and raw emotion. From talking OOC to interacting in character I am always in awe with Amy, from their talent to their kindness! No matter the fandom or what blog they are on I will ALWAYS give Amy a follow and scream from the rooftops about how well written all of their blogs are!

@chidoried / @writelives / @writemuse - I cannot stress enough how TALENTED Blossom is! All the muses they write and SO well written and come to life in the prose of their writing. From talking OOC about our characters to interacting in character I always love whatever interaction comes my way from this talented writer! From their canon characters to their OCs all of them are written beautifully. I am always in awe of everything they post because she truly does understand all of her characters! I love everything about ALL of their blogs and posts! While I haven’t known Blossom for too long, I am truly lucky to be mutuals with someone as talented as she is!

@ournindos - So I have known Trevor for QUITE a long time now, a few years if memory serves. Trevor is extremely talented with all the muses they write and has such refreshing ideas for every single one of his muses. He has a plethora of muses across various fandoms and each and every one of them are very well written! He truly has a good understanding on Naruto from how his childhood impacts him in adulthood to how experiences in life have shaped him into the man he has become in Boruto!

@ofsavior - While Madi may not have a Naruto muse, I cannot miss an opportunity to express my love for them and their blog! We have been following one another from pretty much my first step on to Tumblr. From their Dabi adopting my Eri to Gray and Erza sharing moments together and learning from one another to EVERY other interaction we have had over the years I am always in support and awe of everything Madi does! Madi is a very talented writer and a super kind mun, someone I consider myself lucky to be friends with! No matter what blog I am on I will ALWAYS follow Madi’s blog without hesitation. One day I will revive Erza to continue to pester Gray with her crush on him ♡

So this post is getting long and I need to stop myself before I tag all of my mutuals! Everyone here mentioned is wicked talented and bring their muse(s) to life. I will always recommend these blogs no matter what! I think you should consider checking them out.

Now, for everyone I did not mention please note I think you are all wicked talented and I felt very bad for having to only mention a few of you. Please note that just because I did not mention you hear DOES NOT mean I do not love your blog (because I do love it)! You are wicked talented and bring you muse to life in such a remarkable way! I will, in time of course, I will gush about you. If you were not mentioned please feel free to jump into my asks so I can gush about you on the dash if you would like!

Nonnie, thank you for your question (though I do feel rather badly for having to only pick a few of my mutuals). I think that everyone I follow is so unbelievably talented that I constantly count myself as lucky for being mutuals with them!

#//& of course you guys can reblog this if you want!#✧ ･ ° ･↣ ❛ a language dies without guttural cries // a story dies then de-composes // a myth ❜(answered)#✧ ･ ° ･↣ ❛ darkness blankets me & the moon offers me its paltry alms of light i choke with gratitude & i cannot speak ❜(anonymous inquiries)#✧ ･ ° ･↣ ❛ i love when the skies are crying ❜(ooc)#✧ ･ ° ･↣ ❛ out of character ❜#✧ ･ ° ･↣ ❛ when blood hits the battleground will you fight or will you fall? ❜(promo)

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peerlessbellbird · 1 year ago

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20 questions writer meme.

tagged by @crimsonrainseekingflower, thank you 💖

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

25!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

109,895

3. What fandoms do you write for?

currently mdzs, tgcf, and hopefully soon svsss as well! I've also published haikyuu!! fics but I don't write for it anymore.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

E-mail My Heart - a collab with my wife tony, kogagoshi meetcute from the 1st year training camp, 4.7k words, 200 kudos

By the Horns - another collab with my wife tony lmao, ushigoshi minotaur x monter hunter, 8.6k, 95 kudos

Bad Books - the jiang cheng egg cracking fic, 6.9k, 77 kudos

[horny grip] - ushiyama dumb bitch gym meetcute. full of stupid horniness (affectionate), 3.7k, 74 kudos

Doghoused - chengqing with trans wen qing, with jc sasying the stupidest shit and still getting laid, 4.8k, 74 kudos

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes, because I like it. I want kind commenters to know comments make me happy so I tell them so!

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I haven't written many super angsty fics! Probably By the Horns or From Every Care You Could Release Me which are slightly more open ended, but not angsty by any means!

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Bad Books imo! Because it's the most happy to me in terms of trans joy 😤

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I haven't luckily!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I don't currently, bc I've gotten more self conscious as my writing improves, but I have in the past! Mostly trans sex earlier on, and wilder stuff is some watersports, emeto, and an unpublished woundfucking fic 🥴

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I haven't in a minute, but in another life (read when I was 13) I started writing a Naruto/Devil May Cry crossover that never went anywhere.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Someone asked once, but I never saw the result so I have no idea.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yeah! I've written a few with my wife, and done one other collab that was never finished 😔

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Too many to choose I think?

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

The aforementioned collab, mostly because I wasn't doing the prose writing, a t4t kogagoshi angst with a happy ending.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Outlining, planning, emotional beats

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Not as good at describing as I'd like! I used to really struggle with writing less where more would be effective, but I'm working on it!

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I haven't done it but I think it's neat!

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Either Naruto fic about my OCs, or Final Fantasy 7 fix-it fic, I don't remember which came first.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Bad Books, for the level of character introspection I got to do!

Tagging: uhhhh I'll just say anyone who wants to do it!

#belltxt #tag meme #long post

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blackbird0blog · 2 years ago

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Naruto Fanfic Recs

A great crack OC/SI-insert. I just wish there was more!

Summary:

Being somehow reincarnated into a world you previously thought was fictional and is filled with bullshit ninja magic killers isn't fun. It is even less fun to find out that any foreknowledge you may have been able to use to your advantage is pretty much as useless as your ability to quote pop culture references like a champ.

Preview:

Once upon a time, a long, long time ago, and very, very far away, I did not have to deal with this shit. This kind of language may shock you, but while I look like an adorable eight year old, in actuality I have almost twenty eight years of experience and the temperament of a crotchety old man. If I had a lawn – oh man you can bet no one would be stepping on it.

I raise a darkly tanned hand to the sunlight and sigh, blowing a wisp of blue hair out of my face. I had initially been overjoyed upon realizing that I had maintained a relatively similar skin tone to my original body. My curly hair also returned for a second round. But, of course, I cannot have nice things.

I may be in an anime, but my hair color is just ridiculous. I have blue hair. When I say blue, I mean blindingly bright HEY I’M RIGHT HERE CAN YOU SEE ME I will burn out your eyes aqua blue. Not even the nice shade of blue main characters get. It is pretty awful. And with this whole ninja gig it’s probably gonna get me killed.

Oh, yes. Ninjas.

Lucky me, I was reborn in the Narutoverse. Apparently. Huzzah.

Honestly, this was not a hit my already waning sanity could really afford. Not only was I pushed on into reincarnation instead of facing the pearly gates, but I found out I was spit out into a supposedly fictional world.

I mean, after a couple months of my baby self drooling all over myself, I could kinda get over it. The whole “reincarnation” thing. Well, as long as I never think about my family, all my friends-

-painpainwhyaretheygonecomeback-

-Yeah. As in, can’t think about that at all. Ever.

…Hm, where were we?

Ah, yes. Basically, I can get over the whole “reincarnated” part. Not so much the whole “living in a military state that fully endorses the use of child soldiers and freedom is a thing of the past” part. I am an American. I was practically suckled on the sweet nectar of freedom.

(I may no longer take myself or life in general seriously. If you hadn’t guessed.)

One must also consider the blazingly ridiculous things that happen to this world. I could only stomach so much bunny goddess before I was out. Like, how would I even go about fighting half of these things without OP to the max abilities? Well I’m not planning on it, so I suppose it’s a moot point.

To put this in perspective, while it has some relative good points, I really dislike most of the Leaf’s dictatorship, freedom sucking, shove-you-full-of-propaganda self. My life is in ruin.

I sigh again and gaze at my elevated hand, “Poor Yorick. Alas, alas.”

Hm. What was the rest of that quote?

I hear a sigh, “Miki-kun, please stop interrupting class.”

I look up and see Iruka-sensei staring at me, his gaze slightly pained. His hand is frozen half-way in his now habitual motion of massaging the bridge of his nose. Ah, that poor man. He is some of most fun I have in this life. I can’t help but feel a bit bad though. The only other kid that gets his blood pressure this worked up in Naruto.

Even then he tends to resort straight to yelling with that one. I can tell he doesn’t know how to deal with me. I’m too out of the norm from what he’s used to. My personality, or mostly my seeming babbling words, tends to put most people off kilter. I don’t make many friends this way. But I also tend to be able to do whatever the hell I want without much censure. Are you going to talk sense into crazy?

I blink guilelessly, my arm still posed in the air, seeming to be ignorant to the stares of the whole class. The kid next to me slowly scoots away. I say, “Ah, sensei, I am very sorry. I’m sure no one could concentrate, that having been such a half hearted recital. Perhaps again…”

I sit up straight as if to project my words, but only get out an “Ala-” (ah, now that I think of it, “Alas” goes first, right?) before being cut off.

“NO, no, that’s just- fine. Miki-kun. Please keep further comments in your head unless they are related to class.”

The rest of the class laughs as I bob my head complacently. I consider the pros of telling him why the works of Shakespeare are relevant to all matters of life, but decide not to push him. Iruka-sensei is a good guy all things considered. I don’t like to mess with him too much.

Too much.

He goes on to lecture about whatever this class is on. I think I’m in history. It would be super interesting if the amount of propaganda being shoved down my throat didn’t make me want to choke. Like, this is North Korea level of censorship right here. I’m kinda surprised we don’t pray to the first Hokage, given how much he’s propped up in our books. To the point he is literally called the god of shinobi. Then again, I guess the appointment of real Ninja God goes to the Sage.

I mean, it’s not that I think all the facts in this damn book are straight wrong. If Konoha wins (we always win), it’s recorded as a win. If we lose (Konoha has a history of very few tactical retreats), we lose. This happened then. These institutions were established here. The spin they put on everything is what makes me dizzy.

“The honorable first Hokage singlehandedly brought the entire world of shinobi out of the dark ages. He established Konoha and brought prosperity to the land, making a safe haven for all of her citizens. Now it is your turn to uphold the First’s Will of Fire and keep Konoha safe for the generations to come. Blah, blah, blah.”

Come on, the textbooks tell you to do things. This is not even trying to look like unbiased learning. It hurts us.

Most of the cultural and historical stuff goes like this in every book available to civilians and academy students. I can’t vouch for stuff available to ninja level, but it’s overall disappointing. Having been an International Studies major, cultural stuff is kinda what I do. Did. Whatever.

I can piece stuff together from what I knew previously and what I can get wading through politically charged texts, but it’s not easy going. If I had been a Clan Kid I may have been able to get my dirty paws on some choice info, but no such luck. You’re looking at an Oliver Twist. Olivia Twist? I still can’t quite grasp the state of gender equality here. Kunoichi are generally badass, but a significantly less amount fill out the forces. In fact-

I’m ripped from my musings by the ring of the bell. The kids quickly fling themselves from their seats and run to the door, ignoring whatever Iruka is trying to yell over them. The kid next to me seems particularly eager. I casually take a look at my hand and see that I had accidentally been carving pieces of wood from my desk. Again. Oops. Time to go before sensei notices.

I push my hands against my mutilated desk and attempt to casually mosey my way to the door. I skip down the steps, not trying particularly hard to avoid the stragglers. I take a glance at Iruka out of the corner of my eye. My inattention causes me to bump into someone. Red fills my sight.

Small hands quickly push me away, causing me to stumble. Bright blue eyes glare into my brown ones, and a sharp tooth scowl fills my vision. “Hey, watch where you’re going!” Uzumaki Naruto growls at me, his spiky red hair disheveled.

Ah yes, did I forget to mention that Naruto has red hair and the plot is shot to hell and back?

Silly me.

#self insert #comedy #naruto fanfiction #fanfic rec #crack fic #crack taken seriously

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themaginitechronicles · 1 year ago

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Timelines of Magina, an Overview

It has occurred to me, nearly a year after coming up with it, that I have not yet taken the time to discuss the Timelines of Magina concept on this blog, though I've brought it up elsewhere, mostly on Discord. It sprouted from the main fic due to my influences being so many and varied that I felt bad leaving them unacknowledged.

As of now, there are seven total timelines in the greater Maginaverse:

The Main Timeline: The one I'm most likely to write up in full, the one I started posting last December, the one I have, thus far, put the most thought into. Featuring the cast of Dragon Ball, Yu-Gi-Oh DM/GX/5D's, TMNT 2003, Winx Club and a healthy side of Pokémon, as well as a number of OCs and original concepts from my Sisterlands series (this is also true for most of the other timelines, with the exception of one I will point out when we get to it).

The Alternate Anime Timeline: Featuring some of the anime I cut from the original Magina lineup, plus a few cartoons to round out the numbers. Featuring the casts of Sailor Moon, Digimon Adventure/Tamers/Frontier, Card Captor Sakura, Captain Planet and the Planeteers, and He-Man/She-Ra (Filmation flavours).

Neo Anime Timeline: Featuring anime/cartoons I only got into after leaving High School (The OG Magina concept was created at the end of Year 10 for me, so when I was sixteen). One Piece is here because it has grown so much since I first saw the 4Kids dub, and that dub did it so dirty, that it's a whole different beast from the one I had initially considered adding to the OG Magina lineup. Featuring the casts of One Piece, Naruto, Fullmetal Alchemist, A:TLA/LoK, and Steven Universe.

The Witches Timeline: It could technically be called the Mages timeline, but there are far more witches here. Featuring the delightful and badass witches of my growing years, and wizards too. Yes, Harry Potter is in here, but I assure you the characters have opinions about how Joann chose to record their world! And they're not flattering! Featuring the casts of Harry Potter, Bewitched, Sabrina the Teenage Witch (original sitcom), Charmed, the Worst Witch 2000s series, and Discworld, because Granny Weatherwax was not having with being left out of this! ("But she's dead!" you exclaim. Oh, didn't I tell you every timeline has dragon balls? Because every timeline has dragon balls.)

The Australian Fantasy Timeline: Featuring the characters from a bunch of Australian fantasy series I love! And yes, this includes Sevenwaters! It's actually an older concept I shelved when I thought I wouldn't be able to fit it anywhere, but now I can and I'm very happy! This timeline features the characters of Sevenwaters/Blackthorn and Grim/Warrior Bards, the Bitterbynde trilogy/Crowthistle Chronicles by Cecilia Dart-Thornton, the Old Kingdom series by Garth Nix, Deltora Quest/Rowan of Rin by Emily Rodda (if I am able to read Three Doors and Star of Deltora, I'll put them here too), and a number of original characters/concepts from my fairy tale retelling series, as well as some from the Sisterlands/Ylona! (There, that's the difference. :D)

The ASOIAF Timeline: There are so many characters in ASOIAF that they needed a world to themselves. In this timeline, I just snag them from either where the series ended or the point of their first deaths, and give them therapy and Sisterlandic magic, and I may even keep the Empress away from them for a time. We'll see. :D :D :D

The Sci-fi Timeline: I saved this for last because this is actually the reason I'm making the post, but I'm going to save the details for its own post later. This version of Magina brings together several favourite Sci-fi franchises I love, and then throws the Empress at them, too. Featuring the casts of Star Treks TNG/Voyager/DS9/possibly Lower Decks, Stargate SG-1/Atlantis (Universe is being ignored), and Farscape.

I may have to make an Excel spreadsheet to keep track of some of this stuff because the timelines are all going to blur together in a mid-series thing we won't get to for quite a while.

I plan on writing oneshots/arcs set in these timelines, partly to explore them, partly to establish where the characters are/will be at the time of the blurring of the lines.

I'm particularly playing with the Sci-fi timeline right now, as I've been swept up by Star Trek fandom, particularly Deep Space 9, and have had some fun ideas for the Maginaverse regarding those characters. To post any of it now would mean some spoilers for the main timeline, but if others can talk me into doing it, I will. It's fun to write for them, anyways. :D

I'll make separate posts for each timeline at some point, and link them in the above list items, at which point I'll remove this paragraph, as it will no longer be necessary.

#Timelines of Magina #The Maginite Chronicles #Masterpost

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yupuffin · 1 year ago

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Here's a typed-up excerpt from 14-year-old me's Naruto fic! Featuring two OCs (one of which is the narrator) and one canon character, plus others mentioned by name. My favorite things about this fic were the character dynamics and believable interactions even between OC&OC and OC&canon characters, and I think this scene is a solid example of what I enjoyed. I made minor edits for grammar and wording in places, but the vast majority of the writing is untouched.

The two of us went to check on things inside the Sound Village after Yuugure finished calling Greim. Yuugure had used most of his chakra practicing, and I didn't want to exhaust him, so we walked at an easy pace.

Nothing seemed out of the ordinary. There was a lot of noise coming from behind a set of large doors, but that was true last time as well. It sounded like a group of people talking.

Yuugure leaned against a wall just as I heard a dull thud from farther down the tunnel, towards the entrance. I froze and listened, like an animal would. I heard footsteps; someone was coming.

"Let's go," I breathed sharply, heading as quietly as possible towards the echoing sound. I didn't check to see whether Yuugure was following me, though if he was, I was grateful for his silence.

I cautiously made my way to the entrance of the tunnel. At first I kept my distance from whoever was walking this way, in case they were an enemy. I had only half-expected to see Kabuto alone; either he had returned from the mission alone, or he had already been somewhere else in the tunnels. From the way he was headed, it seemed as though he had stopped somewhere else before coming this way.

I stood, thinking, unsure of hat to do; fortunately, Yuugure was there as well, and he stepped out to meet Kabuto from behind the corner. "So you're back," he remarked calmly.

"We had to cut it a little short," Kabuto responded quickly. He looked as if he might say something else, but he kept his mouth shut.

Since Kabuto already knew Yuugure was there, I didn't have a reason to be nervous, so I followed Yuugure into Kabuto's field of vision.

"Did something happen?" I asked, a little concerned.

For once, Kabuto hesitated before replying, his words slow and careful. "Nothing happened that involves you. Don't worry about it."

It was easy to tell that Kabuto was hiding something. He was either distressed, or he was formulating a plan. Or both.

"Nobody died?" I pressed, still not convinced.

Kabuto paused again. "Well, no. We achieved our goal, but..." He trailed off.

I persisted. "Where's Orochimaru?"

"Probably off checking on something."

I clenched my jaw. Why did Kabuto have to be so vague? Something must be bothering him; normally he was quite blunt. He didn't appear to be injured. and he hadn't alluded to anything being wrong with Orochimaru. Maybe if I asked him later he would be more open. After all, he had just been out on an intense mission; he probably needed some time to recover.

"All right," I concluded evenly. "Tell me if you need help with something." What was the most he could ask for? I doubted that he would return to his old, creepy self before the day was over, if something that occurred during the mission really troubled him.

I might have been wrong, though, because the hint of a smile alighted on his face. "Are you learning how to manipulate things from me?"

I froze. Was this an accusation, or a joke? Probably a mix of both. Either way, hesitating before Kabuto wasn't a good idea. "Yes, I think so."

This time I was sure he looked satisfied. "Good. That means I can trust you."

I exhaled, taking back my previous thought about his old self. He started to walk away.

I ran over my options; I could ask my question directly (I was too timid to do that), or I could wait until he told me himself (that was unlikely). Either way, I was stuck knowing nothing, unless I could think of something smart to say that would get me on his good side. But that was pretty much impossible, considering how perceptive he was.

He looked like he would ignore me for the rest of the day, but in the same instant that I thought that, Kabuto stopped.

"I can almost hear you thinking back there," he commented smoothly, turning back around. "Do you have something you want to say?"

I blinked a few times. And just as I thought that, too! I was convinced he could read my mind. But if I didn't answer, it would make him suspicious about trusting me (though I wasn't sure he really meant it the first time).

"Actually, yes," I responded, trying not to let my voice waver. "From the sound of it, Orochimaru is doing fine. And obviously, you're not hurt. It sounded like there was a problem with one of you during the mission, though."

At this point, it was hard to maintain my brave tone. "And that means... That means something must have happened to Kimimaro, right?"

Kabuto's expression didn't change, although he stayed silent for a moment to let his brain work. "You're learning fast. You make a good addition to our side."

He chuckled and then continued, his inflection more serious now. "Unfortunately, that's correct. Something happened just after we completed the mission, and he's not well. He won't be able to do any more missions for a while."

Saying nothing else, he continued down the hall and disappeared into the shadows.

"That was strange," Yuugure remarked from behind me.

I jumped; I had forgotten he was there.

"You're mimicking him, aren't you?" Yuugure asked playfully. "Except Kabuto's creepier than you are."

"He is creepy," I agreed shakily. I hadn't expected Kabuto's words to hit me as hard as they did. I thought it would just be something I shook off; on the contrary, my heart was pounding, and I felt vaguely nauseous.

"Something must have hit him in the head," Yuugure muttered. Then he met my eyes. "I thought you said that other guy scared you. Now you're acting like you're worried about him."

"It's... a little bit of both." I chose my words slowly and carefully.

Yuugure frowned. "I don't know what the two of you are talking about. Who is Kimimaro?"

I thought about how to answer. "I don't know."

"You have to know at least a little," Yuugure persisted. "Otherwise, you wouldn't be concerned."

My gaze fell to the floor. "I've only seen him. He doesn't know me."

"You said something to him at the clearing before they left."

"Well, he looked lonely. I couldn't let him leave without some kind of acknowledgment."

Yuugure looked exasperated. "We're going in a circle. This conversation is almost pointless."

I blinked. "Almost? What do you mean?"

His bright gold eyes were clear and knowing. "You argued with my statements. That means you care about him."

I opened and closed my mouth a few times, struggling to decide how to respond. "You're just as perceptive as Kabuto is."

"It's kind of obvious," Yuugure snickered, resting his arms on the back of his head as if watching the sky.

"Is that... bad?"

"I don't think so. Depends on how you look at it." His eyes didn't look focused on anything in particular. "You said you're from the Leaf Village, right?"

"Sort of. But does that make me the Sound Village's enemy?" I pointed to the band on my right shoulder. "Physically, I'm from the Sound Village. But historically, I'm from the Leaf. Does that make me a resident of both?"

"I think it does."

"That's good, right?"

Yuugure leaned his head back against his wrists. "It probably has its advantages." He closed his eyes for a few seconds as if to rest. Then he opened one eye and gave me a sideways glance. "You sure have a lot of questions."

I was going to reply, but before I could, he lowered his arms and smiled. "That's all right. I do, too. If I didn't have questions, I would never learn."

I kept my eyes down; my mind was elsewhere.

"So... it's not a bad thing if I make friends with people from this village? I'm going to see my old teammates in a month, but... until then..."

"You're a bit confused, huh?" Yuugure asked. "If I were you, I would be confused."

Unsure of what he meant by that, I didn't reply.

"I don't think it matters who your friends are," he continued. "As long as they don't try to hurt you or do bad things. But from the sound of it, it's hard to determine what things are bad things when you're a ninja. I wouldn't know, because I've mostly been by myself since I left the Shimmer Society two years ago."

At this point, I was thoroughly befuddled, so I stayed silent. Yuugure frowned at my lack of response, but there was a glimmer of playfulness in his eyes. "Am I thinking too far into this?"

"Um..." I shook myself off. "No. Thinking is good. It's just that... you're being a little confusing."

Yuugure grinned sheepishly and changed the subject. "Do you want to go train with me?"

#yu's fic adventures at 14 #proud of you 14-year-old-me #i was much more in-practice at 14 since i spent so much of my free time writing and roleplaying for YEARS #nowadays i feel like dialogue is my weakest point and i struggle to write natural-sounding conversations #i typically end up taking several passes and going back and changing a lot of things #since this whole fic was handwritten that means EVERYTHING here was the FIRST DRAFT #naruto

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tarithenurse · 2 years ago

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Nightingale - 51

Fandom: Naruto Pairing: Hatake Kakashi x Fem!OC Contents: Worry, angst, attempt at domestic fluff. Unproofed. A/N: My heart is not really in this fic anymore (among other reasons due to lack of reactions but mostly real life) so I’ll be rounding it up prematurely and retire it within a few chapters. Thanks for what likes and reblogs I’ve gotten so far.

Chapter 51

It’s not until he calms himself down enough to think that Kakashi realizes where his nightingale could have gone to. Quick and discreet, he makes his way through town to the water tower where he once met the mysterious girl...and finds it empty.

Shit! Then where?

There are several other elevated positions in or around town, but none of them that Uguïsu tends to frequent. So instead of throwing himself into a wild goose chase, he does the hardest thing: he goes home.

And waits.

It’s nearly midnight when the door opens and closes with a whisper, barely audible over the soft huffing and puffing of the ninken.

“Uguïsu?” He barely believes it even though she’s standing right there. “Where have you been?” It comes out harder than intended and he sees her wince and the sharpness in his voice and still she takes her time to take off the shoes and put them neatly aside before turning to face him.

“I got your message,” she simply states, deadpan, as if that explains everything.

“Then why di-” Kakashi has to stop himself or he would end up raising his voice.

Instead of talking he takes in the woman before him. He notices the clenched hands and the thinly drawn lips, the furrow of her brow. Suddenly, he realizes that it’s not defiance oozing from her pores but fear and yearning and he steps forward with the arms spread. Uguïsu steps right into the embrace and he feels her tremble.

None of them say anything for a while.

“I went to the meadow to think instead of doing something stupid,” Uguïsu eventually confesses.

Kakashi sighs. “I’m glad that’s what you did...but I would have liked to know.” He can feel the woman squirm a little and loosens his grip on her a little. “I was worried. Why didn’t you send Pakkun or one of the others to tell me?”

“...what would you have done if you knew?” she asks in return.

I see. “You needed the space and didn’t need me barging in on you.”

“Haï. Sorry.”

“No, it’s okay.” But in reality, it stings.

He knows that he’d have sought her out, knows he’d have come running as soon a he could. It’s uncanny to be called out like this. Kakashi would have sought her out out of concern, out of worry both for her safety but also to help her with whatever she must have been struggling with as she sat by herself in the clearing. He can see it in his mind: a lone woman sitting in the tall grass and wildflowers, hands balled into fists, unless she’s occupying them by braiding her hair over and over again. Pakkun and the others were there. And immediately the image adapts – fills up with dogs that are either keeping watch or keeping company – and it seems less lonely. Yes, she didn’t need me there...not this time.

“What do you need from me?” What can I do?

“Distract me,” she suggests. “Tell me about how your day was?”

Of course he complies, sparing no detail as he finally has a chance to reveal his true feelings of relief and concern to someone who might understand.

...

Kakashi wakes from the light slumber as Uguïsu slips out of bed. It’s still night and he can see little more than a shadow in the darkness.

“Can’t sleep?” he whispers to the retreating figure.

She pauses, then returns to sitting on the edge of the bed. “Didn’t mean to wake you...”

“It’s okay.”

“I keep thinking he’ll appear and take away everything I’ve finally got going for me.”

There’s no quake to the voice, just a plain matter-of-fact dullness that somehow is worse than a million tears would be.

Opening his arms, Kakashi motions for her to return to bed and she snuggles up close, allowing him to wrap her in his arms. And as they lie there for a moment, quiet in each others’ company, the world holds its breath.

“The thing is...” Uguïsu begins, “I don’t know how I’ll ever be free of him unless he dies...but I can’t kill him myself, I think.” Kakashi stays quiet as she searches for the right words. “There’s still some part of me that belongs to him...and I hate it...but he took me in and raised me when I had no one.”

“That was his doing though,” Kakashi argues gently.

“I know...but still. I didn’t know what he’d done for years. I thought -” she cuts herself off and exhales heavily before continuing -”but then I think of what might have been instead if he hadn’t come to my village...and I think of what I have now...and I hate him.”

Finally, there’s a passion to the voice, a seething anger that should rightfully be able to make plants shrivel up and birds fall dead from the sky. It makes every hair on Kakashi's body stand on end as a shiver races from the top of his head to the very tip of his toes. There it is. The righteous fury. The bitterness. The fear.

“One thing you’ve got now are friends who’d stand by your side,” the jōnin suggests.

Uguïsu turns her face towards him and this close he can see that there’s a single tear escaping a dark eye; a tear that Kakashi feels privileged to wipe away. “That’s why I think there’s a chance...but he must be taken down quickly...with one giant blow.”

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maliciouslycreative · 3 years ago

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How I played damage control to an anti in a small anime fandom and may have led to her ultimate downfall

I know I had a really nice write up of this at one point but oh well. I’ll spill more of the tea in this one because honestly the tea was so hot.

There are a few things that I have to give context to first. Gaia online was like THE mega forum of the 2000s, you made a little avatar and through posting and doing other activities on the forum you made money to buy clothes for your avatar. There were forums for everything but the fannish portions were really what drew in most of the people. The anime I was into was Beyblade. It was a shonen anime about fighting with tops that were possessed by the spirits of magical creatures. The story was honestly pretty average but the characters were fantastic and the fandom is to this day still one of my favourites. The series had a primarily male cast and didn’t even have a female lead until the second season. This led to the fanfic for the English fandom being about 70% canon/OC, 10 % canon m/f, and 20% slash. The most popular character in the English fandom was by far Kai Hiwatari, the loner badboy of the team.

Also before we get started I would like to add that one of my best friends was neck deep in this and the two of us were more or less fandom married. This is the same friend that I fake dated, had feelings for, and she nearly got me into kpop in 2011 so like if you haven’t read that story please read it too because it will give you a good idea of how stupid I am and how much of a fanfic I have truly lived.

To set the stage I was 16, soon to be 17 when I joined the fandom and it was 2004. In September of that year I wrote a humour longfic that became an absolute smash hit and I found myself somehow fandom famous. It was around this time that I joined Gaia online. I made my little avatar and immediately went looking for the beyblade thread so that I could make new friends. I found the main thread, made my little introduction and at the end of it mentioned that I was a slash writer but I supported all ships. This is where I met C. She had declared herself the authority on Beyblade in these parts and I had just committed the crime of mentioning slash which was very obviously not canon and we did not discuss in this thread because we only discussed canon things. I was like well that’s a bit severe but like sure whatever I just want to hang out and have fun.

Oh boy did I have no idea what I was in for.

C was a year older than me and unfortunately that made her older than the majority of the fans at the time. Her favourite character was Kai, and she was not shy about talking about this fact. She stanned Kai above all other characters, and often at their expense. She was also a fanfic writer of a popular canon/OC series. Actually, she was so full of herself that she didn’t even call herself a fanfic writer, no her stories were in fact novels and were apparently very good. I never read them. But more on that later.

Eventually the slash fans got tired of her being rude to us in the general thread so we made a Beyblade slash thread. There was a core of like 8 or so of us and we honestly had sooo much fun. When C would be too unbearable in the main thread the people from there used to come over to our thread and we’d chat with them about non slash stuff because we were honestly all multishippers and just wanted to have fun. We’d get comments like “wow, I’ve had more pleasant canon het ship discussions in the slash thread than the regular thread”. We never worried about C coming over and getting upset about comments like this because she refused to be associated with anything related with slash lmao.

I tried my best to keep the peace between C, myself, and the rest of the fandom because ultimately I hate being in fandom drama. I just want everyone to have a good time. I’m a people pleaser. Unfortunately my newfound fame put me in the awkward position of being the most fandom popular person in our small community aside from C. Virtually every fan that read fanfics that came into our thread knew one of us or the other by reputation and C HATED this. Especially because people would come in to the thread, recognise me and go “oh my goodness I love your fanfics!” and I’d be super sweet with them and it’d lead into “I can’t believe how nice you are, I love you” which would lead to us crying at each other. This was not the kind of fan interaction that C got, no her fans were more kind that were there to praise her and worship her like a deity that had blessed them with some gift. Rarely did they tell her how kind she was.

Back in the mid 2000s there were really commonly those commercials (usually by Christian organisations) asking people to sponsor say children in Africa or to help build schools or provide drinking water. You all probably know the ones; know the language that they used in those commercials. My fandom wife, who I suppose I shall call wifey because yes we were THAT couple back then, once said that C described her fics like those people described donating money to save the lives of Children in Africa. So we used to joke that her fics were so good they’d save lives in Africa. Looking back at it all, she almost had a very fundamentalist Christian approach to bringing people into her fanfics. She of course tried to get all the slash people into reading it. None of us read canon/oc fic mostly due to our poor treatment at the hands of their fans and creators. Getting fed up I one day told her that if she would read any one of my fanfics that I would read the entirety of her novels. Yes, I was willing to commit to read a couple 100k of canon/oc fanfic that I’d never touch normally if she would even read one of my 1k 1 shots. Heck, I had a fic even that shipped 2 minor characters so she didn’t even have to sully herself reading about one of the main characters. It was honestly a good deal in her favour. I kept this up until the day we all left the fandom. Sometimes I do wonder if her fics were even ¼ as good as she claimed, but I will never know because she refused to read my fics.

She wasn’t all bad and a tyrant all the time. As long as people kept the conversations on track and didn’t come in to the thread saying things like “KAI IS SO HOT ND T3H BEST N I AM GUN 2 MARRY HIM” she stayed mostly civil. It was always hilarious watching InuYahsa or Naruto fans try to come in and bad mouth Beyblade because they’d unleash the dragon and C was great at chasing off undesirables in the thread.

The real apex of goings on though on Gaia was the guild drama. So guilds were like exclusive themed mini forums within Gaia. Anyone could buy one and run it however they want, as long as it still adhered to Gaia’s ToS. C of course was the owner of the only Beyblade guild. The fandom wasn’t really big enough to support 2 guilds so we just kind of let it go. Technically she allowed people to post slash fanfics but like everything had to be explicitly tagged and there was absolutely no slash RP. Wifey and I controlled a handful of minor characters together in the forum RP and definitely used to try to push the boundaries a little bit. Some ambiguous flirting here, a stray comment there. It was such a fragile balance though because C was heavy on the ban button. The active portion of the guild was just people that were in the cult of C and worshipped her writing.

Understandably the other slash fans and myself were getting disheartened by this. So we pooled our funds together and decided that we’d open a second guild that though it was run by slash fans we would welcome anyone into our ranks. We just wanted to have a fun place for everyone to hang out, and to hopefully run a few events out of. In hindsight, we should have seen what would happen. When we opened the guild, with me as the guild leader, it was like somebody blew up the whole dam protecting the delicate ecosystem we had cultivated. Every single person in the Gaia fandom that was not a zealous follower of C applied to be in our guild and left her guild. We of course figured that we’d attract some of the gen population but we did not expect to accidentally poach all of it. All of the moderators were getting messages from people thanking us for giving them a place where they could say whatever they wanted without fear of getting their faces ripped off or banned.

C lost her shit. She was so mad that we went behind her back to ruin her guild. We literally had to show her posts in the very public slash thread that we had been planning this in public and that it was not to ruin her life. We just wanted a place where we could freely post slash. The two of us had some spicy comments back and forth and then she dropped an absolute bombshell on me. Since Gaia’s mail system is terrible I unfortunately no longer have exactly what she said but it was something along the lines of “Ok, you win. I’m going to close my guild.”. Us slash fans had never been doing this to win anything. We had never been competing. We just wanted a safe space to be ourselves.

C never joined our guild. The fandom slowly faded out within the next year anyway. We weren’t getting new content so naturally people just drifted into other fandoms. C kept up with the main Beyblade thread for a lot longer than most of us but eventually that eventually faded into obscurity too.

I learned a lot about fandom bullies from those days. But honestly the thing that stuck with me the most out of everything was that if you provide a positive safe space for people they will flock to it. It may seem like there are so many hostile people out there, but there really aren't. They're the minority but they just make sure that their voice is the loudest. The best way is to ignore them and just do your own thing. The bullies just want attention and if you don’t give it to them and prove to them that their opinion doesn’t matter to you then they’ll move in and find something else to yell at.

#malicious musings #stacey's adventures in fandom drama #lol #honestly it was such a fucking wild time #if i think of any other specific instances of drama i'll add them #god i wish i had screenshots of some of what went on #but sadly going through archived gaia posts is easier said than done

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tundrainafrica · 4 years ago

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So I see your a LeviHan shipper!! I enjoy the ship a lot too!! But are there any specific reason that their your favorite?? Maybe you could explain that a little through a list? But anyways I hope your week has been good so far, Sav. Have a good day/night!!!! - Signed by Your Secret Santa 🎄

Hello! Thank you for asking about my week (and my ship).

I enjoy the ship a lot too!! But are there any specific reason that their your favorite?

To answer that first question...

You’re in for a long rollercoaster ride of a rant because I don’t think I’m the type of person to ship anything to the point of writing domestic fluff fics unless the I felt really really drawn to the ship.

Anyway, (slight) spoilers abound! Will keep manga spoilers subtle, mostly Levihan scenes.

Disclaimer: I do not want to start shipping wars. I specifically avoided the words like should or best because I recognize that shipping is generally based on preferences. I respect everyone’s preferences on what they want out of a ship or even a relationship and through this, I just hope to express my own preferences and maybe even gush with people who agree.

1. The ship did not move the plot. The plot moved the ship.

Attack on Titan is not a romance or a shojo, if it’s not fairly obvious from any chapter you would randomly read. As a reader, I would have expected it to fall short with pairings. Most shows which are not romance based tend to have a few pairings which just suddenly end up together towards the end of the manga because “What’s a happy ending without marriage and kids?” There is usually a trend of just pairing of the extras and sometimes, or maybe even more often than not, it just seems to come out of nowhere (ehem... Naruto.). Maybe the relationship worked off screen but I dunno. Like no shipping war here but the only pairing I had full support for was Shikatema.

In stories classified as romances, there is enough of a spotlight on the sexual tension and mutual pining of specific characters for the romance to be considered reasonable. In my opinion, some authors tend to sacrifice really good world building for a good romance. Objectively twilight for example had some crazy good world building but it just kinda focused a little too much on emo Bella and emo Edward for the world building to actually be appreciated by the casual reader. Tbh though, this is not necessarily bad because people get into stuff for reasons, sometimes, I just wanna read a good fantasy, sometimes I just wanna read a good romance.

Romances though as a main driving point for narratives, require some convenient serendipity moments and sexual tension which can be written well but as a reader, I prefer to see more natural relationships born out of necessity (Wall of Winnipeg and Me by Mariana Zapata is a good example of what I’m talking about in a romance novel.)

Attack on Titan through its narrative actually made Levihan seem VERY VERY possible. If I had to compare the presentation of this ship in canon to at least one relationship in other anime, I would compare it to Royai from FMA.

Like, if Attack on Titan didn’t give us random subtle hints about romantic or just platonic relationships between the two or even about anyone, even if Levi and Hange did get together in the end, it would have been one of the pairings, I probably wouldn’t have raised an eyebrow at.

But they could be just friends? Which brings me to my next point.

2. Their current situation makes it so it’s only natural that at the least, they considered it.

Yes. Friends is a valid interpretation for anything. I mean, given our hook up culture, people can fuck as friends too. People probably have made out drunk as friends too. Like I have seen my fair share of this type of bullshit in high school and college and I would say, we do not need a kiss or a fucking session to recognize that something can be a good relationship or to recognize that they have probably thought about it.

A relationship requires a commitment (conscious or unconscious) to caring for the other, keeping the other safe, recognizing their flaws and thinking about them regularly (Call me scott peck or marriage counselor but like I honestly think the world would be a better place once people recognize that quality romantic relationships are worked for).

Mind you, Levi and Hange lost everything.They literally lost everything from their old life, all their friends, all their loved ones and all they have is each other and they’re forced to take care of a bunch of kids.

There are people who have said before, no one gets very close with someone without ever considering a romantic relationship with them. Or even if they never considered it romantic, they could consider at least “living with them their whole life,” or “supporting them through thick and thin.” The things is, towards the end, they were constantly together and what drove them to that situation is that both of them are aware of what the other had lost. They understood each other more than anyone else and they recognized that they were the only ones left in their own circle and I personally think that is more than enough for a relationship to naturally bloom between them.

3. The relationship and the signs are subtle and it works.

I personally probably would not have enjoyed it if canon showed a romantic relationship of the two after Erwin died. It’s a valid interpretation to consider that it could have happened, based on my explanation for number 2 but Hange is commander, Levi is captain. They have a professional relationship and they have goals and obligations which take precedence over personal desires. They are in the middle of a war and the most which probably could have happened was a secret mutual pining between the two and I think Isayama has injected the most subtle hints which are the most that could have been appropriately put into canon without seeming too OOC. Hange and Levi are not selfish people. They have promises, dreams and obligations which they respect and have committed themselves to already. It has also been shown at earlier points of the manga that they do put their survey corps duties on top of everything so acting on a romantic attraction at that point in time would have definitely been inappropriate.

I personally think, the scenes of Hange going out of her way to save Levi as commander, killing her other soldiers to save both their asses, suggesting in the forest that they live together instead of go back to the war and not leaving an injured Levi until she had no choice were more powerful than a lot of romantic scenes where people actually fuck and kiss. Kissing and fucking are easy. Leaving the duties and responsibilities they have worked for for five years to keep the person they love alive hits way harder.

Call it platonic. Call it romantic. But no one like Hange would have deserted her post as commander for a few chapters to take care of a sick comrade and kill her subordinates to save their asses if there wasn’t anything between them.

4. It gives a great example what healthy relationships can come from.

I grew up reading sweet valley and chick lits cause I was a basic bitch and I kinda grew up with a somehow unrealistic idea of where relationships come from. Call me a late bloomer but I only actually figured out where the romance and the happiness of a relationship was when I got into one with my best friend for five years.

It’s the sexual tension and the “will they wont they?” push and pull which can lead to satisfying sex or a happy ending in romance novels. I think in a way, media kinda overglorifies it which kinda gives a lot of young people the wrong idea about why they getting into a relationship is fun in the first place. Because after the satisfying sex and the kids, what’s next for the relationship?

Years of utility bills, diapers, chores, schedules, parent teacher conferences and compromises until someone gives up or dies. And what kind of relationships can actually thrive through all these?

Those that have mastered the underrated parts of relationships. These include conflict resolutions, compromises and open communication. I think we have seen enough of those two, even before season 3 that have shown that they know each other very well and they have shown to at least have a relatively equal power dynamic which is a foundation for open communication and mutual trust in relationships even beyond the fucking and marriage stage

5. They have a great foundation of character development for both parties.

As I mentioned above, they have a relatively equal power dynamic. I love Royai from FMA and I have compared Royai to this multiple times. I would say though I prefer Levihan over Royai because I felt that Royai had more unequal power dynamics? (Though I still think Royai is a top tier ship ). Also, they have shown to tell off the other when they don’t like what the other is doing. They are complete opposites but here is the magical thing. They talk everything out. They’re generally open people to each other and they know each other way too well as hinted in scenes before and opposites work as long as the others are willing to compromise. I think (especially in season 3 and season 4) that they have done enough for each other and have compromised enough for each other in the survey corps that these skills could easily be brought with them even after the war.

That open communication is just what makes them maintaining a relationship while being complete opposites very OC and realistic. Eventually, they did probably did make compromises, which most likely softened or moderated the crazy parts of their personalities which is just a really fun part of their relationship to explore.

6. It could realistically last so maybe ...

7. A good foundation for happy children?

Maybe it’s how it is written because of the actual story and why would Yams write a romantic drama in a story about genocide and war. Tbh, I would attribute it more to Levi and Hange’s personalities though because Mikasa and Eren have their fair share of drama, mostly one sided though coz Mikasa. This relationship has no drama, no misunderstandings which just further supports my point that they have a relationship that thrives on open communication and mutual trust. Drama is fun like when we’re the ones on the sidelines eating the popcorn but I have third wheeled enough people in my life to realize that I will not support a relationship where both parties are just not ready to be mature about it, in real life and in fiction.

My favorite couples, in real life and in fiction, are definitely those who keep conflict among themselves and maybe among trusted people. I think one sign of a healthy relationship is one where problems don’t become public through social media or through like 20 people. One important yet underrated part of relationships is the atmosphere of comfort and freedom which encourages both parties to be able to directly approach one another before tensions and uncertainties get out of hand.

And a life free of dramas at least in the early stages of life just kinda shows at least that both parties are ready to bring a new life to the world? Because like immature parents with shitty conflict resolution skills really fuck kids up man and I passionately believe the world would really be a better place if babies were born out of trust, mutual understanding and open communication instead of sex but yeah, make sex fun to keep our race alive.

So anyway, I guess, I just finished explaining why I love this ship so much while also disclosing my preferences for relationships.

As mentioned above...

Other pairings which I support for those curious: Shikatema, Royai, Victuuri, Percabeth etc.

Also... To answer your second question...

My week has been great, some pretty solid life developments but US elections wise, not so great... (WHY IS THE ELECTION RACE SO CLOSE?)

#levihan #levi x hange #levi x hanji #levi ackerman #hange zoe #ship #analysis

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fangirlandiknowit101 · 3 years ago

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Here's the sad pining sasuke i wrote last night... it's not finished and who knows when/if i'll finish it. university AU, not edited and there's some naru//hina and sasuke//OC bc i couldn't think of a canon character that fit. The texting part is also weird bc i wrote it all very fast lol. i'm sharing bc why not *shrugs*

xxx

It hurts, to look at them.

Sasuke can’t help himself. Naruto is his best friend, after all, and he’s not yet so desperate that he’ll avoid him. It’s worse, somehow, that he can’t even dislike her.

She’s good for him, he thinks, when he’s feeling particularly self-deprecating. Her hair is dark and her skin pale as porcelain, and that’s where the similarities end between him and Hinata.

Sweet, and so patient with Naruto. Soft-spoken, but not a pushover. Impeccably dressed, always, no make-up needed to outshine any girl beside her. A picture perfect couple, that’s what they are. It wouldn’t be so bad if he didn’t have to watch it unfold from the front row.

How her shyness turned to surety, how her eyes would catch on Naruto and look away before, but now – now she looks at him like he belongs to her, soft smile on her plump lips.

Sasuke can’t even hate her, and he wishes he could.

It’s not her fault that Sasuke is the way he is. She doesn’t know, isn’t doing it on purpose. And yet, there’s a stab to Sasuke’s chest every time she takes his hand, every time Naruto tucks her silky hair behind her perfect ear.

Naruto will kiss her cheek and Sasuke will be looking, always looking. His face devoid of emotion, his voice carefully neutral. He can’t be mean to Naruto’s girlfriend, though he wishes he could. Maybe if Naruto got mad at him and pushed him away, Sasuke would be free to move on.

It’s more likely that Sasuke would apologize and do better, and he’d rather spare himself the embarrassment.

Sometimes he imagines that Hinata will find out, that she’ll start treating him with suspicion, watch his every move with her wide eyes. Feel threatened by him. But Sasuke is no threat. He’s tired and hurting, but he’s not a homewrecker. It would be a lot easier if Naruto didn’t keep nudging him in Sakura’s direction.

It’s not Sakura’s fault, either. She’s dreaming of something she can’t have, and the similarities make him sick to his stomach.

Sometimes he thinks he’ll date her, live the lie to the fullest. Give her what she wants, since he’s doomed anyway. He doubts he’d last long, though. If he had even the slightest bit of interest in women – but when he looks at her, there’s just no attraction. He’s not sure how no one’s noticed yet. It’s not like he’s that good of an actor. He thinks the only reason no one’s figured it out is because he’s so deep in the closet, and they’re all so heterosexual. Why would they suspect he’s gay? It suits them better if he isn’t.

“Oh, I didn’t realize it was that late already,” Sakura says beside him, breaking him out of his thoughts.

The bar is lively around them, but the music is at a bearable noise level. She’s looking at her phone, frowning. On the other side of the small table, Naruto pouts.

“It’s not late!” he objects, the beer in his glass sloshing around as he waves his hands around. “We just got here!”

“We’ve been here for three hours, I think,” Hinata says, leaning her cheek on his shoulder.

Sasuke wonders how she manages, the way he moves around so much. Perhaps her body is as soft as her voice, easily following him.

“I told you I have to get up early tomorrow.” Sakura sighs, irritated. She fishes her bag up from the floor, putting her phone inside it. “I really have to get going.”

“I’ll walk you to the station,” Sasuke offers. Not because he particularly wants to, but he’s not in the mood to subject himself to third-wheeling Naruto and Hinata. “I should get going, anyway.”

“What?” Naruto looks disappointed, more disappointed than when Sakura announced her departure. “I thought you were free tomorrow.”

Rolling his eyes, Sasuke swallows down the last of his drink.

“Doesn’t mean I want to stay up all night,” he counters with, easing out of the booth. “I still have to study.”

“You study too much,” Naruto mutters, giving Hinata a smile like an afterthought when she squeezes his arm.

“Maybe if you studied at all you wouldn’t need to panic before every exam,” Sakura nags at him, coming around the table to wait next to Sasuke. “Some of us care about our grades.”

“Nerds.” At least Naruto looks a little happier, and Sasuke hates to think that it’s because he thinks anything’s going to happen between him and Sakura. “Don’t get lost, you two!”

They say their goodbyes, and Sasuke tries to pretend he doesn’t notice how Sakura’s cheeks fill with color when they step outside the bar. She’s put a jacket on, but Sasuke’s fine in his sweater. It’s not cold enough that her blush can be blamed on the weather.

“Thanks for walking me,” she says, hefting her bag higher up her shoulder. She’d joined them straight from the library, researching her latest paper. “You didn’t have to.”

“It’s fine,” he tells her, hands tucked into his sleeves.

He doesn’t want to run the risk of her attempting to reach for his hand. As much as he dislikes her attention, it’s safer if she thinks he’s just playing hard to get. He won’t have to explain, then, why he hasn’t outright told her to give up. He should, he knows. But Naruto would just nudge him towards some other girl, would bother him about it until Sasuke started going on actual dates. It’s touching, how worried he is over Sasuke potentially being lonely.

Too bad Naruto himself is the cause of it.

“You’re not doing anything tomorrow, then?” Sakura asks, stepping aside as they meet a group of half-drunk businessmen. “I’m working until five…”

It would be so easy to invite her out. To suggest a movie, or trying out that new café near campus. To watch her eyes light up with hope, watch her mouth stretch into an excited smile.

“I really do need to study,” he says. “And I’m almost out of clean clothes.”

None of it is a lie, technically. He’s just not sure he’ll actually do either of those things tomorrow.

“Oh.”

She tries to hide her disappointment, and Sasuke is an expert by now at pretending he doesn’t notice. They walk the rest of the way in silence, waving a quick goodbye at the ticket gates as Sakura’s train is due to arrive in just two minutes. Sasuke buys a drink from a vending machine and takes small sips as he waits for his own, mindlessly scrolling through social media. He almost ignores the text Naruto sends.

> Wanna hang out tomorrow?

He contemplates it. On the one hand, yes, of course he wants to. On the other, having an entire day to himself has its appeal.

> I’ll be busy

> Ooh, with sakura?

The train arrives, and Sasuke snags a seat next to a couple too caught up with each other to pay attention to him.

> No

> Got studying and laundry to do

The reply is instant.

> That’s too boring!!! I’m coming over for lunch

> Whatever

He pockets his phone, and stares down at the bottle in his hands for the rest of the trip. It doesn’t help against the warmth rising in his chest. At least he doesn’t do this to Sakura – doesn’t invite himself into her space, ignorant of her feelings. It doesn’t make him feel better.

xxx

Sasuke doesn’t have a lot of friends. He’s got Naruto, and then there’s his small group of friends from high school. Naruto is the only one who still lives nearby. Rather, Sasuke had ended up staying in Konoha like him. It’s a big enough city that most of his classmates are strangers, although slightly less so in their second year. He stayed with his parents for his first year, but when one of his cousins moved abroad for work he took the opportunity to stay at her apartment instead. It’s closer to his university, and if he, potentially, wanted to bring a guy home then no one would know.

He doesn’t think his parents would mind, but there wouldn’t be any privacy. He relishes in it, and Naruto does, too.

“I should just move in with you,” Naruto groans, spread out on his couch. “You wouldn’t believe how annoying my mom was this morning.”

“I think I can believe it,” Sasuke tells him, cleaning up after their lunch. “And just to be clear, I’ve never said you’d be welcome to live here.”

“Stingy,” Naruto grumbles. “How long is your cousin gone, anyway?”

Shrugging, Sasuke dries off the counter just for something to do with his hands.

“A year at least. We’ll see. So it’s not like I’ll be living here forever.”

“But still!”

“Where would you even sleep?”

Naruto happily pats the couch. When Sasuke scowls at him, he simply grins.

“Come on,” Naruto says. “I want to watch a movie.”

“I wasn’t lying when I said I need to study.”

Still, he gives in too easily. Naruto lifts his legs to give him room, dumping them all over Sasuke’s lap once he sits down. It’s things like this that makes Sasuke’s heart refuse to give up. He leans his elbow on the back of the couch, cheekbone pressed to his closed fist. He doesn’t say anything when Naruto picks a drama at random, letting him comment on the plot as much as he wants. Watching movies with Naruto is certainly never quiet, and he winces as Naruto kicks his legs as he shouts his anger at the main character.

When the movie ends, Naruto doesn’t start a new one. Instead he chews on his bottom lip, playing with the remote. Sasuke considers getting up to use the toilet, maybe suggesting going to the corner store for snacks, but then Naruto clears his throat suspiciously.

“What?” he asks, irritated when Naruto takes his time.

“So, how are things going with Sakura?”

He resists the urge to pinch his nose. He still lets out a heavy breath, not quite a sigh but close enough that Naruto frowns.

“I mean,” Naruto continues, “you could just ask her out. She’s definitely going to say yes.”

Sasuke shifts, uncomfortable. Naruto’s legs are still on top of his. His socks have little frogs on them.

“I’ve told you I’m not really into the idea of a relationship right now.”

“Uh-huh.” Naruto rolls his eyes, pushing himself up and finally removing his legs, crossing them at the ankles instead. “Sounds like excuses to me.”

“Just drop it, Naruto.”

“But if you get together things will be so much easier,” Naruto insists, poking at his arm. “We can go on double dates, and stuff.”

Sending him a glare, Sasuke pulls a leg up to his chest. It won’t prevent Naruto if he decides to get comfy on his lap again, but it might make him think twice at least. Naruto’s only wearing shorts, and all that naked skin isn’t good for his heart. It’s definitely too cold for it, but Naruto’s never been one to care about the weather.

“We already go places together.”

“Yeah, but it’s not the same!”

Sasuke pinches his lips, looking away. If he’s not careful, those large blue eyes will convince him to cave in, and then he’ll find himself with a girlfriend. He does a lot for Naruto, but there are limits.

“I’m not going to ask her out,” he mutters, knowing it will only lead to more questioning.

Sure enough, Naruto makes a noise of protest.

“But you haven’t rejected her either!”

“She hasn’t asked me out either.”

“It’s obvious she likes you.”

“That’s her problem.”

Naruto kicks at his thigh, using his heel. He looks properly annoyed now, as if Sasuke is a petulant child, refusing to do what’s best for him.

“If you got over yourself for a minute, you’d realize what a catch she is!”

He doesn’t reply. Let Naruto think he’s just stubborn, or an asshole, or whatever. Let him think Sasuke’s just stringing her along, keeping her attention while refusing to commit. It’s better than the alternative.

“Leave it, Naruto,” he warns, getting up and moving to the kitchen. “We’re not talking about this.”

At least Naruto doesn’t follow him, though it doesn’t make much of a difference. The apartment is small, no wall separating the kitchen from the living room. He searches through his cabinets, locating a forgotten bag of wasabi peas. He throws them at Naruto’s head.

“Eat these and shut up,” he says.

To his relief, Naruto does as told.

xxx

He picks up the call from Karin half-distracted, mind still stuck on a question for tomorrow’s seminar. As usual, she doesn’t wait for him to say hi, making her wince with the volume of her voice.

“Do you have any idea how tiring it is to listen to Naruto whine about you?” she starts with, the background noise suggesting she’s outdoors. “Can’t you just tell him you’re gay and put me out of my misery.”

“No thanks.” He drops his pen on his desk, rubbing at his eyes. He regrets not going to the university library, at least then he wouldn’t have been able to pick up the call. “Was that all? I’m kind of busy.”

“You know, this is exactly why I moved away,” she continues, ignoring him. “I thought I could get away from all the high school-level drama. Just get yourself a boyfriend, and go on those stupid double dates my cousin is so desperately yearning for. How hard can it be?!”

He can feel a headache incoming, and he rubs his fingertips between his brows. Naruto had sulked for hours the day before, until Sasuke got sick of it and threw him out. It was definitely backhanded of him to call Karin and complain.

“If you really wanted to be left out of it, why are you calling me? That’s the opposite of not getting involved.”

“Because it’s really painful and I’m morally obligated as the only person with functional brain cells to tell you to move on. Juugo’s too nice to say it and Suigetsu would give you terrible advice and sit back and watch. I’m being nicer to you than you deserve.”

“By telling me to move on,” Sasuke deadpans, wondering why his parents couldn’t have settled down somewhere else.

“Well, someone has to do it! Clearly I’m the gay cousin in the family, so you’re screwed. Might as well get over it and get laid.”

“I really hate you sometimes, you know that?”

She huffs at him, traffic and broken conversations filtering through the phone. There’s the jingle of a shop’s door, and the noise cuts off.

“Your pining is just getting sad,” she eventually replies, distractedly. “Trust me, I know my cousin. He’s not worth it.”

Something unpleasant churns in Sasuke’s stomach. He wants to argue with her that he is worth it, but he doesn’t want to land himself in an hour-long lecture if he can help it. He rolls his neck, making a face. She’s got a point, but he doesn’t enjoy hearing it. His life would be a lot simpler if he could find someone who made him forget about Naruto. He’s just not sure it’s fair to expect someone to instantly replace a lifetime of friendship.

“I don’t think I should have to come out just because Naruto irritates you,” is what he says instead, leaning back in his chair. “What if my parents find out and disown me? You want to be responsible for that?”

“Sasuke,” she sighs, “your brother is literally gay and your parents love his boyfriend.”

“So?”

“Stop. Making. Excuses.”

He bites his cheek, holding back a denial. He’s not worried about his parents, he’s worried about Naruto’s reaction. That things will change between them. That he’ll think Sasuke has feelings for him, which would be correct but would also ruin absolutely everything.

“I’ll… consider it,” he concedes, after a long silence, during which Karin has finished buying whatever it was she needed.

“Really? Because I’m going to hold you to that.”

He sighs.

“Next time I’m not picking up when you call me.”

xxx

A few weeks pass, and not much changes. Naruto still takes up too much space in his head and life, Sakura continues to drop hints but refuses to make the first move, and Hinata is still as lovely as ever. She doesn’t seem to have much of a personality other than being Naruto’s girlfriend, but to be fair Sasuke hasn’t precisely paid attention or tried to get to know her. Naruto’s birthday is drawing closer, and he can’t bring himself to do anything to break the status quo before then.

He’s been considering it, though. It would be a relief to stop pretending. He can’t imagine himself finding a boyfriend, though, because where would he even meet someone? It’s too awkward to use a dating app, and he’s not precisely social. He doesn’t have any experience, either, if you don’t count those childish games they played sometimes when they were younger. And that one time Naruto kissed him by accident when they were twelve.

Because of this, he’s really not expecting it when one day in class, just as the lecture ends, his eyes fall on the messenger bag that the guy next to him has just finished packing. There’s a rainbow pin on it, and Sasuke blurts out his question before he can stop to think about it.

“Are you gay?”

He only lifts his eyes from the pin when the surprised silence stretches out a bit too long. Their eyes meet, and the other boy is staring at him like he’s not sure how to react.

“Uh,” he says eventually, fingers clenching around the bag’s strap. “I mean, yes? But if you’re thinking about the pin it’s just a regular rainbow…”

He trails off, and Sasuke feels his cheeks heat up a bit. He can’t believe he just asked, when he himself has gone to such lengths to make sure no one made such assumptions about him.

“Sorry,” he apologizes. “I shouldn’t have asked.”

“It’s fine.”

Maybe he should know the guy’s name, but he doesn’t. He’s pretty short, hair dyed a light brown and glasses perched on his nose. Cute, but Sasuke’s not sure he’s his type. He’s not sure he has a type, other than Naruto.

“Are you gay?” the guy asks him, eyebrows rising above the frame of his glasses.

Sasuke licks his lips. He could say no, but to what end?

“I am,” he forces out, breathing in a deep breath.

“Oh.” There’s red color blooming on the other boy’s face, his eyes flickering to the side for a moment. “I was kind of hoping, but, um… I mean, hoping sounds weird! Sorry, I just wasn’t expecting you to ask outright.”

When Sasuke stands up, he realizes he’s almost a head taller than him.

“I’m Sasuke,” he offers, clicking his laptop shut and slowly sliding it into his bag.

“I know. I mean! I’m Hiroshi. Nice to meet you.”

Sasuke nods, and awkwardly turns to leave. Hiroshi stops him with a hand to his arm, though, and Sasuke swallows nervously as the turns back. He’s not interested in Hiroshi, not really, but he’s never been asked out by a boy before and the novelty of the situation is getting to him.

“Do you, um, are you busy right now? We could have lunch?”

He weighs the pros and cons in his mind. As nervous as Hiroshi looks, there’s a determined glint in his eyes that sways Sasuke over.

“Okay,” he says, and just like that he’s doing what Karin told him to do.

He’s trying, at least.

xxx

Over the course of a week, including having coffee together and a visit to the aquarium, Sasuke learns a lot about Hiroshi. Or Hiro, as he likes his friends to call him. They don’t have too much in common, but they’re both gay and studying agricultural economics. Once Hiro gets over his initial shyness, Sasuke finds he’s got a great sense of humor and won’t hesitate to poke fun at him.

It’s a breath of relief, to spend time with someone who doesn’t know him from before. He didn’t realize how much he needed it – just being able to be himself, without constantly keeping himself in check.

He can’t fool himself to think it’s enough to replace Naruto, but maybe he doesn’t need to replace him. Maybe it’s enough that Hiro seems to like him. He doesn’t really think about it, when he invites Hiro over on a Saturday night, after they’d had dinner at a nice udon place.

“Oh, wow,” Hiro says as he steps into Sasuke’s apartment, making an impressed face. “Nice place.”

“It’s my cousin’s, so no need to sound so impressed.”

Hiro rolls his eyes, taking off his shoes and jacket and following Sasuke inside.

“Alright, I’ll try to keep it in,” he teases, sitting on the couch when Sasuke motions him towards it. “But it must be nice, to have your own place like this. The dorms are fine, but I can’t exactly bring guys there.”

Humming his agreement, Sasuke grabs two cans of soda from the fridge, handing one of them to Hiro when he sinks down on the couch next to him.

“Want to watch something?”

Hiro nods, and Sasuke brings the TV to life. He’s not expecting anything to happen – they’ve only known each other a week. He’s still coming to terms with having a friend other than Karin he can talk to like this, and she doesn’t really count since there was never the potential for anything to happen between them. Hiro is… potentially someone Sasuke could date. At least there’s nothing wrong with him, not yet, and Sasuke’s easing himself into the idea of getting to know him better.

He finds a movie at random, some sci-fi that doesn’t look terrible. The movie turns into background noise as they talk, Hiro’s eyes watching his face more than the screen. It’s nice, in a new, exhilarating way, to have a guy’s attention on him like this. He’s not sure what to do with it. When Hiro moves closer, knee touching Sasuke’s thigh, hand resting on the back of the couch and occasionally touching his neck, Sasuke can’t find it in him to move away.

It feels like a secret, shared between the two of them. He thinks of Naruto for a long moment, allows himself the pain lacing through his chest as he imagines light brown hair replaced with blond, dark eyes replaced with blue. Then, he pushes it away, tells himself he can have this. The emotions are only his own.

It’s all happening too fast when Hiro grows bold, leaning in to press their mouths together, but he doesn’t care. It’s no one’s business if he spends the evening on his couch with a boy in his lap, a boy who isn’t his best friend.

The pain is easier to swallow if he tells himself that he’s the only one hurt.

#at this point i'm just writing whatever's in my head #something is better than nothing #i hate tumblr's formatting

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tlbodine · 3 years ago

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hello!! asking all my favorite blogs this question : if i want to switch from fanfiction to original writing, how should i go about it? + do u have any experience with original fiction and if yes, then how exactly did you start writing about new characters of your own?

Hey Nonny, thanks for thinking of me! Sorry it’s taken me a little while to respond, I’ve been kind of busy and wanted to give this a proper answer.

I actually pretty much started out with original fic and have never done more than dip my toes in fanfic, so hopefully this perspective proves helpful :)

From what I can tell, one of the great strengths of fanfic is you can just drop right into the action (or the emotion, as the case may be) because everybody already knows what you're talking about in terms of character and world. So if you have a lot of experience writing fic, you're probably already well-versed in writing character interactions, emotions, action sequences and so forth.

What you'll need to spend some time practicing is character creation and world-building.

Characters

You'll need to convince your readers that these characters are interesting enough to follow around and read about, since they have no experience or expectations about them. I actually write a pretty in-depth guide about character creation here that might interest you: https://tlbodine.gumroad.com/l/nsDYd

Some tips:

It helps to know what kind of story idea or concept you'll be writing so you'll know what kind of character will best suit the plot you have in mind (but if you want to come up with a character first and then draft up a plot to match, you can do it that way)

Putting a paradox at the heart of your character will make them more interesting: https://tlbodine.tumblr.com/post/640960158610128896/pro-tip-one-simple-trick-to-making-your

It's best to reveal character traits a little at a time throughout the story/as necessary rather than dumping them all up front.

You might like to spend some time just thinking up OCs for a while, to practice, if you're not comfortable with it. Or you could try some forum-based roleplaying, which is how I first got the hang of creating characters and learning how to develop them.

World-Building

The type of world you build will of course depend on the genre you want to write in and the sort of concepts you want to write about. When people hear "world-building" they often think in terms of fantasy worlds, with various races and political ideologies, but really any sort of fictional setting can have a bit of world-building attached.

World-building may affect:

The basic rules of reality in this world, in particular anywhere they differ from what we’re familiar with (this can be anything from “werewolves exist” to “Christmas is a super important holiday in this town”)

The overall tone of the world and its inner logic

Specific setting details like where things are located, how people get around, etc.

Your world-building is going to depend a lot on the type of story you want to tell. I think it’s best to form worlds in tandem with the story so you can be sure your story needs get met and the setting feels authentic and coherent. it’s 100% cool to make up setting details as you go along to make sense of the plot you’re developing (but you should probably make a note of them so you don’t contradict yourself later).

Actually Writing Original Fiction

OK, so after you’ve spent some time experimenting with those two things -- or not, you can just jump in and do it all at once -- you’re going to want to try writing a story. I recommend maybe starting with something that isn’t super ambitious at first because it’s very gratifying to finish a thing and look at it and say “it’s done! I made this!” instead of laboring deep in the trenches of a thousand-page tome, but you do you.

If you’re struggling with the transition from fanfic to original fic, you might try a “training wheels” halfway point -- a fairytale or Shakespeare retelling, perhaps, or characters based on people you know (just don’t tell the people you’re writing them as characters, and scrub identifying information off them so it doesn’t get weird). When I was younger, I frequently wrote stories that used people I knew as a jumping-off point, like, “OK, me and these five friends are plane crash survivors in the wilderness, what happens next!” and as the story developed the characters developed along their own paths and nobody looking at the finished product would ever recognize who it was based on.

(You can try the same tactic with your fandom of choice, too. I mean, “AU with the serial numbers filed off” worked fine for Fifty Shades of Grey and After, right?)

I think it’s also probably helpful to look at the literary tradition that a particular fandom is rooted in, too, if you’re still really interested in that type of work. There’s that quote...

“Stealing” ideas from multiple sources and mixing and matching and innovating is how genres are created.

So for example, let’s say that you write a lot of Naruto fanfic. If you don’t have a ton of experience with Japanese culture and history and literature, you might not realize that a lot of the tropes and character archetypes and plot devices in Naruto are actually similar to a ton of other things. “Warring ninja clan” serves as the backdrop for the anime Basilisk, for example, which is itself kind of Romeo & Juliet adaptation. And researching that may lead you to history, where you discover that a lot of stuff is actually rooted in history: https://www.thoughtco.com/history-of-the-ninja-195811

Obviously you didn’t ask about ninjas, but the point is the same no matter what it is you’re writing -- whatever you’re doing, the odds are good that other people have done something similar, so reading/watching as broadly as possible can help you come up with your own ideas.

One final note: It’s a lot harder to get attention on original works. That’s kind of shitty, but it’s true. It’s harder to find original fiction (since you can’t very well search by fandom-related keywords), and it’s harder to hook people into reading it (since they don’t know what they’re getting into, they’ll be less patient). Be prepared to get less engagement on your original work, at least at first, until you start building up an enthusiastic readership. There’s nothing wrong with you, it’s not your fault -- discoverability just doesn’t favor original fic right now. The tides may change in the future!

Good luck, and have fun on your journey!

#writing advice #asks #fanfic vs original fiction

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skippygiraffee · 3 years ago

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Writing Tag Game

thank you @merylisk for tagging me ;-; I don't think I've done one before and I'm excited to!!!

How many works do you have on AO3? 26, currently!! 21 of which are Cyberpunk 2077 and then a few more dotted through :3

What’s your total AO3 word count? 574,843, which is. oohhhh buddy sdkfjoeijrsdfoiejrsfd. I think Johnny took over my brain, and this is not a joke

What are your top 5 fics by kudos? And All That Could Have - 1274

Paracusia - 396

Phantom Limb - 377

Ego Death (the elusive Vik fic) - 372

One Last Gig - 333

Do you respond to comments, why or why not? I do!! for most of my Cyberpunk fics, I've responded to every comment, but that started in the middle of my first slow burn, and I was happy that I started!!! there are some real sweet readers in the fandom!!

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Hm...I don't think any of mine have ended angsty, honestly. sad, sure. but I'm unsure if that qualifies as angst? but if it does it's Me & My Dog and Sacrifice

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending? Do You Dream of Me? for the emotional pay off after literally just. bringing the pain full on Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the strangest one you’ve written? nope!! not really my thing :3 Have you ever received hate on a fic? yeah, if you count troll comments. but past that, nah. and even then I wouldn't count the trolls, since it was across the board for fic writers in the fandom at the time Do you write smut? If so, what kind? I'm laughing at this because I just. the answer is yes, all the time, all day every day (literally, I just don't publish all of it, or even like. 1/3 I think? they're my warm ups). the kind is also just, yes. there are a few things I won't touch, but generally I feel like I've written most smut options somewhere

Have you ever had a fic stolen? that I'm aware of, no!! so that's nice :3 Have you ever had a fic translated? no, I was offered to have one translated, but I didn't know about all that and declined, but I think now that I'm more familiar with the fandom I'm open to it :3 Have you ever co-written a fic before? yeah!! Must Stop was a collab, and it was pretty fun to do!! there's another in the works, I just need to have it finished on my part, but health things are preventing me from buckling down and getting it done fast, but it's about half way there!! What’s your all-time favorite ship? oh, it's Johnny and V sdlkfeoirjsdflkoierjsf. but previously I did reader insert fanfics, so not really a ship, and too they were mostly my OCs disguised as Y/N What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will? just a secret WIP that will never be finished and was dropped like a hot potato once I refined the idea. I have a few WIPs and I will be finishing them. I serve bullshit, and bullshit only, and I make good on that What are your writing strengths? from what I've been told it's keeping people in character and pacing. I will trust my darling love Rarby (@beammeupbroadway) because she reads my shit and tells me, and I really do trust her with that assessment!! oh and ripping out hearts like a pro I suppose, though that's from the comments threatening me (affectionately) for putting the characters through hell

What are your writing weaknesses? if I had to pick it would recycling plot beats. and I think too my ideas stay within the realm of bland, and tend to be pretty predictable. but I like sticking with that framework for the moment, and will venture out soonish, I know that :3c What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? only if I know the sayings myself and can do the translations personally. so, only Spanish, and even then. I tend to. avoid. unless it's small words (and when I write Jackie I can literally rip from game dialogue, so that helps) What was the first fandom you wrote for? SDFJFLKEOIJSFD FUCKING NARUTO ON FF.NET BABY!!! watched one season, but 12 year old me was like "all the cool kids are doing this!!" willingly, and for something I actively participated in? Kingdom Hearts. all those fics are lost to time

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written? One Last Gig, by far. it just was so much fun, I'm writing the sequel, No Exit, because I love it dearly. and I love this version of V and Johnny. that V is my rat baby (even though my original V is still my lady love) and that Johnny is just aging like a fine wine again, thank you for tagging me <3 this was fun, and I was so soft seeing I was tagged along with some of the best authors in the fandom!!! ;-; tagging: I think anyone who sees this and writes fics should do it!!! and only if my lovely Rarby wants to she can!!

#cyberpunk 2077 #long post #thank you so much for the tag that was so unexpected and sweet #and I enjoyed reading your answers!!!

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dimigexwrites · 3 years ago

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Whumptober, Day 21 - Saiyo / Kazuko

Prompt: That's where the blood is supposed to be (bleeding through bandages, pressure, blood matted hair) Fandom: Naruto Pairing: Saiyo / Kazuko (Healing Hands OC) Rating: T (language) Words: 1229 Notes: For @cinlat who gave me this pairing and now I'm obsessed with them

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It was either too early or too late for this shit, Kazuko couldn’t decide which. He rubbed his eyes to remove the sleep grit, but they wouldn’t focus. Belatedly, he remembered that he wore glasses and blindly fished for them on the nightstand. He felt hungover without the pleasure of drinking first. He hadn’t gotten enough sleep to be woken up by the urgent sound of his pager dancing on the nightstand.

The code didn’t tell Kazuko much beyond the fact that he was needed at the hospital. It wasn’t an emergency in the sense that everyone was being called in, though. Someone had requested him specifically and was making enough of a scene to get their way. Kazuko threw on some dress clothes since it was close enough to the start of his shift that there would be no point to come home after.

Fifteen minutes after he’d gotten the call, Kazuko made it to the hospital. The lights were lower at this time of night, but the same buzz of energy remained. He walked toward the nurse’s station to check in, but didn’t need to ask where he was needed. Growled threats echoed down the hallway, drawing Kazuko toward them. When he rounded the doorway, he found the attending doctor and two nurses arguing with a young woman.

“What’s going on in here,” Kazuko asked, keeping his voice calm in the chaos of angry voices.

An all too familiar face snapped up at the sound, and Saiyo grinned. “See? How hard was that?”

“Do you know this woman,” The on-call doctor asked, furrowing his brow as his gaze shifted between Saiyo and Kazuko with obvious confusion. At Kazuko’s sharp nod, he frowned. “Did you also know she’s a shinobi?”

“I was aware, yes.” Kazuko answered, eyeing Saiyo over the man’s shoulder.

Okabe-sensei proffered the medical file that he’d been reading. Kazuko took it and skimmed over the mostly empty page. The man tsked under his breath. “You understand that standard procedure is to refer them to the Anbu medic. We were going to page—”

“And, I told them no,” Saiyo growled, swatting at the nurse who was attempting to clean the blood off her face. “I don’t want to see her.”

“You don’t get to just pick and choose your medical care,” the remaining nurse snipped, still struggling to get a read on Saiyo’s vitals.

For a moment, Kazuko thought that Saiyo was going to stick her tongue out at the woman. He sighed. “No harm done.” The nurse made a disapproving sound under her breath, but Kazuko ignored it. “I can take things from here.”

Saiyo flashed a triumphant grin at the medical team surrounding her as Kazuko tossed his bag onto a chair and dug out his stethoscope. For a minute, he thought that Okabe would argue with him. It was still night shift, the man could tell Kazuko to leave if he wanted. With a final shake of his head, the man tucked a pen into the chest pocket of his lab coat. “Fine, she’s your problem now.”

Kazuko nodded and waited until the rest of the staff filled out to turn his gaze on Saiyo. Now that it was clear that Sakura wasn’t going to be called, the girl laid back on the bed with a sigh. Kazuko crossed the room to wash his hands, glancing over one shoulder. “He’s right, you know?”

“Blah, blah,” Saiyo mimicked, folding an arm over her eyes. “Can you get over here and give me something? My head is fucking killing me.”

Kazuko dried his hands and took in the state of the girl on the bed. Saiyo’s face was drawn and pale, blood streaking down the left side. Her hands rested on her stomach. Frowning, Kazuko lifted her shirt. The wound that he’d bandaged less then three days ago had a streak of crimson running across the gauze. He frowned. “You reopened your wound.”

“Yeah, sorry about that.” Saiyo closed her eyes, then pulled away when Kazuko’s fingers walked across her scalp. “Ouch, that hurt.”

“Lacerations tend to do that, especially somewhere sensitive like the scalp.” There were several shallow gasses hidden in the green tresses, but the blood had dried and reopened multiple times, making it difficult to tell where the wounds were. “We’re going to have to shave this.”

Saiyo peeked open one eye. “Do it and I’ll kill you.”

“If you’d stop picking bar fights for no good reason, I wouldn’t have to.” Kazuko chided and lifted a cloth to clean the worst of the blood away from the skin. He shook his head as he worked. “Whoever he is, he’s not worth it.”

Laughter slid through Saiyo’s lips, but she didn’t meet Kazuko’s gaze “You don’t know that. Some people are worth the hurt they cause.”

“Well, I may not know him, but he’s not worth getting yourself killed over.” Kazuko pulled the sodden bandage away from Saiyo’s midsection and frowned at the torn stitches. “And, that’s where this is going to lead.”

Saiyo offered a lazy smile, face relaxing as the numbing agent that Kazuko had injected took effect. “There are people worth dying for out there.”

Kazuko laid the hypodermic aside and studied the woman’s expression, wondering what the statement said about her mental state. He had no way of knowing if the words came from a twisted sense of humor or someplace darker. Kazuko dipped his head. “Sometimes you’re better off finding the person to live for.”

Silence answered the statement. When Kazuko looked up to check Saiyo’s vitals, he found the woman’s golden eyes studying him. Her lip curved into a smirk. “Is that your way of asking me out? Because, if so, it needs some work.”

Warmth rushed into Kazuko’s cheeks, half embarrassment and half discomfort. “No, that wasn’t what I meant.”

Saiyo chuckled as Kazuko finished tidying her stitches for the second time. As he started to rebandage the area, cool fingers brushed against the back of his hand. Kazuko jumped and dropped the gauze. Saiyo laughed. “So, what you’re saying is that I have to be the one doing the asking out?”

Kazuko frowned, trying to determine if the woman was making fun of him or not. Her lopsided smile suggested otherwise, but the words left him reeling. It hadn’t been that long since his last relationship failed, and that wasn’t counting the disaster with Sakura. He didn’t need more complications in his life.

“Come on, doc,” Saiyo prodded. “I can see the way you look at me.”

A hand caught Kazuko’s tie and dragged him forward. Before he could think of a convincing argument, Saiyo’s lips were on his. Colors flashed in his vision, and the stale taste of old tequila coated on his tongue. Kazuko's lower lip ached from the tug of her teeth when he pulled back. Saiyo grinned. “Tell me you didn’t enjoy that.”

Kazuko shook his head and tightened his hand into a fist to stop the tremble that rushed through it. “I think that was unprofessional. This is my place of work, not some bar to hook up in.”

Saiyo cocked her head to the side, her grin morphing into a smirk. “That wasn’t a no, though.”

Laughter rumbled through Kazuko’s chest as he snipped off the end of Saiyo’s stitches. He inclined his head. “It wasn’t a no.”

#Whumptober2021 #No21 #Blood Matted Hair #Fandom: Naruto #Fanfiction #Naruto #Healing Hands Drabble #Saiyo #Kazuko #Saiyo/Kazuko

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Naruto OC ship week

Sasori x OC

Prompt: First Meeting

[This prompt will become a future chapter to my existing fanfic in FF.net, this prompt is a major spoiler for my fanfic but I'll drop the link here]

@narutoocshipweek

"Hatsue's here."

Sasori of the Red Sand looks up from distorted wooden shapes, an abstract of limbs, an ancient art called moving statues, puppets. An almost imperceptible smile graced his lips and he nods at his long time friend. "Thought the council meeting would run late again."

Komushi, his friend, was a man of relaxed and tolerant manner, and he was the exact opposite of that in this moment. He hesitates. "The council meeting went without problems but Hatsue she–" Green eyes betraying something akin to fear meets steel greys.

Fury consumed the world reknowned puppeteer, he was a man of little emotion, their description of him. Unless it involves his wife. "What now. What did the council ask of her?" Suna had owed their generation too much, til when will they have to bleed for the village? To sacrifice? Their youth. Their innocence. Their life. This is why he had no love for Suna. An irony with how loyal and devoted his grandmother is.

Komushi interrupts his trail of thought with a refute. "No. The council– Hatsue and I, when we took over Elder Ebizo and Elder Chiyo as successors, there's no way they can force her or anyone anything. Not with our sayso." His friend took a deep breath and blurts out something in one breath.

Relaxing at the reassurance, Sasori prompts his friend to say the last bit. He didn't quite catch it.

"Hatsuepetitionedtoadoptthesandsiblingsincludingthejiinchuriki." Komushi blurts out again.

"Slower." He instructs, and then he starts to clean up his tools so he can go meet his wife. Weird. Hatsue could have just barged in here.

The green eyed man sighs defeatedly, shoulders sagging. "Hatsue petitioned to adopt the Sand Siblings including the jinchuriki."

Sasori starts, clattering the mallet, hook knives and chisels. "The Sand Siblings– The jinchuriki. One Tailed Beast." He learned of the recent assassination attempt of the jinchuriki by Yashamaru under the orders of Rasa, a council member. The 3rd Kazekage was able to apprehend the rampaging jinchuriki and took immediate actions to remove Rasa from the council, and then the talks of custody. No one wanted the monster. And damn, damn, damn his wife's bleeding heart.

"I gathered you two haven't talked about having kids yet in a while and Hatsue surprised you, huh?" Komushi grinned sheepishly, scratching the back of his head.

He scowls at his friend who took the cue to leave. His wife enters the basement and suddenly, there was light in the room. A bounce to her step and a sunny smile that keeps him enraptured day by day. "Sasori!" Hatsue calls out, laughing.

And she is smiling and whole and his. "Hatsue." He was up from his chair in an instant and gravitates to her, pressing a kiss on her lips. The other half of him. His life and his end.

They pull away; Hatsue's eyes crinkle, the roundness of her cheeks still made him wanna bite them even after all these years. "You working on Karasu?"

He knew when she's stalling. He didn't have the patience for that. "I heard about your petition."

"Yes. I'd like to take care of them." His wife tells him firmly and then timidly, "I'm sorry. I know we should've talked about this..."

"Kids? We can adopt a whole village, I don't mind." He looks at her carefully, considering his next words because Hatsue's face lit up. "But the jinchuriki–"

"The eldest is Temari, then Kankuro, and–"

"Don't–" Sasori tries to interrupt but the effort was in vain.

"–Gaara. I claimed them as mine. They're my responsibility."

The words were short and clipped; her tone gentle but it didn't quell the rage and worry that sprung inside him. "We should have had a discussion first. This is not just your responsibility but also mine."

"It was kind of an immediate decision. If it dragged on, who knows what power hungry mongrels would come out of nowhere and since I didn't talk to you beforehand, I specifically wrote the petition with my name alone." She rambles, hands squeezing his palms to reassure him. It didn't.

"Alone?" He couldn't help but screech. "You would have the village talk, assume, gossip that Rasa had you that's why you're claiming them alone–"

"No." Hatsue's eyes widened. "Kami, no. There's no way a rumor like that would spread, right?"

"People gossip. And it will unless you include my name to your petition." He intertwined their fingers. The things he'll do for his wife. Sigh.

"But I did it alone. It's unfair if they become your responsibility." She frowns.

"May I remind you, we married each other and whatever burden you carry, I'll carry?" He steals a quick kiss, and smiles upon her flushing red.

"Don't call them a burden." She swats his chest without intent.

"They are. Don't ever think that you'd have to do things alone. Whatever actions you take affects me too. And never do this again. If you picked up another jinchuriki I'll go rogue and hunt the rest so you wouldn't adopt another." He was dead serious, a little light hearted at the almost impossible feat. But Sasori could. Oh, he could. He never felt tied to Suna anyways. Not until Hatsue.

"Thank you." She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him lovingly. She tugs at his hair and he groans, pulling away. Eyes in a daze but he quickly pulled himself together.

"When we go meet them for the first time, I want to talk to the jinchuriki alone."

"Why?"

"This is important. A jinchuriki is dangerous. Adopting one is not playing house."

"I know. I love you." She leans in for another kiss.

"Hemlock." His quip. You will be the death of me.

#sasori x oc #naruto fanfiction #naruto oc #mentions of sand siblings #adopting the sand siblings #naruto au #naruto canon divergence #sasori suspects his wife's goal is to adopt jinchurikis one at a time #because Hatsue's like that #language of flowers #hemlock means you will be the death of me #hemlock is poison btw #ofc sasori thinks that as a romantic profession of love #it's more romantic for him because he's been pursuing eternal art #if he tells you you can kill him #12/10 he likes you #that's how he won Hatsue over #by telling her she can kill him #married life be like

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