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seaweedstarshine · 7 months ago

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RIP Krakoa 🌹 I can’t lie I’ve been kinda behind since midway through Fall of X I’m gonna catch up before my first SDCC this summer but I hear Vulcan didn’t see much action anyway. Anyway my hand slipped and I found myself looking into the eyes of my canonically psychotic son the best Summers brother who’s never done anything wrong in his entire life, (he’s done lotsa wrong things but I love him more for it)

#canonically psychotic = he canonically has psychosis. (not in the ableist way in that hes evil. which he is. lemme enjoy problematic rep)#Gabriel Summers #art by seaweed #words by seaweed #X-Men Red #the Gabriel hate during the Krakoa era pffffft. was 100% from ppl who didnt read the Rise and Fall of the Shi'ar Empire #“he attacked Storm” hes also a genocidal dictator who tortures ppl for catharsis. drunkenly coming at Ororo is the least bad thing he did #“he's a douche” mother of all understatements. now get this man back w his boyfriend who he forced to be his best man under pain of death #Gabriel fans LOVE that Ororo beat his ass. he deserved it. it was a fake discourse made up by a certain segment of goddess!Ororo fans #I say as an Ororo fan! Shes my fav A-list x-man🥰 yes Gabe was at a mental low but Ororo didnt know that. that was Scott's responsibility.#psychotic Emperor Vulcan is what we call a problematic mentally ill villain trope. I love him SO much. (okay lets talk)#we don’t know much about his childhood but we do know he spent 2 years in a fugue state after escaping slavers when he was like ten ):#as an “adult”-ish he's uh “mentally” 15 or sumn according to the calculations claimed to him by his hallucination of his actual child self #and apart from THOSE hallucinations. he’s very paranoid to the point of killing his advisors because he becomes convinced-#that they’re plotting to kill him. they aren't. he relies on Calseye to ground him thru his paranoia. and then of course in the Krakoa era #he believes his energy constructs of Petra and Sway who drink with him till he blacks out every single day are real. he isnt consciously #creating them; but he sees them- and bc he’s a godlike mutant his subconscious makes his hallucinations visible. making everyone uncomfy #Charles tries to use telepathy to FORCIBLY reality check him. which of course triggers his trauma. and GABE is punished for it?#(oh plus our finding out Gabe got brain surgery done on him by some gods outside the universe offpanel. he never does well with tampering)#and now the writers who pushed Hickman out (also RIP Sabretooth & the Exiles. RIP Hellions) want us to be SAD Krakoa is gone?#yes Gabriel is the mentally ill villain trope. but Krakoa never cared for mutants who couldn’t fit in. who were traumatized. disabled. etc #Alex OF ALL PEOPLE should understand that. ALEX should’ve been there for Gabriel. (why wasn't he. did he hold a grudge for past torture.)#Alex also w Murder-Enjoying Disorder but it was actually treated as an illness and those in authority presented as wrong for excluding him #instead of helping him. which v flawed but Hellions was one of the best mental illness comics? like Zeb Wells was conscious of the genre #but Gabriel was just… cast out. for panicking when his prime traumatizer Charles invaded his mind. he deserved help too #and all because his family were annoyed at him for drinking all night and throwing up and passing out on the floor? for being delusional?#And like- all of the summers brothers are nd (Scott's brain damage; Alex's dissociative episodes; Gabriel's psychosis)#I have nothing to say about Adam X ((I highly doubt he's neurotypical and/or mentally healthy)) ((nothing to say abt him tho))#and Gabes paranoia is 100% rooted in his issues of being made to feel like an outsider. like YES the obvious MUTANT identity but also #he thinks his father abandoned him to be a slave. he's not Summers enough for Scott. hes not Shi'ar enough for the Shi'ar

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clambuoyance · 2 years ago

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I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me

#sighs yes before anyone says anything IK it’s probably adhd related 😭#BUT ITS GOTTEN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BRAIN HOW DID IT GET WORSE #it’s probably a mix of burnout too but I don’t get tired of drawing ?#it feels like when u get dizzy or change glasses or so #and it’s either everything is wayyy too in focus and you can see literally everything clearly that it hurts ur brain #which doesn’t help given how saturated w information the world is always #and simultaneously somehow everything is blurry or out of focus and I physically have to strain myself to hone in on one thing #I JUST WANNA READ COMICS AND FINISH A DRAWING AND HANDLE WORK AND SCHOOL AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS #ALL IN OME DAY #BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. TODAY IS ONLY FOR COMICS. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ESLE #😫🫶 I’m deleting this later I’m just ranting LMAO #I’m highschool it’s crazy bc I did okay and then honestly i just think my ability to concentrate has deteriorated as the years have gone by #free me!!!#either way I want to lessen my social media and just pick One bc girl I have an Instagram a tumblr and a twitter this is horrible for me .#honestly I’ll probably pick instagram and just post on tumblr when I have art #I already do that #I mean when I have Good art.#IM RAMBLING IDK

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goblin-enjoyer · 8 months ago

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Ok I think I’m too far gone. I had a dream where izutsumi was demanding I eat better in a gift shop connected to what seemed like some sort of dark iron dwarf raid entrance. I know “haha watching/reading dungeon meshi makes the characters pop up in your head and tell you to eat better” is the funny joke around here, but were you gits not 100% joking or something? Am I just looking too much into a random dream? (Probably)

#and it was oddly heartfelt too #like I was all like ”yes izutsumi i will help us eat better”#after I woke up #she JUST showed up last episode at the end how in the world did that happen so quick #I mean I get I don’t eat well(or much. I eat like maybe one meal a day) but why the location????#like did I accidentally witness a future raid for the war within (the next wow expansion)#why was there a gift shop with fishing gear right above it?#did my brain get the idea from watching the knuckles show yesterday or something??#jeez why did this dream leave such an impact on me #I am going to BEGRUDGINGLY tag this mess because from what I’ve seen on here things like this are decently common #dream #delcious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #izutsumi #not tagging the other side of that dream Warcraft fans will think I have gone crazy

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melit0n · 1 year ago

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I was talking to a couple Lovenjoyers about concerts, since I've been to one recently and I was offering the little advice I had, and I referred to Will as 'Wilbur Soot', and y'know what I got?

"Wilbur Soot? Who's that?"

Of course I replied saying it the lead singer for Lovejoy, and then they responded with 'Ohhh okay, I thought his name was William Gold or something though?' and I just. As someone who's been around since Soothouse, it's really weird to think that Wilbur Soot, as in the name linked to the persona he has, just straight up doesn't exist to some of his fans.

Is it incredibly funny to watch Lovejoy fans find out he's a Twitch streamer who spent almost two whole years doing a Minecraft roleplay? Yes. But am I getting unnecessarily sad about the fact that people just don't know? Also yes.

#it got me a little bit #I guess it also made me realise how much of a gap I have to some Lovejoy fans if that makes sense #like yes! he's Wil Gold and he makes so much amazing stuff but then there's Wilbur Soot #Wilbur Soot who to some people doesn't exist and will some day be completely gone #and that made my brain hurt a little #in the non-parasocial way #lovejoy #the band lovejoy #wilbur soot #wilbur mcyt #mel's rambles

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pink-lemonadefairy · 4 months ago

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let me roam a department store in the couple hours before it closes while i wear headphones and listen to jazz music and i’ll be happy for the rest of my life

#queue 🦋#it brings me so much joy and i don’t even know why #especially when it’s higher end stuff #like YES let me cosplay being rich and imagine what cookware and bedding id buy #it’s so therapeutic for some reason idk #ITS THE PEAK COMFORT ACTIVITY FOR AUTUMN/WINTER TOO #a warm cup of cocoa + christmas music playing thru my headphones. IM GONE!!#everything is just so #right idk #the lights and the layouts are so satisfying to me #i love when the displays are pretty too and how everything is organised so neatly #i just love pretty things #ive only ever been to a few but its always so so much fun just browsing through everything #KITCHEN GADGETS >>#house appliances in general 😞😞 sign me tf up #me when i research the best vacuums on google for hours for literally no reason #idk why my brain is like this #ANYWAYS.#i need to go to department stores more often… the way id kill to work at one #(so she says but she’s probs be insanely overstimulated during peak hours)#LET ME BE A CLEANER AT A DEPARTMENT STORE PLEASE!!!! MY DREAM JOB THERE I SAID IT I DONT CARE #when they decorate it for christmas too …. [insane ape noises]#one of my goals this year is to FINALLY take a day trip to london by myself and just. spend the day browsing a bookstore + ending the night #walking thru selfridges or harrods #is this weird #anyways #♡ dear diary…

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always-a-slut-4-ghouls · 7 months ago

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I think someone put the brain of a mouse or maybe a squirrel inside my head at some point because all winter I was like “I crave nuts and seeds” and now that it’s getting warmer and brighter out my brain keeps going “it’s fruit time”

Like, modern transportation has made it possible to move many fruits all over the world (in theory) all the time! But the primal early plesiadapiform part of my brain is like “you must eat what is available this season”

#I was going to go with euarchonta or plesiadapiform brain but I think the early members of both of those groups were from a tropical #ecosystem. if I’m wrong though and either are from more seasonal environments I could change what I used #actually. wait. plesiadapis is from the late Paleocene. yes. but tropical plants have reproductive cycles too #do they generally vary by season or are they just doing it all at their own pace by species #I am from a very cold seasonal climate that gets hot af in summer but is pretty cold for a good five-ish months #not all equally cold #it’s bad for our environment if it doesn’t get cold as balls for a bit every winter #and we didn’t really get that this winter. but that’s not my point!#I mean to say I can’t remember how it works in tropical environments #if the plants just time their reproduction whenever in the year or if there are seasons for most plants at the same time #does that make sense? I’m using the primate-like-mammal. if it’s wrong then whatever #fuck it we ball #maybe I should have gone with a group further back in time but I couldn’t find climate info easily about things that far back and fuzzier #i am not the most familiar with primate evolution. especially early evolution of the group. I’m open to learning more #i just tend to fixate on certain other things like early mammals and horse and cat evolution #paleontology #emma posts #I like juice all year though #one day I want to try many varieties of fruits that I cannot access easily where I live because they can’t be shipped here #or they just aren’t as popular a variety on an industrial scale #maybe one day i will have a big greenhouse and i will be able to grow the banana varieties I want to try #I can see why some plant varieties aren’t grown on a large scale. some of these bitches are SUPPOSED to be able to grow in zone four but #they refuse to work with me! blueberries make sense. the soil here is nowhere near acidic enough and they would need to be in a pot or #whatever. ya know? but some plants just won’t! or I get them and then the weather here which would NORMALLY work is different that season

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blizzardfluffykpop · 6 months ago

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i hope losing your mind in a good way lol

I am ebhbha- I always mean it in a good way but esp rn with the monkees (mike nesmith 😌🫠💖)

#do i realize that mike has been gone for 3 yrs? yes- was he 59 when i was born? yes- is he 17 yrs older than my mom? yes- does #any of that matter in the grand scheme of things? no- i will be happily enjoying my tall weird lanky man #put men into scenarios and have them solve their way out with humor and stupidity #also came to the realization my first introductions to them when i was a kid was thru donkey and sponge*bob and i'm having to live with tha #did mr. tork grow on me this time watching the episodes?... i don't know how that happened... but i'm still a nez fan #(mom should have never introduced me to the show...)#asks #lovely mutuals #(anyways did i have a thought about my ult group being on a show like they had? yes- yes i did- and it is ruining my brain :) i want to put #hoonie- juyo- qutie- cobie? (idk for the last man) into little scenarios i think they'd be fit for it) hoonie def is nez :)#literally the reason why i went in the tag 'i'm actively losing my mind is because of my brain going 'put your babies in this scenarios and #you'll giggle for the rest of the day- i have ebbhaabh

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years ago

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Sohei 🤝 Kazama: Bad dads

who even IS a good dad in this series like who even is a dad that we can all look at and go 'now THATS a good dad right there'

#snap chats #this is a trick question of course. i ALWAYS mean arakawa is number one peepaw in my heart #but fr like date / the florist / yuta's bitchass dad......#a good dad is hard to come by in this series...... and when we do he gets dumped in the fucking BAY GOD DAMMIT #see every time i want to call jo a good dad i hear my bestie come from the top rope with 'he put a baby in a locker'#CAUSE ITS AN AWKWARD MOMENT NOW INNIT. TERRIBLE start to fatherhood and being gone for five years is ALSO p rough #like its such a paradox because yes jo was there for near four decades for masato when he didnt have to #but he was also the reason why he had to be there for masato yk what i mean. also Thats His Kid #hes not a step dad he's the dad that came back with the milk ykwim #I THINK credit should be accredited when its due like at least he was ready to sacrifice the rest of his life to make up for his mistake #and its not like he thinks he'll ever be forgiven by. Whatever Entity decrees someone is forgiven or not #so its not like he'd even call himself a good dad ☠️☠️#so yk what. im gonna put him in the Ironically A Solid Dad corner #at least until rgg gives me the househusband special where jo gotta babysit masato for a day... yeah id pay for that #most of these tags are about jo what the fuck else is new. he stimulates my brain leave me alone #i dont wanna talk about kiryu being a dad i already know there's a sniper light on the back of my head #my point is rgg is gooddadphobic

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ybcpatrick · 1 year ago

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#shut up kell #i need to yammer. somewhere.#i have too much fucking happening to my brain rn #monday is the eleventh anniversary of nana dying.#i was eleven when she died. i've had to fucking miss her for as long as i got to know her. i don't know what to do with this #every single day after monday will be another day longer than the time i got to spend on earth at the same time as her #and i'm not well! and that isn't going to be something i can deal with this weekend bc i am going to be so busy #i've got barbie on friday. i'm going to a cottage for the weekend with my friends for meg's sister's birthday #which i wanted to say no to due to the timing. but of course i said yes bc i can't say no to meg literally fucking ever bc i'm tragic.#and i also know the blackout i'd go into for the first nine years after isn't smth she would want for me. so i don't do it anymore.#i'm going to have fun and i'm going to be fine but i would be lying if i said i wasn't regretting this fucking thing rn. i don't wanna do it #i don't want to do anything. i want to have time to prepare myself for this. i need to have space to get myself ready for this shift.#but i won't get that. and then it will be monday and then i will be in the true After.#i thought ten years would be the worst one. that was nothing compared to this.#and i'm sick to my stomach thinking about next year #and the year after it. and the year after that. and the years after those.#i shouldn't have to go through this. she should have been allowed to stay. i wasn't ready then and i'm even less ready now and i want her.#i want her back and i cannot fucking have her and i will have to live however many more years beyond this without her until i'm gone too.#and then i'll just have to hope and pray that i get to go wherever she went without me.#what a cruel existence. what a horrid thing to make me do. having to keep walking this earth as her ash dances on the surface of the sea.#i'm going to bed. i will not feel better tomorrow but i'm used to that.#i'm okay and i always am and i will make it through. somehow. kicking and screaming the whole way.#i'd trade all my tomorrows for just one fucking yesterday. yeah. fuck off.

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4giorno · 1 year ago

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im starting my 5 day mental preparation program for starting patho 2 again this weekend

#yknow when like 2 years ago or something i had just gotten to the part where the inquisitor comes to town #but then the ps4 gave me irrepairable damage to my brain and spirit by chugging and crashing the game even more than it already did #maybe this time my immunity wont be gone immediately bc loading screens took 10 seconds and froze my controls #but the immunity still kept going down while it loaded 💀💀💀💀💀💀#oh no now talking more abt it is giving me war flashbacks and making me lose enthusiasm to play it again HDJFKDJDJ #no but rlly its such a cool game and im rlly looking forward to playing it in a playable state #and its one i think everyone should play. but its SO inaccessible #you need a very high end pc or. well i havent played it on the ps5 but the ps4 is not enough #like i said i got to over the half way point on the ps4 t and yes it was hell bc of the lag and frame drops and the amount of #extra items you had to use bc of the lag but then i had to stop bc at the same point on that day it crashed everytime i reached it again #which was frustrating bc i had finally gotten to the point that artemy wasnt starving 24/7 despite eating 4 2-course meals a day LMAO #but yeah starting it again is so daunting bc of the reputation of the game of course #but i need to keep reminding myself that the gameplay wasnt THAT difficult like at the end of the day i got through it and wasnt stressed #but that the thing that made me rip my hair out was the lag and the crashes leading to lost progress #which hopefully will be fixed when i play on the ps5!#i just finally after such a long time got the desire to play it again and i have to use it while i can

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sysig · 2 years ago

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What does the acronym WPTSP mean? Maybe I'm just bad at googling but I can't seem to figure it out

That's a personal initialism, don't worry! It's not widespread, it's just a housekeeping tag - it's short for Will Plays [The Stanley Parable] :)

All of my Gameplay posts are under the WP[initials] tags! Deltarune, OFF, Phoenix Wright, etc. etc. I don't think I've ever collected them all into one place before though, it's a bit sporadic haha

#It's also very useful if you get tired of my posting a whole bunch of what I'm gaming about in a given day lol #Why Will? It's just kind of a name that's stuck #I think it started with Phoenix Wright since I thought WPPW was funny hehe #And Will is my Lawyersona's name!#I do have a gaming liveblog acc but I never use it XP #Part of why I haven't gone back and gathered them into one spot is Because it's sporadic #I don't keep a very close eye on it lol #So it would be annoying to reblog all my gaming stuff onto that sideblog #Which my brain won't let me use it properly until I do so #So it's stuck in limbo lol #Oh brain #Anyhow yes! I appreciate you trying to find it first haha sorry to have it be confusing #WPVG

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cherrysnax · 2 years ago

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there was this one blog who made a bunch of utdr theories and has been a staple in the community for years, but due to harassment hey randomly deleted and it feels like. real shit has been lost

#I also feel weirdly guilty because I think they tracked who was on their blog and admittedly I would spend HOURS on their blog just looking #at their theories n stuff mostly because they would make like 5 a day #and had ones I never saw before + rb others n art so it was like #oooh trusted source for utdr content #and I know it’s silly to think but I hope that my presence didn’t cause them extra paranoia #rational brain says no but weird always guilty brain says yes #someone has a little archive dedicated to their posts which is rlly cool but damn #bro is just gone #I hope they’re doing well wherever they are

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siilkmoth · 2 years ago

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cant tell if the bigotry on twitter during the pandemic was worse than the bigotry on g+ across its entire lifespan like im leaning towards twitter bc at least i can live knowing on g+ those were just dumb opinions from 13y/os whilst on twitter all the idiots spouting hateful rhetoric were actually adults.

#miracle that being exposed to the most violent and hateful cases of bigotry ive seen online hasnt rotted my brain but maybe it has. idk #*throughout my entire adolescence that is #the transphobia and homophobia of g+ was so pervasive And Dont Even Get Me On To The Racism like god forbid you were nonbinary on that site #i was fighting for my fucking life there. shoutout to all my friends from that site who are now gendercool now the sites gone #but twitter is like. this isnt even dumb kids who are around bad influences these are grown adults #who genuinely think you should die bc you have pronouns or are a person of colour #grown adults who have probably reflected on their actions and gone 'yes this is right'#wonder if any of those kids on g+ woke up one day after the site closed and went 'wow i shouldnt act like that to other people at all'

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kakusu-shipping · 2 years ago

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One of these days I’m gonna suck up enough courage to put random-ass BL boys on my F/O list and then we’re ALL going to be sorry

#YES this is about Otsu Manly Appetites I am STEALING HIM #don't get me wrong I ALSO love Mingishi he's so unnormal but that's DIFFERENT #Also I can't spell his fucking name to save my life it would simply never work #but ALSO it's about this big crybaby guy #Tomoki from Melt at Night (very hardcore shit I am a degenerate at times I will admit)#But he's SO FUCKING CUTE MY GOD!!!!!! STEALING HIM!!!!#I have others they're just really hard to remember the names of because I'll read the whole series all in one night #And my brain is bunk #The day I put a random ass Boy's Love man on my F/O list is the day I've finally gone off the deep end #I will never return to the light when it finally happens #For now I'm safe but like...... eventually..........#This is such a genuinely cringe post but look man BL is like my Destresser when Regression doesn't work or I don't have TIME for it #I can either become a Toddler and watch Horror or I can sit with Koro and read about two dudes (usually) fucking really hard #I am Asexual and get nothing out of that part btw I'm not actually a degenerate I just like Gay Men as a Gay Men #I'm getting. Worse.#I should delete all these tags but I'm not going to I suppose this is the life I'm making for myself at 1:30am on a Saturday Morning #Alright back to Boy's Love

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insertpinkchiphere · 4 months ago

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//I talk a lot of about Lambda being reduced to a puddle of mush after sex but not enough of it happened during it.

#//someone could be in the middle of fucking him asking him how he feels and he nods his head yes because he’s pretty much gone #//eyes rolling back and everything #//i know it’s late for this i was playing a game all day shush #//mondays are usually my catch up days anyway #//not the point though #//the point is fucking a cyborg so hard part of his brain bluescreens #recharging... {ooc}

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rosegoldenatlas · 6 months ago

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Its noon. I was in bed awake for the past four hours not because I was tired.. But cause I was daydreaming about a bunch of characters cuddling platonically.

What is wrong with me

#platonic cuddles #affectionate cuddling #That's literally all it was #I was awake #just daydreaming #For four hours #I wanted more but I realized I had things to do #But I realized that multiple times #And am just now realizing that a lot of my day is gone #And my chronophobia was not having it #But I still sat there in bed #Like bro we have things to do lazy mf #But body said no #And brain said yes #But other part of brain was too busy daydreaming to care #Until I heard sound outside #Then..#I shot up in bed and decided to write this to slowly wake up #I don't thing the anxiety is gonna hit for a few more minutes

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