#yeah. understandable response

[debblefromdeltarun]

GRIPPING YOU BY THE SHOULDERS FUCKING OMORI????? this is actually the fastest i've finished a Big Game ever. ia m uspet 👍(got good ending dw but i FORGOT TO WATER THE FUCKIGN FLWEROSF RAHRHARHG

srory i dont know what to do with myself rn

play omori again

[ourwhisperingtorment]

SQUID GAME 2 SPOILERS!!!

I find it funny. How people are mad that Junho didn’t reveal the frontman’s identity to anyone. But I also saw a lot of reactors who said they didn’t know Player 001 was the frontman till episode 7. EVEN IF they showed Inho’s face as the frontman in the flashbacks quite a lot of times in the early episodes.

Well, I don’t blame them since I know a lot of people who’s not very good with faces. Sometimes, I’m not very good too 🤷

But imagine if Junho did show Inho’s photo to Gihun but Gihun just. couldn’t. remember 😭😭

Gihun: “You look familiar” 🤔

Inho: “what? I’m certain this is the first time we’ve seen each other.”

Gihun: “no, no… ah, i remember! You really look a lot like Detective Hwang’s brother!”

Inho: *sweating* “oh really? Ahahaha pfft, i don’t have a brother” 🙃

Gihun: “yeah yeah, he said his brother was the frontman. That couldn’t be you, Youngil.”

Inho: 🙂🙂🙂

[noperopesaredope]

Me: Ooooo, I wonder what this "Mouthwashing" thing is that everyone's been obsessed with lately. I should check some of it out.

Me, 30 minutes later: I would kill myself for you, Anya.

[turtleblogatlast]

Something I’ve been thinking about lately is that small moment in “Air Turtle” where immediately after the Daves lose yet another game, Leo says how sorry he is and how he’s doing his best as the mascot. This moment is so short but it’s honestly jam-packed with a whole heap of characterization.

His need to apologize for things clearly not his fault - especially when it feels like he messes up the job he was given despite doing the best he can (the phrase “it’s not about you” takes a new meaning when this is one of the lessons to be learned from that - that he is not always solely responsible for things going wrong), his need to save face and make a connection with an older adult man in his life (something he consistently does throughout the series - he’s got a few daddy issues, always collecting potential father figures, it’s no wonder he jumps at the bit to keep rapport), and the way he sounds and looks and the words he chooses really pushes how he is just a kid (“Mr. the Dunk, I’m so sorry”).

Like I know it’s a one off moment that doesn’t truly mean much, but when put against the rest of the series it works really well with the rest of Leo’s established character and helps in solidifying later concepts as well.

[micia-posts-stuff]

THE FINAL DEV-ELOPMENT part 17

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[tethered-heartstrings]

[barbieaiden]

when you're the main character's little brother and doomed by the narrative because the author decided that the cult trauma wasn't enough. rip aaron

[ishouldbedoingalright]

people act like tommy leaving the date is the worst crime to ever exist and forget that buck is a whole ass adult who can take care of himself

[wombywoo]

I have no idea if I've asked this before, so if I have, deepest apologies 😭

Your GhostSoap is so pretty! I was wondering if you'd be open to drawing any other COD ships, like AleRudy or NikPrice! Heavy on NikPrice, I adore them and there's nearly nothing on them 😢

If not, that's totally understandable! I love all the tiny details in your work, they make it all feel more real. Hope you have a good day!

hey there! no worries, I don't think anyone's asked this before actually..🤔

this may be a *controversial* answer, but truthfully, the only ship I care about is ghostsoap 😔(soapghost, ghoap, Jimon™️, etc...)

I adhere to the ancient laws of otp in that they are the only two losers I care about being in love :'D sure, there are other ships that I can acknowledge and potentially enjoy--but for now, I'm contractually obligated to wave the flag for these bastards only ✌️

thanks for your kind words, regardless <33

[iamespecter]

I just realized RIGHT NOW that I got hit with the "I know you're autistic but I'm not gonna say the word" from my mom on christmas day and I don't think I'm recovering from this, goodbye

[blood-choke]

When you say that Valentina call feel the MC when they are experiencing intense emotions, does this also apply when it comes to sexual things?

yes but it's not so exact that she can necessarily tell that that's what's happening. she will be suspicious, though, since she knows mc very well and knows how she feels upon... completion. it's part of how she clocks you after being with Clear or Hana (and she can smell it, like Hana says. these vampires do have enhanced smell. part of that is because mc always bites both of them and she can smell their blood on her, too). also i should have specified in the last ask, mc currently isn't fully aware of this connection just yet since she doesn't necessarily remember and it doesn't work both ways.

we'll see at the start of the next chapter for those of you that got injured at the hotel, Valentina can feel it.

i imagine that more experienced vampires and especially ones that have sired more than once would be able to tune it out to a certain extent. Valentina isn't one of those unfortunately, nor would she want to tune mc out anyways. she's always logged in lol

[mueritos]

a big brain dump about autism, life, being indigenous, and whatever else is going on

so the past few months I made it a personal journey to understand my autism more (and maybe a possible ptsd diagnosis but whatever whatever whatever). and that's what i'm calling it--the autism--because no other thing makes sense for me, and while i'm parsing through childhood memories and experiences, it's definitely...a bittersweet conclusion? bitter because in a lot of ways, i dont relate to the stereotypical autistic experience because every autistic person who has clocked me was usually a White Queer. It's probably why it's taken so long to get to this point of concluding Autism is what it is. I grew up in an immigrant family as a girl, and for that reason I was expected to not be disabled and to be a completely normal and high achieving Mexican catholic girl who went to college and became a doctor or whatever. Now i'm a fag of a man doing none of those things haha.

My older brother was supposed to be assessed for ASD in his youth, and like most immigrant dads, mine decided that nothing was wrong with him and the rest is history. Except my older brother is a man riddled with childhood trauma, shame, and so much autism. Absolutely uncharted rates of autism, and while he gets some sort of pity from my parents for him ("it's all out fault" "he never got the help he needed" "cut him some slack he doesnt understand"), I can never let my own parents know about how much I struggle. Hell, I can barely show it to my own friends because even they don't understand the extent of my autistic struggles. it's actually caused continuous miscommunications, people mad at me, me mad at myself, meltdowns, shutdowns, and a lot of crying. And shame. (a peer recently even demeaned my habit of keeping to myself, despite the fact that I had actually been trying to put myself out there more)

so i'm at a point in my life where I've accepted that I can only take responsibility over how I communicate, and I take ownership over that. Accepting this responsibility allows me to keep myself safe, as I've essentially lived over 2 decades of my life feeling like I was responsible for not just my communication, but everyone else's, including all of the judgements, missed cues, failures, miscommunications, and whatever else came from it. It's definitely double empathy. Last time I truly took on everyone's communication, it nearly killed me (cue over a year of suicidality). But, in a lot of ways it's very freeing. I'm sort of detaching myself from this neurotypical/White need to socially interact with others on their terms. In other ways, it's restricting. I uh. Don't really talk to a lot of people nowadays, and there used to be days where I wouldn't say a single word out loud. But because I don't talk to as many people, I'm able to put energy into the quality of my connections and not just the quantity. Which unfortunately a lot of people take personally. They dont like you admitting that you only see them as an acquittance, or as a classmate, or something like a friend but not quite there. I find comfort knowing how people feel about me, even if its that they actually dont feel close to me. Great! Now I know! Knowing makes me feel safe! But I'm finding that people actually really fucking hate when you admit that to them, the how you actually slot them in ur brain in terms of social levels. I can understand why, but I also don't get it.

Another thing that's helped is I've changed how I do eye contact. I used to make eye contact with professors or classmates while I spoke up in class because I thought that was important. Now I've found I can actually focus more on what I'm trying to say when I don't make eye contact. My god how freeing that has been. I don't have the same anxiety as I used to before, nor do I experience all of the involuntary blushing as I did for many years of my life. It didn't matter how confident or how prepared I felt, I would just blush furiously and I fucking hate it. Now my blushing is almost nonexistent, and I say what I mean with the flat ass tone that I love speaking in because it makes me feel safe. Sure, I miss the real-time non-verbal reactions to my words in class, but it's an okay trade-off for feeling more safe in myself and more confident in the classroom.

another thing is my internship. I work with majority neurodivergent students, and many of my clients have autism, adhd, or both, and are sometimes BIPOC, trans, or children of immigrants. Man, I've been having a blast. Sure, I'm learning how to be a therapist and best practices, but screw everyone in my life who has called me "cold" "emotionless" or "heartless". I have connected with so many people on such a human level, and I have sat there and helped them hold their pain in that tiny gay office for 45 minutes every week, and even though it's only 45 minutes, i'm showing them that they're allowed to ask for help holding that pain. I have had challenging sessions, difficult conversations, and times where I wasn't sure I would know what to say. But at it's core, I know that I'm capable of connecting with the person in front of me because my autism brain is automatically in tune with the person in front of me. It is so wonderful, and overwhelming, and so confusing all at once. When people start crying in front of me, I feel tears well up in my eyes, even if I'm not actually sad with them. It shows me that I'm capable of this empathy that so many people over my life have questioned, which they questioned all because I processed things slowly, or made quick decisions, or because I was honest about how I felt.

on to being mixed indigenous. Phew. I've been trying to build more connections with other Native folk, and I have a couple who I can thankfully call friends and who have never disrespected my detribalized experience. but recently I was interviewed a few times for a fellow indigenous researcher's dissertation, and I did not expect to be chosen on account that I am detribalized. But it had been a lovely experience and I finished my final interview today. It really left me with a lot of emotions that are hard to put into words. Mourning would be one of them, as I likely won't ever know what my tribal affiliation is. Never knowing who my people were, what language they spoke, the land they lived on...I can't describe just how much it destroys me. It feels like literal death, because that's what it is. A disgusting colonial death. And it's why I abhor that of all my identities, being autistic and being mixed indigenous has been met with the most vitriol online. like i guess people can only handle the trans fag mexican dude when hes not autistic and mixed indigenous, because now I am far too ambigious for anyone else's good. though i do know better than to listen to what random people online have to say about me and my path toward reconnection/neurodivergency.

beside's that, i'm trying to find neurodivergent spaces that feel safe, and I'm trying to find ways to keep myself safe. stimming, carrying stuffed animals around, using fidget toys, engaging in my interests, listening to the same songs, eating the same foods. I've had coffee with bagel and chive+onion cream cheese for over a year now. I've listening to almost only Pearl Jam and Alice in Chains for nearly a year now. I rewatch the same youtube videos over and over again. I wear the same few outfits. I wear the same shoes everyday. I walk the same way to and from campus everyday. I try to be in nature as much as I can, and really see it. I imagine nature where it isn't, and I get emotional thinking about the life that used to be on it. I wish so badly that I was a cat, a horse, a bunny, a deer, all so I could experience life through their eyes. i'm putting trust into people, into the universe, and into myself. safety is hard to come by, but im doing my best to accept the risks of life, trying to be flexible, and learn how to sustain myself for the good of the world. I deserve to be here too.

that's about it. besides that, i'm moving to philly once i'm done with grad school ^-^

[r--kt]

Minato in a nutshell

you better stop spreading rumors and start looking after your children, young man.

[let-it-rip-bear]

yknow i think we're really glossing over the fact that carmy straight up said "i basically told [claire] i thought the relationship was a waste of time because i am who i am" to everyone's face and they all just went

[autisticblueteam]

This has probably been said somewhere before, god knows I wasn't here for the peak discourse and discussion days, but sometimes I do find myself thinking about how fandom often oversells Daisy's meanness to Jon in s4, specifically, in service of the 'Jon surrounded by mean women' joke.

This isn't to say Daisy isn't mean or that she's not a mess—she's both and I wouldn't have her any other way—but frankly in s4 she really doesn't get on Jon's case that much. Sure, she joins in with the intervention about the live statements and she ribs him about moping, but these are not in any way on the scale of how Basira and Melanie interact with Jon on an episode after episode basis.

When she ribs him, it's rude and blunt, sure, but she's actively trying to get him out of his own doom spiral because she's just as concerned as she may be fed up.

And her role in the intervention scene is noticeably smaller and less aggro than the others. When she interjects, she's not particularly angry—she recognises he's hunting, puts together the details because she recognises the pattern, then actually speaks up in his defence at one point and only doesn't push it because it'd be starting an argument about her own problems with Basira that she doesn't really want to be having in that particular moment in time.

Like, Jon is very much making a point about Basira's hypocrisy that Daisy then makes a point of agreeing with! But to get further into that matter would mean having to rehash one of her own ongoing arguments with Basira, which would be both a distraction from the matter at hand and the kind of personal business a private person like Daisy would rather avoid dealing with in a group setting.

Her only contribution to the actual discussion after this point is where, after Jon starts suggesting that the Web might be controlling him into taking these statements, she says (unfortunately misattributed to Melanie on the transcript site, it is definitely actually Daisy saying it):

She tries to discourage him from following this line of thought, from trying to alleviate his guilt by blaming an outside force, because as we see in other conversations this season she's already accepted her own fault in her own actions rather than fall into blaming something or someone else.

Yeah, she thinks Jon should stop taking live statements, but this is a standard she's also holding herself to. And she's not beyond talking behind Jon's back (see: the planning stages of the Ny-Ålesund trip, or her and Basira running off without warning in Rotten Core). But at no point in s4 does Daisy actually get truly angry and spiteful with Jon or cut him any less slack than she's cutting herself. And ymmv on said slack, I suppose, given she is expecting herself to die, but sometimes I see posts where it feels like people have decided 'well, the joke is that all the women are mean to Jon in s4, so clearly Daisy was also mean to Jon in s4' without actually thinking back through her actual behaviour.

She may be blunt and gruff and sometimes fail to think ahead, after all she's still Daisy Tonner, and Jon understandably still finds her difficult to truly lean on both because of who they both are as people and because of their history, but she actually kind of is in Jon's corner for most of s4 and I think that gets lost in the fanon shuffle sometimes.

[lesbiancarat]

want to give my two cents on the AI usage in the maestro trailer--

i think seventeen doing a whole concept that is anti-AI is very cool, especially as creatives themselves i think it's good that they're speaking up against it and i hope it gets more ppl talking about the issue. i also understand on a surface level the artistic choice (whether it was made by the members, the mv director, or whoever else), to directly use AI in contrast to real, human-made visuals and music in order to criticize it. i also appreciate that they clearly stated the intention of the use of AI at the beginning of the video

however, although i understand it to an extent, i do not agree with the choice to use AI to critique AI. one of the main ethical concerns with generative AI is that it is trained on other artists' work without their knowledge, consent, or compensation. and even when AI generated images are being used to critique AI, it still does not negate this particular ethical concern

the use of AI to critique also does not negate the fact that this is work that could have been done by an actual artist. i have seen some people argue that it's okay in this context because it's a critique specifically about AI, and it is content that never would have been done by a real artist anyway because it doesn't make sense for the story they're trying to tell. but i disagree. i think you can still tell the exact same story without using AI

and in fact, i would argue that it would make the anti-AI message stronger if they HAD paid an artist to draw/animate the scenes that are supposed to represent AI generated images. wouldn't it just be proof that humans can create images that are just as bad and nonsensical and soulless as AI, but that AI can't replicate the creativity and beauty and basic fucking anatomy that's in human-made art?

it feels very obvious this was not just a way to cut corners and costs like a lot of scummy people are using AI for. ultimately it was a very intentional creative decision, i just personally think it was a very poor one. and even if some ethical considerations were taken into account before this decision, i certainly don't think all of them were. at the very least i feel like the decision undermines the message they want to convey

i would also like to recognize that i myself am not an artist, and i have seen some artists that are totally on board with the use of AI in this specific context, so clearly this is not a topic that is cut and dry. but generative AI is still new, and i think it's important to keep having these conversations