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aphel1on · 1 month ago

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AuDHD is so funny sometimes like what do you mean my hyperfixations/special interests will last for years on end or possibly forever but they will cycle out every month or two with absolutely no transitional period or warning. like i will think about the same topic every day obsessively for 46 days in a row and on the 47th day with no visible cause adhd brain goes "ok! bored of that now" and autism brain goes "dw i got something queued up for ya" and i blast into full blown obsession on some other topic whose mental file folders haven't opened in 9 months. brain's out here treating hyperfixations like a crop rotation. once the dopamine runs out it cycles in another one but once something's in the rotation it never ever leaves. last summer we brought in one from when i was 11. it's so funny to me but frustrating too bc like. i cannot stress enough my inability to predict or control this. or how completely abrupt and random it can be

#actually adhd #actually autistic #audhd #aphelion.txt #ik 'adhd brain' vs 'autism brain' is a gross oversimplification especially given how much overlap there can be #but it at least helps me conceptualize wtf is going on in my head when i do this lol #and yeah i'm mostly referring to fandoms in this post but it can happen w more 'Traditional' special interests too #like my linguistics special interest which hasn't popped up in a couple years now but whenever it does #i will fill literal notebooks while studying 4 languages at once and simultaneously inventing a conlang #and then i'll be like Ok that was fun! and several months later im deleting like. 2gb of textbooks off my iphone to make room for an update #And sometimes yeah there is a precipitating event like 'Oh something new happened in X fandom with my blorbo!' but sometimes it's like #yeah. no. idk either. switch got flipped in my brain and X no longer sparks joy. only Y rn. how come it's Y? yeah idk i also wish i knew #i don't think any of this is actually an uncommon experience for people with these types of neurodivergencies it's just.#the severity of abruptness and TOTALITY of the switch that makes me feel like a weirdo sometimes lol #like I'M getting mental whiplash from this sometimes. idk how y'all are still following my blog

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hinamie · 4 months ago

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in spite of everything, I had fun <3

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk leaks #yuji itadori #fushiguro megumi #nobara kugisaki #itafushikugi #jjk 271 #well we made it :'>#im kind of ignoring a lot of the tag rn ghsdff ik people are upset #if u follow me u know th full extent of my thoughts on the wrapping up of the series but tl;dr the caption says it all #this series meant a lot to me and im working on a bigger tribute to fully express that love and gratitude #but take a redraw 2 tide u over for now #im just so happy. its bittersweet but those r my kids n theyre tgt and theyre okay #i think the return to normalcy is good fr them. i say let them rest n b together n process everything in time #/i'm/ satisfied with what i got out of jjk as a whole and that's all that matters to me #however ik that not everyone shares tht sentiment n thats valid!#regardless of how u feel abt the finale i hope that u at least take time to remember things abt the series that brought u joy #thats all i can say #oh yeah anyway i lightened up megumi's expression his face is so funny in that panel i can't believe he really said -_- until the very end #still tho i think megu deserves a content lil smile

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what-am-i-doing-in-this-fandom · 2 months ago

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Pokemon AU my absolute beloved 🙏🙏

(Translation for Ford's cursive/complete image description in the ALT text ❤️)

Made a companion piece to this!! See it here ❤️

#yeah i drew this instead of literally anything else i should be drawing #i love pokemon AUs guys i know there are already some in this fandom but i wanted to contribute 😭#I'm rewatching pokemon rn and I really couldn't help myself #cole's art #gravity falls #art #grunkle stan #stanley pines #grunkle ford #ford pines #mullet stan #pokemon #pokemon au #image description in alt #🙏#it feels wrong not to draw Stan with wolf ears that's literally the only way i draw him anymore 😭#I don't draw ford enough sorry he looks weird 😢#gravity falls pokémon au

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napping-sapphic · 9 months ago

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Sure you could fall in love with me but would you put up glow in the dark stars all over our bedroom walls with me? Would you paint our mailbox fun colors with me? Would you make pancakes in silly shapes and buy knickknacks we’ll never use and pick up hobbies we won’t stick to with me? Would you live and be silly and be a little dumb and be a genius and be confident and lazy and kind and angry and everything? Would you give me absolutely every side of yourself that you can??

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #when i say i want to fall in love and everything it entails #i do mean EVERYTHING #i wanna do stupid and silly and meaningless things with you #isn’t that the point of it all?#ughh i Cannot articulate it well #but yeah #im gay and i like sleeping #also you may think im online posting this rn but actually im scheduling this post >:)#i like scheduling it makes me feel like im bamboozling and i love a good bamboozle #also it makes it not as obvious that this is another one of my mid-crisis 3am posts lol

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reds-skull · 5 months ago

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Both me and price looking at that pic of them sleeping: do it for them...

(This was supposed to be like. 2 panels rip)

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timethehobo · 3 months ago

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Just finished Emmy’s personal questline and am too full of feels rn so all I have is a tiny doodle tonight. I love him sm. 😭

#dragon age #dragon age the veilguard #DAtV #Emmrich volkarin #my art #my head is so brrrr and my heart is so full rn #those choices were waaaaay harder to choose than the main story stuff so far lmao #oh Emmy you poor sweetheart #he deserves all the soft kisses #grahhhh #incoherent screaming tbh I can’t seem to collect my thoughts #tldr I loved his questline immensely and wished it was longer #like I do the other companions tbh #but yeah it was so good #and I love him sm #wow wow Emmy the man you are #screaming crying throwing up #small doodle cos I’m exhausted from feels ok night

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shiineru · 6 months ago

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reading chainsaw man and trying to piece together theories makes me feel like an insane person. like no yeah totally pochita is actually the birth devil and reze is coming back and aki isn't actually dead and its all because of this one slight detail in the background and its all going to culminate in one big story about trauma. meanwhile no one has fucking mouths in the manga right now

#drea rambles #btw i still do believe all this minus the aki and reze thing #but sometimes i feel like i have to take a step back #and be like yeah no one has fucking mouths rn lemme take a breather #i hope fujimoto does the hear no evil speak no evil hear no evil thing ppl have been talking about #would be cool #blank panels with speech bubbles so you only have a vague idea of the battle #oh yeah #also i hope asa doesnt die LMAO #chainsaw man #csm spoilers #chainsaw man spoilers #csm manga #csm part 2 #csm #csm 175

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weaselishmcdiesel · 6 months ago

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katnep is the type of ship you'd expect nepeta to try really hard and dress all cutely and karkat be a bit more lazy and wear the same clothes BUT if we're all being honest karkat would absolutely dress up all fancy and nepeta would wear her usual clothes. karkat would go to kanaya in a heartbeat, kanaya would try to reach out to nepeta but nepeta will not comply.

bonus points if kanaya continues to try and make something pretty but also comfortable and fitting for nepetas tastes but it backfires because she then never takes it off and kanaya has to watch it very clearly become worn and ruined as nepeta rolls around in dirt. Kanaya accounted for that of course, but nepeta somehow surpassed her expectations anyways

i think youre totally completely right

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14dayswithyou · 2 months ago

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no way you dropped the biggest river lore in the tags and moved on like it was nothing 😭 can i ask if this is still your intentions with him? bc it sounds like you changed your mind halfway 🤔

im ngl though i really enjoy how ren and river are similar and different to each other, but does that mean river would hurt his angel but leave our friends alone the same way ren would never hurt his angel but would unalive all of our friends? since they're suppose to be each other opposites. i really hope this makes sense 😬 my final question is what is ren doing on thursday? i want to go on a cute pier date again 🩷🌸

@secretkoa asked: and can i hear more about what unsent memory is suppose to be about or is that off limits? idk if i asked this in my previous question so ignore me if i did! thank yuo and remember to drink lots of water 🐸🌱

⌞♥⌝ For those who haven't seen the original post, I want to quickly clarify once more that while River was originally my OC, he's since been picked up and revamped by my friend Jesse/@unsentmemory!!

However, now that Jesse has stepped away from the yandere community, River's fate (and da fate of Unsent Memories) has kinda been put on the sidelines for the foreseeable future.

‼️ Massive Unsent Memories and River spoilers under the cut ‼️ CW for: mentions of gore, torture, mutilation, self-harm, etc.

With all of that being said, yes, Jesse's original intention for River was for him to be your standard "serial killer-turned-yandere once he accidentally catches feelings for his latest victim (Bunny)". The only main difference is that I originally planned for River to be a generic murderer first, whereas Jesse had him become a yandere right off the bat.

You also asked to know more about Unsent Memories, and I think giving a general synopsis(?) would be fine?? ^^ But basically... After getting involved in a car accident, Bunny wakes up with amnesia and gets tricked into thinking that this random guy — whom they've never met before — is their loving, supportive boyfriend named River. In turn, he convinces Bunny that staying in their shared home would be more beneficial than staying in the hospital as it might rekindle some old memories, he'd be able to take care of them, and it would be easier for them to recover at their own pace. But surprise!! River is actually a frequent patron at the Murderer Motel™ and now has trapped Bunny in his Torture Basement®!!! <3 He also maaaay or may not've been the one who hit them with Ren's car as well... ^^ Oopsie daisy hehe

And yeah!! Similar to what you've said, River was also supposed to share (somewhat of) a narrative foil with Ren!! I personally wanted them both to have similar, complimenting vibes with each other — all while having completely different/separate motives and incentives when it comes to the object of their affection. I'm glad to see it was conveyed well enough; even after Jesse's additions to River's characterisation :3 I know I already shared some examples in the previous tags, but I can share a few more:

Where Ren puts Angel's feelings and opinions above his own, River purposefully ignores Bunny's and does everything for his own personal benefit. Essentially, "I'm doing this for you" vs "I'm doing this for me".

While Ren would never dream about harming Angel in any capacity, he's perfectly happy to kidnap, extort, torture, and kill everyone else... In contrast to River, who's accustomed to torturing and brutalising others for his own twisted enjoyment and sees it as a way to show his interest in Bunny.

Kinda silly how Ren claims to be a freelance programmer (but is actually a hacker) and how River claims to work at a music shop (it's a coverup for his second torture chamber lmaoooo).

[CW: implications of SH] Ren is willing to go as far as mentally and physically hurting himself if Angel asks him to, whereas River is willing to physically mutilate Bunny if it means keeping them by his side. [end CW]

With that being said, you can assume that Ren is easily swayed by Angel's words, opinions, and emotions, whereas River can easily sway and manipulate Bunny due to his own feelings and emotions.

This is something I've actually mentioned before, but Ren always prefers things to be tidy, so he often cleans himself up after disposing of his victims. Compared to River, who casually wears the bloodstains with pride and blames it on getting a bit rough with someone else during a boxing match.

It's no secret that Ren is willing to change every aspect of himself to earn Angel's love, and River is willing to change his serial killer ways to return Bunny's love. Da power of friendship and repressed childhood memories gksdgjh T_T /silly

Ren pretends to be a Normal Guy© with tons of empathy to spare, whereas River pretends to be a Regular Person℗ with the heart of a himbo.

I could go on but you get da point lol

So, yeah!! This is essentially the vibes we had planned for River (and Unsent Memories) before Jesse stepped down /pos ^^ I feel like talking vaguely about UM is fine since River only has a small cameo in 14DWY — and I'm sure that if Jesse ever returns from war (/silly), they'll give River muuuuch more justice than I possibly can :3c

#Hopefully me yapping in this post will suffice for all the yammering I did in the other posts' tags lmaooooo #Ren: is that guy bothering you? I'll kill him >:(#River: someone is bothering you? more than me? what the fuck #Anyways!! Lords and gentlewomen..... I give you......#River ''you made me catch feelings as a child and I don't do feelings so I'm gonna hit you with a car'' Acosta 👏👏👏 /silly #There are direct parallels between 2017!Ren and River too if you squint #Also would this be 2024!River now?? Since UM is kinda homeless rn? /silly gshjgjs I just made myself sad T_T #Also; yeag... I agree that I could've worded my original tags better because it DOES seem like we changed our minds hjdgjsk #However my original intention [within da tags] was to talk about what River's characterisation would've been BEFORE Jesse stepped down #i.e. me yapping about what you could've expected from Unsent Memories since the game's fate is kinda.... ambiguous now ^^; /nm #But again; I don't want to force Jesse to come back to da yan community and write for a game they no longer have an interest in #It's not the end of the world if 14DWY doesn't get its sequel; and it's not like I'm going to stop working on its prequel either /gen #me: guys there's another yandere in 14DWY!!!#everyone else: omg it's Leon!!!#me: ......yeah... definitely... 😼#.......I yearn to :evilhehe:#💌 — answered.#💖 — 14 days with queue.#💖 — about ren.#🌊 — about river.#secretkoa #Very brief mentions of:#cw torture #cw self harm #cw gore

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bunnyboy-juice · 7 months ago

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NO MORE ASSOCIATING THINGS WITH FEMMES ONLY BECAUSE THEY ARE PINK!HYPERFEM FEMMES ARE GREAT AND I LOVE YOU CAMPY FEMMES WHO EMBODY PINK BUT ALSO JESUS CHRIST CAN YOU GUYS NOT GO MORE THAN ONE DAY W/O TRYING TO SHOEHORN FEMMES INTO BEING ONLY PINK UWU BABIES. I AM FEMME AS IN GRASS AS IN DIRT AS IN TREE BARK AS IN WEEDS SPROUTING THROUGH THE SIDEWALK CEMENT. FEMME AS IN GENDER NONCONFORMITY AS IN FUCK YOU MY FEMININITY IS WHAT *I* SAY IT IS. FEMME AS IN DEPTH AND DARKNESS AND WARMTH AND TERROR. FEMME AS IN CAVES. FEMME AS IN LIGHTNING. FEMME AS IN AN AMALGAMATION OF TRAITS THAT I HAVE DECIDED ARE FEMININE REGARDLESS OF WHAT SOCIETY SAYS. FUCK IS IT THAT HARD TO UNDERSTAND?!???

#personal #i am emotional yes #over the years ive had this blog I've made a few posts abt being femme #nd whether they're serious or jokey..... inevitably someone in the tags goes “ohhh yeah bc pink”#or in the case of what inspired this post: someone going “what about the pink ones” on my praying mantis post #and im just.#sick of it. im sick of femme being equated to pink and frilly girlie behaviors.#im sick of femme being equated to skirts and heels. to makeup. to skincare. to pristine nails exactly almond shaped.#im sick of ppl acting like All femmes aspire to this shit. im sick of femms being reduced to this shit.#and i love pink! i love pink! my phone theme is quite literally just black and pink all over.#im just. so tired of any expression of Femme identity being shoehorned into being a Specific type of femininity #especially as someone who DOES get dysphoric wearing skirts. wearing dresses. embodying the femme aesthetic yall are so set on making #if u guys wanna rb this i truly dont care #i just needed to scream #and this is one small thing #but the 2nd largest category of anon hate i have gotten since making this blog is str8 up homophobia from other “queer” folks #saying i cant be femme bc of how i present. calling me slurs (and using them as such) bc they cant understand femme as anything but that #my wife and i have our users in our personal discord server set as 2 different things of anon hate ive gotten #i have had OTHER FEMMES tell me i am not femme. femmes who Know im femme who still call me butch. femmes who ive corrected and been blocked #-by bc of it. the number 1 largest demographic of queerfolk who have me blocked rn is TME femmes who embody pink also #and i dont think its a coincidence at all. (and i know this bc i go to try and follow these ppl bc they get rbed on my dash & i cant)#and ik their blogs arent deleted bc some of them don't block my wife (tall. white. butch) and it cant be politics cause her and i rb #a lot of the same political shit (fuck. i think she rbs More than i do even. this is genuinely mainly a nsft blog)#and usually i don't say anything but im having a bad day so i get to be angry about this and if anyone fucking tries me i will block u #idc if we've been mutuals 4ever. im judt so tired of feeling like i am not Enough as a femme bc i dont embody this shit #im sick of this lameass lip service to he/him gnc femmes etc when the thin white 50s housewife femme is still what is preferred and loved #im sick of this lamesss lip service when y'all feel entitled to theorizing on other femmes genders bc u cant conceptualize a femme who does #wanna be hypetfeminine. im sick of it. im sick of it. im sick of it.#celebrity bun

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delatoid · 2 months ago

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Yippee Nichi2k time again!!!

#delatoid #nichijou #nichi2k #yuuko aioi #mio naganohara #nano shinonome #mai minakami #it's supposed to be lightly fish-eyed but idk if I achieved that as well as I initially thought.....#funny thing during the most tedious part Green Day - Misery came on and like yeah that fits how it feels rn =)

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anime-grimmy-art · 20 days ago

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Gonna throw this out before I get too chicken to do so.

Yup, I was in the Hetalia fandom back in the day (who wasn't). And let's be honest, knowing me, are you actually suprised I gravitated towards the two blondes with their himbo x tsundere ship.

I know a lot of ppl give Hetalia flag for a lot of stuff, but for me it's always been just a funny comedy show about stereotypes, I do kinda fondly look back on it.

Anyways, just a lil redraw of a fun Detective x Superhero AU I made up a while ago.

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premamelody · 3 months ago

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like theyre like siblings part 2 for me

explaination or smth

#undertale #frisk #flowey #toriel #premaposting #siblings part 2 ksjadjakdnad i just realized how funny that sounds #aksjdakdjkasda #you can tell i kinda burnt out later #it is 12 am #give me slack #i like to think flowey was adverse to the friendship #since yknow #deja vu isnt fun when its associated with a bad memory #but eventually was kinda chillin #oh yeah this point only frisk knows he's asriel thats it #imagine your adopted child pulls up with someone who you dont recognize as their biological son #but no one tells you #i like to think that flowey overtime would kinda care about frisk more #but also be like #100000 ft wall bc this is all feels too familiar for good but more freshly bad reasons i dont like that #im sorry if this explaination barely makes sense #im kinda trynna rush this rn #but uh #click linked post for slightly more clear explaination idkdsnadkjajanska #utpyrt

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mourn-and-watch · 11 months ago

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no way my bestie just made me the best bday gift ever. that's my little fucked up the great old one warlock and she's never been more gorgeous

#your most normal ex sshamath citizen with the most normal lurking patron and a tadpole in her head yeah that's her! but most importantly #have you ever seen a painting that belongs to an art gallery and then realized it's the one with your oc. that's exactly how i feel rn #oc: yibern #also known as yuri tax evader among my friends. i just can't help but mention it #bg3

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forgettable-au · 2 months ago

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hallo!!! i've been trying to find new undertale comics to read and i still haven't found any (that i haven't already read) that come even close to yours in how interesting they are...;w;

do you have any comics that you like reading? thank you!

OHHH SURE !! I can rec some comics!

Okay!!! SO!!

I'm gonna mention A LOT SO...here's a read more...

Handplates is still very good, a classic! It's finished!

Unexpected Guest is also super great! Great characterization <33 big inspo! Still going!

I also recommend checking some of the stuff by linssins, I love their work...so, Play Back Tale! So many people know the AU but haven't read the comic?? So! Check it out if you haven't!

That comic is the one that made me discover the Papyrus is Gaster theory <3! CHANGED THE COURSE OF MY LIFE NOW I'M CRAZY ABOUT PAPYRUS IS GASTER

Another linssins comic! I Know That I Know Nothing! PLEASE CHECK THIS ONE OUT, IT'S NOT FINISHED AND I DON'T KNOW IF IT EVER WILL BE FINISHED BUT

And it was sooo good, I was SO heartbroken seeing that it was never finished,, so after months of going crazy I made my own Papyrus is Gaster AU hehe

For anyone interested in different takes of Papyrus was Gaster, there's also this comic: Ask The Science Squad, it's also not finished, but it IS Papyrus was Gaster!! A VERY different take from mine, and that's super fun!

Going back to more comics I like!!!!

I LOOOVE Skelechara! Such a cute comic, and it's Chara and Papyrus focused! My favorite characters!!! Idk if it was finished?

I also really like Swapout! Underswap and Undertale crossover comic! I really like that concept!

I love Growth Spurt! Great characterization! I love how this comic handles Asriel, I don't like it when AU's/comics make him little small innocent Asriel again... idk it feels like it erases flowey... In this comic Asriel deals with some of that stuff and retains some of that Flowey attitude lol but he's getting better!!

I started reading Gaster's Return the other day? This one JUST STARTED but I like it so far! If you want to check that one out :0

Some other very popular utdr comics rn:

Twin Runes

Doctor Megalo

Gaster's Great Escape

#answered ask #I love finding comics #but I'm also usually....very picky with them....#yeah....#I LIKE THESE #I FEEL LIKE I FORGOT SOME REALLY IMPORTANT ONES BUT I CAN'T REMEMBER RN #if I do I'll let u all know!#I hope I placed all the links in the right place wkshwk

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tagarilaghost · 3 months ago

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