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I’ve really been itching to work on this Pokémon video/animation but I don’t wanna have to record the audio so here’s something to scratch that itch a bit (and test out the models) before I have to subject myself to My Voice™

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oh my god tumblr how long does it take to process an 8 second video are you stupid

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The spread of the term is also cnidariancore actually

This render taking so long whilst my mistake is out in the open for everyone to gawk at makes me feel so cnidariancore rn

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This render taking so long whilst my mistake is out in the open for everyone to gawk at makes me feel so cnidariancore rn

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TIL you can't put videos in reblogs ? ?? so pretend I'm reblogging this post

I figured it out I just need to double down and edit every episode like this from now on and hope she doesn't get into the CITY fandom :D

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Fuuuuuck during the lead up to the CITY anime I successfully gaslit Littlest Sister of Mine into thinking Nagumo and Wako were an older Yuuko and Mio respectively What am I gonna do now that I can't hide the audio and subtitles from the anime!!!!

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I rember I never put my name on this since it was just a really quick shitpost that I didn't think would go far (you can even see some things I forgot to draw in lole) but it appears I was wrong and that will forever haunt me. ..... .. ... .....

This has been pinging inside my head for a couple days now GET IT OUT

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I'm so bad at this tumblr thing

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sorgy. .. ..

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Sorry I haven't really been posting much of substance for a while now. I've been slowly losing the joy of drawing and the fact that I've been progressively getting a lot less eyes on my art recently (outside of tumblr at least, tumblr's always been pretty consistent for better or for worse) isn't mixing well with that and I've been really demotivated to do much of anything as a result

The worst part of it is that it's affecting my drive to finish my big projects. Getting medicated was great because I had the energy to work on bigger stuff finally (getting animations done finally and even getting work done on games. it's a lot lot later than I wish I was able to work on em, but I got there eventually at least) but that's all for nothing if I don't have a base motivation to work on them. The main thinking is "if people don't care anymore about my singular pieces, there's no way I'm gonna be able to lure them into looking at my bigger passion products". At this point I'm pretty certain my sudden growth was just a fluke and people are basically already getting tired of me. Another thing that's kinda "confirming" that in my head is that my stream viewer numbers dropped hard. I was getting two-digit viewer numbers when I started back up again but now I'm basically getting two viewers. I'm sure most of it is just that the novelty of me streaming wore of for the small section of my existing audience that were willing to watch them, but it's also probably that they found me boring or annoying and understandably didn't want to watch anymore. Was probably going to happen anyway, but it does not mix well with my current mindset :L I know the usual "it's just internet points who cares/you're worrying over nothing" but I really hate getting that argument since I basically just end up being the bad guy just for wanting validation for something I don't get much validation for irl. And I'm not really just talking about "oh wow delatoid I like your art :*)" but that basically I'm never gonna get anything out of this other than "I am having fun for a bit". I seem to be chronically unemployable already, and since the state of the animation job market is basically in the gutter at the moment, I've basically got no option to make a living. Ended up changing majors too, so it just feels like I wasted all that time and am starting from scratch (even though there are still classes I took that counts for Biology lol). It's fine for now, I suppose, but every year I continue living with my parents is a year of independence and having an actual adult life forever lost. It's not like this place is great for my mental health either, especially since my parents don't really believe in all that :*) This probably doesn't even matter to most people either and that's the worst part. A good like 90% of my anxiety/depression issues are time/age related and my circumstances are just perpetuating those. And it's easier to go "I will not think about this and just relax :)" than to actually be able to do that. Really sucks that life is so extremely short and most of that time I'm in mental anguish about how short it is meanwhile my brain drains all the energy from me stopping me from being able to make use of limited time. Perhaps I should switch from getting into veterinary stuff and switch to Human Medicine so I can cure aging and perhaps make Football 17776 real....... Last thing, I promise. It's probably the most boring thing here anyway it's the typical "I want irl connections!! I want friends I can be with regularly!! I want a partner again!!" I would be fine without these if I was doing well on the art front. You know, I'd be fine sacrificing social life if I had a stable career(?)(not explicitly "job/work" career hopefully it makes sense) but I have neither and don't see it changing in the future (<--- stupid shut-in)

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I had a dream Annaka and Sekiguchi were girlfriends and Sekiguchi was a huge Tomodachihead and it went something like this

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I don't usually announce stuff like this here, but in case anyone's interested my stream archives channel is now up if anyone wants to watch the suckiest VODs evar :D

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I had a dream where I was in a chess tournament and to make a move I had to psychicly send images of the Joker saying my move to the opponent and there would be a stock gunshot and maniacal laughing sound effect that would play when I did it like this:

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Commission for @mewochy of Irene Nichijou Happy Irene day! :]

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Commission for @leejieunlcb.bsky.social of Mio Honda

Thanks for your support! :]

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