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Having your main anxiety response be Avoidance is crazy cause you'll think you're chillin and then one day you're like waitttt I've been paralyzed with fear this whole time. Damn

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*giant wind gust outside*

Me: “Don’t say it.”

My Brain:

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Yeah now we've entered the back pain stage

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ppl rly liked the damian + batcow doodle so I coloured it in!!!

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When you’re in the middle of a fic and realise you’ve missed a very critical tag

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I will be like "I'm fine" and then another fucking event will occur

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what doesn't kill you makes you weird at intimacy

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sevdaliza !!

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You'll have a sandwich

By Rémich

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You'll have a sandwich

By Rémich

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Quick vent or idk just thoughts into words kind of thing but I literally hate my own mind, it’s like an endless cycle of being weirdly logical and level headed yet emotionally non existent, not feeling anything at all just existing, and then being too much but not enough all at the same time and being unable to control what I’m thinking and feeling all whilst trying to constantly rationalise and pull apart every fucked up thing I feel or think. Having to try and make it make sense all the while I’m pulling apart every move I make and interaction I have and hating myself for the way I acted or spoke or did anything and then wanting to apologise because I’m realising I’m literally the worst person and an even worse friend but then not being able to apologise because I haven’t directly done anything wrong to them but it’s just me, like I want to apologies for being me and having them think that the way I act and treat them is normal as if they don’t deserve better, yet if I try to apologise or say anything like that it just seems like I’m fishing for comfort or ‘no you’re such a good friend/person’ but I’m fucking not and so it’s like I want to apologies but I can’t without making it all about me which is the complete opposite of what I want to do and fuck I’m just so tired of it all, of having to think and rationalise my own thoughts and be constantly on guard in my own mind so I don’t say or do anything fucked up, I just want it all to stop.

The grammar and sentence structure of this is so fucked but I literally cannot be fucked trying to make anything else make sense.

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People from other cities: How can Batman keep training these child soldiers for his crusade? It's child cruelty and he should be investigated!

Gothamites: The children yearn to fight crime. At least the birds have adult supervision, cause I sure as hell didn't.

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women in STEM (shitty posture, tired all the time, eyebags, miserable)

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just once in my life i wanna get up in the morning without going through the full seven stages of grief first

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he's so me coded

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friendships end. relationships end. fictional man whos doing even worse than you is forever

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when did i get so pitiful, just a goddamn corpse in a centerfold you've got my back against the wall -- and now i can't ever get comfortable