#xander x cordy

[90s-kid-sad-adult]

Cordelia never took her foot off Xander's neck

[putinskremlinqueen4palestine64]

I wish that Tumblr had less of Cangel and more of Bangel and Xandelia. Angel had to become like Xander in order to match Cordelia while Cordelia had to become a dumb version of Buffy to be compatible with Xander-like Angel. Cordelia was her smarter self with Xander and had better chemistry with him. While Cordy was in a coma, Angel went to Sunnydale to kiss Buffy and spent most of the other part of that coma fighting with Spike over Buffy. To put the cherry on top, Buffy never kissed Angel's son while having amnesia and let her body be in a love triangle between father and son.

[thepunkmuppet]

any coffy fic recs?

I’m very weird about them, I LOVE the ship and think that it was canon in the sense that they had a weird thing for each other, but don’t think it should’ve been canon in the sense of them getting together, if that makes sense. BUT that doesn’t mean I don’t love reading about hypotheticals! so yeah, any coffy fic recs would be gladly appreciated. preferably set in the canon universe (which includes the birthdayverse or wishverse) but if it’s a really really good AU then I’ll still give it a shot :)

[oncemorewithqueering]

Does anyone want to hear my Buffy and Angel sexuality headcanons?

No?

Well here we go:

*DISCLAIMER: THESE ARE MY OPINIONS, NOT FACT. IF YOU DISAGREE, PLEASE DO NOT HATE AND FEEL FREE TO TELL ME OTHERWISE POLITELY*

Buffy: Have you seen the way Buffy looks at Faith? She’s bi imo with a strong preference for guys. Also, I loved the Slayer coming out scene to Joyce so much ahh

Willow: I have always been super conflicted about Willow bc, like, yes it’s bi erasure but also she says that she’s a ‘lesbian now’

So I think she’s abrosexual but constantly likes girls

Xander: Ik Xander screams hetero energy BUT hear me out

I think Xander’s little freak out about Willow came from a place of Bi curiosity

Giles: I have nothing to say but Ethan Rayne

Faith: Faith, my girlfriend for all time, could be bi or pan. I think she’s pan bc she just seems like gender doesn’t matter

go get that Buffy girl

Angel, Spike, Drusilla and Darla: My little headcanon is that all vampires are bi/pan. I think Dru and Darla show less preference for men, so I thought they might be pan

Cordelia: Cordy is that straight friend who takes you to pride and twenty (20) seconds later she’s chatting up like 15 men and women, but she’s still straight

Anya: Same logic as the vamps. She’s a demon. She used to be immortal. She probably likes everyone.

Wesley: *cough cough* CHARLES GUNN. I see you Wesley.

Fred: Fred, my gf who will never love me. I just don’t get a queer vibe.

Lorne: They did Lorne SO DIRTY! He is totally gay. The musicals. The pseudo-coming out storyline. Wizard of Oz. I don’t mean to feed into stereotyped but…

Andrew: Yes I put him before Gunn. Yes, I did forget him in the Buffy section.

Andrew and his Warren crush are proof enough to me tbh.

Gunn: Gunn my sweet baby boy please go kiss Wesley ok bye

Ethan Rayne: He loves Giles. Need I say more

Oz: Oz gives me bicurious energy. Not fully bi, not fully straight. Just drifting around. Love him

Dawn: Dawn is just a lovely little straight daughter of two gays. I love that for her

Tara: Tara is last, but not least, because this is canon! Go her! Also rip

ok thank you for listening bye bye love you x

[sunnydaleherald]

The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter, Thursday, June 13

XANDER: Laugh now, missy, they assigned you to the booth for law enforcement professionals. BUFFY: (stunned) As in police? XANDER: As in polyester, doughnuts and brutality.

~~What's My Line~~

[Drabbles & Short Fiction]

Annoyance by Enigmatist (Spike, Angel, Joyce, Buffy, Not Rated)

kiss that’s black as sea by evesock (Buffy/Willow, E)

Up all Night, I Won't Quit by Hecate (Faith/Katherine Pierce, TVD xover, M)

Love (Spaith; Spike/Faith) by Datherine100 (Spike/Faith, T)

VD/Buffy: Last Battle by Datherine100 (Buffy, Faith, TVD xover, T)

OUAT/Angel: Love Will Conquer by Datherine100 (Cordelia/Hook, Once Upon a Time (TV) xover, T)

In Disarray and Dazed (Spike x Y/N) by itsalwaysteatimeinwonderland (Spike/reader, unrated)

Leaving Sunnydale by Rea (Buffy/Spike, G)

[Chaptered Fiction]

Overheard - Ch. 1-3 by silvain (Giles/Ethan, T)

The Adventures Of Cordelia Chase and Xander Lavelle Harris vol.1: She's Back - Ch. 1-8 by Datherine100 (Xander/Cordelia, T)

and multiple other works by Datherine100, a few directly linked below. all rated T, some are one shot collections. other pairings include: Buffy/Spike, Angelus/Darla, Angel/Darla, Buffy/Angel

Xanya (Xander/Anya) - Ch. 1-3 by Datherine100 (Xander/Anya, T)

Coyle (Cordy/Doyle) - Ch. 1-3 by Datherine100 (Cordelia/Doyle, T)

Biley (Buffy/Riley) - Ch. 1-4 by Datherine100 (Buffy, Riley, T)

The Devil's Trill - Ch. 9 by Murray (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Deliverance From Destiny - Ch. 31 by Ragini (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Reclaimed - Ch. 6 by Holly (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Waiting for You - Ch. 8 by honeygirl51885 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

To All We Guard - Ch. 23 by simmony (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Out of Time: 1942 - Ch. 57 by Jonayla (Buffy, HP xover, FR18)

Ship of The Line – Effect 31 - Ch. 14 by KnifeHand (Xander, Mass Effect and Star Trek xover, FR18)

You Drive Me Out Of My Mind - Ch. 1-35 by Geliot99 (Buffy/Spike, R) COMPLETE!

Bruises - Ch. 20 by hulettwyo (Buffy/Spike, Adult Only)

Bruises - Ch. 19 by hulettwyo (Buffy/Spike, Adult Only)

Waiting for You - Ch. 8 by honeygirl51885 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Dear Journal - Ch. 6 by Desicat (Buffy/Spike, PG-13) COMPLETE!

[Images, Audio & Video]

Artwork: Does it burn? - Ch. 1 by Dirtyaim (Spike, NSFW, rated PG-13)

Artwork: Spuffified: A Collection - Ch. 5 by satinsafe (Buffy/Spike, NSFW, rated PG-13)

Textpost: spuffy + textposts (4/?) by spikespeaches (Buffy/Spike, worksafe)

Gifset: buffy + angel's claddagh ring by ptieuca (Buffy/Angel, worksafe)

Gifset: buffy + wearing angel's jacket by ptieuca (Buffy/Angel, Giles, Willow, worksafe)

Artwork: “You ask me to dance and you just stand there?” by l0veisntbrains (Buffy/Spike, worksafe)

Gifset: 6x15 || 7x05 by clarkgriffon (Buffy, Anya, Spike, Xander, worksafe)

Gifset: Willow Rosenberg + Outfits (Season 4) by clarkgriffon (Willow, worksafe)

Gifset: Ranking Buffy Summers' hair evolution (as voted by my followers) 6/11 by buffysummers (Buffy, worksafe)

Artwork: ☀️☀️ ATS 219. Belonging ☀️☀️ by tmcarlee (Cordelia, worksafe)

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[Recs & In Search Of]

l0veisntbrains recs So It Goes by scratchmeout [bonus Spuffy art]

ISO: Pineappleskies1991 seeks Rainy Episodes [from BTVS or ATS]

ISO: thisguy49 seeks shooting location - Does anyone know what school was used to film Angel episode Happy Anniversary

[Fandom Discussions]

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Anya/Xander vs Other Age Gap Relationships by lightningrain

... Kendra leaves the next day. Where did she stay that night? by finalgirl1984

Cordelia deserved to be back in season 7 for the finale or at least have a comeback... by cordelia-slay

[poll on non-canon crack Buffyverse ships - see commentary in tags] by cangeltwillowinvestigations

Oz in Buffy is often praised for his emotional maturity and calm demeanor... by air--so--sweet

Show me a HERO & I'll write you a T R A G E D Y [Xander rp] by theanimulus

Was Riley Suicidal? by nightshade

I refuse to accept Kennedy as Willow's end game pairing / one true love. updated by garfan

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Kendra’s existence is confusing. by Complex_Bit_4921

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[theajaheira]

For ship ask: xillow, xander x riley, anya x xander, fuffy, faith x xander and xandelia

(Unsurprisingly, bit of a running theme here)

oh HELL yeah !!!!

xillow: i am always chewing on the excellence of xander and willow as a platonic love story so i tend to veer in that direction myself, BUT i think it's unfairly hated in fandom.

xanya: i want to take them apart like little bugs. something about this very real love trapped within this mutual desire to Be Normal (xander's masculinity complex, anya's anxieties about humanity) is such a compelling narrative! also xander really did love anya and that's that on that. it's just that his version of loving someone is either leaving them or convincing them to leave him, because he does not think he deserves his partners.

faith x xander: .....soured for me by the fact that faith did straight up sexually assault xander. i don't think i can see it.

xandelia: hands down my favorite ship from the high school years after calendiles. i could watch those freaks be horrible to each other forever. i could write a dissertation on why they are a true, tragic love story and why their breakup was inevitable from the very moment they got together. every day of my life i think about that moment in killed by death where he's sitting outside of buffy's hospital room and she sits down next to him with a bag of donuts and they just sorta smile at each other, because i truly think that that isolated scene is such an excellent metaphor for one of cordelia's primary anxieties -- he is waiting to be in a room that he will never be in, and she is meeting him outside of it but knowing that he wants to be inside. wondering if he would leave her outside, given the chance. they are in love. i will bite anyone who says that xander mistreated poor little uwu baby cordy because that girl literally threw his abusive home life in his face post-breakup and bullied him for a DECADE. they're that reddit post where it's like "you're both terrible but it's clearly working for you. just don't involve anyone else in what you've got going on"

[juanabaloo]

Hello~~ for the violence ask game : 2, 12 & 23 (for btvs !)

2. a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom

(first off any Fuffy fan MUST read the answer to this from Lead Fuffy Correspondent explosionshark)

My faves are Faith and Buffy. And I wholeheartedly agree with explosionshark's rally cry of "Switch Fuffy Rights!" (actually I agree with everything in her #2 answer and again you should read it)

Like I'm legit considering making a T-shirt or hoodie that simply says "SWITCH FUFFY RIGHTS!" ROFL

--- more below ---

Related... Faith calling safe words "safety words" strikes me as someone who only has a vague grasp on how they are used. (Angel may also say "safety word" which I'm conveniently ignoring right now.) She gets the rough idea (no pun intended) but has never been in a situation where she or her partner are using them. (violence level: none)

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

(prev answer here with other thoughts)

KENNEDY and RONA deserve more love. I like both of them and wish there were fewer Potentials and more focus on the two of them. I definitely related to Kennedy more than Tara or Willow, and some of that is because she's brown! They both had attitude, which is super realistic. Kennedy admits she's a brat. Rona starts out really negative about being a Slayer, but by the end she uses the scythe to kill some baddies. Was she wrong for saying "ding dong the witch is dead?" Of course! But I still like her. (violence level: medium to high?)

23. ship you've unwillingly come around to

Oooh this is tough. I feel like most of the main BTVS canon ships I already like or am not bothered by. Bangel does have some chemistry in S1 and S2. Spuffy brings it in later seasons. I'm feral for Fuffy. I hate Briley (Buffy x Riley) and still do. I like Tillow and Calendiles and Willow x Kennedy (? Wennedy? Killow?? no idea what the smush name is). I think I'll pick Cordy x Xander, but more in a "on later rewatches I like this pairing more than I initially did" way.

For fanon only ships I'm a fan of Buffy x Anya. Less "unwillingly come around to" and more "never really considered it before". (violence level: mild)

[oveliagirlhaditright]

One thing that annoys me about some of the ships in the Buffyverse, is how a character will start dating someone who bad mouths a previous love interest of theirs that they still clearly care about.

And I just... maybe this is just because I don't like anyone putting other people down, ever. (And, for instance, I remember one time when one of my RL friends was insulting another one of my friends that she didn't like, and I kindly asked her to stop.)

But for me personally, this would not endear me to the new love interest and make me want to date them. The opposite, actually.

But we see this with Angel and Cordelia. Eventually, these two form a romance, but Cordy had often put Buffy down in the past.

(Also, I feel like Cordelia and Wesley mocking Buffy and Angel's romance--when the two were meeting each other right after she'd come back from the dead!--was not good, even though they were just teasing and it was all supposed to be in good fun.)

Likewise, Bangel somewhat starts up again in the comics after Cordelia's death. And Buffy wasn't really around when the Angel/Cordelia stuff was happening to be saying hurtful stuff about Cordelia really at all, or around Angel. But there is a moment in the comics where Buffy dreams that they're all back in their high school years and that Cordelia is bullying Willow. And to cheer Willow up she tells her something along the lines of, "Some day you might be a super powerful witch and she might be dead." :( And I feel like if Angel ever found out about that, he wouldn't be happy, of course. (To be honest, I think Buffy in the comics is pretty OOC, and this is an example of it. Though that really isn't the point here.)

We have Spike putting down both Riley and Angel when he's wanting to get with Buffy.

And also Angel saying bad things about Spike when he clearly still wants to be with Buffy when she's later with Spike.

Sheesh.

In a similar vein, friends of the Scoobies putting down one of the Scoobies' love interests also happens quite a bit.

Xander cutting down Angel because of his jealousy. And after the Angelus stuff, no one is really comfortable around him. Which is definitely justified. Though one might argue that at some point it's like, "Why are you willing to forgive X character for this, but not Y character for that?" And Giles letting Fred die because of what Angel did is just... too much. And in the books, some of the way Giles treats Angel after the Angelus stuff--even if you do get it's because of the trauma there--is quite petty.

Spike... to be honest, I feel like Buffy and the Scoobies are justified in how they treat Spike, for the most part, when he doesn't have a soul. And I think after he gains one, pretty soon they accept him and start treating him pretty well (like in the comics) Maybe the closest I can think of of when they maybe went too far, is when he wanted to give Buffy flowers after Joyce's death.

Cordelia with Xander: this one is really quite sad. Both Buffy and Willow really didn't like Xander dating Cordy (even while somewhat becoming friends with her during it? So it kind of feels a little bit back-stabby, maybe. Though, to be fair, I think maybe some of this dies down as they do spend time with Cordelia and befriend her more and more). And I do get it: Cordy bullied Willow for years and Cordy's also been mean to Buffy for most of her time in Sunnydale thus far. But still. What's even worse is that Xander even seems to agree with them, and even badmouths Cordelia some himself, while dating her!

Anya. Poor Anya. Buffy and Willow really don't like her at first and say some mean things, really just because she doesn't understand what it's like to be human again, which isn't her fault (people have even argued this about Xander. And if you think that, that's fair. But I think it's moreso that Xander is trying to help her understand the human world that she doesn't quite get. I really don't think he's talking down to her. But if you do, I definitely understand your side). Eventually, however, I do think they do become friends... but when Xander leaves Anya at the altar, Buffy and Willow mainly take Xander's side. And this must have really hurt Anya, since Buffy and Willow were her bridesmaids. She then even confronts them about is, saying in an angry and hurt tone that she gets it: Xander is their friend and she isn't. But in season seven, we see how this isn't true, when Buffy informs her that it's really dangerous and she doesn't want her friends out there right now. But then- but then we get a scene where Anya tells Buffy she's not her friend. And why? Ugh, some of the S7 writing with Anya and in general. I find that hard to believe, when earlier she was hurt that Buffy and Willow didn't think of her as her friend: it clearly seems to indicate she saw them as friends and wanted to be their friend. Is it that she maybe didn't believe Buffy when she said she was her friend? Does she think that bridge has burned now? What?

When Oz starts dating Willow, Xander at first doesn't like it... because Oz is in a band and stuff, and he thinks he's too dangerous or something. LOL This is added to when Oz becomes a werewolf. This is largely because Willow and Xander have been friends for years and he's so protective of her. And also because Xander is starting to get romantic feelings for Willow at this point and is somewhat jealous. But he does get over this quickly and the two become friends.

...These are all the ones I can think of off the top of my head. But I wouldn't be surprised if I'm forgetting something.

[purpleplaid17]

Jess Watches Final Results - Day 92 & Day 93 [x]

Monarch: LOM wins with 9 of 19 votes!

Y’all ever want a mean Dominique Tipper to just... boss u around a little bit. Especially in those stylish suits. I was definitely not paying attention to the story-important dialogue during those scenes. And Cate again, with May, right in front of Kentaro. It makes me laugh that it just keeps happening and seeing his little upset face in the background lolol. Although Cate seems the most emotionally expressive, May does seem to have caught feelings too. Also, how does a 90-something year old man have more efficient mobilization with limited resources compared to a global organization with very deep pockets?? Also also, I did love Columbo Tim rising out of the sand like a Titan.

I voted for BTVS because So in Cordy's wished-for universe: Buffy is a bit butcher, Willow is lot kinkier, Giles has hot-guy stubble, and yet both Angel and Xander are still useless and pathetic. How was this not her bi awakening?? And this as a reaction to Buffy genuinely wanting to know if she was okay, and even admitting to initially only liking Xander because of Buffy. If Willow and Xander can be friends who touch lips then it's only fair Buffy and Cordy can be too.

[90s-kid-sad-adult]

a lower place

[vintage-bentley]

Will's 'gay now' line negatively affects BTVS's past arcs. Will's pain following the love spell that made her go yandare for Xander because unlike all the other women affected she was genuinely in love with him becomes meaningless. And the pain JW put Cordy through (having her discover X&W together and end up impaled through the stomach because of this) need never have happened. - ash

I hadn’t thought of that, but you’re right! I only really thought of it in terms of how past episodes had shown she is very much not gay (like with the love spell, they could’ve made it so she was unaffected instead, which could’ve helped her figure out she was gay). But not how it impacted the plot.

Unfortunately I think the pain Cordy was put through is just a Joss thing and would’ve happened anyway, just look at how he treated her in Angel. She deserved so much better 😭

[putinskremlinqueen4palestine64]

Xander&Cordelia in Bewitched, Bothered, and Bewildered

“Give me a nail.” “If we die in here, I’m gonna kick your ass. I mean it.” “None of this would’ve happened if you hadn’t broken up with me. But no, you’re so desperate to be popular.” “Me? I’m not the one who embraced the black arts just to get the girls to like me. Well, congratulations! It worked!” “Would’ve worked fine, except your hide’s so thick, not even magic can penetrate it.” “You mean the spell was for me?”

[prose-for-hire]

Smile, though your heart is breaking

Pairing: Bi!Cordelia Chase x fem!reader; Xander Harris x Cordelia Chase; Xander x fem!reader (familial/platonic)

Request: hi! i already requested some cordy x reader but i have another idea, if i may! could i have a fic where reader is Xander’s sister, and she walks in on them kissing. reader has a crush on cordy and xander knows this. cue angst and sibling fights 😭!

Requested by: Anon

You had a crush on Cordy. You had played it off as silly and fleeting at first, but as you became closer friends it grew.

She was the reason you realised that you liked women. Discovered and began to love yourself and your sexuality. She was such a gift to you and yet she never knew.

A while after, you told Xander about your sexuality. He was shocked, struggling to comprehend it but he held you in a hug. Showing you that you would always be his sister, even if he was still coming to terms with your news himself.

Eventually you came out to the others. Everyone except Cordy. You weren’t prepared for her not to want to be your friend anymore. You were scared of the rejection. You adored her so much, you were happy with platonic so long as you could be close with her.

The others supported you and those that were unsure at first slowly got more used to it. They loved you, you were such a good friend, a big part of your close-knit little group. Things were going well.

Months later, as you sat on the bleachers with Xander and your friends watching a school football game, he turned to look at you and saw you staring at the cheerleaders.

“Stare much?” He muttered.

“I was trying to, um, pick up the routine” You offered, smiling at him.

“Oh yeah, ‘course. You’re so gay, y/n” He joked, showing how far he had come. How much more comfortable he was with you. He was the only one allowed to tease you though, if anyone else did he got really annoyed.

“Shut up, Xander” You shoved his shoulder and he mock-surrendered. The others all knew now and smiled along with your sibling squabbling.

When the game was over, you and your friends all walked back together. Buffy, your brother, Willow and Cordelia walked with you towards your respective homes. You were in good spirits, it was a rare night where there were no demons or anything. You could just relax and have a nice time.

You lit up when Cordy specifically moved through your little crowd to walk beside you. You giggled together and she gave you one of her pom-poms to hold as you walked almost completely in-step. She spoke to you a lot nicer than she did with anyone else, you were probably the one Scooby that could claim that you were genuinely good friends with her.

She offered you a lift back home in her car that she had parked a few blocks away because so many people were parked in the usual lot. You declined, starting to get nervous that she would find you really lame. Not to mention Xander would have to come too and they just got into a insult-slinging contest when they were both together.

Cordy looked a little disappointed but shrugged and waved goodbye before getting into her car. You regretted it instantly. You could have given Xander the code and told him to walk, but he probably would have insisted to come in the car just to annoy you.

You watched her drive away before you realised that she had left you with the pompom and you smiled down at it. It was like she trusted you. You had a piece of her to take home with you. You smiled the entire way home and Xander thought you had gone mad. Later in the evening, you decided to admit that you were crushing on her. Really hard.

“I think I’m in love” You whispered to Xander, in case anyone else was in the house and could hear through walls. You were both brushing your teeth, a little tradition you had left over from when you were growing up. You used to do everything together.

“Oh yeah? Poor girl” Your brother teased. You rolled your eyes and spat into the basin.

“I’m being serious! I wanna hold her hand and touch her face and-” you started to stare dreamily off into the distance before he interrupted.

“Please say somethin’ normal like have sex with her”

“I want to cherish her, hold her! Tell her that I love her” You frowned at him for being crude. You wanted a love story with her, she was so special to you.

“Who is she then?” Xander asked while the toothbrush was still in his mouth.

“Cordelia” You smiled.

“Not the devil in designer boots!” he was genuinely surprised at this.

“She’s not like that!” You insisted and he gave you a look before you left him to go to bed. He continued to tease you mercilessly about it for the rest of the week. You wished you hadn’t said anything, Xander had never really been a fan of Cordelia.

Although, what you didn’t realise was that somewhere after you had revealed your crush on Cordy, Xander and her had started to steamily make-out in secret. Whenever they got the chance. Today, it had been in a deserted art classroom.

You had been sent there to steal some paper for Giles for the library. There was an inter-department free-for-all on paper and Giles was currently losing the battle.

You opened the door, your intuition giving you a bad feeling. But you walked in anyway. Just in time to see your brother sticking his tongue down Cordy’s throat.

“Oh” Was all you said before you backed away, slammed the door and ran. Tears blurred your eyes as you sprinted, letting your legs take you as far away as you could.

The pair sprung apart immediately. They walked around everywhere looking for you. They squabbled and almost bit each other’s heads off over it. Neither of them had ever wanted you to see that, for very different reasons.

Eventually, when they had stopped an entire football practice by shouting at each other in the middle of the pitch they decided it was better if they split up and looked for you.

Xander found you in the late afternoon, sobbing into a book. You had made your way back to the library after hiding in the bathrooms for most of the day.

You had decided to cry in a change of scenery. Giles had insisted you really didn’t need to be there researching but you said you wanted to help. Or, he thought that’s what you said he couldn’t really hear over all the crying noises.

You were heartbroken. Twice over.

Giles had tried twice to take the book you were leaning over, he wanted to save the pages from water damage. But you had insisted on helping and he didn’t want to make you cry harder. He had retired in his little adjoining office. Crying made him uncomfortable and he was fond of you which made him feel worse for you.

“Y/n! God, I’ve been looking everywhere!” Xander said. As if he didn’t have a care in the world. You stood up, closing the book shut with a soggy snap. Giles took his glasses off and cleaned them, he wanted to come and give Xander a piece of his own mind once you had explained what had happened. However, as you started to speak, he knew you could handle your brother.

“You knew how I feel about her! You knew and you still-” You tried to calm yourself down, but your next sentence came out angrier and even louder, “You don’t even like each other for fuck sake!” Your voice echoed around the empty library.

“Woah, hey, y/n calm down” he said, waving both of his hands out to try and get you to be quieter. He didn’t want people to know why you were shouting. He was embarrassed. It made you feel even worse.

“Are you kidding?! Calm-?” Your temper was rising and you didn’t know if your relationship with him was going to survive this, “You know how much I like her and you just let me talk about it over and over like some idiot! All the while you were kissing her behind my back!”

“Y/n, I’m sorry, okay? I didn’t even know it was that serious” Xander shrugged, but he did feel guilty. But he would have done it again, he knew it. Kissing her was fun.

He did become more guilty, especially so when Cordy had explained to him that she was bisexual and he had neglected to tell you. Which, on one hand of course it wasn’t his place but on the other he had done this for entirely selfish reasons.

“You liar! You’re so selfish Xander Harris! I hate you!” You screamed, shoving him away when he tried to rest a hand on your elbow.

You felt so betrayed. You were disappointed in him. He was supposed to be family. Your own brother. He supported you but only so long as it benefitted him. He loved you, but he still whether intentionally or not blocked you from even trying to date the woman you were interested in.

You stormed off, barely missing that you passed Cordelia in the corridor. She had heard everything. But you had tears in your eyes, blurring your vision. You needed to get out of there.

You stayed at Willow’s. You told her everything and Willow explained what she had heard from Xander. Your best friend was completely on your side.

She told you a secret that night, one you kept hidden from the others until she was ready. You bonded over the things you had been hiding. But, you weren’t so sure your affection for Cordelia was hidden anymore.

This was confirmed to you when Willow came up to her room and told you that you had a visitor. You frowned, not sure who it could be. You skipped down the stairs, having put yourself in a better mood with your best friend by your side.

But you stopped as you descended, and you swear your heart did too when you saw her standing there. The light hit her face perfectly, she was glowing. As always.

She smiled, shakily. The corners of her eyes crinkled in that way you adored when she was truly happy. But, why would she be happy to see you? After everything she had found out.

“Cor, what are you doing here?”

“I just wanted to see how you were doing. Is that a crime?” She said a little more half-hearted than she usually would. She seemed almost nervous to face you.

“No, except you did once say that if you were ever seen dead in whatever frumpy bungalow that willow lived in-”

“I know what I said, I didn’t really mean it. They’re just words” She shrugged, interrupting you. She forgot half of the mean things she said sometimes.

“Okay…” You said a little awkwardly. You knew that she knew. So, you thought it better to just let her speak. It was one of her favourite hobbies, after all. A hobby you usually loved, she turned insults into an art form.

“I’m here because-” She took a deep breath, this was so important to her she couldn’t get it wrong, “Because I like women. Uh, but mostly I like you.”

“You… like me? Is this some kind of sick joke?”

“No! I only- I know this makes me look so totally heinous but I only got close with Xander because I wanted to get close to… you”

“You got bored of one sibling and wanted to hop onto the next? I don’t think that I’m comfortable with that” You explained truthfully. It was weird to you.

It was all you had ever wanted her to say, but it was still just so alien to you at the moment. As if you were dreaming. You were ten seconds away from pinching yourself because it felt too good to be true.

“I just wanted you to know, I had nothing to lose anymore. I broke it off with him as soon as I heard what you said” She explained, referring to hearing the way you felt.

“I-I need some time” you explained, your thoughts still spinning so fast around your head that you were starting to get dizzy.

“Anything, for you” Cordy nodded her voice barely above a whisper as she opened her arms to you. You almost fainted in shock, bowling her over as you embraced her. She wrapped her arms around you, inhaling happily.

She had wanted this for so long and you never even knew. She had stolen glances when you weren’t looking. Watched you from afar and imagined detailed fantasies of being close to you. Perhaps even kissing you. She had even gotten way too close to your brother in an attempt to learn more about you. She had been lonely, it was her only explanation.

You moved from the close hug and she wasn’t able to stop herself from grinning. You wanted to trust her, but you weren’t there yet. You needed a change to sort through your own feelings.

She turned and left and you watched her go. Things weren’t great with your brother. Your friendship group was fractured. But as you watched her turn back and wave at you, you had something special starting.

It started small in the back of your mind, but it was slowly growing. Hope.

[sunnydaleherald]

The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter, Sunday, June 30

DAWN: Come on, Tara. I am so old enough to do research. BUFFY: You do research now? Want a cappuccino and a pack of cigarettes to go with it?

~~All the Way~~

[Drabbles & Short Fiction]

Lost Battles by veronyxk84 (Buffy, Dawn, PG-13)

sometimes, some times by belledamn (Buffy/Tara, T)

Pet by skargasm (Spike/Gunn, M)

But It Hurts? by Spikelover4ever (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Lost Battles by VeroNyxK84 (Buffy & Dawn, PG-13)

Pins and Needles by Geliot99 (Buffy/Spike, R)

Saving Spike by Lilacsandorangeblossoms (Buffy/Spike, PG-13)

Oh, Never Leave Me by VioletMoon (Buffy/Spike, PG-13)

[Chaptered Fiction]

Sticking Around - Chapter 1 by axolotl356 (Buffy/Faith, not rated)

Дон, Ch. 1-2 (COMPLETE!) by B_E_S (Buffy/Angel, Dawn, T, in Russian)

There's A Crack In Every Wall, Ch. 1 by bunniesarebad (Buffy/Spike, Explicit)

Exquisite Chaos Ch. 11 by MillennialCryBaby (Buffy/Spike, round robin rated NC-17)

Like A Hole In The Heart, Ch. 3 by Geliot99 (Buffy/Spike, R)

Incarnate, Ch. 9 by Sigyn (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Fixer Uppers, Ch. 8 by Melme1325 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

The Devil's Trill, Ch. 17 by Murray (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

The Degradation of Duality [Series Part 2], Ch. 15-16 by Ragini (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Arrive Before the Birds, Ch. 2 by EverythingElse (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Two's Company, Ch. 1 by Serenitey (Buffy/Spike, R)

Beer Bad, Spike Good, Ch. 1 by Maxine Eden, ClowniestLivEver (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Buffy's Pack, Ch. 17 by redjacobson (Xander/Buffy/multiple, Joyce/Jenny, Giles/OC, FR21)

Aim High, Ch. 5 by Buffyworldbuilder (Stargate crossover, Buffy, FR13)

The Watcher, Ch. 15 by In Mortal (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Come Hell or High Water, Ch. 1 by Rea (Buffy/Spike, PG-13)

Over the Hills and Far Away, Ch. 1 by Rea (Buffy/Spike, PG-13)

I Do! Ch. 30 by Dusty (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

[Images, Audio & Video]

🎨 Banner Art #19 — May-June Overview [7 banners] by veronyxk84 (Buffy/Spike, probably worksafe)

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Spike vamp face sketches by blue-star-charmer-art (worksafe, some sketched blood)

Video: 4 min of buffy dialogue set to Bela Lugosi is Dead by koriand3r (Buffy, vampires)

Buffy x Faith screenshots captioned with song lyrics by whale-music (worksafe)

Chibi sticker designs by genericaces (Scoobies, worksafe)

Vid: This Is Me Trying by 1SnoWhiteQueen1 (Wesley)

Screencaps: Age-Appropriate Buffy as she would appear in each season by Tuxedo_Mark (worksafe)

[Reviews & Recaps]

The scene where Willow confronts Faith in Choices (the narrative expects you to be rather more unambiguously on Willow’s side) by coraniaid

[Recs & In Search Of]

AwolWooKiee is selling the game Buffy The Vampire Slayer: Sacrifice (Nintendo DS) in Facebook Marketplace

Which one of the DVD sets is generally considered to be the best? By Planatus666

[Fandom Discussions]

ace cordy posting by all-seeing-ifer (with aro counterproposal by zorilleerrant)

The question “are Buffy, Angel and Faith in a love triangle in Season 3?” would have very different answers depending... by coraniaid

Thinking about that ridiculous scene in s6 when Xander walks in on Spike and Buffy... in Buffy’s kitchen by layer-of-slayers

faith's guiding principle is that nothing can hurt her so long as she acts like she doesn't care by lesbianmarrow

I’m just imagining Angel sometime in season 1 appearing to buffy out of some dark alleyway... by lightningrain

What was Lindsey's deal with Spike in [AtS] season five? by jdpm1991

Most Relatable Moment by Past-Throat-6788

Do you think Faith threw the fight in This Years Girl? by queeeeeni

[Articles, Interviews, and Other News]

James Marsters Perth Supanova Expo 2024 Reports, Pics & Videos via dontkillspike

Todd McIntosh (Buffy make up supervisor extraordinaire) describes a time when SMG choreographed a fight scene. Can you figure out which ep it is? by Excellent-Durian-509

Buffy the Vampire Slayer | BELOW THE LINE PODCAST (a film industry podcast from the crew perspective)

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James Marsters' next scheduled con appearance is GalaxyCon Raleigh Jul 27-28 - via jamie_marsters

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[theajaheira]

had to go and turn up the brightness so it would be visible but xander and cordy dancing at the bronze in i only have eyes for you is . so cute . i love love

[namorian]

i need more pals to talk buffy with but i also am FAIRLY CERTAIN i have strong and controversial / unpopular opinions on many things so finding buffy spots / people is woof

like i was ( and technically am ) in a disc group where it became quickly clear most were very pro-bangel and mixed to anti-spuffy and someone made a blanket statement about how naturally we ALL feel x way about spuffy or w/e and i was just like ‘haha wow okay byeeeeeeeeee’ and i’ve had it muted since

i don’t mind people not liking the same shit as me but like... yall when a blanket statement is made about the groups opinions and i JUST got here i don’t vibe...

but i really wanna talk about buffy and toss around ideas i have for a fix-it anya fic with someone and some ocs and shit like that but i’m also sitting here in the “ i would gladly sell the majority of the cast to satan for a corn chip, am against MANY fan fave things and want to really just rip apart the canon and make a better buffy with blackjack and hookers” corner. so like, meeting new ppl in the fandom really feels like a challenge bc how much shit do i wanna put up with to find the chill folks