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I'm so sorry to tell you this OP, a micro expression that I need to pause the show for to see does not equal good writing. A show, and media in general, has to take our hand and guide us through it, I hate this stupid fucking sentence "you just want the show to take your hand" YES I DO, YES MEDIA NEEDS TO.
I don't want it to put everything infront of me and just carry me through it, I want it to fucking MAKE SENSE and GUIDE ME AS IT SHOULD. I do not want to sit here and decipher some weird fucking ass background to see "oh look the curtain split in the background indicates how this character is actually split in their decisionđ„ș". That is NOT how this is meant to work. It is a nice addition but should not take away from actual character development.
Saying people rightfully calling this madness out "have an inability to read in between the lines" when what you are doing is adding your own context the show never gave or just straight up ignoring how "character" in media works
Them fucking in a cell was quite disturbing and disgusting. I'm a lesbian. I should be glad we got a lesbian scene. Yes, it has weird as fuck implications. Why are you talking as if your interpretation is the only one that can be right and now everyone needs to yield to it? Huh. Implications can and will happen unwillingly and willingly, by the way.
Caitlyn has war crimed her way through the Undercity, ruthlessly threw people into prison for no reason (they did actually show that, woah sick right), was ready to SHOOT someone with a child on their person that either would have hit the child or would have left the child with serious trauma, HIT VI INTO HER STOMACH AFTER SAID FACT, TOLD A PERSON WHILE SHE DIDNT YET WANT TO, SHE WOULD THROW HIM INTO THE DEEPEST DARKEST DUNGEONS, called people of the undercity animals, etc.
and you say đ„șactions mean more guys uwuđ„ș shut up, genuinely.
Oh plus glorified suicide is never justifiable, wtaf. Do NOT dare to even say "but she lived". They SHOWED HER, a suicidal character, WILLINGLY JUMP WHILE PLAYING THE MUSIC SHE PREVIOUSLY TRIED TO KILL HERSELF WITH. They also made the other 2 characters that attempted sacrifice themselves. I watched this shit. I saw them imply a suicidal characters worth is to die as a sacrifice. This is not redemption. Redemption means a character getting better and hey, I think a character getting better kinda means they have to live, woah insane concept, right? I do not owe anyone any kind of private information about my person to talk about this, BY THE WAY.
They acted as if classism is a thing that simply disappears đ„șwhen faced with a bigger fiend guysssss die with us in our clothes, ignore how we treated you for years and years and how we killed and imprisoned you injustly and acted as if you were lessđ„ș yes, they fucked up Implications between Caitlyn and Vi never being addressed is insane. No "actions" (literally huh) do not mean more than words here.
edit: I'm gonna repeat, implication happens and will happen unwillingly and willingly and implications will also not be the same for everyone. If people tell you the implications of episode 7 with Vi's death was weird then that holds as much value as what you say it implies to you.
I knew we would eventually reach a point where masses of people would misinterpret Arcane, but I never imagined it would be this bad.
Yes, I absolutely agree that season 2 was rushed, especially Act 3, and it is undeniable that the series would have benefited from at least one more episode if not an entire act. However, the current discourse about the show is so superficial that it's impossible to have a conversation about anything deeper but a mere synopsis of the characters and story.
So many of you expected this series to hold your hand and dumb everything down so you can understand it. But when it wasn't the case, you all started rioting and calling the characters vague, the plot bad, and the ships underdeveloped.
The amount of people who value spoken text more than the actions of the characters is worrying. And more worrying than that is the amount of those who interpret the said actions so superficially. I can't believe it needs to be explained that it wasn't Vi's death that led to the "good" timeline, but the lack of hextech. The result would have been the same if either of them had died. It wasn't about Vi, but about the child that died because of dangerous technology and that therefore that technology must not be used. The mischaracterization of Vi in general is insane. Call me biased and unfair, but the moment I hear you don't like her I will assume you didn't understand the show.
Also, the whole discourse around Caitvi scene in episode 8 is giving brainsmooth. No, Vi didn't choose Cait over Jinx, quite the opposite. No, Cait didn't plan all of it to fuck Vi. No, Vi didn't do it because she felt forced or because she is a horny animal who doesn't care about her sister. No, them fucking in a cell is not about the class difference, but about the fact that Vi felt an insane rush of emotions after realizing that Cait would let go of her revenge and help Jinx escape, all for her. Yes, I do agree that it would be nice if we got a longer conversation between Vi and Caitlyn and it would feel great to hear Cait apologize, but I'll always value actions over words. Her talking to Jinx, recognizing that she is just as bad as her, and choosing to trust Vi that her sister can change, thus letting Jinx escape will always mean more than any verbal apology and I'll die on that hill.
Also, it was Jinx's decision to let go and walk away. It was not about Vi trying to get to Vander, but about Jinx being tired of everything. Even if that fight didn't happen, the result would be the same: Jinx would leave because she knows that Vi couldn't do that. She knew that the two of them couldn't have a normal life together and that Vi would never give up on her. Jinx didn't "die" because Vi pushed her or failed her, but because she loved her too much. Whether you believe that she is dead or that she escaped, it's her decision either way.
Again, I agree that too much happened too quickly, but stop confusing your stupidity and inability to read between the lines with the quality of the series.
Arcane is flawed but still brilliant.
#wtaf did I just read#people agree with this take#Im so sorry to tell you this op#this was an insane read#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#caitvi#jinx#vi#caitlyn kiramman#classism#tw sui talk
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honestly, reading aus where dick has to become batman and one of his siblings becomes nightwing pisses me tf off bc dick grayson was never meant to stay in gotham forever. it's not who he is. he's not a gotham kid. he grew up there for 8-10 years, and yeah its his home because bruce-alfred-jason-tim-damian-steph-cass-duke but that's the manor.
in my eyes, dick grayson being forced to stay as batman, long term, stuck in gotham while one of his siblings just stays in bludhaven? doesn't have the oppressing shadow that dick just keeps getting dragged back to honestly feels disrespectful to who dick wanted to be. i'm sure dick would love for his siblings to be nightwing if he dies but making every position dick has ever had be a mantle to be passed on is just-
no.
dick grayson's meant to be nightwing, the free spirit that comes with him having his own city, because gotham isn't meant to be the end of dick grayson's story, and his siblings just taking his position in bludhaven like they'd be able to fill that role easily is laughable.
if they're free to be nightwing they should be able to be batman and for some reason they aren't, and dick grayson has to keep returning to the cowl he doesn't want.
i can't describe how i feel when i read fics like this, just some terrible sadness for dick, especially when people write it like dick is just fine with being batman and his siblings treating nightwing like a mantle, like something they can just take, like bludhaven wasn't his city, like he didn't do everything for it, and treating nightwing like something they can just take. like something they can easily fit into.
i dont think any of the batsiblings can be nightwing, and writing it like people dont notice the difference is honestly laughable.
i read a fic where jason todd is nightwing, and honestly, if bro has to go to bludhaven he can easily choose a different name. IT IS NOT THAT HARD GUYS? it is NOT that complicated to choose a new identity name like babes... nightwing is NOT A MANTLE, and i dont think it every will be.
dick grayson is nightwing. full stop. only him.
and besides, i feel like only two of the siblings really should be in bludhaven, and thats cass and dick. cass didnt get any time at all before chemo happened, which is depressing af but dick put his heart and soul into helping that city and just straight up giving it to one of his siblings like he hasn't worked to protect it for so long? i honestly dont believe any of the other batsiblings would care even a little bit about bludhaven.
#no shade against people who write it#i still read it so#but still#nightwing is dick grayson#dick grayson is nightwing#and nightwing isnt a mantle#its his#and honestly just pushing dick back into batman's shadow makes me wanna cry#he did his best to become his own person#and then in fanfics that identity is taken away from him?#no stop#none of the batsiblings imo could be exactly like nightwing#im not saying they arent skilled or smart enough or something#theyre amazing people#they're just not dick grayson#not nightwing#and i think fanfic writers forget that#nightwing#dick grayson#batsiblings#batfam#batman#dc#dc comics#and we're not even discussing that time bruce become nightwing#i might bring it up later because wtaf was that#but rn that is way too much for tags#cassandra cain#dick grayson deserves better
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Bring your own best friend
#reyna ramirez arellano#annabeth chase#piper mclean#hazel levesque#pjo#hoo#rick riordan#reynabeth#pipabeth#pipeyna#pipazel#realized as i was drawing this that i.... i don't remember piper and hazel ever interacting#like im sure they did at one point (possibly only once) but...#?#ok nvm update i just read the wiki and yeah apparently they are besties wtaf#how did i completely forget this#i haven't read hoo since 2014 but still#well anyway that fits my art and i like it#i think they should be besties that's so cute#i am now a hardcore platonic piper and hazel shipper#my art
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Saw a Imran Khan x Nawaz Sharif fanfic and all I can say is life has not been the same anymore.
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uhm sorry for the silly question but you said elias is your top3 and ohara 6 and i wanted to know the whole list ._.
Man, I meant to answer this as soon as I saw it but then it got away from me. I took this ask as an opportunity to yap, but even I was like oh this got too long so here's the list itself, and I'll leave the explanations if you're interested in that under the cut. This is ranked mainly by how much brainrot they give me.
Shuri
Richelieu
Elias
Jeremy
Nora
Ohara
Reihe Family (Alice, Hermann)
Ali
Theobald
Explanations:
1. Shuri I adore Shuri more than anyone else in the manhwa. Like do I even need to explain. She is such a strong multifaceted character, so full of love and kindness in spite of her heartbreakingly tragic history. I've seen people call her boring, but I really can't see it especially after the Jeremy trial in S1. This is a person who will sacrifice herself, completely forego her own happiness, for the sake of those she cares about. Yet this sacrificial tendency is also motivated by her fear of being abandoned, not simply from innate kindness. Characters like that I am always weak to and will always love.
2. Richelieu If you follow me I doubt this is surprising, he's so fun to me. He's a terrifying villain who's actually a real threat and challenge to the main characters. I like how his motivations are well established, so all his actions just make sense you. Religious villains aren't uncommon in rofan, but in my experience it's typically the [Good Church was secretly Evil mwahaha] trope you know? So I find him, a character with time given to actually expand on his POV, very refreshing, very alluring. Though, what initially drew me in was his being a narrative foil to Shuri, the parallels in the connection he perceives them to have with the "2nd life", the visual contrast constantly at play in their encounters to an almost genre bending degree⊠I go bonkers for shit like that between protagonists and antagonists. It's because of him that I picked up asm again in S2 and truly fell in love with the story. I'll keep it at that lest this gets too long.
3. Elias Elias⊠Elias my beloved problem child. He's kind of framed as being the more emotionally perceptive sibling, so the fact that most of his conflicts are internal ones bleeding out into bad decisions just makes me so đ©đ©đ© His feelings of alienation and separation issues within his own family endears me to him, I'm very fond of black sheep characters He also hides all this with his friendly and comic relief demeanor which makes me love him more⊠the multiple arcs we had with Elias as a main figure solidified him to this position.
4. Jeremy Honestly the gap between him and Nora is so so small, but Jeremy makes me just a little bit more insane because of the tragic aspect of his character in his quiet love for Shuri that, thanks to their unfortunate circumstances, could never be, despite those very circumstances being what allowed him to grow such love for her. Aside from that, it's the usual obvious things people love about him, his protectiveness, sarcasm, kindness beneath the rbf, etc etc. It's always great to see him interact with other characters, especially Shuri or Nora.
5. Nora I don't have much to say that hasn't been said by others, he's a beloved and popular character for a reason. I grew to like him a lot more in S2, we got to see more sides of him and see how he's grown since S1, especially in his scenes with Jeremy and Shuri. Also, he's an artist so I feel a sense of kinship⊠the whole sketchbook thing and shuri painting was so real. His conflict with his family is also tragically compelling. That last chapters that had him in S2 hit me in the guttt.
6. Ohara Mentioned most of what I like about her in the last ask. Ohara's got problems and she's very dear to me for it!!
7. Reihe Family (Alice, Hermann) I really liked the glimpses we've had of them in the manhwa. I became fond of Hermann, the Neuschwanstein's uncle aka Elias look-alike, upon rereads because of the parallels with him and Elias, they're both the black sheep of their families đ„ș one day I'll finish that Alice & Hermann comic...
8. Ali My initial impression was just that he was a sweet boy, but then it showed he's quite the sharp cookie like his sister and I went ooooh! He navigated those political situations in S2 so cleverly. He's def going to be even more of a force to be reckoned with when he's older.
9. Theobald He's 9th on this list of favorite characters but I can't say I like him more than everyone not mentioned above. I enjoy his relationships is all. Like, anything with Richelieu is just great. There's also Shuri, Nora, Jeremy, Letran/Family of course- it's crazy how messy all his relationships are đ
And thennn it's everyone else. Even if the character isn't on the list doesn't mean I don't like them or don't like reading about them. Personally, I find that every character in the story has something you can chew on!
#asks#asm my beloved#u asked for the list and i gave you this block of text im so sorry this is how im exposed as a chatterbox#to expand on richelieu making me pick up asm again for s2#i had an OI/rofan phase during quarantine and asm was one of the many i read but when i did it was midway through the jeremy trial#updates were slow and i was yet to be very invested so i forgot about it quickly#but it asm blew up during the epilogue for obv reasons and i read it again and was blown away#s2 came and i saw people gushing over it but i was like hmm i kinda like just ending the story at s1 it was enough for me#there was no future plot points from the very scattered & probably fake novel spoilers i read at the time that interested me#then i saw THAT panel of richelieu and shuri in ch 68 and it was So Over for me like wtaf is this asm??? what is going on over there#anyway its my most reread manhwa rn#and the only manhwa i actively follow loll its for sure one of the greats
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My son has been let outta school early cos his last 3 teacher's of the day are absent for some reason.
Waiting to see if today is another early release so I can have a big lunch prepared like I did yesterday.
Him and his classmates get released usually before lunch time so yeah.
School has barely started and already the schedule is messed up. A lot of us parents keep our kids going cos it's a "prestigious school" that's literally a historical landmark in our town but they changed so much shit to the point it no longer feels like a school.
#personal#gonna have to fill out the class ring papers. we've got the money and they gave us a damn deadline for the ring too wtaf đ«#it wasnt this hard for me in my last year and i was doing everything cos i had run away from home and my mom half assed shit#like i did all the paperwork and worked and only called the insufferable bitch for a signature. she never did shit#well gotta read documents. talk to the âmommy leaderâ etc đ”âđ«#i just wanna sleep#ramblings
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i ran out of tags sera i canât believe this â ïž
anyway i was just saying !!! that !!! ONLY YOUUUU can write smut like this and stilLl make it so emotionally pAcked and heavy and characteristically ON POINT and i donât even know if u intend to đđđ it feels like these things just flow like magic out of ur fingertips !!!!!!!!
and the next morning when nanami is there too KAMXKSN THE KISS THE CHEF APRON IS KILLING MEEEE and when he trips reader by jokin about the hickIES and reader falls for it and satoru facepalms đđ hELPP AND THE LAST LINE SERA THE LAST LINE !!!!!!!!!!!
anyway this is all to say That !!!!!! SERA i love u and i miss u !!!! And i am so happy that i get to find ur lil works like this no matter how long time has passed !!! And that i get read it !!!! And enjoy it the way i do !! Because i always will love the things u write đ„șđ„ș U KNOW I WILL !!! AAAAAAH thank u for blessing us w this nanago (more heavy gojo) MEAL đ„č
also thank u to somi for reminding me that this exists omfg jsnxkdnxj
à©âĄËłÂ·Ëⶠâ GOJO X FEM READER
Gojo and you have little to nothing in common besides a friend group and a shared crush on Nanami Kento. However, as befitting the sorcerer to end all sorcerers, of course Gojo has one up on you - heâs actually made a move on Nanami. If he offers to give you a taste through him, who are you to turn down such a golden opportunity?Â
wc â 4.5k
tags â mdni, nanami x reader is present but not the focus, praise, Gojoâs a tease, fingering, mutual pining but for Nanami, crying during sex but in a good way, light begging
Work has been long and exhausting. Everywhere in the world is overrun by curses, but surely the solution canât be to simply give the sorcerers more curses. Thereâs only so many of you, and with assignments piling on, you all can barely breathe. Sooner or later, someoneâs going to burn out - and thatâs an infinitely worse possibility. You donât want to know what happens when a sorcerer goes rogue.Â
Thatâs why youâve taken to recovering the best you can. At least the pay has been proportional, thanks to the efforts of one Nanami Kento. Enough so that youâve been able to rent an apartment in the heart of Tokyo, where you can home after work and relax - as much as you can when most days you go out into the field, come home, sleep, and repeat. Youâre not even sure when youâve had the time to eat these days.Â
Which is why coming home to the sounds of music leaking out of your apartment is a little unwelcome. As you hear a crash from inside, and a loud, âShit!â, you begin to regret giving your friends your keys. It was supposed to be for emergencies only, and yet, as you unlock the door -Â
âWelcome home,â Nanami says dryly, nursing a drink in his other hand. Utahime notices next and scrambles up to greet you with a kiss on either cheek.Â
Keep reading
#omfg sera i cant believe i only rEad this NOW#LITERALLYSDG#i love the dynamics of their lil friend group so much#and of couRSE I love the way you write them sera#i always always do#and i love how satoru is their lil schoolbus shbfash teleporting them everywhere like YES#make than man do some worK (but only for friend things... he can take a break for all his other responsibilities)#and the crush reader has on nanami omg i GET IT I FEEL IT cos i really would tOO#and the interaction between yuki and gojo omG#U R LITERALLY GIVING US CRUMBS SDHGBAJ the interaction we never got to see !!!!!#& im so happy to see that gojo actually mAYBe accepts her seniority ???#and the utahime shoko detail oh i lOVe iT !! even wearing geto's sweater omg that's just so cute :<#and tHEN THE COUCH WHEN NANAMI LEANS ON READERS SHOULDER........... OF COURSE I SCREAM omfG ??? and he doesnt move when reader puts their#arm around him liKE WTAF AND HE JUST SNUGGLES INTO IT AND SAYS THANKS ?? FEELS GOOD ??? i THINK i woulD DIE#the tension between gojo and nanami is insane idek how to describe it#and schoolbus satoru at the end of the movie is soso cute#and the way it just escalates om fg how gojo's suddenly kissing reader and everything IM GOING INSANE#sera when i tell u that . this was so hot. oh my god it was so hot#the things this did to my BRAIN lkike#first of all: gojo being a good kisser -> guaranteed to make me go INSAnE. and the way u articulate reader's thoughts on this too ofmfmfofm#the tongue and the biting and the teeth and the spit and the everyTHING oh my god#âbuT i like kissing you BAbyâ NO HE HAS TO STOP HE CANT BE USING 'BABY' LIKE THAT ILL CRY#THEN HE JUST BRINGS UP NANAMI ??? LIKE ???#the lil bit of sadness u gave him ??? omg sera ??#its that bittersweet feeling thats somehow always associated with him shdjbgsal#but then he continues to fuck like nANAIM ANd IM GOING CRAY#and wehn they both cumfgofmghdssdghsghfas im ded gone#and reader is like u love him and gojo is like i like him om#only u can make smut this heavy and emotional sera i swear to god and i dont even know if u intend it toosd gjzb#' i think he might say yes if its you ' and WHAT IF I CRY
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Burdened â L. Howlett

Pairing: Logan Howlett x Fem!Reader
Summary: Based on this request!!!!
CW/Tags: not proofread bc I literally finished this at 5am đ, Logan is an ASS, a lot lot of feelings, lowk heavy angst I THINK, no use of Y/N, don't like don't read.
A/N: @rambosgirl Ily girlie I really enjoyed writing this :33 I AM SO INSANELY SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG !!!!!!! Also while writing the ending of this my Spotify Smart Shuffle fucking played First Love/Late Spring by Mitski and I swear it knows how fitting it is bro wtaf ok LAST statement but like this is my first 1K+ word fic are you guys proud of me :33 I'm starting this at like 3am so don't bully me if the ending doesnt' make sense ok byeeeeeeeee
WC: 1.6K (get comfy guys) / Navigation
It was unnecessarily irritating. And frankly really, really fucked up.
Anytime you turned your back from a seemingly butterfly-inducing interaction with Logan, you found him all over Jean as if he wasnât just chatting you up four minutes ago.
Jean Grey wasâfrom what youâve surveyed over your time at the mansionânot really phased, despite her somewhat established relationship with Scott. She was intelligent and good-natured, flashing you sickeningly sweet smiles in the corridors and occasionally complimenting your outfits as if hers werenât twice as stunning.
But every time you spotted Logan gazing down at her with the look you thought heâd reserved for your eyes only, the image of perfection the redheaded telepath had materialised in front of you dissipated like a glass of ice left to liquefy under the scorching sun.
Because she never pushed him away, and she was so clearly inevitably attracted, whether she displayed it or not. It was virtually written all across her sharp features, and you knew the same was scripted all over your own when speaking to Logan.
That dip your heart made every time you saw the twoâs chemistry from afar; it wasn't just blatant jealousy.Â
It was deeper.
It was nastier.
It clung to your insides like a weight you couldn't possibly shake off. The constant sense that you were just a swift distraction, a momentary diversion from the real object of his desire.Â
It ate you up from the inside out and exhausted you to no end.
When Storm or Rogue cautiously approached you and tried to console you, you shrugged it off as if it was some uncomplicated highschool sweetheart drama. They knew damn well it wasnât. Your conflicting feelings for Logan were gradually making you lose yourselfâ your well-built dignity. You were slowly but surely morphing into someone you didnât even recognise. Someone who accepted being second best without any contemplation.
All for a man who was immortal. All for someone who presumably considered you a fleeting paragraph in his primitive life while he was an entire novel in yours.
You wantedâ needed to locate yourself in the vast body of water which was your feelings. You needed your sense of self-worth to reappear by a miracle, nevertheless, you knew it would take immense time and exertion to track it back down.
But in a wretched attempt to do so, you settled on a fairly elaborate plan and started disregarding each one of Loganâs advances. Suddenly, you conveniently had somewhere else to be every time he approached, you pulled back and overlooked his easy smiles along with the playful banter you practically used to feed off of.
At first, it felt as if you were reclaiming some of your power, spotting his perplexed looks in your peripheral vision as you wandered off to God knows where. But of course, everything you did came back to bite you in the ass. If anything, it only made the truth clearer. He barely even noticed, and if he did, he didnât give a single shit.
And Jean? She remained unbothered, untouchableâ flawless, even. You were the mastermind of this whole game, yet you were the only one losing.
After a particularly humiliating stretch of witnessing Logan and Jeanâs shared giggles and stolen looks from across the table, you ultimately found your resolve. Alcohol really was liquid courage, because after a few drinks and several stabs of food, you closed in on them lounging on the couch post-meal.Â
Loganâs bare arm was extended across the back of the grimy cushions behind Jean like some kind of cheesy rom-com, cowlicks a prominent silhouette against the weak flickering of the television. But no matter how much you resented themâ her, you would never even come by the opportunity to be in the redheadâs position.
âHowlett,â you enunciated, voice sharp enough to slice through the ambient noise like a shard of glass.
Howlett. No other soul could call him that without repercussions. Aside from you. That was why you felt so unique, so distinct from the others, that was the crumb of specialty you were desperately clinging on to.
He shifts to glance over his shoulder, a spark of recognition igniting within him at the sound of your voiceânot missing the shred of urgency concealed beneath it. âHm? What's up?â
You hesitate with your next words, intently but subtly taking in his scruffy features in the dimmed lighting for what felt like it could be the final time. Because after this, you knew for a fact neither one of you could view each other in the same way. You were the one who let him under your skin, you were the one who had to tear him out, and it unfortunately was an agonisingly slow process.
âWe need to talk.â
Four words. Yet, it still gave you the sensation of several weights placed upon your back; the unavoidable impending argument, manipulation spat right into your face, and the most dreaded of all, how circumstances would be after tonight.
His expression stiffened mildly as he reluctantly got up from the couch, aged leather groaning beneath his weight. The sensation of Jean abruptly invading the back of your mind was extremely unsettling and even though she appeared unphased, she, without a question, detected your abnormal uneasiness and was gingerly flicking through your thoughts.
Which was apprehensive, to say the least.
Logan fell into step with you as you departed from one of the many doddering living rooms, proceeding to a more secluded space nearing the obnoxious stairs in front of the grand entryway, mansion almost bizarrely silent with all the kids asleep. Jean wasnât in your head anymore, but she undoubtedly already knew your objectives to the script.
You halted and so did Logan, weight finding its position set upon the auburn wood of the stairs.Â
He eyed you with undivided attention. Your stomach threatened to do a fucking flip despite the conditions, the look nearly making you scrap all of this and go right back to being his side piece regardless of the anguish it put your mind through. But you dug your heels in, the clearing of your throat echoing sharply off the vacant walls.
You square your shoulders and tilt your chin up boldly, aiming to stand your ground. âWhat the hell am I to you? Because from what I see and a whole lot of other people do, Iâm just an afterthought. Filler for the gaps Jean left open. Care to elaborate on that, Howlett?âÂ
He sighed, glancing at the wall behind you as if he was already fed up. âItâs not like that, bub. Youâre makinâ it bigger than it is.â
Your blood scorched at the casual dismissal. Your voice inevitably rose but doesnât go over a whisper, âDonât patronise me, Logan,â you scoff. âIâm not some stupid kid with a stupid crush, so donât let your ego get out of hand. Iâve watched you get all up on her, and then come to me when sheâs got a class. Do you even fucking hear yourself?âÂ
His jaw stiffened, his own frustration growing. âYou really think itâs that easy? I never asked you to get involved. You know how it is with me and her. You donât get how fucked my life is, itâs your own fuckinâ fault things got messy.â
âYeah, yeah. Go sulk somewhere else, I donïżœïżœïżœt give a shit how crappy your life is. It doesnât take much to be a decent fucking human!â mutant, whatever. Iâm not gonna let you come crying to me when things donât work out with Jean. Iâm worth more than that. You canât see that, itâs your damn problem, not mine.â
He was visibly trying to find his footing, and you took it as an opportunity to carry on, âItâs not my fault this got sloppy. You canât just invite a woman for a nice drive and end up throwing her out the door a moment later. You knew damn well what you were doing to mââÂ
âYou donât know what I gotta deal with every day. Itâs difficult. I never wanted it to get like this. You were the one overthinkinâ it.â
You shook your head forcefully, exasperation boiling over. âI donât give a fuck, Loganâ stop hiding behind that, you donât even remember half of your damn life! Itâs not messy, itâs cruel. Iâve had my own trouble, but I donât use it as an excuse to hurt people who care about me. Donât put all of it on my back.â
He opens his mouth to retort, but you cut him off. âDonât. Donât say anything. Iâve dealt with you for half my time here. Iâve had enough of your bullshit.â A flash of remorse graced his eyes but it didnât do a thing.Â
âIâm not your backup plan. Iâm not waiting for you to look at me the way you look at Jean. I deserve someone who doesnât just act like they give a shit. Iâve made my choice and youâve made yours. Iâm done. Goodnight, Howlett.â
With a harsh turn of your heel, you walked away with a heavy heart. But your head was clear for the first time in months, your shoulders were lighter, and the clarity you felt nearly blew your veins out. It would be painstakingly tough to face him tomorrow morning, but you knew you would get over it eventually.
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Guess who finally mustered up the courage to write a Coriolanus Snow fic, and holy shit, this might just be the longest once-off Iâve ever written.
My dear @quicksilversg1rl , this fic goes out to you 100x over. I hope this makes up for the fact that I couldnât put Tom under your tree âčïž I hope that itâs enough that I put him in your dreams instead <3
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WARNINGS:
dom!coriolanus, some out-of-pocket makes-you-go âwtafđâ Coriolanus moments, smut, swearing, possessiveness, manipulation, toxic relationship, choking, pet names, degradation, edging, lots of italics and dashes (sorry I was feeling myself (not literally you sicko) ), masturbation, unprotected sex, cockwarming, dryhumping/wethumping(?), fingering/fisting, oral sex f receiving, the therapy youâll need after reading these warnings
âŒïžDO NOT PROCEED IF YOU ARE NOT COMFORTABLE WITH THE ABOVE-MENTIONED WARNINGSâŒïž
SYNOPSIS:
Coriolanus had always known you held potential to win the games, from the day heâd laid his eyes on you at the 10th annual reaping. You were the key heâd been missing all these years, and how he saw almost every opportunity unlocked by your presence at that yearâs hunger games.
The secret of how heâd risen into power? The answer was much simpler than anyone had expected. You. Sure, Coriolanus had done his fair share of treason and murder to contribute to his status, but it was your victory that had granted him access to the Plinth fortune and made his ambitions possible. He wasnât a man that liked to share credit, but he thought your performance in the games a worthy enough candidate.
To show you just how thankful he was, heâd invited you to live with him after the games, for however long you pleased, and heâd made it his mission to show you all the pleasures the Capitol and his lifestyle had to offer. He liked having you near him at all times, and he liked it even better when he was inside of you.
What he didnât like, though? When you flirted with other men, especially when it served to get a rise out of him.
Coriolanus Snow doesnât like sharing, and he doesnât tolerate disobedience, either. Youâd learn that lesson the hard way.
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Coriolanus was a man bred for purpose, like his father before him, and it was a purpose he often reminded you ofâa means to keep your neediness at bay, to tame your urge to be at his side every waking hour of the day, a ploy to remind you just how little value you posed to him outside of a night of fleeting pleasure. He marvelled in the opportunity to make you feel insignificant, a false promise too-quickly forsaken the moment your existence captured another manâs desireâa man that wasnât him.
In the midst of a party heâd rather not have attended, he watched you from a quiet corner of the venue hall, conversing away with a man he hadnât had the displeasure of meeting just yet. He didnât know whether you were honestly that painfully oblivious to the desires of the man before you, who clearly wanted nothing more than a taste of one of the renowned hunger games victors, or whether you had deliberately struck up a conversation to get a rise out of Coriolanus.
But when his eyes narrowed on your hand that reached to move a strand of your hair back to the security behind your ear, he knew then exactly which particular game you were playing.
You always did that when you felt subconsciousâwhen you knew you were being watched. It was a tell that Coriolanus had come to identify the more time heâd spent observing you. Heâd needed toâit was necessary in order to know the truths you would not tell him. Not out loud, at least. But now, he was pretty fluent in your body language, in more than one way.
He watched you tilt your head to the side in the slightest manner, an act that often sent all the conservativeness of men toppling over the edge. Your lip suctioned into a concentrated bite as you offered small, attentive nodsâyou were getting him to think youâre interested in what he has to say, pretending not to notice the way his eyes traced your lips and occasionally flickered across your peeping breasts.
The sight stirred an anger in Coriolanus, his fingers tightening around the glass of wine clutched in one hand. He lifted the wine to his lips, taking a sip as though it would somehow quench the imminent fire that threatened to take control of all reasonability. He couldnât let you get a rise out of him, not in public where he had an image to uphold. Goddamn you and your games, he hated being the one to play it. That had been the fate of you and the districts, not himâCapitol-born and rich beyond imagination. Was this his retribution to pay? Sentenced to your little games after all heâd brought upon you?
You moved a hand to caress the manâs shoulder, offering a sweet giggle. And then there it was, the slightest glance in his direction, fleeting but an obvious beckon for attention. Coriolanus clenched his jaw as you purposefully turned your back on him, his eyes boring into your exposed shoulder blades, framed by a dress that paraded all the right aspects of your bodyâa dress heâd picked out for you. He hadnât gone through all that effort to make you look so ravishing, only for another man to enjoy it. It had been for him, a reminder of what his prize would be after enduring this insufferable party.
Heâd planned to rip it from you, as mercilessly as he could offer, to toss it onto the floor and you onto the bed, naked and accessible to whatever he desired. However, you seemed hellbent on denying him a good night. He watched you reach for the manâs hand, your motion suggestive as you tugged on him and began to lead him away from the mayhem.
Coriolanus knew exactly where you were taking him.
He watched you weave your way through the dancing bodies, the music falling into the background as he trailed your every moveâthe way the man blatantly admired the curve of your ass. What an unacceptable circumstance, to think his favourite toy was not his own limited editionâone only he could afford to play with. After all, why had he endured the battlefield of this unfair life to claim a reward that promised power and money and control, only to feel so helpless in his infatuation over you. He hated what primal need controlled him, rendered him incapable of letting you go.
What had it all been for? The poison, the betrayal, the heinous crimes heâd committedâall to prove that he bore no seal of humanity, felt no obligation to love, until you came along, making him look the fool each time you batted a devious lash or wrung those perfect lips around suggestive words. Each time you spoke was like fragments of an enchantment, slowly being made whole and taking its magical toll on his entire being, beginning to claim everything he wasâmaking him obsess, making him weak.
The day heâd gotten you as his tribute, youâd had been nothing more than a missionâa means to secure a prize that would set him for life. But there had been something about you, something that had drawn him in like a sudden whirlpool, now he couldnât escape the obsession youâd cursed him with. Heâd never before felt the burden of caring about another personâs life, needing to know what they were up to at all times.
Coriolanus recalled seeing you for the first time, the day of the reaping, after the tributes had been transported to the Capitol. He remembered seeing you thrown into the zoo displayâthe way you had instantly found your feet and ran a hand through your hair, made unruly by a rough and sleepless night. Your brows were knitted closely together with unmistakable anger, a look that promised vengeance to the Capitol despite the silence on your lips. Your dress had been made ragged to match your hair, evidence that the bats had showed no mercy toward your pretty privilege. Maybe it had been your looks that had drawn them in, after all.
Heâd been ready to deem you a lost cause, disappointed that once again, heâd been stuck with rigged odds. He had been convinced that somewhere beneath that shredded fabric on your skin, you bore the kiss of rabies, doomed to die like countless before you. But heâd seen a few of the other tributes, bearing the same tells of their struggle with the bats in their shredded clothes and tired eyes. One of those amongst the suffering had been your fellow district twelve tribute, Morgan Lark, and he had possessed the worst wounds out of all the affected.
Itâd been less than a few hours until the wounded tributes started retching up fountains of white, their eyes glassy and their movements frantically lost on them. Yet there you had sat, watching with perfect control and composure as they had dwindled into mere husks of the people they used to be.
Coriolanus knew then that you had been differentâstronger, a tribute that might just prove the risk to be worth it. Heâd insisted on investigating the cart youâd been transported in, eager to know the truth behind your journey. Had you truly been strong enough to evade the consequences of the bats? The mystery of it all was pressing enough to consume his every thought. He needed to know. His future depended on it, depended on you.
That evening, after much persistence and a bribe that he honestly couldnât have afforded, heâd gained access to your cart. There wasnât much to look at, given that it was nothing more than an empty container, without even the courtesy of a blanket. The scene was almost hauntingly familiar, personal. Nonetheless, heâd paced the walls, eyes searching every aspect of the metal, every dent and hole in the floor. Heâd found nothing other than a few rusty nailsânothing interesting, that is until heâd picked one of them up and inspected it closer to find its apex crusted with blood.
A few of the nails were identical in their blood-coating, not a coincidence. Coriolanus gathered them up into his fatherâs handkerchief, almost regretting the decision as the rust stained the symbolic, white fabric. He placed them cautiously into his blazer pocket, scanning the cart one last time before making his departure. He made a beeline to the morgue, where the bodies of the five infected tributes had been placed shortly after their passing. He needed to see Morgan Larkâs body, to know what secret you could have hidden in his death.
Once heâd gained access to the corpse, heâd pulled back the white covering. A strong waft of formaldehyde greeted his senses and burned his eyes teary. He had been surprised that the body was being preserved, though he didnât doubt that Dr. Gual had plans to somehow extract and weaponise the rabies in the next games. The chemicals had instantly become so overwhelming that he had to pull his handkerchief from his pocket, empty the rusted nails onto the tray and cover his mouth and nose with the fabric to keep his nausea at bay.
Coriolanus studied the corpse, struggling to contain his pressing disgust as he laid his eyes on the shredded flesh. The bats had gone to town on Morgan, leaving little sections of skin intact. Heâd mustered up the courage to get close enough to inspect the wounds, noting that the scratches embedded along his body were not all the work of the bats. No, some of them had been too deep of a wound for a batâs claws to commit. He had a very good idea of the origins of those wounds, his eyes flickering to the rusted nails on the tray.
He knew then that it was not strength or immunity that had protected you from the touch of death, but your keen mind and craftiness with sharp objects. Coriolanus had pieced together a rough picture of what had happened: youâd managed to get close enough to cut Morgan with the nails, ensuring wounds that were deep enough to bleed profusely, which attracted and encouraged the bats to attack him. You hadnât been so lucky to go completely unnoticed by the bats, hence the disheveled dress, but you had sure as hell been lucky enough to have been spared from their bite.
What a clever girl you were, perhaps too much for your own good.
Coriolanus had to admit that heâd been impressed by your crueltyâyour drive to survive. It gave you an edge, a promising reason to win. He liked those odds, you were becoming a plausible risk to him. Just what would you have been willing to do to a tribute youâve yet to meet, if youâd so easily betrayed a fellow district partner?
As heâd left the morgue that evening, he couldnât deny the smirk that had wound his lips the entire trip back. He knew then that, for the first time in all his years as a mentor, this might be the year that heâd finally claim the Plinth prize.
What a worthwhile pick you had been. He liked good investments, and you had proven to be the best one yet. Youâd taken that entire game, playing it smart, staying lost in the shadows and gathering what scraps you could make into a worthwhile means of defence. You werenât the strongest or the most skilled fighter by any means, but you were smart, and that was a quality lost on many of the tributes. They all marched around, boasting their strength as some sort of show of dominance. They thought it made them ferocious, earned them another hour of life, but Coriolanus knew that it only drew attention, that they were stupid in bringing about a speedier death. You had known that, too.
Coriolanus slipped out of his mind, watching as youâd stopped by one of the tables to grab a snack, making a point to be sloppy so that the strange man would feel honour in being able to wipe your lips clean, spurring on his ego and his erection. You had pulled that trick on Coriolanus many times. He hated seeing you provide that same sort of attention to anyone else.
His attention was diverted to a pair of Capitol business men, who had approached him and were attempting to bombard him with pitches he couldnât have been more arsed to consider, not when he had something more pressing on his mindânot when you had deliberately stolen his attention away.
How incredibly selfish that you should demand his time even when you were not at his side, or laying below him with your legs spread open and cunt practically begging for his generosity. He didnât tolerate time-wasters of any regard, so heâd ensure that you made up for it.
He lifted a dismissive hand toward the face of one of the men, who fell silent with a look of indignation, but even he wasnât fool enough to unleash his temper unto the heir of the Plinth fortune. Had Coriolanus known that murdering his best friend would have come with so many perks, heâd have made a point to bring about that particular death benefit much sooner.
He lifted the glass to his lips, draining the rich wine that had been marinating the depths of the glass for far too long. He beckoned over one of the runners, placing his empty glass onto the tray before turning his attention back to the business men.
He offered an insincere dip of his chin. âMy apologies, but Iâve more pressing matters to tend to. Please, do enjoy the beverages,â he slipped between their dumbfounded bodies, before adding, âand the women, if itâd please you.â
Coriolanus manoeuvred his way through the crowd, his eyes not once leaving you, even if he had to watch you relentlessly flirt with the other man. Not only were you good with your hands, but you unintentionally weaponised your beauty, too. He had always thought you to possess an innocence that seemed to frame your features, a natural gift that kept eyes focused on the contours of your face rather than on the schemes of your hands. That had always been your advantageâin the games and in your everyday interactions.
It made him angry that youâd remade his mind in this way. No matter how much Coriolanus tried to remind himself of the purpose heâd been bred for, all that heâd done to get to where he was now, all the people heâd carelessly murderedâthere was no denying the truth:
No matter what higher, callous deity he claimed to be, he was only just a man, carved from anger and burdened with otherworldly jealously. All because of you.
Just as Coriolanus had managed to push past the last of the dancing bodies that had been blocking his path, he spotted you leaving through the doors, dragging your new pet behind you. His footsteps were brisk as he made for that same doorway, his fists balling at his sides as he stifled the urge to redirect his anger unto the unsuspecting door man. No, heâd best save that anger for you, transform it into something that would make you suffer, as heâd been forced to endure this evening.
He slipped through the doors, instantly greeted by a much quieter atmosphere, the laughter and music of the event muffled behind the now closed doors. Across the room, he saw you slip into the elevator, glimpsing just a hint of a smirk on your perfect lips as the doors slid closed and engulfed his view of you.
Annoyance pricked at his chest, heâd have to wait for the elevator to come back down. That was too much time gifted to you, time that could easily be used to bring you one step closer to coming undressed for that man. Heâd never found himself wishing for a stairwell more than he did right now, but Capitol architecture stupidly insisted that stairs were a concept made only for the districts.
Coriolanus trudged his way over to the elevator, running an impatient hand through his hair as he watched the countdown of the various different floors commence on the monitor. His residence was the topmost floor, an expensive suite that the Plinths had gifted him on his day of recognition. Heâd been kind enough to allow you to stay in one of his rooms, to have you in his proximity at all times where youâd more than once enjoyed the free luxury of his lifestyle, and this is how youâd repaid himâby bringing other men into his sacred space.
He couldnât help but imagine what you were up to at this instant. The thought of you trapped beneath the man on one of the sofas overlooking the city made him bite the inside of his cheekâthose were the sofas heâd so often pinned you to, forcing you to admire the view as he admired you, demonstrating his praise for your beauty through the actions of his fingers in your cunt.
When Coriolanus had first met you, he had thought you hated drawing attention, especially when it warranted a much speedier death in the games. Youâd always been so reserved, so hellbent on silence as you kept a calculating eyes on anybody who wasnât you. Heâd like that quiet air about you, it was a call for guidance, a plea for somebody to claim your trustâhe knew he could have given that to you.
But now, Coriolanus could have laughed at that thought.
You, hating attention? What an odd facade heâd so easily been fooled byâbut heâd grown smarter since your first encounter. He knew the real truth now. What a glorious night that had been, the first time heâd taken you to bed. He could still smell the desperation that had trailed from your cunt as his nose burrowed into your swollen and beckoning clitâthe way his hands had squeezed the skin of your inner thighs a faint blue in his attempt to trap them against the bed. Theyâd been so eager to wrap around his neck, to make him prisoner within your euphoria. Heâd shown his disapproval by wedging your thighs further apart, an action that earned a shocked moan from you, coupled with a gasp at the growing aggression of his tongue inside of you.
How he enjoyed being the puppeteer of your body, pulling your limbs every which way until youâd been contorted and opened up for him to exploit. You often needed reminding that you were sentenced to his will, made prisoner to his desires.
He could still feel the faint traces of your arousal that had painted pictures across the sharp lines of his jaw, mercilessly freed by the way his tongue had ravished your folds and plucked from you what little dignity and silence you had managed to fashion up until that very moment. No matter how much youâd pretend to feel indifferent to his attention, your body had always betrayed youâit was unashamedly and passionately thankful to his ministrations.
Your pathetic moans still echoed on a loop in the dark corners of his mindâan ear worm he couldnât discard of, though he couldnât honestly admit that heâd want anything of the sort. It spurred him on, serving as a constant reminder of his pretty possession, and just how much you needed himâhis touch, his validation, his attention. He was the poison-kissed oxygen that you couldnât help but inhale, fooling yourself that it would somehow replenish the air in your lungs and give you the freedom of living, existing, all the while your every bodily cell came closer and closer to becoming his. It didnât take much for him to claim all that you were and all that you could be, only the right words and that glorious goddamn night in bed.
Heâd completely remade you in his image, branded you with his bedroom generosity, always leaving you with just enough to satisfy, but never enough to last for more than a few hours. You always came back begging for more.
What an attention whore.
At last, the elevator dinged its arrival, the doors opening to welcome Coriolanus inside. He slipped in almost instantly, moving to press the button of the top floor. When the doors finally closed, he became trapped in the air lingering inside, noticing a trace of your sweet perfume. Heâd come to admire that scent, thought of it as a way to identify every place youâd been in. But your sweet scent had fused with the musky odour of that strange man, an unpleasant smell that suffocated your own in mere seconds. He could only imagine that same odour plastering itself to your neck and all across your clothes as the man forced himself onto you, enjoying what didnât belong to him.
After a few minutes, the elevator came to a stop, the doors sliding open to reveal two intertwined bodies at the other end of the lobby. You were pinned against the doors to Coriolanusâ suite, the manâs hands wandering beneath your dress and up your magnificent thighs, shrivelled lips sloppily searching the skin of your neck. Your head was tossed back against the wood, eyes sown shut as you let slip the sweetest of moans, a sound that Coriolanus had claimed as his own.
He barged through the elevator doors, the sound of his angered footsteps earning your attention. You lowered your head to him, watching with a playful smile at what was about to unfold. He ignored it, the satisfaction in that grin, the sense of achievement at your ability to control him, have him trailing after you like a dog on a leash. Heâd let you have this moment, to savour its short-lived existence because once he was through with this man, heâd show you just how much trouble youâd caused him.
Coriolanus grabbed the oblivious man at the collar of his shirt, too far gone to think with his brain rather than his cock to notice heâd appeared, and plucked him from you. He shoved the man away, who stumbled backwards with his footsteps serving as clear evidence of mild intoxication. The toad began protesting, before his eyes finally found Coriolanus and his lips clamped shut on a look of realisation.
âYou come into my house, drink my wine, enjoy my woman, all without a trace of shame?â Coriolanus snapped, his voice gruff with built-up anger.
The man fashioned an apologetic look. âI didnât mean any offence, Mr. Snow, I swear by it!â His hands made frantic gestures, eager to exonerate himself. âIt was her that came onto me, she invited me back here, suggested we get to know each other betterââ
Coriolanus lifted his chin, his glare cold as he stared down his nose at the man. âAre you implying that itâs her fault?â It most certainly was, but if Coriolanus had to endure all that had just happened, he intended to have some fun with it.
The man stilled with a look of uncertainty that passed between you and Coriolanus, his hand moving to scratch the back of his head.
âAre you even a man at all, if youâre so easily influenced by a girl that bats her lashes at you and caresses your arm one time?â He had to ignore the irony in that statement; he couldâve almost been talking into a mirror. âYouâre pathetic, blaming your lack of control and better judgement on her,â he said, eyes hardening as he took a step forward, the man simultaneously retreating a step with a gulp.
âGo find whatever excuse of a manhood you claim to have in somebody elseâs cunt, and donât let me catch you back in this building. It wont be words that warn you off next time.â His hands clenched into fists at his side, itching to grab the fleeing man and grace him with a well-earned punchâbut he wouldnât gift you that satisfaction, too.
When the elevator doors closed on the stranger, Coriolanus turned to face you. You were picking at your nails busily, as though the entire interaction had bored you beyond interest.
âWhat were you thinking?â He snapped at you, inching closer to glare you down.
You glanced up from your hands, offering a mere shrug as you crossed your arms and glanced up at him cheekily. âI wasnât thinking at all, really,â you admitted. âJust wanted to feel some good things.â
Bitterness found its way onto Coriolanusâ tongue. âDo I not make you feel good enough?â He scolded coolly, his eyes searching yours angrily. âWould you rather I call that prick back and have him stick his two expired inches inside you?â
A hint of hurt seemed to widen your eyes, your expression shaped with confusion. âDidnât think you cared what I got up to,â you muttered, glancing off to the side.
Coriolanus knew that to be complete bullshit, a feeble play at attempting to settle your own insecurities. He knew what you wanted to hear from himâthat you mattered to him, that he wanted you to himself, that the mere thought of another man touching you would send him into inexplicable rage. To an extent, those were all true, but not in the way you'd wanted them to be, not in a way he was capable of giving.
He restrained the anger he felt towards you, knowing that he needed to take a gentler approach. You weren't in a state fit to endure his anger, not now. He needed to coddle you, to keep your emotions intact, otherwise he risked losing you. He couldn't have that.
âI care,â he said at last, moving a hand to grip at your chin. Heâd forgotten how soft your skin was, itâd been weeks since heâd been permitted to touch you, business keeping him away from your warmth. He moved your face to his, searching between your eyes and your lips. âAnd you know that I care, too, or you wouldnât have put on this little display.â
âYou donât careânot really, Coriolanus,â you snapped, your hand plucking his from your chin. âYou constantly remind me that Iâm nothing more than pleasure to you, an object you love to parade around, so as long as itâs your name engraved on me.â
Correct, he thought, his hand returning to his side. He gazed at you, the cogs of his mind reeling busily as he cautiously selected his next words. He couldnât be angry with you, not now when you were so fragilely being kept together by emotion. It mattered what he said to you, even if the words werenât honest. He knew that you needed reassurance, something akin to love to cling to, to keep you satisfied beside him. The condition that came with having a toy he loved to play with, was having to look after it, to ensure it didnât break or wear with time.
That was exactly what he had to do with you, so he fed you whatever conniving words he could to keep you indulged in whatever illusion youâd had about your relationship with Coriolanus. A necessary evil to preserve his hold over you. He was selfish that way, but you were far too entertaining to let slip, and he did rather enjoy youâyour company and your body.
Truthfully, you did have some sort of hold over him, and heâd let just enough of that truth show to control you, to convince you of his love for you.
âIn all my years of existing, I've never once felt compelled to share my life with somebody else," Coriolanus told you softly. He moved his hand to return that same rogue strand of hair back behind your ear. "Not until you. I can't explain it, the way the mere thought of you with another man sends me into an unparalleled rageâto think that he could give you something I couldn't. The thought of somebody touching you the way I touch you. . . It's unbearable, unacceptable." He placed his hands on either one of your cheeks, lifting your head to face him. His words had too easily buttered you up, moulded your face with a look of infatuation. âIf I didnât care about you, I wouldnât have followed you all the way up here. Iâd have let you fuck whoever you want, whenever you want, however you want. But the fact is, I careâa lot.â
You still harboured a certain look of uncertainty in your eyes, those damned eyes that made him go feral. He could tell that you wanted to believe him, but you had reservations that he hadnât yet satisfied with his words. He needed to say more, do more.
âDo you see me chasing after any other girl the way I chase after you?â He pressed on, grabbing your face a little more ferociously, just to sell the point. âYouâve consumed me, reduced any ounce of respect Iâve once had for myself to nothingness. I couldâve had you pawned off the Capitol after the games, to do whatever bidding they demanded of you, but I chose to keep you by my side, to spoil you with everything you deserve for winning the games. Tell me one person whoâd be willing to do the same for a district nobody that they held no care for?â
Your eyes had grown teary at his words, your bottom lip quivering beyond your control. You had meant to look tougher, Coriolanus could tell, unmoved by his words, but you were only just a naive girl burdened with the need to be loved. So you believed it, every poisonous word dripping from his lipsâlapped it up hungrily like a douse of honey, in fact. Perfect. He was gaining back your trust.
You caved into Coriolanus, his hands falling from your face to wrap around your body and keep you against him. His one hand curled around the nape of your neck while the other wrapped around the small of your back, so perfectly shaped to accommodate his arm. How could he be convinced that you were not made just for him, when every aspect of your body seemed to be carved just for his touch? The hand on your head began to move with rhythmic strokes across your hair, his lips moving to place a kiss on the crown of your head. He rested his chin where heâd placed his kiss, as though sealing in the sensation, before he spoke up.
âYou were incredibly selfish tonight,â he murmured. You pulled back subtly to glance up at him with slightly furrowed brows, and he lifted his chin from your head to gaze back at you impassively. âYou put me through hell, making me watch as you flirted with that man, touched on him all over as you promised him sex. Do you think that was fun for me?â
Your eyes glinted with a hint of guilt, your lips parting with a soft no.
âNo,â Coriolanus agreed, his eyes undeniably annoyed as he glared at your guilt-ridden expression. His fingers ventured along your back, finding the zip to your dress, the only thing keeping your body prisoner in the fabric. He tugged at the zip, harshly at first, his need to punish you poking through his actions, but he had to refrain from that for the time-being. More slowly, he began to pull the zip down your body. âI think it only fitting that you should be punished for your little games, donât you agree?â His eyes flickered back up to yours coolly, almost challenging you to disagree.
The fabric of your dress grew loose on your body, the straps beginning to slide along the slope of your shoulders. You glanced up at him in silence, not wanting to admit the words, but the neediness on your expression told him that you were all game for your punishmentânot that it ever was something unpleasant. Coriolanus was always generous when it came to putting you in your place.
âGlad weâre on the same page, dove,â he said, the dress releasing your body at last. It pooled onto the floor around your heels, leaving you barren save for the bra suffocating your breasts. He glanced down at your lower half, faintly surprised to find that youâd neglected the courtesy of wearing any underwear. "Was this supposed to be an apology?" He asked, glancing back at you through a charming smirk.
A smile broke through onto your lips. "I thought it'd make undressing me quicker," you replied, lowering yourself to remove the heels from your feet. You were glad to be free of that hell. They made your calves look good, but they were torture on your feet.
"Well, aren't you considerate?" Coriolanus responded, then paused before adding. "So you knew how this night would end, with you and I nothing but a sexual amalgamation?â
"It was more of a hope,â you replied as you straightened yourself up.
Coriolanus' constraint gave in at your insinuations, his hand moving to caress your cheek, his eyes lowering to your perfect lips that he craved to taste in that very moment. You reached up to deliver the unspoken need onto his lips, but he kept you grounded with a hand around your collarbone. "You're not kissing me with those lips," he told you. âNot after that prick has wiped his saliva all over you.â
His hand left your body to reach into his blazer pockets. He pulled out a key, his hand snaking around your waist to slip the key into the door hole. His face was intentionally leaned close to yours, his eyes narrowed with a mixture of concentration as he struggled to unlock the door, and because he could smell the manâs cologne clinging desperately to your skin. Heâd need to take care of that before the evening could proceed, it was a detrimental hinderance to his cock. At last, the doors gave in with a loud click, and he pulled the key from the lock.
He leaned back with a curt beckoning of his chin. "After you,â he said, placing the key back into his blazer, his eyes not once neglecting yours.
You gave him a long stare, almost daring to be disobedient before you clearly thought better of it. You bent over to collect your dress and your shoes before turning to push the doors open. Coriolanus dropped his attention to your ass, which practically begged for his approval as it bounced with your every step. He entered inside after you, closing the doors behind him.
You ventured a few steps into the well-furnished living room of the suite and tossed your clothing onto the nearest sofa, your eyes trained on the glass walls that offered a breath-taking view of Panem. Youâd always marvel over the cityscape as if it was your first time seeing it, but in all honesty, it was the fact that the lights of Panem fashioned a different colour each night, and it always seemed to illuminate new buildings and views that youâd never noticed before.
Coriolanus watched you, your hand absentmindedly reaching to hold your elbow as you admired the viewâone that youâd already seen countless times before, he thought. He wondered whether you were contemplating your circumstances in this instant, as if the reality of what youâd done had finally started to sink in, and what the consequences to follow would be. He could read you fairly well, but there were still moments that your thoughts were lost on him.
âAre you scared?â He asked, his voice echoing throughout the empty space.
You turned to face him, your hands falling to your side. The lighting was dim, but the amusement etched onto your features were clear. âScared? I didnât survive the games only to be scared of you, Coriolanus Snow. Besides, this is hardly our first rodeo. I canât imagine thereâs much more surprises you could spring on me.â
Coriolanus cocked his eyebrows, smiling at those words. He appreciated your effortless wit. Most of Panemâs ladies were annoyingly submissive in their conversation, saying only what they thought he wanted to hear, as though itâd make them more desirable to him. You didnât need to be told what to say, you just said it, and he was glad for it. Control could be exhausting, especially when he strove to maintain it in almost every aspect of his life. It was refreshing to know that he didnât have to control your personality, too.
âGood,â he said, inching closer until he could reach out a hand to grab your arm. He turned you around forcefully, cool fingers teasingly tracing the skin of your shoulder as he made his way down to the clasp of your bra. He undid the hook, freeing your breasts from the pretty white lace, before tossing it onto the sofa beside your other discarded items. He turned you back to him, his eyes instantly lowering to the hardened nipples crowning your soft breasts. âSomebodyâs eager,â He jested, his voice a soft rumble as his eyes rose to meet yours. âDid you want something from me?â
âYou know I always do, Coryo,â you responded, taking your lower lip into a subtle bite.
Coriolanusâs eyes hardened at that nickname. âDonât call me that,â he demanded. That version of himself had died a long time ago.
Your eyebrows cocked at his tone, your lips momentarily pursed before you asked, âshould I call you Mr. Snow instead?â
âJust Coriolanus,â he replied, rolling his shoulders to remove his crimson blazer. Your eyes were stalking his every move. He could tell that you wanted nothing more than to reach out to what little clothing remained on his body and tear it away mercilesslyâthat you wanted him to take you right here at this very instant. But he was faintly impressed at your patience as you decided against any reckless action, instead opting to wait for his next command.
He folded his blazer and draped it over his arm, his free hand beckoning for you to follow him to his bedroom. âCome on.â
Your eyes followed his footsteps, your disbelief keeping your feet glued to the ground. Coriolanus glanced over his shoulder when your footsteps didnât commence behind him. Your reaction was justifiable. Heâd never once once invited you into his room in all the months youâd lived with him. He knew that you were foolishly thinking that this moment marked an intimate milestone in your relationship, that this act was an attempt for him to show just how much you meant to him.
âProblem?â He asked.
You willed away the dumbfounded look on your face, offering a half-hearted no as you caught up to Coriolanus. As if the sentiment was fragile, you merely walked ahead of him in silence, afraid that one wrong word would revoke the invite.
He trailed behind you as you approached the door to his bedroom. You tossed a glance over your shoulder as you sought out confirmation in your actions. Coriolanus gave a small nod, an encouraging smirk poking through. You smiled back, turning your attention to opening the door. You slipped inside, your attention instantly flying to the furniture that occupied the space. It was modest, very limited to necessities.
The bed, needlessly big, was slightly undone, the comforters left untidy as though heâd just climbed out of bed and the covers half pulled from the pillowsâa picture frozen in time. A plate and a mug was stacked onto the bedside table, the previous dayâs clothes draped across the sofas near the windows. Your eyes were fixating every detail around the room, as though burning a mental picture into your mind as a souvenir for later.
Coriolanus moved to place his blazer beside his other clothes on the sofa. âSorry for the mess,â he offered, moving to undo the buttons of his waistcoat. âAs Iâm sure you know, I donât usually have the worry of entertaining guests.â
You turned to face him, your eyes lowering to his skilful fingers. âI like the mess,â you responded, making your way over to him. âIt feels personal, seeing this side of youâallow me to.â You shooed his hands off the waistcoat, taking his place in undoing the buttons. You glanced up at him seductively, your eyes flickering down to his full lips.
He watched you undress him, slowly but surely, knowing that he couldâve done a much faster job. But he allowed you to take on the role, knowing that it made you feel important, that your body would show him just how thankful you were and how much these little details meant to you. Once you had unfastened the last button, you removed the waistcoat and admired his toned and broad physique, painfully concealed behind his white shirt.
Coriolanus glared at your wandering eyes, wondering whether you were trying to picture him naked. Heâd never been fully undressed in all of their little rendezvous, it was something far too intimate for him. And there had only been a few occasions where heâd fucked you with his cock and not his fingers or his mouth. Heâd found himself deriving the utmost pleasure when he got to solely focus on how you came undone for him, how powerful his every movement upon you really was.
When your hands moved to undo the buttons of his shirt, he grabbed at your wrist. âNot yet,â he told you. âYou still reek of him.â You frowned at his words, your hands falling to your sides in disappointment. âCome with me,â he said, moving past you toward the bathroom. âWeâre going to take a little bath.â
Your interest peaked at his words. âWeâre going to bath together?â You asked curiously as you followed after him.
âYouâre going to bath,â Coriolanus corrected as he reached the large alcove bathtub. He leaned over to turn on the tap. âIâm going to watch.â His hand trailed the many soaps and balms that lined the rim of the bathtub. Heâd made it a mission to collect every scented product he could manage once he got his hand on the money, simply because he could, and he liked smelling good.
âSounds perverted,â you shot at him, crossing your arms as you watched him draw your bath.
He grabbed ahold of a rose-scented oil and began pouring it into the water. âYou didnât agree to live with me because of my normalcy,â he said distractedly. âBut because you knew just how much my so called perversion had to offer your pathetic, little, touch-starved body.â
He tossed a glance at you over his shoulder, satisfied by the red gleam that had snuck onto your cheeks. He turned his attention back to the tub, reaching for a bottle of bubble bath. He began adding it to the water, a few droplets reaching up to stain his shirt.
âIn any case,â Coriolanus continued. âItâs the least you could do for me after tonightâs shit-show.â He placed the bottle back against the wall, closing the tap once the water had reached an appropriate level. He unbuttoned the cufflinks of his shirt and rolled up the sleeves, taking a few paces back. He jerked his head at you. âGo on,â he demanded.
You unfurled into a dramatic stretch, parading your breasts as you faced him. âJoin me.â
He fixed you with an unwavering stare, not so keen to play into another one of your games. âGet in.â
With one last glare, you turned and dipped one leg into the bath, instantly pulling back with a hiss. Your head snapped to face him. âItâs too hot,â you protested.
Coriolanus moved to retrieve a chair from the corner of the bathroom, placing it a few inches from where you stood. He sat himself down, offering a mere shrug to your words. âGood observation.â
âIâm not going to burn myself bloody just so that you can get off,â you spat.
âThen letâs kill some time while we wait for the water to cool down,â he suggested, his eyes once again tracing over every inch of your exposed body with keen interest.
You looked open to his request. âWhat did you have in mind?â
Coriolanusâs eyes flickered back up to you. âTouch yourself,â he said earnestly. You paused at his words, suddenly looking self-conscious, before you hesitantly began to caress your breasts. He watched your fingers squeeze and grope at your skin, imagining that it were his own hands in their stead, only heâd be a lot less kind in his touch. Your fingers trailed teasing circles around your nipples, further hardened at your own toying and his intense observation.
âLower,â he ordered, feeling frustrated at your lack of venturing into your lower extremities.
Your eyes glinted at him, a look that seemed to say greedy. Yes, he was. Who could blame him? Heâd grown up starving for most days of the year, now heâd take as much as he wanted.
His eyes fixated the hand that lowered in a painfully slow motion across your stomach, reaching that sweet spot housed between your legs. As your fingers began to fondle with your clit, you threw your head back with a pitiful moan. He knew he couldâve extracted a louder sound. He almost felt obliged to take over, but he had to remind himself that you were undeserving of his touch, that you needed to be punished with the urge to feel him, yet be denied that pleasure.
A few minutes of your fondling had passed before your ministrations eventually became too overwhelming to maintain control over your body. You lowered yourself to the bathmat, your hand not once leaving your cunt. You spread your legs open, offering a broader view to Coriolanus. Your eyes were glazed over as you glanced at him. He tilted his head slightly in approval, feeling his own cock growing interested at his view of your pathetic situation.
âThatâs good, sweetheart,â he praised, noting the way your eyes lowered to his pants. He parted his legs slightly to take the pressure off of his growing erection, eager to hide his arousal. He didnât want you to notice just yet how much he was truly enjoying this. Your movements eventually became more erratic, incoherent sounds spewing from your lips.
âI need you, Coriolanus,â you managed to blabber out, your tired head resting onto the rim of the bathtub, eyes periodically fluttering closed as you alternated between consciousness and whatever universe of pleasure was found behind your eyes. âPlease,â you begged.
âYouâll have me soon,â he said, âwhen I see it fit.â
âIâve been good for you,â you protested breathlessly. âIâve done everything you told me to.â
âYou have a lot to atone for,â Coriolanus pointed out, his eyes lowering to where your hand had slowed its movements. âDonât stop until I tell you to.â
You glanced at him past your tired lids, but you obliged nonetheless, adding a finger inside of your cunt to increase the pressure. He supposed it was fair, if he had refused to place his own fingers inside of you. He couldnât help the smirk that crept onto lips as he watched a stream of white begin to trail from your opening, recalling how good you tasted. It was a shame, really, that it would go to waste onto the bathroom mat instead of onto his appreciative tongue. From the sound of your pathetic mewling and your ragged breathing, Coriolanus knew that you were growing close to your high. He didnât intend for the fun to end just yet.
âI want you to continue until you feel like youâre going to cum,â he told you, though he wasnât sure youâd heard him past you own noise. âAnd then I want you to stop just before that happens.â
âThatâs mean, Coriolanus,â you managed to say.
âYou havenât seen mean yet, dove,â he said. âNow stop talking and focus.â
Your fingers picked up their pace with a newfound eagerness, the knot in your stomach growing inescapably larger, the urge to come undone becoming harder and harder to contain. Coriolanus wasnât sure youâd obey his command at this point, you looked too far gone to resume control over your own actions. His eyes narrowed, watching closely at what fate youâd choose to follow. Much to his disappointment, you practiced constraint, your hips shooting up with anticipation, only to sink to the floor as you denied yourself the orgasm.
You glanced at Coriolanus past your teary lashes, a silent request for praise. He heeded your need, rising from his seat to crouch beside your slumped figure. He combed the loose hair from your face, wiping away the beads of sweat that dotted your forehead.
âYouâre too good for this world,â he murmured sweetly. He felt as though he could have choked on the banality of his words, but the soft look in your eyes as you gazed up at him made it worthwhile. He nodded to your hand, still resting on your cunt. âShow me how good you felt.â
You pulled your hand from its playground between your legs, creamy white webs entangled on your fingers. They pulled a string along your stomach as you lifted your fingers for Coriolanus to study.
âIt almost looks like you donât need my help,â he chuckled, his hand fastening around your wrist to bring your fingers to his lips. His blue eyes bore down into you as he took each of your fingers into his mouth. One by one, his tongue hungrily weaved around them, claiming your juices from your skin.
You gazed at him with a wild look ablaze in your eyes. âDonât I deserve a taste?â You said. âAfter all, I did all the hard work. I deserve to taste the fruits of my labour.â
âYou should be modest,â Coriolanus said once he removed your fingers from his mouth. âNobody likes a brag.â
âDonât be so hard on yourself,â you retorted lightly, your eyes glinting with exhaustion. âI like you.â
âMhm,â he offered softly, placing your hand gently onto your chest. He reached his hand between your legs, an action that caused your thighs to stiffen around him. âRelax,â he cooed, pressing his palm into one of your thighs, encouraging you to open up to him.
âSorry,â you said, easing off the defensiveness. âIâm sensitive down there at the moment.â
âIâll be careful,â he promised, gazing at your fragile expression. Fuck, he could take you right here. His fingers moved with caution as they glided along the folds of your drenched cunt, gathering up your cum into untidy clumps. He followed a trail of arousal that had traveled down into the cleft of your ass, pressing a teasing finger into your asshole.
You gasped at the sudden invasion, and Coriolanusâs throat rumbled with a chuckle. He removed his fingers and brought them to your lips. You glanced at his slender fingers, not needing much convincing to take them into your mouth. You turned your attention to him as you began to suck at him suggestively, exaggerating your head bobbing as you made a point to cover the entire length of his fingers.
He watched you with a lopsided smirk, enjoying the whore-like behaviour you so willingly offered him. Now and again, heâd thrust his fingers a little too deep, more than what your throat could handle, which caused you to gag around him. Strings of your saliva had begun to slither down his exposed forearm, pleasantly warm on his skin. He imagined his cock in the stead of his fingers, enjoying the same warmth and wetness your mouth had to offer.
When youâd decidedly had enough of licking his fingers clean, you pulled your lips from him with a characteristic pop. Coriolanus reached that hand over the bathtub, dipping it into the water to feel its temperature. It had cooled down considerably, but it was still warm enough for a worthwhile soak. He withdrew his hand and wiped his fingers onto his shirt.
âThe bath will get cold soon,â he told you. âGet in.â
âIs that all?â You asked disappointedly.
âGet yourself cleaned up, and Iâll show you what Iâve got in stock for you.â He straightened up and took a few paces back as you perked with new resolve and found your feet.
He backed up to reclaim his position on the chair, crossing his legs as he watched you. Your back was momentarily on him as you climbed into the bathtub, the water sloshing a welcome. You submerged yourself into the warmth almost instantly, a content groan reverberating in your throat. His eyes lowered to your hand, which had began to spread the foam of the bubble bath across your bare chest and breasts.
âThe waterâs so good,â you murmured.
âDonât get too relaxed,â he warned.
âWhy donât you join me, Coriolanus,â you said, your eyes fluttered open as you moved to fold your arms onto the lip of bathtub. You rested your chin onto your arms, glancing at the erection he could no longer conceal. âIâll take good care of your little cock, that should keep me on my toes.â Your expression beamed at your choice of words, deliberately chosen to get a rise out of him.
Coriolanus merely scoffed at your teasing. He had many things to prove, but the size of his cock was not one of them.
âYou sure you could handle me, since youâre still so sensitive down there?â He asking mockingly. He leaned back into his chair, his hand coming up to clench his chin, the other grabbing his elbow.
You tilted your head prettily to one side. âOnly one way to find out,â you murmured, leaning back against the wall of the tub as you kicked your foot out and onto the edge. Water splashed partially onto the bathmat, but most had been caught by the bare floor.
Coriolanus lowered his eyes to the puddle. âYouâre making quite a mess for someone whoâs been in here for less than half an hour.â
âGive me an hour and youâll see just how much of a mess I can make,â you challenged.
He lifted his chin to face you, his eyes narrowing the slightest. This side of you was something heâd never experienced before; you were a lot more daring, undoubtedly brought on by the importance you felt at being allowed the opportunity to bathe in his bathroom and in his company. Heâd like to test just how long you could keep up this illusion of bravery, and how quickly youâd drop it when he had you sprawled onto his fingers.
âCome here, then,â he said, uncrossing his legs and spreading it as an invitation for your thighs.
Your eyes snuck a peak at his hard on before you broke away from your slutty pose and climbed from the warmth of the tub. You took a few steps toward Coriolanus, water and soap slithering down the curves of your body and onto the floor.
You stopped short of his legs. âYouâre sure?â You asked, eyes making a point of the shirt and pants he still wore. âWouldnât you be more comfortable with a little less on?â
Coriolanus grunted from a place of impatience, reaching out his hand to grab at your wrist. He pulled you into his lap, rough hands guiding your hips to comfortably straddle his clothed thighs. The soapy water coating your body began to bleed into his clothes, his pants the most affected, but he could hardly be arsed in this moment. He just needed to feel you, needed to use you. His fingers gripped at your thighs, his heavenly blue eyes boring down onto your strained expression as he began to forcibly guide your bare cunt over his bulge.
Coriolanusâs movements set a generous pace, endorphins bolting through your core each time his bulge struck your sensitive clit. The texture of his pants was harsh on your skin, creating a friction that seemed to generate copious amounts of heatâscrew sticks and stones, this method of fucking could have started all the fires in the world. You wrapped your arms around his neck, your lower half instinctively beginning to cooperate as you rocked back and fourth in sync with his guidance.
Your head came to rest in the chiselled crook of his neck, his earthy fragrance fucking heaven-sent on your senses, further engulfing you in bliss. His throat vibrated against your ear with strained moans, they came as subtle grunts that prompted his hands to speed up the pace. He was so eager to feel you, to settle his drawn-out erection. You winced as his fingers burrowed into the skin of your thighs. Heâd neglected all caution in your handling, his need to control your movements overpowering what slither of consideration heâd held for your comfort.
It didnât take long for the stinging sensation to blend with your pleasure, slurred moans pouring from your lips as you felt cum begin to leak from your entrance. It lubricated the fabric of Coriolanusâs pants, offering some relief from the coarse material. You screwed your eyes shut and pressed your face into his shirt, eager to muffle the mewls of pleasure you seemed to have zero control over. His chest rumbled with a breathy fuck, and you felt his body momentarily convulse with the overwhelming feelings your bodies shared.
You turned your head, your nose brushing against the skin of his neck. Your eyes fluttered open, drinking in the view of his adamâs apple, so prominent and manly. It bobbed as Coriolanus swallowed a moan. You brought your furthest hand forward to hook the side of his neck, pulling him against your lips. He didnât resist, itâs almost as though he was too focused on his own work to pay attention to your own dealings. You littered sloppy kisses all across his neck, placing extra emphasis around his adamâs apple. You kissed all around the bulge before giving into your thoughts and dragging your tongue over it, leaving a sloppy trail in your wake.
The warmth and wetness of your tongue on his throat made Coriolanus release an unexpected groan, a hand leaving your hips to wrap around your throat. You let slip a chuckle at his action, and he held you out in front of him, his cold eyes glaring into yours as he decided to brutalise his movements. You moaned loudly, the sound strained as you forced it past his suffocating hold on your neck.
âCoriolanus,â you choked out breathlessly, your hands sliding along his broad shoulders. âI need you inside of me.â
âYouâve waited this long,â Coriolanus muttered. âYou can wait a little longer.â His hold on your throat grew tighter, your vision starting to blur behind a mixture of fresh tears and your compromised oxygen.
He watched your eyes flutter closed and your teeth clench as you inched closer and closer to your edge, your nails digging through his shirt and into his shoulders, steading yourself against his aggression. His singular hand on your hip began to cramp at his incessant groping and steering, but he was beginning to feel his own orgasm approaching, and that was motivation enough to push throughâthat, and your whorish desperation.
He released his grip on your neck, the air returning to your lungs as a cough and a splutter. He hooked the nape of your neck and pulled you into the comfort of his shoulder, urging you to rest your tired head there as he finished you both off. With both hands once again firm on your hips, he picked up the pace. He rested his chin onto the crown of your head, his eyes fluttering closed as he allowed the scent of your conditioner to swallow his senses.
With each movement, he brought you down harder onto his cock, craving rougher strokes. The squelching of the cum coating your folds and spreading along his pants was music to his ears, and he gritted his teeth to bite back his ragged breathing so that he could continue to hear the way heâd transformed your cunt. He could feel his own pre-cum trickling from his tip, the warmth spreading along his shaft by the generosity of your wet folds. Fucking hell did he yearn to be inside of you, almost as much as you craved him, but he had to be stronger than his own desires.
It didnât take long before every nerve tracing the length of his cock began to fire rapid impulses, the prolonged stimulation proving to be too overbearing. His lips parted with strained breaths, the black abyss behind his eyes beginning to birth a cosmos of anticipatory stars. The image built and built until he thrust you one last violent time along his cock, his hips rocking up into you, delivering just the right ounce of pressure before white engulfed his vision.
His grip on your hips loosened, his ears buzzing with the aftermath of his high. He hadnât even realised that youâd come undone before he had, your whimpers and vulgar pleas lost in his concentration. The only evidence of your orgasm was the new patch of wetness that had marked his pants, a generous mixture of squirt and cum.
Your breathless voice sounded at his ear as you moved your head from under his chin. âI want to feel like that all the time.â
âThat can be arranged, dove,â he chuckled hoarsely.
You felt his hand leave your hip, the skin there instantly growing cool. He dragged his fingers repeatedly along the wisps of your hair. It was as though he were petting a dog, only his touch was a lot gentler and more intimate. You allowed your eyes to flutter closed, your lips parting with a content sigh as you waited for the ecstasy of your orgasm to dissolve. You rested your chin on his shoulder, listening to the calm of his breathing, focusing on his hand caressing your hair.
You pulled back to glance at him, his eyes questioning as he returned your stare. Your attention moved to his lips, they looked so soft and plump, not nearly red enough. Youâd been robbed of the opportunity to nibble on them, to contort them between your own lips, to taste the wine heâd downed at the party. You didnât think youâd be properly satisfied until you got your wish. Did that make you ungrateful?
Coriolanus offered a faint smirk, your thoughts loud and clear. How selfish of him, heâd forgotten to kiss you during your little ride. Not a train-smash, he had the entire night to make up for that. His hand on your hair tightened there, forcing you into his vicinity. You wanted to protest at the hairs pulling at your scalp, but you hadnât gotten the chance, not when his lips silenced yours in a hungry tumble.
He didnât kiss you as often as you wouldâve liked, but when he did, it was always imbued with passion, his movements erratic like heâd been starving and you were the first source of food heâd encountered in days. You got lost in the movement of his lips, the pace so fast that you couldnât properly match it, though not for lack of trying. You allowed yourself to be swept up in his kiss, accepting that he was in control.
Coriolanus moved his hands to grab ahold of your breasts, his attention marvellously divided between fondling them and tracing his tongue along the inside of your mouth. You moaned into him, the sound muffled and lost to your entanglement. His teeth scraped against your bottom lip, offering a sharp nip that caused you to wince in surprise. You felt his lips broaden in a smug smile, his hands neglecting your breasts and trailing a seductive path down your waist to deliver a crisp spank to your ass.
The skin stung where heâd struck you, but he was so quick to soothe the ache with gentle rubbing. The curves of your ass fit so perfectly into his palms. He pulled his lips from yours, not sparing even an instant for you to process his movements before his sharp nose found sanctuary in your cleavage. He littered kisses there before moving to plant a trail around the circumference of your breasts.
âCoriolanus,â you moaned, your head lolling back.
He hummed against your skin, a halfhearted acknowledgement. His hand found its way between your thighs, his middle finger sliding between your labia where beads of your brand new arousal waited to greet him. He slathered his fingers in your juice, lubricating the skin before he slid his finger into your entrance.
Your entire composure collapsed at that, the built up suspense of needing him inside you satisfied at last. Your entrance clamped around him at first, the sensation always forgotten with how few and far apart these glorious moments were spread, but within a fraction of a second, you melted onto his finger.
You nibbled at your lower lip, the bite deepening as Coriolanusâs teeth found your nipple. He alternated between tugging at your hardened buds and swirling his tongue around and all over it, mischievously marking steaks of saliva along your skin. A few seconds later, his ring and index finger joined the party within you.
Your grip on his shoulders lowered down his back, eagerly clawing at the hard and chiselled muscles, but his damned shirt got in the way. You pulled back, Coriolanusâ lips robbed of your breasts. He glanced at you, his fingers continuing their thrusts. Your hands flew to tug at the buttons of his shirt. The first few youâd managed to undo, but you had finite patience for the others, resorting to an aggressive tug that split the buttons from the fabric.
âAre you going to pay for that?â Coriolanus jested lightly.
âIâm sure thereâs plenty more shirts where that one came from,â you said hastily, yanking the sleeves down his broad shoulders.
You instantly dove in to kiss at his chest. Heâd never been excessively muscled, but he was still strong and toned, his frame broad and absolutely mouth-watering to gaze upon. Your hands wandered along his chest, sliding along his shoulders and down his arms. You attempted to tug his shirt all the way off, Coriolanus aiding your motion as he momentarily pulled his fingers from inside you.
He rolled his shoulders and removed his shirt, tossing it onto the floor. You glanced at his torso, now completely exposed to you. You couldnât stifle the smile on your lips, thinking that he looked a lot like a male stripperâbare-chested yet still clothed from the waist down, presenting himself on a chair. All he was missing was a sexy dance of some sort.
Coriolanus frowned at your gawking. âWhatâs on that mind of yours?â
You pursed your lips. âNothing,â you answered, placing a kiss on his lips. You moved to murmur in his ear, ânow If itâs not too much to ask, would you kindly stick your fingers back inside of me?â
When you withdrew to look at him, Coriolanus wore a wicked smirk. âWhat a slutty thing to say.â His fingers returned to your cunt, but instead of easing his way inside, he opted for his whole hand at once.
You didnât know whether you were more shocked at his gesture, or the way your cunt had easily welcomed him. His movements were considerably less cautious than before, but you didnât care about that now, only that he was finally inside of you. You let out a lengthy moan, so eager to verbalise your appreciation. Your hands moved to cup your breasts, squeezing and kneading them together as you tilted your head back.
You closed your eyes and focused on his hand inside you, how each thrust grew deeper and closer to your sweet spot. Itâs as though heâd already mapped out your insides, his fingers knowing exactly which way to wander. Gods, you truly didnât know whether you or Coriolanus enjoyed this more. He kept up a regular pace for a while, and youâd quickly grown impatient and needy for his brutality.
âFaster,â you complained.
Coriolanus slowed his movements, coming to a complete stop. He wholly expected the miserable look on your face as your head snapped down to face him. How could he allow you to think that he was here to serve you, as opposed to you serving him. He wasnât just going to hand you what you wanted, life certainly hadnât been that generous with him. No, youâd have to work for it.
âOkay, we can go faster,â he said, cocking his head slightly. You regained a spark at those words, but it quickly blew out at what came next. âBut youâll do it yourself, since youâre unsatisfied with what Iâm giving you.â
âI didnât mean it like thatââ you attempted to protest, but Coriolanus cut you off with free his index finger pressing against your lips, his lips fashioned in a hush.
âNo talking,â he murmured. âJust get to work.â He beckoned down to your cunt, his hand motionless inside of you.
Devastated at having to do the work yourself, you crossed your arms around his neck, your expression adorably resentful as you lifted your hips and began to ride him. Coriolanus lowered his free hand to rest at your hip, his attention wandering to your breasts. He couldnât have ignored them even if he tried, not when they were bouncing inches from his face and calling out for attention. Your moans quickly commenced, your hips already starting to tremble with your next orgasm. You tossed your head back, your movements becoming uncoordinated, like your body had already started to give up.
Coriolanus felt your walls begin to clench around his hand, glancing up to glimpse your face. âLook at me,â he called to you. Your head lowered to face him at once, your eyelids drooping. âAre you going to cum?â He asked, and you nodded eagerly, followed by a strewn out moan.
Good, he thought. His hand on your hip began to press against your movements, interrupting the pace youâd managed to get going. Your eyes widened as your orgasm retracted into a dissatisfying gasp, the high that had been building instantly collapsed at your sudden lack of movement.
âCoriolanus,â you snapped, your tone coming across as a whine. Youâd become frustrated with his teasing, and your body shared the sentiment. Your clit ached now, exhausted tremors seizing every muscle of your body. âYouâre being a dick!â
âNo,â he countered, pulling his hand from your entrance. He looked condescending as his eyes flickered across you face. âIâm punishing you, just like I promised. Youâre getting exactly what you deserve, but youâre spoiled and used to getting your way.â
You didnât have anything to retort, so you glared at him in silence, ignoring the hurt that his words had inflicted upon you.
âDonât pout,â he murmured, wiping his wet hand along your thigh.
Then, without warning, he hoisted you up at the thighs and manoeuvred you bridal-style from the bathroom towards the bedroom. He lowered you onto the undone comforters of his bed, leaning down with you to place a swift kiss on your furrowed brows. He straightened up at the foot of the bed, his hands reaching for your calves.
âYou want to cum?â He asked, his fingers wrapping around your legs to pull you down the bed and closer to where he stood. âIâll make you cum, over and over again.â That was a promise.
Your lips parted with shock, words scattering from your tongue as his hands travelled over yours knees and grabbed at your thighs. He pried your legs apart, exposing your cunt to him. The last view you captured of him was the way his eyes traced your exposed lower half, a barely noticeable smirk pulling at one corner of his lips. Then, his head dipped into you, his tongue flat and rough on your folds.
You threw your head back into the sheets, your fingers instantly curling into the material as if it were the only thing keeping you grounded and preventing you from getting carried away into another universe. Coriolanus was conscious to strike his nose against your tender clit every so often, clearly enjoying the way it sent a jerk through your body. It was like his own personal control-switch to play with. You were too exhausted to limit the noises that you produced for him, so everything came out a loud and blabbering mess. You didnât ever want to stop being touched this way.
Coriolanus was a clean man. He liked to keep his hair tamed, his jaw void of any developing beard that he felt would deface his appearance. But it had to have been a week since his last shave, you thought. You could feel the faint stubble poking through, grazing your intimate area as he ravished you below. It was the perfect addition to your arousal, adding just enough noise to push you into overstimulation.
You fought the urge to lift your lower half from the sheets, to greedily claim a deeper thrust of his tongue. He wouldnât take kindly to that, and you didnât think you had the capacity to endure any more teasing. Instead, you opened your thighs even wider, your hands releasing the comforter to grip at your breasts.
Coriolanus approved of your behaviour, his praise coming in the form of his tongue up your entrance. You let slip a breathy gasp, your jaw clenching at the lightning that seemed to obscure your vision.
âFuck, Coriolanus,â you drawled, tears pricking at the corners of your eyes. âPleaseâlet me cum!â
He hummed against your clit, the vibrations serving as the fucking icing on top of this sex-themed cake. You core knotted, your breath catching in your throat. Your eyes screwed shut, the pressure building and building and threatening to spill over as Coriolanusâ tongue picked up the pace. He twirled your clit around, his fingers pinching at your thighs, and just like that, your body released all the tension of the evening.
Your chest bobbed up and down with heavy breathing, not feeling as though you could bear to open your eyes. Itâs only when you felt Coriolanusâ warmth withdraw from your thighs that you lifted your head to glance up at him. He straightened up and met your gaze with an impressed look, his perfect lips offering a smileâa genuine smile. The sight set off butterflies in your stomach. He was proud of you and your performance.
âYou did well, dove,â he praised.
You beamed at his compliment, words not easily extracted from him. The sheen on his jaw caught your attention, your heart jolting with shame to see him absolutely doused in your juice. It trailed well down his neck and onto his chest, making a point to follow the natural contours of his pecs.
âIâm sorryââ a hand flew to your mouth, hardly believing that youâd produced a mess of that magnitude.
âSorry?â Coriolanus mocked, his perfect teeth flashing in a laugh. âDonât be. Itâs a compliment. You show your appreciation like a real woman, just the way I like it.â
You watched as his hands lowered to his red trousers, his fingers moving to undo the button. You glanced back at him in alarm.
âYou didnât think we were done just yet?â He asked, his smile turning wicked as he unzipped his trousers and pulled it down. âI edged you twice,â he explained. âAnd Iâd like to think Iâm a fair man. So,â he paused and lowered his underwear, which freed his erection. âI owe you another good time.â
He stepped out from the last of his clothing, towering over your body as he inched his way toward you. âI wonât lie, though,â he murmured once heâd reached your ear. âIâm doing this mostly for me. I think Iâve waited long enough to feel you, really feel you.â
You glanced up at him, your eyes large and pleading like a pathetic mutt begging for scraps. âI donât think I can take any more, Coriolanus.â
âDid it feel good, what you did just now?â
âIt felt like heaven,â you told him softly.
âThen this time will feel like being completely reborn,â Coriolanus insisted, his hand relocating hair from your sticky face. âAnd even if it doesnât, youâll push through because this is your punishment, and punishment is not always meant to be enjoyable.â
You glanced off to the side, hating how much the cold look in his eyes stirred something inside of you.
Coriolanus found satisfaction in the way his words kept you silent. He grabbed your chin and turned you back to him, his thumb pressing into your lower lip before he planted a hollow kiss in its stead. He placed his forearm beside your head, leaning onto that side as his other hand reached down for his cock. He gave a lazy pump across his hard length, a pathetic attempt at spreading his pre-cum. He didnât need to do any better, not when your drenched cunt offered enough lubrication for him to enter without a struggle.
And it did, without a single hitch, as he pushed himself inside of you. Your soft gasp sounded in his ear, his attention still trained below. Once he was sure he was properly inside of you, he turned his head up and placed his arm on the other side of your head. You felt so warm and welcoming, definitely a lot more relaxed than the previous times heâd stuck his cock inside of you.
He began to thrust, not having much patience to start slow and gradually build up the pressure. This entire evening had been leading up to this moment, the opportunity for him to be in this exact position. Heâd spent all of his patience, now he just needed to finish what heâd set out to do. He was pleased to feel your hands snake beneath his arms and take up a hold on his back, that is until your nails suddenly sunk into his skin.
He let out pained moan, his gaze growing fierce at the satisfaction on your face. Two could play that game. He withdrew his length a far way out, his tip almost slipping from your entrance entirely, before he rammed himself back inside with an animalistic thrust. His tip collided with your g-spot, a harsh and sudden greeting to the sensitive area.
You let out a scream, your stomach lifting against him. Before you could process the shock, he rammed into you again, and again, and again. Each time, he returned with the same force, and not once did he fail to miss his target. Your nails in his skin continued to sink deeper, the both of you reduced to nothing more than grunting and gasping.
The bed creaked with every movement, the room echoing with the raw percussion of your skin-on-skin contact. Coriolanus bucked into you with such aggression that he began to moan with every sway of his hips. His hands, trapping your head on either side, slipped behind your head to grip at your hair. He yanked, opening up your neck to him. You moaned as his lips buried against your skin, the tip of his nose flattening into you as his teeth sought out your skin.
His movements became jerky, his teeth gritted as he grunted against your neck. You slipped a hand from his back to bury it into his hair, fastening your fingers around his blond wisps that had turned curly from the sweat of his activity.
âIâm going to cum,â he breathed into your neck, his hand flying to one of your thighs. He pulled it up to wrap around his lower half, his thrusts growing violently needy. âFuck,â he spat, then called your name desperately. You felt too good, especially now that your walls seemed to clench around himâhe knew that you were close, too.
Your second orgasm arrived, the hot wetness pooling around his length. He couldnât maintain his control anymore. At last, he gave himself over to his pleasure, his movements becoming sluggish as he felt his release inside of you. He didnât stop his thrusts, not until he felt himself empty every last drop inside of you.
Coriolanus collapsed beside you, his hand finding your cheek and pulling your head against his chest. For many minutes, nobody spoke, each one struggling to regain their breath. His other hand held your lower body against him, keeping his cock secure inside of you. He could feel your mingled juices leaking along his thigh and onto the sheets, a mess he didnât mind right now.
You burrowed into Coriolanusâ arm, a tired sigh leaving your lips. âFucking hell,â was all you could manage to say after an ordeal like this. Tonight had been his most brutal fuck thus far.
Your body ached everywhere, and you werenât sure your swollen clit would ever forgive you for what youâd brought upon it. You supposed it served you right for trying to make him jealous by flirting with another man. Youâd never stupidly test his limits that way again, that was for sure. You two laid in comfortable silence, riding out the last of your highs.
âCoriolanus,â you called to him softly, your fingers playing with his. âDo you love me?â
Coriolanus tilted his head down to you, his eyes widening at the sudden question. His lips parted to say something, but he quickly bit on his tongue. It was clear that your need for his attention had grown into something more profound, that youâd started to care about him in more than just what he had to offer your body. He turned his gaze up to the roof. âMy position doesnât permit me the time to love,â he answered carefully.
Your hair shuffled against his arm as you sat yourself up to face him. âWhat the hell is that supposed to mean?â
He turned his gaze back onto you, calling your name softly. âI have goals to achieve in this world. It leaves little time for relationships.â
Your eyes held disappointment. âThen whatâs the point of all of this?â
âThe point,â Coriolanus said, taking your hand into his, his thumb rubbing comforting circles across your skin. âIs that we keep each other company, offer a comfort that others couldnât gift us even if they tried. We satisfy each other in ways that only we know how to.â
âSo Iâm just a source of entertainment to you?â You snapped, attempting to pull your hand from his, but his grasp on you tightened.
âAm I anything different to you?â He asked, his tone level, his cool eyes challenging. âDonât mount a high horse, not when you entered this knowing exactly what you were in for. I take care of you and I make you feel goodâthatâs plenty more than you wouldâve gotten back in the district and in any other location in the Capitol, for that matter. Would you rather go back to your district, back to a cold bed and an empty stomach with nobody to rely on? Maybe youâd rather I put you on the market for as some Capitol slut looking for her next sponsor. I can make that happenââ
âNo!â You interrupted, your hard eyes thawing with a look of horror, like youâd recalled all the terrible memories of your life in the district. It was far from pleasant, a past youâd have liked to forget for good. You had nobody, nothing to return to.
As for the Capitol, you knew that there were infinite weirdos and perverts that would marvel at the opportunity to get their hands on a hunger games victor, especially one that had been branded by Coriolanus Snow more than once. You could only imagine what sort of prize that made you, a collectible to be displayed. The thought made your stomach turn.
âI donât want that,â you said, your head lowering in defeat. âI just want you.â
Coriolanusâs eyes raked across your figure, so slumped in submission and hopelessness. He realised then just how much heâd broken you, reshaped you into a lapdog that would only eat directly out of his hand. âGood,â he murmured. âI want you, too. Only you.â His free hand moved to cup your chin, tilting it to face him. âAnd maybe. . . you could teach me how to love.â
Your eyes widened at those words, the hand clasped in his going stiff. He tugged at you, pulling you into him. Your head found its way nuzzled into the crook of his neck, his chin moving to rest atop your head. He continued to play with your fingers, his other arm cushioning your neck and holding you against him. He felt your breathing slow into an easy sleep, your warm breath flushing against his chest. He closed his own eyes, breathing deeply at the sweet scent radiating from your hair. He allowed it to lull him to sleep, mulling over your interaction.
Heâd known the truth for years alreadyâthat his heart bore no capacity for love. It had saddened him, at first, made him feel as though heâd been formed wrong in the womb. His father had loved his mother enough to bring him into this worldâhis cousin, Tigris, had loved him, too, to the point where sheâd have sacrificed everything to ensure that heâd survived the war. Sejanus, too, had loved him like a brother, trusted him with all that he was, and it had ultimately killed him.
All his life, Coriolanus had been cradled with love, but heâd been forever cursed with the inability to return it. It had taken him years to accept it, until one day, everything had clicked into place.
Perhaps he wasnât meant to love, not when the world had become a disastrous mess in need of order, in need of somebody to bring it to that stage. He knew then that he could offer the order that Panem needed. Peace came at the cost of blood, and blood came at the cost of strength. Strength meant that love had no place and no say in the hard decisions to be made, for its love that made you vulnerable, and vulnerability was a weakness. He didnât bear that weakness, and he never would.
As for you? Well, you were somewhat of a complicated matter as of now. When it came down to itâthe decision between you and his destiny, heâd choose destiny without a doubt. But for now, heâd keep you close. Heâd shower you with attention, spoil you with his touch, offer you everything youâve ever wanted in a partner. And once youâve lost all worth to him, heâd discard of you.
Coriolanus knew that his path was one headed straight for the top, to claim the title of president of Panem. All that heâd done to get here, everything that heâd achieved up until now, it was all just the beginning. He was glad nowâthat he could not find it in himself to love anyone. It left him free of any liabilities, gave his enemies not even a fraction of power to hurt him.
For itâs the things we love most that destroy us.
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You MUST know I had to include that iconic line
Anyways, Iâm sincerely sorry that this fic is like 15k words. I always tell myself to keep it simple but Iâve literally got no say over what happens once my fingers start typing away. I hope you all have enjoyed this read. Iâm not TOO sure how I feel about it, but I think Iâve just gotten to the point where Iâve proof-read it so much that I honestly canât stand it anymore.
This is my first every coryo fic and it was incredibly daunting to write, considering that he is such a complex character to portray and because I unintentionally resorted to flowing between his and the readerâs perspective, which I usually hate, but shit happens. Iâve never read the books (I am getting them for my birthday yay) so it was difficult to get inside of his mind given that Iâve never trod there before. In any case, I hope that I did his character justice in this blabbering mess, even if I did add my own sadistic twist lmao.
MERRY CHRISTMAS MY LOVELIESđ
Your comments & reblogs are always appreciated. Thank you!! ~
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A/n: u guys r gonna have to imagine alot w these pics đ but i wrote whos supposed to be who so it makes a bit more sense!!!!! THIS ONLY MAKES SENSE IF YOU READ THE FIRST BIT
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Prepare for the âAnastasiaâ photo dump đ
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tomblyth: yummy cake đ°đ
âïž y/n_y/l/n: i'm craving it so bad rn đ€€
user1: THE MOVIE WAS SO GOOD WTAF
user2: Y/n and Tom's on screen chemistry is insane...
user3: her smile in the second picture đ„č
user4: empress Marie was a slay
âïž y/n_y/l/n: she honestly was
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this is what we gotta say to those who havenât watched Anastasia yet đđđ (weâre kidding)
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user1: how was filming in St. Petersburg??
âïž y/n_y/l/n: had the best time of my life đ St. Petersburg is so gorgeous.
user2: yesss feed us w more Anastasia bts please!!!
âïž y/n_y/l/n: yes maâam đ«Ą
âïž user3: BAHAHHAHAAH
user4: everyone go watch Anastasia rn. Itâs a masterpieceđ
user5: sheâs so gorgeous itâs not fair
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pics of me eating the most 21st century food in my 20th century fits đâŒïž
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tomblyth: fun fact, I took ALL of these
âïž y/n_y/l/n: đđđ
user1: this is so funny to me LMAO
user2: the fits đ€
âïž user3: THEY WERE EVERYTHING!
user4: so this is what u guys do behind the scenes? eating?
âïž tomblyth: yup.
âïž y/n_y/l/n: pretty much!!
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âAnastasiaâ out now in the cinemas!!!! So incredibly grateful to have worked with such amazing and talented people, experiencing it with y/n made it even better đ
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y/n_y/l/n: iâm tearing upâŠ. It was so much fun, Iâm going to miss everything about it đ
âïž tomblyth: gonna miss seeing u in ur costume đ„č you looked absolutely gorgeous
âïž y/n_y/l/n: awee I love u!!!!
âïž user1: my parents r so adorable đŁ
user2: third pic is everything!
user3: they did so good with the casting!
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St. Petersburg weather was smth else đ„¶
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actorwhoplaysrasputin: it wasnât even that cold y/n đ
âïž y/n_y/l/n: says the person who wore 4 jackets in between takes đ
âïž actorwhoplaysrasputin: zip it.
âïž user1: I love this duo đ
actorwhoplaysphlegmenkoff: it was a pleasure to work with such young, talented actors like yourselves!!!
âïž y/n_y/l/n: awee thank you actors name!! It was an honour to work with you!!
âïž tomblyth: appreciate it man đ€
user2: them casting actors name as Rasputin was the best decision ever. Canât see anyone else for that role!
user3: this movie had such iconic actors and actresses đ
âïž user4: I just know this movie was expensive đ
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Anastasia dump pt. 2974822? đ
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user1: FIRST PIC HAHAHAHA
âïž y/n_y/l/n: felt xtra cute so I had to đ
âïž user2: Tom not looking amused in the back đ€Ł
âïž tomblyth: Iâm used to it
actorwhoplaysvladimir: miss you guys!!!
âïž tomblyth: you act as if we donât live in the same street đ€Ł
âïž y/n_y/l/n: literally walk the few steps and youâll see us lol
user3: I canât wait for more of your bts vids to come out on yt bc man theyâre so entertaining!!
âïž y/n_y/l/n: Iâm posting a 30 min bts vlog tomorrow đ
âïž user4: YAYYY
âïž user5: y/n has a yt channel and I havenât heard about it?
âïž user6: sheâs had it since she was in high school đ
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Canât believe âAnastasiaâ has been nominated for best film adaptation of books!!! Thank you everyone who voted :)
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y/n_y/l/n: THIS IS INSANEE AHHHH
âïž tomblyth: đ„łđ
themichaellockshin: đ€©đ€©
actorwhoplaysnicholas: hell yeah!!
user1: theyâre so cute omg đ„ș
user2: actresswhoplaysdowagermarie is such a slay đ
âïž y/n_y/l/n: she literally is!
âïž tomblyth: we love her!
âïž user2: ahhh you both responded đ
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Cheers again for the love and support for this movie!! To all the cast members Iâve said it before and Iâll say it again, you are all such talented people and it was wonderful working with you all!
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y/n_y/l/n: thank you Michael â€ïž will never forget this experience :)
âïž themichaelockshin: you and Tom were spectacular đ€©
tomblyth: what a journey we went through!
actorwhoplaysrasputin: miss you all!
actorwhoplaysolga: thank you Michael!! Filming with you all was a wonderful experience đ«¶
user1: ice cream during the winter?
âïž y/n_y/l/n: yup. What abt it đ
user2: awe I love this cast sm
âïž user3: literally the best cast
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Okay. I've been playing Tokyo Debunker today, since the release happened to catch me on a day when all I'd planned to do was write fanfiction. I just finished reading the game story prologue (it was longer than expected!), so here's a review type post. If you're reading this post not having seen a single thing about this game: it's a story-based joseimuke gacha mobile game that just released globally today. It's about a girl who suddenly finds herself attending a magic school and mingling with elite, superhuman students known as ghouls. If you look in the tumblr tag for the game you'll see what appears to be a completely different game from 2019 or so: they retooled it completely midway through development, changing just about everything about it due to "escalating competition within the gaming industry."
I'll talk about how this looks like a blatant twst clone at the end.
Starting with the positive: The story is charming. I enjoyed it thoroughly the entire time and am excited to read more. The mix between visual novel segments and motion comics was really nice--it broke things up and added a lot of oomph to the action or atmospheric scenes that visual novels generally lack. I like the art in the comic parts a lot. the live2d in the visual novel parts is... passable. Tone-wise, I think the story was a little bit all over the place and would like to see more of the horror that it opened on, but I didn't mind the comedic direction it went in either. The translation is completely seamless. The characters so far all have unique voices and are just super fun and cute. Of the ones who've had larger roles in the story so far, there's not a single one I dislike. It's all fully voiced in Japanese and the acting is solid. (I don't recognize any voices, and can't seem to find any seiyuu credits, so it seems they're not big names, but they deliver nonetheless.) Kaito in particular I found I was laughing at his lines a ton, both the voicing and the writing.

He's looking for a girlfriend btw. Spreading the word.
The problem is like. The gameplay is the worst dark-pattern microtransaction-riddled bullshit I've ever seen. Hundred passive timers going at all times. Fifty different item-currencies. Trying to get you to spend absurd amounts of real world money at every turn. There's like five different indicators that take you to various real-money shop items that I don't know how to dismiss the indicator, I guess you just have to spend money, wtaf. Bajillion different interlocking systems mean you have zero sense of relative value of all the different item-currencies. I did over the course of the day get enough diamonds for one ten-pull, which I haven't used yet. Buying enough diamonds for a ten-pull costs a bit under $60 (presumably USD, but there's a chance the interface is automatically making that CAD for me--not gonna spend the money to check lmfao), with an SSR rate of 1%. BULLSHIIIIIT.

There's like a goddamn thousand-word essay explaining the dozen different types of character upgrades and equippables and equippables for the equippables!! Bad! Bad game design! That's just overcomplicating bullshit to trick people into thinking they're doing something other than clicking button to make number go up! That is not gameplay!
In terms of the actual gameplay, there is none. The battle system is full auto. There might be teambuilding, but from what I've seen so far, most of that consists of hoping you pull good cards from gacha and then clicking button to make number go up. There's occasional rhythm segments but there's no original music, it's just remixes of public domain classical music lmao. I'd describe the rhythm gameplay as "at least more engaging than twisted wonderland's," which is not a high bar
At least there's a cat in the rhythm bit.
And like, ok, I gotta remark on how derivative it is. Like I mentioned in my post earlier, this game is unabashedly aping twisted wonderland's setting and aesthetic. (That said, most of the stuff it steals from twst is magic school stuff that twst also basically stole from Harry Potter, so...?) However, it isn't exactly like twst: in this one, the characters say fuck a lot and bleed all over the place and do violence. Basically, the tone is a fair bit more adult than twst's kid-friendly vibe. (Not, like, adult adult, and I probably wouldn't even call it dark--it's still rated Teen lol. Just more adult than twst.)
Rather than just being students at magic school, the ghouls also go out into the mundane world to go on missions where they fight and investigate monsters and cryptids. Honestly, the magic school setting feels pretty tacked-on. The things that are enjoyable about this would've been just as enjoyable in about any other setting--you can tell this whole aspect was a late trend-chasing addition, lmao. So, yeah, it's blatantly copying twst to try to steal some players, but... Eh, I found myself not caring that much. Someone more (or less) into twst than me may find it grating.
Character-wise, eh, sure, yeah, they're a bit derivative in that aspect too, but it's a joseimuke game, the characters are always derivative. Thus far the writing & execution has been solid enough that I didn't care if they were tropey. If I were to compare it to something else, I'd say the relationship between the protagonist and the ghouls feels more like that of the sage and wizards in mahoyaku than anything from twst. There's some mystery in exactly what "ghouls" are and their place in this world that has me intrigued and wanting to know more about this setting and how each of the characters feels about it. I have a bad habit of getting my hopes up for stories that put big ideas on the table and then being disappointed when they don't follow through in a way that lives up to my expectations, though.
So, my final verdict: I kind of just hope someone uploads all the story segments right onto youtube so nobody has to deal with the dogshit predatory game to get the genuinely decent story lol. Give it a play just for the story if you have faith in your ability to resist dark patterns. Avoid at all costs if you know you're vulnerable to gacha, microtransactions, or timesinks.
#suchobabbles#Tokyo Debunker#it's a global simultaneous release so I'm curious to see how it ends up doing in Japan#it's gonna be competing directly with stellarium of the fragile star which releases in a few days lmao. and is about a magic alchemy school#looks like the two games twt accounts have a similar number of followers#and then theyre competing with bremai releasing in may...#also adding this at the very end since i cant confirm anything:#but i found out abt this game bc it was rt'd by the former localization director/translator of A3en#i dont know if she worked on it or maybe her friend or maybe shes just hype! who knows! but i think her word (or rt) is worth something
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Dragon book recs?
I read Fourth Wing and its sequel and loved that the dragons are actually characters with personality and are important to the plot.
Little did I know this would be so rare in dragon fantasy???
Spoilers for Priory of the Orange Tree and When the Moon Hatched to describe what I do not want.
I read Priory of the Orange Tree because it was supposed to be great fantasy with dragons being super important. It was literally a lesbian romance with dragons as an afterthought. The dragon rider got completely side lined in the last third of the book and her dragon spends 99% of the book incapacitated and unconscious. The lesbian romance was decent it just was not a dragon book. Not really. I think the dragons only existed to give the lesbians something to fight?
I'm reading When the Moon Hatched right now and I don't know if I can even finish. Once again the dragons are just cardboard background effects, but this FMC is so unlikeable I'm having a lot of trouble willing myself through. I know she has trauma making her insufferable, but she is reacting to everything so unrealistically it's like HELLO? đ You see a mythical invisible-capable powerful feline beast the size of a house and you keep sassing it instead of idk, fear or anything reasonable. Wtaf. Guess you're just that badass. đ Sorry of course you are THE MOST BADASS ever and everyone clapped (and kissed the ground).
What I'm looking for: Romance is fine idc either way, I just want the dragons to be actual characters with personalities and important to the plot. Any books like that?
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Heeeey! Could you please make Korekiyo, Kaede, Shuichi and Ryoma with a mean girl reader??
*I can't find the emoji so just pretend a heart is here*
found your emoji > â€ïž < hope this is to your liking!!
request | korekiyo, kaede, shuichi & ryoma x mean! reader
type | female reader , short read , reaction , she/her/you pronouns used



korekiyo shinguji âĄ
he isn't fazed. however, he would like to see if you are able to break character
he wonders if there could be something so outlandish he can say that would make her unable to come with a retort
he wants to know the limit to her meanness, or if there even is one
there is no insult you could throw at him that he would take personally. he knows that being mean is part of human behavior
kaede akamatsu âĄ
upon meeting her, kaede tries to understand why they act so mean.
she often goes to start up a conversation with you which ends up in her just walking off because she feels drained
feels defeated because kaede really thought she would be able to get along with you, despite your mean disposition.
she still does her best to be at least respectful towards you.
shuichi saihara âĄ
he's literally like 'wtaf'
you remind him of miu, except you are 5x meaner and less sexually driven
she isn't worse than kokichi though
he tries to control his emotions if you insult him or his friends, but some of the things you say rile him up.
ryoma hoshi âĄ
the most chill about it, although he does wonder why you are so jaded
he's always telling her things like: "cool it" and "how long did it take you to come up with that insult?"
you two are in a war, an idgaf war and he's winning
keep trying to insult him, and he might just agree with you
#danganronpa headcanons#danganronpa imagines#danganronpa x reader#drv3 killing harmony#ryoma hoshi#ryoma hoshi x reader#shuichi saihara x reader#shuichi saihara#korekiyo x reader#korekiyo shinguji#kaede akamatsu#kaede akamatsu x reader#danganronpa drv3
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ivan as a tragic-love character (pt.4c?) (nowhere edition)
Part 2 here. I RE-READ THIS A COUPLE OF TIMES BUT HONESTLY MY BRAIN IS SO FRIED I AM NOT SURE WHAT THIS POST CONTAINS. i may have exagerated and also forgotten something, but there is at least another post abt ivan waiting, soooo...
omg i feel like i could write a whole book abt ivan, i swear. i am finally where i wanted to be - the new song, the one that took over my brain and that i kinda want to listen to in repeat for the rest of my life.
and mind you - this is "Ivan Part 1". PART. 1. WTAF.

9] nowhere.
this is probably the moment nowhere is born. ivan's hypocris and dissonance gave birth to this - which may be why the lore of this CD tells us it was found by chance, stored in Anakt Lost and Found Center and recorded as sold by an unknown donor. that means, he probably composed, wrote and recorded nowhere back in anakt, before graduation - though i like the idea of ivan composing this after it, in the period of time he didn't see till, mizi and sua, a period where memories might have taken over his mind and made him nostalgic, restless.
[who is the unknown donor and why is it ivan himself?]
i feel like it is much more personal and raw than black sorrow, and since i am obsessed with ivan, i can't resists its call - it is now my favourite among all the alnst tracks.

the cover.
this is, like, the first step. where the tears start.
it is not our first time seeing little ivan from the slums-arc, but every time, it feels like a punch on the face. the little snaggletooth is there, he is dirty and wears worn out (lab?) clothes and his eyes are so so empty, i can barely stand looking at him without crying.
another important element: the small feet belonging to one of the kids - toes are missing. did those, dunno, froze and got removed? did adults/aliens remove them to torture the kid/make him incapable of running away/as a punishment of sort? no idea. as i said, i love the idea of ivan being born in an illegal factory for pet humans - it would fit so so well - born as a commodity from the very beginning.
like, how much more miserable do i want my baby to be? yes.
the title.
it's nowhere, but for the cover they went like "no, let's play something" and split it in now here. obvious question: why?
nowhere is undefined - it's a no-place, it means "not in or to any place; not anywhere". it might suggest ivan's lack of a sense of belonging, again, the insecurity that comes with not having a stable life - practically and emotionally.
now here is a bit more defined - here is a place, but where, exactly? and is it only a place or more a situation, a moment, a condition? probably both - like, "now i am here, doing this, being this, within this situation and that's it". the song should tell us more!
the lyrics.
and then the music starts.
In love with you When you were mine In love with you (reverse?) In love Love Love always You In love Love always
wow. just - mindblowing.
this is Ivan's solo, his own song, like hyuna's drunk & party and love & peace. the appearance of the world love is incredibly important, but i don't think it defines the theme of the whole song.
what it does is set the pov - this song is written/composed in a moment where ivan: already knows this word + thinks he knows what it means (and links it to till).
the fact that these verses sound radio-like, distant, as if ivan is listening to them instead of actively singing. it creates a gap between them and the rest of the song. it feels like he is composing the song in a moment when he already knows is love is doomed, so he rewinds back to his own origins and speaks abt himself. the song is written by a Ivan who already knows everything, so we can find traces of "future events" in verses of the song that are supposedly about the past.
these words also sound distorted - love is not sweet sounding and charming and light, like my clematis, nor it is energetic and hopeful like unknown until the end, with till wishing to know more and singing abt his resilience. no. in nowhere, love is raspy and numb and has darker hues - it is obsessive, haunting, just like how these verses resound for the entire song in the background.

they sound like a condemnation and a reminder: ivan loves, can't help but love, has no choice but to love, is condemned to love, chose actively to love. they also sound like he is drilling the word into the listener's head by repeating to it non-stop, in an obsessive cycle.
Nowhere, from beginning to end a stained history It freely chatters away That always happens to me
Key words: history, beginning to end. i already said many times, but ivan is a narrator. this is the starting point of ivan's story, ivan's realities, both the one he begins to write abt himself (or tries to) and the one from where we can glimpes at the real ivan. the lyrics might have started with "once upon a time there was a black-haired boy..." and get the same effect. he recounts a history (his own) that is real to him, that mirrors his life - but we can't totally believe him. let's keep this in mind!
we know this story ends in black, with an empty spot and blood (black soooorroooooow), but how does it start? this song has references to ivan's past and life at anakt, so it was probably written slighlty before graduation (since the CD was found in anakt warehouse and an unregistered track - how ivan recorded it is a mystery, but we know he has knowledge and priviledges other do not have). either that, or after graduation/before alien stage, and he somehow found a way to sneak the CD there.
that is probably why he writes "from beginning to end, a stained history": he remembers the beginning and is in a position where he can already predict the end of the story - stained, never pure, since the very start, as if his life was destined to be like that.
what abt the "freely chatters away" verse? i'm not sure, because how can someone's history chatter away? i think we can see it as "it freely chatters away from my mouth", like this story spills from ivan easily, like he can easily build lies for the sake of keeping this illusion, this mask he has, going. the expression apparently indicates someone speaking fluidly, in a relaxed way, but also rambling for a long time. it may suggest that, while from the outside ivan looks smooth and collected, from his point of view this is all rambling, it's the fictional-ivan he created for the sake of the society he lives in - a ivan he needs and uses and maybe resents.
"that always happens to me" reinforces the "beginning to end" part of the song - he is singing abt a common theme in his life in a dejected tone, resigned, like he knows/feels he can't do anything abt it and is okay with it. the stain is permanent and he is destined to "that".
Nowhere, rose-tinted rigid dream and hope It's stained with blood That's just how it is That always happens to me
this is where it gets super super interesting. if in the previous part ivan was warning us abt this being a story (his story and/or the story he is writing abt himself), we are now within ivan's narration.
ivan is still nowhere, but we have some coordinates: a "rigid dream and hope" dyed in rosy hues. he tells us about the existence of a dream immersed in a light, delicate color - the color of stereotypical love/affection (?), of beautiful things. also, this dream/hope is rigid, which is not very dream-like or hopeful.
contrasting images, how fitting for our living oxymoron!
a dream may be something that is commonly regarded as beautiful and ideal (a dream), but that for ivan is rigid - forced? unnatural? a dream he has to fit in in order to survive/blend in/function in the society he finds himself in, perhaps. i explained how other kids at anakt see him and how he makes himself friendlier and smilier. this may be it.
we could also make it abt romantic love. maybe ivan is trying to fit into a vision of love he can't fully embrace/mirror, so he perceives it as stiff. i hope i'm about to phrase it in the right way, but a nice example might be the contrast between mainstream and/or hetero depiction of love vs lgbt depiction of love. ivan being (canonically?) gay gives this idea even more credit - in a normal world, without aliens, surrounded by ways of loving ivan doesn't identify in, this sentence presents his discomfort abt not fitting in stereotypical love.
of course alnst!ivan doesn't have that benefit, but i think this discourse may work as some sort of parallelism: ivan can't love the way he sees other people love. take mizi and sua, for example. in ivan's eyes, they fit the "rose-tinted dream and hope", it is not "stiff" if he puts them in it, then he thinks about himself, abt how he loves (loves till) and it doesn't work anymore.
[we could associate it to till's depiction of love - the rosy hues of this dream are not to be intended as stereotypical, but as the ideal love till wants (sees in mizi) and ivan can't give - perhaps, but i'd like to focus on ivan]
"it's stained with blood", here we come to the stained history from before - stained with what? eh. ivan's life started with blood and ended with blood (his own), but also the blood of humanity, of the people he meets, also destined to a bloody end because of the world they live in. a rosy dream, a rosy hope, the blabbering wonders of a young mind end in red, in blood, and the contrast is as good as it is painful. what is the point of trying to fit in an illusion like that when he already knows what the end will be? that's why his story was stained from the beginning - the end was clear as day since ivan's first opened his eyes.
yeah. "that's just how it is", after all, from ivan's pov. he is resigned to it, so the illusion gives him no comfort, prevents him from fitting in. and again, it is something that always happens to him. what is it? not belonging. he is nowhere, in a story written by him that is stained since the beginning (his birth) to the end (his death), a story with no hope of redemption or finding better condition - a story where not even a dream can give him hope.
My sky, shaped by the world doesn't even let me stand under it I lay down and look at yesterday's daydream, all torn up
i love this part. okay.
"my sky" - the sky is something everyone has above their head. it's just there, no matter the planet. adding "my" kinda gives it something poetic abt it, as if the narrator is not reffering to the sky, but a particular something/someone that can be equated to the sky. while this is a possible interpretation
[again, the sky and the color teal resonate with each other, it is an interesting way of fitting till here, but it's not only that!]
we need to dig a bit more. how many skies did ivan see? the one in the slums - glimpses between rundown buildings -, the night sky before his auction, the fake baby blue at anakt, the red metor shower sky with till, the (fake?) one above the stage he died on. what do the have in common? all are concessions/creations given to him by others. adding "my" makes it interesting, because the sky is not something that can belong to a person, but we know ivan feels a connection with what the sky holds.
"shaped by the world" - that's why he added this. it is "his" sky in the measure which it was shaped by someone/something else. his birth, aliens, till, these are all entities that influenced the "sky" ivan claims as "his", as if to say "i can't have the whole thing because so many have taken it away from me/have limited the sky i could reach".
"doesn't even let me stand under it" - not only that, not only the slice of sky he can have is limited, his sky (this remaining slice) doesn't even accept him. how heart-breaking is this? because we know the sky isn't guilty - this is how ivan perceives himself. he feels rejected by people and by the world, as if it was saying to him that he shouldn't have been born. after all, if the sky does't let him stand under it, what place does ivan have left?
this speaks to me abt his authentic inability to belong. while i think we can say that it is not true that he is unwanted, it is not true that the world rejects him, i can sure understand why he sees himself like that - abandoned, ill threated, sold off, "unloved", used as a commodity. his view of himself, crooked as it is, is not baseles.
he can't have a physical place - so he creates his own reality.
saying "I lay down and look at yesterday's daydream, all torn up" makes me think abt little ivan, back on the ground, staring up the same way we would lay on grass and watch the clouds move.
"yesterday" - we can take it literally, so the day prior, of more figuratively, it may refer to the past. the story progresses: there was a time when ivan used to have dreams, maybe rose-tinted, maybe those same dreams he can't fit in now, and he regards them now as something from the past, from which he now distance himself
"daydream" - these were not unconscious dreams made at night, but dreams he conjured willingly, his own narrative, the story of the ivan he wanted to be all tangled in this song.
"all torn up" - like he knows better, now, than to abandon himself to them. they are all torn up, probably by the awareness that they are dreams, and that ivan can't fit in.
ivan is talking abt the attempt at dreaming he made when he was young, and abt his discovery/awareness that it doesn't work for him. let's think of the meteor shower event with till. by escaping with him, ivan tried to fit into till's dream (freedom), but failed. so he stares at this, at his "yesterday's daydreams", and replays them in his mind.
does this mean he stops dreaming? honestly, i don't think so. ivan is a hopeless romantic (not strictly related to love, but "of, characterized by, or suggestive of an idealized view of reality"), a drama queen, a narrator. part of the frustration this song suggest may be related to the fact that despite knowing it is useless, he can't help but doing it.
welcome to humanity, baby! human beings and their souls crave for art.
Fly far, far away Never, never again Come back to me Because it's easier to forget It's so typical Typical to me
although not explicitly said, it appears that here ivan is not talking to himself, seems to be referring to a "you". he doesn't have problems with mentioning himself in the lyrics (happens to me, my sky, I lay down), so it must mean something!
i am a bit torn, here, because it could still mean that he (present ivan) is speaking to little ivan. like he wants to chase away his vulnerable and inexperienced past self, so distant from the ivan he became and needs to be in order to live in relative peace until the end. "fly away from my mind, don't let me reminesh, don't let me remember, forgetting is easier, safer, as i am used to force myself to live survive in ignorance". he could also be asking him(self) to escape, at least within the dream - to go far, far away, in a safe place, so not to experience what he had.
but. in love with you, when you were mine. daydreams and hope and blood stains, a sky that doesn't want him... it feels like ivan isn't only at war with himself, but with a different stain, a different imprint, a different someone. the robotic voice is still there, in the background, like a reminder that this is not only about the ivan-self.
ivan is trying to get rid of something.
he is inviting that something to go away, or maybe chasing it away from him, to safety. imagine that something is a someone. imagine that someone is till. now take these words and make them abt till: "fly away from my mind, don't let me reminesh, don't let me remember, forgetting is easier, safer, as i am used to force myself to live survive in ignorance". what if he is telling till to go away becausse he doesn't want to hurt him with his words and behaviour anymore? what if he also doing it for himself? because if ivan doesn't think abt till, if he doesn't think abt the meteor shower, if he doesn't think about alien stage being the place where one of them will probably have to die, he can put all his efforts into his performance and win. we know he can - r3 ended with him making 90 points. till is good, but r6, absent-minded till? ivan could win. it's just that in the end, he can't.

i like both interpretation, because they both force ivan to face parts of himself he probably doesn't like or can't accept or even better, can't understand.
Wake up, wake up In my overwhelming daily life Is it for real? An existence like dust I can't stand to look at it Close my eyes And my mind
"wake up" - he is talking to himself now. as i said, i don't think adult ivan stops dreaming just because he can't abandon himself to his daydreams the way others do. the point his, waking up is like a slap in the face for him - his daily life is overwhelming: medical experimentations, lessons, alien stage awaiting him, songs to record, death, and what remains of him? "an existence like dust"
he can't stand the idea of keeping his eyes on it. he can't find refuge in the dream (so he turns off his mind), he can't find solace in reality (so he closes his eyes). are you starting to get why the song is called nowhere?
Worse and worse This painful wound I become more and more numb In the dark City lights I Can't find anyone Anyone Anyone
the "painful wound" can be a a trauma (his past, threatment at anakt, meteor shower) or simply a mix of everything - it can be his whole life, perceived as a festering wound he can't heal from, that makes him number and number to everything, both dream and reality. the darkness has lights, but no one in sight.
Nowhere, from beginning to end a stained history With that revolting tooth That always happens to me
the chorus repeats, but with a variant - "With that revolting tooth", the saggletooth we and the alien public all love.
hatred toward himself - ivan is incredibly critical of himself, but not in a neautral, objective way. he finds this detail of him "revolting", which is too strong a word and confirms that he cannot be objective when it comes to himself. baby, you are beautiful???? NOTHING is revolting abt you. what the hell.
it may be a reminder of something that happened to him in the slums, though. a trauma, a critica, tortures? i wish i knew!
Nowhere, seeped in purple rigid dream and hope It's stained with blood That's just how it is That always happens to me
his dream and hope take a different hue - purple. it is getting darker, if we think they were initially tinted in a rose-colour. it feels like his daydream is maturing, that there is a temporal shift, so while his first daydreams were rosy, growing up they became purplish. heading toward black?
That's just the kind of kid he is, so laugh Laugh, because he can't do anything No one cares about someone like him There's nowhere in the world for him to rest That's just how he is
another super interesting part. look at the change in subject: he.
i wrote abt ivan's dissonance, his splitting in two, the frustration he feels with himself. i also said he is trying to get rid of something, and it makes a lot of sense that that something is the side of himself he resents/can't understand/can't reason with.
notice how the way he sings this and the next part gets quicker, more raspy, less elegant. it feels like a punch in the face with how intense it is. ivan sounds resentful. not angry, maybe - his voice is soft, haunting, resigned for most of the song, but here? he is letting it all go. he is venting, releasing. "there is nothing to do, kid, things are bound to stay the way they were, the way they are, so just laugh and keep smiling because no one will ever care about you. don't even try, don't look for a place to be, this is how things are and no amount of dreams/efforts will change things up."
so. he is talking to himself. nowhere is a letter to his past self - little ivan, lost between the slums, his daydreams and the hope to be loved. his tone grows louder, more livelier for a moment, because he is feeling it all.
He's smooth, flexible, quite easy Just go past it like it doesn't bother you It's nothing, shake it off and stand tall Again, it's nothing, shake it off and stand tall Like nothing happened
and after talking to himself, he mentions till. i can't fit the English sentence here as something ivan tells himself/kid ivan, it is far from how he perceives himself. the sentence is also in English, so it's like he is highlighting the change in subject.
that's why he reminds himself "don't bother, don't think, ignore it all, forget that it all happened". what? the meteor shower. it comes back to that as a moment where not only till, the whole dream of ivan being able to fit in splits and falls apart - the starting point of the dissonance that will lead ivan to composing this song.
Wake up, wake up In my beautiful life Is it for real? An existence like dust I can't stand to look at it Close my eyes And my mind
the dream has collapsed, so back to reality - the reality he built for himself, where he can control things. this life is beautiful, but it is obviously a lie, because his existence is still like dust, and he still needs to keep eyes and mind closed.
the wound keeps festering - the reality he builds for himself is to have the illusion of a place to stay, but not a mind-numbing one. he knows he doesn't belong, doesn't pretend to find a place for himself, that's why the rest of the verses are the same. it's still him and he is still aware, but there is a disillusioned acceptance to his role.
Nowhere, from beginning to end A festering histerie With these cruel lips That always happens to me
this is also where the anger and loathing he feels toward himself most emerge, i think.
"festering" reminds us of the wound ivan lives with, the one that keeps hurting and keeps him numbed to the pain, but here it is linked to hysteria ("exaggerated or uncontrollable emotion or excitement"). so it really is something ivan feels he can't keep under control. perhaps, the process of putting all this darkness in a song was meant to be cathartic.

"with those cruel lips" makes me wanna scream. because even though i logically link this to ivan and to what he said abt himself in this comic, the song keeps presenting us with instances where we can link some verses to till instead - ivan has been cruel to him, from ivan's pov, but maybe, a part of ivan also blames till for cruelly ignoring him and his sorrow.
Nowhere, seeped in black rigid dream and hope It's stained with blood That's just how it is That always happens to me That always happens to me That always happens to me
"seeped in black"!!!!! darkness fell, ivan's heart is still once more, he is once again in control - resigned to his fate, or better, the fate he assigned himself.
"black" winks at black sorrow - and perhaps this is the moment ivan began to plan his willing demise.
this may also be why the cover says "now here": ivan is here, in pre-alien stage, with this song in his hands, with these memories freshly extracted from his mind, freshly recollected. he disposes of it all and goes back to the short life that remains him, the chaos in his head appeased, the confusion numbed, ready to head toward the black end.
° * °
ivan is presented with all these contrasts and complications and differences between what he would have wanted to be (his dream) and what his reality has to offer (till loving mizi, ivan loveless and unlovable, a death game with an inevitable ending).
i thought nothing hurt more than black sorrow, but this song is painfully ivan. it couldn't have gotten more personal than this, and it makes my heart ache so much.
this is the song the pictures ivan most perfectly. this is also the song ivan never wanted us, everyone, to find. the dissonance and hypocrisis in himself grew to a point that he probably needed to let it out - and what's the best way to do it for someone like ivan who seldom even feels like needing to let it all out? music. he has been studying it profoundly, knows it can be cathartic - has seen his friends, especially till, use music as a medium for emotions, both controlled and bottled up.
he composes and writes this to be abt himself - maybe abt his friends, maybe against the system -, but he does and narrates himself the way he sees himself, the ivan that he thinks he is. we know he is an unreliable narrator, and the song tells us exactly that: this is ivan, someone who can't be trusted when describing himself, so in a way, the unreliability is ivan's most accurate portrait.
he probably felt naked after recording this, so i have a strong feeling ivan himself disposed of it - that is why it was "found" in a warehouse - as the song is ivan's story, but also a cry against the system for making him like this and a love/hate letter, to till and to himself. he couldn't let anyone find it before his death, now, could he?
PART 4!
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I feel cheatedâŠ(And no one warned me?!?)
WhoâŠWhy?!âŠMc âScuse me?đ«
Why did Good Omens season 2 end like that? (I wonât say in case someone reading this in the future is new hereâŠ) But for those who knowâŠ
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WHAT THE F#?! Who authorized this? I just wanted a fun wholesome/wacky show about demons and angels? JUST WHY?!
WARNING!!! MAJOR SPOILERS BEYOND THIS PART! SERIOUSLY!!!
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LAST WARNING ANYONE WHO DOES NOT WANT SPOILERS SHOULD LEAVE AND DO YOURSELVES A FAVOR AND WATCH GOOD OMENS!đđ
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Anyways⊠(deep breath)
WHY DID THEY END THIS SEASON WITH CROWLY AND AZIRAPHALE APART?! WE WERE SO EFFING CLOSE!?! THEY LITERALLY KISSED! THEY CONFESSED THEIR FEELINGS! THEY ARE LITERALLY STAR CROSSED LOVERS WTAF?!
PhewâŠ
Overall a good season, loved the focus on Crowley and Aziraphaleâs relationshipâŠbut the cruel foreshadowing and then bait and switch killed me. (WTH? For Heavenâs sake!)
When is season 3? Amazon better give me the wholesome Angel and Demon ship I was promised!
#good omens#crowley#aziraphale#crowley x aziraphale#ineffable husbands#wtf#cliffhanger#bad ending#breakup
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The Unexpected Reunion

Gojo x reader x Geto
( All characters are aged up/18+)
Warning: Smut, unprotected Sex, rough sex, teasing, anal sex
Masterlist
Minors Do Not Interact
Read those warnings carefully.....if you don't like my stories block me not report...
I'm a old student of jujutsu high. I graduated from that school ten years ago. Now I'm doing my job, leaving my life. I didn't even have connection with my old friends. That's old stories now.
Today I got a letter. That's from jujutsu high. I opened it and saw it was an invitation letter from jujutsu high. They were arranging a award giving ceremony for the old students. All old students were coming there. At first I thought that I wouldn't go. But then I thought that it will be a old friends reunion. So I decided to go.
Today was the day of the ceremony. I went to my closet to choose a dress. I choose a black bodycon dress. Not too short not too long. Then I did my makeup and hair. Then I went out of my apartment and went into the cab I booked.
The car stopped at the destination. I went out of the cab. And entered there. it felt good. I was going to meet my old friends again. I saw mei mei. I went to her. " Heyyy .... Remember me, mei?" I spoke to her. " OH MY GOD!!!....y/n!!!!.... after long time.... how are you???!!!" She exclaimed. " I'm... how about you?" I laughed. " I'm fine too. Look shoko is there. Let's go to her." She replied. " Yeah sure" I replied.
We went to the drink section where Shoko was standing. "Hey shoko .....look who's here" Mei Mei said. " Oh my God....y/n... how are you??? Long time no see. I miss you too much." She said. " Ahh...I miss you too shoko" I hugged her. Then we started talking.
After a few minutes I heard a male voice. " Hey shoko... Whatcha doing?" "Nothing... just talking with y/n"shoko replied. I turned my attention to the voice and saw Gojo and beside him Geto. Their attention turned towards me. "Oh...y/n how are you... seeing you after long time." Geto said. " I'm good Geto." I replied with a smile. " Oh y/n... literally seeing you after so many times..... hope you missed me" he said with a grin. " Still didn't stop flirting?" I said with a laugh. " Can't... but seriously... you become so sexy... what you think Suguru?" Gojo said." You're right " Geto replied. " God stop flirting " I blushed and they laughed.
"hey y/n... I heard you got the chance to be the teacher in Kyoto school and you refused it?" Geto asked. " Yeah it's true." I replied." OMG ... why did you refused that?" Gojo asked. " I don't want to do it....I just wanted to live normal life... that's why " I replied . " Ah you should have accepted it... So I could see your sexy face insted of that utahime's" Gojo said." Heyyy.... she's gonna kill you if she heard that " me and geto said. " Oh she can't.... she's weak" gojo replied smirking and we laughed.
" hey Shoko.... BTW how is Nanami?... he didn't came?" I asked shoko."still have a crush on him?" She smirked. "Stoppppp.... I'm just asking...oh god" I blushed. " Yeah I know....there look.. he's there."she said and pointed at the blonde man." Tffffff.... that's Nanami?????.... Wtaf... he looks like a daddy now!!!!" I replied " yeah I know" Shoko replied and called Nanami. "Yes Shoko-san?" Namami replied." Y/n wants to talk to you." She replied.
"oh y/n-san.... Long time no see" he said with a smile. " Yeah I was busy...how are you?" I asked. Then we talk pretty much but didn't notice that there were two men who were being jealous from our conversation. Then Nanami went to yaga who was calling him. And Shoko and Mei Mei went somewhere.
Then I went to order a drink with a smile on my face. I over the counter and order a drink. "What you so smiling about?" I heard Gojo. " Oh nothing... just...." I replied. " Just?" Now I heard Geto. I saw them stepping closer to me."n-nothing-" I couldn't finish my words when Gojo spoke again " just thinking of Nanami?" "N-no" I replied." Oh don't lie to us, darling" Geto spoke. Both of their faces were too close to mine. I could feel their breath each side of my neck and my breath hitched. Then I felt geto's hand on my waist and gojo's hand on my ass rubbing up and down. Then Gojo spoke again " stop thinking about him and....." I looked at Gojo " you should meet us after this program." Gojo finished his line with a smirk and they both went somewhere.
Then I towards the crowd and went to the sit because they arranged sit for ex students. Everyone were clapping for those who were getting awards. Me too. But I was just thinking what Gojo and Geto just said. "You better go to them" I heard someone say on my side. I turned my head and saw Mei Mei sitting there. " W-what " I said." Oh common.... I heard that. Them offering you. You should accept it you know. Every girls through their bodies for them and they don't accept anyone and they are asking you... you must go." She replied and I just blushed.
After the program end I went to the drink stole waiting for them. I heard geto's voice "oh...so you came?" I turned towards him and blushed. Suddenly gojo bring his face so close to mine and whispered with a smirk" so... you want us to do THAT with you?". I blushed as red as a tomato. " Oh common Satoru you're making her nervous " Suguru said. " Okey then just follow us" Gojo said and I did. They took me in a room and locked the door.
"so.... you just gonna stand there?" Gojo asked with a smirk stepping towards me. I took step backwards."Satoru...I told you... don't make her nervous!" Geto said. " Ah okay sorry.... then we should just start already." Gojo said, kissed me roughly and took me on the bed. When he pull back I was already breathless but Geto didn't give me time and pressed his lips on mine.
Gojo started undoing his shirt so did Geto. I looked at their tonned body. I didn't realise that I was starting at their body when Geto spoke " like what you see?" I blushed. " Oh you're enjoying your show...now let us enjoy our show" Gojo said and ripped off my clothes and unbottoned my bra. "Oh that's pretty" Gojo said " it is" Geto replied and both of them crashed their mouth on my each breast. Sucking, biting, licking harshly. I moaned and grabbed on each of their hair. They were so rough with my breasts.
They licked my belly and each of them squeezed each of my breast. I grabbed sheet and squeezed my eyes shut. "Uhhah..... eyes on us princess" Geto said and I obeyed. Geto took off my pantie. Gojo traced my pussy with his fingers " so wet..... Is that for Nanami?" He asked while teasing my core with his fingers. I moaned loudly " ahhhh...no no noooo...ughhh... it's n-not....ahhh... just for you two... please...." They chuckled. " So desparate... are not you?" Geto said. " Please what baby girl?" Gojo asked. " Please fuck me already!!!" I moaned out. "Good girl" gojo whispered.
They took off their pants. I can already see the outline of their dicks from their boxers. The took off it and my jaw dropped. Those were huge. HUGEEEEE. Like who can have that big dick???!!! Well they have.
Gojo threw himself on the bed and said " you're gonna ride me, babygirl" I get on him and sit on his dick slowly. The pain was too much. I almost screamed. " Shh... it's okey it's okey....take your time" they said. After I adjust the size I nooded and Geto went behind and put his dick inside me in anal position. Then I started riding Gojo and Geto started thursting in and out. Three of us were moaning mess. Gojo's one hand grabbed the bedsheet and another grabbed one of my breast. On other side Geto's one hand grabbed my waist and another one grabbed my another breast.
Thursting became faster, rougher and harder. Sound of my screaming, our moaning, skin slapping filled the whole room. I felt their dicks twitch inside me. Then I came. Came allover gojo's dick. With a few more thurst both of them came. We all flipped on the bed panting.
"It was a great reunion with friends" Gojo said. " Oh it was best" Geto replied and I chuckled.
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