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Wait... Dream was born on August 12, 1999 and Dream was arrested in the Disc Finale on January 20, 2021 soo... wait, wait, wait, that means he was only 21 when he was imprisoned for life in a small lava covered box!... Did I do that math right? 21?! Man was barely able to drink legally in the United States and they gave him a life sentence in a boiling cell with nothing but lava, raw potatoes, a clock, and some books?!... oh my god...
#sorry.... I just... give me a minute to process... I mean I knew we were close in age but I guess I never really thought about it#sometimes I forget it happened all the way back in 2021 and just... wow.#and Tommy would have been 16 so getting his driver's license in most states... The age gap is like that of my siblings and huh...#my brother can be a real prick... its a weird thought to imagine him getting through in prison just for messing with us... damn...#dreblr#c!dream#this is fine#don't mind me researching for my lastest maddening project..... i can't stop thinking about Dream being Sam's project.......#I'd blame my job but... let's be honest the prison arc lives rent free in my brain lol XD#dsmp#dsmp dream#dream smp#dreamwastaken#no one does it like c!dream#prison arc#pandora's vault#dishing up lore#kinda? I guess...#lore thoughts#ouch... I'm older than c!dream was in prison now... poor baby... :'(
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Scavenger Hunt Item #30
Well, it looks more like a well than a tower, but still, as indicated in scavenger hunt #30, I killed some time and tidied up my desk.. sorting out my gel and fountain pens..
(and realizing that I actually have about 12 different pens with different tones of purple ink and five with green ink...and also that there are only two regular blue pens💀)
#007 fest 2024#007 fest#scavenger hunt#station pacific#mi6 cafe#ignore the mess on my desk..#now i have a bloody big tower of pens that I scare to take apart 'cause damn..#everything might fall apart and I'll be collecting pens all over the place..💀#but also it looks cool..🤭#i even found two markers for writing on SD or DVD discs.. like wow.. i don't even have them..#I'm struggling with my Real Life stuff almost all this week.. i try to be more active in Fest next week..#also i think that sticky notes with kittens looks like something that Q can have in his office supplies.. maybe..just random headcannon :>
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Gareth and Jeff teasing Eddie about his “I don’t date” rule then him being a complete mess around Steve and showering him with kisses because he’s so in love with him. Eddie can’t go a day without hearing about how much he swore that no one on this planet could ever make him do anything that revolves around lovey dovey stuff and now he’s bought more gifts for Steve than he’s gotten in his entire life. Things don’t get easier when Steve joins in the teasing and makes it known to everyone that Eddie is more of a lover than he lets on making everyone laugh, Eddie is dismissive about the whole thing but he knows that he would do anything for Steve even if it’s being disgustingly in love with him.
#steddie#lmaooooooo#that is so funny#hmmmmm#omfg#i know what you are#be for real#duffer brothers i swear#i’m tiiiiiired#i’m a mess#wow#steve harrington#eddie munson#stranger things#idk what else to tag#help lol#please#come on#manifesting#power#so cuuuute#steddie headcanon#steddie hcs#headcanon#hcs#Eddie is in love#Steve knows it too#i love this#they r so silly#i’m crying
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BITTERSWEET REUNIONS
#Nevermore#Nevermore Webtoon#Webtoon#WOW WHAT A RETURN!! I KNOW THE HIATUS WASN’T THAT LONG BUT DAMNNNNN!!! ALSO RIP TO OUR 5 COIN STATUS#ANYWAY MORELLA SNAPPING ADA BACK.. IT’S SO CRAZY HOW HER PARTICLES WERE ALL OVER THE ROOM#CAN SPECTRES LIKE UPGRADE THEIR POWERS BC IT LOOKS LIKE ADA DID THAT#WILL BBY SORRY FOR CHOKING YOU AND DAMNNNNNN LENORE FOR FORCING HIM OFF AND TELLING 👏🏼 HIM 👏🏼 OFF 👏🏼 GODDAMN LOVED THAT#AND THEN ADA AND MORELLA FIGHTING!! MORELLA SHOUTING IS AMAZING! AND IT NEVER OCCURED TO ME THAT ADA DEFLECTS HER BLAME IT’S CRAZY#SICK OF PLAYING WITH PHONIES!! EPISODE 7!!! CALLBACKS!! AND NOW MORELLA COME TO THE MISFITS FULL TIME PLZZZZZ#OOP DUKE YOU GOOD? OK OH UH YEAH IT’S BEEN A BIT WITH YOUR SPECTRE ALSO UR POWERS MADE ADA GO OUT OF CONTROL SO 😬#GIVING HIM HIS JACKET AAAAAAA! THE COIN AAAA! EULALIE AAAAAAAA! DUKE CATCHING HER AAAAAAAAAA! PLUTO BLUSHING AAAAAAAAAA!#WELCOME TO ANOTHER EP OF EULA’S AMAZING FACTS#BERENICE! GROUP HUG!!! THEY’RE ALL SO WHOLESOME I CAN’T I’M SO GLAD THEY’RE ALL TOGETHER AGAIN! BACK AND BETTER THAN EVER!#wait just realizing something did duke’s spectre heal his bruises? interesting#PUT ME BACK IN THE WALL HAHAHAHAHA#And the two of them scoping out the mess#YESSSSS YOU GOTTA BEG SIR! BEG FOR YOUR PLACE AND YOUR LIFE! REAL TEST OF -FAITH- LIKE THE LAST EP ALMOST#DAMN WE BACK EVERYONE SO EXCITED TO MAYYYYBE FINISH OFF THE SEASON??? IDK WHERE WE GO FROM HERE I ASSUME EP. 100#BUT YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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honestly. I love it when ted and beard are a little toxic codependent dynamic that has a power imbalance . I think it’s swell
#beard literally owing ted his entire life makes my brain go brrrrrr#devoting himself TO ted in lieu of connecting with other people#going along with what ted says even if he doesn’t agree and even if it doesn’t make him happy#he was for real willing to go back to Kansas with him if ted told him to#if ted had said. stay on this plane. beard would’ve and he would’ve been miserable but he’d do it for ted#ted assuming beard’ll go along with whatever he says in s1 bc that’s what beard has always done#because that’s not how We measure success#ted inviting him to sleep on his couch after being a literal drug addict ex con#knowing fully well he’s got a girlfriend at home that he didn’t clear this wirh#Michelle waking up and beard is there and ted has put his foot down and ?? wow#I love it#I love them. they’re such messes#I love you beard being Ted’s pet dog woof woof#beard literally having to choose between Ted and his girlfriend ALL the time#said girlfriend isolating him from ted bc she doesn’t trust their dynamic and she thinks beard is sleeping with ted#I love you beard only calling ted coach#I love you beard blurring lines and determining his worth strictly through the life ted gave him
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#adamandi#ambrose wellington bassford#infer as you will i suppose. wanted to draw a statue ambrose but accidentally painted it because smth smth blending fits him#again. main things taken from lyrics of the actual show ++ this definition i checked with google because i didn't remember it off the top#of my head. but Thoughts indeed#sfgdhhdf ok hello i am back today has been a Day (not very good) (oh well) (small mercies) ...#did not expect the melliot to find this so quickly but since i guess the Official Tumblr has reblogged it i'll just edit this one.#as opposed to reuploading. o//o#i painted it at 2am on impulse and have very little recollection of the whole event -? and then in a fit of pique added words and posted it#it is Very different from the original draft. i'd like to maybe do that one justice someday... anyways something something sometimes#a piece of art you make organically Evolves of its own volition... anyways.#maybe i'm projecting but recently (tuesday?) i found out something Important i had in the works Collapsed in the kiln#kaboom. ah the perils of ceramics. anyway thanks to the messed up 3d of everything i'm working on rn (the pros and cons of visual art subj#is that you get to make art for a grade) and. ceramics and sculpture and classics etcetera. <blinks> wow i really latched on to art aspects.#but nevertheless! ambrose brainrot real. iirc my thoughts were smth like. most strongly. that contrapposto? based on my school art history#was that it evolved from the very neutral rigid ancient greek sculptures of people which were all about Mathematical Symmetry. because#the main thing about contrapposto was that it reflected irl people more... more life-like? so it's very ironic to me#that Alive ambrose went and tried to turn himself into a statue. with part of the draw being contrapposto.. like?????#ah yes you like this sculpture because it's lifelike. and you'd rather be a sculpture than alive huh. the contrasts are !! in my head#also maybe i just.. wanted to paint... idk i had ambrose on the brain yesterday and it was something about sculptural messed up perfection#fun fact!!! the skin and hair i all greyed out to look like marble. fun fact number two: he has no eyes in this. like no pupils :3#fun fact number 3 (irrelevant) marble statues are only common wrt ancient greece bc the romans iirc came along and repurposed the bronzes.#because apparently bronze was a Hot Commodity at the time. and in return to preserve the art they made marble replicas. so most marble#ancient greek statues are apparently copies and the originals had totally different aesthetics#fun fact number 4: the background is a very greyed out image of my broken ceramics.. i wanted something nice to come out of it at least#fun fact number 5: i wanted to make him crack. like shattered ceramic or smth. that was the original idea. but instead it went to the pretty#sculpture route... kinda wanna make the messed up one though!!#fun fact number 6! because of Art Studio i'm covered in white paint and like it doesn't come off so it's been on my fingers and arms and#basically everywhere. so flesh turning into white stuff aes is fascinating i wanna explore... fun fact no.7.. i have accidentally maybe#began using screenshots as drawing practice. idk what to do with this info. if anything nice turns up ig i'll post it maybe
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Re-reading the comics and I totally forgot how dark they are
#zuko#zukaang#aang#atla zuko#atla aang#atla#avatar the last airbender#the promise#unpopular opinion maybe but i loved how nothing in this book was cut and dried and how everyones' trauma came back to haunt em#progress isn't linear so i don't mind zuko's behaviour here#he suddenly has a lot more pressure on him and he's obviously scared shitless he'll do the right thing etc. like shit just got real#super sad#aang didn't want to kill ozai but idk he was just being a friend to zuko here because zuko asked it of him#aang was obviously conflicted BUT he also wanted to uphold his duty to the world#which zuko totally sold him on and used as an argument for aang to honour the promise.#i can totally see that happening#i loved the ending too how zuko turned out to be right all along and it was the generational trauma that just convinced him he wasn't right#like is some of the characterization/plot contrived? sure totally! but wow i'm shocked to see how ice-cold the overall reception is#@tumblr stop messing w my tags and sticking them in the post body omg#atla spoilers
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they really tried to make RESIDENT EVIL FOUR (remake) patriotic
#resizura rants#im cackling sorry#literally og saddler is like ‘american trash always messing with other countries’#four years after 9/11 happened (real time)#while using a symbol of america (sorry ashley ily) to get back at the imperial power#but then remake is like#wow! arent government agents so cool?#look! ashley wants to be one too!#look at all the military talk we’re doing! isnt it cool?#silly krauser! dont be mad at the american govt sending you to die!#(this isnt a krauser safe space btw im just pointing stuff out)#like jfc
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Just sped read two chapters (I’ll have to update on later) but imma be honest people: I am on chapter 61 (or I guess it’s the next one I read? Idk words🤦♀️) and I am feeling very real fear right about now👀🫥😬😅 like I got a few pages in & was like; mmm… yeah… no…this is gonna keep me up finishing this book (and I cannot be drowsy working tomorrow)… but like… Rowan is sneaking out… and it’s stupid Maeve (I really do hate her and she’s only been in like 2 chapters and I am so over her)… and it’s worse cause I KNEW IT the second Elide was like “Lorcan’s restless” I was like ITS MAEVE PROXIMITY but ANSEL JUST GAVE ME HOPE! and Lysaedion😊🥹 & Manorian😉😂 are being allllll cute! And then Rowaelin because ROWAN IS HAPPY😭 for once in 2 centuries this man is smiling & SJM has the nerve to say “the spark went out” (writing this like she isn’t the genius author that created everything and is instead some random opinion😂) and now I’m scared because they’re all toooooo happy???… like oh yeah we’re kinda happy — until… idk… I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS; she just left me on THAT… THATS THE PROBLEM & fuck fuck fuck this CANNOT end well😅😅 but Dorian said Asterins alive? BUT WHERE IS ABRAXOS? And everyone’s been warning me & I am STILL NOT ready at all in the slightest… UGHHHHWHHHHHYYYYYY (they deserve an ACOFAS style fluff book after this😭) and I guess I just need to schedule finishing this book and reading all of tower of dawn cause I can’t with these cliffhangers anymore😅😅
#quick typed long ramble of reading update fangirl nonsense cause the feels#first read#currently reading#next chapter#Chapter 61#EoS#Empire of Storms#Empire of Storms spoilers#no spoilers please#fangirl problems#don’t hurt my babies#SARAH WHERE IS THIS GOING#very real kinda fandom fear here#ROWAN DONT LEAVE#AELIN WHAT DID U SAY WAS IT NAMELESS WAS IT A FIRE GOING OUT HOF STYLE ARE YOU MESSING WITH ME#ELIDE WHOS TALKING TO YOU#ANSEL COULD YOU BE MORE GLORIOUS#DORIAN HOW ARE YOU JUST HOW ARE YOU BUT LIKE HOW DO YOU EXIST CAUSE WOW JUST HOW#MAEVE GO BURN YOURSELF UP IN ELLYWE OR FALL IN THE OCEAN OR SOMETHING PLEASE#FENRYS WHAT DID THAT MEAN#WHERE IS GAVRIEL#WHAT IS AELIN PLANNING#IF SHE HAS NO PLAN I PANIC#ITS GONNA HURT ME AND I JUST KNOW IT#ON THIS HILL PROCRASTINATING#HERE WE GO AGAIN#AT LEAST TOD HAS YRENE#I MISS THEM#AGH#headesk all caps keyboard smash except I didn’t type this in caps lol
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since i got to thinking this, how many different names (first names/nicknames, not usernames) have you gone by online so far? specifically names youve asked ppl to call you, and specifically online
if you reblog please add in the tags how long youve been in online communities where youve gone by said names!
#i was just thinking. something reminded me of this i dont know what#but yeah personally im at number 5 with crow. the first two include my irl real name and im like. wow how dumb was i#also been online in communities where i got called something for about 18 or 19 years now lol#is this anything? does it make sense (ive not had coffee yet)? anyways#polls#night is an absolute mess on main
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👕 & 🍽️? For the trek ask game
Heheh thanks for Asking Meg!!! All aboard another long winded ramble about my wife ST: Voyager!!!!!
👕 Character whose fashion you like.
While I answered in the last one, I think I'll add to it by saying I love the Ds9/Voyager Uniforms--Infact I'm a HUGE sucker for them--At least to me, they feel like THE signature trek costume rather than TNG or TOS ones. Plus, they are fun to draw! I love how they look on the actors with the structured upper half, and loose, high-waisted pants that give everyone the illusion of height.
Those that are dressed in the uniform are portrayed with a respectable heft and a pleasant, overall shape. I know it's not the case, but they look like they are really practical. This is fully intentional as the lead costume designer said they wanted the suits to appear modular and have advantages in different environments. That's why sometimes they are unzipped or twisted around, depending on the narrative.
I could go on and on about them. I act feral over how they look when when all the actors stand together, turned in various ways, posing so that that folds pucker on their joints, or when subtle differences in their body sizes take up screen. It just looks so cool! I'm a big fan of squad-based, colour-coded uniforms and clean silhouettes.
Most importantly though, it gives them all BODY-ODY-ODY!!!
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AYO WHICH LOCATION THEY AT??? CW: GORILLA DUMPIES!!! 👀👀👀 😳😳😳😳
🍽️What alien food/drink would you want to try?
I wish I could find the video but I've seen bits and pieces about how they designed the food on the sets and I think it's super charming!
Lots of effort went into considering the cuisine. It just about decorates every set and It was important to the show. Voyager engaged in a lot visual gags, or dialog discussing food. It was in a comforting way that would present the characters with their personal ideals of home.I find that subtext of world-building really endearing.
Many scenes involved characters bonding in the mess hall, socializing around food, or isolating with it to gain a sense of self. In contrast, it's used as a device for diplomacy, or to make settings seem more alien, unnavigated and removed from regular comforts. It's even incorporated into main plot points, such as with Tuvok in ''Riddles'', when he gains a newfound skill around cooking after a serious accident, and he solves the plot by decorating a code on a cake. Through food, we saw a lot of what it could be like to be a crew member on the ship, and live inside their Universe. It wasn't always pretty but they made it work.
We have a really rich food bowl and diverse food-culture In Australia, I love noticing exotic food that are used as set decoration of as props--I am used to seeing tropical fruit or Asian ingredients around my community, so it's fun to see it transformed. And much like the characters in Voyager, I relate to the comfort and the charting of new territories when it comes to seeing/ eating food.
I suspect being a chef / working in hospitality would be an interesting occupation in Trek. Everyone complains about the lack of authenticity from replicated food, so I'm sure being a good Chef would be worth your while.
I genuinely want to try Old-mate Neelix's cooking. He seems so creative and passionate about what he plates up, and he CLEARLY (they all put on weight haha) kept the crew well-fed. ''Bitches make do'', but you can tell he cares by the questions he askes everyone, or the detail he places into his recipes. I'd like to see what all the fuss is about with Leeola Root Stew. I bet it's not that bad! (I like bitter food) Or better, serve me up a Jimbalian Fudge cake! It's so quaint how there is an evolution to his work as he gets more integrated with everyone.
(crying over this ^) Neelix Nation Rise Up!!!!
#SOBBING I LOVE STARTREK VOYAGER SO MUCH!!!!!!#thankyou if you read my thoughts again lmao the other one is popping off hahaha#i did not proof read this at all so sorry if it's a fucking mess (not much unlike my other textposts lolololol)#now i just want to redraw frames of the body music video with the command crew lmao#i think about this stuff & how it's so underrated in the way that the the REAL subtext behind the characters is right there but y'all slee#instead people are busy infighting or making up stuff little truth behind it when it's actually alot of sincere material is available#dont mind me being a FREAK over their visual language and body dimensions idk#i fucking love just SCANNING the frames and being like YUM A CURVE ON THEIR ARM or a WOW THE SHAPE OF THEIR WAIST#TY MEGGG I HOPE THIS ISNT A BAD RESPONSE IM SO BAD AT PROSE LMAO#neelix#kathryn janeway#chakotay#tuvok#star trek voyager#startrek voyager#st voyager#SORRY ANOTHER BIG TEXT POST#theartmeg
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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.
#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void#shits rough dawg#I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts#haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier#it’s cold#saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours#guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left#even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are#I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh#my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week#maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting#woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside#hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning#can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience#anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments#I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now#ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever#you can ignore this#text
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At the bus stop one time there was a gaggle of preschoolers waiting to catch the bus for a field trip day, and someone walked past with a couple of friendly little dogs, to great general delight.
But after a little bit, the dogs were getting overwhelmed, and the preschoolers were gently coaxed to back off so the person with the dogs could continue on. Specifically, one of the preschool teachers said, "Sometimes, when you're small, being surrounded by big people can be a bit scary and overwhelming. Even if they are friendly."
This was recieved as great wisdom: after all, the preschoolers were also small, and understood how scary and overwhelming big people could be! And the dogs were indeed even smaller than the preschoolers, so it made sense.
What was funny and charming was that, upon absorbing and reflecting on this wisdom, they all felt the need to tell it to one another. In tones of great insight, they turned to one another and said, "Did you know? Sometimes when you are small, being surrounded by big people can be scary and overwhelming! Even if they are friendly!" Back and forth, without any particular concern that they were all saying the same thing. Have reached comprehension of an insight, it must be shared!
I must say that this behavior is less charming in tumblr users than in preschoolers. Not least because tumblr users, having gained a little analytical skill to misuse, insist on Summarizing and Generalizing and Unifying the insights they repeat, quickly turning any interesting new information into formulaic dogmatic mush.
#i made the mistake of looking in the notes of the beach sand post i reblogged to see if anyone else had interesting comments#And the rate at which it went from like#1) person states with moderate confidence an opinion based on their personal observations#2) multiple people reply with “wow thats so insightful!” (aka it aligns with my preconceived notions of how things work)#3) someone else adds additional personal observations which are not really relevant but which can be absorbed into the narrative#4) people start outright stating the underlying belief on which this bias is constructed as if it were a fresh insight#5) general derisive attitude towards people who haven't seen the Obviously Correct solution to this complex real world problem yet#It's very.......#It's not like it's a high stakes post but it's such a microcosm of the whole dogmatic phenomenon#Also this js a more specific gripe to My Field or w/e#But the degree to which people react to the problems caused by the whole “Control of Nature” era of engineering#with this equally reductive “Nature will Fix Everything” type of attitude#Is sooooo frustrating.#Yes a great many of our current problems could have been avoided if we had not made massive changes to ecosystem processes on the assumptio#That they were simple and we understood them. And that they would respond in predictable ways.#the simplicity in retrospect of “wow we Should Not have done that” does not mean that they are simple to undo!#You can't go back in time. You can't turn back the clock on chaotic processes#Which is. Almost every process ever.#Restoration is hard! Returning to previous regimes of sediment or flooding or fire is tricky and full of foibles!#Moving towards a future which doesn't suck as much even if the past cant be recreated is also uncertain and difficult!#It's frustrating to see people act all high and mighty about how they Respect Nature unlike whoever is making all these decisions#When their understanding of the natural processes in question is AS simplistic as the people who caused the whole mess back in 1910 or w/e#Like I'm not saying there's not bad interests standing in the way of functional restoration on all levels#That's very much a fight to be fought.#But looking at that fight-in-process and saying “wow none of you Respect Nature like me uwu let nature fix it”#Is.#Ugh.
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umm who else wants to babysit this thing.............
#mint castella#la creatura#(<- full of raw plutonium)#kmart#i messed up her outfit real bad ughhgh#wow i REALLY forgot to post this lmao#comic#wlart#williamleonard
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grounding techniques sound like such bs until you’re actually in the thick of it and suddenly find yourself counting shit you can touch and hear n etc and suddenly it’s like oh ok. Horrors are done
#aka. We had a moment 👍#but I’m ok now.#Helps having a very very clingy cat who sits on you as if she’s been trained to do that when she most certainly has not been#Anyyyyway. I need to get Diagnosed .#the one like non-catastrophizing thought I had in that mess ‘wow they weren’t kidding#this Girl can Need To Go Back to Therapy’#Realizing that thing ur previous therapist suggested you might have may actually have some weight to it. Like. Awww fuck#That’s like so much to deal with. I’d like to opt out of this mental health issue thanks.#Not adhd. The Other Thing. The Scary Thing (to me)#I’m dodging saying it because I’m in the phase of like ‘if I dont say it it’s not real’ where right now I can be in denial 👍#because I’m NOT diagnosed. I’ve just had two separate counselors tell me I probably have it. 👍#Which could mean nothing. <- lying to self#vent#<- I mean yes it counts so I’m tagging it as such#clamtalk#it’s 1am I need to bed . Long day tomorrow.
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My list of "reasons why this update is so late" for the next ITNL update just keeps growing longer
The next thing tacked on will be "I got strep throat (or something like it) so bad that I ended up literally bleeding from the throat :)"
Suffice to say, this is going to be an interesting summary of my life over the past few months 😂
#speculation nation#wrote a smut fic got a new girlfriend started playing bg3 quit my job my dad died AND ALSO i was so sick my throat was bleeding#what a life ive been living!!! ao3 commenters r gonna b like 'are you okay??????'#and im just gonna have to be like. 'NO!!! :D but im doing my best to get by anyways!!!!!'#anyways yea im still doing fine. the antibiotics r helping a lot. a got a special mouthwash to help heal the throat lesion#i managed to take a shower today!!! for the first time in a week!!! and cleaned up the cat messes!!! im so proud of myself#it wore me out for Real but i still did it. im making progress!!!#recovery!!! doing my best!!!!!#gonna have to sleep soon tho. wow i am worn out.
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