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Yknow what fucking sucks is that i was planning on saving some money for a vacation with my family to celebrate when my uncle gets back from the hospital
#vent#i regret not having planned one sooner#i look back a few days and think if it would have made a difference if we could had just afford to let him stay a bit more at the#pirvate hospital#if he didn’t have to wait a few days to get a room in the public hospital#would it have made a difference
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Still wonder what fantasy boys would have looked like if there was no benefit for the final songs
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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)
if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
#cw: suicidal ideation#cw: suicide#cw: self harm#cw: mental health#cw: depression#i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it#i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague#it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves#so. please dont#for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic#with the state of the world as it is#having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful#but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full#and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead#i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us#there is no fix-all#and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile#i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it#thank you for reading#and please stay alive#stillindigo art#stillindigo comics
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it drives me crazyyyy that like. palamedes is out at canaan house with tenderness in excelsius for dulcinea. the perfect regency era gentleman. every moment is the pride and prejudice hand flex scene. if the pov character was attracted to men even a little bit the narration would be filled with swooning. he’s lowering her gently into chairs and handing her tea so that their hands brush and looking at her with those big grey eyes of his. and all of it is WASTED because it’s NOT dulcinea it’s CYTHEREA. FUCK
#PUNCHING THE AIR#i think a lot about that line from unwanted guest#‘i loved you. i love you still. i would have worked out how to love you better over time.’#like. what if dulcie HAD made it to canaan house. what if she and pal HAD met. what if he HAD treated her this way#would things have been different? would they have had more time???#FUCK dude. they GET ME#the locked tomb#gideon the ninth#gtn#gtn spoilers#palamedes sextus#dulcinea septimus#paldulcie#tlt#nat og#1k#2k
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@oddarette made me hungry with that meatsicle so I had to make a 3D render of it.
#3d model#blender#You can't reblog with videos and a gif would be waaaay to compressed and pixelated#so I had to resort to making an entirely new post instead#I might have made the contrast too big but I have two different screens with two different contrasts settings#and I didn't know which screen too follow 😖
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You made her cry, time to die.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jiang yanli#jin zixuan#wei wuxian#This scene actually takes place many months before the previous scene.#Hence the outfits looking different!#Consider this a flashback within a flashback!#Speaking of outfits - no one noticed/commented on it so I'll give my little continuity nod away:#JZX's bandages on his wrist are from the *last* time he insulted Jiang Yanli.#I considered having WWX maul him like a chew toy again but I think this punchline hits funnier. A kickline. if you will.#And speaking of other outfit nods: This is a meta nod towards JYL's first appearance in this series.#Where I accidently made the flower on her dress look like a penis. Hoping no one would notice.#Then months later...just when I thought I was safe...someone pointed it out and I *wailed*. I AM SO SORRY SHIJIE...#I really to love this scene a lot. We have JYL just trying her best + JZX being a dickhead + WWX being full of rage. Mwah. Delicious.#I especially love how the audio drama comments that Jiang Cheng is on his way over. You *know* he's about to start swinging too.
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Since book 7 part 5 (the part where we meet Meleanor/Maleanor 👀) is coming to EN this month, i would love to see your take on lilia’s proposal to meleanor! i mean they were like little kids right? it couldn’t have been that serious…i think the only reason she even brought it up again is because she could tell lilia still genuinely loved her…(even if he didn’t realize it himself?) but, oh well! Let’s think about silly childhood shenanigans to numb the pain! ^_^ (orz)
oh shit?! get ready for a doozy guys, it's comiiiiiing ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ
I chickened out of posting the whole thing (look, I get VERY carried away when it comes to these wacky kids and their Tragedy), but I do believe that it probably ended with Lilia getting embarrassed and just shoving the first thing he sees into his mouth to try and cover for it.
(we're just lucky it wasn't a frog this time)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 5 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 5 spoilers#please excuse the Dissertation that's about to happen (i have too much headcanon about them)#they've been ambiguous about most of the fae aging/developmental stages (plus lilia and mel's species age differently)#so this is entirely me assuming based on context#but i think that lilia being ~99 was probably about the equivalent of 9-10ish?#(i don't think his age maps perfectly onto 'human age times 10') (if only because i absolutely do not believe general lilia is 29)#(but in this case it feels right to me)#and i think of meleanor as being just slightly older (like ~11-12ish)#so like...kids but not LITTLE-little kids#so i think lilia was serious in a 'i have a huge crush on you and i haven't thought beyond that' kind of way#and meanwhile mel was more cognizant of how their dynamic was basically#lilia: i would die for you#meleanor: that's dumb#(lilia 600 years later: man she was right. that was dumb.)#but yeah I think she might've assumed (or hoped) he would grow out of it#except whoops oh no it just got worse#and then raverne made things MORE complicated and you know honestly maybe getting murdered was kind of a relief#meleanor in heaven: well at least he won't accidentally raise my kid to have the exact same -- are you kidding me#(i have too many thoughts to express properly i'm sorry) (i just. love these morons a lot okay.)
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Another year, Another lesbian pride gown moment🌸
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#deliart#pride 2024#jjba#jojo's bizarre adventure#jolyne cujoh#hermes costello#jolymes#stone ocean#I MADE IT . LAST DAY BUT I MANAGED TO FINISH IT BEFORE JUNE ENDED#This artwork file ended up with well over 500 layers#i would check the specifics but im not gonna open that thing and wait for a solid 3 mins for it to load LMAO#there are soo many things i wanna change and do differently but its the last day of pride month so times up!#wait i had to change a thing so i opened the clip file and we were on 546 layers not counting differently named ones#like copied layers. of which there are multiple. “layer 133 copy 2 copy 1”. its bad. im NOT gonna merge layers tho.#either way. i wanted the dress fabric layers to have a bit of a butterfly wing feel but i got a little sidelined#maybe ill make a more direct version next year?
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My page for @sheikahzine; about Impaz's duty to her village, empty of people and full of memories.
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#legend of zelda#loz#twilight princess#loz tp#i'm still reeling that someone sent me an ask about this one.. that they took the time to find my tumblr and tell me they liked it#it really meant a lot; thank you to anyone that stops to leave comments like that. they make me happy#but yeah! here's the usual symbolism ramble:#i thought it'd be cool to have the 'spirits' flowing one way and the cats walking through them the other way#to kinda show the difference in life inhabiting the village in the past and present#link's face is covered because impaz was just waiting for 'the hero' so his clothes are what matters; not his face#and it (hopefully) gives a surreal and intangible sense to 'the hero' she could only hope would actually show up#you can feel free to interpret the glowy blue sheikah as ghosts or just as memories of the past! i couldn't decide either way#the one on the bottom left is oot impa since she's implied to be the village founder. so i guess she would be a ghost actually?#fan art#my art#project stuff#and ahhh the book-- everyone's stuff is so beautiful!!#especially the writing. some of the fics made me really tear up and some were so fun and clever. i really love them#a lot of them captured the sheer burden of the role of the sheikah; all of the time and grief and doubt#i know i always say this stuff about every project but. the people i get to work with in these are truly so skilled every time
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17th Century Gaydar
With @canisalbus's characters Vasco and his QPR wife Ludovica. Consider this a Headcanon but I imagined they were likely set up as like, teens- maybe not fully arranged marriage, but marriage was heavily implied with their courtship. So here I imagine them as like 15/16 which is why they're kind of smaller and scruffier, as well as having their outfit colors a little lightened. Also Ludovica in cute ear bows moment. I THINK this is my first more or less official online artist fan art??? I hope I did them justice.
*edit forgot to color in Vascos hands consistently my bad **EDIT I CANNOT BE TRUSTED TO POST ART WITHOUT FORGETTING SOMETHING
#illustration#digital art#my art#fan art#canisalbus#vasco#Ludovica#gay dogs#anthro#furry#comic#a lil disgruntled teen vasco for ya#he CAN frown!#gay lesbian solidarity#wlw mlm solidarity#I made a LOT of assumptions about Ludovica#like there's just the rough headshot without her hands or tail#this is all speculative hc stuff anyway#did some roughly time period appropriate clothing#figured they wouldn't be wearing anything too ~flashy~ in a personal moment#and would have slightly different wardrobes as teenagers
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2015 called, it wants its cloudball back. redrawing things yet again.....
original here
dress design by @rumminov
#jade harley#homestuck#hs#skaia#prospit#rumminov im sorry for tagging you in homestuck stuff in 20 goddamn 24#lovisas art#i think ive been redrawing my old stuff so much bc i remember how much fun i had when i did it before and want to relive it#and im having a fucking blast!#also while im proud of what i made i still see things i would do differently today#and if you think thats boring well. too bad#99% of my art is solely for me#dwi
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Wyrm on a string
#it was supposed to be a tiny doodle but I just kept on yo-ing#I like her colors a lot hehhehehe#I like how they made her dragon design different from the golden trio. like she has a different shaped snout antlers and smaller ears#like I know the devs want us to know hey this is what zelda would look like as a dragon but following the zonai were descendants of gods/#dragons and zelda is a descendent of the zonai it just feels narratively pleasing to me lol#raurus hair looks similar to the dragons manes with the same undertones and everything. and he has horns where dragon horns would be#makes me wonder if the golden goddesses were incarnated as zonai this time around and they turned into dragons. that would be interesting#I don’t really know if that would make sense bc I’ve never played ss so j don’t have much background on the golden goddesses#totk#tears of the kingdom#totk spoilers#tears of the kindom spoilers#totk zelda#totk light dragon#my art#myart#doodles#loz#loz zelda
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slab guy
#my art#ethoslab fanart#etho fanart#ethoslab#etho#trafficblr#life series#i put a lot more time and thought into this design than i normally do#tried to make it a teensie bit more detailed to see how it would look#since i want to try different things with my art ?#i’m… decently ? happy with how it came out.#+ i’ve been working on my colors and UPDATE !!! I no longer have a burning hatred for them. i somewhat enjoy coloring things now#um anyway this was meant to be a double life design because i was rewatching ethos pov of double life because im not okay#but like the only thing hinting at that is the boat patch and i think this would be my normal design if it didnt have that. SO.#whatever#I also kinda wish i made the background darker. but i do not care enough to fix it
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wyll's #1 sexual fantasy: being loved for who he is and assured that hes enough, even without his blade of frontiers persona
wyll's #2 sexual fantasy: being choked out by a minotaur
#bg3#wyll ravengard#jsyk this is vibes-based and not canon. but also... not UNcanon#it is not canon-contradictory because we shrimply do not have any direct info on this#but also. it is not canon because we have no info on this#just specifying because i almost always post things that are 100% canon and i dont want anyone to assume this is one of those times#with that out of the way#i cant imagine the 7 years of loneliness + stress + adrenaline combo hasnt done anything weird to him#if you took 17yo me and made it so 90% of my skin-to-skin interactions were in life-or-death high octane encounters with monsters#my own blood mingling with the arterial red sprayed across my face and hands. the rush of victory a mixer in a cocktail of pain#i would be much weirder! in a very different way! i would be a tier 1 weirdo and not even know it!
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it's so amusing that when you're an author who is like any minority, you have this caveat where if your book gets banned, you kinda have to mentally acknowledge whether it was banned by Bruce, the one really bigoted guy who wastes everyone's time in florida. idk how bruce is doing. you don't need to learn who he is really which is why im not using his surname. but if you have a book out commercially, bruce has probably written "damaged souls" on a form about you. so there's a street cred element to all this like did people really have a vendetta against your work...? or was it just bruce again
#i am mildly certain i have received two different bruce attacks towards different florida counties#but i can only find one of his beautiful forms where he writes that the book has critical race theory even though it's about skeletons#he also made a really amusing video where he reads lines of my book out loud derisively and i would just love to post it but#alas i don't want to give him the satisfaction..#not all of my bans were bruce there were issues in virginia and idaho and kentucky but still#also please let this serve as a reminder that many horrible things are caused by evil people just being really loud and determined
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practicing how i want to draw these two and this happens. russia turned out okay so i'm happy!
#hetalia#aph russia#aph america#rusame#aph rusame#still figuring out tags#there's so many different names to this series idk what the most used one is#that would require browsing each tag and i'm too lazy#side note i worried i made america look too young especially in the last pic#but like... he IS young i had to remind myself#russia turned out okay in that i liked that you can't tell if he's old or young#except in that last pic he looks odd but i struggled with what i wanted his expression to be period#it wouldn't have mattered#these two are fun and versatile to mold and play with btw <3
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