#working autistic

[bitter-sweetener]

PLEASE HELP A QUEER CREATIVE

HI TUMBLR URGENT NEED FOR DONATIONS

I'm an autistic, non-binary POC who needs help to maintain my housing. My rent is due at the end of the month. I work a job, but I suffered a mental health crisis that's just been ongoing for the past few months. Every day is filled with emptiness and meltdowns and just stress on stress. In the past, I have had to rely on credit cards and adult online entertainment to make ends meet. I simply no longer possess the spoons to mask long enough to do that at this point. It's very draining to have a job that takes up all your energy AND sexualize yourself online to just afford to live. Please please please reblog and donate if you can. I am only asking for $200 total to just pay rent. My other bills are kinda on. The back burner until I can at least make this payment. I have so far made $20/$200 in both donations and drawing requests. See my pinned post if you want to see some doodles.

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Thank you

$180 to go!!!!

[teddy-bear-d]

Not my normal kinda post but I gotta just say; I love my autistic self. I am happy being me despite how societal structures disable me. The 1 in 5 autistic adults being able to hold a job thing is the worst though. And the fact that those 1’s are still having meltdowns half the time…

This is to say, for the third year in a row I had a meltdown over training for my job. The same job I’ve had for those years. The exact same training.

This to say, you can find your routine’s and you can find what fits for you no matter your disabilities. It is not bad or wrong for it to effect you every single time, even if you know what to expect and even if you’ve prepared everything you can for yourself. It’ll still happen. It’s taking me a long time to just let it happen. Because obviously it sucks. But it’s much easier and healthier to let the river flow over you than to try to act as a dam and block it all in.

[healing-with-bunnie]

Life, Love, and Disabilities

Ever since I was younger I have felt like this world wasn't made for me. I recently had to quit my job, it was tearing me apart from the inside and now I'm thinking about applying for disability because I feel the same way about work that I've always felt about school.

It's not that I don't want to work, I want more than anything in this world to work and be a normal functioning human being. Unfortunately, if I do go on disability it'll mean that my lifelong dream of getting married and having a nice happy little family might have to be something I put behind me.

After all, you can't keep disability if you're married, or even if you're in a long-term committed relationship. So now I sit here, my heart heavy with trying to decide if I should give up my dreams of having a family - or if I should keep pushing myself to my breaking point...

Hopefully another blog post soon with some research on how to make money if you're unable to go on disability for any reason, work-from-home type jobs. But for now, I'm sitting here in my fog, trying so hard to keep myself together.

[bonnie-is-bumbling]

Hyper focus at work is great. Except for when it gets interrupted by a guest.

And of course, guest takes priority. I know that. I have no problem with that.

What I do have a problem with is my own brain feeling irrationally angry as if it can't go back to what I was doing after I finish with the guest.

Like, come on, brain. We are not a toddler. My masking on the outside is enough, but I feel like I'm babysitting myself.

Also, why do people feel the need to bring their whole family in to check into a hotel??

I could understand a single parent or something, but I had a whole family, mixture of adults and kids, all travelling in two vehicles, all having to get out and stand in the lobby.

I get the need to stretch your legs after a long drive. There's a lot of different people with a lot of different needs, wants, and motives. And sometimes all that motive is- is to get a stretch. But it makes it hard for me to do my job. And this might only be because I'm neurodivergent. Neurotypical hotel overnighters are probably scoffing and shaking their heads at me for this, but... I'm gonna say it anyway! I'm gonna get it off my chest.

The kids are running around, everyone is making the door open and close, the person checking both rooms in is in a super pushy hurry when talking to me, but wants to chat with everyone in their party. Not even about the hotel or room, or anything. But I mean. Leaving me hanging mid-answer-to-their-question. Party members asking me questions while I'm trying to listen to the person checking in. The motion sensitive doors are opening and closing, occasionally with other parties, other times, just from the movement.

The hotel computers take about 12 years to do much of anything as it is, and lucky me, they were running ULTRA SUPER FAST (<- Sarcasm. All the sarcasm.) And they were saving the second room when I told them to, and never once freezing up entirely! (<-someone bonk Bon for overuse of sarcasm .)

I might add that this big party has lots of people coughing without even turning away or covering their mouths... Not even the adults! So adding the repeated coughing, unattended kids going into the 'sweet shop' and out, interrupting to ask more questions. What could have been a one or two minute check in and giving of keys turned into about a 20 minute, overwhelming mess I was shaking during, trying so bloody hard to not go off in front of others.

I guess I may be a little insensitive. But in theory, if I had a big party with kids (not particularly little kids in this party's case,) I'd have people stretch out by the car while it's in the carport. Or maybe wait until I got checked in for that 24 hour pool. Not... Fill up the lobby and be loud and interrupt the person that's working with the front desk to get our rooms.

Perhaps there's stuff I just don't understand, no matter how hard I try. I do understand that nothing was done maliciously, and I don't have anything against big families or big parties. That's not my business.

My body and mind are frustrated and overstimulated, not angry at anyone, for anything.

[inkskinned]

please i love you i'm begging you bring back suspension of disbelief bring back trusting the audience like. i cannot handle any more dialogue that sounds like a legal document. "hello, i am here to talk to you about the incident from a few minutes ago, because i feel you might be unwell, and i am invested in your personal wellbeing." "thank you, i am unwell because the incident was hurtful to me due to my childhood, which was bad." I CANT!!!!

do you know how many people are mad that authors use "growled" as a word for "said"? it's just poetics! they do not literally mean "growled," it's just a common replacement for "said with force but in a low tone." it's normal! do you hear me!! help me i love you please let me out of here!!!

[dailydivergent]

There’s no such thing as work-life balance for neurodivergent & chronically ill people.

This is because everything in my life requires work:

maintaining friendships

keeping up with my hygiene

managing bills

making money

remembering my basic needs

sleeping regularly

outputting creatively

All requires some aspect of work for me.

And when everything in your life requires work, your balance goes out the window.

If you're neurodivergent and overwhelmed — I see you.

If you're chronically ill and overwhelmed — I see you.

You're not dysfunctional.

You're not incapable.

You're doing your best.

[victusinveritas]

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

best thing about batman is that he's a superficially grimdark character, gothic & brooding & angst ridden etc..........but then it turns out he has a million hobbies, regularly goes on adventures with his besties, and has a dozen adopted kids he's raising with his devoted foster dad. good for him

[badolmen]

They don’t even attempt to assassinate US politicians anymore. You notice that? Not since the anthrax scare back for… who was it, Barack? And even that… pathetic. This new generation has no respect for an honest hitman. I’m not sure this new generation has any honest hitman - you see that shit with Boeing? Sloppy, fucking disgraceful - you kill the whistleblowers before they get halfway to a lawsuit. What kind of fucking amateur is doing faked suicides the night before testimony? Goddamn greenhorns. Back in my day someone tried to shoot Ronald Reagan in broad daylight. There used to be bomb threats to Congress. I took out a few union leaders in the utilities sector myself. Today’s generation? Won’t even threaten to throw a punch - not even over on that - what’s it now, ‘X’? They got no guts. None! And they don’t even have poor impulse control to boot! Too much of that - that panopticon anxiety bullshit. “Oh what if I get a called out post???” People used to send the president letters full of bioweapons. In the mail! Today’s generation? Not a chance. All because of woke.

[lureithleon]

this bothers me a lot as someone with a low empathy score:

no, you cannot learn empathy. empathy is when you feel and share the emotions of the other person. your friend is sad? you feel sad.

you can learn to be understanding, and compassionate, and how to react when you don't feel those things, but you cannot learn to experience a sensation that you do not.

[shadowpuppetteer]

This whole comic is a combination of two separate pep talks I got early on from a friend and my sister telling me the same thing. For every artist, voice actor, cosplay creator, writer, and creator, do not undersell yourself. Your skills and time are worth getting paid for. And for every person looking to commission a creator, if their prices are too high or you can't afford their art, that's ok. But there are many reasons why they charge for their work. Like everyone else, we gotta make a living. These lil turtles are just the cutest and I adore their familial relationship in the series 💚 So it was great to get to draw Donnie helping Mikey with a power point presentation/pep talk.

[homkamiro]

*heavys voice* entire team is BABIES!!!!!

[healing-with-bunnie]

Work and Mental Illness

Being mentally ill and working is a really hard combination. Especially if you work in a place that is not accommodating (let's be honest that's probably every job you've ever had).

I think the worst part is that I have shown I am capable, and it's fully possible for me to do my job, it just takes a massive number on my psyche.

I work for Mcdonald's, which is like the #1 worst place to work when you struggle with so many different things. I've made my way up to management, had to step down, been institutionalized twice, and had to call out so many times because some days the thought of working makes me cry for an entire day.

And of course, all of it comes in cycles, that's usually how it is with things like BPD (though that's not the only thing that makes working hard for me), where for a few months I'll be doing great, I love my job and have no issues, then I start struggling a little bit which eventually turns into another hospital or crisis unit stay.

Autism is another big unhelpful thing when it comes to work, especially in places like McDonald's. Between all the god-awful beeping, the millions of missed social cues in the day, and sometimes I just straight up don't understand what's being said to me unless people say it the "way they're supposed to"

That's all I've got to say on it for now.

[universalneurodivergent]

this

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This!!!!!!

(also, to everyone getting on my case about not reblogging or reposting, I actually tried to find this Tumblr after I found the post on Pinterest and it doesn't exist anymore, so shut up and get off my back 🙃)

[grison-in-space]

Okay so. So decomposing executive function problems, and the things people grapple with, is a thing that I've been chewing over lately. We talk a lot on Tumblr about executive dysfunction but that's a pretty broad category of brain no worky good, and I'm honestly really curious: for other folks who struggle with executive dysfunction, which specific function causes the most problems for you day to day?

If you have more than one thing you struggle with, pick the one that causes you the most problems day to day.

[draconic-absurdism]

The completed POOLROOMS series: THE SYMBOLIC, THE SENSORY, AND THE AUTISTIC