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Sorry things are super rough right now, really hope it eases up on you soon :[, don’t gotta answer this obviously but!! Finally got into college and im gonna be a pilot!! Going on a plane to ride around this Saturday actually, it’s awesome
Been SUPPERR busy cause of that but it’s really fun and exciting despite that :]
aww, soy that is amazing 😭💚💚💚 i’m also starting college in a few days! here’s to both of us!
#i knew you would pursue pilot training! i am SO proud of you#words cannot describe how happy that makes me#ily soy 🌟🌟🌟#asks#soy-s4uce
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‼️‼️ YOO U ALL SHOULD CHECK OUT BWAMBOS COMMISSIONS RIGHT NEOW!!
i got a sketch of my girl vellum for $15!!! such a steal... AND SHE LOOKS SOOO COOL LOOKIT HERRR RAAAGH IM FLIPPING OUT
he was VERY nice throughout the process and communiated perfectly!! if you want some super pretty art AND wanna help a cool person get out of a toxic environment, GO GO GO !!!
or reblog/boost their emergency comm post 2 help out :3
#utmv#utmv fanart#undertale#undertale au#inkblott#underverse#paperjam sans#lux sans#paperlux#vellum sans#shipkid#paperlux kid#art commisions#GO GO GET SOME EPIC ART RIGHT NOW RIGHT NOW#bawmbo commissions#ugghh the way her clothes were drawn#IM OBSESSED#WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY IT MAKES ME!!!
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Ready Steady? Get out the way.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEWIS HAMILTON 🎉‼️
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#lewis hamilton#f1#formula 1#e :3#f1edit#dailyf1#HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FAVE F1 DRIVER OF ALL TIME 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰#had to make an edit just for him on this special day ‼️#yall dont even know how much he means to me 😭#i still remember his 100th gp win as if its yesterday aaaaaaa and i even have the lego w12 displayed on my desk 🥰#words cannot describe how happy he makes 🥺
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Ben Lambert in "Angels in Small Change (2013)"
my gift for my dear friend and mutual @feenmies
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEENIE!!! YOU ARE THE BEST!!!!
BONUS BEN'S BACK
#sorry feenie I know nothing about genshin impact so I made this#luckily I saw your post about your bday days ago if I saw it today or yesterday I wouldn't be able to do this in time#I didn't liked or commented it because I wanted this to be a surprise I am such a genius LOL#I hope you like it because you have no idea how difficult it was to find this fucking short#pretty sure finding the actual Ben Lambert in real life is easier it took me two days to find it#and tbh words cannot describe my disappointment at this short having 0 gay kisses#you cast Lambert for a gay role and you don't make him have a single gay kiss?? Jail.#ANYWAY I WISH YOU A REALLY HAPPY GAY BIRTHDAY FEENIE YOU DESERVE IT!!!!
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also like i partially found out i might be intersex because i was looking at trans stuff and there was like "(however many) months on t and finally seeing some bottom growth" and like pictures of t-dicks and i was like.... um.... that's kind of just what my clit looks like anyways. so i was like "hey google give me a quick rundown on this" and learned what clitoromegaly was and then i was like. hm. intersex resources. and it's like a sign? symptom? side-effect? of certain intersex conditions
#i mean like pcos runs in the mums side of my family but i dont have all the symptoms of that#i do also have like. more hair?? than the average afab person#like dark hair on my stomach and chest and back#and my face. whats disappointing about the face hair is that it isnt enough to be able to grow a beard#so i cant even fuck with gender that way#tagging as nsft just because of like genital mention#genital mention#nsft#shoutout to transmascs on t who show their t-dicks on the internet it was really helpful#also i dont know how to describe it but like. my natural face shape is kind of masculine??#like it would be plausible for a cis amab perisex man to have my face without looking feminine#if you get what im saying??#if it sounds like im reinforcing sex or gender essentialism please say i am struggling to find words#unshoutout to the boys in primary school who made fun of me for having hair under my arms and starting a whole decade of insecurity-#-about having hair on my body lmao#for the record i dont think certain face shapes are indicative of gender and all im just going by like. patterns?? in afab vs. amab faces#also not that i think afab vs. amab is the entire categorisation of human sex characteristics but um. working with what vocab i have here#i think what also really kicked it off. was relating to a fair few experiences intersex people have socially#particularly intersex ppl who were afab and faced a lot of pressure to make their bodies conform to feminine beauty standards#and it was like.... oh lol.... my mum did that to me!!#it comes from her own internalised shit bc she has pcos (idk if she identifies as intersex even tho she could if she wanted) but still.#dont project that onto a 10 yr old lmao. she keeps buying me hair removal products#ALSO floored by an experience i have. in which apparently half my friends dont feel pressure to shave their legs#because the hair on their legs is like. light and thin and barely visible and i was like?? huh??#what do you MEAN your legs don't look like your brothers/fathers if you dont shave??#im starting to think they dont shave their arms. their arms might just naturally not have a load of hair#i dont shave my arms though. cannot be bothered with that and also like. why would i do that#also you know that like. happy trail i think its called?? on “men's” stomachs??#yeah i have that naturally yeah thats right im naturally sexy#if you cant tell i am putting “girls” “mens” “boys” “womens” etc. in quotes to indicate that is just the normal society way of saying it
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feeling deeply cared for and like my life is rich w things 2 be excited abt recently :3
#going 2 a concert and getting a tattoo and traveling out of the country and then moving out of state to a new city#words cannot describe the excitement i have when i think abt building this life in a new place w my gf#in our beautiful home w the dog and the cat#i don't know i just feel so much more like im present in the world and in my life lately#i feel . in control for the first time maybe ever#things r not perfect and life is still hard but !!!#i am happy :)#thinking abt me when i was younger and the immense pain i was in and how disconnected i was from reality#and the huge hurtful mistakes i made#if that version of me could feel as connected and alive and real as i feel rn !!!!#this is what life is supposed to feel like !!#this doesn't make any sense i guess lol but i just#feel like im not a little half alive ghost person anymore LOL#personal
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MY GIRLLLLLLLL SHE LOOKS SO CUTE I LOVE HER SO SO SO SO MUCH :D
I DON'T CARE IF SHE'S A SEASONAL ALT ONLY I AM JUST SO HAPPY THAT TIMERRA IS FINALLY IN THE GAME :D
They teased us back in April of this year with their April Fools' video "Moove with Askr" but I'M SO HAPPY THAT SHE'S FINALLY HERE AFTER 6 MONTHS :D
I am SO totally going to save up my orbs for Timerra :3
#ganessa says stuff#fire emblem#fe#fire emblem engage#fe engage#fe17#fire emblem heroes#fe heroes#feh#timerra#words cannot describe how happy this makes me
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"This flower... it's so dreamlike. Thank you for keeping me with you, I'm glad I'm witnessing the world! I never would have seen something as beautiful as this without you saving me all those years ago."
Featured song: Melody of Brave Seeds
Foreign Waters for day 17 has uncanny timing with the release of Fontaine, just about! This pic is dedicated to my favorite little buddy, Endora! Not only are Oceanids one of my favorite creatures/bosses of Genshin, but the fact that we rescue and essentially take in a freaking baby one? I'M SOLD! I was a very happy lass that day. I have not taken her off since that day, that's for sure. I promised to show her the world, and I intend to keep it up. Fontaine being here by the time this goes up is wild too!
Oh and she's holding one of my favorite flowers in the whole game, the Viparya!
#familiaugust#genshin impact#genshin fanart#genshin impact fanart#endora#fontaine#sumeru#aranara#oceanid#words canNOT describe how much i love genshin ok#i geniunely love it#the lore#the music#man#it makes me so happy#endora is such a good ok#and the theme of vanarama is so neat#viparyas are also so cool in design and existence alone#i won't fill up my tags with my rambling but oh boy#this one even in its simplicity brought me much joy
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Oops thinking about Kylo coming home stressed out, he doesn't need to say a word and I'm already dragging him towards our bedroom(nothing sexual calm down.) I help him get undressed and we snuggle up under the covers together and I tell him how much I love him and how much I adore him~
I pepper his face in kisses until he's smiling and partake in one of my favourite pass times, kissing along the very large scar that's at the top of his eyebrow and goes all the way down, over his cheek, down his neck to his chest. I can feel him tense under me a little and I reassure him of how beautiful he is and reiterate how much I love and adore him inside and out, that he is absolutely gorgeous to me in every way~ he'll ask
"How do you do that?"
To which I'd ask him what he meant.
He would state that he forgot what he was so stressed out about and almost instantly relaxes under my touch after that, telling me that he feels so lucky to have me in his life, I am his light, his sense of peace and calm. and that he never wants to lose me. That he loves me so much that it feels like he could burst <33
I just like taking care of my husband~
#Thinking of him and my heeaarrtt#I'm not doing too well mentally at the moment so thinking about comforting him and making him relaxed and comfortable brings me#my own sense of comfort and happiness. <3#I love him so much. Despite me talking about other f/o he is my number 1 from now until forever. he means so much to me that words cannot#even begin to describe how much he means to me <333#ah my world my heart soul and home <333 I love you so much babyyyy <333#you had me under spell right from the start;
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YOUR ART IS SO FUCKING GOODO MY GAWDDAKSDJASDKAJS huge inspiration,, i wish i could draw like that,, and i'm sure i can too with some practice but like either way love your art!!!!! you've come so far, its crazy to think about some of your very old fnati posts and then just see them all now,, SO unreal but in a good way,, wish we kinda talked more but idk what to ever talk about LMAOOSKDJNSDK but hey i hope you are well and have a fun enjoyable joyful life you are happy with!!!!!!!!! /gen
GUGHHUGH THANK YOU SO MUCH
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#tag talk#was talking with my brother about being plural and like. I'm kinda the tough rough protector cliche one#and I was talking about wanting my other half to be happy and he hit me with something I'm still mulling over.#he was like “you talk a lot about wanting her to be happy. does she want you to be happy?”#and like. chat words cannot describe how much that threw me. it's my job to take the blows. to front when we're in danger and in pain.#I don't think she gives a shit whether I'm happy. she hasn't learned to care about me as a separate person.#I care about her because that's my job. I'm the fucking trauma alter or whatever. but she doesn't care back.#and we really need to have this talk once she's back. she's asleep right now cause we've been having real bad migraine and I've been dealing#but once things aren't so bad we need to have a fucking talk#I'm not happy being restricted to a relationship I'm not interested in. I don't want to date our partner and that's whatever#but I can't even go out and get fucked properly because even though *I'm* not in a relationship my second half is.#like. goofy ah situation where two people live in a single body so one of them is celibate in order to keep the other one monogamous#like. how the fuck do I do this? if he calls me babe or baby or my love one more time I'm gonna kill us both I hate it.#she likes words of endearment like that and I would rather die. she likes kissing him but I don't like kissing anyone in general#and this whole time I've been expected to just go along with everything because she just bulldozes me out of the way.#I tried to break up with him and she took over the next day and got us right back together again with apologies and letters#because she's genuinely emotionally happy with him and I'm happy for her because I do care.#but I'm not happy with the situation and I don't think she actually cares that I'm not happy. she's caught up in her own shit#and I'll admit I do like him. the partner. we communicate really well and we kinda click yaknow?#and I really do want to keep him as a friend long term#but I can't fucking do this I'm not monogamous I just wanna go get fucked good and rough and he's insufficient for that#one of these years I want to go to Folsom Street Fair. I've read a ton about it and it looks so fun.#I just wanna be sexually liberated and unfortunately I'm stuck in this body with a hopeless romantic#anyway. we've got a lot to sort out here.#I just. she does care but she gets so caught up in her own shit that she forgets to consider other people.#and weirdly enough I count as other people even though we're kinda(?) the same person#pretty similar music tastes. relatively similar fashion styles. same body and same childhood goes far in making you similar people#and yeah. I'm aware she's the more developed one. I don't get nearly as much screen time as she does. but I'm making up for lost time#idk. if I'm stuck here I may as well make the most of it.#also wanna know something funny? I think I'm the one who's tried to kill us every time. no way she ever had the guts to do it.
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NOT THERE BEING SIX DAYS UNTIL YOUR BIRTHDAY!
gojo said he’ll share his birthday balloons w you tomorrow.
MY DARLING DEAREST !! ily ily ily !! i’ll be stealing all balloons from gojo tmr hehe <33
#the words cannot describe how happy you make me with these messages :C#ilyyyyy#꒰ྀི io ꒱ྀི#꒰ྀི asks ꒱ྀི#꒰ྀི angie’s bday tingz ꒱ྀི
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Vivia be talking dirty poetry in bed
oh yeah 100%
suggestive talk under the cut 📚🧁
he’s 100% the type to literally say some Shakespeare type shit in the bed and it gets Lady every time
IT GETS EVEN BETTER CAUSE SHE COMPLETELY UNDERSTANDS WHAT HE’S SAYING
he could say literally anything and Lady just whines in response as her face grows even pinker. she just goes “Viviaaaaaa!” n shit like that whenever he teases her
#shut the fuck down ava#ava’s asks#master detective archives: rain code#rain code#rain code oc#original character#lady soot#vivia twilight#mdarc oc#mdarc#twisoot#I’m really glad y’all are liking Lady so much!!! words cannot describe how happy that makes me wehehehehe
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I WILL cry
no i need the consensus song to be making regular occurrences. Percy starting to sing it when Annabeth is butting heads with Tyson but it just makes everything worse because Grover’s in danger. Grover trying to sing it during Titan’s Curse but getting frosted out by the Hunters. Grover looking around during Battle of Labyrinth, realizing that 3 out of the other five people on this quest have a crush on Percy and realizing no consensus song can fix this. Percy starting to sing it during Son of Neptune and having no idea where that came from. Annabeth starting to sing it during a tense moment with Jason and Percy and it completely diffuses the situation because now Percy and Annabeth have to teach it to everyone else and that’s how they all become a team (or better yet Coach Hedge asking what they have to say for themselves about the overnight incident and Percy and Annabeth just start singing and everyone thinks they’re absolute weirdos.) Percy and Annabeth singing it in Tartarus to keep themselves going. The trio singing during Chalice of the Gods because everything’s changed yet nothings changed
#words cannot describe how much i love this new lil tradition#it makes my heart so happy#i'll admit#it initially caught be off guard#but hearing grover and percy sing made me smile#because they're just kids who are keeping everything together#these absolute cuties are finding a way to make peace#and i think that's beautiful#the recurrence of this song is going to make me laugh and it's going to make me cry#but it's worth it#i know it will#the consensus song is a bond that all chb demigods and satyrs share#this is the hill i will die on#consensus song#percy jackson#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo show#grover underwood#annabeth chase
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The Littlest Surprise » Daniel Ricciardo
caption: hello im a new f1 content creator and would love some feedback if you enjoy my fics tysm 🩷
summary: you’ve not been seen at the paddock for a while and the fans are getting worried, little do they know the reason for your absence is about to make everyone’s dreams come true
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danielricciardo: always a pleasure to have the fam on my side, excited to show the little ones what uncle danny gets up to 🥺
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username1: is this yet another race y/n won’t be at this weekend??
username2: I cannot wait for the day that this man becomes a dad
username3: if y/n doesn’t hurry up and make him a dad…daniel i’m happy to offer my services 😊
maxverstappen1: how big is y/n/n now! she looks so grown up 🥺
danielricciardo: @/maxverstappen1 she’ll be 6 soon, where does the time go??
oscarpiastri: don’t forget your little adopted aussie nephew
landonorris: and your british nephew too!!
danielricciardo: @/oscarpiastri @/landonorris hey! i might be a bit older but not old enough to be your uncle thank you
username4: anyone else think something might be going on, daniel posting about his family without y/n there is strange
username5: @/username4 let’s not overthink this too much, y/n might just be busy
username4: @/username5 it’s been ages since we last saw her, you gotta admit it’s a bit sus
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danielricciardo: another great weekend of racing, nice feeling to be back on the podium…man how I missed hearing that champagne pop 🏎️
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charles_leclerc: congrats brother, nice to be up there with you once again
username6: y/n not distracting you anymore to stop you getting on the podium??
username7: @/username6 wtf? why would you suggest such a thing?
carlossainz55: always knew you’d be back up there one day, long may it continue!
yukitsunoda0511: you gotta give me some tips bro, those manoeuvres were lethal today 🔥
pierregasly: danny ric just doing danny ric things
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danielricciardo: hey team! just wanted to clear up some things after miami this weekend…me and y/n are absolutely fine, had some things going on that I promise we’ll explain soon ❤️❤️ for now tho, here’s an update on life recently ☁️✨
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ynusername: 🥺🥺🥺🥺
username8: I knew you guys would be okay, take as long as you need my two favourites!!
username9: a big screw you to those who doubted you…real fans love you guys
landonorris: I love you guys, here if you need anything brother ❤️
username10: hope whatever is going on clears up soon, we’re missing you guys around here🩷
lilymhe: tell y/n to gimme a call! ily guys ✨
visacashapprb: can’t wait to welcome y/n back into the paddock soon - see you for race week!
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ynusername: it’s been a long few months, but we finally feel ready to share with you our happy news. pregnancy has been tough, I’d love to say it has treated me well, but it hasn’t. I cannot thank daniel enough for being by my side and helping me out whenever I’ve needed him…baby spam incoming ⛅️🍼
ps. each of us chose a picture to share, guess who chose what 🙄
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danielricciardo: words cannot begin to describe how proud I am of how brave you’ve been, the worst of it is over now my love, the countdown to baby ricciardo starts now
danielricciardo: ps my photo is way cooler than yours is
landonorris: omg I can’t believe you guys didn’t tell me, uncle Lando reporting for duty!
carlossainz55: the biggest congratulations you two, you’re going to be the best parents
carmenmmundt: so glad to hear y/n is doing better, may the rest of your pregnancy be a dream ✨
lilymhe: the strongest girl I know - so excited to see you become a mum 😍
username11: all my manifesting has paid off, baby ricciardo will be the luckiest
oscarpiastri: AUSSIE AUSSIE AUSSIE!!
estebanocon: my spidey senses were spot on, I knew a baby was on the way!
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ynusername: life lately 💫 exhausted but loving all the little things (including daniel 😂)
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username12: y/n looks like she’s living the dream, mum life suits her well 🥺
danielricciardo: im definitely not a “little thing” how else did we end up like this?
landonorris: @/danielricciardo excuse me sir you are about to have a child, sort your humour out
maxverstappen1: glad to see you’re feeling more like yourself again y/n, brunch on me soon!
ynusername: @/maxverstappen1 yes - let’s not tell daniel #gatecrasher
danielricciardo: @/ynusername you know your comments are public…right?
username13: anyone else wishing they could brunch with y/n too??
lance_stroll: sending all the good book recs your way!
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danielricciardo: babymooning 🍼 the smile says it all, so happy to have my girl back on her feet and feeling like herself again…making the last few memories just the two of us 🥺
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ynusername: thank you for the best couple of days and being my personal taxi driver
username14: look at his face - you can tell daniel is buzzing to be a dad
pierregasly: where was my invite?? I thought we were friends
carlossainz55: and mine!
georgerussell63: me too!
landonorris: looks like we were all forgotten!
visacashapprb: enjoy the break daniel! you and y/n absolutely deserve it 🏁🩷
username15: i speak for all your fans when i say keep the holiday photos coming pls
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danielricciardo: mum and dad 🔥🥺
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landonorris: adopt me pls, im less problematic than a baby
danielricciardo: @/landonorris debatable
lewishamilton: so glad to see you both so happy, good luck with everything
charles_leclerc: wow!! y/n looks insane (suppose you look alright too daniel!)
ynusername: mum and dad?? i can definitely get used to hearing that 🤩
alex_albon: it’s not fair how adorable you two are, this kid is hella lucky!!
username16: pls keep the baby spam coming, you guys are the sweetest 🍼💫
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ynusername: the many faces of a man who has just remembered he’s just signed up for no sleep for the next 10 years 😂
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danielricciardo: after all I’ve done for you, this is how you repay me? you just wait my love 🫢
ynusername: @/danielricciardo this was too good of an opportunity to miss
carlossainz55: make the most of that middle photo whilst you can danny
georgerussell63: you have NO idea how much I just laughed at this y/n 😂😂😂
schecoperez: speaking from experience, you could not be more correct y/n #dannynosleep
username17: embarrassing dad before even becoming a dad 😬
oscarpiastri: call me for anymore embarrassing daniel pics 😂
danielricciardo: @/oscarpiastri no one asked for you to show up here
username18: I just want you to be my mum and dad instead 😭
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ynusername: can you believe this man is really about to become a father?? 🤦🏻♀️
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charles_leclerc: sometimes i really do wonder what you see in him y/n
landonorris: the biggest clown known to man, still the world’s biggest kid 😂😂
danielricciardo: is that really how you want to talk about the father of your child? I thought you were supposed to love me
ynusername: @/danielricciardo i do, ily very much 🥰
username17: not y/n releasing all the humiliating photos of daniel now they’re about to be parents
username18: y/n’s clearing the phone album for baby spam and giving us daniel spam in return
logansargeant: more to the point, this is the guy you chose as the father of your child??
lilymhe: the two of you are perfect for each other y/n ❤️
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danielricciardo: welcome to the world baby ricciardo 💕
after a lot of hardships and tricky times, y/n and i are beyond excited to share with you that our little one is here. everyone is safe, loved and doing well, my heart has never felt so full 🥺
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#f1#f1 imagine#formula 1#formula 1 x reader#f1 fanfic#f1 reaction#formula 1 fanfic#f1 smau#f1 x reader#f1 fic#formula 1 smau#formula 1 x you#formula 1 social media#formula 1 imagine#formula one#daniel ricciardo#daniel ricciardo imagine#daniel ricciardo x you#daniel ricciardo x reader
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Blackbird, Fly - One
Cowboy Gaz x mail order bride—only, not his. After exchanging letters for half a year with ranching man Hans König, you finally travel out west to marry him. You stand alone on a train platform, whole life in your hands, ready to promise yourself to a man you’ve yet to meet. masterlist ao3 next
You step off the train carrying every one of your earthly possessions clutched in both hands. In one a carpetbag, only half-full, and in the other, a stack of letters tied together with string. A paltry summary of a very small life, you thought months ago, but today you only see how much room is left over where happiness might take root.
It began with an ad in the paper—Widowed Ranch Owner Seeking Tender Companionship—and a mailing address to a livestock town out in the west. Hans König described himself as Austrian, unusually tall, and fair lonesome in a big ranch house with no woman to make it a home. He’d immigrated to the United States as a child, married very young, had no children, and was forced to watch his first wife perish to consumption.
After two years of mourning, he said in the paper, he finally accepted that she would not want him to live and die alone. And thus, if there were any kind-hearted lady willing to give an old widower a chance, he would promise to take very good care of her.
You’d replied as fast as you could get your hands on paper and pen. The fourth child and only daughter of a tobacco farmer, you hadn’t much else to occupy yourself with. And truly, you hadn’t expected anything to come of it. Proficient in the written word though you were, there was not much else to recommend you. You brought a tiny dowry, skill with a sewing needle, a general knowledge of plants, and mediocre cooking to the bargaining table; he was horse man tried and tested by the challenges of the frontier.
You were under no illusions that you were the most attractive candidate.
Still, you wrote your letter. Described yourself to him as honestly as you could—neither especially pretty nor particularly accomplished, but told by friends and family to be of gentle demeanor and useful intelligence. Forgave him preemptively if he never responded, and wished him the best of luck in his search for a wife.
You’d nearly fainted dead away when his response had arrived as immediately as the next mail wagon. Hans König had addressed you by name, as intimately as if he’d known you for years, and said,
I was very pleased to receive your letter, Miss, and am terribly excited to correspond with you in the future. Although you write that you cannot imagine yourself an appropriate wife for a man of my experience, I myself cannot imagine what more you must need to be such. While I will not do you the discourtesy of making any promises with only my first letter to you, I will tell you truly that I was glad of your introduction, and hope you will grant me the pleasure of knowing you further.
Your whole family had been so excited for his response that Pa had broken out his fiddle after dinner that night, rejoicing already that his little girl’s future was secure.
What followed was a whirlwind half year of romance over letters sent back and forth so fast that you kept running out of ink for your pen. When you’d related this problem to Hans, he’d sent not only an entire box of lampblack ink, but a new steel pen, blotter, and lap desk on which to write.
There is no greater misfortune I can imagine now than to lose the pleasure of your correspondence, he’d written.
Pa had cried that day. Your mother had drawn you close and kissed your hair, whispering a thankful prayer that her baby was going to be alright.
In every letter, Hans demonstrated himself to be a kind man, thoughtful and patient, and as the relationship between the two of you blossomed, you started to believe it yourself. You had long given up on the possibility of marriage, thinking yourself too old and plain by now to offer much to any man worth marrying.
Now you stand alone on a train platform, whole life in your hands, ready to promise yourself to a man you’ve yet to meet.
There are only a few people milling about the station for you to survey. The surest way to pick Hans out from a crowd, he’d written, was by height. He towered over most people, and expressed hope in an early letter that he would not dwarf you too much.
But as you look around, no one stands out above the rest. In fact, the people here aren’t much different than what you’re used to; their simple dress and slight grubbiness prove them to be working folk, the kind you’d expect in a town like this, stockyards visible from the station. Your kind of people—at least normally.
Anticipating this meeting, you’d put on the best dress you own, a light frock with little printed flowers all over it. Your hair is braided and pinned up as fashionably as you could manage early this morning, and you’d even dabbed a little rouge on your lips for the occasion. As far as you can tell you are the cleanest, best-dressed person in the vicinity, and you notice not a few people openly staring.
The thought would usually make you blanch, but right now you hope it will only help your would-be husband to catch sight of you. You still can’t find him—
“Mrs. König!”
You whip your head in the direction of the call. Relief trickles through you, soothing an anxiety you hadn’t wanted to acknowledge yet, and then you see that stepping onto the platform is the handsomest man you’ve ever laid eyes on.
Dark skin, warm as a summer’s day. Lips soft and full like a peach fresh-picked from the tree. A serious brow over serious eyes.
Strong and lean in build, with a loose, confident swagger in his step. He approaches, his large, long-fingered hands coming to rest on the buckle of his belt as comes to stand before you.
Tall, to be sure.
But not unusually tall.
This cowboy—profession evidenced by the worn state of his attire—is not your intended husband.
Something in you falls at that.
Swiftly you berate yourself for the betrayal. Your Hans is gentle, generous, kind. So what if this man before you is attractive? Marriages must be built on more, and Hans has already given you more. His looks shouldn’t—don’t—matter to you at all.
“Not as of yet,”you reply to the cowboy, “but soon. May I help you, sir?”
He fixes you with an intense gaze. Up close, you see thick, dark lashes framing even darker eyes—the color of which, you realize, is as black as fresh-turned soil.
The smell of humus fills your memory, powerfully earthy and fresh, such that you could be on your hands and knees with your face to the ground right now. You feel the phantom of it between your fingers; rich and cool, like at the start of the planting season before the rains. So dark and fine as to live between the grooves of your fingertips for days.
“I’m Kyle Garrick,” he says, pressing a hand to his chest. “I’m a wrangler for Hans König, miss. He sent me to meet you.”
You blink. The fantasy you’d dreamed up on the train ride—of seeing Hans across the platform, recognizing him instantly, and running into his arms—finally crumbles into dust.
“Oh,” you say.
Kyle Garrick frowns. “You’re disappointed.”
“No!” you exclaim immediately. “No, he must be such a busy man, I couldn’t expect him to drop everything for me.”
The cowboy sucks his lips between his teeth, studying you for a heartbeat, then—“He is busy. Mr. König is finishing preparations for your wedding this evening. That’s why he couldn’t come.”
What disappointment had begun to sprout in your stomach immediately strangles down to the root. Joy surges in your chest like birds taking flight.
“A wedding!”
You didn’t need a wedding, you’d written to him—you were so happy merely to marry him, you couldn’t possibly ask for more. All you needed, you told him, were his hands in yours, promising before God to be your husband for the rest of your lives. You’d meant it, too.
But an actual wedding!
“Biggest the town’s seen in years,” says Kyle Garrick. “Folks haven’t talked about anything else for weeks.”
“Oh!” Then suddenly you despair. “Oh, I’m not dressed at all for a wedding. If I’d known, I would’ve worked on this dress more, I would’ve put my hair up better!”
Kyle surprises you with sudden passion. “You look perfect. You’re the prettiest thing that’s ever come into this train station, miss. This town, even.”
“Oh,” you say again. You flush hot up into the roots of your hair. Embarrassed, you avert your gaze, looking down at his worn roper boots. “I’m not, really. But it’s kind of you to say.”
His hand touches yours, the one holding onto your carpetbag. When you look back up at him, his expression is gentler.
“Mr. König will agree with me,” he says, “I promise.” He eases the handle from your grasp. Up close, he has a comforting smell. Leather, and sweet hay, and campfire smoke.
“You think so?” you ask, tightening your grasp on the letters in your other hand.
He nods. “I do. Now come on—I brought a cart. Let me take you home.”
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