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[tenrose]

Sunday brainstorm: one week before I'm officially in holidays yaaaaay

Anyway I'm leaving for one week the wednesday after. But in the meantime I have to clean my apartment because there is the pet sitter who will come for my cat. I won't be able to completely clean the whole thing but at least it has to look decent.

Then the remaining last days will be for properly deep clean and reorganize my whole apartment. I absolutely cannot do see alone. Fortunately I have been opening up about this with someone close from my family who will help me. Like it's been a struggle and a massive cause of anxiety, depression and guilt all at once. But I think I'm ready to start over and finally take care of this matter not only now but keep it clean on a regular basis. She thinks too because I am the one who decided to talk to her about it which I've never done before. So I think I'm making progress.

There's like so many things wrong with me and I definitely can't solve everything at once. But I have an idea of what I could focus myself on after that. Anyway one thing at a time. I now understand that I can't wake up, think I'm gonna fix my whole life in a weekend, realize it's too much, do nothing. And re do the same thing the next weekend. Like it's a hard thing to accept, although it's supposed to be obvious but hey my brain is stupid.

So for now I will be focusing on the slightly more deep cleaning than usual for the pet sitter, so I can already move forward a few things. And also enjoy my week of vacations more freely knowing I will be supported after that. And also even if I have left the school system for a while now, I feel like September is still made to start anew.

I can't wait to finally be in a apartment I actually like and feel like I'm allowed to impregnate on and decorate. I have been here for three years and I don't feel like home. I mean, I genuinely love the place it is, I like how it is city but not big, I'm close to every accomodation, I can walk to local stores, to work, and have public transports for the big city, groceries, airport, train stations etc. I think I have just been upset to go from a bigger apartment when I was with a roommate to a studio. Like I absolutely think everyone who work but is alone should be allowed to rent a fucking two rooms apartment. That's why my next plan is to destroy capitalism and fuck up landlords and the whole society who is built around the concept of couple. But anyway it is what it is. I will probably never be able to afford buying just a two room apartment, or to buy anything at all. So I have to accept to like what I get. The apartment is honestly not that bad for a one room one. It's well thought so with a bit of decorative imagination (which I don't have cause I've never decorated anything, now that I think about it did I even accepted any place I lived in like a home since I left my parents? I think no), it can be very nice. Just to have to keep in mind that I live with an agent of chaos lmao.

Anyway I don't know where I'm going with this.

One thing that's gonna be an absolute needed piece will be a big board so I can make list of everything. Sunday is gonna be for list. It already is for groceries and meals. Like my therapist taught me to do this, and not only do I plan all my meals in advance, and so I eat more diversified food, but also it's a gain of money (which we all need). I also have my alarms, to stop playing, don't forget my Pill (another new improvement, I hope too soon to tell) and honestly it works pretty well. The only thing I'm gonna have to learn is to not freak out and forget about a task forever if I have something else happening the day I'm supposed to do the thing on my list. That is gonna be the biggest challenge tbh.

Anywayyyyyyy... Yeah all these things are supposed to be normal and being over 30 you'd think I would have all my life under control but nah. And I'm not the only one. You know, the coworker who seems to have everything under control and manage things properly? They are probably just best at hiding their problems than you. So it's not too late. You can do better. You can learn. You can find somebody to help you. I believe in you.

And I will do my best for myself.

[forestofsprites]

tail end of season seven you will always be famous

[cairafea]

On the idea of Theseus's Ship: in the end, it's still his, isn't it? It was known as Theseus's, and it will continue to be known as Theseus's.

Even after he has returned to the ground which grew the wood of the hammer used to nail the ship's frame, Even after generations of new wood have rotted and the sails are rags clinging to threads, Even after millennia,

it will still be Theseus's Ship.

Thank you for bringing us home.

Goodnight, Phosphophyllite.

[traumasurvivors]

I try really hard not to do this because I feel so guilty over asking for any type of help, but I am in a really desperate position. I know I recently asked for help when our bank screwed us over, but my living situation has changed. And I am desperate to get out of it. I’m in so much debt I can’t actively change anything at this moment but I really need to.

I really, really hate to ask but I would really appreciate any help spreading the word about my business @flappyhappystim. This is an advertising post that I share on that blog.

I also have a ko-fi .

I also have some digital books I wrote on Etsy for $1 CAD. This is a book about my healing, and this is a poetry book. As well as a digital workbook for $6 CAD

I really appreciate any spreading of this post, or my post about my business.

Edit: I got an ask about my PayPal and I think this is the link for it.

[milkywayes]

GARRUS VAKARIAN: DATABASE IMAGE ACCESS. > PT. 1 : 2160, 2166, 2170. > all files backdated according to user preferences: (terran_coordinated.calendar).

[gellavonhamster]

One Piece Live Action + Tumblr text posts, 1/?

[househrt]

there should have been an episode of House M.D. where the cast go to a theme park for plot reasons and then it's half a montage of them going on rides and half some random medical mystery unfolding at the park

[kyouka-supremacy]

Bungo Stray Dogs — Monthly Young Ace magazine covers

[cicadatree]

rust crick by @faeryac

DA: 7167-8664-4413

[lothbats9000]

DOODLE DUMP!!!!

I figured I should come out of hiding to finally post something before 2024 ends heheh!

[jagalart]

Sketch XVII

Call it cheating, since it's just a single portrait this time, but I liked this one in particular so I wanted to post it separately :D this was for the very kind @Rainystarling, thank you so much again!

[dawntainbobbynash]

Oh, there he is! Just in time.

[koshercosplay]

Neil gaiman is a Zionist :(

this is so funny because if you google "neil gaiman zionist" nearly all of the links are to unsourced tumblr posts or responses to a single tweet from 2015 that just acknowledges Israel's existence

I see gaiman has once again committed the heinous crime of Being Jewish When Israel Is In The News

[asanjou]

You're blue now.

[thii-nii]

Love is like a poison (2024) 毒恋～毒もすぎれば恋となる～

Episode Four.

[p0ssession]

Goldfish exploring a rotting rib cage. Inspired by a fish bowl shaped like a torso that I saw while out with friends.