#woke up with some Thoughts this morning

[mochiwrites]

sometimes I can’t help but wonder why grian is the way he is, especially with scar. scar offers him unconditional love and compassion, no matter the world. third life they were partners. last life scar clearly wanted a team with grian in the beginning. double life was… very convoluted but there was still that love there. and teaming with grian in limited life seemed to be all that scar wanted.

and yet grian pushes and pulls. he pulls scar close, reaches for him. but just before scar can get too close, grian pushes him away.

he kills him. he steals from him. he does things that really, scar should hate him for.

and it makes me wonder why. I mean, grian has unconditional love being offered to him. but he never takes it. not fully at least. there’s always a surface level acceptance. he gives just enough but takes so much more.

and we all know “grian is scared of killing scar again after third life”, but I can’t help but think it goes so much deeper than that. because on some level, grian does reciprocate scar’s feelings. he does love scar. his actions say that much.

but he’s always pushing scar away. maybe it’s because he doesn’t want to believe that scar’s love isn’t just something that scar is going to take away; like pulling the rug out from under him. maybe it’s because grian is afraid of giving scar an opportunity to betray him first.

or maybe he’s scared of the vulnerability that comes with loving and being loved. so he hurts scar before scar can hurt him, and it’s a way of keeping himself self (while also breaking himself down without realizing it).

and scar? I think scar sees all of that. grian’s fears and his defense mechanisms. yet he loves him in despite of it all. he continues to offer grian love and kindness, even as grian stabs him in the back. even as grian pushes him away to protect both scar and himself.

it’s like scar is trying to coax a wounded animal out from the corner. he’s patient. he’s kind. he’s loving. and he tries to show grian that he can be dangerous too, so that maybe grian won’t feel as scared. he tries to show grian that his love really is unconditional, that it isn’t a trick.

but grian is so buried in his fears that he doesn’t see it.

[justaz]

thinking about arthur who has crazy quick reflexes and is a relatively light sleeper who woke up to the sound of someone in his room and saw merlin crouched down messing with his keys before softly asking “whatre you doing?…before breakfast?”

[lavenoon]

@naffeclipse realized it's criminal I haven't drawn him with claws so far, since I love inflicting retractable claws on any version of the dca I touch

*self insert is not a girl (he/she)

og detective au by sunnys-aesthetic!

[softpine]

she's looking especially sacrificial lamb today 🥩

[sun-e-chips]

Late night magma with @muzzlemouths!

^ dead mall dare au moon leaning on the movie projector in Waning Lights theater (probably just after he had to mess around and fix the worn thing).

Can you guess what movie is playing?

[letardoursprout]

hey you guys know about the "hms can only die if their core (brain, heart, eyes) are destroyed" hc. okay so what if their cores being damaged but not enough to kill them had Effects on them, putting them in a pretty rough spot until they recover

so, for example, if heart's core was damaged he could end being pretty lethargic and emotionless, unable to really do much. apathetic, you could say :3

[fear-no-mort]

pov it’s the night of December 2nd 2013 and you’ve just burst into your grandsons room to pick him up so he’s not down there when you blow up the world the guy who ruined your life is from because you wouldn’t be able to live with yourself if you let him stay down there with everyone else which is Really fucking weird because you thought even coming back here in the first place meant giving up forever on anything for the rest of your life but this goddamn kid stops you from blowing up the planet and now you’re basically permanently fucked because now you’re just gonna have to keep on living and it’s because you love him. and tomorrow morning you will be running from alien police with him

[chiimeramanticore]

waow

[rosetheocto]

I found the clip gamers. Season 3 maybe could be happening soon :0 (sorry for the low quality Dan, you just gotta work with it)

original stream link

[zmediaoutlet]

spn20rewatch, 5.06: "What if I don't want to fight?"

The trouble with living inside a text with strong generic requirements and conventions means that your options are limited. In the real world people can quit anytime. You really can, too. If you're unafraid of consequence you can do anything. Quit your job, walk out on your marriage, go AWOL from the army, walk into the sea. Stop. Die. There's always an exit, if you're willing to deal with what exiting means.

The Winchesters don't have that luxury. Both because of the natural requirements of their genre (fairly straightforward gothic horror-romance show on a cheap cable network, where "no" is both not an option because of the season being renewed, but also because wild twists are not a feature of this kind of show; this is not FX or HBO where you might suddenly find yourself drastically altering the internal status quo) -- but also because they just... can't. Because of who they are, the foundation of nature & nurture & destiny don't allow for those other options. Even when they occasionally forget it, they know that they have a responsibility and they must follow through and they eventually always find their way back to the path. What's interesting is when they run into other people who do have a choice.

Jesse's a potentially powerful being that could change the course of destiny. Heaven and Hell are both hot on his trail because he could be useful to their war. He's just a kid. He shouldn't have to face this kind of responsibility. He should be able to prank people with whoopie cushions and think that Pop Rocks will explode your stomach and have nothing more worrying in his future than the math test next Thursday. I'm sure the Winchesters found this very familiar.

The Winchesters also have a job to do, though, and this episode calls very strongly back to Something Wicked from s1 -- with a harder twist. Then, there was a monster that had to be dealt with, and they made the call that the little boy could help them by being bait. It was horrible and they didn't like making that kid see what was in the dark, but in the end it was the right move: the day got saved, the kids were safe, and they left that kid behind in his town -- knowing that the dark was there, but ultimately safe. Four-ish years later the Winchesters have a much harder set of problems in their face and there's a kid who can help them, and they know what can happen to kids in this life, and they're thinking along different lines. He'd be good in a fight. They know that by training him he could be kept safe, but he'd be useful, too.

DEAN: Our dad...he would take us with him wherever he went. JESSE: Where is he now? SAM: Dead. A demon killed him. DEAN: Look, Jesse...once you're in this fight... You're in it till the end, win or lose. JESSE: What should I do? SAM: We can't tell you. It's your choice. It's not fair. I know.

It isn't fair and never has been. But Jesse has a luxury they don't: actual choice. Sam and Dean return again and again to the fold and they know what it means to do it; they're willing to sacrifice another kid at that altar of responsibility, if that's what it comes to. It's not ideal but it might be what has to happen. Shitty options, all the way down, because that's the genre they're in. Jesse isn't.

The episode concludes with, again, a Something Wicked-like conversation about how upsetting it is that kids are forced to confront this stuff. Parents lie because it's nicer. There's a Santa, there's a Tooth Fairy. You're safe. You don't have anything to worry about. The bigger problem the Winchesters have is with the fact that there is, indeed, a monster under the bed, and there's everything in the world to worry about. They don't make much fuss about going to find Jesse -- they have a convenient hand-wave that his powers will hide him, that he can't be found -- but it had to have been a relief, I think. This amazing nuke of a kid, smart and bright-eyed and just waking up to the world, and they would have done what they had to do, because they always do what they have to do.

Jesse's freedom of being a side-character -- both in a meta sense and in the universe's long three-act play of apocalypse -- let him side-step it. I wonder if they ever imagine him, free. Maybe envious of that freedom. Just some kid in Australia, growing up easy, warping the world to his will instead of always having to buckle under to what the world demands. Protagonists don't have that luxury.

[maxlarens]

guys i am so serious. redbull need to get their shit together. how is MAX VERSTAPPEN coming P7 in quali. like how is this happening. it’s a nightmare.

[todayisafridaynight]

tattoo truth prequel lmao

[teethburger]

ok so when you’re genderfluid are you supposed to just know what your gender is at any given time?? or do some genderfluids also have days where they’re like “ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ idunno”

[queermania]

i ate a spoonful of cool whip for breakfast and that was a mistake

[skwivr]

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[deus-ex-mona]

i miss renrennnnnnnnnn