#without the woes this time!
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what is this?? gurt attempting to write a fanfic that's lived in her mind for like 3 years?? the night after inventory at her store wrapped up when all she REALLY wants to go is sleep for a whole week????
#anyway I'm attempting to write a thing. maybe to use for one of my YearoftheOTP fics? or maybe not#it is such a mess so far. it starts and then promptly restarts and also switches POV at least once dfksjhsdkfjh#BUT I am WRITING!! and it is not agony to do so!! hurrah!!#I will confide in tumblr that the secret I have learned for my writing to come easily and without agony and much grief in every sentence#is to be terrifically tired first#because then my perfectionism and imposter syndrome and obsessive inner editor are all too tired to care#and the writing gremlin is free to wreak havoc all over a shiny new word document#unfortunately it's not a very sustainable technique and I cannot use it regularly#and it produces writing that#while written quickly and freely and without much trouble#has to be HEAVILY edited before it makes ANY kind of sense#but that's actually ok bc the first draft needs only to exist and that is all#so I've got probably about 1/2-3/4 of this random pointless oneshot written up tonight and mayyybe I'll be able to finish it and edit it#and then share it with the 2 of y'all who will actually care enough and have the fandom context to read it X'D#gurt says stuff#writing woes#without the woes this time!
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The Quest Continues...
(part 1- part 2)
#Fourfold Soul#<- That's the title of the project I've been working on!#I am very excited to finally show off the cowboy (gender redacted) I've been cooking in a slow boil!!! Yeehaw!#Yes this is the game project. YES I am commited to the bit of having the main character go through a long running pronoun-quest.#This character does not have a name so I cannot formally tag them...#(Okay. Technically they have an internal name for coding/scripting reasons...and I have a nickname for them.#But the important part of making a video game character you get to eventually name is that the name must come from *you*!)#The girl here is a npc so she has a temporary name. So I also cannot tag her. Hmm...#I have several FFS comics thumbnailed out. This one got made first because it's the funniest without context. Lore wise it's weak.#I would love to post the sexy clown but you have to wait just a few more comics.#Fun artist woes moment to share: This is the first time I've had to colour these characters traditionally. *That* was NOT fun.#Going from a specific digital colour palette to being at the whims of my limited colour choices in markers? Hell! On! Earth!#I might also be extra frustrated because this sure is 3x the length of what I usually do for comics! I spent a Whole Day on this.#Past me thought it was soooo funny and needed all the extra panels for pacing. I hate past me. That guy needs to be exploded.
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the four horsemen.
#ffxivsnaps#gposers#ffxiv gpose#ffxiv oc#hyur#elezen#au ra#mygposes.#gore cw#blood cw#the editing is all over the place because i'm experimenting. it's not cohesive at all#but i claimed the other 3 ascians (besides halmarut) as my own ocs and this was the end result#i'm miffed about ascians only possessing middies so woe. elezen femra and highlander ascian upon ye#from l to r: halmarut / pashtarot / deudalaphon / name pending#respectively they're conquest / war / famine / death#death ascian will either be altima or emmerololth due to the continuity error in ARR#i had a Time trying to make war ascian look more enraged. i don't think it was a success#and ngl i was stumped on what to do for famine ascian. take a weirdly abstract version instead#every day i suffer without sevi's spooky expressions pose pack for femra. i can't replicate my favorite expressions (yet)
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bad day by alvin and the chipmunks
#hi tumblr sry i consistently vanish for a month after posting art. it WILL happen again#i currently work 60hrs a week again bc im a capitalist who craves security so mu energy and time is an atl YIPPEE#i have some shit wip’d just yknow. blinks cutely. not done <3 alas the woes#also unrelated but iirc i had a notif of havign a q in my inbox and when i went to check like. all my inboxes were empty? incl all sideblog#so if that was ur q and it was very important i am super sorry i missed it!!! :( it was not ignored it was swept away#anyways yea alvin and the chipmunks amiright?#twst#twisted wonderland#malleus draconia#suntails#i wish i had time to draw ship art but between multiple twt shit and life i must unfortunately live without it </3
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-enjoys character- -DRAWS ANGST- -DRAWS ANGST- -DRAWS ANGST- Anyway yea, more of He <3 who lives in my head rent free (Hopefully it looks right, trying a new kind of reference to work from)
#my brain REFUSES to let me draw anyone else#my artistic creativity rn is just 'Oops! All Jace!"#I will perhaps draw chill art of him next time but I HAD to get this out of my brain first lmao#also note: lmao there were already ENOUGH lines in this one- so no jacket/scarf today#he does kinda look weiiird without them though lmao#anyway ye- woe- angst be upon ye#my art#dimension 20#fantasy high#d20 fanart#d20 fhjy#fhjy spoilers#d20 fhjy spoilers#jace stardiamond
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Had the most amazing experience on Saturday. Was dropping off a couple plush mages to the store that sells them for me downtown, because a couple had sold over the past few weeks and I try to be a good supplier.
It only takes a few minutes and I'd already paid for parking, so I decided to linger and look around the shop a bit, because it's a cool place where there's always a chance something new has arrived if you haven't been there for over a week. It's fantastic. If you told me there was some actual magic in this place I'd believe you, and I've been in the employees-only area.
Which is why I was present, leafing curiously through a book on the making of the movie Chicken Run, to hear a guy behind me loudly proclaim, "Forty dollars for this?! I could make this!" I'm aware that the things in this store can be pricy, but also that a lot of the stock is made by local crafters, like me, meaning prices can be a bit higher due to the fact that you're getting something hand-crafted instead of mass-produced. So I turn around to see what he's complaining about.
And this guy is holding a wooden wand that is unique, one-of-a-kind, hand-crafted from solid wood. All things I know at a glance because, as it happens, I'm not the only person in my family who sells stuff at this store... my dad does as well. And he's the one who made that wand.
Now here's the thing. My dad's part of the local woodturner's group, wood turning being a method of carving that involves spinning a chunk of wood on a high-speed lathe while holding a bit of sharp metal against it until it turns into a wand, bowl, cup, vase, what-have-you. It's a highly-skilled craft that requires a lot of practice and and specialized tools, which he picked up after retiring but before going back to work, and he's been practicing and perfecting the required skills for at least fifteen years. If he likes (and he does like), he can get a wooden sphere carved and polished to such a sheen and smoothness that it both reflects the light and feels like plastic, which is highly impressive on a technical scale and extremely disconcerting on a tactile one.
And this guy just said one of his pieces wasn't worth the price on the tag because 'he could do it too.' Which, as any crafter knows, is not the sort of statement fellow crafters make at volume.
Now, I'm a reasonable sort of trickster. As I said, my dad's part of a woodturning group, I'm well-aware that there genuinely are other people in this area who are as skilled as, if not more skilled than, my dad. Maybe he's just a skilled creep or disagrees with the pricing. So I turn to the guy and go, "Oh? It took my dad a couple years to learn how to make those."
To which he smiles at me and asks if I know what kind of wood the wand is made of.
"Purple Heart."
"Wow, you really know your stuff!"
I stare at him for a moment, because 1) Purple Heart wood is literally the easiest wood to identify on the planet because, as the name suggests, it's actually purple, which is a thing woods generally are not. And also 2) he has apparently not grasped that the reason I know this is because my father made the thing he is holding.
I do not say these things. Instead I clue him in on the situation he's in by saying, "Yes, my dad made that wand."
"Oh. Um. Thank-you!" he holds out his hand.
I look at the hand, then at him. "For what?"
"For your dad!"
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...I do not shake his hand, and I'm beginning to suspect that this guy does, indeed, not have any clue what he's talking about when he said he could make this himself. But I could be wrong. He could just be socially awkward, I get that. So time for the final question. With a polite smile that no customer yet has been able to tell is completely fake, I ask, "Are you part of the local woodturner's group?"
"The what?"
"The local woodturner's group," I repeat, "My dad turned that wand by hand, on a lathe."
Guy, smiling, about to seal his own fate, "Ah. That is a tool I do not have."
Me, also smiling, because he's just proven beyond all shadow of a doubt that no he could not, in fact, make it himself. "Mm. And that's why it costs forty dollars."
You know, he didn't have anything to say to that?
Put a bit of a spring in my step as I left.
#my life#crafting woes#crafting community#vengeance is mine#wood turning#also just to be clear#any lathe worth using is going to set you back WELL past $40 even before you get to the rest of the tools and safety equipment you need#and that's without even getting into the time and material investment it takes to be able to make stuff with them
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#because I didn’t really like the pov of the first one but I don’t know where the second one should go so if you just. put em together#boom problem solved#poll#poll time#tumblr polls#my polls#polls#writing#writing poll#writing ideas#writing woes#writing stuff#please help#idk if I should. I might but Should I#I made a whole backstory for this character and then added a second backstory and I like that one way better so maybe I should just#get rid of the first one#like it wasn’t bad I guess but not what I’m looking for here#vanilla extract#please actually answer though I do genuinely want feedback#I mean I guess it’d be hard without context. uhh#originally 1 was a vr thing where the mc played games n stuff that surrounded her villain vr character#2 is just the vague idea of ‘hey what if someone died and was reincarnated as a system?’ but nothing more#the combo I’m thinking of will kinda be somewhere along the lines of Mc being the new system and the story surrounds the hero/villain stuff#with like gods and stuff being annoying assholes but at least having cool ideas sometimes#that’s all you’re getting for now though 😤 /lh
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I want to get more involved with local orgs because frankly feeling powerless and watching the news is really making me physically ill so I want to do something but i really want a job or to volunteer where i can just put fliers up or package food/supplies because if i expend myself too much after work I might have another mental break and I really don’t want that .
#I’m just at a loss I want to not be a powerless bystander but at the same time just going to work and feeding and clothing myself is a#struggle to the point where I can’t do anything outside of working and going home and making sure my space is clean#even going out with friends is hard I can’t even watch shows or do things that make my life worth living .#gwon#I want a job with meaning and purpose that also pays my bills#and I don’t want this to come off as ‘woe is me’ type of shit but I’m just so tired of politicians I’m so tired of nothing changing I want#to change I want to help but I don’t know how to without significant detriment to myself at the moment
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'i've been feeling kind of disconnected lately' says area blogger who has spent 8 months increasingly self isolating
#listen. i am simply Incapable of one on one conversation right now for reasons even i do not fully understand#my preferred method of communication is shouting into a semi public void and then reading other peoples shouts into the void#but without the pressure of you know. us being in a (digital) room alone and having a linear discussion#(of which i am currently largely incapable)#however the problem is some of my friends do not shout all their personal details onto the internet the way i do#and now i dont know whats going on in their lives and i miss them#but the solution to this (messaging for a catch up) is FAR too fraught in case they land in one of my conversational spike traps#and i have to leave the internet for 3-5 weeks afterwards#ive had these kind of Phases since i was like uh 16 but this is a Long one its bad :|#probably this is because i dont get my regularly scheduled Wilderness Time anymore to disconnect fully and now im dying#ramblings#wharglbargle#grad school woes
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three days in the house of atreus ; act two
ORESTES: I was born here and can remember nothing of it. PYLADES: Did you expect to remember something? ORESTES: Someone’s face. The room I was meant to live in. The voice of my mother—the voice of my father. PYLADES: Let us find his tomb before we go deeper into this lair. ORESTES: I fear to see it. In my dreams, he is just behind a door. In my dreams, I see him still. PYLADES: What does his face look like? ORESTES: (Beat). Like mine.
finally writing tumblr's favorite cousin fuckers
#the oresteia#house of atreus#greek mythology#writeblr#scriptwriting#three days in the house of atreus#NO judgement about the cousin fucking fandom#just hilarious having spent so much time looking at family trees for this project#still trying to figure out how to convey the rotten work quote in act three without directly plagarizing anne carson lol#thinking about getting more self referential like in her antigonick#but also dont wanna be too much of an anne carson clone#ah the woes
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you know for how big that one post about that one fall out boy lyric being like "part time soulmate, full time problem" i have seen swagdoons nation not take advantage of that lyrics more . it's literally s3 swagdoons
#swagdoons#i listened to the entire song and tbh some of the other lyrics work Really well for them#examples are:#'hold me like a grudge'#'running middle fingers yhrough led lights'#'(you put the fun in dysfunction)'#'call you up and demand you have no fun without me'#anyways#blurbo-ifies everything. woe swagdoons upon ye#a dl au for them would be fun tho i think . part time soulmates full time problem fr
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me rn
#pom ponders#work woes#thinking about how my ex bestie is coming back to the store next week and i already want to cry#i know working with her is going to stress me out and it's going to affect my mood at work and at home#I'm going to have to put my guard up around people and be cold to them and i don't want to#but i can't trust anyone to not fall into her charms and i don’t have the energy to fight it#so i just have to accept that being at work is going to be hell and I'm going to be upset all the time#and i can't go anywhere else right now and i can't quir because i need the money to pay my bills and feed my cats#my mental health is gonna go down the toilet but who cares right#and I'm here screaming into the void because i can't rant to anyone else without sounding like a broken record#oh well i guess
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☹️ kikis gonna get all her teeth yanked at the end of the month & dodgers got cavities…
#personal#pet tag#her mouth is too narrow for us to brush them & bc she was never trained for it she wont let us do it without biting us (she was a stray)#but my biggest shock aside from that was she has like 20 left in there ???#me & my siblings were under the impression she had like 6 or 7 left not like half her mouth 😭#we cant brush dodgers either since he was a stray & wouldnt allow us to even try to trian him for it 🗿#esp since he bite me p bad a few years back when we tried so 👎#the joys & woes of having two old dogs in the house loll#at least my parents are paying for it this time so i dont have to worry 🗿
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Okay, I lied all those other times, but I am for real starting season 2 now
#the time is not perfect but it never will be#woes of emily#err hmm#i will tag everything#ofmeb#because i don't necessarily want things to show up in the main tag#i think i might have to tag as of/md s2 as well if it's anything overly spoilery incase some of y'all are still waiting#<- but without the slash in it#or maybe all as one word?
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Man. I don't know why I'm so skeptical (to the point of denying it completely) that these sort of things could be conjured. Of course they can be. I currently have a flock of crows manifested from my aspects and a bunch of eye-worm-squid-slugs that are knots of threads tied together....
Anyway. If I try and tug at them... Take the knot of DNA-esque stuff for example. The Dead Children. No other way to explain that that's not mildly concerning in English. I mean. No wonder I was staying away from this lmfao but on a spirit level it's not as dramatic as it sounds. It's "souls" that never fully came into existence because they didn't have enough of a core to survive as independent beings, specifically half-formed forms and sorts of... if a Form capital f was trying to be created into a thing but couldn't fully come out of the mouth of the All Mother. They're half-made ideas
It's less that I'm summoning them and more I'm using them as Bodies. Like I resonate with the sky... I resonate with birthing and being The First to emerge from the Abyss. They're my children! They are not children. They're just floating half-made crystals in a hypersaturated solution that can cool no more and thus they can't fully condense. They can't condense anymore, they can't fully come into existence.
That's one sense of Conjuration here, condensing various Unborn Children into taking specific forms... I think it's using them as some form of gateway. First: they're possessed by me. They don't exist enough to have a self or opinions or the ability to move or to Do anything, so they get coagulated into a form that is effectively a body for my... actually, not will, not bodies, it's conjuring, it's the Lord of the Dance's Black Hole singing they dance to. anyway. Second:... yeah. creating a gateway through creating a vacuum, the gap between Progenitor and child, and Firstborn and Unborn. Specifically feels almost like Progenitor - Child - Unborn - Firstborn which opens the gate stringing them between themselves and animate them through personifying their wants which. "gives" them wants, which animate them. Not really, they're still puppets but like. the dancing of strings "gives" puppets life
#I'm sitting here talking about this like yeah no wonder people are terrified of me. Hmm.#Me fighting someone without taking the time to explain it's Not That Bad: woe. Mother of the Abyss sends thousands of screaming#unborn children upon ye. They're not even children but they're absolutely take on that appearance#ramblings //#Bodies: the unborn //#Tool: book of active eyes I //#Keep forgetting the goddamn // at the end
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#okay small rant in the tags LOL#I have noticed an increasing number of people critique my first drafts in my videos#without me asking#and it’s gotten me thinking about critique etiquette & also#why writers feel the need to critique every piece of writing they see#especially when establishing themselves#which is relatable because I used to do that ALL the time#I was such a little shit!!! like insufferable!#and while the critiques in these comments don’t bother me because … I don’t care#what does bother me is this ideology that we are allowed to critique an unpublished work just because#someone has been vulnerable enough to share it#I made the decision to share my first drafts on my channel in December#because I think more writers need to see that writers who’ve been#writing for a long time like me#(10 years)#also make all the mistakes they do too#and that if they just keep practicing#one day they’ll also be writing for 10 years#anyway it’s hard to be a creator online sometimes lmao#not trying to be all woe is me about it but#I asked my audience if they like seeing first drafts#and everyone said yes I believe#so it’s important to me that people continue to see those drafts#but I would like to throw a can of tomato soup in the air#every time someone critiques those drafts when I haven’t asked#like i make actual videos where I ask people to weigh in#I’m not adverse to critique LMAO I love it! it’s fun!#but I am very VERY against critique that wasn’t consented to#writing is a very intimate thing#& it’s a skill to know when it’s your place to critique it or not…… I have more thoughts but anyway
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