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AVERY HCSSSSS
i thought our leading lady needed more appreciation so i made these hcs. a lot of these are with avery and another character so lmk if you still like these. enjoyyyyy 🤌✨
avery got braces after she got the money bc she couldn’t afford them before and she was a little insecure about them but jameson thought they were really cute
she used to hate the scars from the times when people tried to kill her but as time went on she learned to love them
i hc hawthorne house had a trampoline park and her and xander had a sleepover in there where they played taylor swift and jumped until xander broke his arm trying to do a triple backflip
her and max always scream when they hop on a call that’s on speaker so they don’t spill the tea when everyone can here
avery is chronically addicted to block blast and she has the highest score you can possibly get on the game (me fr 😭💀)
when she was hooked up to the life support machines after the plane bombing she made a bunch of pictures and videos that she never posted but just bc she thought they were funny (they really weren’t she was just high from the meds)
oren had to teach her how to pick locks and she told him it was just because she needed to open a door but wouldn’t let him do it himself (she lost the keys to jameson’s handcuffs and needed to get him out)
she always has at least one airpod in at all times and always looses them around hawthorne house
she once had a “dream” (😏😏😏) about jameson but she was having a sleepover with libby and max and libby was like “why were you moving around and making noise last night” and ave was like “i was probably just sleep talking” but max knew what was really going on and never let it go
avery switches her aesthetic like every month and switches her room decor/wardrobe with that aesthetic
she has like 50000 pillows on her bed and jameson gets so confused about which he’s allowed to sleep on bc she doesn’t want him to ruin the decorative pillows
ave is an amazing actress and can fake cry on the spot so when she needs to win something she fake cries and jameson knows her fake cry and he doesn’t go over to her to comfort her so her plan will work
she’s allergic to shellfish and she learned that when she ate some at a gala and she started having a reaction and she broke out in hives and was struggling to breath but thankfully oren had an epi pen with him so she didn’t die
she enforces a rule around hawthorne house about no shoes bc she thinks it’s nasty so everyone just slides around in socks like an ice skating rink (they actually think it’s really fun so no one complains)
she loves water bottles and has a whole cabinet dedicated to her water bottles
she has tumblr and a03 accounts that she stayed anonymous on that she kept when she got the inheritance bc no one knew it was her and she needed to rant about her books and write fics and stuff and they said stuff like “omg jameson is such a book boyfriend” and “i want to date him” she was just like yeah so do i… (she was keeping it a secret from the hawthorne s but they eventually found it and made fun of her spicy fics and xander ended up being one of her moots under an anonymous account bc they read the same books)
her and grayson watch shows like the golden girls and i love lucy together bc they love the old style
one time her nash found her✨spicy✨texts with jameson and never let her let them go
sry this is kinda short but i’m sick rn so i’m trying to get my rest but i hope you like theseeee
#the inheritance games#the brothers hawthorne#the final gambit#the hawthorne legacy#games untold#the grandest game#jameson hawthorne#avery grambs#averyjameson#nash hawthorne#xander hawthorne#libby grambs#maxine liu#grayson hawthorne#john oren#oren
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How do we think Finnick would react to his S/O showing up at his door in the middle of a thunderstorm? Completely soaked of course
Yk that troupe of “I didn’t know where else to go” the ANGST of it all
It could also just be something fluffy like they wanted to see him really bad! So many possibilities in the rain
thunderstorms.
content warnings: fem!reader, established relationship, fluff and angst rolled into one. thunderstorms, one innuendo, reader mentions the capitol and tiny implications that reader is forced into prostitution however it's not touched on.
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It’s late in the night when Finnick hears the knock on his front door. He’s always been a light sleeper, and despite your knocking being soft at first, he somehow still manages to hear it over the loud clap of thunder.
He drags himself out of bed and slips his feet into a pair of sneakers. As he treks down the staircase, the knocking becomes more insistent, more frantic and scared, and he finds himself growing worried.
He glances at the clock in the kitchen. Who in the hell is at his front door at three in the morning? Tentatively, he calls out through the door. “Who is it?”
“It’s me.” He heaves a semi-relieved sigh and unlocks the door. His eyes rake over your body, taking in the way your clothes are soaked through and your body shivers. “Jesus, angel, what’s wrong?”
You frown and swallow the lump in your throat. “I— I didn’t know where else to go.” Your voice has a shake to it and you’re nearly on the verge of tears. “I’m sorry.”
He shakes his head, brushing you off and coaxing you through the front door. “Don’t be silly. Come in, you’ll catch your death if you stand out there any longer.” He leads you to sit on the edge of his sofa and kneels down in front of you. “I’m gonna get some warm clothes for you, okay? I’ll be right back.”
You nod, shivering despite yourself as he runs back up the stairs. He’s as quick as be damned and in less than a minute, hes back by your side with a towel, an oversized hoodie and a pair of sweatpants.
He disappears into the kitchen to make some chamomile tea for you as you change. Your hair is still wringing wet as you hide your hands in the sleeves of Finnicks hoodie. It smells like him; saltwater, sun cream and that cologne that reminds you of home.
Finnick is quiet as he comes back into the living room and thrusts the mug of steaming hot tea into your hands. “There. That’ll keep you warm and it should steady your nerves, too.” He soothingly rubs a hand up and down the length of your back, trying to calm you down. Lightning strikes across the sky, bright and blinding, and you flinch without even meaning to. “It’s alright,” he coos. “You’re safe. You wanna tell me what’s going on?”
You sigh. “I just— it’s stupid.”
He raises a brow. “I doubt that. Go on, tell me anyways, angel, stupid or not.”
You hesitate, but eventually you relent. “I just came back from the Capitol.” His expression softens. “I don’t know, I know it’s stupid, I just— I didn’t want to be alone right now.” You squirm under the intensity of his gaze. “Sorry for waking you up.”
“Hey, you have nothing to be sorry for,” he chastises as softly as he can. “You hear me? Nothing. That’s what Im here for. C’mere.” You set down your mug on the coffee table and let him pull you into his lap.
You’re straddling his thighs, arms twisting around him as he lets you nuzzle your face into the crook of his neck. “Do you wanna talk about it?” He asks. You shake your head and he nods understandingly. “That’s alright, angel, but you’re safe now. You hear me? I’m here.”
You sigh against his skin. “Can I stay here tonight? Is that okay?”
Finnick chuckles under his breath. “Just you try leaving, angel. Hold on,” he instructs, lifting you up into his arms and heading for the staircase. You cling to him like your life depends on it as he heads for his bedroom and settles you down on the double bed.
He slips in beside you, and opens his arms. You’re more than happy to oblige; you cuddle in close to him and he silently presses a kiss to your forehead.
“Thank you,” he says.
Your brows furrow. “For what?”
“For trusting me enough to come to me.” He cards his fingers through your damp strands of hair. “I love you.”
You sigh contentedly and blindly reach out for his hand, intertwining your fingers together. “I love you too.”
He kisses your forehead once more and says, “Get some rest. You look like hell.”
“Gee, thanks, honey. You sure know how to make a girl feel good.” You roll your eyes.
Finnick grins mischievously. “I know more than one way to make you feel good.” He laughs when you slap him in the chest. “I’m teasing, I’m teasing.”
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christmas list - sjy
summary: your boyfriend just wants to know what you want for christmas but you're difficult as always (in honor of christmas season coming up) || warnings: none || genre: fluff, established relationship || word count: approximately 600
I sat on the couch, cuddled with a soft blanket, a Christmas movie on the TV, and some hot tea in a mug on the coffee table. The movie I had on in the background was seldom given attention as I played a game on my phone.
Jake walked into the room, his eyes glued on his phone as he called out my name, “Y/n.”
I looked up at my boyfriend who gave me a small smile, “Yeah?” I asked, wondering what he needed.
“What are you playing?” He simply asked, not saying what he had come over for just yet as he plopped down on the couch next to me, putting his arm around my shoulder.
I showed him my phone screen and immediately, he knew what I was playing without me even having to say anything. “I’m trying to beat my high score.” I tell him.
“You’ll get there.” Jake sweetly says. I nod as I play the game some more. “So, I was wondering…” He then started, making me look over at him curiously.
“What?” I ask.
“What are you thinking you want for Christmas?” Jake asked, his hand that’s over my shoulder mindlessly playing with the fabric of my shirt.
“Oh, you don’t need to get me anything.” I responded . I really didn’t feel like I needed anything right now anyway.
Jake sighs, “Come on. Of course I’m going to get you something. I need to know what you’ve been wanting though.” He says.
“I don’t want anything.” I insist.
Jake thinks for a moment, “How about those Uggs you wanted. Want me to get you those?” He perks up.
“Isn’t it supposed to be a surprise?” I ask.
Jake dramatically groans out, “Baby, come on. Give me something, anything.”
I can’t help but smile a little, “I have been wanting those Uggs…” I then smile wider, “But I already have Uggs so I don’t think I need them.”
Just as he thought he was getting somewhere, Jake sighed, “So difficult.” He commented. “It doesn’t matter if you need it, I want to get you stuff.”
“Well, what about you? What do you want for Christmas?” I counter.
“You don’t have to get me anything. I have everything I want right here.” Jake says before leaning in to give me a chaste kiss.
“Babe! You’re doing the same.” I point out with a laugh at his irony.
“It’s just different.” Jake says. “Just tell me what you like.” He then tells me.
“You’re my boyfriend, you know what I like.” I say.
“I do know what you like but I already got you a bunch of stuff you like so I wanted to know if there was anything else you wanted.” Jake complains, the two of you playfully bickering.
“I’ll be happy with anything.” I vaguely say once again.
“My god, princess. Fine.” Jake gives up making me giggle.
Later that night, while I was in the bathroom, about to get in the shower, I sent Jake a list I’ve had for a bit. Honestly, I just didn’t tell him about it earlier because it was mostly stupid shit that I didn’t actually need but if he wanted ideas so bad, fine.
A few moments later, I hear Jake calling out my name from outside the door, “You had a list?”
“Yeah…” I respond, holding back the giggle.
“So difficult.” He says but he’s also smiling on the other side of the door as he gets on the bed and starts to go through the stuff, planning to buy me everything on the list, whether it be stupid and unnecessary or not.
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𝑆𝑢𝑚𝑚𝑒𝑟 𝐻𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑠
𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟔: 𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐬 𝐇𝐞 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝
Pairing: drug dealer!coriolanus snow x fem!reader
Summary: (au) The next morning, you and Coriolanus wake up and decide to spend the day together. At the pool after breakfast, your ex catches you and Coriolanus kiss, which causes a scene. After he’s take you back to his room…
Warning: 18+ (eventually smut), fluff, kissing, pet names (baby girl), toxic relationship, obsession, fantasies about readers body, possession
Word count: 3.1k
A/N: hello! slowly getting stories done! i want to say that even though i took a break, the continued support has been amazing. thank you to everyone who has helped this little blog grow! especially to those who have liked or commented on almost every post…i appreciate the kind words and dedication. as someone who is a fellow fan girl, hearing people say how they look forward to my writing or saying that me dropping a new post makes their day, warms my heart ♥︎ so enjoy this chapter and in the meantime go read Bird in a Cage if you are looking for more Coryo fics!
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The next morning, Coriolanus wakes up with you resting on his chest. You’re asleep, your hair tickling his lips and nose. He can’t help it and kisses the top of your head, petting your hair. You stir slightly, nuzzling into his chest. You’re still sound asleep, and he watches your back rise and fall. Coriolanus continues to stroke your hair and smiles to himself. You’re sleeping soundly in his bed. Not only that, your body is completely on top of his own. He admires how at peace you look and not to mention how beautiful you are in the morning sunlight creeping through his blinds. He kisses your head again, then firmly presses his cheek against you, hugging you.
You eventually stir awake and find him with his hands tangled in your hair, his other hand stroking your back.
“Good morning, beautiful” he whispers
“Hey…good morning” you yawn “mmm you make a nice pillow” you giggle softly, scooting up on him more and kissing his cheek. He suddenly turns his face and your chin to kiss your mouth. You smile against his lips, kissing him back. You pull back for a moment, stroking his face.
“What time is it?” You ask
Coriolanus reaches for his phone on his side table. It reads 7:32 am. He tells you and you groan.
“So early. I told mom I was at a friend’s house so I can really be back at any time.”
“So, you can stay a bit?”
“Yeah. I was wondering if you wanted to get breakfast maybe. I’m so hungry”
Coriolanus smiles, kissing you again.
“We can get breakfast”
You and him lay there for a while, at least another thirty minutes. Occasionally kissing each other, Coriolanus commenting on how beautiful you are, how happy he is you’re here with him. You eventually need to use the bathroom and you get up. Coriolanus is all too satisfied with himself. He reaches for his phone again and checks his notifications, placing his hand behind his head. As he scrolls through Instagram and sees people are still talking about his Yik Yak post. A small tinge of guilt hits him and he closes out of the app. He goes to check the original post and the likes have only gone up. He’s pretty sure the entire high school knows, and not just the recent graduated seniors. He closes out and clears his app history. You come back into his room and smile at him. He looks past his phone at you and smiles back.
“Would you want something to change into. I bet Tigris has something that would fit…”
“Yeah that would be nice”
“I’ll grab you something.”
He jumps out of bed and out of his room, dashing across the hall. He knocks on his cousin's door. Tigris answers and he opens her door. She’s currently sipping on a cup of tea and sketching in her bed.
“You’re up early.” She remarks
“Yeah, hey so I have umm someone over and I need some clothes for her.”
“You have a girl over? Who?”
Coriolanus utters your name and quietly, Tigris gasps.
“She slept over?”
“Yeah, are you gonna tell Gran?”
She scoffs and rolls her eyes, getting up and going to her closet.
“And purposely upset her. I’m not your mother Coriolanus.” She smirks, tossing him a purple tank top and jean shorts.
“Thanks cus.”
“I wanna know more later though.”
He nods, then turns back to go to his room. You are sitting on the edge of his bed, scrolling on your phone. He hands you the outfit and you go to change.
“Hey, do you have some deodorant I can borrow? Maybe a toothbrush and some toothpaste too? Sorry I wasn’t planning on even staying at Bella’s after.”
“Yeah. You can use my deodorant and toothpaste. I’ll see if we have an extra toothbrush. Gran tends to forget once she bought things she needs, so we always have extra shit just laying around”
You nod and head into his bathroom. He leaves his room and heads downstairs to their linens closet. Coriolanus’s house was not messy by any means, his grandmother is in fact a relatively structured lady and was keen on keeping a tidy house, however all the knickknacks, photos, and pieces of old memorabilia scattered around the house made it feel full. And his grandmother seemed to develop a knack for buying things she didn’t need or duplicates since her working memory was becoming worse.
He knows that he saw her buy some new toothbrushes for cleaning last week and figured he could use one of those. He finds them behind the fifth box of tissues and takes one. He heads up back to his room and knocks on his bathroom door. You step out for a second, thank him and smile.
Coriolanus decides to change clothes himself, stripping himself of his navy button up. He goes to his closet and picks out a black tee and pair of black shorts. You watch him as he changes, admiring his toned body. He strips out of his pants, changing into shorts. For a brief moment you can see his bulge in his boxers. You smirk to yourself as you turn back to the mirror and continue brushing your teeth. Coriolanus saw you gawk at him and he loves that your attention is on him like that. Your eyes are so telling, your look so recognizable. The same look Coriolanus himself has given you many times over the years. He zips up his pants and heads into his bathroom. You scoot over as he checks himself out. He grabs his own toothbrush and toothpaste and starts his morning routine. Brush his teeth, deodorant, wash his face.
“You actually use face wash. I didn’t think boys cared about that stuff.”
“I hate pimples. They always irritate my face.”
“Well I love a man that keeps up on his appearance” you smile.
Once you’re both ready, you and him head out of his house and off to Bill’s Pancakes, the local diner. It almost feels like a date once you both are seated in a booth, Coriolanus suddenly gets nervous and feels like he doesn’t know what to say to you. You look incredibly cute in that tank top though and he decides to let you know.
“Thank you!”
He then notices you’re still wearing the necklace from last night and smiles to himself.
“So do you have any plans today?” You ask
Coriolanus shakes his head, as he starts to look at the menu.
“I mean if you want we can still hang out after this. I kinda don’t want this time to end just yet.”
“Yeah we can hang out! What were you thinking?”
“The pool at the club allows me to bring a guest. Would you want to come?”
“Sure I’d be down”
“Ok we can stop back by your house so you can change and then mine so I can get my bikini?
“Sounds like a plan”
You and him continue to chat until a waiter comes to take your orders. All in all, breakfast is delicious and now that you asked him to come swim, all he can think about is you in a bikini. He’s always thought about how incredible your body is. He’s seen glimpses of it based on some of the clothes you wear and filled in the rest with his imagination. He has a small idea about how perky and perfect your breasts are, and could tell you had a nice ass. And the thought of you wet in a bikini is almost overwhelming. The entire time at breakfast, he tried to concentrate on his food and the conversation, but is now all too eager to get home.
Once he pays and you both leave, his excitement only gets stronger. Maybe you’ll even let him pick out what you wear. Invite him into your house. You watched him change, maybe you’ll return the favor. He nearly misses his turn into his neighborhood at the thought of your bare body. He parks, tells you he’ll be right back, and rushes into his house to grab a pair of black swim shorts. He quickly returns and starts the car back up. He drives to your neighborhood and as he arrives, Sejanus is shooting hoops outside. He watches as his best friend’s car pulls into your driveway. He waves and you both wave back at him. Sejanus looks upon with confusion. You tell Coriolanus you’ll be right back as you dash up to your front door. You don’t end up inviting him in, to his disappointment, but regardless he’s still just as excited to see you in a bikini. He looks out his rear view mirror and sees Sejanus still standing there dumbfounded. He turns off the car and gets out, walking over to his friend.
“Hey!” He smiles
“Were you going to tell me about her?”
“Of course, I just haven’t had an opportunity to text you. We went to get breakfast and now she invited me to the country club pool.” Coriolanus explains
“Oh!” Sejanus exclaims
Coriolanus gives him a proud nod and looks back to see if you’ve returned to the car. Just then your front door opens and you trod outside. Coriolanus watches you, bidding Sejanus a farewell, and jogging back over to his truck. You hop in with him and he smiles at you.
“I got us some towels and sunscreen!” you explain holding up your swim bag. He nods and starts the car. Before he can put it in drive, you delicately turn his chin, and kiss him. He kisses you back, but you pull away, leaving him wanting more.
“What was that for?” Coriolanus inquires
“Because, why not. You’re so handsome.”
He can’t help but smile at you, blush almost. At the same time, his chest swells with pride, loving that you think he’s so attractive.
“You really think so?”
“Mhmm.” You nod
“Yeah…” he starts stroking your cheek. “but you’re even more gorgeous.”
You give him a playful, girlish giggle and kiss him quickly again.
He starts the truck and pulls out of your driveway. He heads to the country club and when he pulls into the parking lot, he initially pulls into a spot in the back for guests.
“Oh, you can park in our spot.” You remark
“You have your own spot?”
“Well no, it’s just where we always park. Go to the members lot. I’ll show you where to go. “
He follows your instructions and pulls into a “members only” spot. He parks the car and the two of you walk around the back gate to the pool. It’s a nice area, with brick pavilions, a bar, chairs for lounging, and even an area for kids. It wasn’t too big, not like the public pool at the park. In the summer, as a boy, Coriolanus and Tigris’s grandparents would take them together before their Grandfather passed away. Except it was more crowded, more loud, and filled with mostly pee.
“The men’s bathroom is that way. I’m going to change.” You declare, pointing as you press a key fob up to the gate. Coriolanus nods and walks in the direction you pointed while you head off to the women’s restroom. He changes quickly and then awkwardly waits for you to come back out. He feels so out of place at the country club, even though he’s tagged along with Sejanus before. Finally, you come out and Coriolanus is taken aback. Your body is stunning in your blue bikini, leaving almost nothing to the imagination. It was just modest enough, but fit you perfectly. Your breasts sat perfectly on your chest and he can see how perky and round they are. Just like he knew they would be.𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐬 𝐡𝐞 imagined He tries to contain himself, hoping not to develop a hard on through his swim shorts, but you’re so damn tempting. You walk to him, swaying your hips.
“Let’s find some chairs. Do you think you could help me with my sunscreen?”
“Of course.”
You and him find some empty chairs and sit down. You get the towels and sunscreen from your bag, handing him one. You start to apply the sunscreen to your body, working it into your arms and chest. He’s mesmerized by you, watching closely as you apply the white cream on your chest and cleavage. You notice him and smirk. Then you readjust and turn around, handing him the bottle. He squeezes the sunscreen into his hand and you lift up your hair. He slowly applies it to your back, feeling his cock hardened as he does. He rubs your shoulders, back and down to your lower waist. He can’t help but notice how sensual this simple act has become. His hands are so delicate as they move across your skin. You’re so smooth, so soft, and he could feel you all day like this. He applies some extra sunscreen, just so he can continue to feel you. You sigh and hum into the feeling of his hands. You giggle at the coldness and his touch, then turn around when he’s done.
“My turn.” you declare
“I don’t really use that stuff.”
“Well you are with me. Stay still.” You insist, squirting the cream into your hand. You rub it on his chest and shoulders, admiring his toned build, excited that you get to see him shirtless again. You focus on your own touch, making sure he feels good as you lather him up. You’re so soft and gentle and he loves how your finger rubs into him.
“If you wanted an excuse to touch my chest you could have asked me” he smirks playfully
“Noted, now let that sit in for a bit.”
After a few moments, you both get into the pool, swimming around and chatting. He loves how gracefully you flow through the water, and still can’t get over how fucking sexy you look in your bikini. You’re caught up in him as well. His piercing blue eyes, his charming smile. At one point you swim over to him and give him a quick kiss.
“What was that for?” He asks
“Because I can” you smile kissing him again
Little did you and him know that Devon was entering the pool area, fresh out of a round of golf. He spots you, then sees Coriolanus. You kiss Coriolanus again, and that gets him fuming.
“Hey!” He storms over to you
You whip your head around and see him. You gasp and move behind Coriolanus.
“Hey, let's go back to your place.” You whisper
Coriolanus looks up and frowns at Devon as he stalks over him.
“What the hell are you doing kissing my girl, Snow?” He pouts, starting to draw attention to himself and you.
“She’s not your girl. You don’t own her.”
“Hey!” He shouts at you ignoring Coriolanus’s remark. “You can at least talk to me! C’mon you can’t just avoid me.”
“Stop talking to her.” Coriolanus speaks up, getting out of the pool, while you scurry off to gather your belongings.
“Don’t tell me what to do.” He shoves Coriolanus. “Get out of my face, and get your tongue out of my girl's mouth!”
“She’s NOT your girl.” Coriolanus shoves back
“You really wanna do this, Snow, embarrass yourself and your family name more.”
That pisses him off. Before he can take action, going to throw a punch, your hand grabs his wrist and pulls him towards the exit.
“I said I don’t want anything to do with you anymore Devon. Leave us alone.” You tell him off “C’mon”
You rush off with Coriolanus, the sound of Devon’s anger trailing behind with the last thing you hear him say being “This isn’t over. We still need to talk. You can’t ignore me forever.”
“I’m sorry…” you apologize as you get into his truck.
“For what?”
“For that becoming a scene. So embarrassing.”
“But you didn’t do anything.” Coriolanus cups your face, consoling you.
“I just feel like this is my fault.”
“C’mon, let’s go back to my house and take your mind off things.”
You nod, holding back your tears. Coriolanus gets to his house as fast as possible, ushering you inside and up to his room. He closes his room and you immediately burst out into tears.
“Hey, hey, please don’t cry baby.”
You sniffle and a stream of tears runs down your face.
“I’m sorry it’s just…just…everything has been so crazy since the breakup.”
“I know I know. But it’s not your fault.”
You and him both have a seat on his bed, leaning against his chest with your hands buried on your face. He wraps an arm around you and hugs you.
“Sweet girl, please don’t cry.”
“It’s hard not to. I’m sorry I’m such a mess”
“You’re not a mess” he kisses your forehead, pulling you closer.
You sniffle against him as he pets your hair. A whirlwind of emotions surges over you and you can’t help but let you an even louder sob. He rocks you, trying his very best to console you. You bawl into him and he hugs you tight, whispering to you softly.
“It’s ok. I won’t ever let him get to you ok. Not to while you’re with me baby”
“You mean that?” You utter
He nods and you lean up to kiss him. He moans unexpectedly, but once you don’t pull back, he kisses you back fully. He can tell you’re still swimming in emotions, your kiss so fierce and passionate. You shift and move your body onto the bed more. He scoots back to accommodate you and then you do something he doesn’t expect. You straddle him, cupping his face as your lips refuse to leave his. He moans in surprise, raking his fingers through your hair. He pulls you closer and moans into your mouth. You kiss him fiercely, and your lips move at a desperate pace. He can barely keep up and pulls back. He looks at you, cupping your face and meeting your gaze.
“What's up, baby girl?”
You blush and immediately kiss him again.
“I need you” you mumble into his mouth.
He’s completely overwhelmed and barely utters out a “are you sure?” as you feverishly nod your head. Then, he is pleasantly surprised when you push him onto the bed.
This is what he’s dreamed of. You, totally in need of him, his lips, his body, his arms wrapping you close to his chest, and his body tangled with your own. You can’t help but to start to slowly grind on his hips. He grins against your mouth, eager for more of you.
“Mmm baby girl. Tell me this is real?”
“It’s real.” You moan
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Honeysuckle Rose - Part 9
read previous parts here.
It's time for the truth to come out, no matter what the cost. With friendship on the line, will Olive finally find it within herself to be truly honest?
Brakes screeching, cars colliding in the pouring rain. The smell of burning oil. An abrupt pain in the chest, a girl struggling to breathe. A man slumped on her, ailing gasps leaving his mouth as his life slipped away…
“No!” Olive yells, awakening herself with a cry. Feeling a heat rise in her chest, she tries to steady herself and breathe, gripping fistfuls of the blanket she'd been sleeping under. The soft snores of her best friend, Valencia DiRosano, in the bed opposite her own begin to settle her, Olive keeping in time with the hum of Val's breathing.
Counting her lucky stars that her sudden yelp didn't awaken Val, she wipes the sheen of sweat from her face with her nightgown as she sits up, beginning to pad across to the bathroom.
As she washes her face, Olive begins to count on her soapy fingers and tries to calculate how many days she'd been here without going to check on Pearl. Was it three? No, more. Four or five? A week? Surely not. Olive shakes her head at herself in the mirror in front of her, toothbrush in her mouth. She sees the tiredness etched on her face, her eyes beginning to look withdrawn. Something had to give, and soon.
Rushing out the door, she's surprised to see a thick fog upon the air today. So thick, in fact, that she's unable to see much in her trajectory, walking to the hardstand by memory alone. It's when she bumps her shoulder on the wing of Just A-Snappin that she hears a loud bark in the distance, a gruff voice following it.
“Who is it, fella? Someone else out with us this early?”
“Shit,” Olive breathes, recognizing the voice as her friend Benny Demarco's.
“Go get her then, buddy, go say good morning!”
Running up the stairs at a startling speed, Olive slams the door of the aircraft shut, hoping she wasn’t spotted after all.
***
The sun shines almost too brightly on Olive as she makes the walk to Pearl’s, quietly swinging open the metal gate and ridiculously shushing it as it squeaks, the scraping noise making her cringe. It’s when she reaches the door that she feels something untoward, the energy from outside seeming different than usual. Making her way in, pushing on the warped wooden door as she unlocks it, she is surprised to find Pearl alone in the kitchen, staring at the kettle and willing for it to boil faster.
Olive accidentally shocks her Grandmother, making her presence known a lot more prematurely than planned when her keys clatter on the dining table.
“Christ alive!” Pearl yells, dramatically clutching her chest. “You little devil!”
“Sorry, I’m sorry,” she laughs, holding her hands up in apology and mock surrender. “That wasn’t meant to be so loud.”
“Just like your bloody father,” she teases. “The expression ‘bull in a china shop’ comes to mind.”
“Yeah, yeah. Don’t know where we get it,” she replies, as Pearl clatters around with the sugar tin and stirs her now prepared tea with a spoon, clanging it on the mug with each clockwise spin. “You’re awake early, Grandma.”
“God forbid I want some alone time,” she winks, sipping at the beverage. “Between you coming in and out and Joan hovering, I barely get any time to myself in this place.”
“Hey, we can back off,” Olive cackles, taking the glass bottle of milk from the counter and putting it to her lips.
“I don’t think so, lady,” Pearl scolds, eyebrows raised. “Get a glass.”
“Yes, Grandma,” she sighs, leaning up on her tiptoes to retrieve her favorite one - Tots TV, a show from her childhood. Pearl spots it and smiles, her eyes softening with the nostalgia of remembering this young woman in front of her as a toddler, squeezed in the armchair with her as they both dozed, the sounds of the gentle theme song somehow lulling them both to sleep.
“You know I’m only kidding, right, Ollie Pop?”
“About what?”
“The alone time, Joan hovering…”
“No, pal, I know. I’d feel quite the same to be honest.”
“I just miss my independence, y’know. Just being able to do little things myself. I seem to be getting stronger each day, though. Look, I even made my own tea!”
“I know. I’m proud of you,” Olive begins, emotion threatening to get the better of her. “You’ve come a long way. Soon enough, you’ll be back to your old self, up to your old tricks. Beating all the other ladies at bingo and seeing them bubble with anger over it.”
Her eyes narrow, a titter leaving her lips. “They know they’ve all got it coming, especially that Doreen. Cheating old hag.”
“Pearl!” Olive snorts, milk almost streaming from her nostrils. “At least you kept your humor.”
“At least there’s that, hm?”
Pearl reaches over and grips her granddaughter’s hand, staring into her eyes for just a moment.
“I like the outfit,” she says as Olive looks down at herself. Her eyes widen a little, realizing that she’d gotten dressed on autopilot: blue jumpsuit, boots, button down underneath. “Something for work?”
“Yeah, yeah,” Olive stutters, shaking her head at the inner voice picking at her brain, bullying her to tell the truth. “Something like that.”
“I don’t usually go for re-enactment stuff, Ol, but I must say, they’re keeping very accurate.”
“How so?”
“Well, putting British girls in Red Cross uniforms. I don’t know how they managed it, but when I was over at the base, doing my work as a Land Girl, the lovely American girls acquired one more lass. It’s as if she appeared out nowhere; a British girl, but she fit right in. I don’t know how they got to keep her on because I heard the requirements were crazy!”
“Haha,” Olive forces out, keeping her eyes on the table. She hopes that, by avoiding eye contact, she won’t be able to give anything away. Nevertheless, Pearl carries on.
“She had a lovely boyfriend. He was gorgeous, had these beautiful blue eyes. She was always laughing at everything he said.”
“Obviously a funny guy, Pearly,” Olive giggles, the thought of every silly joke of Dougie’s coming to mind.
“Must’ve been,” she nods. “But I had my eye on someone else, you see.”
“Who?” Olive urges, keen to be reminded. She rests her elbow on the table, her cheek resting on her hand. “Tell me, tell me!”
“I don’t remember his name, but I’m sure I’ve mentioned him before. He was so handsome. He and his dog would cause such chaos.”
“That’s one way to put it,” Olive mumbles, clearing her throat. “You never thought to ask him for a dance?”
“He asked me out for a drink, but it never happened. I was moving away by the time I could say yes, and I never remembered his name to send him a letter to apologize. Poor boy probably thinks I stood him up!”
“Yeah,” Olive laughs weakly. She stands, walking over to Pearl and plants a kiss on her cheek.
“What’s that for?”
“Just love your little stories, girly. You should write them all down for me.”
“I actually–”
The pair are distracted by the door swinging open, the wind seeming to try to take it off its hinges as it slams against the wall.
“And you thought I was loud,” Olive gestures, shaking her head. “Hi, Joan.”
“Ah, this is a surprise.”
“Not really, Joan. I do live here.”
“You know what I mean, Olive,” she sighs, patting Pearl on the shoulder. “Thanks for getting her up.”
“No need, she did that all by herself. Made a tea and everything.”
“You don’t have to talk about me like I’m not in the bloody room,” she interjects, exasperated. “Yes, Joan, I got out of my own bed and made my own tea. Like a regular person should.”
“I’m glad,” Joan says, her shoulders falling a little with relief. “Fancy going into town and having a look around the shops? Lunch, too? My treat.”
“That’ll be lovely,” Pearl smiles, nodding along at her suggestion. “Change of scenery and some fresh air will do me good.”
Joan turns to Olive before going to pour her own cup of tea. “You’re welcome to join us, of course, Olive.”
“Thanks, Joan, but I’m gonna clean up around here a little. My bedroom is a sty and it needs a good tidy. You two have fun, though!”
“You need anything bringing back, kiddo?”
“Nah, Pearly. I’m all set.”
***
After showering - Olive willing to never take a power shower for granted ever again - and throwing on her comfiest clothes while her jumpsuit was in the washing machine, she began to tidy. She began at her bookshelf, placing her precious books straight before becoming easily distracted, thumbing through well worn copies of A Midsummer Night’s Dream, Hamlet and Much Ado About Nothing. Fishing for a backpack from under her bed, she stuffs each book in with care, glad to find something to occupy her mind when there was no work to be done on mission days.
It’s when she’s dusting the shelves that something falls from a height. A sparkling gold catches her eye from the floor, Olive holding her breath in both disbelief and anticipation as she bends down to pick it up. She holds the locket in her hands for the first time in years, turning it over in her hands thrice before opening it up.
“Hello,” she speaks softly, keeping the words for the man in the picture. “Where’ve you been hiding?”
Olive holds the heart shaped pendant in her hand a few moments more, taking in the features and expressions of her father, Oscar. There he was, smiling so gleefully that he was blushing, his cheeks a delightful shade of pink as he holds a small baby close to him. Baby Olive, a few weeks old, is looking at her father with awe, the same expression she carried on her face for the rest of his life whenever he was around. Her heart pounds unpleasantly as her mind reruns her dream from this morning; the crash, the car buckling all around them. Oscar slumping on his daughter as he took his final breath…
Olive snaps the locket closed at the memory, willing her brain to muster up better ones they shared. She places the chain around her neck and clasps it at the back, hoping that by wearing it, by keeping him close again, the bad memories can be saturated.
***
Olive pulls out a sheet of paper and grabs a pen, intending to write Pearl and Joan a letter to explain her absence from the house when the door opens, the pair of them traipsing in with a shiver.
“It’s cold out there, Ollie Pop,” Pearl shudders, nodding her head towards Olive’s coat that’s upon the hook as she looks at the jumpsuit she is wearing. “Wear something more than that if you’re heading out.”
“I was just about to write down that I was off again. Are you sure you don’t need me?”
“Absolutely sure,” Joan responds, closing the door behind her out of habit despite Olive saying she was about to leave. “Your grandma is right though, it’s bloody freezing. That wind has got a bite to it.”
“Turned quickly,” Olive observes, pulling on the mentioned jacket. “It was sunny when I got here.”
“Wasn’t it? Good old temperamental British weather, hm?”
“Got that right. Well, I’m off,” Olive announces, pecking Pearl on the cheek and giving her a quick squeeze.
“Don’t get lost!”
“Me? Never.”
***
There had been some ungraceful descents from the fort over the few weeks of going back and forth between the years, but today’s was about to go on record as the worst. Assuming that Kenny, Wink or one of the ground crew, had seen fit to leave the stairs exactly where they had been earlier this morning, Olive sticks one foot out of the door, only to be surprisingly greeted with air beneath her feet. Before she can register what’s happening, she steps down, sending herself flying through the air to the ground with a yelp.
“Fuck me,” she cries, once again finding herself winded on the hardstand of Thorpe Abbotts. Slowly gaining her breath back, she sits up, only to be greeted by a rowdy husky who is intent on giving one of his favorite girls a good morning kiss as a hello.
“Dang dog,” she giggles, scritching the space between his ears. “Morning.”
“Olive! Knew it was you,” Benny says, making his presence known by coming out of the fog. “What the hell are you doing all the way out here this early? Lemmons isn’t hankering for a donut that bad is he?”
“No, errm, no, no, he isn’t,” Olive winces, her voice raising a few octaves as she bites through another set of lies today. She sighs, standing up and brushing herself off. “I was just coming back from–”
His face is suddenly serious, the most solemn she’s ever seen him. “What are you doing out here, Ol?”
“Well, I–it’s just…” she stutters, her mouth filling with saliva as she talks. “I’m–ugh, Benny, I can’t lie to you.”
He crosses his arms, ready for an answer. He shakes his head, his eyebrows raised in an agitated manner. “Well?”
“Remember how I fell at your feet a few weeks ago?”
“Uh-huh…”
“And how it’s like I just appeared out of nowhere? Thin air?”
“Get to the point, Ol.”
“Jeez, okay,” she snides back, wincing in preparation for his reaction. “I’m from the future.”
“Excuse me?”
“I’m from the future,” she repeats, seeing Benny’s arms uncross and his face go back to its usual kind expression. “I’m from the year 2021.”
“Hold on,” he says, the palm of his hand now resting on his forehead. “But how–”
“Dunno, bud. I clambered into this thing in my time and ended up here, in 1943. Fighting this war with you all.”
“I just–who else knows?”
“Kenny, Wink, and now you.”
“Val?”
“Not yet, Benny. I haven’t found the right time, or the right way to explain it. I mean, listen to me. It’s insane!”
“Got that right,” he exhales, puffing his cheeks. “Kenny found out before me? Before Dougie? Before Val?!”
“Listen, Kenny caught me the other night and I can’t lie very well, as you’ve just beared witness to. What else was I supposed to do when he caught me clambering up the stairs of a B-17?”
“Look, I can understand you not telling me, Dougie and Ev just yet. But Val? I’m surprised at you, Olive.”
“Yeah,” she squeaks, her throat closing around a lump within it. “Because, like, what if they don’t believe me, hm? What then?”
“I believe you,” Benny says, his voice soft on the cool morning breeze. “You’re my baby sis. I believe you. I’ll back you up, Ol.”
“You will?”
“Always! It’s fucking nuts,” he laughs, shaking his head and shrugging. “But I believe you.”
“How do you believe me so easily? And with no questions?”
“I don't know. I just feel like you of all people wouldn't lie to me.” He pauses for a second. “Also, pretty wild thing to lie about, huh?”
She laughs, the sound crawling up from her belly.
“Right? Anyway, baby sis is actually quite literal now, isn’t it?”
“Yeah,” he laughs again. “What year were you born?”
“1997.”
“Jesus Christ,” he gasps, running a hand through his hair. Looking a little less stressed, he finds her hand and grips it. “Something tells me you were always meant to be here, pal.”
“You know what, I think so, too. Meatball wouldn’t have led me here otherwise.”
He nods, petting the dog at his feet. “You want me to walk you home?”
“Please,” she agrees, linking her arm through his. “I’m knackered.”
“Nah-kurred,” Benny mocks, keeping Olive close so they don’t lose one another in the thick fog that hasn’t budged since they woke up this morning.
“Don’t take the piss, Bernard. I’ll spit in your eye.”
“There it is. I see learning from Val is going well.”
***
Benny pulls her into a comforting embrace upon escorting her back to the Red Cross hut, opening the door for her as gently as he can while trying - and failing - to keep Meatball quiet so as to not wake the other girls.
“Shut your pie hole, pal,” he whispers, his teeth gritted. “Yes, yes, it is breakfast time. You think I don’t know that? Maybe put your friends before your stomach just this once.”
As Benny talks, Meatball’s head tilts this way and that as if he is truly listening and understanding every word. Both Olive and Benny see the dog’s ears prick up just once during their exchange: when the word ‘breakfast’ was mentioned.
“Heard your belly rumble, too, Demarco,” Olive observes, the subtle sound ceasing as he lets out a sigh.
“I am. But I’m not crazy about those eggs, Ol.”
“No shit, buddy. Be patient; East Anglia’s finest donuts, coming right up.”
“Can’t wait,” he says, beginning to walk away. “C’mon, Meatball, let’s go.”
Seeing him and the mutt disappear back into the fog, Olive creeps through the door that Benny had opened for her, hoping that both Val and Helen were still snoozing. Much to her relief, they are, Valencia still snoring the same way she was when Olive left, and Helen, wrapped up in her blanket like a caterpillar waiting to emerge from its chrysalis.
Olive slings the bag off her shoulder and places it on her bunk before sitting down, pulling the dog-eared copies of the books she retrieved from her bedroom at Pearl’s out of the bag. She begins thumbing through them once again, grabbing a stray pencil and begins to annotate, already keen to present Brady’s girl, Jules, with another analysis in the coming weeks. It’s a line in Hamlet that catches her eye, quickly underlining it before snapping the book shut as Valencia begins to stir.
‘This above all: to thine own self be true, And it must follow, as the night the day…Thou canst not then be false to any man.’
“Morning, chickie,” Val yawns, stretching her arms above her head with a groan before standing up and making her way to the washroom, rubbing at her eyes as she goes. On her way, she shakes Helen awake, a pained moan coming from the cocoon she’s created herself.
“Not yet,” she whines, nuzzling back into her pillow. “I was just about to have my big kissing moment with Jimmy Stewart.”
“Well, you can resume that at bedtime,” Val shouts behind her. “There’s donuts to be made, and a certain Herbert Nash to look at.”
“Well, if you’re putting it that way…”
“If it gets you out of bed, doll, I’ll say anything.
***
“Good morning, kids,” Tattie greets, flinging open the door to the hut with her foot. Her hands are full, the objects clanging as she sets them down on a small table. “Right, some housekeeping. Pulled some strings with the friends in high places, and Olive,” she says, turning to her with her hands on her hips, “you’re being allowed to stay.”
“All about who ya know, isn’t it, Tat?”
“Indeed,” she nods, a triumphant smile making her eyes crinkle. “I mean, look at this face! What kind of father would say no to this? Even if he can’t see it, he knows I’d be giving him the puppy eyes. Think the memory of that weakened him.” She pauses for a second, picking up the silver objects she’d discarded a moment earlier. “Anyway, in regards to that, we’ve all been given dog tags to wear now, as part of our uniform.”
She gives each girl their dog tag, the tag itself looped on the regulation silver ball chain. Olive places hers around her neck before tucking it into her jumpsuit, the tag dangling just below where her locket sits neatly on her clavicle.
“Let’s get going, girls,” Tattie coos, a mother hen herding her little chicks. The weather shocks both Valencia and Helen, the pair of them looking at their surroundings with wide eyes.
“They can’t fly in this, surely?” Helen says, shaking her head with worry.
“Surely not,” Val replies, slipping her hand into Olive’s. It feels clammy, Olive feeling the anxiety emanate off her instantly. “They’ll be grounded. Chicky will ground them, right?” Val squeezes at Olive’s hand for a response, the second girl unsure if Val was talking out loud or expecting an answer. Olive clears her throat, squeezing back reassuringly.
“Right,” she agrees, her head on Val’s shoulder for just a fleeting moment. “I think you’re right.”
As they reach the truck, they are surprised to see four men standing around it, two leaning against it for balance. Jack Kidd, Everett Blakely, James Douglass and Herbert Nash all deep in conversation, exchanging stories of home and their families, perk up even more at the sight of their girls in the early morning light.
“What in the world…” Valencia begins, her footsteps picking up pace to greet Everett with a good morning kiss. Olive feels herself do the same to reach her guy, followed by Helen. The only one that keeps their cool is Tattie Spaatz, addressing Kidd with only a quiet hello.
“Hello, you,” Olive murmurs, leaning up to kiss Dougie. “How are you?”
“Morning, dumpling,” he replies, nuzzling into her.
“What did you call me?” she laughs, her arms wrapping around him. “Never heard that as a pet name before.”
“You don’t like it?”
“Not my favorite,” she replies, rubbing her nose against his. “Maybe try some others?”
“Oh, uh. Don’t worry, there’s a few more up here,” he responds, tapping his finger to his temple.
“Get away,” she teases, shoving him softly. “When did you all orchestrate this early morning surprise, anyhow?”
“When we all walked to bed last night. The four of us, we thought it would be a nice idea.”
“It was. It really was,” she says, kissing him again. “If you stay, coffee will be ready in a few.”
“What do you think I’m here for? No sugar, please, lovey.”
“I know…oh, that one’s sweet. I like that one!”
He grins at her cheekily, that twinkle in his eye ever present. “I’ll keep that in mind,” he says, his cheeks turning pink.
“You’re cute,” she teases, pinching his cheek softly and turning to climb into the truck.
***
Coffee finally brewed and a batch of donuts ready for the hungry men of Thorpe Abotts, the gang hears the slap of feet running on the pavement, and the sound of two small children giggling. Billy and Sammy race their way to the Clubmobile as fast as their legs would carry them, almost diving headfirst into the counter.
“Steady on, lads, you almost took out Captain Blakely!” Olive urges, picking up two fresh donuts for them. “Just out of the fryer.”
“Wow, thanks, Miss,” Sammy says. Val joins them, holding two cups of coffee for the boys. “Don’t tell your mothers, for God’s sake,” she says, patting Sammy on the shoulder and ruffling through Billy’s curls. The youngins cheer quietly, excited over being given this, to them, forbidden beverage.
“You’re giving already excitable children coffee? Before school? Jesus, that poor teacher.”
“Don’t sweat it, Ol. It’s mostly milk.”
“Ohhhh. Smart.”
“Not just a pretty face,” she cackles, heading back to the truck.
“The prettiest, though,” Ev interjects, handing her his half smoked cigarette. “Maude,” he nods in her direction. “Any idea where Dougie went?”
“Absolutely none,” she shrugs, confused. She hadn’t even seen him leave, and was a little sore at his sudden exit without so much as a goodbye. She huffs a little, lighting her own cigarette and letting the smoke from the first drag stream through her nostrils.
“Okay, sourpuss,” Ev japes, pointing through the fog that's beginning to clear. “Here he comes.”
“Where did you go?” Olive asks, her face still etched with a little sadness.
“Forgot something,” he responds breathlessly, smiling down at his girl. He has a jacket strewn over his shoulder, and hands it to her as he takes the cigarette from her mouth and pulls on it. “This is for you.”
“For me?” she gasps, unfolding it. It smells just like him, and covered in different patches that he’d obviously exchanged for smokes. She grins at him, lost for words. “This is–wow.”
“It’s for when I’m not here,” he murmurs, helping her put it on. “So you can feel close to me.”
“That’s so sweet, Dougie. Thank you.” She fumbles for a second, panicking. “I don’t have anything to give you!”
“Hey, don’t worry about it–”
“Wait!” she yelps, fiddling with her collar. “I do have something.”
She fiddles with the two chains around her neck, pulling at the spare dog tag that hangs a little lower than the other. She unclasps it and hands it to him; his turn to be speechless, his mouth open in surprise and a hand running quickly through his neatly pomaded hair.
“Gee, Ollie. Are you sure?”
“Why wouldn’t I be?”
“That’s–heh, now I don’t know what to say. You’re really my girl, huh?”
“Sure am.”
He grabs her by the back of her neck and kisses her deeply, her hands finding balance on his chest as she’s thrust into him. They feel one another smile as their lips meet, a moment that makes them feel like they’re in their own little world.
He places the tag around his own chain after they break apart, Olive's tag dangling close to his heart.
“Ah,” he mutters, patting it gently. “Perfect.”
She grins at him, heat rising from her chest and spreading over her cheeks. He glances down at her open jumpsuit, her clavicle still visible. His eyes light up when he sees the gold locket sitting pretty, hand coming out to touch it.
“Got room for me in there?”
“You know it,” she swoons. “Right next to my Papa.” Her fingers touch his as she takes the locket from his gentle grasp, beginning to open it and not paying a thought to the color picture of her father within it. The world seems to slow down as the locket almost opens, everything coming back into focus at the sound of Everett Blakely's voice from the back of the truck.
“Doug, you need more smokes?” he calls, Dougie planting a quick kiss to Olive’s forehead and rushing over to him. She exhales a breath she barely noticed she had been withholding, opening the locket for just a quick second.
“I'll tell him, promise,” she whispers to the picture. “I'll tell them all.”
“Come on, ya rabble. Get inside!” Chick Harding struts out of the briefing room, making his way up to Val at the window of the truck. He opens his mouth to ask for his coffee, mouth left hanging open as Valencia places the cup in front of him, already made to his exact taste. She pours a second for Red Bowman before placing two donuts on napkins and wordlessly handing the goodies over.
“Thank you, Valencia,” he says, clearly surprised. “I need to get you girls together real quick. Miss Tattie, can you close up once the fellas are all in briefing?”
“Errm…yes?” She replies, clearly confused. She looks towards her girls, shrugging. “I guess start cleaning up a little, we'll come back to it.”
“We're not in trouble, are we?” Helen asks, her eyes worriedly darting between her friends. “I mean, I know we aren't exactly allowed to form romances with the men, it's right there in the rules, but…”
“It's a silly rule,” Tattie responds, puffing on her cigarette. “How do they expect us not to form bonds with these fellas?”
“Don't stress yourself, chicken,” Olive joins, pulling her into a hug. “I'm sure Chicky just wants to remind us that we need to keep Meatball tied to the post.”
“You're probably right. He hasn't mentioned knowing about Nash and I, neither has Red, so–”
“Helen, that man has eyes in the back of his ass. He knows everything: the all seeing eyes from the watchtower.”
“Okay, that's not terrifying at all. Save it for Halloween, English!”
***
Red Bowman stands broadly at the door of the briefing hut, hands on his hips as the girls walk towards him. Val is sporting that signature furrow, albeit softer this time, as if she is deep in anxious thought.
“Spaatz, DiRosano, Porter, Lewis,” he greets, nodding at each of them as he says their name. “Come on in.”
They follow him silently, the girls catching the eye of some of the men as they enter. Chicky spots them from where he is standing across the room, fat cigar freshly lit between his teeth.
“Girls,” he says in that thundering voice of his.
“Chicky,” Tattie responds as he joins them near the door. Lighting a smoke of her own, she looks at him suspiciously. “Care to reveal why you’ve pulled us in here?”
“Need ya to look after that damn mutt,” he huffs, a billow of smoke leaving his nostrils and mouth as he replies. “Make sure he don’t distract the boys none.”
“Uh-huh,” Tattie responds, still staring at him narrow-eyed. “Surely you don’t need all four of us to do that? Meatball is hard work but, sir, not that dang hard.”
He laughs, gesturing for the girls to move closer to him. They bunch in, including Red, the communal circle growing tighter at his silent command. “Bowman, tell ‘em.”
Red clears his throat and finally relaxes his stance. “We don’t just want ya in here to watch the dog. We’ve seen how close some of ya have got to these men and we don’t feel it’s fair to keep ya in the dark. It’s a big one, and we don’t want ya moping around and playing guessing games. We want ya all in the know. Got me?”
“We gotcha,” Val replies. “Doesn’t lessen the worry though, Red.”
“No, I know,” he agrees, exhaling an audible deep breath through his nose. “But it takes away the mystery. They’d tell ya anyway, but…”
“But you think we deserve to know,” Olive squeaks, nodding in agreement.
“That’s right.”
Tattie finally lets her eyes open wider, also nodding along. Helen joins, her lips pressed together in a line of worry. “Where shall we sit?”
“At the back if you don’t mind, girls,” Chicky interjects, showing them to four spare seats. “Keep that mutt under control. No playing fetch during the briefing!”
At the word ‘fetch,’ a whine shrills from Meatball, the husky suddenly ready to play.
“Not now, buddy,” Olive soothes, scritching at his fur before taking her seat. “Later, mkay?”
Distracted by giving attention to Meatball, Olive doesn’t register the large presence of Curt Biddick sauntering up to them and greeting Val in the same way he has since childhood.
“There she is!” he cries. “There’s the gal. Hey, whatcha doin’ in here? This ain’t your usual spot before a mission.”
“We know,” she murmurs, standing to relay the information Red and Chicky gave them. They speak in hushed tones, Olive noticing Curt nodding at every appropriate stage of the conversation.
“Well, that’s good of him to think of ya like that,” he says, his hand gripping at hers. “Yous all should be in the know. It’s only right.”
“You wanna sit with us?” Olive offers, patting a spare seat on the right of her.
“Nah, thanks though, Ol. Dickie saved me a spot up front.”
“Ah, grand,” she nods, going back to the dog and drowning him in the attention he keeps whining for.
“Well, I’ll be seein’ yous. Val, make me a coffee after.”
“Pain in my ass!”
***
As the briefing begins, Olive feels Helen next to her, elbowing her gently.
“Hey, Ol!” she whispers through her teeth, head nodding towards where James Douglass is sat next to Harry Crosby.
“Mhm?” Olive replies, catching Dougie turn around and wink at her at the same moment. She smiles at him softly, winking back.
“That,” she giggles, hand covering her mouth to muffle the sound as Chick Harding’s voice blares throughout the room and capturing the attention of each airman. “I was trying to tell you that.”
“So high school,” she teases, shaking her head and joining in the giggles. “What a sweetie.”
“He loves you,” she says, a knowing look in her eyes.
“Oh, shut it, Porter,” she bites back, smiling nonetheless.
“And you love him.”
“Give over, doll. I’ll spit in your eye.”
“Go for it. I’d take it, because I know I’m right.”
Olive sighs, shaking her head and leaning against her. She feels Meatball finally settle, his head on her legs and huffing slightly, surrounded by all his people and none of them willing to play.
“Quit sassing,” Olive softly scolds, petting his soft ears. “We will play later.”
“What’s up?” Val leans over, reaching to pat Meatball.
“He’s having a tantrum ‘cos all his friends are in the same room and not a single one can play.”
“He’s just a baby, that’s why,” Helen coos, making kissy faces at him.
“Girls, don’t make Chicky regret inviting us in here,” Tattie hisses, passing cigarettes down the line. “Hush up, please.”
“Yes, ma’am,” they all say in unison, suddenly sitting up straight and keen to listen.
The curtain that is covering a large map on the wall is pulled - almost with a flourish - by the Colonel, the airmen making noises of suspense. It's Curt, sitting a few rows ahead of the usual guys, next to his co-pilot Dickie, who speaks first, his voice a little softer than everyone else is used to.
“Why's that line go all the way to Africa?”
“Africa?!” The word leaves Olive's mouth in a squeak before she can stop it, clapping a hand over her mouth immediately following it. Meatball whimpers at the sudden mood change, those literal puppy eyes full of concern that his girl is suddenly afraid.
“Here,” Val says, elbowing Olive gently in the ribs. She hands her Tattie’s hip flask, shoving it in her hand. “Calm yourself.”
Olive does so, taking a chaste gulp from the flask and wincing at the burn of the alcohol racing down her throat.
“Better?”
She nods, handing it back to Val so it reaches its original owner. Val looks back at Olive with the same concern that's gripped Meatball, her hand suddenly gripping Olive’s.
“Doll, you've never reacted like this.”
“I'm aware,” Olive whispers back, her voice shaking. “Fucking Africa, Valencia. Africa.”
Her nervousness momentarily fades away as Dougie turns around to smile at her again, her grinning back instantly. They hold it for a moment, Olive getting lost in his beautiful eyes even from this distance. She feels Helen nudge her again, nodding triumphantly.
“I didn't say you were wrong, doll.”
“Oh, I knew it, English!”
***
“See you all in a few days,” is Colonel Harding’s departing remark as the airmen begin to file out of the room. Tattie is the one to lead the girls out, the three others following her like ducks in a row once again. Olive is so distracted by not bumping into a dozen other men that she barely notices Dougie waiting for her in the doorway, along with Ev who is waiting for Valencia.
“How did you sneak in this time, babydoll?”
“No sneaking required, James,” she grins, him pulling her into an embrace. “We were invited. Chick and Red thought it appropriate to let us in on what you boys are doing - lessens the anxiety apparently.”
“And did it help any?”
“Not one bit,” Olive replies. “Enemy territory,” she says, her voice squeaking as her throat closes, the effort of keeping tears at bay. “Then fucking Africa.”
“Hey, now,” he soothes, his hand on the side of her neck, his thumb stroking her cheek. “I’ll be home before you know it. I’ll even write you.”
“There won't be much point,” she laughs. “I'll end up getting it after you get home.”
“Hey, it's the thought that counts, right?”
She smiles, despite the single tear falling from her cheek. He wipes it away as soon as he sees it drop, a soft, comforting smile on his face. “Are you gonna be okay?”
“Yeah,” she sniffs. “I’m a tough girl.”
He nods. “I know you are.”
“I can take care of myself, don’t you fret.”
“You have,” he says. “You still do. You always will.” He leans in and kisses her sweetly on the lips, his hand still upon her now blushed cheek. “I’ve just joined in, too. Now we take care of each other, hm?”
She nods, pressing her nose and forehead to his, feeling every worry melt away for just a moment. He breaks the silence, moving back a little and holding her hand with his free one.
“Kept seeing your cute little smile while we were in there. I loved it.”
“Gosh, you’re just obsessed with me, aren’t you?” She replies with a giggle, obviously joking; she doesn’t expect his face to fall serious, his eyes darting all over her face, not quite being able to figure out where to look first. He settles on her eyes and then her mouth as he moves to kiss her again.
“Sure am, sugar.”
The pair are distracted by Tattie sauntering over, being followed by an overly giggly Helen who is trying to control a very giddy Meatball.
“Girls, there’s a truck to re-open and more hungry fellas hankering for donuts. Quit necking!” Despite her clear irritation, she winks at both Olive and Val, beckoning them to follow her once again.
“Come on, handsome,” Olive says, pulling Dougie by the hand. “Let me get you a snack for the journey.”
***
“Meatball! Meatball, no!” Helen scolds, trying her best to tie his leash to the pole that stands right beside the Clubmobile. Seeing Helen crouch in front of him, he thinks it’s time to play, the hyper husky panting in her face. His tail begins to wag as he sees her reach into the pocket of her jumpsuit but is dismayed to find she has only reached in there to grab a handkerchief, capturing a surprise sneeze. “This dog hair! Tickles my nose something fierce.” Eyes now streaming, Helen struggles with completing the knot and looks towards her companions for assistance.
“Ol, a little help please! You’re the only one he listens to besides DeMarco.”
At the mention of his owner’s name, Meatball howls loudly and continues panting and wagging in excitement. Making her way to him and Helen, Olive laughs.
“He can’t hear you from all the way out here, buddy!” She takes the leash from Helen and ties it with a flourish in seconds, Helen looking on impressively. “Helen, we cannot say his name! You know that by now!”
“My bad!” She titters, groaning as she wipes at her eyes again. “He’s adorable but my goodness, these allergies.”
A Jeep breaks through the fog with a loud screech, the noise startling the girls and the dog. Val, lighting a cigarette as she exits the truck, joins the other girls in order to investigate while Tattie continues cleaning, mumbling out loud to herself - something that the girls have deciphered she does when she is anxious.
“Garcia,” Val greets, recognizing him instantly. “How can we help ya?”
“Just wanted to let you all know, the boys have got a thirty minute delay. If ya wanted to say goodbye again, drop em another hot coffee to keep their spirits up.”
“Say less,” Olive replies, unhooking Meatball from his leash and gesturing for him to follow her. She clambers in, the dog leaping into her lap instantly. Val grabs another two coffees and a bag of donuts, Tattie and Helen waving them off.
“Step on it, Garcia,” Val laughs. “They’ll take the news better if it comes from us.”
“You got that right, DiRosano. Sure they like looking at you both a hell of a lot more than they like looking at me!”
Speeding through the mist, Garcia huffs a little, the brightest setting of lights not able to break through it. “It’s a real pea-souper, this one.”
“Do you reckon they’ll call it off?” Olive enquires, hoping for the answer she wants to hear.
“Not a chance, Lewis. This is a big one. Brass have taken a lotta risks and–well, I’d better zip it.”
“Nothing I won’t find out in a few weeks when I’m typing Chicky’s reports up,” Val retorts, reaching around to pet Meatball. “No need to keep it quiet.”
They conclude their drive in silence, Garcia seeming to have run out of polite conversation within a few moments. The brakes screech as they come to a stop, Olive patting Meatball on the rear to get him off her lap. Swiping at her navy blue jumpsuit to rid it of the hair, she loses him in the smog instantly and throws a ball in the direction he ran off in. Grabbing Val’s hand, as if she’s somehow able to lead her to the crew of Just A-Snappin’, she smiles at her wanely.
“Chickie, I can see through this haze just as well as you.”
“This way we don’t lose each other,” Olive cackles in return, resting her head on Val’s shoulder for a short second.
“Oh, never, girl. Never ever.”
She looks her friend up and down as they walk hand in hand, Olive trying to wrap Dougie’s jacket around her with her spare hand.
“Dougie’s?” Val asks, gesturing.
“Yeah! Sewed all these on himself. Ain't it neat?”
“Sewed…himself?”
“Yeah!”
“Ol, I've been sewing his stuff since Ev and I started dating…oh, wait til I get my hands on him!”
***
“Looky here!” Dougie yells, clumsily getting up from the ground. “What are you doing all the way out here?”
“Garcia wanted us to share some news…”
“Uh-huh?”
“Thirty minute delay!” The girls yell in unison, trying their best to add some cheer to it. Olive even accompanies it with a singsong voice and jazz hands, Dougie almost falling over himself laughing at her.
“The Clubmobile serving snacks and putting on a show now, Maude?” Everett Blakely pipes up as Val kisses him on the cheek.
“Hey, get it for free while you can. Olive and The Clubmobile Gals. It's got some pizzazz to it, huh?”
“You gonna be a star, Maude? Take care of all of us?”
“You bet, Ernest,” she laughs, feeling Dougie wrap his arms around her waist and give her a squeeze.
“This is the best way bad news has ever been given to me.”
“Those three years of drama school had to come in handy somewhere, my love. Here,” she says, handing him a brown bag full to burst with donuts. “For everyone, mind!”
“All of us?” Ev asks. “No chance. Via and Saunders don’t like donuts, Kidd and I are too busy flying the damn fort to even think about having a snack break, and Croz…” The group look over at him, laying on the concrete hardstand with his eyes closed, his head upon his briefcase.
“Croz won’t keep ‘em down,” Dougie interjects, a triumphant expression on his face. “Looks like they’re all for me!”
“I've got a bone to pick with you, Douglass!” Val interjects, that classic brow furrow joined by a mischievous smile.
“What?!” he snorts, mouth full of donut. “What've I done now?”
“You're in trouble, baby boy.”
“You! Sewing!?”
“Oh–shit,” he swallows, holding his hands up defensively around a grin. “I know when I've been caught!”
“I've been–”
“I know,” he replies, laughing at her extremely pissed off expression. “Just makes me feel safer.”
Val softens instantly, as does Olive, the pair of them aww-ing and cooing at him.
“Darling,” Olive pouts, kissing his cheek. “Very cute.”
“The puppy eyes work every time,” he retorts, grabbing Olive’s hand.
“Oh, you little shit!”
The group make their way to where Croz is snoozing, Dougie sitting behind Olive so she can lean on him to get somewhat comfy as Valencia, joined by Ev, sidles up to Curt the moment she spots him appearing through the fog.
“Drew you somethin’,” Dougie murmurs, digging around in the pocket of his sheepskin.
“When?” Olive asks, shoulders beginning to shake from giggling. “How?”
“Just before you got here. I was gonna send it with your letter but you may as well have it now.” He hands her a small piece of neatly folded paper, an expectant look on his face as she opens it. He has drawn two ladybirds, nestled together on a leaf with the caption ‘Can I bug you forever?’
“Oh, gee,” Olive says, absolutely tickled. “I love the ladybirds.”
“Ladybugs, honey girl.”
“Ladybir–what did you call me?”
She feels her cheeks glow pink at this new pet name, the first that’s made her insides feel like they’re melting.
“Oh, you like that one!”
“I absolutely do. Stick with that one. That’s lovely.”
“You’re lovely.”
“Oh, stop,” she teases, leaning up so he can plant a kiss on her temple. She presses her forehead on his chin, him squeezing her to his body in reciprocation. “You’re such a sweetie.”
They’re silent for a few moments, them both savoring the embrace. His hands feel warm as he places them in her lap, his nose burying itself in her neck as he kisses her there gently. With Everett joining them again, sans Val, she looks to her left, spotting Val and Curt a short distance away - a sign that the fog is clearing just a little. Olive sees them hug, Val holding him a little tighter this time. He smiles softly at her, bidding her farewell. She stares after him wistfully as he walks away and disappears into the ether.
***
As Valencia returns to rejoin the group, sitting and chatting underneath their fort, Everett stands to greet her.
“You okay, sweetheart?”
“Yeah,” she stammers out, a shaky breath leaving her lips as Ev reaches up to wipe her eyes and pull her into a hug. He takes her hand as he sits on the concrete again, gently pulling her with him.
“C'mere, come sit,” he says, patting his knee. “Got a riddle to share.”
She perches on his lap as Dougie wakes a snoring Croz by whacking him on the leg.
“Hmm!” Croz grumbles, his brow furiously furrowed. “What now, Doug?”
“Ev has a riddle to tell us.”
“You woke me up for a friggin’ riddle?”
“Thought you could do with waking up your brain,” Dougie teases, Crosby swatting at him.
“Fine. Go on, Blakely, the floor is yours.”
The captain takes a pull from his Lucky Strike before beginning, clearing his throat as he speaks:
“You’re on the way to purgatory–”
“Purgatory?”
“Yes, Maude, purgatory. You’re on the way to purgatory, and one road goes to Valhalla. The other goes to Hell, damnation, the abyss, what have you.”
“Uh huh?” Croz says, his tired face now clouded with confusion and curiosity.
“On each of the roads, is a goblin…”
“A goblin?” Olive exclaims, trying to stifle a giggle. “Ernest, where is this going?”
“If you'd let me get through more than one line, English, you'd find out. One goblin tells the truth, the other always lies. He's a tricky little fucker, a little mischievous.”
“An imp,” Olive chuckles, catching Val’s eye.
“Birichino,” she enunciates, winking at Ev. “That's what Ma calls Curt.”
“Wait…would you ask both of them if either are the good goblin?”
“Jesus, English, I was about to say that!” Croz yelps, frisbeeing his crush cap at her.
“Snooze ya lose, Harry!” She throws it right back, catching him in the abdomen. It winds him slightly, Crosby sitting up quickly and wincing.
“Good shot,” he wheezes, holding a hand up in defeat as Olive checks on him, laughing at his faux coughs.
With a laugh, Dougie brings the group back to the conversation.
“I have a riddle!”
“Please, regale us,” Val says, lighting a cigarette and handing it across to Olive. Dougie winks down at Olive, a knowing glint in his eye.
“What's the difference between a hippo, and a–”
“And a zippo? Douglass, we've heard that one a thousand times now, pal.”
Despite hearing it for what feels like the thousandth time herself, Olive begins to giggle in front of James, him joining in as he nuzzles into her again. “Yeah, but this is why I tell it. For the prettiest smile in the world.”
“I love that one,” she titters, reaching up to kiss him.
“I know you do,” he murmurs, reciprocating her kiss just as lovingly. “And I love y–”
“That a flare?” Croz cuts in, his eyes narrowing as he tries to make sense of the light in the distance that's now falling speedily to the ground.
“Time to go, fellas,” Ev commands, his crew jumping up at his tone. He kisses Val deeply, before wrapping his arms around her, whispering sweet nothings in her ear to look forward to his return home.
After he helps her stand, Dougie takes Olive’s face in his hands and traces her mouth with the pad of his thumb, as if to try and memorize its shape.
“What were you about to say?” she asks, their faces coming closer together and their noses meeting.
“Tell you when I get home, honey girl.”
“No, now!” she demands, kissing him deeply.
“You're cute when you're pissed off.”
“Doesn't mean you should do it often, cheeky.”
“I'll write you, okay?”
“Okay,” she quivers, hand on his sweet face. “Please come home to me.”
“Nowhere else I'd rather be, babydoll.”
He moves her hand from his face, kissing her palm one, two, three times before walking away, Olive watching him until he's out of sight.
***
“You heard that, right?” Olive gasps, her hand gripping on to Val's arm. “What Dougie said, you heard it?”
“Yes, I did. I heard it, Ol. He loves you!” she squeals, handing Meatball’s leash back to her as he leads them back to the truck, sniffing through the mist.
“I didn't think–”
“Olive Lewis!” Val shouts, that Brooklyn twang adding an extra umph to Olive’s name. “Don't make me give you a slap.”
“I'm not!” she protests, rolling her eyes. “I just…”
“We all know you love him, too, doll. You'd have to be blind to not notice it.”
“Is it really that obvious?”
“Limpido come il giorno, my girl.”
“In English, please.”
“As plain as the nose on ya face.”
Arriving back at the Clubmobile thanks to Meatball’s dog senses, Val and Olive rejoin Helen and Tattie, the girls standing outside of the truck sharing a cigarette. Dainty coughs leave Helen as she tries to inhale, her sweet, kind eyes filling up with tears at every drag.
“Helen, what have I told you about that? You’re going to hurt yourself, coughing like that.”
“I can’t…seem to…do it!”
“Then don’t, chicken!”
They hear a ruckus coming through the fog, Rosie and his group breaking out of the mist and greeting the girls.
“Hiya, boys!” Tattie calls, climbing back into the truck. “Last few donuts are yours if you want ‘em!”
“Thank ya, Miss Tattie,” Rosie politely replies, shaking his head in mock dismay as he spots Nash making a beeline for Helen. “How’s your day been?”
“Oh, easy enough. It’s trying to find a way to keep ourselves occupied while the boys are up that’ll be the trouble. Say, you wouldn’t happen to have any ideas?”
“Nothing that doesn’t involve sitting with a book, I’m afraid.”
“Hm, maybe not. I’d get restless.”
“You, restless? Now I don’t believe that.”
She pauses for a second, taking a sip of her lukewarm coffee. “Girls!” she calls, the three of them breaking away from their conversation with Nash, Pappy and Speas. “What do you say we name this old girl?” She pats the open window of the Clubmobile fondly before continuing. “A few of the other girls out in Europe have named theirs, why don’t we?”
“Oh, yes!” Helen replies excitedly. “But what?”
There’s a pause as they all begin to ponder, each person occasionally offering a “hm,” or a “aha!” Pappy, at one point, scratches his head as if he’s deep in thought. “Why don’t you name it after one of the states you’re all from?”
“Pappy,” Olive says, looking at him side-eyed. “Think about that again.”
“Scratch that,” he laughs. “Well then, I’m stumped!”
“You did have a semblance of a good idea though! We totally could keep it in relation to all of us girls.”
“Do-Nut Enter,” Tattie suggests, cackling at her own joke.
“All Things Nice?” Helen shrugs. “Because we’ve got sugar on the donuts, Val is the spice–”
“Why, thank you!”
“Olive, any ideas?”
“None!” She walks over to Meatball, tying him to his post. “My brain is fried.”
“That’ll be the lack of sleep, kid. I’ve got my eye on you!” she pokes, winking at her.
“That’s it!” Val calls, seeing Olive begin to pet the dog. “Something to do with Meatball!”
“Uh-huh? What did you have in mind?”
“Meatball, Meatball…” she murmurs, before snapping her fingers. “Got it! Spaghetti ‘n’ Meatball!”
“Oh, that’s precious!” Olive squeals, looking between everyone else. “Don’t you all think?”
Tattie smiles with a soft chuckle, Helen also nodding in agreement.
“Spaghetti ‘n’ Meatball it is.”
***
Inducting Kenny and Winks to be their painters, their brilliant nose art designs speaking for themselves, the gang all rally around with trays of coffee and a fresh batch of donuts to satiate their hungry helpers. Rosie and Pappy were on ribbon duty, finding something for the girls to cut for the grand reopening of the truck with its brand new name. Speas was in charge of gathering the remaining men for the celebration, rallying them from all corners of the base. Nash was supposed to have joined him, but remains stuck to Helen’s side like he was velcroed to her.
“Nash,” Olive says, teasingly. “I promise she won’t disappear while you help Speas out.”
“Olive, you can’t let a pretty girl like this outta your sight if you can help it!”
“Soppy sod,” she giggles, watching Helen blush. “I’ll need her once Rosie and Cousin Pappy have arrived back, though.”
“Hey, what’s all that about?” Nash asks. “I tried to ask but I couldn’t make head nor tail about what he was yappin’ about.”
“Oh! We share the same surname and the moment Pappy heard it, he declared we obviously had to be related. I’m not protesting,” she laughs, covering her mouth to stifle it slightly. “It’s not like I have a big family myself. It’s nice to add to the fold, actually.”
“What’s that, doll?” Helen asks, her face now a picture of both curiosity and concern. Olive feels herself heat up, almost beginning to boil over as the reality of what she has said begins to set it.
“Nothing, nothing!” she swallows, willing the stressed warmth to leave her cheeks.
“No, tell me what you meant!”
“Later,” she replies, dismissively, racing back around to the front of the truck. Through the haze of panic, she barely notices Lemmons sneak up behind her and snatch a donut from the tray she had been holding.
“Hey!” Sammy yells, telling on him within seconds. “You didn’t ask Miss Olive first!”
“Yeah!” Billy echoes. “Lemmons, you need to ask nicely!”
“Boys!” he laughs. “I don’t need to ask. Miss Olive and I have an agreement.”
“Oh!” They say in realization, before carrying on petting Meatball who is happily lapping up all the extra attention.
“What does that mean?” Val asks, Olive jumping at her presence.
“What does what mean?” she snaps, shaking her head. “What?”
“You and Kenny having a deal.”
“Oh my God, nothing!” she barks, feeling her eyes begin to swim with tears. “Just leave it.”
“Huh…”
As Olive turns her back, Val walks away, shaking her head. Clutching the locket, Olive sniffs as the tears dry in her eyes. “Don’t worry, Papa. They’ll know by tonight. No more secrets.”
Olive is quickly distracted by a chorus of voices calling her name, Helen and Tattie pulling a trail of toilet paper across the Clubmobile to create a makeshift ribbon to cut for the grand reopening. Just as Chick Harding approaches, he speaks up again.
“Whose twenty two sheet daily ration did ya take?”
“Yours, sir,” Tattie quips back, joining the rest of the group. “After three! One, two…”
“You little–”
Just as Chick is prepared to tear the paper, Meatball leaps. It’s as if it all happens in slow motion, everyone’s faces a picture of surprise as the dog jumps and grabs the paper with his teeth, pulling it apart before Tattie even manages to get to three.
“Meatball!” They all moan disdainfully, the dog happily panting at his efforts, looking terribly pleased with himself.
“Good thing you’re cute,” Olive scolds, kissing him on the head. “Wait til your Dad hears about this!”
***
The Silver Wings Club is the emptiest it’s ever been - usually packed to the brim, the few service members sat deep in quiet conversation as a few members of the band play softly on stage adds an eerie feel to the environment.
Olive was already feeling uneasy, both Val and Helen noticing how subdued she was as they changed uniforms, her shrugging them off and reassuring them she was fine at every turn. She’d seen herself grow ever paler in the mirror, willing herself to put one foot in front of the other as they approached Rosie and his crew in the club. As they all stand to offer their seats, Olive declines and makes a beeline for the bar where she orders a large whiskey. She gulps it down the moment it is placed in front of her, her friends looking on in surprise as she turns back to them.
“Rosie, Pappy…lads. I need to talk to the girls. Alone.”
“Sure thing, Miss Olive.”
Pappy remains still, arms crossed as he smiles jovially between Olive and their friends. “You too, Cousin Pappy.”
“Oh, what? Why?”
“Because it’s private.”
“We’re family!”
“It’s girl stuff!” she blurts, closing her eyes and wincing as she snaps at him.
“Say no more!” he guffaws, the insinuation of that alone enough to have him pick up his drink and follow Rosie.
“What’s up, kid?” Tattie says, side eyeing Olive as she lights a cigarette. “You’ve been off all day. Lay it on us.”
“Well, it’s uh–”
“Is it because Dougie and Ev, and the rest of the fellas are away? I know it’s the first time you’ve dealt with something like this, but–”
“Nope, not that. There’s something–oh, Jesus Christ…” Olive gasps, swallowing the bile that’s beginning to creep up her throat. She shudders, her whole body seeming to convulse.
“What something?”
“I need to tell you something. About me, about my life. And I’m worried - terrified, in fact - that you all won’t believe me.”
“We’ve heard it all, Ol,” Helen laughs, sipping her cocktail.
“Oh, I doubt you’ve heard this, Helen.”
“Christ sake!” Val yells, gently kicking Olive’s shin. “Spit it out, English!”
“Right, well. Tattie, you know how I, in your words, appeared suddenly?”
“Yeah? From thin air, it seems.”
“Well, I was on the hardstand that day, because I fell out of a fort.”
“Why were you in a fort, Ol?” Helen places her drink down, her brow softly furrowed. Olive takes a deep breath in, bracing herself to finally tell the truth.
“I was in a fort because that’s how I got here. I’m not from here, from this time.”
“W-what?” Val asks, equally as confused as the rest of the group. “Huh?” Olive sees her chest rise and fall quickly, her breaths becoming uneven and jagged.
“I’m from the future,” Olive replies quietly, her eyes falling on her hands that she’s placed in her lap, wringing them together. “I’m from the year two thousand and twenty one. In my time, I climbed into a model fort because I thought I heard a dog barking for help in there and I fell out. Here.”
“Olive–”
“Who else knows?” Val demands. “Does anyone else know?”
Olive nods without looking up. “Kenny, and now Benny.”
“Before me?!”
Olive looks up as her friend's voice borders on yelling, and sees her eyes begin to fill with tears.
“I thought we were friends, Olive.”
“We are!” she yells in response as Val stands, stalking towards the door. “I didn’t know what else to do!” She begins to follow her, but is quickly pulled back by Helen and Tattie who return her to her chair.
“Let her go,” Tattie says, stubbing her cigarette into the ashtray in front of her. “Give her a moment.”
“But–”
“No buts, girl. Now…you’re not lying to us?”
“I have been, yes. But this…this is me telling the truth. I didn’t expect this. I didn’t expect to land on my ass somewhere so removed from my own life and find this.”
“What is it you’ve found, hm?”
“You guys…a family. I don’t–I don’t really have one aside from my grandmother and this…” she feels hot, fat tears begin to streak down her cheeks as she sobs through her words. “This is such a gift.”
“Look, we can’t say we’re not shocked,” Helen says, taking her hand. “But, I believe you.”
“You do?”
“Mhm. Now I think about it, it all makes sense. Can’t set your hair, can’t seem to get your nails right…”
“Gee, thanks,” Olive snorts, wiping her nose with a handkerchief.
“You know what I mean, girlie,” she comforts, hand now stroking hers. “Aside from all that, you’re one of us now. I feel like you always have been.”
Tattie nods, wordlessly confirming what Helen has said. “You don’t just have your grandmother anymore, Ol. You have me, Helen, the boys, and Val.”
“Not so sure about that last one right now,” Olive weeps, Helen shushing her softly.
“Yes, you are. She’s upset she wasn’t told, and rightfully so. She has every right to be mad at you right now, doll.”
“Yeah,” Olive says softly, dabbing at her eyes again. “I’m gonna go see to her, but when I come back, I have something to show you.”
“What is it?” Tattie asks, eyes glowing with excitement.
“Proof.”
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“Can I come in?” Olive asks as she taps on the door to the Red Cross hut.
“Free country,” Val responds, her tone sulky. Olive sees her slumped on her bunk with Meatball as she walks in, deciding against sitting next to her and opting to sit on the bunk opposite.
“I’m sorry,” Olive starts, her voice quiet. “I wanted to tell you, I just–”
“Just what? Decided to tell Kenny and DeMarco before I even got a look in?”
“I didn’t intend to tell them. They caught me.”
“Come again?”
“Kenny caught me one night, and I couldn’t lie to him. Truth be told, I’d had one too many Old Fashioneds and didn’t have my wits about me.”
“And DeMarco?”
“The dog gave me away this morning as I fell out of the plane.” Meatball whines at the mention of his presence, his ears pricking up. “Yes, I’m talking about you, ya damn mutt.”
She hears Val take a deep inhale, the breath leaving her slowly. “So you did wanna tell me?”
“More than anything. I just couldn’t figure out how.”
“Why now?”
“It was all getting too risky. So many things almost gave me away today and I can’t keep lying to everyone. Especially you, Val. You’re my person.”
“Thought that would be Dougie,” she replies snarkily, a smile growing on her lips nevertheless.
“Hm, maybe, romantically. But you? This shit is for keeps.”
“I feel the same.”
“Good.”
A moment of silence passes between them, Val reaching over to take Olive’s hand.
“Sorry I was a big baby,” she sniffs, shaking her head. “I just don’t like being left out.”
“Does anyone?” Olive laughs. “You believe me?”
“Y’know what, I actually do. It all makes sense now.”
“Yes, yes, I know, Helen already ate me up about my hair and my nails, I don’t need it repeated.”
“Ate you up?” Val asks, a snort leaving her as she tries to stifle a giggle.
“Chewed me up and spat me right out.”
“Oh, I love that. I need to use it.”
“Feel free! It’s one of my favorites.”
“Any more secrets you have to tell me? Might as well air it all out now while we’re here.”
“Nothing much else to tell, really. Dead dad, abandoned by my mum, raised by my grandmother.”
“Oh, me too. The–the first one.”
“I’m so sorry, honey. It’s not a nice club to be a member of.”
“Club?” she asks. “There’s a club?”
“Hmm. Dead Dads Club. Nobody chooses to be a member, it’s sort of thrust upon you. I was 13 when I got my badge.”
“I was much younger. Only a small child. It’s just been me, mom and Nonna ever since.”
“I only ever had Pearl after. My mum didn’t take my dad passing well–I mean, of course she didn’t but…anyway, that’s a story for another day.” She pulls her locket out of her collar, showing it to Valencia. “Would you like to see him?”
“I’d be honored.”
She opens the locket as Val perches on the bed next to her, her eyes squinting a little to see the small heart shaped picture inside. “You look just like him. Same eyes…same chin and jaw…wow, that’s your dad.”
“That’s my dad. My Papa,” she breathes, closing the necklace. “He was a sweetheart.”
“You think he’d approve of Dougie?”
“Without a doubt. Both with the same silly sense of humor. I’m beginning to think James has a hotline to heaven, the way he’s coming out with similar jokes.”
“And this?”
“I think he would. I think he’d just be happy to see me happy, y’know. It all scares me silly. He’s gone, and once Pearl goes, I’m all alone.”
“I’ll smack you, English,” Val scolds, wrapping an arm around her. “No, you’re not. We’re your family now.”
“Not just blowing smoke up my arse?”
“Never.”
“Come on,” Olive suggests, pulling Val up off the bed. “We’d better get back. I have something to show you.” She digs around in her bag, pulling out her phone as the door suddenly swings open.
“What on earth is that thing?” Tattie laughs, pointing at the object in Olive’s hand as Helen follows her in. “Sorry, we just wanted to check up on you. The conversation with Rosie and the boys became less and less riveting. Pah, get it. Riveting! Oh, what am I like?”
“Drunk, is what you are, Spaatz,” Helen teases, sitting her on a bunk. “You weren’t complaining when Pappy and Speas were buying you whiskey after whiskey.”
“Exactly! Now, what’s in your hand, English? A futuristic contraption?” She slurs through each word, her speech sounding like she has a mouth full of candy.
“Here’s the proof I mentioned.” Olive presses the phone’s lock button for it to flash on, the girls all screeching in terror.
“What the fuck?!” Helen screams, a rarity for her to curse. “What is that?”
“A phone. Or a doo-hickey, as Lemmons likes to call it.”
“But where’s the wire? The numbers? The–huh?!”
“I can’t do much with it here. But, I can play music, and take photos.”
“On a telephone?” Val shouts, grabbing it from her hands. “Let me see!”
Olive swipes the screen with her finger, swapping the camera to selfie mode. “Look, it’s us!”
“B-but…how?”
“Magic,” Olive replies. “I actually don’t know, I don’t ask questions.”
“Take our picture!” Val demands.
“Shit, alright. Calm it down.”
Olive presses the camera button, the shutter sound startling the three girls who obviously don’t expect it. “Yeah, we’ll delete that one. Try again,” Olive laughs, taking in the still of their shocked faces.
“I need to print all these,” Olive laughs as she scrolls through about fifty images, finding her favorites amongst the shots. “You girls wanna hear some music?”
“Uh, yeah?!” Helen keenly agrees, Olive hitting play on a downloaded playlist and placing the phone into a glass.
By the end of the night, they all have preferences: Helen has fallen in love with Elvis Presley, Tattie Spaatz has learned to headbang to AC/DC, and Val has become enamored with 80s era Madonna.
“What do you think Ev will like?”
“We’ll soon find out. I’ll bring some vinyls from Pearl’s, save using the phone. She still has my dad’s and her records somewhere.”
They hear a soft snore emanating from one of the bunks, Tattie knocked out in her uniform. Helen covers her with a blanket with a giggle, holding a finger to her lips to get everyone to shush.
“She’s on to something,” Olive yawns. “I’m knackered.”
“Nah-kurred!” Both Val and Helen tease, Val poking Olive softly on the nose.
“Leave it, Yanks!”
“Oooh! Getting bold now?”
“Yep. Now I know we’re stuck together forever, I can now be totally myself.”
“Good,” Val says, planting a kiss on her cheek as she retires to her own bunk. Olive and Helen follow suit, Olive wrapping herself up in Dougie’s jacket and breathing in his scent, wishing more than anything that he was right there beside her. As she snuffles her nose into the collar, she hears the camera shutter click for the final time that night, Val giggling away as she captures Olive curled up.
“Love you,” Olive whispers.
“Love you more.”
Olive lets herself snuggle up and fall fast asleep in minutes. A deep sleep, the sort of sleep she’s sought after for years, the warmth of it sending her into gentle dreams. Those of a future, a comfortable life with a family by her side. A sense of peace and hope washes over her, praying that everything is finally coming up roses.
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Some fanart / my interpretation of Roo.
I’m really intrigued by this character and what her role’s gonna be in the story (if she’ll be included in Hazbin), so I wanted to try and draw some fanart of her based of the illustration Vivziepop made way back.
It ended up… okay, I guess? There are some things I could’ve changed, but overall I’m pretty happy with how she came out.
#hazbin hotel fanart#hazbin roo#hazbin hotel roo#hazbin hotel#hellaverse#with that… i’m getting some tea and going to bed#peace
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Ok so I was at work today and before I left my mom was like hey we’ll visit you at work today what time do you finish etc etc and she was like ok I’ll text you when we’re on our way and so I go the whole day being like I am waiting for a text from my mother saying that she my dad and my grandma are on their way to the museum and then it gets to the end of my shift and I have received no text so I’m like ok they clearly aren’t coming otherwise they would have let me know so I clock out and leave and ten minutes after my shift ended my mom calls me and is like hey where are you and I’m like hello??? I finished work??? I’m walking back to the car??? And she’s like ok well we are here and I’m like 🧍♂️ ok so I walk back to the museum and I get there and she’s like hey now we can go see the galleries together and I’m like 🧍♂️🧍♂️ girlie last call happened ten minutes ago we cannot go see the galleries because the museum is fully closing in 30 minutes and she’s like oh I didn’t know that and I’m like yeah you should have looked it up?? Or like asked me??? Or like come when I was working my shift because then you can like guarantee that everything is open
Anyways I’m just annoyed and it’s not even that much of an annoying thing I’m just extra annoyed because I’ve had an awful headache all day and I had to do twenty minutes of extra walking around with my parents and my grandma after work when I should have been driving home and listening to a podcast
#bean babbles#also like#my mom was like oh I thought the museum closed at six#like girlie my day either ends at 4:30 or 5:30#you know this#and when im working till 5:30 I have told her before that means that im closing#if I close at 5:30#why would the museum be open till six#AND#she visited the museum a few weeks ago!!!#i told her!!! the time the museum closes!!! so she would have enough time to go through the galleries and see me at the store before#I finished working#anyways im like mildly annoyed at this#and more annoyed because of my headache#but I’m in bed now and my dog has finished attacking me#he gets so excited to see me after work that he like deposits himself on me and licks my face for like#ten solid minutes before he’s like ok im don’t being excited#I need to make some tea and get an Advil I swear to god#OK BYE WE ARE DONE COMPLAINING#COMPLIANING IS OVER
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I haven’t had a night without weird dreams for the past like. 3 weeks. and bug wakes me up at 3 and 6 am for a little snack and then breakfast. yippee
#the dreams are a little better if I go to bed a little stoned. tried drinking some tea before bed last night and instead I just cried#and spiraled until I went and slept in the other bed and watched YouTube until I fell asleep. definitely not at my greatest but hoping#things will get better :’3#also. I’m not a crier so I’m a little freaked out by how much I’ve cried lately
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I actually had such a peaceful Tuesday off. Like, yes I didn’t get out of bed until like 2 & shower until 4 but I took it easy and didn’t put any pressure on myself and just like. Breathed and it was calm and I felt peaceful and just took time to be a quiet little slug.
#idk don’t we all need little slug time#I didn’t do full gross slug like I got out of bed showered put on outside clothes#WENT OUTSIDE#(I went to the local variety shop to pick up yarn and chat to old ladies)#knitted watched series remembered to eat#drank some tea and snuggled up it was just like#good honest quiet time#cub and con were out to see con’s family so I had the house to myself#then they came home they watched xfiles with me for a bit then we put on the glow up#it’s the current show bc ahs freak show isn’t as good as the other seasons so they’ve fallen off a bit#which I don’t mind bc the clown thing is gross sorry#anyway I’ve gone off on a tangent it’s 2am I’m sleepy cub is forcing us to get up early tomorrow to go into town#this village idiot needs her beauty rest thanks besties
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yeah I have more to say
#I think priest was right when he said I wanted a lot and it’s more than I can have bc I’ve taken more than I can handle#I’ve been trying to say yes to things which is all well and good but I’ve been out every night this week between hockey and friends#this week has lasted six months#and at the same time Tuesday was a few hours ago#and at all times there is so much I’m not doing.#as always it’s partially an issue of wasted time bc ive been getting up late and struggling to work in my room#but I also still haven’t recovered from the cold mentally or physically and it put me so behind#which was now two weeks ago god#somehow only two weeks#.but also two fucking weeks that’s so long#and I’m still trying to be gentle w myself but that doesn’t work but i also know I’m being too harsh on myself all the time#I don’t know what to do with any of this#I think temporarily I might stop Doing Things and just have time for me to get myself back together and slow down a bit bc it’s way too much#I think I’m just really horribly overwhelmed by everything and it’s built up to a breaking point#so this weekend I’m not gonna go out and see anyone I’m gonna stay in or go to the library and finish my work#have a goddamn cup of tea before I go to bed#I need to go to the shop and cook at some point but that can be basics for now because as much as I’d like to do the pie thing#maybe leave it until I’m more together so I’m not worried abt Extra things. I think temporary goal is to minimise the number of things#I really want to cry and just have it out but I’m teetering on the like. wanting to cry feeling instead of pushing over#this is a jump but I’m so tired of prioritising everyone else’s feelings#I realised tonight when I’m playing I’m always holding myself back a little to let other people do shit#and it’s not even like I’m holding back bc I’m good. I’m just letting other people do stuff bc I think they deserve it more#and when we had Shit happen I took on talking everyone down and making sure they were all okay#and then that whole weekend after I was completely fucked I couldn’t Do Anything#even with ms main character I’ve been stroking her ego do she doesn’t blow up completely and fuck stuff up for Everyone#maybe. just maybe my feelings are also important and I’m allowed to have shit not be my problem like everyone else#I think I’m going to bed it’s 2:40#I’m gonna try prioritise myself just a little tiny bit more#luke.txt
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While today is a bad brain day & I’m probably not getting a daily drawing done as planned, I’m pretty damn proud of myself for at least doodling something little (or big) every day so far this year. Most showed how rusty I am with the whole process, ESPECIALLY with traditional pen & paper drawing, but hell- I’m trying and it’s more than I’ve been able to wrestle myself into doing for a very long time.
I’ll take this small win & fight for it tooth & claw.
#🎃 cryptid sighting#Rolling this post up like a newspaper to smack the grief back in it’s fuckin’ place#It’s been a rough couple days but I’m trying to be nice to myself because my subconscious sure isn’t#Anxiety also has been going ballistic because of some more health scares in my immediate circle of family & friends (ugh MORE?! :( Enough)#So time to take a breath & recognize my dumb brain loves to be a lying asshole#Tea & a proper dinner & watching something that makes me happy (probably Killer Klowns) & hopefully get to bed earlier#I’m hoping to do a month-long art challenge very soon to put myself out there again (& maybe- GASP -socialize more) so the doodles-#- have been much needed practice! :)#But I think a break is warranted
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#just stumbled back into my flat a few hours ago#after 6 flights (most of them international) in 2 and a half weeks#it’s just me and two suitcases and a huge carry-on back pack#none of which have been unpacked#against the world#and my headache (which I’m blaming for the decision to impulse purchase some Kinto glassware/tea sets)#I love what I do and that I get to travel#but term starts in something like 4 days#and no part of me is ready for that#i need to sleep for a week#instead I’m going to try to do some laundry and unpack and go to the gym and buy some almond milk from the corner grocery#then fall into bed only to feel guilty about not getting enough done over break#and watch a criterion movie or read a novel instead of doing actual work#Cormac McCarthy was one of my Christmas presents and the temptation to dive in is strong#not the stones#me stuff
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Ok I’m complaining in the tags!!!
#today started out so productive and so well#I tidied my room I did laundry I swept I did dishes I took out the rubbish#it was great#I then chilled for the middle part of the day - amazing#lunch time comes round and I want to make tea#so I do but I look into my cup… an ant? in my tea?#I look at the kettle… ants are in the kettle! frick me!#ok some time later it’s time for church. I click the button to open the gate… and it opens to about 80% and stops#.. frick me again. the wheel has something caught in it. try to get it out. not winning#ok get the dogs inside. try to call the gate guy. he’s not picking up. call mom. not picking up#call dad. he picks up. he sends someone. gate gets sorted. it’s too late to go to church#quali is delayed and it ruins my evening#I’m finally settled into bed. I’m scrolling. a shadow passes over my head and I look up. I think it’s a bat#I dive under the covers. but then remember IM HOME ALONE SO I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS SHIT NOW#go on a manhunt. close all doors to rooms where bat isn’t#can’t find bat. I give up and climb back into bed. bat is now a tomorrow problem#WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING TODAY!?#dl
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#I think I’m lonely in a way I can’t fully describe#I have a partner and friends and family but still often feel alone even when I’m with them#I don’t feel close to anyone at times and I don’t know if it’s outside circumstances or just me#like with my partner being asexual we don’t really do certain activities that I’d like to partake in more often and I can’t hold it against#them for how they do/don’t feel but at the same time I’m craving a physical connection I can’t have and am struggling#doesn’t help that I think about sex all the time nowadays and would really like to be having it and experiencing/exploring certain things#it’s not always easy to take care of oneself that way and still also try to console the ace partner apologizing for who they are#and yeah hall passes are great but only if you have someone to use it on and I’ve never had anyone want to be with me sexually#moving on to bestie I don’t feel my same love and affection being reciprocated and that sucks because I really do anything I can for him#and am like that with pretty much all of mt friends where if they need me for something I’ll be there#but a lot of the time it seems like he really only wants to talk/hang out with me if he’s at work and I can come visit with him#any time I invite him to do something with me outside of work he flakes and so it’s not even worth inviting him anymore#and yeah there’s rare times where he’ll call me a bunch in one day but it’s always just to tell me some gossip from work#not that gossip isn’t fun but still don’t you want to jus talk to me? I always want to just talk to you even if it’s about nothing at all#I’m always the one putting myself out there for him and being there for him when he calls me but I almost never get that same response back#and it’s like I know he has a family so I know he can’t always drop everything for me nor would I ever expect that but just some matching of#my energy would be nice you know? but then I feel guilty/selfish because I feel like I shouldn’t ask that of him when he does have a life#away from work. and I mean I guess I do too but it’s different because partner and I don’t have kids and don’t do much aside from sit around#together or have tea or other things most often done at home. and I don’t live with partner full time yet so I also still have other freedom#outside of just being with them. and other responsibilities I take care of but not on the same level as a wife and kids I guess#idk now I just feel like I’m whining but tbh all this stuff is weighing on me and just making me feel really shitty#I don’t know how to fix these issues without sounding like a selfish bitch and I’m obviously not going to cut anyone off but I don’t really#see any other solutions forming either. so it’s like I guess I’ll just keep my mouth shut and keep feeling bad until the end of time since#that’s the easiest thing to do and then no one else is hurt or upset aside from me#I just feel like I’m destined to float through life never getting back what I need from my relationships but still giving everything because#I don’t know any other way to be. I don’t know how to set boundaries even for myself so I’ll just keep giving and giving until I’m dead#and yeah I guess I am still a lot happier than I used to be and I appreciate the people in my life#just sometimes feels like they don’t really appreciate me back is all#so now I have to lay here next to partner and have all this shit running in my mind and try to get over it on my own#reasonably I should just go to bed but the loneliness is gnawing at me and idk what to do to make it go away
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Of course I end up the most annoying level of sick the day I have work!
#I’ve been feeling sick for most of the weekend#going through like most of the symptoms of headache running nice sore throat slight coughing#and muscles being very sore as if in about to be sick#then I head to bed early and wake up today surprisingly alright#as in almost none of those symptoms except being maybe slightly tired in my body#then as I actually try and do stuff#as in just as I put in my contact lenses I get a huge wave of nausea and have to sit still for a minute before moving#so yay for fucking that#bc I couldn’t figure out if it was a one time thing or smt that will happen throughout the day#in the end it kinda kept being there#and I slightly felt like I was about to cry bc I couldn’t figure out what to do#I then realized that I wouldn’t have that reaction if I wasn’t sick and that didn’t bode well for having to work in elder care#if I couldn’t even handle that little problem what also would overwhelm me#anyway I did turn in sick#I’m just writing my whole reasoning here so I don’t have a too bad conscious about it#also with how I was feeling yesterday I would be very surprised if I’m not at least somewhat contagious today#and I felt like if I pressed my body today I’d just have to turn in sick tmr#and I have shifts until Friday so might as well get it over with#me#anyway now to drink a cup of tea and try and sleep some more#I got eight and a half hour so we’ll see how that goes#I was either hoping I’d be totally fine or worse so I avoided this dilemma
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logically I don’t even think I’m doing horribly (the guy training me told the manager I was doing “pretty well” about handling a “mini-rush”) but mentally my mind keeps telling me oh he’s just lying because we keep getting out breaks at the same time and since I’m practically tailing him of course he’s say that to be nice during the only opportunity to speak to the manager. Only since I’m around and can listen in is he saying something nice.
#I keep trying to rush myself because I don’t want to make the customers wait#The first time I grabbed the popcorn myself I didn’t lift it high enough when I turned back around and knocked some onto the counter#Unless someone orders a large popcorn (which is a bucket) I feel like I’m taking too long fumbling trying to open up the bag#And then another TOO LONG scooping it in with the handle in there instead of just scooping the whole tub in there#One time I tried to rush too much and ended up lifting my hand too high and burned it on the popper#Twice actually once on my pinky knuckle and another larger spot on the other side of the back of my palm#One customer specifically I couldn’t understand and asked them to repeat like 5 times#And I could’ve SWORN they said ‘temp’ like I thought they were referring to ME as a temp or something#So I responded like ‘no I’m in training’ like a fucking idiot when it turned out they were asking for a motherfucking cup of water#Of all things.#I still keep getting confused and forgetting that hi-c and lemonade are the same drink#Instead of filling a cup with the proper fountain which is right there right text to the register oh no I turned around and went and got#Team before fixing the order and doing the right thing. And the tea machine has like 3 buttons for different flavored iced teas#So I just pressed a random one too like! Look at this idiot !!!!#Oh god and I still don’t know what’s in what drawer for refills. As in when we run out of cups for the sodas or icees or popcorn buckets#I still don’t understand how to make the popcorn. You press a button to hear it up? Wait until it beeps I think?#Then put it into the popper and let it keep popping even when it beeps again? Until it stops popping then you can pour it out? I think????#Could be completely fuckinb wrong for all I know#I work til past closing hour (cleaning. Roughly until midnight so go to bed around 1-2am) on Friday then have to be in again by 10.30am#Even if I’m lucky that will only be maybe 5 or maaaaaybe 6 hours of sleep. Ending and starting the day the same way wtf man#Why did I apply to a place that’s half an hour drive away when they only pay minimum wage#Why did I think a movie theater job would be manageable for me#Well actually that one I can answer it’s bc I thought I would be put to cleaning (sweeping theaters between shows) not customer service#It’s. Almost 5am now. I feel like my schedule has gotten even WORSE since applying here.
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