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Thinking about rhinedottir as being young when the cataclysm struck
Like yes it’s unrealistic for someone who’s mid 20’s early 30’s to have done so much but. The trauma. Old Rhinedottir would’ve reacted to the cataclysm so much *differently*
I need to see someone who’s basically a child who had the whole weight of a nation thrust upon them and then watched it all break apart. I need to see her think that it was all her fault. None of this could happen if she had the wisdom of someone who isn’t a college student.
I need to see people realize that she’s just this little squiggly baby. Yes she murdered thousands of people but they’re ignoring the humanity in her. She’s still young and innocent in some ways
Need to see people realize that she was forced into the majority of her life decisions. Need to see how control over her environment becomes a vital part of her story.
God please
#I have a thing#about traumatized young people#maybe it’s because I’m not really old#or something#but#it’s like#contrasting#the innocence#of someone who may#actually#have a bit of optimism left#with crushing it all into the dirt#doesn’t hit the same if they’re jaded already#I need to see control freak rhinedottir#who’s like that#cause#she never had control over her life until after the cataclysm#need to see her dealing with the guilt#associated with being a little *happy*#that Khaenri’ah fell#cause of the freedom from duty#feel like she could’ve turned around#and used that guilt#as a driving force#in creating the Teyvat cataclysm#doesn’t know how to deal with her feelings so she projects them onto something else#holy shit there’s a tag limit#shit#rhinedottir#genshin impact
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I’m just saying I think he has a type (Patreon)
#Doodles#Wander Over Yonder#Commander Peepers#Sylvia#Black Eye#I guess technically sort of lol#The implication of ♪ The lead-up to ♫#I read Peepers as bi with a preference towards men and Sylvia his inverse lol#They work well as mlm/wlw solidarity too! Including understanding each other in That Bi Way y'know?#But I do also think that Sylvia is his type haha ♪ All these things can be true at once! Relationships are complex and ever-changing!#I also think it works best one-sided on Peepers' end - Sylvia is busy! And as just stated relationships are complex#Not just in trying to keep a relationship - they do see each other fairly often! - but also in keeping it private to both of their comforts#Being found out by their counterparts would be interesting hehe ♪ Wander would support them of course#Hater would probably be furious even just at knowing Peepers had a crush on her tbh - feeling lonely but also worried about intel haha#He's smart he's not going to go around leaking information like that! If anything he'd probably just be more ruthless to vent his feelings ♫#''Grop-darn Zbornak with her ability to bench me and stomp me into the dirt >O('' lol#The interpretation of him thinking he's sick over thinking he's romantically entangled is so correct#I also like the thought of Sylvia immediately having a repulsion reaction to finding out that Peepers likes her haha#''He WHAT??'' Wander would probably not help in her coming around just infodumping all his good points that she's not interested in lol#But then seeing him being that perfect little mixture of pathetic and competent that Peepers exemplifies <3 What's not to like about him#They have the right dynamic to get close! They have the potential! Fumbling and awkward the whole way but what other way is there hehe#It'd be so fun to watch ♪ What's there is already so fun to watch!
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girl help i have brainrot for my own dnd character and an npc
#penni yeets her thoughts into the void#im just. RAGH. obsessed with her obsessed with both of them#asta#she's SOOOOOO she's everything to me#the girl who was meant to stay home striking out on adventure for her cousin#she just wants to find him. that's all. she misses being sunburned#she misses dirt under her nails and on her knees and sweat from the sun and not adrenaline and fear on the back of her neck#oh and her npc crush bought her a horse#he's so stupid sometimes <3333#i'm. GAH. i'm literally having the time of my life#i love my dm i love my fellow players#i love dnd i love it so much#dnd
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im getting real sick of 'intelligence'
who decided reading books and writing counted as intelligence? who decided that getting high scores on a strict, unfeeling system meant you were better than everybody? who decided that people should be turned into numbers, tie their worth in society into numbers, to compare people on a scale that ultimately does not matter, so that the people who didn't dump everything to perform for it are berated and the people who did end up with nothing?
who decided not reading or writing was a lack of intelligence? who decided that living differently to them was a sign of lower 'societal worth' than those who conformed?
#r slur#and a big rant#in the following tags#this too is just a tool for oppression#but if you had been crushed in the grips of the education system and left limp in the dirt you knew that already#but it's not only a way for society to weed out the 'retards'. it's more than that#let me tell you something#estonia used to be in tribes around the 1000s-1200s or so#a lot of our old historical records were written by someone else#usually christian invaders and other occupying forces who thought we were barbaric and what have you#because we were pagan (especially with Taarapita) and *we did not have a written language*#according to christian-western ideals this means that our population must be like super dumb#and its 'our job' to enlighten them :)#and they did this with anyone who didn't conform.#intelligence has always been a tool to excuse it#so it feels good#so it feels right#You're 'helping' them. enlightening a primitive race#so that they follow Our standards#it's colonialism all the way down#and it still echoes into the modern day. we still see academia as intelligence while we ignore proficiency in other forms#let's not forget the classism of it either. i live in the CEO of classism#working class people are seen as dumber and are thus treated worse because they didn't dump all of their money/future money into#a societally-approved institution like oxford or something#despite the fact that they rely on working class people to operate#or the fact that their booksmarts don't cover years of knowing how to run a corner store#i suppose the general conclusion i want to convey is that we can all do different things well and using a linear scale is bullshit#(and an oppressive tool lol)#people are good at different things and you have to learn to be ok with that#this applies to anything - trades/ crafts/ booksmarts/ spectrums of neurodivergence/ etc
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I like Tuvok canonically having a crush on Noss that he struggles through because it means that something about this stranded spider hunter appealed greatly to him and I want to know what that is
#TV writers don't write (especially female) love interests with much unique personality so I'm extrapolating heavily#I also changed Noss' design to be more alien-y and reflect her situation (stranded for '14 seasons' alone in hostile territory) more#+ Tuvok's hair is slightly grown out bc they've been there for a while#Noss: -covered in sand dirt and a bit of blood- TUVOK found a rock. It reminds me of your prayer stones - you'll accept??#Tuvok: -accepts the rock gratefully- they are not prayer stones. They are for meditation.#Noss: Blood washes off I used it to kill animal for dinner!!! But for you? MANY roots :)#Tuvok: -turning quickly away to still his beating heart- What a cruel trick of the universe stranding me here with this fascinating woman...#Noss & Tuvok having a reciprocated mutual crush on each other but it's never going to happen bc he's married and loyal and loves T'Pel <3#<- This is also more interesting to me in that Tuvok is saying to Tom that it EARNESTLY doesn't matter that#he likes Noss and Noss likes him and he might never see his wife again - he still wants to remain loyal to her.#<- stronger character statement than if Tuvok just doesn't have any feelings for Noss at all#I like Noss' creaky baby voice it's very unique~!! and her stupid haircut <3 GREAT taste in men...kickass name...love ya Noss!!#bea art tag#st voyager#st voyager art#Noss#Tuvok#Tuvok art
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Remind me to at some point do something about that ficlet i have knocking around in my head where ulixes surprise-visits steban at his mom's place during semester break and steban gets extremely flustered about it
#posts by me#this would be early in their friendship#they met each other in the last semester and instantly clicked but it's all still new. uli hasn't even realized he has a crush yet#he's staying with his parents and they're distant and disinterested and he misses talking to his new friend#and hey steban did give him his family's address ''for emergencies'' and urgently needing to talk theory is an emergency!!#so he heads to villalobos. has the door opened by steban's mom. all very yes hello can my friend come out to play#he's led out back to a little community garden that some people in the apartment block manage together#steban's there helping out bc he's on break. he's in his oldest shittiest gardening clothes. there's dirt on his hands#and mud on his bare feet. uli looks at him in the sunlight and thinks ooohh. i am IN LOVE with you#then steban sees him and is like OH NO. he's not supposed to see me without my nice academic getup#now he'll think [mesque stereotype] [mesque stereotype] [mesque stereotype]#and meanwhile uli's thinking wow he is the most beautiful being to ever exist i want to be communist lovers with him#cue uli sitting in the kitchen with lemonade while steban has a whispered argument with his mom outside#all ''muuuums why did you just let him IN HERE i'm not even properly DRESSED'' and his mom is all oh you want to impress the boy huh?#you want to look nice for the boy? 😏#and steban (blushing) is like i want the boy to take me SERIOUSLY as an ACADEMIC#like... this is firstie steban. he's still grappling with the whole 'poor kid in a college environment' thing#he hasn't yet learned to simply own it. he's probably trying to suppress his accent when he's on campus. and uli might even be middle class#(!!!)#and like he's not Ashamed of where he's from. his family's great. he... doesn't Hate being mesque. he's not sure yet how it all squares w#his brand-new communist beliefs. where he belongs and what he defines himself as#but he knows this: he does kinda want to impress ulixes. it just feels right to have him around#so he's just very very flustered and confused and trying to act nonchalant about it#steban's mom after fighting tooth and nail for it eventually gets uli to call her by her first name
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// silvercandle neg
God now that the new eps out im never escaping the silvercandle fanart oh GOD.
(he/she prns 4 candle in the tags!! ↓)
#i dont know how to say this but dude#ive disliked silver for a very very long time#i used to think as time pass#i'd be like “hey! your not so bad.. i guess?” yup that never came#each coming episode i hated him even more dude#as for candle i loved her alot#from the moment i saw her on screen i knew it was so over because he proceeded to be a huge crush of mine for months - a year now.#this isnt the only reason i like her because she has a geniunely interesting character and i like his personality#just wish there was more use of her character besides JUST assisting the male characters. seriously.#he needed more interactions with the other characters imo#also didn't silver absolutely despise candle when they first met? and now he just starts to like her it irks me. you literally#called him a witch#she didn't do shit to you and you still treated her like the dirt you fucking step on#there needs to be a scene where candle should've snapped at him. geniunely he didn't have to be so nice to him#all im saying is that silver is such a dick and they really haven't dont all much to redeem himself#meanwhile when candle breaks off the looney balloonies alliance (aka TRYING TO SAVE HIMSELF FROM ELIMINATION) she gets called a villain#biggest silvercandle neg ever#lord this is so long
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been noodling on syb's herald au for funsies and it really is just "au syb was raised by her dad so now she's evil about it"
#au where she spends 10 years in prison rather than 10 years in the army#(adds extra dimension to her keeping people in cages#first time she sees augustine in 10 years is when he's waiting for her when she's walking out the front gates#and she becomes hopelessly devoted to her baby brother (to make up for not being there all those years to protect him)#yes augustine is in joseph's role in this au#syb uh....syb isn't good enough at free thinking to be a cult leader#she likes following orders#whining wombat#anyway young syb in this au had SUUUUUUUUUUUCH dirtbag vibes#nasty beer stained tanktop. torn jeans that are stained with grease and dirt#cigarette constantly hanging off her lower lip#big old stompy boots good for crushing skulls and a baseball bat#reeking of stale cigs and old beer#she probably had a mullet#and she looked damn good. big 'your daughter calls me daddy' energy
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[I find it neat that whenever Ozy has basically 'given up' on others, it's always reignited by someone with strength of will. It's just something that I've noticed and have thought about from time to time. He's a cold realist and one has to prove him wrong in his thoughts for him to step back and reconsider. He could have bore Arthur ill-will for defeating him and destroying the dream he had planned on seeing come into fruition, but rather than do that, when Arthur needed help dealing with that Beast in Proto Frag, he was one of the Heroic Spirits that aided him. He's not someone who delves into whimsical optimism as he can't afford to do that, thus, he tends to only see what's in front of him. It can take effort for him to see anything else.]
#close friends / romantic interests or lovers have 10x easier time#with melting that cold thinking but anyone can do it#they have to earn a measure of respect from him to be considered though#While others reach out to hope blindly he refuses#he won't do it and see it crushed into the dirt#if he's going to HOPE he has to see the road at the end isn't thorns and dead trees#he has to see that there's life struggling still at the end of it#but only a strong will can make him see this at all#;ooc jabber
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sorry last ooc post before I actually do some writing, but:
it's always very fun to remember that leon's a massive powerhouse. since masters canon is vague about how long he's been the monarch, I choose to take the stance that it's been a similar length as his championship - i.e. around ten years, including the one shown in journeys which took place in his postgame. he first won it at eleven, for context, and lost his title to ash at twenty one
that means that thirteen year old leon, rolling up to the unovan pwt, has been recognised as the single strongest trainer in the world for a minimum of two years. and he's done all that with half of his battling team - drakloak, palpitoad, and charmeleon - not even reaching full evolution
#☆;; headcanons#I will overpower leon. it's what he deserves and also v consistent with his reputation in swsh itself#he's here to crush his opponents into the dirt and establish his spot as number one. he won't accept anything less#also obligatory 'the masters eight isn't an objective measure of strength; but leon is recognised as the strongest out of all who competed'
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happy tuesday!!!!!!!!!!
#rhiannon mcgavin#still one of my all time favorites. the whole poem is SAUR good like. when i was a crush i'd watch you step away downstairs to run this#vaudeville routine but you take the calls next to me now‼ the ribbon paths never kiss only overlap which means nothing really touches – rai#& dirt apron strings the phone nestled between ur neck & shoulder as you look for the pasta strainer ‼ i am enough of you to warrant this#flavor of intimacy these homeward sounds ‼#BUT my fave part is still i wanted you warm and close as fresh laundry and here we are tuesday. of course u love me you're wearing one of#my socks CRAZY TIMES 💥💢🔥💯‼#r.txt#words
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i watched My Neighbor Totoro for the first time, here's my chronological viewing experience:
woo-hoo! dusty old japanese house with japanese architectural details aplenty
these kids got some ENERGY my goodness
family dynamic's adorable. peak quality dad humor
kids: our house is haunted. parents: that's so cool!
hell yeah, wrinkled old lady rep. we need more friendly old women with potato faces and warts like storybook witches. the backbone of society, these ladies
Plot Summary: Small Child Bothers Local Wildlife
sacred tree sacred tree sacred tree
Introducing Totoro! nobody said this fucker's got TEETH???
Uh-Oh! Inadequate Parental Supervision Detected
(you misplaced your four year old! you're not supposed to do that)
4-year-old: i met a magic forest spirit. dad: oh shit fr?
4-year-old: *angrily hugs sister* missed u bitch
this small child has a smile like a toad. like a really really cute toad. like the cutest toad in all existence. i love her she's perfection please just let this child be happy
rice paddies are so pretty....so back breaking....rice is such a prissy crop
*my crush is stranded in a rainstorm* takethisumbrellait'syoursnowBYE *runs away in panic im so good at flirting*
Giant Chinchilla Learns To Hold Umbrella, Is Fucking Delighted By Experience
take this, it will help you on your quest! *hands u trail mix wrapped in a leaf*
LO-FI HIP HOP STUDY LIST!
crouching down to peer at dirt--A++ top notch foundational childhood experience
mom has a big ass forehead
honey! the chinchillas are performing Rituals in the backyard again
help yeah let's jack and the bean stalk this shit
huh so we're all just climbing aboard the giant chinchilla's tiddies now ok
class trip!
the pure adrenaline of Vegetable Gardening
no! the small child is crying! she is bawling her eyes out. no no no. i can't cope with this. emotionally i cannot cope 🥺🥺🥺
i've only had Mei one hour but if anything happens to her i will raze this earth and everyone on it
please someone make this small child smile again
oh no the tall child is crying too
i can't take this. my heart can't take this.
i need a drink
small child running determined to deliver magic veggies to the hospital. this kid is my hero
she is also unsupervised. so, so unsupervised
babe you are FOUR
godDAMMIT ghibli, you cannot give me watercolor sunsets while a small child is missing. u are killing me. my heart is giving out. this is me, experiencing heart failure.
Totoro to the rescue!
no wait CATBUS to the rescue!
i admit i initially thought the cat was a creep. alice in wonderland prejudiced me. i have revised my notions of smiling cats
i've decided the cat is a metaphor for the magic of a robust public transport system
MEI'S OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and so is mom. she's a lovely lady im sorry for what i said about her forehead. it's a noble forehead.
happy ending YES bitch!!!!!!
ok. ok ok ok. that was magical.
(as a first-time adult viewer i was worried i wouldn't be able to Access the Magic. but i could and i did and it was incredible. that was culture. that was ART. joy distilled into animated form. holy rites of childhood. i understand now. how glorious, this world we grow out of. how full of marvels. i'm going outside to smell grass and sun and get dirt under my fingernails. miraculous.)
#mr ghibli please you cannot do this to my heart#totoro#my neighbor totoro#spoilers#?#initially i misspelled Totoro as Tortoro throughout the entire post#i fixed it but dear heavens i was tempted to leave it in. you're WELCOME
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Today is going to be rough for so many people. It's going to be rough for you. There are things you can't change today.
But you can take care of yourself. Eat breakfast, drink water, take a long shower, put on clean clothes/favorite clothes. Checking in on the politics as needed, rather than wallowing in them all day. Put on a comfort movie or show, and watch that for a while. Focus on your job if you have to be there today. Reach out if you need help.
You can also check in on your friends- making sure they have eaten and had water and showered and have something comforting. Reach out if they might need help. The only way out of this is through, and we need each other to get there.
We will have a long fight ahead of us for the next 4 years. We would have had a long fight ahead of us regardless of who won; only the kind of fight would have been different. This is the fight we have: survival and damage control. Not the fight we wanted, but it is what it is, and we're still going to use tooth and nail.
Today is Day 1.
Today is checking with your clerk's office, if you mailed your ballot, to ensure your ballot got counted. Today is weathering the despair. Today is taking care of yourself and checking on your loved ones to make sure they have what they need to weather Day 1 with you.
Tomorrow is resolving to vote in the next local elections to aid in damage control, and planning the next steps.
Survival and damage control.
Hope is not a fragile flower, easily crushed beneath a fascist boot. Hope is a fighter with blood on her knuckles and dirt on her knees, and we are going to help her get back on her feet every time.
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#i fucked up so bad#now i just wait for retribution#so afraid to check my email#i just want time to stop i cant handle all the responsibilities#the stress is crushing me#the failure is crushing me#and i just have to keep going??? no time for rest or recoup or reprieve from shame???#how. how am i supposed to face it. face everyone. face myself.#i panicked myself into inaction. paralysis of nerve and bone and muscle#paralysis of heart and soul and grit. i lay down my determination in the dirt and buried it. i learned to lean on the weak drug of#procrastination. that brief bliss of not thinking about what you should be doing#enhanced by the knowing youre not supposed to be doing it. i buried the grave of my own self respect#threw away my pride and groveled in fear#i begged for my mommy inside of my skull where no one could hear#raged against the inside of my own bones. i couldnt let it out. i couldnt stand it. i cant have anyone look at me.#text it#grad school
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baldurs gate 3 companion headcanons:
- gale talks in his sleep
- astarion once made karlach laugh so hard that she sprayed fire out of her nose
- shadowheart can and will hurt anyone on purpose, but if she accidentally hits someone/steps on their foot she secretly feels REALLY bad about it
- when karlach told gale she hadn’t read a book since primary school he nearly passed out
- wyll is an emotional drunk. he has cried about the stars being beautiful and about how proud he is of his companions
- lae’zel learned her favorite trick from some of the tiefling children: sticking her tongue out at people she hates
- when she thinks everyone is asleep, jaheira sings old lullabies. minsc and wyll are the only ones who have heard, but they don’t say anything because they don’t want her to stop
- the children love to put flowers in halsin’s hair. he loves it too, and will return the favor if they ask. he once did it to an unenthusiastic astarion, who ended up secretly liking it
- minsc takes the BEST care of his nails. boo’s too, obviously. he has let yenna paint them once or twice
- everyone has a lowkey crush on wyll
- when no one is looking, astarion likes to feed and pet scratch and the owlbear, making comments about how they’re the cutest ones there (besides him) and no one gets him like they do
- karlach asked wyll for dance lessons. she never quite gets the hang of it, but she has fun, and wyll is proud of her
- astarion and shadowheart pretend to hate each other, but gossip about everyone else when they’re not looking
- everyone actually really enjoys gale’s cooking but they’d rather die than admit that
- girls night: shadowheart and lae’zel are at each other’s throats with daggers. karlach is passed out on the floor. jaheira is drinking all the ale she can find. everything’s on fire. the next day they look back on this fondly
- boys night: halsin and gale are laying on the ground to look at the stars, stoned out of their minds. wyll and astarion are pouring their hearts out to each other. minsc and boo are making dirt castles. the next day they pretend none of it happened
#bg3#baldurs gate 3#astarion ancunin#shadowheart#lae'zel#karlach cliffgate#wyll ravengard#halsin#jaheira#minsc#gale dekarios#guys I’m in so deep. I finally get all the hype for this game#anyway pls enjoy I had fun doing these#my post
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Going back to Zag's romantic relationships from Mel is extremely hilarious to me because of how comparatively well-adjusted he was.
Sure he done fucked up with Meg in the past and they had to kill each other as part of the job description, his sudden leaving seriously hurt Than while also having communication issues w/ each other, and there's the matter of Dusa being a lowly servant of the House. But in the end, he sorted everything out with 0 grievances from all parties involved (that one dialogue where Than admits Meg is the one who tells him to finally pursue Zag seriously warms my heart). Got the Mom(s) Seal of Approval™ even, and from Achilles too!
Meanwhile I look at Melinoë and she has a frankly criminal amount of situationships. Her rizz level is insane and she goes straight for the throat when flirting yet somehow her dating life is simultaneously a mess and nonexistent. Nemesis regularly kicks her into the dirt verbally AND physically but is the only person to acknowledge how fucked up it is that Mel is sent out alone in the hopes of killing an all powerful Titan that took SIX gods to kill in the past. "Fuck you and fuck your stupid frog in particular" then turns around and gives free Death Defiances. Her and Moros try to flirt with each other but they kept missing the mark because sometimes one of them says something totally unhinged like it was normal (I don't think watching people die is an appropriate bathtime conversation topic, my man). Her and Eris are a hot mess—literally with all those rounds she shot at Mel AND without a basis of workplace professionalism. Icarus is one shot nerve away from accidentally proclaiming his undying (literally) love to her but his guilt complex is hanging on to that nerve. And then there's Arachne and her not so little crush warring with the fact that said crush is family with and is helping the gods who cursed her.
Never have I realized how important it is that Zag has become a minor god of relationship counselling until I look at his baby sister and think, "yeah girl you definitely need help for all that shit".
#ksatalks#hades 2#hades 2 spoilers#hades game#girl you're a fucking mess (affectionate)#can't wait to see how all of this will blow up when we can max out relationship gauges#melinoë#melinoë hades#zagreus hades#megzagthan#melnem#melmor#meleris#waxwitch#is there a ship name for mel/arachne yet?#too many characters to tag so i will not lmao
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