#wirth makes me cry

[mellow-mewow]

Wirth deserves hugs and comfort 😭❤️

(Yes,another hands self-insert art hehe)

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Orter Madl Headcanon Dump Part 1

IT'S FINALLY HERE. REJOICE. SAND MAN MAN ME A SAND MANSAND. GIF CREDIT ONCE MORE TO @fallinblossoms

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Orter Madl

Height: 5'9/177cm

Age: 23

Birthdate: November 10th

Sign: Scorpio

Gender: Cisgender(?).

Pronouns: He/Him

Sexuality: Aroace

• Where oh where to begin with this man's issues. For starters, "functional" alcoholic. While he does not drink on the job(he has some standards), he does go bar hopping quite frequently after work. Oh you think he has everything together? HA. No, absolutely not.

• His desk and office at work is perfectly contained, neat and orderly but good GOD his home is a NIGHTMARE. Stacks of books, paperwork, bottles of booze both empty and not. Take out containers. Sorry girlies he is peak burnout male living space.

• He does not have a favorite food. If anything, his ideal food is a flavorless nutrition brick that has all the required vitamins and sustenance a human needs to survive. Alas no restaurant has been able to accommodate his request.

• Gifted child syndrome no doubt. My man has undiagnosed autism that was not addressed cause he was the favorite and it has put a strain on his relationships with his family. He's not good speaking terms with his father but will attend gatherings out of obligation(and on the low chance to see Wirth).

• Speaking of Wirth. Orter is a bit of a brocon? Not to the extent of Lance. He struggles to try and reconnect with his younger brother and has been making attempts but both of these idiots are so emotionally constipated that it takes outside intervention for them to finally make up. From there Orter just, cannot say no to Wirth. Like he's trying to make up for lost time. Feels like daggers digging straight into his heart when Wirth gets upset with him because he's lowkey afraid of becoming estranged again. Their relationship is getting better though, although Wirth now wishes Orter would stop being such a helicopter parent all of a sudden.

• As for relationships romantically? No, absolutely not. Nope, no, nada. Nah man. Any time his coworkers try to invite him to a date mixer he peace fades into sand and leaves. Any time his father tries to set him up with a potential spouse suddenly he has so much work to do. He doesn't get it. He doesn't understand. It's a hassle and he wishes people would leave him alone about it.

• Terrible with kids. Has no idea how to handle a crying child. Probably the one who made the kid cry in the first place because his Resting Bitch Face is so intimidating. No one is happy.

• Sometimes forgets to sleep/eat whenever he's caught up in work or in a good book. The other DVs sometimes place lunches on his desk for this reason.

• In terms of closeness with the other Divine Visonaries. He is on friendly(as friendly as Orter can really be) terms with Ryoh and Kaldo, is amicable with Rayne, Sophina and Tsurara, neutral with Agito and very much dislikes Renatus(the feeling is mutual).

[mistysimpingandspam]

dwayne NSFW primal headcanons 🩸

•i personally headcanon dwayne to be a primal through and through. he LOVES being the primal predator, and loves nothing more than to see his prey helpless and completely fucking his.

•one big part of his primal play is his strength and height. he loves being physically bigger than you (i know billy wirth is like 6’ but i personally imagine dwayne as like 6’7 bc size kink LMAO) and being much stronger than you. dwayne loves folding you, holding you against the wall, holding your thighs around his waist, and just overall picking you up and throwing you over his shoulder if he damn well wanted to.

•hear me out with this one: dwayne’s a growler, and i’m not talking cringey fuck boy from tiktok growl, im talking inhuman, guttural, deep growls that literally sound like a wolf. he’ll snarl a bit too, but that’s also completely inhuman. some of the hottest and scariest shit you’ll ever hear.

•a biter. if you’re sensitive to biting like ya author, you’ll need to be verbal with him and set a boundary when he uses his fangs, because if you let him, he’s easily piercing skin. all of our vampy boys are biters, but when dwayne gets in that headspace, honey, you got a big storm coming.

•even though he likes his partner to be submissive, he likes when they bite and scratch back. he likes a bit of a fight from his prey, and loves the feeling of your nails raking down his back while he fucks the absolute shit out of you.

•brutal pace, once given consent while in his headspace. i’m talking bruised cervix, unable to walk, and sore the next day. he lasts a while already, so you’ll be in for a long, incredibly rough fucking. hates to admit it, but seeing you cry from overstimulation only makes him harder.

•likes grappling as foreplay. the two of you will literally be on the floor wrestling in your underwear, and he gets incredibly into it. this isn’t play fighting, this is all serious. will literally pin you face down and grind your cheek against the hard floor with one hand on the back of your head while the other holds your hands behind your back. he’ll occasionally growl or grunt if you get a sudden upper hand on him, but scarily enough, he’s nearly silent the entire time. however, he loves to hear your yelps and shrieks when he suddenly flips you or pushes you against the ground. if you’re okay with it, he’ll even put you in a headlock to take over you, but after a lot of reassurance and a lot of asking if it’s okay. when he has you pinned, this is when he takes his time to bite. whatever skin is exposed, he’s sinking his teeth into just to establish dominance.

•A+ aftercare when he’s been in that primal headspace of his; you’ll need it. you’re going to be sore and unable to walk easily, not to mention probably recovering from subspace, so he tucks you in, gets you a snack, water, a stuffed animal if needed and painkillers, then slides into bed with you to help you drink your water and get all of the cuddles, with praises, playing with hair, face caresses, forehead kisses, and head pats.



[juanabaloo]

one day i'll learn to make gifs but until then you get this little unhinged BTVS rant (with bonus pieces of other people's gifs).

ep: 3x19 choices - Faith is fully aligned with the Mayor and in her spiral. But she hasn't killed Prof. Lester Wirth yet, that's not until 3x21.

AND THEN THIS!

ep: 6x21 Two to Go - Willow stole magic powers from Rack and is in her spiral. She killed Warren in 6x20 Villains and has JUST killed Rack.

"It's way too late," said casually and cheerfully versus "I promise it's not too late," said with such aching hope. How Faith lashes back at Willow for hurting her. How Willow lashes back at Dawn for (inadvertently) hurting her. More script quotes below the cut if you want this to gnaw on your brain.

ep: 3x19 choices - Faith is fully aligned with the Mayor and in her spiral. But she hasn't killed Prof. Lester Wirth yet, that's not until 3x21.

"Check out the bookworm." "Faith!" [Willow is surprised] "Anyone with brains, anyone who knew what was going to happen to her, would try to claw her way out of this place. But you, you just can't stop Nancy Drewing, can you? Guess now you know too much and that kinda just naturally leads to killing."

"Faith, wait. I want to talk to you." "Oh yeah? Give me the speech again, please. [Faith is sarcastic here.] Faith, we're still your friends. We can help you. It's not too late." "It's way too late. [Willow says this quickly, calmly, cheerfully, casually.] You know, it didn't have to be this way."

[Faith's smile fades, she retracts, very very slightly.]

"But you made your choice. I know you had a tough life. [Faith is back to smirking.] I know that some people think you had a lot of bad breaks. Well, boo hoo! Poor you. You know, you had a lot more in your life than some people. [Faith studies Willow here, considering her violent options.] I mean, you had friends in your life like Buffy. Now you have no one. You were a Slayer and now you're nothing. You're just a big selfish, worthless waste."

[Faith punches Willow in the jaw and she falls to the ground.]

"You hurt me, I hurt you. I'm just a little more efficient."

[Faith pulls her knife on Willow. It seems like Faith might actually kill Willow, but The Mayor interrupts.]

COMPARE TO

ep: 6x21 Two to Go - Willow stole magic powers from Rack and is in her spiral. She killed Warren in 6x20 Villains and has JUST killed Rack. "Dawnie, what are you doing here? 'Cause if you're looking for me? Now's not a great time." "You look terrible." "Do I?"

... "I have to go." [Dawn is nervous]

[Dawn moves to the door but Willow appears blocking her way. Dawn cries out, definitely scared.]

"Why? So you can run and tell Buffy?" "Willow … please, just listen to me." "You don't have to talk. Just think real loud. I can hear you."

[Willow advances menacingly.]

"You're freaking me out." "Oh, don't be like that. I'm just a little wired. And I have some things to do. I thought if anybody'd understand - " "I miss Tara, too! But this? [Something plays over Willow's face. I think she pauses for a second, she feels the pain a little more.] What you're doing here? This is not the way to go! You're only going to make things worse! [Willow studies Dawn, considering her options. I think she steels herself for what she plans to do, resigned to it.] But I promise, it's not too late to - "

[Willow proceeds to be very cruel to Dawn. She hurts Dawn with her words, efficiently.]

"You miss her?" "Yes." "Did you cry? [Dawn is shocked.] Of course you did. I get that. I understand the crying, you cry because you're human. But you weren't always." "Yes, I was." "No, please. You're telling me you don't remember? You used to be some … mystic ball of energy. Maybe that's why you're crying all the time, Dawnie. 'Cause you don't belong here."

[Willow continues, taunting Dawn and mocking her, super cruel.]

[Willow backs Dawn into a wall. It seems like Willow might actually kill Dawn, but Buffy interrupts.]

Gifsets of some of this, both by starryeyesxx ep: 3 x 19 choices ep: 6 x 21 two to go

I think S6 Willow is eons scarier than S3 Faith, but Faith could have killed Willow with her knife, maybe. I think Faith is super glad The Mayor interrupted so she doesn't have to decide. Good doggie Faith (affectionate). I think Willow wanted to hurt Dawn, and then as she got going she thought death by Buffy was an OK option, and what better way to ensure death by Buffy than killing Dawn?

Also later in 6x21 Willow says, "I've got big party plans." Just like Faith in 3x10 Amends!

[razielwritesstuff]

Obey Me! Headcannons ~

I have never and will never hide that I dislike Luci

BUT

I do have thoughts

This man is just constantly sipping a caffeinated beverage he needs it to deal with these mfs

He's a single mother of all 6 of his brothers

I think all demons have sharp teeth. His are the least sharp of the brothers and he is PISSED ABT IT TGURBODFK

Fav song is probably by Mozart. Basic ass.

I discussed how the om! chars would deal wirth being in mlp (pls dont ask) and Luci and Luna give me an evil grinch smile

I feel like he'd curse when angry

Idk.

Gay ass

Smells like pine trees or something

I think he'd have a fear of mascots

Like. character mascots.

Don't ask me okay

Smells like axe bodyspray and SADNESS

Am I WRONG????

We all love mammon but that man.... we know he uses axe...

Befriends the local crows.

There is so many he could be carried off

They all give him shiny shit to sell

Did everyone remember how he's canonically a model

He's attractive. Canonically.

Anyways, second-sharpest teeth of the bros

This is cannon (TO ME) but Mammon is just attached to MC like glue

"STOP FOLLOWING ME!!" "LET GO OF MY HAND THEN????"

He once tried to steal and sell some of leviathan's games

The cast took a while to come off :)

Fav song is something CUNTY ik it

Most girlypop aside from asmo (YTO ME!!!!)

He's great :D

He is so trans to me as a transmasc.

He has a main twitter and an alt twitter. Nobody knows abt the alt so he uses it to doxx ppl he doesn't like

I love Leviathan but I swear to God I don’t think he knows what deodorant is

“man for a guy who sleeps in a bathtub you really have no concept of hygiene”

How many Henrys has he had??? who tf knows.

Fav animal is SNAKES

Loves pokemon. his fav would be gyarados

He will assume anything except romantic intentions at all times

Autistic. As approved by my friend with the 'tism

He would be a brony

Lovable but a Bit Cringe

Has tied Mammon to a chair and forced him to watch stuff before

EXPERT at pirating shit

Would play Undertale.

Speedrunner !!

Would spend like the better part of a month to discover EVERY SINGLE glitch, bug, and exploit in a game to use it to is advantage

Has a sims 4 cc folder that's like 80 terabytes

He's my malewife and he's everything to me.

Would make a shiny living dex on every single Pokémon game

He has multiple cardboard cutouts of his waifus

Satan has an Ao3 account. He writes exclusively on his fav characters

His Ao3 tag has something to do with Sherlock Holmes fight me

He tweets in perfect grammar

He'd kill over a board game

Would cry over a cute cat video

WARRIOR CATS NERD

HE'S COME UP WITH WARRIOR NAMES FOR EVERYONE HE KNOWS AND THE CAT HE THINKS IS MOST SIMILAR

Lucifer got assigned as Tigerclaw LMAO

He would get into Leviathan's fandoms but only bc Leviathan forced him. He comes out liking the thing.

His favorite disney movie would be Aristocats

Loves Luigi

He became a cat person specifically because Lucifer is a dog person

He'd also be a brony

The one that can analyze media properly

His brothers use him to spellcheck their essays

He either watches video essays on YouTube or he makes them

Likes reading about witchkraft from the human realm, he finds it interesting

The one that taught Leviathan to make cardboard cutouts

Knows about 50 stray cats and has named them all

Constantly brags about how he has sharper teeth than Lucifer

Smells like a different scented candle every week

Has that stereotypical gay accent

He's zesty

He's girlypop but we all knew that

Listens to Ayesha Erotica

Goes like "GIRL you would NOT believe what Solomon did!!"

He spills all the tea all the time

King shit

He'd wear a dress in a heartbeat and he'd ROCK IT

He would cry over broken nails but not because of the pain it might cause, only because it looks ugly asf now

"I NEED TO CRY BUT MY MAKEUP WAS 40 GRIMM"

The one who painted everyone's nails

Will threaten you in order to paint your nails, but he will do a color you like

King at make up

Absolutely loves Ru Paul

Keeps trying to get Dia to set up a drag race, he's unsuccessful as of now

Strawberry is his favorite flavor

He's very physically affectionate but would absolutely respect boundaries i will kill you if you think otherwise

He would HYPE. YOU. UP.

Has gum on him 24/7

Also has tampons on him so he can give them to the homies who need them (like Leviathan)

IDK man I didn't used to like him that much but he's grown on me

VERY GOOD COOK because of course he is

Loves giving piggyback rides

Tall enough and beefy enough for you to sit on his shoulders

Would also let Belph sleep on his shoulders

He's a golden retriever. We knew this.

Surprisingly good at Just Dance

Not a dog person not a cat person but a secret third thing (he thinks cows are adorable)

Always spares bugs and spiders when he finds them

Cannot watch cooking shows, he's tried to eat the TV before

Loves going to movie theaters, will pay just for the overpriced popcorn

You can tell he genuinely loves you if he shares his food

Like he shares his food with MC and all the brothers are like "W. WHAT??"

Would INSIST you look great no matter what you look like

You will cuddle with him and Belph this is an Order

Smells like food-scented deodorant

He would be too scared to roughhouse with anyone, boy is too strong

Likes just picking people up and carrying them off

He's done this with Satan once and it actually calmed him down

Favorite show is Bluey probably

Favorite animal is a maned wolf or something

Would kill for a klondike bar

Sharpest teeth out of the brothers + bites as a love language

Every time he bites Leviathan it results in Leviathan squealing higher than able to be heard by humankind

Talks in his sleep. It is adorable thank you for asking!

Smells like Lavendar, vanilla deodorant, and a little bit of "hasn't showered in 2 days" hidden underneath

Drinks a lot of milk

Blueberry is his favorite flavor

Lucid dreams a lot

He does not believe dreams have meanings his are always either incomprehensible or if they did have menains have ones he really doesnt like

Would drink monster energy but he hates the taste of caffeine (he just like me forreal)

Gummies are his favorite snack

He gives off trans energy but i honest to diavolo can't tell if he's transfem or transmasc or neither i CANT TELL

He's girly pop in his own unique way

His DDD's ringtone is Emo Boy by Ayesha Erotica

He's neurodivergent to me i just dont know how

Chews on everything for sensory reasons

Spoiled. Because he's the youngest sibling ofc he is

Every time he drinks hot cocoa he puts marshmallows in it

He considers "barging into your room and scooching you over in your bed to cuddle" a sleepover

Alternatively he'll get Beel to bring you to their room

Hey everyone remember how he's canonically a yandere-

Anyways he's cool :)

[randomalistic]

my favorite moment in Tarzan (1999) was when he said this line... (sniff) his delivery in that scene was incredible....

SOLID MOVIE honestly, with a few really exceptional moments and jaw dropping animation. (tumblr cant handle this gif so here's a still image of said animation.)

THE CONTINUOUS MOVING SHOTS WHERE HE SLIDES THROUGH THE TREES ARE PHENOMENAL TO MY EYES. It also has a very strong musical identity, although it peaks in the first 20-30 minutes. The plot is sort of predictable and generic after that, which isn't a BAD THING... It just goes from like. A tier to B tier. (this is the only rating system my brain understands anymore.) But yeah! It's a decent movie all around.👍

but omfg the scenes of Tarzan with his adoptive mother Kala (who already lost her own son...) made me cry on two separate occasions. I was getting disability allegory vibes from it, like "people may treat you differently, and you may feel like something is wrong with you, but you are alive just like me and you will always be worthy of my unconditional love." i just need a second ok

(this scene can't be summed up in pictures) Part of me wishes this movie put more focus on her in the later half because she was easily the strongest character, but it wanted to do the Jane romance thing. (But i will say the scene where they touched hands had great parallels to this moment with his mother)

This scene was also exceptional (this is where i cried the second time.) Although Kala obviously should've told Tarzan he was human much sooner, I don't think she could bring herself to because she was afraid of losing another son. She is genuinely such an interesting character with so much inner conflict, probably equal to/if not more than Tarzan himself. I wish they spent a little more time on her struggles along with his.

Full picture it's reminiscent of the jungle book in a way, except this movie chose the route of "The Wild Boy Stay In the Junjle AND THIS TIME THE LOVE INTEREST STAYS WIRTH HIM because THE APE LIFE CHOSE HER and shes also a bit freaky like that" My favorite part was when there was birds.

It was also fun to see Clayton's gruesome death in full outside of Top 10 Darkest Disney Villain Death compilations by WatchMojo. I love how he brought it upon himself... which is often the pattern with these but damn it does not get old. It being just his shadow is not only clever censorship but it makes it all the more chilling. Reminds me of that Luigi's Mansion glitch everyone freaked out about lol

anyeays yeah goofy best friend with a boston accent and silly elephant had a bit more screentime than I was Desiring but a disney movie's gotta have its comedic relief I GUES. although i did like them a little. JUST LESS COMPELLING.

[autism-disco]

literally give me EVERY detail im hyperfixated on this

okokokokok so. hhhghhh where do i start

first of all my favourite bit is romeo's "top surgery" it's incredible i love it. the ABBA lyric chapter titles are real fun as well

ok and now the what the fuck why would you do this why would you hurt them and me in this way. i barely even know caroline and i'm so invested in how things are gonna go for her i feel so bad for her like the when she's looking at the photographs,,, ggfhgehfh

oh i loved the mailman thats wirth saying! i swear to god if you hurt the postman i will scream and cry and writhe and explode

i miss may :( and francois :( and angelique :( and caroline being happy :( and frank despite him being a kinda awful person :( and everyone else :(

i do have to say the writing's really good in general but specifically in terms of making you feel connected to all of the characters!! like i don't know some of these folks that well if at all but i'm still invested in them and their well-being

i don't know if you're gonna go there but i'd be really interested to hear more about what richard was saying before. well. i don't remember what he said exactly but like something about scientists doing things? and also the general world as well, there's a lot that i can kinda headcanon like what fucking atrocities occured in town B to make them resort to no names so that people don't get attached.

hjhuhhh im forgetting my thoughts now but the consensus is i enjoyed it i will keep myself updated, very good job

[ansbobcar]

Must afk from tumblr but the lack of wirth x oc or wirth x reader headcanons is making me cry TwT

[hurt-and-comfort-me-please]

Sleepless (Civil War Era Accurate) TW Hallucinations, Gore, Exhaustion, Death

Cecelia could hardly see straight anymore. She cleaned her spectacles over and over but the blurriness never ceased. The arches of her feet were on fire, every step as if she was stepping on broken glass. Her hands shook, skin chapped and raw from washing and surgery.

It was hard to comprehend, more and more patients were being wheeled into the church, the number must have grown to hundreds. Screams and crying echoed off the walls, the air smelled of metallic blood.

The church hall was packed wall to wall with soldiers, what was a death rattle and what was a groan of pain was beginning to blur. Cecelia stumbled down the middle row, weaving between stretchers and other nurses. She got up to the front, and was immediately handed the end of a stretcher to carry to a bed.

The stretcher carried a young man, maybe about 20, the poor thing had just had his leg amputated and had passed out from shock. Cecelia helped carry the man to one of the few open beds, pulling him onto it and checking his wounds. His stump leg was properly bandaged up thankfully, only a little blood seeping through the white bandages.

"Miss?"

Cecelia looked up at the man, but found him still unconscious. At that, a wave of feverish heat washed over her, her head feeling light. She gripped the side of the bed to steady herself, the walls swaying around her.

"Rach mne, iv dau shud," One of her coworkers said,

"What?" Cecelia asked,

"Ve munay nshut wirth his," she sighed,

"I'm sorry, I can't hear you," Cecelia rubbed between her eyes, focusing extra hard on her coworker's voice,

"The money isn't worth this."

Cecelia turned around, her fellow nurses were tending to their patients, their faces became obscured, features melting together until she couldn't recognize them.

The only thing that brought her attention back to focus was the sound of crying from the bed she was leaning on.

"Hello, sir." She stood up, putting on her bedside manner and ignoring the pounding in her head, "Are you feeling alright?"

"It hurts.." He cried, too weak to move much,

"I'm sure it does, is there anything I can do to make you more comfortable?" She said, trying to focus her vision on his face. His scared, tear-stricken face. He too started to morph into something unrecognizable as a human, as if Cecelia were dreaming.

"Stay here, please," he begged, "Don't leave me!"

Partially relieved, Cecelia sat down on the side of his bed, taking his shaking hand in hers. The room was spinning.

"You're going to be just fine, soldier," Cecelia sighed, "I'm not going anywhere."

Slowly his weeping calmed, the adrenaline wore off and he fell into a restless sleep. It was the only thing Cecelia envied him for.

[yuumatsu]

Just thoughts on finding what I want to be

To be honest, I still feel sadness deep inside of me

I am not sure why but maybe it's because I still feel unaccepted and distant and like I am weird, my emotions and interests and feelings are wrong (not all but still) and like they're too much

And I feel resentment to my family and relatives that they express they thoughts and feelings without filter while also hurting me or other members, seems like they don't think about that at all

I am trying to filter my feelings and emotions, trying not to hurt them or step on things that trigger them, because I don't want to quarell with them, as I know they don't want to hear some stuff (that I feel is truth about them) and only get angry with me or blame it all on me reading psychology and etc. Though they are partly interested in this theme, I know it might make them feel bitter to talk about old wounds and traumas, and they are denying it and tryiing to run away from this (by rationalilzing it or comparing it to the wirth things or being toxicly positive?). That's how I see it.

That's why I just listen to them and accept it. If asked about my opinion I give it (but I am rarely asked ig, they just want to be heard and proved that their opinion is ultimately the right one , for the most part. That's why I often would feel like I am the deficient one and sth is wrong with me). And now, knowing that and understanding that I just feel sorry for them, but everybody has their own coping mechanisms and their past wasn't a bright one indeed.

Now, that I learned these things (and i know i have plenty of other things to learn) and partly healed that part of me, I realised that I feel distant from them, though i felt it before, it feels more distinctly now. That makes me sad and though I want to belong, I feel barrier.

And to be honest I don't really like it. As I feel it with many others too. I am trying to find relatable things to talk about or idk anything, but I can't pretend and just to talk for the sake of talking, it's fun indeed but it's energy consuming for me, I don't see a point in it. I also can't talk to people I don't find interesting or connected with.

Recently I met a freind, and with her I really enjoy spending time with and now that we are away and can't meet (though we don't meet that often anyway) I kind of miss her. That's a new feeling for me. And with her I can talk about anything (mundane and not as much stuff) it feels, and we understand each other. I am really grateful for her.

For a long time I didn't accpet myself evenand I really wished to disappear from this world, but I didn't want it to be futile so I imagined falling from a cliff and turning into billions of ligth balls (particles?) that fly around Earth and bring comfort to people or I wished to turn into some kind of a guardian (like a tooth fairy or sand man etc). That made sense. To sum it up, I wanted to be some kinf og light that brings comfort to people, that listens to them, accepts them by just being there (being present). No words, just being there by their side. Today I was thinking about it and it reminded me of being some kind of deity, to whose temple people come to seek internal peace, comfort, compassion, acceptance. A place where they can cry as much as they want (cry their heart out), where they can sit all day if they need a break from this world. Something like that. And then, when they are ready, they'll venture into the world with replenished energy and feeling better.

So maybe this is the kind of art I want to create? (The temples being my art). But wouldn't it be sad to only have this type of energy in a temple?

I think I want to be more like Jesus. Many people came to him and received unconditional love and forgiveness (I think I need to learn more about his words and teachings). Even in death he spread love and compassion in this world. But if I am like that, it makes me feel a bit blocked from my human nature. I am not sure why, but His image feel loving, peaceful, wise, compassionate, like he realtes to people and is close to them somehow. In this picture I can't see a person dancing or making funny faces and having fun in general. And I don't think I can refuse that carefree and funny part of me (wouldn't that mean that I don't accept thise version of me?)

So I want to embody both parts in me and my art to express them freely and unapologetically. I realize that the being funny and weird part is the reflection of my family's words on how they judge people based ont that, but I also know that that's cuz they don't fully accept themselves and embrace their true power, but again that's how I see it. Who am I to decide which way a person chooses to go and who he\she wants to be?

We all have free will and choose for ourselves what to do or what to be, so long as this decision it's not influenced by others (in a negative way), it's the way of us and we can always alternate it a bit or go sideways or do a shortcut (but int his perspective it's the part of the way so there isn't really a shortcut ig)

So I'll keep on expessing what matters to me in my art and only through time and art itself, it'll clear how people feel about it, relate to it and what it evokes in them

I thank myself and my higherself, spirits and everybbody concerned for making me "me", and helping me to go on, because I don't feel like going back to where I have been mentally, though I am grateful for this experiences for forming my personality and leading me to where I am know (though I am not sure where exactly haha). I love you all and look up to you, I know you are alway here and in everyone on this earth to some extent, but I still struggle with fully embracing this thought, at least I am aware of it. Thank you for opeing my eyes, I love you <3

[lostboysluvr]

smoothed out some clips of some cute vamps

[carpisuns]

IM IN DESPERATE NEED OF YOUR HELP!!!! I'm looking for a drawing of Chat Blanc.

(I will make this as specific as possible)

In the drawing, you only see his face, from mid shoulder. He's crying and he's looking at something that's may be on the sky? The thing that I remember most is that his hair and body (or suit) blends in with the background, which is white.

He's looking up, crying, sad and he blends in the white background. Have you seen a drawing like this?!

I think is either from buggachat or you but I can't find it. And I just have the desperate feeling that I need to find it. Can somebody PLEASE help me?

Hmm the only thing that I can think of off the top of my head is this drawing by @j-wirth for her Instagram DTIYS

If that’s not it, I’m sorry I couldn’t help! I’d you think I reblogged it, you could check my #chat blanc tag? Or if anyone else has an idea, feel free to link it here.

[msookyspooky]

for the ask game… all of the lost boys! (maybe also including michael and star) 🖤

Okay, nice!! Thank you bby 🥰🖤

David

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

Yeah....He looks identical to my Uncle when he was younger. Mullet, cig behind the ear, jacket, asshole attitude, smug smirk you want to smack off his face and all. Their faces are ALMOST identical. Like, me and my uncle both have my grandfathers nose and jawline if you can see it in my pics and say "Oh I see it" and just...No. Lol, so get that one outta the way! There's a picture somewhere of me on his lap crying as a toddler because he told me there was something outside my window going to eat me. Guess what? Mullet, jacket, asshole smirk, shades on while I'm terrified and he's laughing his ass off. I grew up with David as an uncle whether I liked it or not. He was a fucker and got joy out of scaring the shit out of us kids lolol. So those headcanons of David being the cause of a child crying in some situations are true. 💯

Dwayne

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

He could just stare at me like that, tell me to do something and I will be doing it gladly. Yes Sir. Whatever you say 🧎‍♀️😏 He was my crush at 12 he's my crush at 25. Billy Wirth is so fucking good looking and he's even hotter with fangs. Not to mention his vibe would instantly draw me to him like wow 💫 Okay, I'd let him suck the soul out of me 😳...I mean my blood.

Marko

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

I don't find him attractive in a hot way but he's a cutie. (I'd probably fold if his lil impish self came on strong flirting with me tho. Ngl.)

Paul

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

You know, he used to not be my type at all but I'll admit the older I get the more I love his character and could definitely see myself falling for him. Like, I just know he is a blast to hang with and is probably the sweetest one of the bunch. Dwayne may be more my type sexyally but Paul's personality would probably win me over the most. And he really is pretty, like seriously, pretty 💖

Michael

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

He is so attractive. He might be a dumbass himbo half way through the film but he's hot and that makes up for it. Prettiest blue eyes and that jawline and hair 😍

Star

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY

She is BEAUTIFUL!! Like, when I was younger and still not sure I was bi I didn't know if I wanted to be her or be with her...Both. Even personality wise like yes please lets hold hands and dance with flowy skirts on the beach at night 🌌💜

[lavander-yarn]

1,2,6,8,9,10,14,16,22,24,27,31 <3 🦋🦋

1. 3 things i wish for: security for all my loved ones/ to create opportunities for the next months/ to rebound with people from college.

2. 3 movies i have rewatched too many times: my own private idaho/ almost famous/ thanks for sharing.

6. 3 characters that inspire you: Wirth and Greg from over the garden wall / Faye Wong in chungking express

8. 3 shows i never get bored of: Malcolm in the middle is the only one 🤭

9. 3 things i like doing on a rainy day: staying home/ put comfy clothes to keep the warm/ share the day if somebody is at home too.

10. 3 things i like to eat with coffee: spicy breakfast/ bread (we have a wide variety here) / molletes <- ✨

14. 3 professions i would like to try: arts teacher/ radio host/ professional musician, perhaps a jazz one.

16. 3 drinks i consume the most: chamomille tea/ lemongrass tea/ coffee.

22. 3 movies/ books/ tv shows that made me cry: Ulisses gaze/ the tales of princess kaguya/ that book about waiting (i don't remember the name rn, and it's also in spanish).

24. 3 places that make me feel peaceful: my rooftop even if it is ugly/ returning home/ sitting in the sofa next to my mom.

27. 3 things i wish to do more often: to ride my bike/ to draw like i used to/ to stop many worries that are inside my heart.

31. 3 types of flowers i love the most: the type of floral trees like jacarandas, bugambilias, peach trees, because i'm allergic to the kind of flowers you put in a vase at home, so i prefer to enjoy them in the enviroment.

🖤🤍🖤🤍🖤🤍

Thank you Chuck

🖤🤍🖤🤍🖤🤍

[inupibaldspot]

Saviour : Chapter 22

Emilia sat on her bed and looked at her sword, a silver sword with a few blue orbs on the handle.

It was still surprising that Zack gave her such an important item to her.

*Knock knock *

"Emilia~ I'm coming in." Zack said as he then pushed the door open. He looked at the girl, who was no longer the tiny brat he first saw. She was growing taller and often teased him about catching up to him, and between you and Zack he was scared that she will grow taller than him. She also lost most of her baby fats. But one thing which always remained same was...

"Your hair is still a chaos isn't it?" Zack laughed making Emilia pout.

The girl brought her hands on her hair and glared. "Its not my fault that my hair is super wavy at the ends."

"Hahahahha" Zack laughed, crossing his arms on his chest. "I'm sure if the Devil Fruit users touch your hair it'll make them weak since it reminds them of waves."

Emilia placed the sword on her bed and she stood up as she continued glaring, hands made into a fist. "Claire told me my hair is pretty." She fought back.

"That because Claire always had a bad taste." The older main continued to tease the young girl, who was slowly turning red in frustration.

Hearing that Emilia smirked. "I can see that." She huffed,placing her hands on her hips. "Especially since she choose you as her fianceé."

Even though Zack growled, inside he was quite happy. It still made his heart beat faster with joy knowing he would marry Claire. After much hesitation and pushes from Emilia, he finally proposed. You have no idea how much he cried when she said 'yes'.

"Anyways.." the girl said. "Did you come in my room to tease me?" She questioned,smiling softly.

"No..." Zack said as she walked towards her and sat on her bed. "Its finally tomorrow...your test."

"Yes." Emilia nodded. "I may end up with you guys or Vice Admiral Tsuru's team."

"Oh yeahhh.." Zack sweat dropped. Vice-Admiral Tsuru's team always consisted of women plus the older women showed interest in Emilia when she previously came on the ship to have a talk with Garp. "But I hope you will join us"

"Oya! Emilia exclaimed." Are you getting sentimental now?" Emilia teased. Before she smiled softly.

"But I guess.. I hope that too."

....

"You will under go only two tests"  The instructor said.

Emilia looked around. There were probably around 100 people on the field but undoubtedly she was the youngest.

People around her sneered and others smirked in confidence when she saw her. Why was this tiny girl who didnt even look like she was in her teens doing here. Emilia didnt like this at all. She clenched her fist keeping her emotions in check. I'll show them.

"The first test involves running. You will be running around this field 5 time which totals up to 15 kilometres." The instructor said as he pointed at the field behind him. "Within 45 minutes. Failure to do accomplish that will lead to direct elimination."

This made people gasp. This task was totally close to impossible! But that the same time who ones who do complete it show that they are not normal.

"Second round is simply to check your strength. Here people will fight against each other until only one person remains."  In other words,its just like a tournament. "There are two reasons for this. One is to simply eliminate people who are fast but have no strength even though usually people who are also fast are also strong. Other is to see where you will be placed. The First half of Grand Line or  The New World."

"Is there any questions?"  The instructor asked. "If not we will begin shortly."

"Excuse me!"  A voice started making all the examines including Emilia turn towards the voice. There stood a middle aged man,on hand in the air. "Are small kids even allowed to enter the test?"

Emilia's eyes twitched as the man turned towards her , lips pulled into a smirk.

The examiner understanding what the examinee was implying turned his head towards Emilia and nodded in assurances. "As long as the examinee is 13 or older, its fine. Personally I believe in the end age still doesn't matter much as long as you have the strength,skill or intelligence."

"But~ " The examinee continued,in a singing voice. "That girl doesn't even look like she is 10. I mean look at how small she is!" The comments made people around him laugh,some even adding remarks of their own.

Having enough Emilia turned towards the man with a glare. The examinee still smirking "Oh is the baby mad? Are you going to cry? Make sure you-"

"Enough!"  The examiner interrupted. "If you continue with this useless talk we may ask you to leave. If that is clear we will begin. You now may go towards there." He pointed towards the corner of the fields where a white line was drawn on the ground.

"Ready?" Another examine shouted in a loud voice. "GO!"

Emilia ran and she did not mess around. Covering her legs in haki she sprinted and leaving all other examinee to dust and with no surprise ended up completing the task first, will 30 minutes more to spare.

And as petty as it may sound she sat near the finish line, giving a smug smile at the examinee who made fun of her.

Soon the other examinee crossed the line one by one and completed trail. Of 100 examines now only 32 remained.

After that everyone was separated into a duo, each match examined by one examiner marine.

"Remember we won't intervene unless one of the participants say "give up" or unless we see injuries which might kill you. We are here to select only the strong, be it physically or mentally."

All of Emilia's match was short, all those training in Goa Kingdom plus the hard training of Garp's and Bogard's for the past 4 years made her strong than she already was.

"I give up!"

Emilia stood up, leaving the man below her on the ground and then looked towards the man who made fun of her earlier. The man was mercilessly kicking and stomping the guy who was given no chance to utter the  words 'give up'.

And this made Emilia frown.

....

"Okay! The last two remaining are Kusota" Emilia finally knew that bastard's name " and Emilia.Now...Start!"

Immediately Emilia jumped back making sure there was a distance between them. "Before we actually start fighting, I have a question." Emilia said carefully assessing the man's movements so that he would not be able to do any surprise attacks.

"What is it?" The man smirked,hands brought up placing on his hips. He was underestimating her!

"Your previous opponents." Emilia started. "Why were you making them suffer so much? You made sure they could not talk by breaking their jaws so they could not surrender. Then you proceeded to beat them up until you got bored."

Emilia then hardened her arms and legs using haki as the man walked towards her in a slow pace. "I can't imagine a guy like you being a marine."

And at once the man sped up, surprising Emilia and punched at her directing at her face. Fortunately the girl brought her hand up blocking with with her haki.

"Because if you are a marine you got power." The man whispered so that the conversation could only be heard by the two of them. "When power you are able to do anything. And with my strength I'm pretty confident I will be achieve a high rank."

Emilia felt uncomfortable, very uncomfortable with how the man in front of her was. He seemed to ooze out evil and malice.

"And when that happens, I'll be rich and have any woman I want. Of course not because of my pay but rather other things...you know" The man smirked. "Through kidnapping, human trafficking and ra-"

Emilia threw a punch but then Kusota dodged it. Then man continued to speak. "And you know I'll never be arrested. Why? Because I'll have the power and can call off any search and silence any suspicions."

Emilia ran in front of him swiftly and before be could react she jumped and kicked his face.

The blow made the man fly making the people watching gasps.

"You little shit!" The man shouted as he propped himself up. His nose was bleeding, it probably broke. "You know what?! I'll start by beating you to pulp" he shouted, as wobbled standing up.

His ego was definitely hurt.

"And when this is all over. I'll go after the people you care about next." Kusota said,hand wiping the blood of his nose. "And do all those things to them and make sure you will never see or hear from them again." He hissed.

People I care about?  Emilia thought. He mind immediately went to Luffy ,Ace, Makino, Dadan, Claire and Zack.

To those people who have nothing but kind to her.

Her eyes narrowed. And seeing the girl react to his taunts, the man started laughing. "HAHAHA How you like that now?! You-"

But before he could even finish his sentence Emilia was literally in front of him.

"Wha-"

Emilia then directly brought her hands up and punched him on his jaws making him fall down from the impact. "If I remember correctly that's how you dislocated the jaws right?" The girl spoke coldly.

"Strup oup!!!" The man tried speaking but words weren't coming out correct confirming that his jaws were indeed dislocated.

Emilia walked towards the fallen man and kicked him on his stomach making the man throw up blood. She tilted her head. "Huh? I thought you were going to beat me to pulp"

"I'll kirl you!!" The man continued dispute his injury. "I'll marke sure do kirll evryon asroticated wirth you tdo!!!"

Emilia mind went to Sabo. Her precious friend was killed. And now if she let go of this man here, he might do the same to others.... to Luffy and Ace. This man was strong, even Blue Jam didn't seem much of a threat compared to him.

This man had the power to kill Luffy and Ace.

And she might not be there by their saide to protect them due to her marine duties.

Emilia's eyes narrowed furthered and walked towards him.  This ...this man is  a threat,that means she should kill him right now !

" Candidate Emilia" The marine watching shouted. "The match is over. Candidate Kusota might die if you continue."

"Shut up..." Emilia said in a soft voice. And immediately after that other candidates and also some examinee immediately fell down. The girl used conquers haki!

Standing near the man, Emilia kick him making him now lie on his stomach. She won't let Sabo's incident repeat! She wont let any of the people precious to her get killed, even if it means killing other people.

Sitting near the guy, she held the man's hand and pulled it backwards immediately making a breaking sound.

"Ahhhh!" The man shouted in pain. "please..please.. please stop! I'll do anything-" The man stopped.

Emilia then held his other hand. "Huh? But that wasn't what you said to me earlier"

"Candidate Emilia. I repeat! Stop immediately. Forget passing the test you will be placed behind bars!" An examiner who was on the ground shouted,still a bit too weak to stand up.

Emilia did hear him but choose to ignore him. She grabbed his hands ,with intentions of breaking them , when suddenly a presence came near her immediately and held her hand.

Emilia stopped immediately. Not because she wanted to but because she could sense the level in between the person and her were far too wide.

"Admiral Akainu!"

"Medics!" The examiner called and a group of people in marine uniform came rushing in directly towards Kusota. Emilia simply stood up and gave space for the medic. In front for great power she had no choice but to be docile.

One of the examiner stood up and walked towards Akainu and saluted. "What brings the Admiral here?"

Akainu turned his head and looked at Emilia making her eyes widened in recognition. This man...this man is the one who will be killing Ace..!

" I came here to recruit her on the team." Akainu simply said. Emilia stood there in shock. She could attack him right her, right now!... but then it wont be of any use since she is far too weak.

"I apologize." The examiner said. "But seeing what had happened in front of us, we wont be able to pass candidate Emilia.She ignored all of our warnings and almost killed a candidate"

"She knocked out almost every one here and right now she is simply a child." Akainu said. "She has the potential to get stronger and will be a wonderful asset to the marine in the future. I say we should pass her."

The examiner clenched his fist. This girl is far too dangerous "But-"

"I said." Akainu's voice thundered as everything went silent. "We will pass her. Make sure she is assigned to my team."

With that the man turn and walked away.

....

Emilia walked back to Garp's ship ,head held down. Even though she didn't look , she could feel the people of the ship stare at her return. There was no doubt they were informed of Emilia's action.

"Emilia-" Garp said faking a smile, noticing the girls angered expression. He could lecture her later because right now the girl didn't look like she would want to deal with any of that.

"I'm sorry, Garp-san." The girl said in a low voice and bowed towards Garp in apology. "I want to be alone for a bit." With that she walked away towards her room.

No one spoke for a whole before Zack started walking towards Emilia's room. "I'll talk with her,Vice admiral."

Zack stood in front of her room and took in a deep inhale,knocked and walked inside. He looked at the girl who still had her head down and then closed the door behind him.

"The man you attacked-" Zack said. The girl in front noticeably stiffened uncomfortably. "He didn't die. But then on of his arms will no longer be functional. He might also not be able to talk properly ever again." Zack explained, looking at Emilia with a sad expression.

She must be feeling guilty. Zack's thoughts were immediately stopped when he saw the girls shoulder shake. She was crying  "Emilia calm down-"

"Hahahhaha" the girl laughed. "That's what he deserves.."

Zack took a step back. "What do you mean...The man almost died because of you."

Emilia finally raised her head. "That man was evil...He had no right to be a marine."

"But you were about to be the same thing... You would have killed someone if Admiral Akainu didn't intervene." Zack repeated his point again.

"Maybe he shouldn't have intervened."

When Emilia said those words,something within Zack finally snapped. " We are talking about a human life here, Emilia!"

Emilia's eyes widened. This was the first time she had seen Zack shout.

"You can't take life for granted. And if you do kill a person, even if that person is evil, or you belong in the marine, where we have to serve justice... Once you kill someone you are simply a murderer !  You're hands will forever be dyed red."

"Then what was I supposed to do?!" The young girl shouted back. "Was I simply going to accept that man. That man who was already telling his motives of human trafficking! Rape! And corruption?!"

"Should I have just let that happen...? " Emilia let out an shaky exhale. "He threatened to kill people...people who are precious to me..."

Zack watched as Emilia's eyes filled with tears. This girl...She..

"He threatened that he would kill Ace...Luffy and Grandpa ... Dadan and Makino..." Zack didn't know most of the names being said but he guessed those were the people she cared for.

"He threatened to kill Claire." Emilia noticed that she now started crying. "And you, Zack!!  I couldn't let that pass.. I don't want to lose anyone precious to me anymore..!"

Anymore... Zack registered those words , his head hanging low.

Zack walked slowly towards the girl. She was scared..  She was afraid and didn't know how to deal with the situation... She just didn't want to lose anyone..

Zack then kneeled down and pulled Emilia into a hug. "Its fine... No one will hurt anyone of us now..I'm fine...it's fine.."

Zack continued to hug Emilia, The girl slowly lifted her hands then on his shirt then slowly holding it tightly as sobs slowly started turning into wailing.

She was just scared...and confused.

[stsgooo]

i keep seeing the “bucky killed riley” hc on my twitter feed how do you feel about that

very kool idea for some angst.

The horror didn't set in until the recording ended. The pure guilt and shame set in way before that, who knows if it ever left? The tears in both their eyes, the ones that streamed freely down Sam's cheeks and the ones Bucky kept in his eyes. He didn't deserve to cry, he did this to Sam, his only friend and he hurt him.

This was all too much like Siberia and Bucky feared that Sam would finally kill him like Stark meant to. Bucky would welcome death with open arms if it meant Sam got a sense of relief. If it meant Bucky wouldn't have to see him be resentful towards him for the rest of his life. Moments like theae made Bucky question death, would it be kind? Would God forgive him for the awful sins he committed? Or would Satan be his best friend? Bucky would like the latter but he knew which one was his true fate.

Sam's brown eyes slowly lifted from the screen, the static illuminated his face. Bucky would only describe his expression as pure horror, pure shock. Bucky shook his head slowly, his voice soft and comforting, "Sam--"

The air grew still as Sam drew his gun and pointed it to Bucky's head. Bucky's eyes widened and Sam glared, both men feeling similar things but for different reasons.

"S-Sam, listen, man--"

"Shut up, Barnes!" Sam growled.

Zemo grinned devilish from his spot, this is what he had wanted. Yet again Zemo would break a friendship. It was almost too easy, how easily these people could break away. How much they didn't trust each other.

"You-You took Riley from me," Sam whispered feverishly. "I trusted you."

Bucky's lip wobbled, shaking his head. "Sam, I swear I didn't mean to. I didn't mean to." Sam didn't respond but Bucky knew what he wanted to do. "If killing me would make you feel better, do it. Just know, I'm so sorry."

Sam stared into his eyes, whispering, "Duck."

Bucky frowned but complied and the gun went off. A body hit the floor but it wasn't Bucky's , Zemo wirthed on the ground in pain, cradling his shoulder. Bucky looked over to Zemo in shock, then at Sam. Sam threw the gun away and rushed towards Bucky.

"You ok man? He didn't do anything, right?" Bucky didn't say anything, just stared at Sam. "Bucky?"

"You didn't shoot me." Bucky mumbled. "Why didn't you shoot me?"

Sam took a moment. "It wasn't you."