#why does this make me so insane for him idk idk

[atlas-ghoul-account]

Home Safe.

Warnings: swiss leaves, discussions of ocd, mentionings of touching wood, talk of food, food anxiety (whether it is safe to eat, intrusive thoughts surrounding food), intrusive thoughts about safety of others, hand washing, dry skin because of hand washing (idk i'm just saying everything just in case)

Notes: So this is a bit more of ocd phantom, credit of ocd phantom still lies with @littlemoon-beam lol, I just borrowed it to project some of the stuff I do. That being said, whilst this is my experience of ocd traits/tendencies, if you see anything that isn't quite written write please reach out!

Also also: I can't remember who said it, but I've borrowed the headcanon that Swiss goes back to the ministry to help Aether in the infirmary.

Phantom's ocd gets worse now that Swiss is gone. Now that he's no longer touring, Phantom can no longer make sure he's okay, he can't check on him. He usually knows he's okay, he can just look over and check. And there Swiss would be, looking at him like he was insane as the young quintessence ghoul pokes his head into his bunk to stare at him for a second before leaving. But now he can't do that, because Swiss has gone back to the ministry.

And Phantom knows he can't phone him every time he gets an intrusive thought about him. He knows that, but he wants to. Because then he knows he's safe. And he just wants to know that Swiss is safe.

The compulsions don't take long to start creeping in.

After the Birmingham ritual, when Swiss announces that Aether needs him in the infirmary, Phantom freezes. This can't be real, it can't because Swiss is his lifeline. He's the only thing that keeps him from spiralling out of control, the only sense of normalcy that he can latch onto whilst on tour.

They don't have long to say goodbye, because it isn't really a goodbye after all, but a see you later. Although, that doesn't mean it hurts any less. And almost everyone else has known Swiss longer than him, so Phantom thinks they deserve spending longer with him. So he holds back, no matter how much it hurts. It makes sense to Phantom at least, he probably didn't matter as much to Swiss as the others he had known for years.

"See you later, Ant," Swiss whispers, "Call me anytime." Phantom gives a small nod.

"See you later," He whispers, not able to stop himself from thinking that perhaps he should be going to help at the infirmary instead. He was a quintessence ghoul after all. A small part of his brain told him that actually, Swiss' quintessence, whilst not his main element, was stronger than his. That Phantom wasn't good enough with his quintessence to help.

That night, when he's alone in his bunk, listening to the world go past, his skin crawls. He can't sleep, too scared that if he does something might happen to Swiss. Or he wakes up and the other ghouls are gone too. Or Perpetua, human's are rather fragile after all.

'He won't make it home safe unless you touch wood.' His mind calls out to him. Phantom knows it's irrational, he knows. But why take that risk? Why risk Swiss? He doesn't have to question it before he's tapping wood in his sequence.

Three times, which he repeats another three times. Before repeating it one final time.

Although, it does little to resolve the anxiety, if he's being honest. Instead, he slides out of his bunk, creeping across the bus to Swiss' bunk. He slides in, pulling the curtain closed behind him. It was the closest thing he could get to Swiss. It would have to do.

The rest of the ghouls notice small differences in the coming days. The young quint ghoul looking unsure before doing certain things - things he hadn't questioned in a long time.

Hand washing became more frequent, worried that the germs on his hands would make the other ghouls, or Papa ill. Then they'd have to go back to the ministry, and that would be another friend he'd had to tour without. He didn't think he could do that. Naturally, it didn't take long for his hands to dry out, for his knuckles to start splitting. It made playing harder, more painful. But he couldn't stop himself from washing them, he couldn't risk them like that. Besides, the split skin didn't hurt too much.

The safety of food start cause anxiety in his chest. It wasn't that he didn't trust the other ghouls, they cooked for him all the time. But with the spike in anxiety and the small spiral downwards, he was finding it more and more difficult to ignore the doubt. What if a fly landed on it? What if they didn't wash their hands properly? Can food be left out of the fridge for that long? This is definitely cooked, right? Does this look pink?

The doubts were endless. He tried to ignore them, instead, combatting the thought with a small touch of the table wood. In the short term, it cleared his fears. He touched wood, so despite however irrational it was, it would still mean he would be okay if he ate it.

It doesn't take long for the ghouls to text Swiss, to ask for advice. They feel guilty, knowing that Aether, Omega, and now Swiss were absolutely swamped in the infirmary, but they really don't know how to help the quint.

[callizinc]

HELLOOOO CALLI, I hope you are having a good day!!! :D

I just wanted to talk about something I found, a supposedly cut piece of dialogue, from the purge event.... and I feel so bad and conflicted cause the person I got this from doesn't seem to want attention/interaction, so I'm choosing to not link the post itself, WHICH FEELS SO BAD TO NOT GIVE CREDIT, but idk what to do..... but anywayse

It's this:

Um. Ummmmm

Girl.....

"Everything hurts"??

"I'm doomed to suffer work after work for the rest of my life LET ME OUT OF HERE"????????

UM. GIRLIE.....

Like. Does she just. Not have a choice?? She said this is her destiny. Is she like. Maybe like a. Worker drone?? Cursed to forever toil (beyond death itself, as the watchers have said.... hmmmmm)??? Is this just her god forsaken purpose?

The post also mentions this dude:

(Which, curiously, they mentioned that this pose kinda mirrors ENA being stuck in the cubes at the end.... hmmm)

And like. If you talk to him in the auction area at the end, he also mentions that he was 'born with a purpose' and 'a disturbing relief is now in front of him', implying he's finally. Free.. or something..... IDK!!!

ITS JUST.

THIS IS SO INTERESTING... WHAT IS GOING ON WITH YOU ENAUR......

This could also mean not that much, seeing as this is cut dialogue after all, but idk. It does certainly seem to line up with the rest of the game in the end. And, well.... maybe it's just a commentary on how, as existential as it sounds, we ourselves are ALSO doomed to work forever in some sort of way if we want to survive... hashtag Capitalism, but. Idk. It just makes me so sad, dude. Why is ENA seemingly cursed to not be allowed any rest or happiness or joy or salvation ever 😭 SAVE MY GIRL!!!!!

(OK FIRST HFJGSKFDG. HI I did have a good day :] Thank you for the wishes and i hope yours is/was good too :D)

OK. SEEING THIS WHOLE THING IN MY INBOX. WAS LIKE RECEIVING A GIFT OF A COMICALLY LARGE RAINBOW SWIRLY LOLLIPOP. I GENUINELY HAVE NEVER SEEN THIS DIALOGUE BEFORE, And obviously, still take it with a grain of salt, as i know you have too Cause it's literally not actually in the game: BUT STILL. ...STILL.

THIS IS FUCKING. CRAZY. I feel like even if these lines aren't actually "canon" they still really encapsulate the Torment Nexus she is fucking going through in such a cool way... For example, only breaking down and showing any sign of weakness in a place where she's Supposed to let loose and relax because she just Can't Fathom that she'd ever be able to Do that...

BUT THIS IS FASCINATING BECAUSE LIKE... IN HER ACTUAL PURGE DIALOGUE, SHE NEVER ACTUALLY... ACKNOWLEDGES THAT SHE'S SUFFERING? IF THAT MAKES SENSE? Like "i can't afford another minute of joy" Still makes me crazy and so on, and all that other stuff too, But none of it actually shows her saying that she's in any bad type of way at all. Rather that she just... Really shouldn't be in that place. 😭😭And then in this dialogue she straight up just says that she's fucking doomed LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNNNNNNNNNNN????????????????????????????????????

(Maybe that's why this was cut/changed? to portray a slightly different version or mindset for her character, but. Shrug. No way of knowing either way and it doesn't matter i'm just #Twisted)

THAT CONNECTION WITH THE BUILDING GUY IS ALSO FUCKING CRAZY BUT I CAN TOTALLY SEE IT. I saw his dialogue for the first time in my last run and was... Flabbergasted 😭Soon i wanna go back and make a post on wtf he says and you will be the first one invited to it ok ....

AND. NO YEAH; I doubt knowing this text Exists will affect anything in the later game, but you're so right that it certainly lines up with the rest of the game, so i still find it fun and interesting—AND INSANE. I agree that it is absolutely continuing the rest of the game's commentary on #Capitalism and #SocietyBad But i am going to stop myself there because if i start talking about that theme i;ll never fucking stop.

FREE ENA!!!!!!!! FREE MY GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!! GIRL WHAT THE FUCK HAS HAPPENED TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[willowser]

i think katsuki just answers his phone by barking out, "bakugou." no hello, probably doesn't even look at the caller id LOL when he hears it's you, though, i think he breathes out the tension he didn't realize was coiled in his shoulders, and says a lil, "hey," 🥺🥺

and i think when he calls you, and you answer with your sweet, "helloooo ??" he is so soft 😌 just mumbles out a quiet, "what'chu doin'?" and listens as you tell him, before saying what he needed to 😌

[xxplastic-cubexx]

erik will genuinely jump at any chance he can to steal charles' last name and be so catty about it i know this for a fact WHAT is his deal

[Magneto (2011)]

[lotus-pear]

finally started p5 royal ‼️‼️‼️‼️

expect some royal trio art soon they are my dearly beloveds (minus akechi i hope he dies in this reality too)

[sweetlullabyebye]

Confession attempt n°1 dearly beloved (scene under the cut)

[nico-fanatic]

me when nico is only ever portrayed as a loser idiot edge lord who can’t do anything as if he hasn’t repertory proven to be very intelligent, insanely strong and capable, and perfectly able to fight for himself

me when nico is flanderized by the fandom AND the fucking author

[ihamtmus]

it's weird how jhope is Right There and he's like the Most Talented Person but some armys just. don't see him. should be studied

[marsbotz]

i ship inhun in a way that differwnt and more swagful than anyone else btw.

[lqcb97]

[the-casbah-way]

i found loads of pictures of my uncle i am going 2 cry

[stone-stars]

a lot of people goof about murph being a hardass dm who tells his players no a lot, but like… he’s not, really. if his players are trying to make a creative move, to bend the rules to do something interesting, and even sometimes pull some goofs he will 100% work with them and even let them do extra things.

it’s just he draws the line at looney tunes bullshit, and sometimes the line isn’t even a hard line it’s “roll 2 nat 20s right now”

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I can't stop thinking about Orpheus and Eurydice...

[totaleclipse573]

Thought about Starleon for too long LET ME OUT

[schrodingers-romy]

I feel like the world's most petty little bitch <- blocked someone who had an annoying opinion abt a character I like

[silouvertongues]

gotta get up early for class tomorrow im so sleepy but i suddenly felt the urge to calculate how much money's been spent on my post secondary education till now and i literally feel nauseous