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Babes... I'm crying... Neil Gaiman this is your fault 😭❤️🩹
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#dc why are you making me cry#go away dc#go away#don’t mind me#i’m just crying#crying is an understatement#i’m bawling my eyes out#why does this keep happening#why do i do this to myself#dc#batman#bruce wayne#gotham#batman and robin#alfred pennyworth#thomas x martha#thomas wayne#martha wayne#the wayne family#the waynes#little brucie wayne#young bruce wayne#comic#dc comics
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They just don't practise therapy like they used to...
#What compelled me to make this?#I don't care if I was late to the meme#it's peak#art#little nightmares#ln#the sounds of nightmares#tson#noone tson#comic#tson noone#noone#noone ln#the sounds of nightmares noone#otto tson#tson otto#the sounds of nightmares otto#otto ln#ln otto#ln noone#little nightmares otto#little nightmares noone#the ferryman little nightmares#the ferryman ln#the counsellor ln#tson the counsellor#queen never cry#meme#shitpost#why do I torture myself with these endless tags?
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Lambert loving public display of affections but never being able to reveal their relationship with Narinder, their King...
Lambert itching to hold Narinder's hand, hell, going so far to be daring to even just touch shoulder to shoulder but Narinder pulling away...
He reciprocates when they are alone but...
And the two dont even talk about what their relationship is...
Oh Im feeling faint someone hold me like in a victorian painting of a women learning bad news and dramaticly falling
#homophobia and transphobia doesnt exist in this world#because i know worse ways to convey these emotions#oh im making myself cry again#ouuuouugghhhghj#😭😭😭😭😭#aychama talks#narilamb#cotl narilamb#why do i do this to myself#why do i love angst so much
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It honestly makes me cry how Padmé in her dying moments and as she’s giving birth was aching and yearning for Anakin to be by her side. Just as Vader was in anguish and pain, and longing to see Padmé, to know if she’s safe.
In the last scene where she’s giving birth she’s in such a haze due to labor, and in such a state of “heartbreak” that she doesn’t recognize her surroundings and doesn’t even realize that people were beside her because she’s so focused on Anakin (+giving birth ofc) we see it clearly in the ROTS novel
We see here that OW is holding onto Padmé’s hand which he described as being “still and cold” clearly her lack of strength from giving birth, but also because she’s heartbroken and is somewhat becoming numb (as she dies 💔) she’s not at all responsive nor does she react to human contact. Then we see that she’s clearly muddled and completely unaware of her surroundings as it describes that her “eyes rolled blindly” and yet, she’s still thinking of Anakin (as she’s giving birth) when she says what the gender of the baby was, and that Anakin thinks it’s a girl, so Padmé thinks so as well.
Then, despite her lack of strength and motivation, we see Padmé pick up all the strength she has left to reach up to her newborn son, Luke.
After she’s given birth, again all of Padmé’s thoughts just round back to her aching and yearning for Anakin. Once again, not even aware of her surroundings or even able to hear anyone in her vicinity due to how heartbroken she is over losing her husband and this precious moment with him (the birth of their babies) OW clearly tells Padmé that Anakin isn’t there when Padmé calls out to him, yet she can’t hear him, Padmé continues to constantly call out to him, telling him she loves him, and that she’s sorry for the misunderstanding that happened between them (even though absolutely NONE of it was her fault.)
Then we come to this part where it reveals that Padmé with the same hand she touched her new born babies with, was actually clutching onto the Japor Snippet that Anakin had given her this entire time she was giving birth. Part of me believes she was holding onto it as a substitute for Anakin’s hand, hence why she was in such a daze, unable to recognize anyone around her, and kept calling out to Anakin. She desperately wanted him by her side, and holding onto the Japor Snippet was like a solace for her.
It was only in the last minute where the novel describes her eyes to have finally cleared for only a moment, and she recognized OW, and even in that last moment of hers, her thoughts are of only Anakin. And of her undying, unwavering faith, trust, and love for him. Telling OW with full conviction that there is still good inside the man she loves, and she’s putting the very proof of it into his palms 💔
OW shows Yoda the Japor Snippet Padmé put into his hand, and Yoda can immediately tell right away that it was a possession that was precious to Padmé, and that she must’ve cherished it a lot. He suggests that she should be buried with it, and OW taps into the Force at that moment and can also feel the “soaring echos” of the love shared between Anakin and Padmé to which he describes as “transcendent love” and can also feel what he describes as “a bleak, black despair of an unendurable heartbreak” (clearly referring to Padmé.) He agrees that Padmé should also be buried with the Japor Snippet, so that Padmé can at least go away in peace, with a remnant of the man she truly, deeply, loved, still with her.
#star wars#anidala#padmé amidala#anakin skywalker#sw novels#revenge of the sith novelization#meta#padmé study#why do i make myself cry?#i just wanted to emphasize how much losing anakin broke padmé#and how even in her last moments all she wanted was him#how much her yearning and aching for him reflects vader’s anguish and pain over finding out she had died
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DO YOU KNOW WHAT WE NEED???!!????!!!?
A series (or even a book) that follows Padmé from when she learns she’s pregnant to like idk when she finds out Anakin’s back on Coruscant. Like I’m pretty sure Natalie Portman said in a relatively recent interview she’d be happy to return to Star Wars if they asked her to!
Make this series show more of her work in the Senate. Show her planting seeds of the rebellion (we were robbed when Lucas deleted those scenes from ROTS). Show her thinking of baby names and getting excited about being a mother. Show her fretting over Anakin’s safety. Of course include Anidala crumbs- them on holocalls, talking about anything and everything (and Anakin mentioning how Rex is helping him secure these calls with her 🥰🥰🥰). Show Padmé debating over telling Anakin she’s pregnant, and ultimately deciding not to- knowing it would distract him during battles and thus endanger him. Have her come this close 👌to telling him when he mentions something about wanting to start a family with her. Show Padmé interacting with her handmaidens more. Give Padmé a mission and show that even while pregnant she’s still a badass. Let her visit Naboo, and her family. OMG- show Palpatine noticing/sensing something is off with Padmé, eventually realising she is pregnant, then devising his plan to use this information to turn Anakin to the dark side.
I would DIE if we got this series. I miss live-action Padmé sm. Please, please, PLEASE Lucasfilm log onto Tumblr, find this post or other ones like it and decide to use our ideas. I’m begging 😭😭😭
(And in an end-credits scene show a newly suited Anakin visiting Padmé’s mausoleum, pouring his heart out to her and their ‘baby’, leaving flowers on her sarcophagus, literally being the biggest emotional mess in the galaxy. Then, after he slowly says something so heart wrenching- i.e. your love could’ve saved me…but I didn’t listen, I would take your place even if it meant losing you, I thought I became strong enough to save you, but maybe love is what would’ve saved you, idk still working on this bit- and after he walks away, the camera zooms out and shows a flower falling off the sarcophagus, or something like that 👀)
Sigh.
#padmé amidala#anidala#anakin skywalker#anakin x padme#padme amidala#star wars#anakin and padmé#padme naberrie#skyberrie#anakin and padme#animé#panakin#please please im begging#senator padme amidala#padme skywalker#why do i do this to myself#darth vader#padmé naberrie#padme deserved better#padmé skywalker#crying rn#maybe I should make a fanfic
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more Duvet brain rot! Gotta have a lie at the ready when you time travel to take care of your literal inner child 🐇
and a bonus
#carpetbug art#miraculous#miraculous ladybug#ml#miraculous fanart#bunny!chloe#chloe bourgeois#chloe#duvet#duvet: what I do in my burrow is my business and no one elses#ladybug: ITS A LITERAL FUCKING TIME MACHINE WHY WOULD THAT NOT BE OUR BUSINESS#you can really see i gave up on the last two panels <3 i love and hate drawing this shit is both awesome and so dumb at the same time#anyways baby chloe is hard to draw and so is crying WHEN ITS ALL SIMPLE AND TINY#ignore me i just make myself do things the hardest possible way every time#i know the burrow is the same for all rabbit holders but idk. Duvets burrow is all disorganized and chaotic to me
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You know looking back wwx has always been falling. The first time he fell, it was in Lotus Pier after jfm rescued him from the streets. He ran away and climbed that tree after his argument with jc. Jc could not find him. He tried but he himself fell down and got hurt. It was Jiang Yanli who found him. When she convinced him to come down and he jumped trusting her. But she didn't catch him properly. He got hurt.
In his first life Jinag Yanli was the one he loved the most and felt loved by the most. She was the one who was able to get to him in his darkest moments. Despite her obvious love for him she couldn't save him in the end. Even her death - she died protecting him- was futile for in the end he kills himself.
The second time he fell, it was in the burial mounds. Whatever happened there and after that point led to his death. Just like his fall into the burial mounds, where there was no one to catch him and how it was inevitable, his death was also inevitable and he had no one o save him, no one with him in his final moments. He was consumed by resentment as he fell, the same resentment that consumed him as he died.
The last time he falls. It's from the same tree in Lotus Pier. The same place Jiang Yanli failed to catch him. Where she had to convince him that he was safe and it was okay to get down. He jumped from the exact place, reminiscing that event.
This time he jumped willingly, knowing that he will be caught. He knew he was loved and accepted for who he was, he did not need convincing. And guess what? Lwj caught him. Not a scratch on his body.
Where Jiang Yanli failed Lan Wangji succeeded. In the end it was lwj who saved him. It was him who found him. It was him to caught him without a moment of hesitation and held him as though he was precious. He was precious for him. He didn't catch him and let him go immediately. He held wwx for as long as he needed. Just as tight as he needed. He loved him in just the right way.
It took him time. A lot of time to get here. But in the end it was only him who succeeded. It was always him.
In this life or any other, Wei Wuxian is Lan Wangji's. His to hold. His to love.
#i am crying again#Why am I doing this to myself#Mdzs#mo dao zu shi#lan wangji#lan zhan#the untamed#wangxian#wei wuxian#wei ying#These idiots always making me cry#I need Yanli's soup to feel better#I have exams and I need to study and instead I am crying abt these weirdos in love
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One time during their annual leg day, Kwan tried to make Dash do a Bulgarian split squat. Sources say to this day, Dash is still emotionally recovering from the trauma.
#danny phantom#gym bro au#no but for real why do they make the best exercise for knee health the WORST one to do#literally screaming crying throwing up every week when i make myself do my 3 sets#had to up weight recently and wanted to kms
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thinking about captain xiao saying that lu guang treats cheng xiaoshi like a child and qiao ling replying that lu guang is more mature and about how xiaoshi was forced to grow up too fast for his age and take care of himself after his parents had left him so he never got to enjoy his childhood and now with lu guang he can finally allow himself to act childish and carefree without a worry because he trusts lu to always look out for him all the while for the same reasons surely loving the attention and care shown by lu whenever he 'babies' him or scolds him for his brat-ish behaviour
#i think everyone who relates to cheng xiaoshi will understand#im literally the same with my closest persons in my life#thinking about it makes me so sad :')#i love them so much#why do i like to make myself cry#link click#link click 2#link click season 2#shiguang dailiren#shiguang daili ren#shiguang dailiren season 2#lu guang#cheng xiaoshi#qiao ling#xiao
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genuinely crying again they love eachother so much TwT
LOOK AT THE WAY AZIRAPHALE IS LPOKING AT CROWLEY!!1!! I AM SICK!!! I AM DYING!!! THAT IS A MAN WOMAN PERSON NOT PERSON ANGEL THAT IS SO SEVERELY IN LOVE!!!!!
#anyway what im saying is im lonely#i’ll never have anything as good as what they have#why am i genuinely crying over how much they love each other#good omens#good omens s2#crowley#aziraphale#ineffable divorce#ineffable husbands#good omens brainrot#good omens is making me sad again#i need to stop doing this to myself#HOW TO STOP THINKING ABOUT THESE GAYS
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Which miraculous ladybug character would work a minimum wage daycare job with screaming toddlers (asking for a friend)
#miraculous ladybug#marinette dupain cheng#adrien agreste#alya cesaire#nino lahiffe#felix fathom#kagami tsurugi#rose lavillant#juleka couffaine#luka couffaine#nathalie sancoeur#I think the people who are really good at it are those you least expect#I actually think Kagami could be good at it#quote: they are far less complicated than adults#they cry when they’re mad you don’t need to worry that they secretly hate you because they WILL say it to your face#I’m autistic and that’s why I like it#they don’t lie and they don’t have social ques#Nino and Alya are prolly peak#I think Felix would be really good at making them laugh#dancing singing etc#they love watching me make a fool of myself in high definition 4k#Felix would be afraid to raise his voice… even if you kinda have to when the kids are doing smth dangerous. esp if there’s like ten of them#he’s terrified of becoming like his dad even though it’s not REMOTELY similar#I think Adrien would be INCREDIBLY patient#Adrien would be a pushover I fear#I put Rose because I think objectively she’s the correct answer#I think Juleka would hate kids tho#Luka would play his guitar and the kids would love him#Luka would prolly not work there but hed come in once a week for a jam session#Marinette is either really good or really bad
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Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere
Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere
Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere
Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere
Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere
Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere
Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere
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Why did you ..
#sadnees#can you hear me#you broke my heart#this is a cry for help#heart been broke so many times#i still love you#the day i loved you#i loved you#i am in pain#heart break#you broke my fucking heart#heartbreak#heartbroken#please#please please please#please help#denial#hopelessly devoted to you#greif#you’re losing me#losing myself#did you miss me?#i miss him#did you go and make promises you can't keep?#how could i do this to myself#don’t let me down#just why#whyyyy#emotional wounds#spilled emotions
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I take 1d6 psychic damage every second I stay on any social media as a Jew. I'll just be living my life and than I suddenly get reminded of the absurd amount of people who want me and my family dead.
#jewish#judaism#jumblr#if you hear me making noises thats just my 'taking damage' sound#might cry#why am i doing this to myself on shabbos
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I‘m so completely normal about writing this fic that I made a huge ass playlist for it.
As one does.
Yeah, so…I have become a liiiiittle obsessed with Justified over the last months.
Particularly with the mess of a ship that Raylan/Boyd is.
And uhm. I tried not to write about them.
I REALLY FUCKING TRIED.
But that idea stayed stuck in my head and uh, so…I wrote a thing.
The first 5 chapters are finished and I just uploaded the first one at AO3.
Enjoy, I guess? If anyone wants to read this.
You know I won‘t let you get away
SUMMARY:
When Raylan receives a letter from Boyd, everything changes.
Not because it‘s their first contact in years. Not because Boyd tells him he is being released from prison before the end of his sentence. But because Boyd gets out of prison on compassionate release. The coal dust has caught up with him for good, he claims. Raylan isn‘t sure what to believe.
So he has to make sure his favorite criminal really is a dead man walking and not planning one more coup. That‘s all. That‘s why he turns up on his day of release. No other reason.
Ok maybe there is, but neither Raylan nor Boyd want to admit it.
Until they both realize that a ticking clock in the background might just be their last and only chance at a window of togetherness.
(Takes place after the original series finale and ignores primeval)
CN: Cancer, mentions of past violence and murders, mentioned experiences with homophobia, major character death, signs of illness, mentions of medication
#raylan/boyd#boyd/raylan#justified#yes the playlist gets progressively sadder#yes there are a lot of songs about dying in there#because duh#why do I make myself cry#I am an unhinged mess of a fic writer#Spotify
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Aw man...
#Vent incoming wee woo wee woo#Goooood man I feel so. Stressed and anxious cuz of my job#I hate it. I hate trying not to cry every 5 minutes#I hate the feeling in my chest. It's like someone is poking really hard into it#It's almost suffocating#I feel awful. Every little thing makes me angry. I don't want to be angry at ppl who did nothing wrong. I don't want to be like this#I really wish I wasn't like this. Why can't I be more calm and normal#I feel like I need a good cry. But I don't have anywhere to go for that#When I'm at home I don't feel like crying cuz I purposefully distract myself from stress#But I do feel like crying at work#But ofc I can't cry at work#And even at the end of the Day when going home I'm too tired to cry. Plus it would look weird for other ppl walking by...#I hate this. I get all stressed durring work but then I can't let it out#I have work rn. And tomorrow#I'm just gonna have to feel awful until my Days off come#God. I really hate venting. I don't like ppl seeing me like this but. I don't have anything else left to relieve the pain#I just don't know what to do anymore#Where to go#Whatever. This feeling will go away eventually#It will come back ofc#I just wish there was a better way to ease the pain. But again. I don't have a place for that#So I'll just have to seat w these feelings until they go away#I'll try to keep myself distracted. Which will be hard cuz I. Am at work. The place which makes me feel these things in the first place#But whatever! I'll try anyways#I'll look at art. Or I'll think about characters that I like...#Save me fictional characters. Save me!!#Anyways. Vent over 🎉
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