#why do i make myself cry

[lady-charinette]

Since I just finished Kotaro Lives Alone (which destroyed me body and soul), I was thinking about Anya from Spy x Family.

What if Anya also developed survival tactics and unhealthy coping mechanisms while she was passed around from orphanage and family?

What if, even if she doesn't eat tissues like Kotaro, she got addicted to eating peanuts because she found them on the street whenever a family would drop them on their way home from a festival?

What if Anya insists on calling Loid 'papa' and not 'father' is because the 'father' in her life was always a very cold, distant figure that commanded obedience and never cared for her and Anya didn't want to associate Loid with that?

What if, some time down the road, it's revealed that on a subconscious level, Anya loves all things to do with spies and detectives, not only because Loid is a spy, but because detectives solve cases and mysteries, and Anya wants someone to solve the mystery of why no family wanted her longterm before? The mystery of why she got abandoned?

Could Anya's "Starlight" phase and her moments of creativity and independence, the moments where she tries to help Loid fulfill his mission, be because she wants to feel important? Like she plays an active role in bringing success? Because she had so little agency in her own life until now? Was "Let Starlight Anya handle this!" be a indirect coping mechanism of emotionally/physically neglected children to depend and rely on themselves in order not to feel so helpless in their situations?

Will Yor recognize some of Anya's behaviors that don't really add up as suspicious? Because she knew what a well looked after child looked like (even if both Yor and Yuri lost their parents, Yor went above and beyond to ensure Yuri had everything he needed and grew up well even if he grew up into...well what he is now XD)?

Or will neither Loid nor Yor recognize any signs of child neglect in Anya because when they'd been children themselves, they'd been neglected as well, growing up without a family and see themselves in Anya?

[invisible-and-forgivable]

Babes... I'm crying... Neil Gaiman this is your fault 😭❤️‍🩹

[megsdirectionog]

Louis loving us as much as we love him melts my heart so much.

Like he is fully out here showing us his love to a degree other artists don't and I can't cope

[mylifeingotham]

[skywalkr-nberrie]

It honestly makes me cry how Padmé in her dying moments and as she’s giving birth was aching and yearning for Anakin to be by her side. Just as Vader was in anguish and pain, and longing to see Padmé, to know if she’s safe.

In the last scene where she’s giving birth she’s in such a haze due to labor, and in such a state of “heartbreak” that she doesn’t recognize her surroundings and doesn’t even realize that people were beside her because she’s so focused on Anakin (+giving birth ofc) we see it clearly in the ROTS novel

We see here that OW is holding onto Padmé’s hand which he described as being “still and cold” clearly her lack of strength from giving birth, but also because she’s heartbroken and is somewhat becoming numb (as she dies 💔) she’s not at all responsive nor does she react to human contact. Then we see that she’s clearly muddled and completely unaware of her surroundings as it describes that her “eyes rolled blindly” and yet, she’s still thinking of Anakin (as she’s giving birth) when she says what the gender of the baby was, and that Anakin thinks it’s a girl, so Padmé thinks so as well.

Then, despite her lack of strength and motivation, we see Padmé pick up all the strength she has left to reach up to her newborn son, Luke.

After she’s given birth, again all of Padmé’s thoughts just round back to her aching and yearning for Anakin. Once again, not even aware of her surroundings or even able to hear anyone in her vicinity due to how heartbroken she is over losing her husband and this precious moment with him (the birth of their babies) OW clearly tells Padmé that Anakin isn’t there when Padmé calls out to him, yet she can’t hear him, Padmé continues to constantly call out to him, telling him she loves him, and that she’s sorry for the misunderstanding that happened between them (even though absolutely NONE of it was her fault.)

Then we come to this part where it reveals that Padmé with the same hand she touched her new born babies with, was actually clutching onto the Japor Snippet that Anakin had given her this entire time she was giving birth. Part of me believes she was holding onto it as a substitute for Anakin’s hand, hence why she was in such a daze, unable to recognize anyone around her, and kept calling out to Anakin. She desperately wanted him by her side, and holding onto the Japor Snippet was like a solace for her.

It was only in the last minute where the novel describes her eyes to have finally cleared for only a moment, and she recognized OW, and even in that last moment of hers, her thoughts are of only Anakin. And of her undying, unwavering faith, trust, and love for him. Telling OW with full conviction that there is still good inside the man she loves, and she’s putting the very proof of it into his palms 💔

OW shows Yoda the Japor Snippet Padmé put into his hand, and Yoda can immediately tell right away that it was a possession that was precious to Padmé, and that she must’ve cherished it a lot. He suggests that she should be buried with it, and OW taps into the Force at that moment and can also feel the “soaring echos” of the love shared between Anakin and Padmé to which he describes as “transcendent love” and can also feel what he describes as “a bleak, black despair of an unendurable heartbreak” (clearly referring to Padmé.) He agrees that Padmé should also be buried with the Japor Snippet, so that Padmé can at least go away in peace, with a remnant of the man she truly, deeply, loved, still with her.

[carpetbug]

more Duvet brain rot! Gotta have a lie at the ready when you time travel to take care of your literal inner child 🐇

and a bonus

[juthemagicalclown]

thinking about captain xiao saying that lu guang treats cheng xiaoshi like a child and qiao ling replying that lu guang is more mature and about how xiaoshi was forced to grow up too fast for his age and take care of himself after his parents had left him so he never got to enjoy his childhood and now with lu guang he can finally allow himself to act childish and carefree without a worry because he trusts lu to always look out for him all the while for the same reasons surely loving the attention and care shown by lu whenever he 'babies' him or scolds him for his brat-ish behaviour

[no-brain-just-good-omens]

genuinely crying again they love eachother so much TwT

LOOK AT THE WAY AZIRAPHALE IS LPOKING AT CROWLEY!!1!! I AM SICK!!! I AM DYING!!! THAT IS A MAN WOMAN PERSON NOT PERSON ANGEL THAT IS SO SEVERELY IN LOVE!!!!!

[lostmf]

Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere

Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere

Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere

Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere

Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere

Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere

Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere

…

Why did you ..

[hermthejewishwyrm]

I take 1d6 psychic damage every second I stay on any social media as a Jew. I'll just be living my life and than I suddenly get reminded of the absurd amount of people who want me and my family dead.

[abbyholmes]

I‘m so completely normal about writing this fic that I made a huge ass playlist for it.

As one does.

Yeah, so…I have become a liiiiittle obsessed with Justified over the last months.

Particularly with the mess of a ship that Raylan/Boyd is.

And uhm. I tried not to write about them.

I REALLY FUCKING TRIED.

But that idea stayed stuck in my head and uh, so…I wrote a thing.

The first 5 chapters are finished and I just uploaded the first one at AO3.

Enjoy, I guess? If anyone wants to read this.

You know I won‘t let you get away

SUMMARY:

When Raylan receives a letter from Boyd, everything changes.

Not because it‘s their first contact in years. Not because Boyd tells him he is being released from prison before the end of his sentence. But because Boyd gets out of prison on compassionate release. The coal dust has caught up with him for good, he claims. Raylan isn‘t sure what to believe.

So he has to make sure his favorite criminal really is a dead man walking and not planning one more coup. That‘s all. That‘s why he turns up on his day of release. No other reason.

Ok maybe there is, but neither Raylan nor Boyd want to admit it.

Until they both realize that a ticking clock in the background might just be their last and only chance at a window of togetherness.

(Takes place after the original series finale and ignores primeval)

CN: Cancer, mentions of past violence and murders, mentioned experiences with homophobia, major character death, signs of illness, mentions of medication

[sleepymarimo]

why do we love characters so, so much and then imagine them in the most sad, angsty scenarios possible and mull about the pain 😭

[hellofeternty]

ship traumatized me so fucking much that even seeing their signature colors together will instantly make a rope teleport right to my neck

[loverboybrightsideghost]

rqg wilde gravestone that reads "third time's the charm ;)"

[my-maehem]

“I never want to let go…”

“Then don’t… never let go… don’t let me go…”

“Not until we die…”

She’s not dead— I swear it…

I wasn’t initially going to reference the bad ending of the HL story but I was inspired by this post and wanted to make my own ending… so… 👉👈

Context:

The one thing that I was upset about with the choices at the end of the game, was that there wasn’t an option to take the repository with a good purpose.

I believe that my MC would take the repository so that someone similar to Ranrok wouldn’t try and take it again and, you know… destroy the whole school in the process. Hemera is willing to sacrifice herself for the safety of the present and future of the school.

Although she can be a selfish brat person from time to time, she becomes selfless when it comes to others getting hurt.

((Ref))

[sp7-mr]