#These idiots always making me cry

[slytherin1130]

You know looking back wwx has always been falling. The first time he fell, it was in Lotus Pier after jfm rescued him from the streets. He ran away and climbed that tree after his argument with jc. Jc could not find him. He tried but he himself fell down and got hurt. It was Jiang Yanli who found him. When she convinced him to come down and he jumped trusting her. But she didn't catch him properly. He got hurt.

In his first life Jinag Yanli was the one he loved the most and felt loved by the most. She was the one who was able to get to him in his darkest moments. Despite her obvious love for him she couldn't save him in the end. Even her death - she died protecting him- was futile for in the end he kills himself.

The second time he fell, it was in the burial mounds. Whatever happened there and after that point led to his death. Just like his fall into the burial mounds, where there was no one to catch him and how it was inevitable, his death was also inevitable and he had no one o save him, no one with him in his final moments. He was consumed by resentment as he fell, the same resentment that consumed him as he died.

The last time he falls. It's from the same tree in Lotus Pier. The same place Jiang Yanli failed to catch him. Where she had to convince him that he was safe and it was okay to get down. He jumped from the exact place, reminiscing that event.

This time he jumped willingly, knowing that he will be caught. He knew he was loved and accepted for who he was, he did not need convincing. And guess what? Lwj caught him. Not a scratch on his body.

Where Jiang Yanli failed Lan Wangji succeeded. In the end it was lwj who saved him. It was him who found him. It was him to caught him without a moment of hesitation and held him as though he was precious. He was precious for him. He didn't catch him and let him go immediately. He held wwx for as long as he needed. Just as tight as he needed. He loved him in just the right way.

It took him time. A lot of time to get here. But in the end it was only him who succeeded. It was always him.

In this life or any other, Wei Wuxian is Lan Wangji's. His to hold. His to love.

[sleepynegress]

Time for my favorite annual Christmas watch...

[grossillygirl]

i feel stupid and gullible and annoying and rejected and pathetic and silly and like a big inconvenience

[miguel-owhora]

MIGUEL O'HARA MIGUEL O'HARA MIGUEK OHARAHS

[hadrianblackwaters]

!! DRUMINDOR SPOILERS IN TEXT AND TAGS !!

Listening to Drumnidor as a Hadrian girlie is not easy. My god they're assassinating his entire character and taking away his life purpose right in front of us! They're reducing him to a stupid comic relief character with no depth and no real influence on the people around him (to a greater degree than they ever did before) and they're taking away all his greatest achievements and attributing them to someone else to fit the plot! His main character status has been revoked and he's now apparently merely a supporting character in someone else's story. Please, everyone, a moment of silence for my blorbo 😔🙏 Rest in peace mr. Blackwater. At least they let you pull some impressive-arse sword moves, you looked really cool... but I am so sorry they did not let you be a practising hoe in this one 🥀

[hearts-hunger]

might burst into tears at work idk

[clovesnz]

and then clove rambled some more about her personal life

stg this bitch only texts when im literally sitting actively pining for her like it’s getting trippy like is there some kind of gay telepathy happening and if so how does that work when im tragically the only gay one in the equation

[shocked-collar]

scared

[batunatu]

everything ends here

i think i got a 1 in math because i missed the exam today.

fucking subject, everyone understands it except me and i'll have to go in december to waste time with my stupid male classmates to take a subject that i won't understand.

[ohmaggies]

fictional 80s band PoP! save me

[possum-quesadilla]

Blue im gonna im gonna im gonna im gonna im gonna cry

You evil evil person

😭😭😭

At least this isn't the real ending 💀

Yeah, I am pretty evil, hehehe…

Yep, it isn’t the real ending! Although it almost was

[reflectionsofgalaxies]

not to sound like a broken record but i love my friends so fucking much

[straightlightyagami]

you know until relatively recently i thought i'm at least like.. noticeably above average appearance-wise, i took it basically as a given since i was a little kid. but then i realized i'm actually ugly as fuck and nobody would ever pay any attention to me or find me good-looking or hot or whatever and i will be alone forever and die alone. so.

[katyspersonal]

Tumblr sorta needs a 'Mute' feature in my opinion. Like what if I don't want to block this user, what if I don't want to become enemies and in some days I'd like to interact. But also most of the time seeing how they avidly encourage everyone else whereas I get the passive-aggressive 'oh yeah very uhh... interesting... (please leave me alone I don't like your art lol)' makes me want to unfollow every single fan of these characters and never draw them again.

I remember two years ago the exact same thing happened when someone liked the same character and the same ship and I swear I was the only person in the fandom they bluntly left out and could not spare a single good word for. I can't even blame this on my art being "ugly" because this type of user always aggressively praises all art styles and all levels of skill, it feels more like 'a personal thing except we never fought a single time'. And now my toxic trait of needing approval from [cool person name] is back to haunt me years later! Add the unability to "abandon" this character/ship/whatever despite wanting to after facing so much unspoken passive spite, because I am a contrarian and the best way to trap me into doing something is to try to exclude me from it. I didn't face attempts to very aggressively bully me out of the yard/class/community/etc, sometimes with physical violence included, only to let something mid like passive aggression online finally do it.

I am really stupid and naive person despite my age, but in like 5% of the cases I will still understand the hint and understand what is going on. Yet I have to pretend to be clueless even in rare situations when I know someone hates me, because since they never admitted it, quitting will be perceived as me being "paranoid". But dear goooood, it hurts sometimes. I hope that one day I will be numbed to being treated as a tumor on an otherwise healthy body of society that someone is dying to amputate- and always a person whose approval I want, of all people. Knowing that this day will come is one of the things that keep me going as both a person and a creator. Things like viruses and diseases still try their best to persist, so even if I am actually one, I should persist. It doesn't matter whether I actually rot everything around me or this is just my self-depreciating delusion upon focusing on people that mistreated me and not people that loved me. What matters is persisting, I just still feel angry that it hurts. I can't respond spite with spite or passive aggression with passive aggression, I can't do the 'smug asshole' when I become aware that someone tries to starve me until I "die". I can just fall over and cry about it like a kicked dog, despite being so old, especially when it is a person I didn't have anything against.

And really.. It is as simple as turning the internet off, so I don't see The Person and can focus on doing stuff that I like, as if they never existed and can't crash my self-esteem. It is just annoying to keep doing this, a feature to not see them unless I am in the mood would be better. Like.. blocking is not an option. Not only it implies being enemies which is not my intention, but also it will be like an "evidence" that I was "crazy". They didn't do anything, right? Well, they know what they did, but it was never verbal, so it is my fault I "imagined things", right?

[running-in-the-dark]

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[anachronistic-falsehood]

can someone just grab me by the shoulders look me dead in the eye and say “hey you’re doing good. you’re doing your best and that’s all anyone can ask of you. some people just don’t see that and that’s on them not you” CAN SOMEONE JUST DO THAT.